#idk why i'm talking here - bye - thanks for reading :)

[taintedpearls]

❀*ੈ˖°.𖥔 ݁ casual (part ii)

don't buy tlou — free palestine

you can read part one here!

pairing: ellie williams x fem!reader

summary: you haven't spoken to ellie in a week, 9 missed calls and 38 texts from her, none of which you've answered, but ellie doesn't give up so easily.

cw: smut, mdni, intimate sex, the knee thing (e!receiving), shower sex, fingering (r!receiving), switch!ellie and reader, multiple orgasms, nipple play/sucking, fluffy, reader lives in an apartment, ellie is very apologetic, barley proofread & semi-rushed and i think thats it. lmk if not.

wc: 2.9k

a/n: this was meant to be like 1.6k words so idk how we got to 35 words away from 3k but... enjoy!

(1:02am) ellie

please let me explain

(1:06am) ellie

cmon please i promise it'll be worth your while

(1:07am) ellie

i have your bra among other things. let me know when you'd like me to drop them off. i'm sorry.

(1:09am) you

guess who texted again

(1:09am) olive

no way

r u gonna reply?

(1:10am) you

absolutely not

i made a fool of myself

(1:11am) olive

maybe and JUST MAYBE

reply to her and get ur closure + super sexy bra back

(1:12am) you

what the fuck olive

do you want me to die? genuine question

(1:12am) olive

LISTEN

it might help

plus she seems genuinely apologetic

why is she even apologising?

(1:14am) you

for being a dick and wanting a quick hookup?

(1:14am) olive

because she has feelings and she knows she fucked up?

(1:15am) you

😐 bye

(1:15am) olive

just reply! say sometime tmrw. it can be easy, a quick in nd out

okay?

(1:16am) you

i'll think about it

(2:03am) you

11:30, you get two minutes

(2:03am) ellie

thank you so much

(2:03am) ellie

i'll be there

nine hours later, and ellie was a mess.

you had given her permission to come over and return your bra – hell you had her jumping for fucking joy when she saw that message.

but now she had to actually talk to you, and what the hell was she supposed to say? that she was sorry? that she 'couldn't sort out her feelings?' all of which felt wrong (maybe they only felt wrong because she was staring at herself in the mirror while repeating them for three hours... who knows).

but ellie had found herself with a bouquet of your favorite flowers in hand and a plan.

a plan to win you back.

she was going to apologize, let you scream at her, and hopefully let her explain, all in the two minutes you had gratefully gifted her.

so, when she rang the doorbell to your apartment after hiking the six story stairs, she found herself staring at her old, beaten up converse. stars and hearts you had drawn all along the sides of the soles almost mocked her.

then you opened the door, and ellie couldn't look up.

useless apologies started spilling from her mouth, panicked words that meant nothing. a collection of "i'm sorry” s and a series of "please let me explain" came pouring out, that was until she grew the gall to look up at you and take you in.

her heart stopped when she did, so did her words.

you looked tired. clearly old yet comfortable clothes adorned your body, you had your arms over your stomach but they weren't crossed, you weren't mad, you could never be mad at ellie, no matter how badly you wanted to be especially in this moment.

words rushed through her head but never made it out her mouth, you were... exhausted. and she caused it, she caused all this pain you were going through. 

“oh…” she softly whispered, her stance faltering at the sight of you, not because you looked like how you did but because she was so mad at herself.

you sigh, you had made no effort to adjust your appearance or put makeup on. you told yourself it was because you had no energy to, but in reality, you wanted to show ellie how you were hurting, that she had caused this, that something fun and sweet had gone sour and at your own expense. 

“ellie, i know i look….” you remove your arms from your stomach and signal to yourself shamefully, tears almost springing from your sunken eyes at the regret you feel for not even trying to fix yourself up, “ but can i please just have my bra back?” you’ve changed your position once again so that you’re leaning up against the doorframe of your apartment, gray sleeves up by your knuckles. 

“no! no no no not at all you look… pretty. really pretty.” she breathes out hurriedly, your cheeks heat up before you spot the bouquet, and that's what makes the tears spill. because why was she here? she had never described you as pretty before, only hot or sexy, so why is she here apologising and calling you pretty if she doesnt just want a quick fuck by validating you? 

tears now evidently filled your eyes, ellie’s kind smile had now turned into one of worry and concern when she saw the tears threatening to spill from your tired eyes, moving forward to embrace you, but she hesitated. will it only make things worse for you? feeling her again? 

“can- can i touch you?” she asks gently, nerves shaking at the chance of you pushing her away for good, telling her she can keep the bra and slamming the door shut in her face. 

instead, you silently shake your head yes and grant her permission to embrace you, it was a stupid idea, really, because everything you felt, all the times she had touched you that you had so desperately been trying to shut out came flooding back and it took everything in you not to sob, the subtle stream of tears gliding down your cheeks was worse enough. you avoided her sorrowful eyes, you didn't want her to feel sorry for you, you just wanted her. 

ellie lets go of you, she’s still standing at the doorway, converse planted firmly on your ‘welcome!’ doormat, she delicately reaches to hold your cheeks and force your wandering eyes to look into her own, staring for a second, memorizing your face just in case before looping an arm around your shoulders and guiding you inside, closing the door behind the two of you with her foot, not looking back once. 

you can feel the flowers gently brush against your shoulder as she never put them in her other hand, but the feeling of them is oddly comforting. you're not sure why exactly it’s comforting, but you do however manage to notice they're your favorite. 

ellie guides you over to a kitchen counter, sitting you up on it and standing right in between your open spread legs, placing the array of flowers opposite to the two of you. you bury your head in your hands, wanting to disappear from this moment and never return. 

“hey…” she gently prys your hands away from your head, and you immediately look up to contain tears, trying your hardest nor to hit the cabinets. “i'm sorry for just welcoming myself in, i assumed you didn't want the neighbors to see you…” the auburn haired girl uneasily babbles, and the tears slow down. you sniffle, looking down at the girl who can’t seem to slow her fast paced talking, and you're not sure how to quiet her down other than placing a hand over her mouth. 

instantly, the talking stops as she looks up at you confused, you sniffle once more and she grabs your hand again to remove it from her mouth 

“you were talking a lot,” you whisper “its okay that you came in, ellie.” your voice is silky, addicting. 

“i just-” she sighs, anxiously tapping the space outside your thighs and staring at her own hands “i don’t know how i can express just how sorry i am, i fucked up. Bad. and your hurting because of it” she spills, shes not even sure if it made sense as it left her mouth, but it’s honest. 

“ellie… it was always more than just a casual thing to me,” you admit, voice getting shallower by the second “and i mean, i don’t know, i always just assumed if i kept saying i was fine with it you would realize that i was who you wanted, but now i know it isn’t true.” ellie’s face drops upon hearing your words, alarms blare in her head because of course it was never just casual to her as well, she’s not even sure why she suggested it in the first place or kept reinforcing it when she wanted everything but that. 

“i know,” she starts off with, you look down sadly, this was confirmation she didn't want to see you anymore, that you getting attached had ruined everything and there was no saving whatever you two had. “but,” she continues, you look up at her again, confused. “It was never just casual to me as well, you know? i’m not even sure why i suggested it in the first place.” she lets out a brief chuckle at the last part in hopes of clearing some of the tension around you guys. 

“but you-” 

“i know i always reminded you, i think it was because i was scared? i was so… infatuated with you and i guess i didn’t want to hurt you. i thought it was the only way.” she remorsefully confesses, and you smile, roles reversed as you gracefully grab her face and kiss her. a kiss that says everything. 

it's soft, gentle, show’s no urgency or panic. it’s natural, and ellie can feel you smiling into it, as is she. 

gently, she moves away and starts kissing down your neck, you lock your hands into her auburn and let out a sigh of content. 

“ellie…” you needily whisper. 

“yeah, baby?” she removes her mouth from your neck, grabbing your thighs and looking into your eyes. “this okay?”

“more than okay,” you confirm, “do you wanna shower with me?” your request is simple, but it makes ellie’s heart explode with excitement as she lifts you off the counter and begins to carry you over to the very familiar shower, the short walk is full of quick kisses and giggles bouncing off the walls when you finally arrive and she nearly stumbles over her own feet. 

you're quick to discard your own clothes, the anticipation building to feel ellie’s skin on your own, the girls anticipation matching yours as she hastily removes her own clothing. Flowers and bra forgotten in the kitchen when she pulls your body into the shower with her, capturing you into a needy kiss once more. she reaches behind you to turn the water on, not accounting for the fact it'll take a minute to warm up and allowing the freezing stream to harshly hit your back. you yelp, moving away quickly in shock, hearing ellie’s restrained snort from behind you. turning to face her, you slap her bicep playfully when the water begins to feel warmer 

“ellie!” you playfully scold, “that wasn't funny!” you’re trying to be serious, key word: trying, but you cant help to let your own laugh slip past your mouth as you join her in the fun. 

“‘m sorry!” she giggles, the laughter between you two dying down “i didn't think it would be that cold!” 

“yeah, well, obviously!” you attempt to splash her with the little bit of remaining cold water on your hands, but you're not quick enough. she pins your hands above your head against the wall adjacent to the stream of water, the glass becoming foggy with steam from the nearly boiling water. 

silence falls in between the two of you. no words are spoken as you move forwards wanting a kiss from the girl, but she moves back. deja vu spikes within you from that night at the bar, days before everything went down. 

she closes her eyes, leaning closer and pressing her forehead up against yours. You repeat the action, you weren't sure what she was doing, but you trusted her. 

“let’s take this slow, okay?” she utters softly, just loud enough so you could hear her over the sound of water pouring, you nod instantly. slow was good. slow meant effort.

with your agreement, she locks your lips into a kiss once again. it wasn't hasty or rough, it was soothing and steady, releasing your arms in order for her to move her own to rest on your hips, your own reaching towards her neck. 

the kiss continuous for a couple minutes, only letting go for a couple seconds at a time to catch your breaths before falling back into each other peacefully, but you were getting wetter and wetter, desperate for more than just kitten kisses on your neck, and you could tell ellie was getting wet too with her movements becoming more and more desperate and rough. 

discreetly, you slot your knee in between her legs while she's occupied with your neck. Almost immediately you can feel the grip she has on your hips become tighter, fingernails digging into the flesh as you slowly begin to move your knee, she groans, dropping her head into your shoulder, moving her hips to match the rhythm with your knee. 

“faster, please” she whimpers in your neck, busying herself again by leaving wet open mouthed kisses on your neck once more. who were you to deny such a pretty girl's request? you speed up the movement of your knee, nudging it up every now and again, removing a hand from her neck to reach down and slowly rub her clit. 

from the way she sucked harder on that spot just below your ear she knew you loved, you assumed the sensation was taken well, your own wetness starting to drip down your thighs, mixing with the water from the muffled noises she was making alone. eventually, the stimulation caught up to her, legs becoming shaky, speeding up your movements and circling her clit, forcefully removing her mouth from your neck so you could bring your head down and suck on her left nipple, and that was her tipping point. 

ellie came undone on your leg with a strangled shout of your name, legs shaking and thighs hurting as you slowed down the circles on her now sensitive nub before eventually stopping, removing the knee slotted between her legs as well as your mouth from her tit. 

