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"You could recite their lines perfectly for them" yeah? Well they can, too
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#isat#in stars and time#siffrin isat#loop isat#art#fanart#kitscribbles#i had a whole lot of tags for this but forgot One image and panicked and deleted the whole thing lmao#the sound of hysterical laughter from people(person plural) who spend too much time laughing at their own jokes and also miss their familie#they are all suffering from Sif's desperation-fueled decisions#this feels like an idiot plot. youve heard of that surely#best explanation i can come up with is that each siffrin is a little bit different from the previous. make different decisions#not that anyone knows what to do#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#alternate universe shenanigans? or just timeline-altering wish shenanigans? idk whats gonna happen to all these loops when resolution comes#youve heard of sifloop now get a load of this. Loooop#tfw the loops all ask sif who he thinks they are and he's like. well youre definitely not my family#and theyre. kind of hurt when he puts it like that actually. ow?#isat full cast au
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Is this too niche?
#“i havent read the book but i think this too” NO YOU DONT KNOW THE DEPTHS OF HOW ETHEL CAIN CODED HE IS UNTIL YOUVE SUFFERED THROUGH TVA#the vampire armand#anne rice#armand#the vampire chronicles#interview with the vampire#ethel cain
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The type of Christian who asks atheists how they don't like, murder people on the reg are so funny to me because they seem to think their religion makes them the Peak of Morality when statements like "if you don't believe in God how comes you don't do X thing" all but outright state they have no idea why shit like murder and rape is bad except that God doesn't like it lmao. Like way to admit you have no intrinsic sense of morality and need to be afraid of a higher power to be a decent person, but I promise if you're not a piece of shit it's actually very natural not to want to do heinous evil shit all the time potential punishment from a higher power or not 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
#winters ramblings#seriously its SO funny when that happens because every time its like ??? the FUCK kind of thoughts do you have#to ask HOW i resist doing evil shit all the time because i dont fear god because i dont believe in God??#what kind of fucked up person do you haveto be to only resist killing people because of fear of a higher power??#these are people to avoid because typically they also come with the issue of using their religion to make any action they want#perfectly Good and Moral because GOD said it its in the BIBLE whether thats true or not and like bible or no#if you have no intrinsic sense of morality i dont want to hear about atheist morality from you lmao#not that athiests lack issues i swear to god white dudes who evangelize atheism like its their new religion#have WILDLY missed the point and often suffer the same problem as the aforementioned Christians#wherein the onky thing thats ever given them any kind of pushback is the church so they decide RELIGION is horrible and bad as a whole#which isnt true religion can be a perfectly lovely amazing thing for people but that brand of atheist#doesnt seem to understand that people turned away from the church because of wide spread abuse and discrimination not because#believing in god makes you literally mentally ill like some of these fuckos act like. abelist AND shite to religious folks in one fowl swoop#so you know atheists have problems too but like they arent making laws in their beliefs images across the world so you know#temper the criticism with how influential the group actually is although richard dawkins types DID get a lot of space to spew their idiocy#like dawkims if you think youre SOOOO much smarter than christians how come you have ALL the same misogyny problems??#youre not that smart and logical if youve decided a whole kind of person is inherently less than you buddy. in fact thats very Christian#of him actually. funny when that happens but again if you dont actually know WHY something is a problem#its very easy to say Thats Bad and then literally do the exact same thing you just condemned because when YOU do it its no longer bad#because its got YOUR flavor of fucked up morality on it now instead of being like hmm maybe Christianity isnt a problem#because it EXISTS but because a lot of people use their religion as a pointed barb to discriminate against huge swaths of people#and often the intolerance becomes a legal issue when Christians and other religious majorities shove through laws based on EXCLUSIVELY their#religions and opinions and that doesnt mean religion should be dismantled it means we ahould tell religious folk who would know what#morality was if it fucked them up the ass to shut up and figure out what morality is outside of rekigion before they start legislating about#it and whatnot. also i wish extreme opinions werent ALL the news focused on exclusively on the political right#can we platform some NORMAL well adjusted christians who are god loving AND not a bunch of wingnuts#who are two steps away from arguing thou shall not kill only applies to people they LIKE because they dont seem to understand#maybe murder is bad when EVERYONE does it not just The Bad People??!?!
