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lover-of-mine · 10 months ago

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Our love's misaligned...

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ahalliance · 1 year ago

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qétoiles n qbagz’ convo about his code arm + fun banter from last sunday :] english subs + transcript below da cut

[Video transcript:

Etoiles: But yesterday when he [Forever] talked to me, he was so frightened, basically he was like, ‘But one day won’t you lose your shit and want to kill the Eggs with the Code, and everything?’ Though I was telling him, ‘But the fact is, I know the Code very well’—

Baghera: Oh, so you told him you joined—?

Etoiles: No, no, no, not at all. It’s just that he has these assumptions that I’m really allied to the Code because—

Baghera: I think it’s due to your Code tattoo, also, it gives off the impression you’re in the process of transforming into a Code, Etoiles, let’s not lie.

Etoiles: That’s it, that’s it. But, basically I told him that I’ve had it since—

Baghera: But you don’t give a shit? You’re taking it well?

Etoiles: Well, yeah, I don’t give a shit because I know he’ll never beat me. Basically I—

Baghera: But you don’t give a shit about the code literally popping up over your body?

Etoiles: Well, yeah, because it’s a part of me now. It’s normal.

Baghera: How?

Etoiles: Well, after— after fighting someone 17 times, you start— you start creating links. But those links—

Baghera: But— you know that’s not how things work. Like— look, we cross paths. Right now we’re crossing paths. You see? We’re crossing paths. I kick your ass. Like, for free. You see? I see you, I’m like, ‘Bro, I don’t like his face,’ so I kick your ass.

Etoiles: But no! Because if you tell me ‘Good fight’ at the end—

Baghera: I see you again— wait, I’m not finished. I see you again like 12 times, and I tell myself, ‘Hey, I’ll do it again,’ I kick your ass again. After a while, Rayou, I won’t get diabetes!

Etoiles: Well, maybe you will, huh.

Baghera: Yes, but it’s not— it doesn’t work, like— there’s no correlation, you see!

Etoiles: You know you won’t have those cells anymore, you know, it’s possible.

Baghera: But— no— what I mean is— Etoiles! That’s now how it works! It’s worrisome! It’s normal for us to worry!

Etoiles: Well, yeah, but, uhhh. Basically, you’re all used to talking with me on the island. And you understand very well that there’s nothing able to corrupt me.

Baghera: That we don’t know, Etoiles! Because— if it’s— I know that your morality, and your enormous brain, and your big body, won’t get corrupted. But if there’s suddenly— well, what I mean is that we don’t know what all the possible systems of manipulation on the island are.

Etoiles: It’s true. No, it’s true. But for the moment I’m doing well.

Baghera: Yeah, well, so much the better. But—

Etoiles: For the moment I’m doing well!

Baghera: If you feel any change, Etoiles, mention it, okay?

Etoiles: Oh, I’ll talk about it. But for the time being I’m doing very well.

Baghera: So I can understand peoples’ fear upon seeing you LITERALLY transform into a Code and who tell themselves, ‘Oh, strange, maybe there’s a thing with the Codes.’

Etoiles: It’s true but who can better know the dangers of the Code than someone who’s confronted it his whole life? Instead of someone who—

Baghera: I’m well aware.

Etoiles: No but it’s— it’s— it’s for that reason that I told Forever. I totally understand the fear and everything, it’s normal. You see a dude turning into a Code, you ask yourself, ‘What’s the guy who sent him doing?’

Baghera: Well, yeah, there you go.

Etoiles: Like, ‘Who sent him?’

Baghera: But you don’t feel any different? Nothing?

Etoiles: Absolutely not, no. Everything is going well. I still hate the Code whenever I see him, I still want to kick his ass. Everything’s fine. Even if right now I want him—

Baghera: But you join up with them when he suggests it, yeah. Well, it’s to get the shield back.

Etoiles: It was just for the shield, believe me. Believe me, if I run into them again- if I run into them again and they don’t offer me things to save the Eggs and everything, it’s goodbye. And considering what I’ve prepared— considering what I’ve prepared, I objectively think that 5 Codes won’t be enough to kill me. There’ll need to be 10 of them.

Baghera: They might bring 10, huh.

Etoiles: Yeah, well, then again, we have time.

Baghera: Well, in any case, they don’t want to kill you anymore since you’re working with them.