“you okay?” you whisper, giving her a couple seconds to come down from her high, the water providing a warm comfort over the two of you. 

“yeah,” she breathes, coming up to give you a kiss on the lips, again, and again, making a wet noise each time, only further fueling your need for her. “more than okay, thank you.”

you smile at her, happy that she was satisfied with your work. you clench your thighs together in hopes to relieve some of the tension that had built up in your core, a move that did not go unnoticed by the dripping girl in front of you. 

“but now i think i need to take care of you, hm? would you like that?” you quickly nod your head yes, anxious to feel her touch on you once more. 

she doesn't wait to get to work on your body, lips going down to suck one of your boobs while her hand moves to roll the sensitive bud in between her fingers, almost instantly eliciting a moan from you.

quietly, she moves her hand that was previously rolling your nipple down your wet body to your core. you open your legs, she keeps her mouth on your boob, but teasing your folds as she ran her fingers through them and pinching your clit ever so slightly, causing you to squel. 

“ellie.. please…” you almost beg, desperate to feel her skilled fingers inside you already.

she presses her palm flat against your clit, ignoring your begs but making you jerk back into the ceramic wall as a small whimper falls from your mouth, ellie smirks knowing just how much of an effect she had on you. she wasn't leaving you ever again. 

lazily, she slips her middle finger into your hole, removing her mouth from your tit. the shower and your own slick providing enough lube that she didn't even have to prod at it. 

“jesus babe… you're so tight” you clench around her finger at these words, and she mindlessly adds a second one. your hands move from her neck to the steaming glass beside you, indenting your handprint through the fog as you lose control over your own body's movements. 

gradually, she begins pumping her fingers in and out of your sopping cunt, lewd and shameless moans leaving your mouth at an uncontrollable pace. she moves her thumb to your clit, pushing into it and causing as much pressure as possible, and it's not long before you cum with a yell of her name, babbling nonsense as she guides you through it. head in her neck as is hers in yours. 

“‘m so sorry” ellie continuously repeats as her fingers still work at a relentless pace inside you “i'm so so sorry, ill never do that to you again.” she moves up and bites your earlobe, continuing to pilot you through your orgasm before halting her movements completely and removing herself from your body. 

you lean back against the wall, eyes closed in content as you feel the droplets of water hit your skin, your water bill is gonna be so fucking high this month, all ellie does it look at you. admiring you in this post fucked out state. you reach your hand out, a silent request for her to take it and she does, right after turning off the stream for you. 

“that was… amazing.” you breathe out happily, she beams at the peaceful look on your face as you peel your eyes open, ellie's smile making you crack your own. 

“i'm glad,” she kisses you once more, the two of you smiling into it. 

“we’re okay?” she asks 

“we’re okay.” you confirm, and ellie has never been happier 

“how about we continue this in the bedroom?” ellie suggests, and you grab her instantly to lead her out. 

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[tan1shere]

Hi! So if you’re comfortable with it i’d love to request Professor!Billie x reader. I love how in “Her Favorite” Billie asks if Reader is okay and if she needs anything. So what if Reader is quiet and shy but is sh-ing maybe Billie sees scars on her arm? Idk just super fluffy and angsty. Again please only write it if you’re comfortable with the request. Have a great day and thank you for your amazing writing 💕

My priority

A/n: yes ofc !! Thank you for checking angel, I'm more than ok with writing this :) I hope you enjoy <3

Warnings - mentions of self harm, cuts ??, and depression, so please don't read if it's triggering in any way !

Masterlist

Another draining day at this hell hole of a college. You dreaded it each day you just wanted to stay in bed and hide from everyone. You go to your first class of the day, wearing oversized everything as you couldn't care less you just wanted to be comfortable. You take a seat at the back, out of everyone's way. When you accidentally bump into someone. "Sorry." You say timidly. "Watch where you're going." They say bluntly. You sigh hoping this day doesn't drag on too much.

Nearing the end of this class, you couldn't be more happier. Although you loved your professor. She was the kindest person, and honestly made it a lot less horrible. Everyone has already left, like always you are the last to leave. "Bye Ms O'Connell." You give her a gentle smile. She does the same. "Bye sweetheart, have a good day." You blush slightly, she always made you so nervous. Did you have a slight crush on her?

Fast forward a few weeks and you were having the worst day known to man. You had woken up late, burned your tongue. Every little thing seemed to happen, badly. Setting your whole mood off. You had even forgotten your jacket, feeling cold. Bringing your arms around your body ever so slightly everywhere you went. You weren't always such a joyful person, you had severe depression. It always lingered inside you maybe that's why people never wanted to be near you, were you scary to them?

It was that same class again, and you honestly couldn't of been more thankful, knowing she'd cheer you up just by her presence. You go to sit down in your usual spot, writing down something when you feel a presence by you. Ms O'Connell, she was looking at you with the softest smile. But her eyes moved from your face and it faded. Your brows furrow wondering why she was looking at you in such a way. Had you spilt something on yourself- but as she walks to the front and you look. You facepalm.

You idiot, how could you forget your jacket for that reason. She most definitely saw them, and now you truly wanted to hide. Instead of being last you try to be the first one out. "Y/n, hun?" You hear her say making you stop. Her voice was so delicate. Your head turns to look at her. Humming in response. "Could we talk?" You slowly nod. Approaching her slowly, you look into her eyes. "I'm here for you." Is all she says. Your eyes avert from hers, watching as the other students leave. "And you can always-" She begins but you turn back to face her with tears in your eyes.

It truly breaks her heart. She doesn't say a word just brings you into a hug which you tightly reciprocate. Crying softly into the hug. "It's ok, you can talk to me." She soothes your hair, gently kissing the top of it. She knew you needed as much comfort right now. "I feel so alone." You sobbed, honestly quite pathetically but you couldn't care less you just needed this hug desperately. You needed warmth of someone.

"Shhh, it's ok. You're never alone. And if it helps you have me, I promise." Maybe it was childhood trauma but you felt comfort in her, even if she was your professor. She moves you with her going into her tiny office in the room. "We can sit here for awhile, you can rant. Cry more. Or just stay silent whatever you prefer. Just know I'm here for you." You hug her so tightly after she says that.

You finally felt seen.

Im so sorry if this isn't the best :( my brain was lacking more creativity but I hope this is what you were after even a little bit :)!

[transformation4life]

A Little Too "Daddy"

It was a typical summer day after work for Joseph in his aparment. He typed away on his computer talking to his boyfriend, Carl.

Carl: Saw a really hot guy today while walkin' home today babe

Joseph: Oh yea? What body type

Carl: A total Daddy!!! Like damn... wish he was my boyfriend. Not to say you're bad but like... you know. Joseph: Haha... I see.

Carl: It's whatever anyway lol he was with his kids and clearly banged a woman.

Joseph: You can't say that for sure-

Carl: He was every stereotypical dad trope in the book bro. I know my stuff!!!

Joseph: If you say so... but like are you trying to say I should try and bulk up?

Carl: Maybe...

Joseph: Aw Carl, You know that's difficult.

Carl: Yea but imagine me calling you daddy haha

Joseph: You're lucky I love you.

Carl: Yea i know! Anyways Gotta go now. My favorite telenovela is about to start. Love you babe!

Joseph: Bye. Love you!

Joseph closed the messaging app with a sigh. He did a "bicep" flex and yup still skinny.

"Ugh. This sucks! Why can't I be what he wants?" Joseph slammed his face on his keyboard in despair.

"I should really talk to someone about this- oh wait! Joseph recalled the therapist hotline stapled onto the breakroom pinboard at his work.

"I guess I'll text it right now..." Joseph was quick to turn on his phone and with a bit of help he eventually texted the codeword to activate the automatic transfer.

Thank you so much for being here we'll get you to one of our members immediately!

"Oh great... this'll take a while hu-"

*Bling*

"oh!"

???: Hi my name is G3NI3 how can I help you, today?

Joseph: G3NI3? Did your parents hate you?

G3NI3: Nah dude it's a CODENAME. Gotta keep some sort of confidentiality

Joseph: Ah right fair enough

G3NI3: Alright so what's your name and why did you text us today?

Joseph: Joseph, and I'm here because of my boyfriend...

G3NI3: Aww did you break up?

Joseph: No... it's more... he saw a hot dad today and said "i wish he was my boyfriend"

G3NI3: Oh i see... was the dude straight?

Joseph: Yea why do you ask?

G3NI3: Just wondering... Anyways so I'm guessing the dude was like super buff and stuff? Joseph: Yea... meanwhile I'm a scrawny man in my 20's...

G3NI3: I see I see... so what you're saying is that if you were an older "daddy" you'd be happier?

Joseph: Yea. Atleast it'd appease my boyfriend...

G3NI3: Alright then, say Joseph why don't you tell me about your life and how you met your boyfriend maybe this'll help

Joseph: Uh... sure. Okay so like... we met in highschool and we REALLY hit it off so we started dating pretty soon after and now we're here.

G3NI3: Makes sense. Though... based on your talks I feel like you'd be more bros than boyfriends

Joseph: Huh? what makes you say that?

G3NI3: Idk just got the vibe.

Joseph: How WOULD you say that you only know him as my boyfriend.

G3NI3: Yea but like for people your age, not sure i'd go randomly say "hey this man my age should be friends with me!"

Joseph: What are you talking about? My boyfriend is like 24 and the dude seemed 40.

G3NI3: Nah man, didn't you say you were both in your 40's?

Joseph: No... I said 20's

G3NI3: Pretty sure I saw 40's

Joseph: Yea well!! I can just scroll up and see!!

G3NI3: Suit yourself.

Joseph was getting furious at this "G3NIE". He 100% told them he was in his... 40's? Joseph read the text again.

"Joseph: Yea... meanwhile I'm a scrawny man in my 40's..." Joseph couldn't believe it, but then it dawned on him oh wait... he IS in his 40's haha imagine actually being in my 20's again that would be WILD.

Joseph: Sorry about that. You're right me and my boyfriend are in our 40's.

G3NI3: Told ya. Though you never told me your boyfie's name.

Joseph: Oh it's Carl. Pretty normal name.

G3NI3: Weird... I feel like he would be more a Carlito.

Joseph: Uh... What makes you say that?

G3NI3: Isn't he from Mexico?

Joseph: Uh... yea? But how did you know that?

G3NI3: Lucky guess. I mean... imagine having a mexican hottie like him as your bro.

Joseph: Not sure what you mean. We're DATING and he's skinny like me. Even though we're both in our 40's...