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preemptively sorry for how fucking long this is it is YOUR FAULTT THOUGH!!!! large bowl of seeds for u. it is almost 2am sorry.
SO. there are. two ways to assign the prime defenders powers etc. the first way is just, like, categorize their existing powersets within the prt framework, & the second is to give them entirely new abilities based on the way worm works. delightfully, all the powers they Do have work really well for the most part, so even that doesn't require a ton of shuffling.
categorizing their pre-existing powers:
wiwi-- breaker w/ a shaker subclass. neither of them rated very high, but that's already a rare and versatile enough combination!!
dakota-- brute babeeeey!!! brute/mover its so straightforward. hell yeah babey. i don't know what he'll end up looking like post-heart removal & stuff but my guess is that'll end up looking more like a mover/striker.
vyncent-- now THIS one gave me trouble. i... hm. to say this without talking about stuff that i don't think has come up much already, (hey!! you're at that clockblocker pov! directly related to what flechette says!) i'd call him a grab-bag cape, irt the greats at least. post-greats-- again, i don't know what his powerset will look like after this arc! but if he's going all in w/ the fire magic, that would for sure be some striker shit! :]]]
giving them new powers... man i'm reining myself in so hard from five more paragraphs on Why exactly i'm saying all this.
wiwi still breaker for sure, maybe breaker-master, maybe master-stranger. yknow. powers are fluid, the prt categories are pretty rigid. i... don't know. enough about his situation yet to be clearer than that vague idea yet-- i really like the idea of him just. ditching his body & using a noncorporeal form but he still has to keep an eye on his body i think that's great. the noncorporeal form would b able to change its visibility but still b limited by proximity to the body. & fluctuating energy shit powered by fluctuating amounts of recent-death in the area, maybe probably also limited in that it's only accessible in his breaker form.... also i think u will appreciate this style note from the [UNNAMED PARAHUMANS TTRPG] i'm referencing a lot here.
dakota--in this situation he probably would not. have that mechanical heart and shit. he' would still be a mover/thinker-- thinker rating is for faster mental processing + senses imminent pain for the people in his immediate vicinity. not danger, just pain; it immediately registers ambiently & can be generally traced back to whoever it is. no he can't turn it off ever, it manifests as feeling a similar level of pain, yes it works on himself. + mover-- he can fucking fly. no super strength, just very fast flight & the general "won't splat himself flying into something" capabilities, which meshes well w/ the faster processing & reflexes. i'm split on how exactly this would work mechanically but i will NOT go into that now. i am also not going into the 15k discussion in my brain on why dakota 'notoriously bad at thinking about things' cole would be a thinker but u gotta trust the process ok??
vyncent-- trump!!!! somehow this is the only straightforward one to me? he can copy powers at the full strength or ability level of the original for an unspecified amount of time that's usually 1-30 minutes by touching the cape. crucially, he doesn't have any edge on how to use these powers + can easily misuse or become extremely overwhelmed by them. he's easily the most powerful out of the three of them <33
ashe-- ashe is NOT HERE currently and also it's 1:30 am so i gotta go fucking sleep soon BUT they would be a master. easy. :o) they can make some lil guys n do stuff with them!!!!
in general these are pretty fucking cracked abilities, all of them would b oosely above a seven or so in a number rating once they're really settled in their powers-- this is mostly because i'm assuming that they would still be heirs-apparent to the prime force equivalent, which would b the triumvirate :]] anyway. good lord. this is like the cliff notes edition of what i've been thinking and scribbling in the notes app for the past several hours. sorry if it's fucking incomprehensible. gn!!! <333
AAAAAH FUCK YESSSSSS OKAY OKAY OKAY my response is probably going to be equally as long. so it's fine. oooouh buddy.