Etoiles: Well, in fact, we’re not really— actually— I don’t really know what he’s thinking. Because the last time we talked I told them, ‘But if you lay even a finger on the Eggs, I’ll kick your fucking asses, you sacks of shit.’ And they left, and they didn’t answer me.

Baghera: Then again, they’re a bit cryptic, the Codes, you know.

Etoiles: Yeah, but normally they— I managed to talk with them a bit, so— so I don’t know. Personally, I’m telling you—

Baghera: Okay, no, what I mean is that I understand why when people see you they think, ‘Maybe it’s possible he’s getting a little bit corrupted by the Codes.’

Etoiles: No but yeah, yeah, I totally get it. But honestly, never. Never in a million years.

Baghera: I believe you! I trust you. But if there’s— if once you feel any difference or something of the sort, you mention it, okay? To whomever you want, but you mention it.

Etoiles: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (10000x)

Baghera: You know you’re not very reassuring when you say that, as an answer.

Etoiles: That’s true. But I’m telling you there’s no problem. And— actually. The moment I start feeling strange, I’ll put numbers. And so you’ll have to come get me.

Baghera: Okay, okay. I’ll remember that.

Etoiles: Just that. But I— I— yeah. I whisper in the Code’s ear.

Baghera: The day you start talking to me in binary, there’ll be an issue, basically.

Etoiles: The day I say, ‘10001’, that’s it. But actually, I’m telling you, I could never be corrupted because I have AVAST, my wool block which blocks viruses.

Baghera: That’s real, that’s real.

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#qsmp #etoiles #baghera jones #étoiles #jay clips #jay rambles #8/10/2023 #please reblog this it took so long .#my fault for thinking transcribing and subtitling a 4min clip was a smart idea tho tbf #lmk if there’s any like . orthography errors in the transcript or whatevs i’ll correct em #i clipped this from étoiles pov but bagz’ pov was so fucking good too #the absolute side eye she gave him as he said the code ‘was a part of him now’ 😭 love the energy #these clips r just gonna serve as her I TOLD YOU SO evidence if smth happens #^ see idk if he’s actually gonna get corrupted (cubito’s chad enough to stave it off let’s be fr)#but i think it’s more of a question of whether the admins (and étoiles) will be able to resist the call of dramatic irony #bc it would be so good LMAO #anw shoutout to the part where he says ‘j’ai envie de lui [le Code]—‘ (I want him [the Code]—‘)#im well aware he just cut himself off before finishing his sentence but ty for furthering the codetoiles agenda king i appreciate it #saying ‘en ce moment j’ai un peu plus envie de lui’ about the Code is CRAZY kabdisdbsidjs

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starry-bi-sky · 10 months ago

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honestly your dpxdc clone au gives me life, its adorable as all hell and im a sucker for found family but with that being said, its so freaking hysterical to me that Danny is going full feral liminal menace at Wes any time hes near and Wes himself is still 100% into it the freak (affectionate) and thats not even pointing out the paralles it could possible create since danny and dames gives massive parallels to dick and damian and dick does have a thing for redheads.

yeesSSSSS! I was planning on hoarding this to myself but i can't not reply. and i'll be able to find this again with the clone^2 tag so win WIN. i'm so glad you are as delighted by this as me. It's so hilarious to me that Danny just becomes a complete freak whenever he spots Wes, and I'm the one who wrote it into existence. Like- like i don't know how to explain my vision in words but like, its like Danny sees Wes and immediately goes 'what can I do to make his day worse'. And then he goes and does it.

(honorary read more because i talk a lot)

He's relatively normal around his friends too, which makes him going full-fledged unhinged around Wes even funnier to me. Like, Danny will spout weird shit sometimes to Sam and Tucker, but usually its prefaced with him talking about patrol or there would be context before he said anything. With Wes? Though?? he will just. say anything, completely unprompted. Slings an arm around his shoulder like they've been buddies since primary school and then spits out a weird new fun fact he learned about the bodily anatomy while researching his latest cold case. All vaguely-threatening but utterly insane things to say as way to start a conversation.