Joseph paused for a second. Wasn't Carlit- Carl in his 20's and skinny? but then he "remembered" the last pic his boyfriend sent him.

"Get ready to some farm work for my bonita~ What do you think?"

Wait... Bonita? Carl- No... Carlito would never call Joseph that. Not to mention his boyfriend never looked like that! Or... did he? Joseph scrambled through his memories and every memory he had of Carlito was him as jacked af Mexican man. Guess he forgot how lucky he was. The bonita bothered him but he just ignored it for now.

Joseph: Sorry nvm yea he is all that. We're dating though so we're not just "bros".

G3NI3: nah man, you seem like bros to me. Don't you remember he married Maria and got like 2 kids.

Maria??? who is- Oh right. Maria is Carlito's "Bonita" He rants about her all the time to you at your weekly bar hangouts. Joseph remembers how his two kids Mateo and Juanita would call him Uncle Joseph! Ah he loves those little rascals. Wait.. something felt off to Joseph.

Joseph: How do you know all this? Isn't this our first session?

G3NI3: What are you talking about dude? This is like our 20th one together

"W-What???" Joseph could not believe what G3NI3 was saying. This was definitely his first using the hotline. Joseph could prove it he just has to scroll up a bit and- Huh?

To Joseph's amazement, G3NI3 was right they've been talking for months. And what do you know they bring up everything about Carlito too. Guess that's that mystery solved.

Joseph: Oh man, you're right guess my age is starting to show...

G3NI3: Don't count yourself out yet old man. You have a kid to care for!

Joseph: Kid??? You must be joking I'm single and could never get a kid! I'm gay!

G3NI3: Oh come on don't be like that just cause you had a divorce with Kate doesn't mean you gotta deny being straight as an arrow or deny that kid you helped make! Joseph: Okay now you're crazy! No way I got married to a LADY. I was never into them!!

G3NI3: No need to get worked up big guy. Your son is following in your footsteps as a bodybuilder! Bodybuilder???? What kind of insanity is G3NI3 spewing now! Joseph was skinny as stick. Always has been.

Joseph: You must think I'm crazy if you want to believe I'm anything but a stick! It's a miracle Carlito even wants to hang out with a single skinny guy like me!

G3NI3: Oh don't be so shy! I know you love flexing in front of Carlito to show how you can attract the ladies! Your libido is off the charts bro.

Joseph had enough of this. He'd crush his phone with his big strong hands if he didn't have the money to replace it.

Joseph: Now listen here! I know I love a good flexing or two but I wouldn't say I have a high libido! Besides... I'm not manly enough I don't got a beard or any cool tattoos...

G3NI3: Come on, Josef! You're the manliest they come! With a luscious ginger beard and a tattoo of a cross between your tits AND one on your left arm you're peak masculinity! And you even married a WOMAN. Sure it didn't last but it's something!

Josef: You really think so? Aw shucks. Maybe if I was a faggot we could've dated... as if! The only thing I love more than muscles is a good looking women to take home and fuck silly.

G3NI3: Focus Josef. Use that bald head of yours for once and think! You came here because you didn't think Carlito doesn't want to hang out with you right?

Josef: Yes... we might've been bros since middle school but idk ever since me and the divorce with Kate it just doesn't feel like the same...

G3NI3: Puh-lease. You guys are two peas in a bro-pod. Do you really think Carlito would send you this if you weren't bros for life?

Josef: Ah I remember that! Carlito made those fags think they had a chance with him when he and Maria been fuckin' for years! Got a good laugh out of that!

Carlito: Exactly! Who would send that to a straight friend otherwise!

Josef: You're right... What did I have to worry about? Me and Carlito? We're buds for life!

Just then a knock came at the door.

"Dad! Carlito's here!" "Coming, Son!"

Josef: Welp, looks like Carlito's here. Thanks for the talk G3NI3. Always appreciate ya!

G3NI3: No problem! and remember... you asked for this

Josef: W-Wha?

G3NI3: Nothing! Bye

"And to think that's my therapist... Anyways gotta get ready for my bro!" Josef got up from his seat and left his bedroom stationed at the 2nd floor of his house. Gotta thank Kate for that child support money. But before he could enter the hallway...

"Son! I told you no underwear and caps in the house! Put some damn clothes on!"

Sorry pa, I just loveee my muscles. Do you mind if a girl comes over tonight? I think it'll work this time!"

"'Course Son. The Women will love ya! You get it from your old man!" Josef flexes to make his point clear.

"Thanks dad!" Josef's son flexes back before getting ready for his date.

"How did I get lucky enough to get a son like that?" Josef chuckled. He might not got much but at least he has son and his bro Carlito.

"Oh right! Carlito!" Josef almost forgot to get ready so he grabbed a fresh set of clothes and went to go change in the bathroom.

Before he changed Josef did one quick flex in the mirror.

"G3NI3 wasn't kidding. That libido of mine is ready to go!" Josef was proud of his physique. But now's not the time for that he has to go meet his bro.

Josef adorned his massive figure with a tank top saying "BEAST" and some killer designer shades he was ready to finally answer that door. With a strong force Josef opened the door to find the man himself, Carlito.

"Hola amigo. Have you seen that faggot Josef anywhere? Haha!"

"Oh come on Carlito, you know I'm as straight as an arrow!" Josef said back in a playful tone.

"Would you change your mind if I were to... do this?" Carlito took his shirt and removed his shades and did a flex right in front of Josef.

"...."

"..."

"..." "GAHAHAHA" The two large man laughed in unison.

"Nah bro, you're my bro forever and always." Josef smiled.

"As always mi amigo, now let's rapido we're gonna be late for our gym sess!" Carlito put his shirt and shades back on and headed for his luxury car.

As for Josef he didn't have a car as cool as Carlito but had a car from the 2000's and it was like his second child but don't tell Josef's son that. But before he got in his car Josef took a moment to feel his masculinity in the car window's reflection.

"I look damn fine."

And So Josef and Carlito went to have grand old brotime together. Working out together like true bros, hanging out at the bar like true bros, and of course trying to get Josef with a woman for the 30th time this month. You'd think they were a couple but nah they're both straight as arrows no doubt about that. Josef lived a happy life despite his circumstances and that meant more time to flex flex FLEX!

Safe to say he was a real... daddy. He's even got the kid to show for it.

[verycharismaticdragon]

On Air Island - chapter 1 - part 8

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First things first, I'm back from my vacay, so bye-bye broken formatting and editing on the phone!

Meanwhile, we have reached the last installment in Chapter 1. Without further ado, let's tune in!~

(the transcript is available below the poll, under keep reading)

And that's it for Chapter 1! Everyone of note has shown their faces, though we will get to know them better with time. Or not, depending on our choices?.. Anyway, we will be starting Chapter 2 with the next choice! Speaking of which,

Transcript legend:

In-game text

Character speaking: dialogue line

regular chat message Donation: donation message

available donation messages

{ Alternative translation }

|| 🏅 award (achievement) collected ||

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Hanse: Oh......? I've never met you before.

[player] donated 50 Small Spade: Okay, let's talk about what happened earlier.

Hanse: Uh, uh, uh...... that, that's......

BurBur: Hahahahah kimbab: He's telling him

Haggai: Hmm? Do you want to say something?

ReVeLub2: You should have said it then LockHim: Yeah

Hanse: Actually, before I got here......

[Hanse explaining himself] [small chattering sound]

KimPearl: That's a bit too much CloseEye: Fyuh thanks god he talks about it

Hanse: ....something happened. { …and that’s what happened. }

ImABear: It's too frustrating and i was gonna stop watching BegLove: Me too

Hanse: I was wondering if it was what Haggai had ordered.

Igiveu: Haggai? NARICHAN: That's too much nazang12: ikr

Haggai: Oh... ... ...It did happen, and it must have surprised you. { Oh… So that’s what happened. You must’ve been very surprised. }

Haggai: It was a festival we've been looking forward to for a long time, so we must have been very sensitive. { It’s a festival we've been looking forward to for a long time, so everyone was very sensitive, it seems. }

winkhans: Not so sensitive Universe: I did not get why they took off his clothes, give him some reward

Haggai: I'll take care to prevent the same thing from happening. Bjorn, please.

123123: Hmmm CloseEye: Can we believe it... GuardHim: Idk danchu1: The villagers were so harsh

Bjorn: … ...Yes, please. { ……Yes. Please leave it to me. }

Haggai: Since it was my fault, I'll make the penalty easy for you. Come this way.

Hanse: Ah... ... Yes! Gentlemen, I'll be back!

ilovebts: Bye~ LookOnly: Good luck!

[loud and small shouting] [sound of things banging]

… …

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Haggai: Mmmm. That's enough for now. Thank you for your help, Hanse.

Haggai: You may now go back to your group. || 🏅 Fulfillment of a Penalty ||

cnbuild: Finally, it's done outnow: Hanse looks so tired, be gentle with him WALKOAI: You didn't even feed him and what is this? Mr.Go: Empty stomach exercise

Hanse: Hmph, hmph...... thank you! Now, if you'll excuse me first!

hansevly: You've worked hard... License: Why is he so weak? He is an idol isn't he? SirNine: That's why he is a flop Universe: Try to do it yourself ha

[loud and small shouting]

Hanse: Ah... ... I'm so hungry, I can't move anymore. I'll just go a little slower because I don't want to fall over.

KimBokC: Be careful HsWAVE: Is there any meal? weekend donated 5 Ordinary Heart: Get some money from the donation and let's buy some food Hanse!

Hanse: What? With the donation you got? Really......? I didn't even think about it......! { What? Use donations? Really……? I didn't even think about that……! }

ottse: Wow nice hanseria: Yeah WOLKER: Let's just try everything Thiefin: You should ask Nari to help to get some food Expose: Clinging to Nari again? Unknown: Nari is full of people clinging to her

Hanse: Well, then, this is the time....... I'll show my professionalism.

Hanse: I'll do anything! Please donate to me!

Sing! (Claps) Sing! (Claps) Sing! (Claps)

Dance! (Claps) Dance! (Claps) Dance! (Claps)

How about going old-school and taking off your t-shirt?

[antiendovents]

heyyy its ussss! its r (or maybe Eva idk) (nope yeah its r) and I just wanted to say you're awesome!!! (EVA GET OUT) we think you are super cool,sorry, but evalynn wanted to say smth to ya.

hiiiiiiii I think you're so cool and um I'm back and feeling way better and anyway yea love you (platonically) you're so cool yeah 💕💖

well that was rather embarrassing. the love letter we were referencing was our second message to you, in which saturn got way too in detail about me.

we are not dating lol, I have a gf (well, me and Eva share her, I think Saturn is aroace and evalynn is a child so yeah) (and our other alters almost never front) (cept one but I do not want to introduce her to you because she sucks and I really hate her) (shes very abrasive and generally assholey, she yells a lot at r and the rest of us).

anyway uhhhhh yeah I have like a quick question. can an alter have a backstory that's basically me but kinda tweaked? so evalynns backstory is basically mine (I'm the host), except I have a lot of trauma from COVID so for her COVID never happened. shes like forever in third grade, before COVID started and um kinda like a fictive but from real life. she also hates reminders of COVID so I'm gonna make sure she does not read the rest of this message cuz her mental health is already sorta iffy!!!