I KNOW WHAT BREAKER MEANS NOW !!! I dontttt think ive learned shaker yet. breaker is like.... breaking the laws of physics/shifting planes or whatever. PERFECT for william hell yes. for putting them actually in worm world ... ughhhh breaker/master william is REALLY cool. I havwnt learned stranger yet but i think he would develop a complex over being classified as stranger <3 (like how weld doesn't like that he's classified as a brute even though that's not exactly what it means, he just doesn't like the word) . GODDDD just thinking abt putting pd boys in worm is fucking me up haven't they been through enough. I want to see them all in a fit of despair. william ditching his body is SO good I miss when he would do that, also the powers being limited by how far away he is AND THE AMOUNT OF RECENT DEATH IN THE AREA. holy shit. that's so fucking good . im sure he would not overthink at all the fact that he is stronger when more people around him have died . I'm sure he'd do awesome in the leviathan fight for sure for sure .
DAKOTA BRUTE <3 DAKOTA BRUTE/MOVER I LOVE THIS A LOTTTTTT hellbyes. awesome. it's so perfect for him <3 worm world I'm SURPRISED u didn't stick with brute for him. eyes emoji. I trust your judgement but now i am Thinking... Hmm..... YOU BRING INTO QUESTION something I have been thinking about. and I'm going to probably get derailed a little here but stay with me. how the way powers manifest directly relate to the trigger event. because for a WHILE before we learned taylors I was like "OH i bet the powers are going to be directly related to what traumatic thing happened to them" and then we learn about taylor and grue and a couple more and I kind of lost that theory because while you can. technically draw relations between their powers and their events it seemed like too much of a stretch to do . HOWEVER now my thinking has changed AGAIN and I think the powers ARE related to specific trigger events but it's not as straightforward as "oh something scary happened to you with bugs so now you have bug powers" I think it's gonna be more complicated than that. WHICH. THE WAY THIS RELATES. BACK ON TOPIC NOW. to DAKOTA . assuming his trigger event is still he and katori falling off the building I think it's AWESOME that his powers would manifest as FLIGHT for one. and the fucking. pain sense thing. fuck me up. dakota extreme hero complex cole would be so fucked up by a power where he ambiently senses pain from the people around him at all times and cannot turn it off. I'm sure he would feel so normal about being around william chronic pain wisp 24/7. also I can SO CLEARLY imagine how this power specifically would lead to him getting super overwhelmed in chaotic situations like he does in canon. and just fucking. bolt out of there because it's too much. again. he'd have such a wonderful time in the leviathan fight
I AM AT CLOCKBLOCKER POV !!!! actually technically I'm on kid win pov now but I haven't finished his chapter yet. vyncent grab bag cape..... yeah... I think it would be EXTREMELY funny imagining the PRT in pd world trying 2 classify vyncent like. what the fuck does this kid do . what do we do with him. hes got other guys in his head that give him powers. is he a master??? no he can't fucking control them. is he a striker??? only SOMETIMES. is he a blaster?? AGAIN ONLY SOMETIMES. cannot classify him bitch!!!!!!!! giving him worm powers though.. UGH. being able to touch someone and COMPLETELY copy their powers but only for a short period of time???? I fucking love that a lot. he WOULD be the most powerful out of them!!! I can hear taylors inner analysis dialogue about him now and it's very similar to the clockblocker "DONT LET HIM.TOUCH YOU" panic. loooove imagining this playing off of the rest of pd,,, i know there was AT LEAST one time where he had william sort of transfer some of his ghost powers for a minute? I think it was during the lich fight in the theatre but i just remember vycnent floating and going intangible and NOT KNOWING how to control it or anything. loveeee that. in world dynamics I feel like vyncent would be a late addition to their team (instead of coming from another world maybe he just. had his trigger event happen way later than the other two..or something.) and not trusting them as much at first/being REALLY shaky using either of their powers but after a while being really comfortable in a fight with using either Williams or dakotas powers in a fight. Just like. imagining the fluidity of how they'd work together in a tense situation assuming they're not being complete dumbasses <3333 UGH it's really good
