#idk what i channeled on this but i’m glad it worked lol

[vanitasaurus]

smth smth to cure myself REEEE

[koolades-world]

Hello is hug deprived anon again (this might be becoming my name oh no) and I’ve had an idea

I’m sure we can all agree that mammon deserves all the love, especially because his brothers are too mean to him, they pretend they don’t love him too constantly

So, what if Mammon is away for a week, doing photoshoots or dealing with witches or something, and MC is moping because they miss him,, like, they keep turning to their side to whisper to him and then like deflating when they see no Mammon,, and like, reaching out on that side to hold his hand and then being confused when there’s nothing there, and then they realize :( maybe they stole his blanket from his room because it smells like him, so it’s the best substitute for Mammon hugs while he’s away

Maybe Beel (idk if any of the other bros would be nice enough to tell him) is texting him like “your human is too sad come back soon” and sending him pictures of MC doing this stuff

When Mammon returns MC jumps on him for hugs like “you’re home!!!!!”

Idk I think he’d cry

I think he would feel very loved and probably also cry abt it

What you think? What do you think he’d do?

(If you choose not to write anything about this no worries obviously) (but I eventually might lol I think it’d be very cute and make him very happy to have someone who really misses him when he’s away)

HI!! haha if you want and plan to request more, feel free to pick an anon name! or I could just call you something like hug LOL

wayyy back when I first got into obey me in like 2021, there was this one specific fic I read kind of similar to his idea where mammon was upset at be mistreated and mc stood up for him and it was this cute bonding moment, and this request kinda reminded me of that!! gonna try to channel it a little bit

this idea is literally so cute and I'd be happy to write it! it makes my brain like a cat who has the zoomies hehe enjoy :D

How Ironic

You watched agonizingly as the clock ticked by even slower than usual. You'd been trying to do some sort of work, or anything other than stare at the damned clock forever now, but you just couldn't focus.

It had been exactly four days, six hours, and fifteen minutes and counting since Mammon had left for a week long promotional photoshoot in another ring of hell. You had your sad, but sweet send off and you promise yourself that time apart might be good for you. After all, it always felt like you could never get anything done with Mammon around. Yet, here you were, staring blankly at a clock with a blank piece of paper and pen in front of you.

Finally deciding to throw in the towel for now, you got up from your desk in your room. A walk to a local convivence store was in order. Snacks and fresh air wasn't a combo you could pass up. On your way out, you passed the door to his room which was slightly ajar. You briefly had the thought to poke your head in and ask him if he wanted to come, before remembering that he wouldn't be in there. You continued your walk to the front door, where you put on your shoes and grabbed a bag that had a few necessities in it for the short journey.

Thankfully, you hadn't passed any of his brothers on the way there, meaning you didn't have to explain yourself or have them ask to tag along. While you enjoyed their company, they weren't Mammon. If you needed help, you could always summon one of them thanks to the pacts, but you needed this short walk to clear your head.

The air was unfortunately stifling and overly humid outside, making you glad you were dressed light. It was basically just your pajamas but when you went out with Mammon, the two of you did this every time. As you autopiloted to your favorite corner store, your thoughts wandered back to Mammon again. You wondered how he was doing and if he missed being at home. You couldn't blame him if he didn't and hoped he was enjoying his time away from home as much as you wished he was by your side.

Once you got to the store, you wandered around for a bit, debating what to get. After grabbing a small basket, you began to pile in various things that sounded good. Once the basket was full, you came to the realization that all the snacks were Mammon's favorites; hell sauce flavored instant noodles, Chaos Devil Cider and ginger ale to mix, Devilbee honey popcorn, and a variety pack of Devildom gummies. This is what he introduced you to the first time you did a snack run together. You decided, in light of this discovery, to buy extras for him for when he got back. You figured he would enjoy it and it was the least you could do to thank him for introducing you to so many tasty things you would've not tried otherwise. Once you checked out, you returned back to the House of Lamentation with a new skip in your step.

You made your way back up to your room, and passed the ajar door of Mammon's room again. Memories of the two of you together flooded back again, and you couldn't help but step in. Just being in his room was like he was really right next to you again. You couldn't help but sit on his sofa and think about how much you missed him even though it hadn't even been a full week. His absence made you realize how much you missed his presence. After a moment, you decide to leave the snacks you bought for him on his bedside table so his brothers were less likely to wander in and find them before him.