OH I NEED TO WARN YOU BOUT SMTH. my parents raised me z!onist and I'm not anymore cuz like... a lot of very obvious reasons, but evalynn does not have the skills to process this, so she generally does not talk about any of this. I've been doing my very best to make sure she doesn't know anything, so she may be a bit oblivious. we were never the sort of z!onist who wanted to like, kill everyone (tho I know some of those) we actually thought that the west bank and gaza should be allowed to be its own country even when we were younger, but she is still very connected to israel (we are Israeli, but again, stand for Palestine) so ummm please ignore her lol anyway bye lol (insert nervous laughter)

PLEASE DONT HATE US

-🌌🌠

hi again you two!! Thank you so much! You seem cool too (all of you) :D

And hi Evalynn! You're awesome and I'm glad you're feeling better now! Love you too (platonically ofc!) and I hope you have a great day(or night depending on where you are in the world!)

Also I didn't even notice that lol! When I go back now yeah that kind of was a love letter lol! but I guess a platonic love letter since you have a girlfriend and they're aroace?? Either way it's kind of cute (like in the way where you see best friends or siblings give eachother gifts or care about eachother a lot and you just go "awh")

And don't worry about that, we kind of get that! We'd probably introduce ourselves too if we didn't switch so much, infact we still need to work on introductions on our personal blog, we just don't know who to do cause they either stop fronting for a long time or cant be bothered to do it (and also we have a few alters like that, so we get why you might not want to introduce her to us, but either way you should know she's welcome here even if she is a bit "assholey")

And yeah, it is possible for alters to have similar but different "backstories" or whatever one would want to call it! I'd assume it would be that your brain just witholds memories of COVID from her due to it being too traumatic or stressful for her to handle, which might explain why she only seems to remember what happened before COVID and why she doesn't like reminders of it? (I don't know, I'm making assumptions based on how our system works a little, but our point is yeah it's entirely possible!)

And that's fine, we don't hate you for that. You cannot control how you were raised or what your parents believe in or even where you were born, you've changed and recognised that the belief is harmful and that's good enough, that's literally all you can do. It's understandable that some alters may not be able to fully process it, sometimes these things can be incredibly complicated and trying to change what you grew up with is hard, we're proud of you for doing it anyways, even if not all of you understand it perfectly

[drop-dead-dropout]

NEW USERNAME local-queer-disappointment -> drop-dead-dropout

unpinning my other post because i want to talk a little about me and this space that i've created! hi i'm alex and i dropped out of high school twice lol

i think a dni is stupid because people never listen anyways, which is why i haven't had one, but i still see the value in at least telling people who this little corner is for.

also YELL AT ME ON DISCORD I'M woahits_alex.mp3 IF U ASK ME ABOUT FIC RECS FOR MY FANDOMS I'LL CRY WITH HAPPINESS

anyways opinion stuff under the cut. you don't have to read it, and you don't even have to listen if you do, but i might argue with you (<- serial arguer) so if you want to avoid the Discourse here ya go.

you are welcome here:

- ALL queers. trans men, trans women, nonbinary, intersex, poc queers, xenogender, "contradictory" labels like mspec gays/lesbians lesboys/turigirls/sapphileans (omg it's me!!), slur reclaims, detransitioners (who are not transphobic), mspec lesbians, aro/ace and all variations thereupon, unlabeled, questioning, etc. i love all of you. i love the community that we share. we are family, whether or not some of us want to be, and exclusionism is Not Funky Fresh!!

- pro Palestine!! i don't always rb posts as much as i used to (i am scared of spreading misinformation) but i think i'll start doing that again! (don't forget your daily click guys)

- jewish people. i am specifically adding this one to say that because of the shitty Everything, i've seen a lot of concerning antisemitic stuff recently so i'm just, yk, putting this out there.

- disabilities/cluster b disorders/systems/AAC users. i am not any of these things so if i say/do something out of line please tell me! but i love you guys and you're absolutely welcome here.

- proshippers (if this bothers you block and move on)

- furries. not personally one of y'all but i think you're neat and you make cool art :]

- literally, like, anyone, as long as you're not a dick

you are not welcome here:

- terfs, transphobes, exclusionists, anti-mspec, anti-lesboy, and people who think transandrophobia is "fake" or whatever. go away i don't like you (or at least be prepared to be blocked or yelled at)

- similarly to last, anyone who starts queer infighting or hates on less visible queers/strangers who don't "look" queer, the whole "bi girl's straight bf" nonsense (i don't care if you think someone is cishet. you have no way of knowing that. let's stop hating people for immutable characteristics and start having thoughtful criticisms of people's actions thanks)

- ZIONISTS. BYE BYE

- (but also antisemites because come on now let's notttt. judiasm ≠ zionism)

- ableists, fatphobia, racists/bigots, general dickheads

- antishippers (again, you can either leave now or expect to be argued with)

other general stuff:

- i accept anonymous asks! and also non anonymous ones. ask me shit idk

- i am autistic and VERY gullible. if i reblog a "bait" post, or something that's clearly fake or a joke with a genuine reaction, i'm probably not playing some 5d irony chess i'm probably just stupid. sorry y'all i'm trying :\

- i don't rb nsfw. not as, like, a rule, i just don't see the value in doing so lol. if i ever did i'd tag it and probably update this

UPDATE: thought i should clarify, i don't rb nsfw but i do rb nsfw humor, like dick jokes and stuff. hope there's no confusion

- i argue with people!! i enjoy arguing with people!! usually it's in replies and not reblogs but still. if you are allergic to stuff like that maybe don't follow me? i also rb "discourse" posts, mostly transmasc support stuff and callouts of transandrophobia, general solidarity stuff with the trans community or lgbt community as a whole, proship stuff, politics, current events, that kinda thing.

- this is, shockingly, supposed to be a fandom blog! (i got carried away; i always do.) current fandoms include: ace attorney (the one this blog was supposed to be about), doctor who (childhood hyperfixation come back to bite my ass), and splatoon (no excuse). also mha is basically my abusive boyfriend stockholm syndroming me to stay at this point but i'm trying to get better (not). you can find the records of my failing recovery at @alex-is-losing-sleep-over-krbk /hj (i also sometimes shamelessly rb this blog's posts over there lol)

and i guess since i'm mentioning fandoms, here are my fav ships: wrightworth, klapollo, franmaya, thoschei, pearlina, agent 24, & cuttletavio.

anyways, that's about it. love you all :]

[leelixen]

a question and you. -----------------------

fluff-ishy? non-idol!au Felix, collegestudent!reader, Felix is called Helix, un-revised, written in first-person pov, curse words, that's it, idk (1.65k words)

"what would happen if your soulmate, just pops out of nowhere? Like parang isang notification from your phone. would you click on it and face your reality?"

my best friend Jia asked me. Hi, I'm (Y/N). A Working College Student at Pyeiru National University. 

"shut your mouth jia, and just listen to the prof," I said in a whisper. I wouldn't want our professor to catch us chit-chatting while he's discussing.

"(Y/N), Would you mind answering the question written on the board?" Our professor asked.

"Yes, sir." I stood up from my chair and walked my way to the whiteboard. I picked up the pen and started writing the formula and solutions for the question. It's not like I'm going to school without even advanced reading, right?

HEALTH BREAK

"So, can you answer what I asked you earlier?" Jia asked as if she couldn't be bothered until I answered her question.

"I would, of course. But I want our relationship to grow even when we started as friends, the way we start being comfortable with each other. So that when we move to the next level, our relationship will continue to grow stronger. but you know, ji, I don't believe in love. I don't want to get my heart broken, again."

Jia smiled as if I had said something that made her happy. I was talking about my ex, Sam. Yes, we broke up on good terms, but I knew he cheated on me behind my back. With my ex-BFF, Lia.

"What?" I asked with a confused face. 

"amazing, bff! the answer is Miss Universe-like! what if you join Miss PNU This Year?"she said while giggling.

"You're full of what ifs, what if you eat first, right? to fill your brain," I said then rolled my eyes.

"fine, I'll eat a lot." she said sarcastically then chuckled." luckily, the bell rang.

"We don't have 3 subjects together? aw I hope you don't miss me too much, my (Y/N)~"

Jia said while walking towards the hallway. I pouted, but in my mind, I was happily sad.

we parted ways and finished the rest of the day. I walked home with Jia, and her boyfriend Jake.

"Alright, my house is near. I can walk by myself. It's like I'm the third wheel to you guys. HAHAHA" I said smiling

"alright then, bye bff!" Jia said, habang naka-holding hands sila ni Jake.

"bye bye ji! jake!" I smiled at both who looked so cute.

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A Week After. University's Entrance, 6 AM

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"EXCUSE ME! I'M GOING TO BE LATE!" I said While running to my classroom.

I panted while I tried to control my breath to normal speed.

It's a good thing, I'm not late. Whoot whoot! Overthinker (Y/N) indeed.

I walked inside my classroom and made my way to my table. I saw a black-haired boy that I never saw around the campus. Is this guy new? I wondered.

He saw me, And Looked at me right in the eye. And Oh boy, I never felt this kind of feeling before. You know? The feeling as if the worm in your stomach shook and then your bones weakened.

"Good Morning." He greeted.

"Good Morning!" I greeted him back with cheer.

"Are you new here? Hindi pa kasi nakikita around the campus." I asked curiously.

"Yes, I'm new here. I'm  Helix Lee, By The Way. You?" He replied.

It's like I was so nervous that with one more word from him, I could faint.

"(Y/N) at Your Service! This class' and Student Council's President!" I said proudly.

"wow, you must be very smart! no wonder you are a beauty," he said while staring into my eyes.

"hey, I'm being fluttered here." 

I said to my brain. do you think i'd have the nerve to tell him that? NEVER.

"Thank you! But I'm not that pretty, nor smart." i smiled at him.

The professor entered and our eyes were glued to the board. Jia messaged me that she won't be able to attend for the week, due to family matters. The weird part is, Why is Jake with her?

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HEALTH BREAK

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Helix was stuck to me like glue. It's alright since he's new, and I volunteered to give him a Tour Around the campus. We were now eating our snacks while chit-chatting.

"So, can I see your timetable?" I asked. He gave his timetable to me and I smiled.

"Wow, we have all subjects together! Looks like you'll be stuck with me throughout the rest of the school year. HAHAHA" I laughed

"Yeah, But I Don't Mind HAHAHA," Helix said. 

a month passed, and We were getting closer by the day. 