AAAASHE ASHE ASHE IM SOOO SO GLAD YOU INCLUDED ASHE IN THIS I miss him.so much every day. from what I know so far master involves having/making/controlling some sort of minion (cannot think of a better word than that rn) AND I THINK THATS REALLYYYY perfect for ashe. i assume he would actually work pretty closely to canon in that his limitation would be the book? or if he doesn't have the book maybe his limitation would be a) having only a few different types of things he could summon (the big hand, the water fairy, duck etc) and/or b) only being able to control them.for a short amount of time after they're summoned so he has to be quick about dismissing them. can't keep the demon hand around for too long or it might start picking things up and throwing them at random. putting teammates in danger bc he can't control it anymore etc etc. alsooooooo in clockblocker pov they VERY briefly mentioned the possibility of having secondary trigger events (?!!!!?!?!) and you know I locked onto that SO FUCKING HARD. ashe being born with powers and then his secondary trigger event being his mom's death <3 im.NOT even going to attempt to talk about how the trickster would work in worm world/if it would even exist in this setting bc i don't know enough about the types of powers and things yet..but just know. I am keeping this in the back of my mind "this is a fun surprise tool that will help us later" style
#also side note but can i say. thw whole time i was reading the leviathan fight a persistent thought in the back of my mind was#“man i really wish they had a cape here who could control water- THEY NEED TIDE... THEY NEED TIDE SO BAD”#so like..really normal about putting prime defenders SPECIFICALLY in the leviathan fight. teehee (<< most diabolical laugh youve ever heard#I HAVE A LOT MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT WILLIAM TOO BUT..HMMMMMMMMM DONT THINK I CAN SAY SOME OD THEM YET#EXTREMELY interested 2 see whether ur thoughts on specifically him and dakota#will change after both the training arc and certain other events <3#hehehehehehehee#GOD I CANNOT STOP IMAGINING. PD IN WORM.WORLD. they would suffer so fucking badly man.#william wisp guilt complex about his powers turned up to 200#HAVING A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABOUT ASHE ALSOOOOO . AS ALWAYS#now that i know more abt power classes i am VERY confidently going to put mark down as a tinker/striker.#with the tinker rating being SLIGHTLY higher than striker bc he uses the things he makes to amplify his naturally weaker striker powers.#tiiiiiide im thinkingggg would be. whats the elemental one.#not breaker bc thats specifically about breaking physics and i dont think that works for him.#is it shaker?????? i dknt think ive learned shaker yet.#U ARE MORE EQUIPPED AT THIS THAN ME whats tide. tide would also for sure be a case 53 right. i havent exactly learned what that means yet#but im assuming its the whole artifically giving people powers thing and. thats tide baby. idk if clones would work in worm world#so maybe its him and his regular siblings all being specifically given elemental powers#so they could work together as some super crazy powerful team. and then. that Doesnt happen <3#(idk if u have listened to the tide oneshot yet but. its good. if you ignore dodgeboy)#ANYWAY. i should start getting ready for work now. im having so many thoughts about this norlw#hollyyyyyy shit#infected my brain with worms (pun intended)#asks#friends!!!#intertexts#wormposting#jrwi pd#<< only tagging so i can find this later when i learn more and can properly yell about it#new haven wards