As you were setting down everything you'd gotten for him, you something caught your eye just about to fall off the end of his bed. After you picked it off the edge of his bed, you realized it was the hoodie he always wore around the house. It was faded from lots of usage and the strings were fraying. You knew it smelt like his cologne and his shampoo from all of the tight embraces he'd given you while wearing it. You for sure thought he would've taken it with him, but it looked as if he had thrown it off last minute and thrown it on his bed without looking back.

Looking around as if someone might be watching (which could very well be the case since Lucifer was notoriously quiet), you pulled it to your chest and deeply inhaled. Of course, there was the chance that it was dirty, but you couldn't care less. It wasn't anything you hadn't seen of him before. Since there really wasn't anything stopping you, you took it back to your room with you. You weren't even really that cold, in all honesty. It was more of the idea that he was right next to you since it smelt just like him.

You continued your night like you had before you left, just with his hoodie on. You were magically much more productive wearing it and you managed to get several things done. Usually, you would be chatting with Mammon on the phone at about this time to talk about how your days were, but he was unfortunately busy with something work related. Instead, you decided to send him a sweet goodnight text and send a picture of your set up with the food and the show you've been watching one episode at a time. Not expecting a response before you called it a night, you turn your phone off and focused on eating and watching tv.

Beel wasn't sure what woke him up first: his stomach or Mammon blowing up his phone. Sitting up in his bed, he peered at his screen, squinting at it. He had at least twenty texts from his brother asking him to check on Mc for him after they hadn't responded to his texts. He wasn't sure if Mammon knew they were probably asleep or if he was just worrying for no reason. Either way, he decided to check on them for him anways. After his kitchen run, of course.

After letting Mammon know, he got out of bed and left his room. On his way to the kitchen, however, he ended up following the smell of cup noodles to Mc's room. There, he was able to complete both of his missions. He snapped a picture of Mc fast asleep with a couple half finished snacks, then took the snacks. Mission complete.

Mammon was only halfway through the only kind of dumb business dinner when he spammed Beel about Mc. He was more worried than he would admit to himself about them. He knew it was probably nothing and that they had fallen asleep, but Beel was usually awake at this time eating anyways. The food was nice and he was the star of the show, but the dinner was much too stifling for his taste. Most importantly, it was cutting into his precious time with Mc, something he looked forward to at the end of every day. He loved getting to hear their voice after being away from them for so long. He missed getting to see them in person, but getting to hear them was next best.

As he was poking at his food, he finally got the response he was waiting hand and foot on. Beel had responded with just an image at first, so he scrambled to open it. He breathed a sigh of relief. It was a picture of his beloved Mc fast asleep in their bed. You looked so peaceful but your face was barely visible because of the hood pulled up over your eyes. After squinting, he realized the hoodie you were wearing looked oddly familiar. He realized that that was his hoodie, the one he'd left on his bed when he was late the morning he left.

He could barely contain his excitement and it must had been evident on his face since those around him glanced at him, and then between each other a few times. He saved the photo to his phone, and texted Beel back a thanks. As everyone talked around him, he debating asking to leave the shoot early right then and there. If he left right now, he would be able to make it home before you woke up. While he entertained this thought for a while, eventually he decided to stick it out since there were only a few days left. As soon as he was allowed to leave, however, he would buy you something with the paycheck he'd be given. Something nice, maybe a gold bracelet that would remind you of him when you see it. He spent the rest of the night thinking, then dreaming about you. He could only hope you were doing the same. (you were <3)

After those final two and a half agonizing days and many texts later, it was finally time for Mammon to return home. For now, he decided to leave his car parked just outside the house, since he may or may not have been planning to take you out to dinner later that day. As soon as he walked in the door, one of his suitcases in tow, something, or rather someone, attacked him with a flying hug. At first, he was processing the situation as Mc began to squeal and squeeze him as tight as they could into a hug. He wasn't really sure where they had come from, but he knew who it was as soon as their arms were around him.

"MAMMON!" Mc swung the both of them around, buzzing with excitement. "Diavolo, I missed you so much. I don't want to let go of you. If you don't take me with you next time, I might die of sadness and loneliness!" Their arms were around his neck, and their face in his chest. He finally let go of his suitcase and hugged them back. He held them close, shutting his eyes for a moment to take it all in.