And sometimes its not even that, he'll walk up to Wes and ask him if he saw the latest daytime fight between Phantom and Skulker. And then he'll say "yeah i missed it myself but I saw clips of it being posted online" and then watch Wes mentally explode him with his mind. or he'll disparage Phantom for having such a young partner with him, "Can you believe he'd let a kid fight ghosts with him? I'd never let my brother ghosthunt with me if I was Phantom."

All of this with such a deceptive look on his face but the most delighted, shit-eating gleam in his eyes. Wes is chewing glass and he wants to yell that he does let his brother fight ghosts with him. Also you told him yourself that nothing would've stopped your demonic (Wes' words) little brother from joining you.

Damian gets in on the fuckery occasionally, but since he's not around often with Wes about, it doesn't happen nearly as often as it does between Wes and Danny. Sam and Tucker know he's screwing with him too, and both of them are a little wary about him being careless with his secret id. But he's been doing this since he was 14-ish and it hasn't backfired yet. So. They're not actively stopping him.

Danny walks back to his lunch table after terrorizing Wes and Tucker just asks him what he said, because Wes was about as red as a tomato when he walked away. Danny offhandedly sighs and innocently says he tried to have a conversation about Phantom with him. Wes didn't seem to like it all that much. Weird.

And yes, yes. Wes is totally into it and is slightly enraged about this fact, because not even he knows why he's into it. The freak (affectionate). Danny gives him this troublemaker smirk, and i did say smirk, and Wes doesn't know whether or not if he wants to smack him or kiss him. Or both. Like, yeah, pine, white boy, pine.

(And this is a dramatized image but I'm also highly entertained by the idea that Wes keeps getting routine dirty looks from various peers because they, too, have a crush on Fenton. Except Fenton doesn't talk to anyone else unless its his friends and sometimes Valerie, and Weston, the guy who keeps accusing him of being the local vigilante, is somehow routinely having conversations with him?? And BLOWING IT?? Like everyone else thinks he's fumbling so bad, and yet fenton keeps tALKING to him.)

And yes!! i'm always so pleased whenever someone brings up the parallels D+D have to Dick and Damian, because that was lowkey my intention when I was making the solo clone damian au. Although it was supposed to be more implied since I don't really know much about Damian and Dick other than they're very close and Dick was Damian's Batman for a year. And then of course the very smaller parallel (??) 'what if' between Bruce and Damian and D+D in clone^2 considering who they are both clones of.

And man this just makes me want to talk about when batfam meet D+D because I just want them to see D+D be so brotherly towards each other. Like I want them to see Bby Dames wearing his goofy fun fact shirts and stealing Danny's hoodies/flannels/etc and blatantly lying about it when Danny asks. Only for Danny to then throw him over his shoulder like Tadashi from BH3 and jump around.

And also. I do not know what Damian Wayne's (DW as I'll call him) stance on being called "Dami" is - the general consensus I've seen is that its usually used as a playful nickname in order to get a rise out of him, and he doesn't really like it.

But baby Dames being called that freely, and often, and its sometimes used to get a rise out of him but thats typically what nicknames do. Its used as easily as his full name is with the same amount of affection. And its like his main go-to nickname. "Dami" and "Dames" with the occasional "Bud/Buddy", "Squirt", "Little man", etc. Not once is he ever called 'demon-spawn'

(which i know is a fanon nickname but its a relatively popular nickname)

but yeah, uhhh. i think thats all of my thoughts on the matter. for now lmAO

#danny fenton is not the ghost king #clone^2 #i use 'like' so much its not even funny jhdf but it just puts an emphasis on the sentence #honorary read more tag bc damn i talk a lot #i should make a post about danny's relationship with red huntress in the clone^2 au because i like to imagine that's different too #anyways danny and wes' dynamic in clone^2 brings me a lot of joy. they get stuck in a room together and danny gets the biggest grin ever #and wes stares at him before going completely deadpan 'im in hell'. he's being dramatic and only slightly for real.#also im not sure WHAT damian does - honestly the most extreme thing i can think of is him breaking into wes' house and threatening him #but wes has called him danny's 'demonic little brother' ever since. sOMEbody has to give him his 'demon' nickname its just not gonna be #danny or jazz who do it. anyways damian fully supports messing with wes and anyone else who has a crush on danny

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forbiddenpurplesoda · 7 months ago

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i am excited to see how they progress thaddeus' condition as his ghoulification gets more severe, they cant NOT show us losing his nose

#my man is gonna fucking sneeze his nose off im calling it now #that or we have a dramatic sad scene of coop losing his nose but season two will give us a nose scene for sure #i also refuse to acknowledge the possibility of him going feral hes just a silly little guy #thaddeus fallout #fallout prime #fallout show #fallout spoilers

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drumlincountry · 4 months ago

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Sometimes caring So Much feels like a curse in this cruel world. but sometimes it allows me to connect with other people who also care A Lot and together we actually are able to make a difference. And that is literally the best feeling in the entire world.

