#im doing better now away from them

[arcd-down]

god i really hope they leave me alone

[ricky-mortis]

Curtwen Week Day 7: First Meeting/Last Words

[dukeofthomas]

why does every reconciliation fic go like this

[avocado62524]

[bogkeep]

new characters i finally got around to designing...! prince Larkspur (he/him + any) and his knight Dor (she/her + whatever) because i wanted some really genderfuckery characters to play around with.

idk what's going on in their story but i imagine they travel together on some kind of undercover quest. prince larkspur is more than happy to play the part of a lady and most people can't tell that dor is a woman and she can't be bothered to correct them. i'm pretty sure they've got a mutual pining thing going on that they're very stupid about.

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

not me immediately getting jude from this

who did you guys get? 👀

[selunesfavouriteprincess]

I can’t even lie over time this pathetic little elf has grown on me and now I really like her as a character. she’s SUCH a loser. and someone said that she should’ve been recruitable instead of Halsin after uncovering the Shadow Druid plot and she could’ve had a redemption arc and now I can’t stop thinking about that alternate reality

[virsancte]

good days aren't easy to come by

[tangledinink]

I can imagine the first cycle after moving. Probably Leo because Donnie likely has internal scarring, so leo goes through the process of laying his eggs, panics, his brother can't help, and finally, *finally* they ask for help. It's not willingly. It's not for fun. It's purely necessity. It's purely because there's *literally noone else* and the idea of telling anyone at all is so scary that the way they do so is in a note. Splinter sits them down and basically walks them through "You're safe, you're fine. We can handle this however you feel most comfortable, including getting you both on blockers if you prefer" and they just.... sigh. For the first time, there's *someone else* in their circle, and it's willing and it's warm, and it's *safe*. There will be tears.

Yes, except I'm not convinced that either of them could stand to tell anyone. Even if it was literally life or death (which it has been before,) I'm not sure if either of them could bear to give up that information. Donnie is finally, finally away from the people who hurt him when he got found out last time, and even though logically, he knows that it's different here, he's absolutely petrified of the thought that the same thing will happen again and it won't be over anymore. He's still horrified by the idea of anyone else knowing about Leo when he's gone to such lengths for so long to protect him, and Leo is likewise terrified in the same way. They've spent years with this being their more closely guarded secret, and that's going to be really difficult to give up.

But it's really not a secret they'll be able to keep for long.

They're in a completely different environment, with far less space and privacy. They're both stressed as hell and Donnie WAS on birth control and taking all sorts of vitamins and supplements to make sure he didn't eggbind again and now he's suddenly not and it's not only messing with his body, it's fucking scary. It literally keeps them both up at night. Neither of them know how to wash blood out of clothes or sheets. There's no private en suite bathroom they can sequester themselves away in. They're both literally making themselves sick with anxiety trying to deal with this, and they're used to handling this on their own, this is routine for them, but they're not used to all of this.

They'd probably metaphorically limp through a few cycles before their family puts it together and gently confronts them.

Venus probably figures it out first. She's pretty smart, and incredibly observant, and after all-- she quite literally experiences the exact same thing. April may not lay eggs, but I think she'd be able to get the idea after a bit as well. And while I think Splinter would realize something was wrong pretty quickly, Draxum would probably realize what was wrong first. Splinter has April, so he has a little bit of experience in this realm, but Draxum has Venus and so he has far more experience.

And so when they do sit them down and talk with them, it's going to be really scary at first. And then they get to, "you're safe, you're fine, we can handle this however you feel the most comfortable. It will be okay. No one will hurt you."

And then there's finally other people in the know, in the circle, people who will actually help them. And yes-- there will definitely be tears.

[masterfuldoodler]

If half alive has 1000 fans I am one of them. If half alive has 1 fan, I am that fan

[dangans-ur-ronpas]

doodle page of some hxh and some tonaegiri (and meeee <33)

close ups under cut

+ the original reference for the cunty togiri pose

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

(continue in tags)

[lighthouseas]

alright friends i'm not gonna lie i wouldn't mind if the byler kiss had will leaning in first. or like. will kissing mike first on impulse during a heated moment. and then he regrets it immediately after because he thinks mike doesn't reciprocate (even though he obviously does) because mike just stands there for a second like 🧍🏻‍♂️ before swooping in to kiss will back

[theygender]

This is your sign to get back into playing that video game that you love but put down a long time ago and never picked back up again for no discernable reason

[chirpycloudyrobin]

oh beefleaf my beefleaf 🥺 i have AU thoughts for my beloveds

specifically, (assumed) unrequited beefleaf where shi qingxuan wrangles the cosmos (dont ask how) into letting him find he xuan's reincarnated family so he could reunite them as a way of apologising

but wait !! theyre in trouble ?? of course shi qingxuan is going to help them ! he owes them that much

and he knows he has absolutely zero rights still harbouring feelings for he xuan but he can't help it ! hes been pining for centuries and one does not simply let go of a century of feelings

but- but- wouldn't it be easier if he lets go ? again, what right does he have feeling this way for he xuan ? and besides, he and miao-jiejie are so different from face to mannerisms to ambitions.. everything ! and miao-jiejie will be back in he xuan's life soon too. what chances did shi qingxuan even have ? did he even have one, when he xuan had secretly hated- LOATHED his entire being the whole time ?

feelings hurt hmm... anyways...

maneuvering events while in the throes of a great heartbreak is no easy feat ! oh no, is he getting attached to them ? are they getting attached to him too ? does this count as stealing from he xuan again ?

shi qingxuan should speed up his mission. and he does. and his mission ends happily of course ! one happy little He family reunited at long last

well, he's got no place there. byebye now !

except. hmm.

did everyone (read: shi qingxuan) conveniently forget that he xuan's family now lead their own lives ? that they may have the memories from before but theyre now virtually new people ?

the reunion didnt end with "and they all lived happily under one roof ever after". the reunion, instead, ended w promises to visit. promises to make up for lost time. promises to introduce their new families to he xuan.

he xuan and miao-jiejie loved each other once. they love each other still, but it's nostalgia-flavoured now. and they get their closure, ofc they did. did you know miao-jiejie got asked out a while ago ? funny how the universe worked like that

so he xuan got the closure he deserved after so long. his family are living happier lives and he gets to see it and be part of it. he has mourned them and he has avenged them and their future remains bright. he should be able to move on to the reincarnation cycle now, right ?

right ... ?

[vaugarde]

pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character