"I missed ya too. 's good to be back." He, again, couldn't stop the smile from growing on his face. His brothers never expressed themselves the way Mc was to him in that moment, so he wasn't quite sure how to feel. They never seemed excited to see him, so it was so refreshing to see Mc visibly excited and made him feel truly loved. All their time apart was worth moments like these.

As MC was squealing, a few of his brothers began to gather around the foyer around them. Perhaps they heard them, or maybe they knew he'd be back today at around this time. Either way, he waved at them, still keeping an arm around Mc.

"Guys! Mammon is back." Mc nuzzled his neck, still holding onto him.

"We can see that." Belphie remarked, sounding unamused. Mammon's smile faded a little. So, they didn't care that he was back, did they? He should've expected that from them. Actually, they probably wished he'd been gone for longer with the way they treated him sometimes.

"I talked to you guys about this. I don't expect you to do what I'm doing, but you need to show him you're happy he's back. You can't lie, he's irreplaceable! I don't know what I'd do without him, and I missed him so much." Just like that, Mc's words lifted him back up. Suddenly, he was no longer upset that his brothers didn't care. He had the attention and care from the person he thought about the entire time he was gone. "Shame on you all. Don't expect me to talk to you for the next few days. Let's get your things from the car, and go upstairs. We have so much to catch up on!" Mc only let go of his neck to grab his hand instead. They dragged him back out of the house, shutting the door with their foot behind the two of them.

"Mc, ya didn't have to do all that fer me..." Mammon glanced back at the shut door. His brothers didn't open it, or try to follow them.

"But I did! You're my first man, after all. I really can't express how much I missed you and just saying it doesn't feel like enough." They reached into the trunk of his car to begin taking out his suitcases. Mammon moved them aside gently, not wanting them to do even more for him that he felt as if he didn't deserve.

Mammon was silent for a moment, then decided to go digging through his backpack for the bracelet he'd bought for you. He hoped it would make it easier to tell you how he felt. "Here, this is fer you." He presented the small, black box to them. Looking caught off guard, they accepted it and opened it carefully. Your mouth dropped open as you saw the golden piece of jewelry he bought for you on the drive back.

"Mammon! This is beautiful. Thank you so much! But, I don't understand why. What's the occasion?" You removed it from the box and held it up to the light to study it. Several small charms hung off of it.

"That's the thing. There isn't one." He took a deep breath and looked down at his feet before continuing. "I just... yer so good to me. Ya texted me daily, called me daily, thought about me while I was gone, and even waited fer me like that so ya could surprise me when I got back. Ya care, and I know I'm not the best with showin' I care and it makes me feel shitty. Thank you, fer everythin'. I really missed ya." He couldn't see how Mc reacted, but was essentially tackled into another hug again by them.

"Mams, you show me you care in little ways. Just because you don't say it, doesn't mean that you don't. You just being back here with me is more than enough." He immediately thought about how ironic the entire situation was. He never actually told them how he felt and treated them like garbage sometimes, and he thought it might've been pushing the person he cared for most away, but really, he never had to worry about that. he'd never considered that they could see past his inability to admit his feelings. He hugged them back, savoring the moment since this time they were alone.

"Thank you Mc." He held back happy tears.

"No, thank you! Thank you for always being by my side. Now, instead of actually unpacking, let's just lock the car and sneak back inside. Maybe they'll eventually feel sorry and come looking for us, but we'll actually be hiding right under their noses. It'll be like a spy mission." Mc giggled leaning back to see his face. Mammon let them look him in the eyes, glistening tears and all.

"Yeah, let's do that. We can watch that movie ya wanted to watch and just share headphones." He found himself joining in with the quiet laughing along to something he wasn't sure either of them really understood. Something he did understand however, was that he knew he was loved back by the one he loved the most, and couldn't ask for more.

[sensitiveheartless]

hi, I just wanted to drop in and say that I don’t know what it is about your art and writing but on my absolute worst days it seems to be the only thing that makes me feel the slightest bit warmer. maybe not better exactly but warm, idk how to explain it. uh. the point is I don’t know what special ingredient you put in your works but. it’s working. please keep doing it! you’re really awesome and I hope you’re doing ok, at least compared to earlier.