#i'm just some woman with a committee addiction. pay it no mind.#This is a post about an injustice you've probably never heard of. it reflects larger injustices but this particular one impacts <100 ppl #A few weeks ago i realised that if i couldn't do something about this one...it would change me forever.#I couldn't not TRY to do something. Obviously. but also if my efforts had no impact? it would ruin my life. a bit.#after weeks of teeth gritting work and looking into several more weeks of it to come I'm going to take a moment to pause and say:#we're getting somewhere. we're really getting somewhere.#ugh i sound so dramatic. I guess it is dramatic. but w/e #im not gonna talk about local politics & organising because im not an idiot #but the siren call of posting ...!#causes me to say vague shit that sounds so much more dramatic than if I just. told u what im up to.#most of which is having hour long phone conversations with my mother where one of us is crying #and sending lots of texts #and BEING IN A UNION. EVERYONE JOIN A UNION.#me fein

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kyeomssant · 1 year ago

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we had bury your gays in a time called you and now 'villian is gay' as a plot twist which ( while so fucking unserious, like im laughing my ass off rn ) im taking as a (somewhat) sign off progress bc we had queer main charcters in mainstream shows. So, like this is how it started in the west and then evolved into us getting actual queer main character who had nothing that tragic happen to them. So, its the same thing thats gonna happen here right.... right? *nervous laugh*

#my lovely liar #it was the gays all along lmfao #like my mans was suspicious from when he said congrats and solhe heard it as a lie #but come on #thought he was being protective of his artists but ahshhddj #im laughing my ass off rn #its hilarious and also not #also deukchan closing his eyes while driving had me crackling #one thing abt us gays is that we love being dramatic #a time called you #also dont take this whole thing i said seriously #i had a few shots of tequila despite telling hope im never gonna drink again #and so now my brains not braining

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 5 months ago

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whump episode of all time look at this poor baby

#whump episode of all time until vanquishers that is #anyway i think postpotd when yaz has moved into the doctors house being sick is totally one of the ways she asks for attention #like she figures out that pretty reliaby if somethings wrong with her the doctor will be all over her #so if she starts to feel a bit lonely and abandoned and neglected among all the family and companion extended family #shes like hm. minor illness time #not that she'd be dramatic abt it. she wouldnt be obvious abt it #she would i think even hide it a little bit. just enough to make the doctor notice shes a bit off #she'dbe like no im fine its fine dont worry abt it #but you know. once he knows smths wrong hes not gonna let it go and she knows that too so thats how she hooks him #and then shes like the centre of his attention for a week or so and thats enough for the next couple of months #she /is/ a little bit master-y after all #and he /is/ still called the doctor. 'how else would i get your attention?'#how else but giving yourself a little food poisoning.or going swimming in winter and get hypothermia. or jump out of a tree and break an ar #how else #ive got so many headcanons #secret slightly fucked up yasmin who lives in my head <3

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obeetlebeetle · 5 months ago

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ok first week of four tens is over...... My back and shoulders hurt so bad I started crying earlier, we had 1-2 security incidents every day and two bad closings in a row (single staffed bc one person has to leave before closing to start project work) (said project work is what is killing my back and also shoulders) PLUS I gotta do all my regular tasks and not let my work fall behind. which it did a little bit this week. I am so fucking TIRED

#PLUS roommate of three years moving out PLUS new roommate current lease is almost up PLUS we have been waiting for a week on our apt app #to go thru.yall #the property manager called my MOM. if we dont get it im gonna scream.#all this and im supposed to be able to react well to social change in my environment? help #ok. sorry it'll all be literally fine i just have to be dramatic first #etc etc

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eurydicees · 9 months ago

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hi there! welcome to today's daily lesson in how to use ao3! your public ao3 bookmark notes and tags are, in fact, public. and the author is capable of seeing them!

some discussion questions to consider:

is posting a literal numerical rating and judgement the most polite thing you could put into this public note that the author can see?

is it possible to, while online, perhaps keep your judgement either to yourself or to your private bookmarks?

is posting a note explaining what you didn't like about the fic something that you are required to do, or is it possible to not do that?