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dallon weekes has literally suffered more than jesus its craaaaazy
#mx weekes i think you need to just be a solo act. youve suffered far too much.#poor guy </3 excited for a new album tho#kora.txt
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Le destin et un fil rouge (click for qualité svp)
#red string of fate#teehee. soulmatessss!!! YOURE SOULMATESD!!!! AGAINST YOUR WILL!#2a#ayden#aurel#bath soup#my art#comics#ils sont si précieux pour moi#idk what to add je pense que je veux pas le finir#en plus instagram m'énerve psq je peux pas le poster tranquille donc bref. Bref.#look at them and shut up and laugh. whatevr#tw racism#i Guess. hes anxious about getting shunned or whatever hashtag totally not relatable#some of these african families have views about interracial relationships that can K.O a neonazi like fr......#my mom telling me under no circumstances will you marry an algerian WHAT DO YOU MEANNNN.... our countries r literally STUCK TOGETHER#we LOOK THE SAME we have THE SAME ANCESTORS our cultures are so SIMILAR theyre COMPARABLE znd we speak the SAME LANGUAGE#what do you MEANN never marry one... mama i could marry a fucking white trans woman.. youve forgotten about wokism..#ANYWAYS. mixed boy and immigrant boy. SUFFER. YOU WILL NEVER FEEL ADEQUATE ! YAYYYY#not even mentioning them being both boys .. aka no genetic babies... aka no lineage ... ouhhhh mama! the drama!#and homophobia probably doesn't exist in red string of fate worlds i guess it wouldn't make sense its too much of a destiny thing#but maybe long families have made up cultures about marriage and lineage and 'continuing the string for generations'#even though its obvious many of your grand family probably ignored their magical string after it broke and instead of pursuing fate they#ignored it for as long as they could to continue on the generation etc#it just seems like something MY family woul think if it was real so im making HIM suffer through it. sorray cutie ! 🥰😍😘
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ANGEL NOOOOOO did you see they took all of mizuryu keis work off the site how will i survive now
I DID I DID OMFGOAIAPAO i woke up one day looking to refresh sensei’s works to see if theres any new and i couldnt find the artist tag at all???? i even tried alice no takoubon but nOTHING came up i was baffled i was ?!?! i had to like find individual doujins off other dodgy websites which all only had a select few in their archives sighHhh
#urusai! baka#LET ME KNOW IF YOUVE FOUND ANOTHER WEBSITE FOE RHEM??#also do u know why#i could just reddit this but im choosing to ask u instwad hehehe no aiais#im assuming its like copyright(???) or#unless theres controversy#its funny bcos when it happened i was frolicking in a field of grass tickling every crevice of my body#aka i had no one to ask#i was too IrL jt was frightning#in 2025 touching grass is OUT#cheonic onlineness is IN#the grass all have teeth n claws n is scary bcos i take one step into it#it sucks me up like quicksand#n next thing i know MONTHS go past#honestly one day i expect to go back on nh and see mizuryu keis works just fully reinstated but#it has yet to happen#wat r we to do#i swear they were like top10 artist on yje platform too#i genuinely am curious what happened??#neways kiss kiss nonny hope yoube found smth good n fun to read in the meantime#i am holding ur hand thru the screen suffering wiyh u!!!#(and if u hav found any fun n new pls send tytyty<333)
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iv since then had varying degrees of attachment to male characters for daddy issue related reasons but i havent had a moment of hearing a male characters line of dialogue to their child and not just going oh i wish i was in their place but instant thought of be my dad in the back of my mind since i was like. 13 . so this is embarassing for me .