(also maybe a bit of a weird note, but I tried making soup from scratch a few months ago when I didn’t know what to do with myself. it turned out absolutely terribly which was disappointing and surprising seeing as everything else I’ve tried to make has come out decently well. After a dramatic month where I swore I would never touch soup again, I kept experimenting and a few days ago I made one that was half decent - a nice spicy broth with lots of vegetables. I probably wouldn’t have tried to make it if it hadn’t come up so often in your works, which I know is a bit silly but the idea of making soup as a comfort thing got stuck in my head and what do you know? it was comforting. and a bit rewarding too haha. I already decided I’m making more tonight.)

god sorry this is so long and probably way more to throw at you, a stranger really, than I should have, but I guess I just wanted to let you know? as much of a cliché as it is, sometimes little things really do hit in all the right ways.

I’m going to be so embarrassed after I send this lol

quick! send it send it!

Anon you will make me cry (in a good way!), this is so sweet and honestly really encouraging to hear ;; I’m really happy the stuff I make has helped you in any small way, and I will continue to do my best! :D

I have been slower with making things lately than I’d prefer — I have a couple chronic health issues that’ve been flaring up and making things difficult, especially energy-wise. But drawing and writing always help keep me going, so I’m absolutely gonna keep on keepin’ on! And I hope the stuff I make can keep helping you in little ways <3

(Also congrats on the soup success!! Making it from scratch isn’t easy alskdjfj I still get a bit paranoid I’m gonna mess it up when I’m making it by myself, particularly the spices — like I’m gonna put in way too much or too little and ruin the whole thing, but luckily it’s always a bit more forgiving than I expect. More to the point, I’m so glad your efforts paid off! My comfort-soup fixation encouraging you to keep experimenting is so fun alsksjdjfj that is not something I was expecting to ever come out of the stuff I make but it’s awesome! :D)

(Also here is a soupkoku doodle channeling my weird thing with worrying about spices)

Hope you have a lovely day today, anon!✨

[kikker-oma]

hi friend!

idk how you phrase this but like

How do you draw bodies

because your art style is so good and I’m trying to find mine but people just don’t make sense to me 🥲

but aside from that, how is your day been?

Line of Action - best for figure drawing practice

@mellon-soup - has an INCREDIBLE repetoir of pose references. Here's their insta handle!

PROKO - has a lot of really great drawing fundamental resources on their YouTube channel for free. They also have paid online courses that go more in depth!

PoseManiacs - I used this when I was trying to learn and practice poses as well!

@miyuliart - on Twitter (or X , whatever it is) has a lot of great posts regarding pose study and anatomy! She even has some books for purchase too.

Lovely Blare, you are so sweet!! I'm glad you like my art style ❤️ it's definitely still being developed and I'm no master, but. I'm having fun building up my skills!

See below the break for more info cus this is kinda long lol

Above I've listed just a few of the many many many resources out there to study poses. These tend to be the people I look to most for references, tho they aren't the only ones!

If you're looking to practice and get better at anatomy and the fluidity of your poses, I would suggest starting by drawing actual people first. That way you know how real bodies move and twist and turn and what masclues go where. It makes simplifying and stylizing easier down the road!

Something I did a LOT, and honestly still do a lot, is find pictures of people or art of characters whose poses I like and just try to draw what I see. I have sketchbooks fuuulll of poses I copied just to practice! Tracing can definitely have it's value as well when you're learning!

I utilize Pinterest a lot to creat difference boards for reference photos I may need, and it's come in handy quite often!

I can show you how *I * draw bodies in general, but know that I kind of flub around until something starts to feel right haha. I'm still learning and practicing as well! How I draw bodies may now work for you and that's chill! Its all about trying out lots of different styles and seeing what you like best, or what methods make sense to you.

Fair warning: this probs isn't the most accurate tutorial, I just kinda threw something down as a general example hehe. I'm preaching about references but didn't want to use one at the moment cus I'm tired haha

Often my sketches are much messier and I just make lots of lines so I can find the "right one" lol.

These are some sketches I did for Peggys fan art!