#ao3 #ao3 stuff #internet etiquette #was gonna feel bad abt calling someone out but if you numerically rate every fic you read then you have to handle me being mad abt it <3 #not gonna post the pseud but. still.#and like im not being dramatic. this guy rates every fic from 1-10 and then bookmarks with that number. almost 200 get less than 6.#anyways dude that's crazy and just straight up rude behavior !!!!#not to be mean but shut up! if you don't like the fic just click away and move on!#you don't gotta write how awful it is in the bookmark notes!

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lover-of-mine · 5 months ago

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Okay I made this post, drafted this post, deleted this post, made it again, deleted it again, but I need to say it, you guys do know you don't need to add "I love bt but" "Tommy can be Buck's endgame but" "I'm not leaving the bt but" "don't worry I still love bt but" to the buddie edits you decide to reblog, right? If it's not about the triangle, why are we bringing bt into the mix for no reason other than to justify still enjoying the non canon ship? Shipping a non canon ship is half the fandom experience and maybe I'm being touchy but I legit wanna block some people because it kills my vibe to open my notifications to a bunch of "I love bt" in my buddie stuff. Why are we still justifying shipping either? I know for the most part people don't have bad intentions but waxing poetics about a ship that's not displayed in a set to justify reblogging it is weird. You can ship both. It's okay. But you guys are killing my vibe here.

#im gonna get called dramatic again #but legit lately reading Tommy's name is leaving a bitter taste in my mouth #because of the amount of attacks ive read that start with his name #i dont wanna block someone for a minor offense like this but im stressed #thoughts thoughts thoughts

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triglycercule · 2 months ago

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murder time trio come back from killing some guy (me) and dust just pulls out a rainbow cleaning duster and starts dusting himself off. horror questions him. he says it's self care

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tommygotwrittenoff · 3 months ago

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i need eddie to get another guy friend in season 8, and buck loses his shit about it (again), so he breaks up with t because he's convinced that the weird feeling he gets when he sees them together is because he is Really attracted to the new guy.

#like things with t are fine cuz he likes exploring this new side of himself even if t doesnt always match his energy but whatever its fun #and maybe at work chim is the one who brings up eddies new friend and he is immediately just. what new friend?#chim laughs and says. tbf last time eddie got a new friend you attacked him so you could date his friend. hes probably keeping it to himsel #and bucks like. dude what. that was. yeah it was shitty of me but it was a one time thing. i wont do it again...#and when eddie shows up for shift buck immediately asks about his new friend and eddie tells him about the guy without hesitation #after shift tho buck is like. why didnt you tell me about him? after t i get why you dont want to but im just. you dont have to worry man.#buck. i know. im not worried. anyway he and i are gonna head to a bar to catch the game. you want to come with? you can bring t if hes free #oh. thats. thatd be okay? i dont want to idk ruin the vibe by bringing a date #nah man. itll be fine #and so he and t go to the bar and eddies already inside with the new friend and its Fine. its Great actually because t gets along with eddi #and the new guy and the new guy makes eddie laugh and doesnt miss a beat and knows more about the teams record this season than buck and #buck is doing Fine. this guys smile is big and his eyes are bright and when he laughs he sorta leans into eddies space alittle and its Fine #the night ends and buck and t go back to his apartment and buck cant stop thinking about that guys hand when it clapped down on eddies #shoulder or the look on his face as he teased eddie about the beer he drinks (cuz its kinda bad but only buck can say that) and buck Cant.#he wants that guy. he wants his hands and grin and teasing voice all to himself and not on eddie.#so he breaks up with t and ts confused af cuz i thought things were going good?#yeah. i just. i want to explore my options yk now that ive uh figured out i like men.#and its a clean break. not dramatic or messy. t tells him to call if he every changes his mind. buck wont.#bucks trying to not pry about eddies new friend and he doesnt grill eddie or anyone and just waits and listens to all the new info he gains #and eventually eddie invites him out to watch another game because whatever team they were watching made it to the playoffs #and when he gets there eddies like. no t tonight?#nah we. uh. we broke up.#eddie says sorry man that sucks. and the new guy is like. honestly he didnt even seem that into you which what an idiot. youre great.#and its good because the new guy splits his attention between the two of them now. eddie isnt the only one getting hands and grins and eyes #and the third time theyre at the bar the guy follows him to bathroom and kisses him hard against the door before pulling back with a #panicked sorry and leaving and when buck finds eddie after hes like. what happened? new guy ran out of here without even saying goodbye #he kissed me in the bathroom. i think uh. i think he was kinda freaking out about it and thats why he left.#and eddie just blinks at him before being like. buck. buck you said you werent going to do this again.#i didnt mean to! and buck means it. he just saw the way that guy made eddie laugh and put his hands on eddie and had eddies attention and #oh.