#whateverrr. if you know my relationship w my parents well enought and the thing that inspired this well enough#youd understanddd. so if ur chess and perhaps vee you understanddd#whatever dudee. i cant imagine how much youv suffered over these 20 yrs and how strong you are but i love u and am here for i now. whatever#actually last time i felt this was was also ant a character very very desperate to get home to his wife and child#u wld think my dad left me which is crazy he didnt. BUT I WISH HE DID !! (<-i do not wish this always but sometimes. dudee)#advice to men never be the person that says some of the cruellest things anyones ever said to ur kid or ur kid will be weird on tumblr#gender neutral advice actually. advice for everyone. probably also better reasons to not do that then the weird on tumblr thing#anyway ud also think daddy issues posting today means a big holiday misshap but no we dont celebrate xmas#i just cried wayy too hard at i cant help but wonder. yk how it is…#flappy rambles
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Insane that justice for all is arguably the weakest game in the trilogy, and yet it has one of the best cases in the entire goddamn series
#its the final case too. youve gotta suffer through big top turnabout to get to it#one of the worst and most frustrating cases in the series#and i say that as a rise from the ashes enjoyer#like#they put so much time and effort into farewell my turnabout that there was none left for the other cases#....thats kinda mean. i liked the ini miney case at least#ace attorney
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most if not all of my worst nightmares are literally always zombie apocalypse related
#it's such an awful situation and without a doubt my first instinct is always to kill myself but the problem is that my family is usually#ALSO apart of the dream and i so i cant do that shit and the dream is really just the dread of not being able to escape an easily escapable#scenario bc theres ppl you care about who also care about you and you dont wanna leave em behind to suffer alone or wonder where youve gone#also yeah the zombies but thats only like 1/3 of the fear those nighmares make me feel#im not waking up in a cold sweat but I'm unnerved i dont like it#kae.txt#those ones also always seem to be the dreams that are hardest to wake up from too#i was just thinking damn i have way too many dreams that are zombie related#i dont watch read or play zombie shit where is it coming from
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Imso tired man. I'm so tired. Why do I work this hard I am so FUCKING over this shit
#this other bitch out here like haha woopsie i forgot to clock out for lunch even though ive been out for two hours :)#guess ill leave early today! heehee#YOU DONT DO ANYTHING. YOU FUCKED ME OVER YET AGAIN#i am SO FUCKING SICK of this shit. why do I have to be the one to suffer#why do i have to be the person who doesnt get a say in fuck all even though im doing THE MOST WORK#and then i have to sit here and act like she fucking knows what shes talking about wrt animals#IM THE ANIMAL KEEPER. I KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN THIS DEPARTMENT BETTER THAN YOU#Im going crazy fucking insane right now#my coworker is out sick so ive had to do shit scheduled for three people. me. One person#and then im told shit like its just one class! ITS NOT#i have to break them up into two because its too big of a group#then i say ok we are doing reptiles over here#and shes like oh ummmm someone has it reserved for this time so can you do it in [place that is extremely loud]#and im like yeah ok fucking sure FINE#and then we get there and someone else is like ummmm we were told to est here for lunch by [her name]#and i radio her like UMMMM??????????#and shes like Oh woopsie i did tell them! you can do it at ummmm [3rd place]#im like yeah thanks for fucking wltting me know#Sorry im sorry thus is so extreme and petty but im like DROP DEAD#youve made my work life hell when it doesnt have to be because YOU SUCK AT YOUR JOB#FUCK!!!!!#YOU get to have a social life becaus you do whatever the FUCK YOU WANT#YOU get paid way more than me to do FUCK ALL#YOU dont have 30+ living beings depending on you every day#shut the fuck UP#I am so mad that i work so fucking hard and it doesnt fucking matter#so yeah sorry for starry spam but i think hes nice and right now the only thing keeping me from fucking losing it at work#along with a 1 min video of kookaburras im plahing over and over
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Hello! I've recently stumbled upon your art and I just needed to let you know I absolutely adore it.
The way you draw both Jaina and Sylvanas scratches an itch in my brain in just the right way to make me fall back into the sylvaina rabbithole. I've been combing through the tag and ao3 and the lack of fresh content is devastating, so each time you post it gives me life.
Came for the Minthara content but stayed for the sylvaina one, and I've been honestly having a blast. So I must thank you for sharing your amazing art and enthusiasm.
Finally, if I may, I'd love to add a fic recommendation to those you've been getting lately. Hopefully, it's not already been mentioned (my apologies if it has): Diel Fin’al Thalas by MorganLeGaye https://archiveofourown.org/works/28827603/chapters/70706712 It's not been updated since 2022 but I find it well worth the read for the characterization alone. And I might be a sucker for the "accidental" marriage trope but let's not focus on that.