Basically, just keep practicing until it eventually starts to look right lol

[whaleofatjme1920]

How about a Scp 2030-1 (Laughy) x reader public s//e//x smut fic? I only found one lemon fic of him on wattpad so maybe you can give him a shot lol

A Good Show

[SCP 2030-1 X GN!Reader, AFAB]

[Warnings: general smut, creampie, biting/marking, Kinda public. MINORS DNI]

[AN: Sorry this is literally months late idk how to explain I’ve been up a wall. Anyways, here’s this. I don’t actually know what mood this is, and had a hell of a time even remembering what tense I’m writing in. my bad lol. 2212 words &lt;;3]

It’s not everyday that you have a skip absolutely obsessed with you, but working for the Foundation has its merits. SCP 2030-1, also known as Laughy McLaugherson, had attached himself to you sometime last year. You had been working under someone, watching tapes, when he’d found himself captivated with your beauty. Though, through the late night visits where he would materialize through your laptop screen, your TV, at one point your shower where there were no electronics to be seen, he’d found himself helplessly infatuated with your mind too. 

His obsession is dangerous, anyone could see that. You knew it, but still, here you remained. Laying on your bed, you flicked absentmindedly through channels you had no intention of actually watching. Your other hand pressed on your phone to check the time. Relatively pleased it was past midnight, you tapped the remote to the channel you knew would guarantee his. 

His face wasn’t visible, but the rest of him was. He was animated as he explained the joy of coffee houses before his body paused. “Well, lookie here, folks,” he stated in his jovial, upbeat tone. “Seems we’re due for a commercial break! We’ll be back right after these short messages from our sponsors.”

You watched as his body language shifted before your TV displayed ads for products that couldn’t have existed in your current time. You squinted with a small scowl lining your lips. You wondered if he’d step through as dramatically as he usually did. You chuckled when the screen warped, suddenly holding the viscosity of warmed honey as he crawled through similar to the girl from the Ring. 

“You have such a pretty laugh,” he noted as he stepped through in full, briefly fixing his tie and smoothing out his dark blue suit that almost hurt your eyes to actually gaze upon. All of this time with him slinking through your various devices and you still haven’t a clue what he looks like. You can feel that he’s smiling, but some part of his anomalous nature blocks your mind from perceiving his face. He’s got tanned skin, a light shade of brown, with dark brown hair that curls like the remnants of a gameshow host pulled from the 60s. But you don’t know the finer features of his face. 

You could recall asking him about that when he first started appearing in your home. He told you he did it for your benefit. 

“I’m glad you think so,” you finally replied. 

He mirrored your chuckle and sat down on your bed. “I know so,” he said simply. “How are you?” He’s already gotten comfortable behind you. His long, lanky body curls around you warmly, a perfect fit to spoon you. He rubbed over your hips, your waist, and your chest before finally cupping there. His hand pressed against your chest, the pads of his fingers gingerly slipping over your nipples. 

“I’m fine,” you hummed, clearly turned on by the physical touch. Your hips rolled against his subtly, or as subtly as you could manage. “What about you?”

“Eh,” he began. “Could be better.” He sounded so much more relaxed there in the space of your bedroom than when he would play host to his weird little show. “Did you want me to make some tea?” He asked as he rolled his hand down your stomach again to the hem of your shirt. He played your body like a violin, slowly coaxing your warmth without ever touching it as he moved his hand against your flesh from under your shirt. His fingers didn’t feel calloused at all, but not soft either. He works, but not in the way that shows. 

You moaned softly at how easily you fell into his grasp. It isn’t the first time you’ve slept with him, but this is one of the faster times he’s managed to get you to bend to him. “No,” you answered as you bucked your hips back against him. You were nearly desperate to feel him. “You feel different,” you noted. 

“Is it bad?”

You shook your head. “What’s gotten into you?”

His lips danced languidly over your neck as he continued to rub you in the right places. “You’ve never really responded to me like this before,” he mumbled. His teeth, just barely sharpened past what’s considered normal, nip at your soft skin. His hand left your nipples to fall between your legs. He let the waistband of your underwear dig into his wrist as his long fingers rolled against your lips, his thumb rubbing ghost-like circles along your clit. 