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"HEY LEE HELIX! GIVE IT TO ME!" I screamed while running through the campus hallways. 

"CATCH ME IF YOU CAN~!" he shouted back at me.

5 minutes later, napagod din kami. I went to my locker and grabbed my book, cursing him under my breath.

"look at you, Helix. I hope you'll have nightmares later when you sleep, fuck you, bitch."

I kept whispering to myself, not knowing he was right behind me.

"fuck you too, babe," he said while holding my phone.

I could almost faint when he said the word "babe", gosh, helix lee! what are you doing to me...

"Whatever. give me back my phone!" I said bringing back the topic.

"a boy texted. who is it?" he asked curiously.

"none of your business, lix. now leave me alone!" I said while my eyes were glued to my phone, checking my notifications.

"How can I leave you alone if you're the only person I'm close to here?" He replied to me that I'm really his only friend but he has his own friend group.

"go to Lewis and Jay!" I said turning my eyes from my phone to him.

"They are absent, so I will really stick to you today" ethan said while smirking.

The bell rang. Oh gosh, A whole day with him? I can't.

on our way to our first class, ang daming tanong ni ethan.

"So what did the message say?"

"No, it's just shopee delivery, are you a gossip too?"

"ahh, I thought it was your boyfriend."

"You think I already have a boyfriend? Sorry, I'm studying first." I said while I chuckled.

he laughed.

We finished the day, and we walked together to go home.

"Where are you from, Helix?" I asked due to curiosity.

His accent is different, even though it's English, I hear something else.

"I was born in Australia, Then we moved here when I was 8," he said, and then smiled.

Why does it seem like I know him.. Have we met before, you heart-stealer?

"Did you have a boyfriend before?" he asked while still walking, his eyes on me.

"I... Yes." I said nervously.

"If I may, Can I Ask why you broke up?" he asked carefully.

I felt really comfortable near him, and it has only been a week.

"he.. he was cheating behind my back. with my ex-best friend, but I didn't tell him that I knew. I just told him that I needed to focus on my studies." I told him, and I really felt relieved that I told someone that I could trust, other than Jia, of course.

"Oh. I'm so sorry for asking." he looked at me with his eyes, like he was about to cry.

"it's okay. I'm here, thank you for walking with me. Bye, Lix." I said and waved my hand to him as I was walking inside my house.

"Bye, Baby." Helix said, but Euri didn't hear him say "Baby".

---------- Next Saturday, Euri's House ---------- iMessage -

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jia my bbq  😘👹

heyy, when will you go home? imy 😭

i'm sorry (Y/N), my parents extended:( myt!

aww, I decided to run for Miss PNU, I was expecting you to be there!

Omg!? don't worry! I'll find a way to book a flight back immediately!

gtg, mi Amor! byebye<33

bye bye (y/n):)) ----------------------------------------------------------

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I closed my phone and went to the front door.

"Hi (Y/N)!" Helix said.

"Oh, Why did you come here?" I asked politely, of course.

"It's boring at home, can I come in?" He asked with puppy eyes.

"Yes, thank you, I'm separated from Dad, or else he'll kill you," I said chuckling.

"Your dad is scary." He said while entering.

"Come on, Let's play Roblox"

"What game?" I asked as I opened the game.

"Tower of Hell"

When I heard those words, I knew I was going to die. I'm bad at such games!!

30 Minutes later...

"FUCKING HELL! I'M CLOSE TO THE TOP"

I screamed, I was really close to rage quit.

"It's just a movie, you can kill people later. HAHAHAHAHA" ethan said, making me laugh.

Let's just say, It was a not-so-good or too-good idea.

There was an 18+ scene in the movie.

of course, it will be awkward!

"Uhh.. I'm just going to get some snacks from the Kitchen." I said, excusing myself.

I washed my hands after making some snacks. But then..

Helix hugged my waist, making me freeze from my spot.

"H-helix..?" I asked, nervously at what could happen at any time.

"Hmm..?" He hummed in response.

His breath fanged through my neck as he rested his chin my my shoulder.

Oh gosh, Lord, I'm not ready to die!!

"(Y/N).. Don't you really remember me?" Helix spoke, breaking the silence.

"Huh..?" I asked

I couldn't say anything, I wanted to speak but nothing came out.

"Childhood Best Friend..? Heli?" he asked, trying to ring any bell.

and he sure did.

 I turned around, and our faces were inches apart.

"Heli..?" I asked if he knew that nickname.

"Yes?"

"Is it really you?" I asked just to make sure.

My heart was glad, and I felt like that puzzle in my heart was complete.

"Yes, that's it. It's me, Helix."

I hugged him so tight that I forgot the faucet was open, And I still didn't realize it.

"Have I ever told you how much I loved you since we were kids?" He asked me, waiting for my reply.

Was this his way of confessing..?

"Oh Heli, I love you too."

Saying that I felt his soft lips on mine. It was amazing.

Our kiss was a passionate one. he made me feel like We were the only people in this universe. A Euphoric, Dreamy, Passionate Kiss.

That experience... He made me feel a way others can't make me.

We both pulled out and decided to cuddle in my room and Reminisce our old memories together.

And then I realized..

"Oh my, the Faucet in the Kitchen is on!!"

taglist: n/a

[wolverineluvr]

I'm sorry for being weak.

(He's prolly a bit ooc, I don't know I to make him if you have some tips it'd be great!)

(Tw: None that I know of!)

You were walking up the stairs in Wangshu inn (tell me if I'm wrong please) bringing almond tofu to Xiao. You would say you're friends but you're trying to get him to be your friend. You finished walking up the stairs and saw him sitting on the fence. (idk if he does that) "Xiao!! I have your food!" You exclaimed as you walked over to him. "Hand it over." He said. "Mhm!" You nodded and gave it to him, and watched him start to eat it. "Why are you looking at me like that, leave."

"Oh, sorry if I made you uncomfortable! I just wanted to know if you liked it!" You say. "It's fine." He said and went back to eating. And you stood there untill he finished. As you picked up the plate you asked. "How was your day?" "Why do you keep asking it was fine." He said in an annoyed tone. "Ah, I'm sorry!" You apologized and started to walk away. "See you tomorrow!" You said as you walked away.

Time skip

When you started walking home it started raining, so when you got home you were reasonably wet. (🤨) You walked to your bedroom and getting out your clothes you sneezed. You shrugged it off and went to take a shower. When you got out you dried your hair (or not) and your body. Then you changed and went to sleep.

When you woke up you had a stuffed nose and felt stuffy yourself. Then it hit you, you were sick. You didn't want to stay home today but you knew Goldet (?) wouldn't let you work. You sighed and got up to get some food, then you went to sleep again.

Timeskip

You woke up and groaned you felt horrible. You looked out a window and realized it's night. You wondered if Xiao was relieved to not have you there, maybe you bothered him. The thought made you sad but you got up and got some food, a drink and a book. Then you sat back down and started to read.

Xiaos pov

Where are they, they're normally here by now.. Was it because of what I said? No they said they would see me today, so where are they?..

Y/ns pov

After reading for a few hours you decide to take a small walk around your house, maybe talk to Goldet. So you put on some warm clothes and a scarf and started walking to Wangshu Inn. After a while of walking you felt weaker, but you kept going because, you were almost there!

When you got there you sighed and started walking up the stairs, after a little you got to where Goldet was. "Ah, Goldet!" You said. "Y/n! Where were you? You didn't show up for work today?" She said. (I'm sorry idk how she acts) "Sorry! I got sick so I couldn't show up.." You said. "Y/n, why are you always so reckless!" She scolded and you bowed your head and apologized again. Once she finished scolding you she spoke again. "I think Xiao might've been waiting for you." She said as she wiggled her eyebrows. (Again sorry if the doesn't act like that) "Really? You think so? But he always acts so annoyed when I'm with him.. Nah he probably wasn't, thank you though!" As you said that she sighed. "Well at least go check up on him!" She said. "No I won't bother him today, well tell him I said hello! Bye Goldet!" You said as she said ok and waved at you.

You speed walked away, down the stairs and back to your house.

2 weeks later

You walk up the stairs and to Xiao. "Xiao! Hey, your foods here!" You say. "Ah thanks." He muttered as you handed him his food, but you still heard him. "You're welcome!" He slightly blushed and started eating and you noticed it started raining, and stood next to him and looked at the rain. "Do you like the food?" You asked. "It's fine" He said and you smiled at him. After awhile you notice it's starting to thunder. So you got up. "I got to go, sorry Xiao." You said and started to walk away. "What's wrong?" Xiao quietly asked. "It's nothing, I just don't wanna get sick again!" You said as you smiled at him and walked away.

When you finished walking down the stairs you sighed as you knew it was going to be hard to sleep tonight. And headed to your house.

48 minutes later

You finally got home, unlocked the door, opened the door and closed the door. You flinched as you heard the thunder get louder. You locked the door and walked to your bedroom and changed clothes. You laid on the bed and wrapped your blanket around you and tried to fall asleep.

Later

You walked up the steps and up to Xiao. It started thundering, you flinched and Xiao saw it. "Hm? What's wrong?" "N-nothing I'm fine!" You said. "You sure?" He asked. "Yea!" You exclaimed. He grabbed your chin. "Don't lie to me." He said. "Okay I'm sorry! I'm scared of thunder.." You said. "Oh." He let go of your chin. "So you're weak." He said. "N-no! I just.." He scoffed as you trailed off and started to walk away. "Wait, I'm sorry don't leave Xiao please!" You said as you fell to your knees.

"Xiao, don't go please I'm sorry.." You muttered. Xiao stood Infront of your sleeping form, as you kept asking him to not leave. He realized you were having a nightmare when you started to cry. He then started to wake you. "Y/n, wake up. Y/n!" He said multiple times and you woke up.

You were confused, what's going on? Why was he here? Then you realized, you must've called him in your sleep. Oh God you're so embarrassed. "Xiao, I'm so sorry!" You said then wiped your tears and got up. "It's ok.." He said as it thundered loudly and you flinched. "What were you dreaming about?" Xiao asked. "Nothing it's fine." You said. "I know it's not fine, just tell me." He asked again. "No, no it's okay!" You smiled and chuckled. "Tell me Y/n." He said. "Okay.. I'm, scared of thunder.." You said quietly not wanting him to leave. "Oh." He said.

"Why didn't you want to tell me?" He asked. "I thought that you'd think I'm weak and pathetic.." You explain. "Y/n, I'd never think that of you." "Really?" You asked him and he nodded. You hugged him. "Thank you.." You said as you sniffle. "Do you wanna go back to sleep?" He asked. "Yes, please.." You said softly and he slowly put you back down and laid in front of you. You put your face in his chest and hugged his waist. You started to fall asleep. "I love you Xiao..." He then put his chin atop your head. "Love you too.."

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(Idk if that was good I apologize if I misspelled anything please do tell me!