I hope I've not taken too much of your time and wish you an excellent rest of the week!
ooooh thank you so much for your kind words! im glad people like the way i draw the girls aaah it's something i've had in the back of my mind for so long
and ive been rec'd diel fin'al thalas more than once now, i will def check it out!
but if you need fresh content and havent seen it yet redisaid wrote a post-slands fic recently and it's making me unwell because post slands sylvanas is living rent free in my mind rn
#asks#really appreciate this#also youve stumbled upon my evil plot to drag more people back into this ship#i too suffer from no fresh ao3 content so im gonna just go on a reread binge LMAO#im glad you like both the minthara and sylvaina stuff#being dragged in two different directions in my notes is so funny
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as im getting closer & closer to the day that i will officially leave my hometown & go live with my dad i am starting to understand my ocs more
#avani most notably rn. bc shes actually my age and leaves behind everyone and everything she knows#having to grow up the rest of the way in an entirely different situation#because even if the situation youve been in for all your teen years has sucked ass the entire time its still.#its familiar? like. yk. familiar suffering is better than the unknown#personal#ive lived in that house my entire life. ive been with my dad for long stretches of time (all of summer break for instance) and it was fine#i KNOW i cant stay there. my mom's partner has actually physically hurt me and theyre both awful to me#and i also know that the only reason why its been somewhat good there lately is because i rarely speak to them anymore#that is not a house to live in! and i fucking love my dad. my stepsiblings. my stepmom!!#and its not even just the fact that im moving. right. i could probably handle that were it not for me also finishing high school.#i got financial support as a student whos 18+ while i was in high school. now its.#i need to get an income. in a region i barely know. being both physically & mentally disabled.#but not so disabled that im *incapable* of work!! which the law here asks for!!#(or i am and i just dont realize it because ive been working past my limits for so long ive forgotten what they are el em ay oh)#also ill miss my cat so fucking much#i love my dad's cats but shes special man#i miss her rn actually but im going back for the last time in a few days so#i was like. tearing up bc of the anxiety but then i remembered my cat and now im actively trying not to cry loudly#bc its. yk. almost 6 am and its almost waking up time for everyone here except me because. my school ended last month#its bedtime for me actually but i couldnt sleep because i was too busy crying over the fact that i am never going to get that room back#i miss being a child#at least back then it wasnt that complicated! i didnt know i was being mistreated when i was 11!#all of this doesnt even matter that much im just really bad with transitions. which is ironic. im transgender#though granted ive put off getting on that list for that exact reason. im scared of transitioning#like the moment im comfortably settled here and have a job and/or disability benefits. all of this will just be embarrassing#something to look back on and laugh. and then cry because i still miss my cat.
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everyone stand up and give this a standing ovation then go and read hand jumper‼️
How Hand Jumper Treats Gender
Most of the manga/manhwa I read default to the male gaze. I don't even mean that the female characters are needlessly sexualized, which they often are, but that they're only allowed to fill certain roles. Holy figures and healers are (young, impossibly beautiful) women, the tragic, innocent character who gets assaulted is a woman, the skimpily dressed ninja is a woman, the pure, younger sibling that needs protection is a woman, the seductive villain is a woman, the extremely powerful fighter that will nonetheless always be second in strength to the male lead is a woman. Upskirt shots and carefully framed ass/boobs panels abound. Their characterization can be shallow: especially in action and thriller series, the motivations of female characters are rarely given the same consideration that male characters receive.
Hand Jumper is different. First, female characters are taken just as seriously as male ones, in every way possible. Second, a character's gender does not influence their power level. While it's true that cis men are physically stronger than cis women in the real world, "men are always stronger than women" does not make sense in fantasy action contexts. Why are all the most powerful heroes in My Hero Academia men? Why must all the notable healers in Naruto be female ninja? In worlds where people possess honest to God magical superpowers, power is totally divorced from the density of your muscles. This is true of Hand Jumper's world as well, so it treats its characters appropriately: Male and female Aberrants fight on equal ground. As a result, some of the most prestigious Aberrant positions are held by women: Samin is the leader of the Crimson Society, Cell 4's instructor and mentor are both women, and Sayeon's mother Sara is so mysterious and so powerful that she seems close to godly. Sara's treatment is especially interesting, given that she's filling a role usually reserved for men: the mysterious, legendary parent of the protagonist who left their life when they were still a child. Think Gon's father in HxH, Baki's father in Grappler Baki, Naruto's father, the Joestars in JoJo, or Luffy's father in One Piece. In Hj, it's not the mother, but the father who is drowned out in the shadow cast by his spouse.