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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red-eft · 1 year ago

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most alarming thing to hear at night: random thud from quemada's terrarium. ms. girl some of us r trying to sleep

#txt #quemada #i was sleepy and it woke me all the way back up pfft. i guess ms. girl was climbing and fell #she's fallen before and the farthest she can fall isn't very far so i know she's fine fortunately #but like. phew. scary to hear that in a dead silent room at midnight wbsndkf..#been calling her ms. girl bc thats what my roommate likes to call her. i find it so amusing for no reason #i also call her madamada (friend nicknamed her) + quemie (i came up w that one)#plus The Beast (must be said in a dramatic voice) and babygirl #she's so baby. i love her so much. i cant wait for her tk grow big and strong #im so excited i'm gonna upgrade her to a (hopefully bioactive) 40gal breeder once i get out of the dorms in may next year #and then if she gets really hugelarge and/or extremely active (she's already rly active tbh) then evenrually.. a 4x2x2 #gonna grow all kinds of desert plants and have some grand canyon isopods maybe #but anyways. i love quemada and i still can't believe how lucky i am to have her in my life. weh.#holy shit this got long. goodnight wbsbdjf..

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alaskan-wallflower · 9 months ago

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#vent #like i know i shouldnt have made the jokes because that gave them permission to #but it was funny at first #and now i can’t make a single mistake or say anything without hearing the ‘oH yOuRe bLiNd UoUr OpInIoN iS iNvAlId”#i don’t mean to sound like a pussy but it hurts after a bit #i skipped going to volunteering for nearly a week because of it #i lied and said i was sick #but like i laughed at the jokes and i style try yo #but i know it’s gone too far to a point where if i say smth to them they’re just gonna scrutinize me for it #and tell me im looking for smth to complain about #but they got these seven year old children to start making fun of me #and i know it was my fault #but it’s just fucking miserable at this point #i hate saying it’s bullying because i feel like it’s not and i don’t wanna sound dramatic #and ig it’s not bullying #but it’s just annoying at this point #and i hate calling it ableism because i feel like my blindness doesn’t count as a disability #and people start babying me when i call it that #ig it counts as one because i’ll start getting state funds for it soon #but idk #i dunno im just so sick of it #i wish someone would stick up for me #because it’s not funny anymore #it just hurts #i sound like a pussy

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x-crowmancer-x · 6 months ago

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Oh god they're gone they're actually gone

Q!Philza is gone

Chayanne and Tallulah are gone.

I'm glad they're together but they're still gone

:(

Everyone is gone. All the eggs.. the sweet little guys are.. just not there anymore. I feel like this is the end. It's all ending and crumbling and it's so sad because I still care so much. Theyve been such a comfort family to me and I know it isnt real, they're characters played by people acting. But for 4-5 hours every VOD I got to be in the POV of a family that really love each other. They were silly and listened to each other and gave up a lot for eachother. They would do anything to keep eachother safe, our brave little warriors with Technoblade watching over them. And then that happy little family got a happily ever after together into the unknown.

But I'm still here.

It's not any of their faults, it's no ones fault at all. I'm always sad when people have to leave, I fear they're also leaving me behind too. And when they say they'll be back I wait for them. I wait and wait and grow so so tired of waiting for something, but nothing. (Tallulah just like me fr damn) Then I meet other people and I'm so sure this time they wont have to go.

I hope they think to take me with them if they do, like Chayanne and Tallulah.

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