Anyways have a great day/night/morning/evening! <33)

[celestie0]

Hello ellie! 😍 im just here to drop a ‘few’ words so don’t mind me 🤪 (i fear it may have turned into a yapsesh oopsies!)

Help omg idk if this is tmi but like im on my period and I was reading chap 3 of ihm right… and how could i prevent myself from laughing at my fav goofy ahh lighthearted romcom series on tumblr? 😔 put 2 and 2 together and boom i had my ketchup bottle moment when reading the dialogue bye 💀🤚 I LITERALLY HAD TO STOP FOR A MOMENT TO PROCESS WTH JUST HAPPENED LOL

Anyway, i rlly LOVEEEE your writing style for ihm,, the goofiness n domesticity is what I need as therapy for the heart wrenching angst fics ive read 😤 the way you write y/n + gojo’s dynamic and quarrels never fail to make me crack up like an egg and i love you for that 😔 THANK YOU FOR CREATING A COMFORT FIC FOR US ALL 🥺🫶

I hope I’m not stepping out of line here but your feelings abt the smut in ihm is totally valid and i understand you. That anon probs didn’t intend on bringing any harm but like there’s bountiful of smut in the jjk fandom that I’m sure they could have read instead of commenting smth so ignorant and disrespectful 🥲 Pls every time i search ‘jjk x reader’ in the search tab, i’m always greeted by endless posts of smut one-shots 😭 but fr this fandom actually needs to stop being a buncha horny brainrots bc im actually over repetitive and predictable smut,, everything just feels so shallow :,0 (everyone is entitled to their own opinion so dont atk me pls) and them invading your personal space by demanding smut is just not it… and we all know you don’t have to cater to them bc u don’t owe them anything! no need to listen to the smut hungry anons bc they don’t even care abt the blood, sweat and tears you pour into ur fics if they’re pushing you to write smut 😡‼️ they can go fulfil their dirty desires somewhere else ;-;

Words seriously cannot express how much I love your stories and just wanna applaud you for not immediately jumping into smut and actually having relationship buildup,, it makes the stories have sustenance and ik u want ur fics to be memorable in a unique way to your lovely readers 😇 but we seriously need a smut ban n touch grass movement in the jjk fandom for a bit bc this is getting out of hand 😭

I LOVE YOU ELLIE AND PLS DONT BE DISCOURAGED BY THESE SILLY ANONS BC AT THE END OF THE DAY THEY R NOTHING + YOUR SUPPORT SYSTEM (us ACTUAL readers and gojo) WILL ALWAYS HAVE UR BACK AND SHOWER U IN THE LOVE THAT U DESERVE!!! ❤️

hiii bb!! PLEASE the ketchup bottle moment sent me to the moon also so fucking relatable xD and omg i'm so glad you enjoy the lightheartedness of ihm so far!! it's been sm fun to write and it's become a comfort fic of my own as well <33

thanks so much for the support on the smut thing <3 i've been toggling back n forth between feeling awful for coming at that anon like that vs being glad i stood up for myself lol, but ultimately, i just needed to share my perspective. i don't think they were trying to be rude either, which is why i felt bad, but i spoke my truth lol

and i totally agree w you (pls no one attack me either) but i'm honestly kind of sick of just seeing straight smut on my feed. like it's fine when i'm in the mood but the tumblr algorithm for jjk feels like your partner constantly begging you for sex 24/7 lol. but yea power to whatever someone wants to read, but don't impose it on an author.

anywho i've been talking a lot ab this situation lolol i feel like there's nothing i haven't said anymore but i totally agree w everything you've said!

thanks sm for you lovely words of support bb :'') i love u tooo and i'm so blessed to have the community of support i have on here!! this situation has definitely made me realize i'm not alone. have a wonderful dayyy (also hope your period is treating you well) <3

[mixedkid-matchup]

you do not have to answer this!! I'm using you to confess my dubious feelings for the Percy Jackson series bc you also expressed like some weird feelings about it, and I kind of thought the series was untouchable bc of how much everyone I see fawns over it, and I have GOT to get this off my chest to someone who might get what I'm saying. But I have major issues with the writing/premise/series bc it's just feels so deeply colonized and it's bothered me since it FIRST came out and everyone in middle school and high school was reading it and teachers were assigning it. Like the whole premise for the Greek gods being in the US is that they follow Western "progress" and it completely disregards all the amazing things Indigenous did and our way of life, and also removes the importance of place-based culture for both Greek stories and Native peoples (like okay all the Greek stuff moved to the U.S. but wth happened to all our spiritual figures?? The story completelya cts like Native people weren't here and didn't have complex beliefs and ways of life connected to the land, and the gods were just free to take over here with no issues). As a mixed Indigenous kid it just rubs me wrong in all the worst ways and the academic systems love affair with Greek and Roman stuff and Rick Riordan's sheer popularity has been forcing this stuff in my face foreveeeerrrr 😭😭 I was surprised to see your tags about the fandom being weird before too tho since I don't interact with it, so I hope you don't mind this ask and just know I kinda feel the same way!! Ok thanks bye sorry for the rant.

BRO I HAVE HAD THIS RANT ON HAND FOR A LONG TIME ITS OKAY!!!!!!!!!

I THINK IF HEARD ABOUT THIS ACTUALLY. but you explained it way better. like when i first read percy jackson ok fine i was 11, i obviously caught onto the ableism and such but i did not catch onto this until i thought about it when i got older. you're super right. the whole thing about ww2 being caused by demigods was the weirdest shit ever i literally did not remember reading it until i read lightning thief again last year. why did hitler need to be child of hades. THAT IS QUITE LITERALLY HOW PERCY DESCRIBES HADES WHEN HE SEES HIM. LOOKING LIKE HITLER. then what you're saying how they move with the places that are the most progressive and basically take over..... like it's just ..... incredibly misplaced and insensitive.

but about the fandom being weird (its literally encouraged by riordan's book tbh), in heroes of olympus, hazel is a black girl from lousiana in the 1930s?? or 40s idk anyways i think she dies and then nico brings her back. whatever, everyone draws her lightskin and with orange hair, and super skinny, (which she's from louisana. shes darkskin and does not have "caramel" hair i hate white men sometimes.) and shes like 13 btw and in a relationship with frank whos like 16. weird as hell and everyone thinks theyre so sweet. and also rick cannot write meaningful young women. and especially not girls of color. like its WEIRD how piper is portrayed as some pick me girl she constantly feels the need to express shes not like the Aphrodite girls. and rick had to make it weird with aphrodite anyway by making them a whole stereotype of snobby boys and girls who love putting on makeup. they had drew, an asian girl & counselor of aphrodite, straight up mean to piper bc she likes jason. like for no other reason. drew only wants to participate and go on the quest because of jason. and other stereotypes like making leo, latine, be super flirty.

and lets really talk about how annoying annabeth was about the blondes are dumb stereotype because, girl we can talk about misogyny and people not letting you do things because of it, but lets also talk about how you are TWELVE, and the blonde stereotype is tired. i never liked annabeth, she was really tone deaf as someone whos half black. OH AND FRANK. they had this weird ass arc where they implied he was fat because of lack of confidence? like when he got confident he, lost weight... because of a blessing of mars? i dont even know.

like as i get older its more and more annoying to see it. i literally rolled my eyes when i saw rick talking about colorblind casting when people got mad about annabeth. he could of said anything else. how this could reconceptualize annabeth's arc around misogyny and now racism. and purposely alter her character to fit this new black annabeth. but no. people treat colorblind casting as a pinnacle of progressiveness.

[jalebi-weds-bluetooth]

Hi AJ. Shy anon here.

I was wondering if you could give me some advice.

I recently started working. It's part of the reason why I haven't been on Tumblr as much as before. The thing is that this isn't the first time I have gotten a job. I've worked for a couple of years before. But this time around the circumstances are very different. My family's financial situation is bad rn because an incident happened at our old home and we had to move to a brand new house. Plus the timing of this was just after my marriage so a lot of expenses had already gone into wedding stuff anyway. My husband has a job and he's had the same job with a steady income since even before we started dating. But he's the only one earning in the family. So we discussed the entire situation and decided that I would also start working again so that the entire pressure isn't just on him.

The issue is that every time I go to work I feel extremely guilty. My in laws are fully supportive and we discussed this with them before I found a job. But my mother in law is now taking care of the house by herself. And she's not exactly sick, touchwood. But I still feel horrible that she has to cook and clean and do everything herself now because I'm away at work. I try and do as much of the housework as I can when I'm at home, but it obviously won't be the same as before. She's also been really exhausted mentally because of everything that's happened and I'm usually the person she comes to to talk about things. Woh kehte hain na mann ka boaj halka karne. Waise vaale conversations. So I feel bad about leaving her alone in the house too.

The guilt is so bad to the point where I've spent nights sleepless and crying and apologizing to my husband for everything. Because I really do want to work and help him manage the house financially but I also really don't want to leave all the house responsibilities for maa to handle alone. My husband has been really patient and understanding and he's told me that he's perfectly fine with me not working if I feel guilty about leaving the house. But the thing is I would feel bad about quitting my job now too because I already committed to helping out my husband financially and I really do want to share that responsibility with him.

I'm reaching out to you incase you have some advice or even just some comforting words. I think it would really help me out.

I'm also really sorry for talking about my personal problems on your blog but it just felt easier to talk to you than to anyone irl because I can't find it in me to talk to my parents or relatives about this because idk it seems wrong somehow to discuss sasural ke problems with them. I feel like my sasural waale won't like it.

Thank you for reading the entire message. Please take care.

Bye 🥰

Dear Shy Anon,

Sending you the biggest hugs and care ok. Thank you for trusting me and opening up.

I will try to keep this brief yet constructive so I can offer some comfort as well as advice.

First of all life is about trade offs. That is when you decide something you have to adjust something else. It does not mean one is more important than the other, it just means that in life we all try to take the best decision possible.

What you are doing is EQUALLY AND EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. Providing financially is the core of a household sustenance. Change is tough and you're worrying you're leaving important responsibilities behind but you also have to recognize that you have taken a NEW responsibility. While it's natural to feel worried over not doing your previous responsibilities, executing your new ones perfectly will also comfort and serve your family the way they need. You are being there for your family. It's like this, for breakfast you're now cooking pancakes and juice instead of paratha and dahi. It's a change, but ultimately you are giving breakfast to your family and keeping them fed. Bottom line, you are providing for your family and you need to have your courage with you *hugs*

TIME MANAGEMENT. Somethings are very important for you and your family. Such as spending time with aunty. So even though it's no more an hour long chat but ensure you're spending some time with her by scheduling a routine. Maybe you both have morning chai together. Maybe it's the evening chai. Maybe just before sleeping for the day you spend half an hour together. But ensure a daily time with aunty to ease your anxiety.