Personalities, fantasy power levels, and interests are not inherently gendered! So Hand Jumper doesn't treat them as gendered either. The bubbly, cheerful member of the main group is usually a girl, but this time it's Iseul Kim. The pretty, androgynous Min is both a deadly weapon and a baker of cute pastries- he picks up Sayeon in a bridal carry after a fight, and incredibly, it's not framed as a romantic gesture. Lastly, the aggressive, jaded rival to the protagonist is usually male, but this time it's Ryujin Kang. This position being filled by a female character is so unusual that I remember the comments section being filled with people mistaking Ryujin for a boy, even though she was clearly presented as a woman from the start. Part of this confusion is probably fueled by how Ryujin has a lot of… tension with Sayeon, tension usually found in heterosexual enemy-to-lover relationships. And Sayeon herself? She's on a crusade to avenge her childhood friend, a damsel in distress who died in Episode 2. Somehow, in Hand Jumper, the tragic dead lover that needs avenging is a man.
#hand jumper#manhwa/manga writing needs to be held at a higher standard#I firmly believe sayjin is canon#male characters also suffer from how they are restricted in manga/manhwa#esp how they are often characterized as cool and invulnerable and nothing else#(previous tags op's)#WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS#HOW ABSOLUTEL FUCKING CORRECT YOU ARE#EVERYONE#PLEASE#READ#HAND JUMPER#IT IS SO AMAZING#AND YOUVE CAPTURED IT PERFECTLY#all the cross references too??? damn ok I see you you did your research!!!#anyways I would be spamming with a lot of hand jumper reblogs but I don't think my computer can handle that right now TT
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why does my favorite song in this game have to have one of the hardest maps for me
#ghosts howling#my big struggle with 4 finger rhythm games is like. i cant process things that fast#and my wires often get crossed regarding which buttons im pressing too#its easy with mobile rhythm games because i can see my fingers and thus navigate them accordingly#its easy with muse dash because even though you can use 4 fingers 2 fingers are only necessary (which i do i dont play with 4)#(which makes me hit a skill ceiling tbh but like. whatever. thats my burden to bear HAHA and im not unsatisfied with my skill)#and with project diva its easy because i know by heart which buttons im pressing because they have icons on them#(playstation icons which if youve played enough playstation gets ingrained in your muscle memory)#so this map having a lot of streams that sweep across the keys is giving me SO MUCH DIFFICULTY!!!#because usually i can handle streams of notes not next to eachother but when theyre next to each other it gets difficult#anyway. ill go back to grinding it. i do miss having to grind for a song so in a way this suffering is fun#but i also cant wait for the catharsis
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THUNDER SAGA IS SO GOOD AAAA
spoilers for the thunder saga in tags if you havent listened yet
#i also love the new versions of troy and cyclops sagas#but man the thunder saga#MAN#MANN#ITS SO GOOD#ive been singing the whole thing on repeat for a while now#i was expecting thunderbringer to be my least favorite but surprisingly its scylla#i like scylla too but thunderbringer was so badass lmao#scylla kind of pales in comparison#i think#i also really like suffering and different beast#in mutiny i like the end specifically#like where they see the island? of helios aka the sun god#i love how they re-used the im just a man motif there#v nice#i also liked how ody's voice has a growl-ish ???( idk how else to decribe it) tone to it#like where he says youve doomed us all#and who do you think he'll send#also the faster faster parts were soooo good too#yeah i think scylla paled in comparison sdbhfjkg#i really do love the saga as a whole though#and to add on it at the end of thunderbringer the HEARTBREAK in both ody and his right hands voices#i cant spell his name to save my life im sorry#euroylsicus#or however you spell it idk#i have to see her#but we'll die#i know#AAAAAAAAAA#SO GOOD
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