SHARE RESPONSIBILITIES. What is most important is to understand you won't be able to do everything you did before. If you expect to do everything or even half of what you did previous to your job, you will fall short on your expectations and be anxious about not doing enough. Just take up one responsibility. Maybe you're doing the morning tea. That's it. Or the night dishes. That's it. I know it does not feel enough but if there's one thing that you and your husband can do - then that's two things off aunty's list.

SAVE FOR HOUSEHELP. I do not know if you have a househelp or not but investing in a good househelp is necessary for the house to smoothly run and I'd definitely recommend saving for that. Share this plan with your husband. Aunty might say it's not at all necessary, lol, but still sit with her after a couple of months and you both select a househelp who will help aunty with major tasks like dusting, mopping, laundry and prepping ingredients.

FAMILY TIME. I understand family is an important aspect for you and small things matter a lot. Maybe every Saturday night it's the family eating dinner and watching a favorite film together. Or it's a small date night with you and Mr Shy Anon. The point of these moments is to try and bring in joy even during stressful times. Because life will always have stress in one way or the other and sustaining relationships even during the tough times matter.

All in all now you have a new responsibility Shy Anon, and by trying to incorporate the new changes while financially providing the best for your family means the most. Write on a wall what's your purpose for your family. That you're working towards a particular goal that is fulfilled with you and your husband working. Sometimes we lose sight as to why we take certain decisions with our fears, anxieties and sadness. But remind yourself every morning that there's a reason why you're working.

Your motivation, courage and happiness is the pillar of your family. When you're positive, so is your family. And please, always cry and let out your fears. Keep messaging me, crying to your husband, saying sorry to aunty to ease your heart when it hurts! And then smile brightly and go forward with purpose. It is so brave to do everything you can to support your family. And honestly I'm just sending big hugs to your whole family for they're all doing their best.

Cry it out my love and stride forward. We're all sending you the biggest positive hugs.

Much love,

AJ (also always check notes cause people leave sweet words in comments!)

[grandaddy-of-all-liars]

Hello my’ mellows, today I will be telling you about Ren and Stimpy characters that I don’t think get enough attention.

Mr Horse

No one talks about him and it weirds me out. he’s not only a FANTASTIC critic but also a snazzy dresser, I mean have you seen that suit he was wearing in Ren Seeks Help? He also was in the army so it’s clear he’s very strong. And to top it all off he’s a very handsome, and I’m surprised that not many people haven’t fell heads over heels over him.

Muddy the Mudskipper

This one is a little more understandable since he didn’t have much of a role in the series, but I still thinks he deserves a mention. KILLER theme song, and cares for his friend enough to take him to a mental asylum to get help (I’m referring to Ren Needs Help). Also is a Hollywood big shot so that’s pretty cool.

The headless boy from APC

I know I briefly already mentioned him in the comment section on your last post, but I feel like I should mention him here too. Some how can operate just fine without a head which is very impressive. Had a kinda cute moment with Stimpy when they were building that house (well chimney I mean). Despite seeming to lose everything and living in a hole he still tried to have as much fun as he possibly can. Overall this character is just wholesome in general and I wish we could see more of him.

Ren’s Mom from APC

This one is gonna be a bit biased since I have a bit of a crush on her, I mean she’s practically a girl version of Ren that fact alone is enough for my lesbian brain go “ME WANT GIANT CHIHUAHUA WIFE” which is a weird thought to have since she’s not a giant, anyway enough of what ever this is let’s get on with the real reasons. She’s very beautiful, but deserves a much better marriage. A lovable psychopath just like her son (this is based off of speculation).

I hope you enjoyed my little TED talk and let me know if you think I missed any (which I probably did). Well bye for now!

i enjoyed reading EVERY word of this thank you so much for sharing your two cents! super ask, thank you for helping me not terminally hyperfix on Ren 0_o

also [chihuahua wife panic], sdhchfhczrf how did I fail to appreciate such a catch that is his mom, I cried when I saw this 💔

ok so we concur:

dapper Mr Horse🔺️

Muddy (the tune is on mental repeat now)🔺️

Headless Boy 🔺️(when hes embarassed and crosses his feet and hangs his lil larynx in shame 🥺)

Ren's stone cold fox Mom🔺️ (does she have a name? confession: i had a kind of awakening when her skirt lifted to reveal the garters 👀)

Submitting for your approval:

Wilbur Cobb - the shit he says plus he's like actively decaying idk why it makes me hysterical. he's completely batshit but kinda sharp still, i mean, pro tip: 'if you call everything crap you're never wrong'

Chuck - i think i actually like him more as a character foil for Ren bc he eggs him on to the point we get to see another side of Ren's pathos, and i like to imagine Ren was once secretly in love with him

Jasper - ok maybe i'm too narrowly focusing on the brotherhood of the dog here, the canine antics are so much fun. wish he were a recurring cameo

Eggyolkeo - please don't hate me for this >.< inanity is my lover and this character is just so hokey and ridiculous i can't not celebrate him. when he performs on stage and Elvis-struts in his cape and gargled into the mic i lost it. plus seeing the boys being all parental is just so darn cute, despite the poor ending

well thank you so much for having me on the show, i had a lot of fun here tonight :) seriously thank you for the stellar topic!!!! i'm sorry it took me forever to reply please feel welcome to send more, i should be getting my life back from work a bit soooooon

[foreverethereal123]

It's @choicesfandomappreciation week. You guys know what that means....

I GET TO RANT🥰🥰 as if I don't do it anyway

It's been a year lmao! Like it's been a FUCKING year but I'll not get too much into that we don't have enough hours for that hahahahfuckmylife BUT what I do want to talk about is how after this fucked up year Tumblr, or more importantly YOU guys helped me make it a little more bearable!!! I know I've been a sucky reader disappearing for weeks on end and giving some people scares that I died! Lol nope still alive 🙂 but the fact that some of you didn't even care whether or not I was still actively reading and made me feel loved turned me into 🥹 I've gotten a LOT closer to some of you in this last year too and for that I am SO thankful!!! I HOPE you guys know that!!!!

Here are some shoutouts before I start to trauma dump publicly and concern people🥰

In no order but only my memory because I'm ✨so good at remembering✨ so if I missed you I'm sorry jdjdjdjdjkdkskdkdjdjdk

@choiceskatie : I'm texting you as I'm writing this because bitch you better come online for this one! Good God I fucking love you! We're fucked up soulmates for LIFE and nothing, I mean absolutely nothing, will ever change that!!! I am not going to be able to write more about how fucking much you mean to me but thank you for being insane (clinically) and whore (lovingly) with me!!🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻

@ao719 : LMAO can you fucking believe what a weirdo I was when I first talked to you Jesus it's a wonder why you didn't block me 💀 BUT HERE WE ARE! I'm still a weirdo and I get to call you one of my closest friends, not just in Tumblr but irl! Dude you're seriously one of the most AMAZING people I've ever met and I don't just say that because of your phenomenal writing I can practically see you squirming so I won't say much now lmao! I love youuuuuu!!!!🌝🦉🦊🌜🌛

@queenrileyrose : RACHEL!! Dude you've been SUCH a support system to me even when I've put you through some...things this year with my breakdowns🥰 You have seen up close what a rollercoaster it's been and you're STILL here and I can't thank you enough for that🥹🥹🥹 I love our ability to ALWAYS be right and rational and practical and I LOVE YOU!!!!🖤💚🖤💚

@burnsoslow : MA'AM YOU WILL FOREVER BE THE ABSOLUTE TALENTED QUEEN OF OUR FANDOM! I said it. It's final. No arguments accepted! Thank you for writing and sharing your stories and being an overall FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC person! I love you!!!💕

@sfb123 : SFB!🥹🥹🥹 You're such an awesome and talented writer I'LL NEVER STOP TELLING YOU THIS!!💕 I love you and Polly SO MUCH and thank freaking you for being my friend and bearing with me even when I'm conspiring against your husband💀!!

@sincerelyella : LITERALLY NO ONE APPRECIATES MY FUNNY ANIMAL REELS LIKE YOU DO!!! NO ONE!! Ahhhh! I miss our shenanigans! I love you so much, my friend!!!🥹💕💕💕

@kat-tia801 : Kat!! I hope you're doing okay 🥹💕💕 I miss reading your stories and seeing your name on my dash hjfkfjdjdjdjdj! You're so freakishly talented dude I just 🙌🏻 lol!

@charlotteg234 : YOU'RE A FF WRITER NOW! AND A DAMN GOOD ONE AT THAT!!!! Dude you're probably one of the funniest and fabulous and fantastic persons I've ever interacted with on or off Tumblr and we're so fucking lucky to have you!!! Love you!🥹🥹💕💕💕💕

A super special shout-out to EVERYONE else!!!! This fandom is a better place with you and your talent and your constant support of writers in it!!!!

I'm tired now, I'll be sleeping...soo....bye...? Is that...is that how I'm supposed to end this? Idk...

[ashercate-marablanchett]

𝐏𝐚𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐰𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 2

Warnings: Idk just talking about body and weight. Fainting

Word Count: 2,205

"Alright. You should have the syllabus out you got at the beginning of the year. You can choose two books that are in the A-level curriculum. The Crucible by Arthur Miller or 1984 by George Orwell. Choose wisely. It will be half of the midterm." I didn't get the English syllabus. "Well, finished early today. You may leave." The whole lot fleed. Ms. Blanchett sat at her desk flipping through tons of paperwork.

"I'm sorry Ms. Blanchett. I don't have the A-level syllabus." I unwedged myself from the sharp desk my legs have sorely been cut on. Her eyes snuck across the top of her classes that dropped low on the bridge of her nose, towards me. "You must've misplaced it. Or did you use it to roll your fags Shiny boots?"

"No actually. I didn't start at the beginning of the year. If you didn't realize by now." I mocked her rather bold tone. Maybe she didn't like what I said. Or how? She straightened up walking along the width of her desk. She sat on the edge of her desk before me crossing her legs at the knee. "Aren't we a little gutsy? You're Asher Mara yes? Any relation to Rooney Mara?" Her arms crossed as well after she adjusted her specs.

"Yeah, that's my sister, unfortunately." I split my hair from the back pulling it to the front of my chest. I often fixed and fidgetted with it in times of stress. This was a stressful moment. She laughed under her breath coving her mouth with her hand. "Hardly. Shouldn't be a misfortune. You should be glad. Your sister's graduating class was the first one I taught. She still has all the piercings you have?" She stood back up turning around. Her hands rushed through a metal wire bin on her desk searching for something. It was a piece of paper. "Here. It's the syllabus. Have you given any thought to what you would like to read?" She handed me the paper as I shoved it into my bag. "She has even more haha! And thank you. I might read 1984. I've read Animal Farm so I'd expect one of his classics to be good as well."

"You've read George Orwell's work? I never imagined you'd be into the classics. Have you ever read The Picture of Dorian Grey by Oscar Wilde? It's about a corrupt young man who somehow kept his youthful beauty, but a special painting gradually reveals his inner ugliness to all. You might enjoy it. Here, take my copy." She spun around to the back of her desk pulling out a small book from her shelf. She came back to me extending her hand out. "Thank you very much Ms. Blanchett. I'll return it very quickly." My hands shook trying not to let the slick cover slip from my shaken hands.

"You're quite alright Asher. If you like it, keep it and if you don't then you can return it." She smiled promptly like she was almost uncomfortable. Maybe I was reading into it too much. That's what it felt like. Maybe I was overstaying my welcome. I put the book in my open bag also looking at my watch. I'm going to miss my train.

"Again thank you very much, Ms. Blanchett, I have to run or else I'll miss my train home." I started to zip my back, slowly shuffling my boots along the laminate. "Alright, then Miss Asher. Get home safe. I'll see you tomorrow." I scurried along the desks making it to the door. "Bye!" I waved my small hand like a limp noodle. I'm an idiot. God, why did wave that furiously? Goddamnit!

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My Oyster card was almost out of cash. I forgot to text Rooney this afternoon about transferring me the cash. I'll ask her tonight. I was at the metro going down the stairs to the station. My knees were cracking with every step I strode. Until my leg had other plans. It points to the left hitting the beam of the railing. I crashed onto the platform landing on my knees. God did it hurt. It felt as though I just kneeled on broken glass. It burnt. I was becoming anxious that there were others behind watching my catastrophe. I lunged from my bloody spot on the ground. Racing to the shuttle. I didn't realize it until I sat down and noticed I was bleeding heavily. My off-black sheer tights were damp in a cartoon-like ruby colour. Huge rips were on the top of my kneecaps where the pool of blood was flowing. It was a weird sensation, to tell the truth. It stung while it felt cold. It ran down my calf like cold water, every little tense of my muscle made the stinging come. It was sensual. That might sound odd to some, but the sheer fact of the adrenaline as my body tumbled out from my stance made me feel...I don't what word to use. Alive? Perhaps that's not the word but that's not what I want.

Ms. Blachett gave me that book, I started to read the first few pages. Even a few sentences sounded familiar.

'The studio was filled with the rich odour of roses, and when the light summer wind stirred amidst the trees of the garden there came through the open door the heavy scent of the lilac, or the more delicate perfume of the pink-flowering thorn.'

It was written beautifully. The words melted off the pages, I had no idea why I thought this book was so interesting. Or it could have been the fact Cate gave it to me. I had to admit Cate is pretty hot, especially for the run-of-mill English teacher.

My stop came quicker than usual, I was so mesmerized by my book that I almost missed my stop. I got up from my seat forgetting my legs were cut up. I startled myself until I came to remember what I did. Now the blood was dripping from my boots into my socks. I'll have another pair of ruined socks in my drawer tonight. The apartment complex we lived in was five blocks away from the metro station. The rain was heavier than this morning. My boots squeaked along the cement and my blazer was soaked. I don't have another one. I know I'll be in shit tomorrow out of uniform again. The cement stairs were like an uphill battle, my knee ached. I opened the door going up the carpet stairs, there were probably 50 or so tenants in my building. None we've ever met, however. We are hermits. Especially Rooney was, we weren't sisters or anything. We were identical in our characteristics and sometimes in our appearance, but since she's a lawyer she had to hide her tattoos and had to remove some of her piercings, unfortunately. She looked badass, now she has to act badass in a pantsuit. Rooney was in the kitchen making something in the pan. Her hair was pinned in a bun as she was hooking her septum ring back in. That one was her favourite piercing. She always puts it back in after work.

"Hey-hey. How was school?" Rooney grabbed the spatula flipping whatever concoction she was making.

"Nice shirt. You stole it from my room again." I plobbed down on the kitchen bar stool in the island. My backpack took the seat beside me sitting heavier than I was.

"First of all you little thief, this was my Siouxsie Sioux shirt. I didn't know you know who this is. You haven't answered the question. How was school?" Rooney's hair was cut sloppily. It looked like she cut it herself. It was an inch above her eyebrow unevenly.

"I do listen to Siouxsie and the Banshees, it was from you most of my music is from you know and school was fine. We got a new level A English teacher. She's cute." Rooney slid to the fridge grabbing a glass jar of maraschino cherries. Her socks looked comfy, she slid around the laminate flooring like she was on ice. "Someone else showed me them also when I was young. I should be pretty fucking proud. Here. They're your favourite." 165 calories. Do I chance it? 4 calories for one. Maybe just one. One won't hurt me.

My strength wasn't strong enough to open the jar, Rooney leaned against the counter beside the stove watching me struggle. "Small fry? Here. Give it." She snatched the jar from my hands cracking the lid effortlessly. "You're extremely weak Ash. We need to book you a doctor's appointment. Let's see what days I'm free." She turned and stirred the fried hash around. "No, no, no. I am completely fine, I'm tired. I'm just gonna take these cherries and go to my room." I picked up a fork in the drawer, whisking the jar away to my room.

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My blazer was soaked. I draped it on the radiator making sure it dried for tomorrow. I took off my uniform entirely. My skirt was pinned with bobby pins. It was medium but felt like an XL. My white button-collared shirt fit me nicely, it was slimming. I watched in the mirror the way my body moved under my shirt. My legs were perfect, my kneecaps bucked out like they were trying to escape. They were cut up and bruised. Peppered with dried blood around the wounds. I had to shower, but that can wait. I needed to clean my room. It was screaming in desperation. All of my vinyl was scattered all over the carpet. I was on a maniac mission last night. I wanted to feel like I was at every concert in my room. Bowie, Siouxsie, Cigarettes After Sex, The 1975, Phoebe Bridgers and of course Depeche Mode. I had to have it in alphabetical order. I had boxes upon boxes full of vinyls. 1 box was from the states, and the 2 box was bought here over time living here with Rooney. Rooney has also had some of her vinyls gone missing since I was here.

"Fuck...I have to. It's the greatest hits." I flipped the vinyl front to back. Siouxsie & The Banshees Once Upon A Time. It had all of their greatest hits. I began to undress turning up the volume on my record player.

'I heard a rumour, It was just a rumour, I heard a rumour. What have you done to her? Myriad lights, They said I'd be impressed. Arabian Knights, At your primitive best.'

I threw on my fuzzy pyjama pants and an off-grey hoodie. I sat in my desk chair with my legs up on the desk. I was trying to multitask, that's not my strong suit. I was trying to open my bag while cracking the window. I found my book and the syllabus Ms. Blanchett gave me. My ashtray was hidden under my laptop. I dragged it along the black wood of my desk seeing I still had half a cigarette in there from this morning. My lighters were hidden in the cup holding all of my pens and pencils. My fingers twitched flicking the roll of the lighter. I couldn't wait to crack open this book again. I awaited anticipation. I didn't finish my cigarette before I opened the book.

With the music, on top of me, I was trying to focus to read the following sentences. My brain was being warped. My head felt like it was detaching from my neck. Like I was floating away into the open window.

"Awe fuck-..." My eyes became disco ball. White sparkles fly around my room. My head went back looking up at my ceiling. This sort of thing happens often, one day I'm on top of the world, and the next I'm tumbling over into my carpet. I couldn't tell what will happen. The sentences on the page went a blur, it was a mess. I began to shudder at the cold instantly rushing through my body. I arose flipping the page, the page hit my skin sharply, causing the cut down my thumb. My eyes doubled. The blood drained out onto the white carpet under my desk. My heart was beating in my ears. A headache was coming and going. I turned trying to make it to my bed. I didn't. My legs gave out hitting my shoulder and my head on the floor. I wanted my body to freak out, but I couldn't make my pinky move. My vision was going dark. I couldn't even speak. My time was running thin.

"Ash! You forgot the lid!" I heard Rooney yell. Her feet were going up the stairs. She was a couple of feet away, you could tell. She's going to freak out. I thought my hands were under my body but it wasn't moving. She was at least half a foot away. I went to yell to her but it came out as a low squeak. Don't come in, don't come in Roon.

"Ash! Asher! What happened?! Asher! Can you hear me..." Rooney came in bending her knee. All faded to black after.

[desudog-gone]

hi!!! sorry this is kinda random, i just found you through reading some tags on a leo (FE) poll post and I just loved reading it soooo much!! I'm obsessed with him <3 But obvi there really isn't much fandom content going around for a while now lately, which is why I think reading your tags was so exciting! You're so right!! He's so gender and he's so fun and him and his family are an amazing package deal!!! And the whole fake little convo between him and Camilla was SO real. I love him, I love them, and I love Forrest too but I'm sad it couldn't go down the way you described :( idrk if I can even find the words to describe this all, but finding someone who talks about Leo the way I wish more people talked about Leo is kinda a wonderful breath of fresh air to me :)

So thanks! Glad you could be here :) Wish we could be friends but I read ur pinned post and idk if it'd work out (you're not much of a talker, I'm not much of a talker) but I thought it'd be nice to let you know I appreciate you!! um thanks again bye!!!

Feel free to hang about in my notifs and I'm sure I'll get used to you! Leo numero uno!!!!

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Um so, here you'll see me rambling on and on and on while I was walking home, I'm now home and it's 21:41 (9:41pm) and started doing this at like idk 20 or something so enjoy me rambling to myself, do mind though, this has a lot of nonsensical sentences because I was doing this with the built-in speech to text thing and I think you can imagine how trash that is :p um yeah, I'm rambling here now uhhh if you read this, enjoy I guess?

Guys I am walking home right now and my god it is pitch black here and you guys would not believe how calming it is here this is why I love walking in the dark (if there are any mistakes in this text it's because it was made with speech to text) I love his so much I don't know what's it's just wow holy fuck what is that oh it's just a pole oh ok we're back and another light gets I did not need that darkness I love darkness why couldn't you give me more darkness also I am trying to I have tried to not guys I'm almost home I know I don't want to be home I love this darkness so much why so yeah enjoy my whining after you if I posted this you're going to have to read all of this because I love the darkness too much also I just want to say before I actually get home I love you guys all so much like platonically like that then I cannot appreciate you guys enough in with you guys I also make mutuals that I barely even talk to I love you guys also so much ok is that I'm more appreciation now but I'm going to have to stop eventually so I guess I'll stop now. This speech to text thing is fucked up it cannot like properly detect my voice or what it's saying so you're going to see a lot of jumbled mess And sentences and words that's not going to make sense. Guys I am almost home I'm so close to home I do not want to stop working in this darkness please please no please please oh my god it just me but it was my own shadow yeah I am paranoid you know don't mind me please no one's listening to me I would be so embarrassed like fucking up unless you know I'm just at this point I don't think anyone it's listening to me yes thank you so now I can read before I think yeah maybe I don't know I'm not even sure what this speech to text thing is picking up does iron in my the sing to get home so I am basically home yes I am home why must you do this to me life and love with darkness darkness please consume me anyways I'm going to stop talking before any of my family see me talking to myself yeah bye.