You hummed once more. “You feel good,” you managed to wisp out. On the TV, you saw his show was back on. It was an empty stage, of course. He was in your room entertaining both of your combined desires. “Laughy-”

“Should we give them a show? A real show?” He inquired, voice dripping with lust and the desire to entertain. He felt you flutter even though he hadn’t pushed inside of you. On the TV, your heaving chest caged by his strong arms displayed lewdly. The audience made no sound, but he could feel they were entranced. He didn’t care whether they liked it or not, but chances are they were just as captivated in the good way as he was. 

There it was. His cock, already semi-hardened, pressed against your ass. He growled playfully in your ear when you moaned once more upon the sensation of his index and middle fingers just barely dipping into your already weeping pussy. 

He chuckles in that slightly condescending way that makes your heart pound. “I’ll take that as a yes.” He worked your body a little faster. His other hand wrapped around you, not caring of the somewhat awkward position as he groped at your chest again. He reveled in the pretty sounds that softly poured from your lips. “I’m going to fuck you,” he whispered in your ear before he bit down on your neck, his sharpened teeth leaving a bloomed mark on your smooth skin. 

You nodded fervently. “Please,” you mewled. Usually, you’d let him take his time with you. He was the biggest fan of nestling between your legs and showing you his inhumanly long tongue and all it could do, but you wanted nothing more than for him to bury deep inside of you. The two of you shifted on the bed. You whined at how his warmth left from between your legs but you grinned when he positioned himself above you. The sound of his buckle clicking and sliding off made you press and rub your thighs together. You looked up at him hungrily, even if you couldn’t actually register his face. 

He slid off your pants, your underwear, and chuckled once more upon seeing you hurriedly slid your top off as well. He puckered his lips together and you recognize the sounding whistle as that of a wolf, which garnered soft laughter from the audience. His head tipped back while your hands eagerly wrapped around his long, thick cock. He exhaled deeply while your fingers traced over his veins, working him up to that unbearable hardness. His hands spread your legs apart while he fell to his forearms and loomed heavily over you. “You okay?” He checked once more as his hardened cock pressed against your entrance. 

“Yes,” you said as you angled your hips upwards. You felt heat rise to your cheeks as the tip of his cock slid up and down to coat itself in your arousal. “I want you to fuck me and for them to watch.” You watched with wide eyes as the head of his cock split you open. Your breath hitched as he disappeared inside of you, inch by inch. Your pussy fluttered. Instinctively, you reached your hands up to his biceps and dug in as hard as you could. You gripped his dark blue suit and let your eyes squeeze shut as he pushed in deeper. 

“How long has it been since I last fucked you?” He asked through grit teeth. “You feel so good but I-goddamn it-!” The words were lost on his tongue as he bottomed out deep inside of you. He moved his equally blue eyes over to the TV where the audience could clearly see he was balls deep inside of you. Your pussy stretched to accommodate him, and he reveled in the sight. He pulled his hips back and let himself become absolutely mesmerized by how his cock dragged back before burying deep inside of you again. He groaned deeply upon feeling you grip him harder. 

You cried out softly and wrapped your legs around his waist. “Oh gods,” you moaned. “Laughy please-” you pleaded wantonly, “don’t keep me waiting. Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me-!” 

Not one to disobey a request said oh so sweetly, he did as you asked. “Your wish is my command,” he smoothly granted. His hips snapped back and forth. He groaned deeply and let his lips fall back to your neck as he pressed hard against you. Thrust after thrust, he found himself absolutely lost in the pleasure of your body. “Keep moaning for me. I don’t give a damn who complains, I want them to know you feel so fucking good because of me.” 

Your songs of pleasure grew louder and louder. A tight, warm coil in your belly grew hotter as his cock pressed you open. You panted like a bitch in heat. You suppose that’s how he made you feel. It was appropriate for the situation. Your legs locked so tightly around him refused to loosen as his thrusts grew erratic. You squeezed his cock tightly. “Cum inside of me.” Your mouth was speaking faster than your head could rationalize. “Please, cum inside of me. Fill me up.” 

Something about your words spurred him on. He bit at your neck once more to leave those pretty marks your supervisors would positively detest as he grew rougher. He nudged your vision over to the TV to let you see exactly what he was doing to you. He was pounding into you at a dizzying pace. You were so wet that you’d soaked the bed and still had the potential to keep going. He grinned upon seeing your reaction. “You want me to cum inside of you?” He teasingly prodded. 

“Yes,” you answered. “More than anything. Fill me up so much I can’t take anymore.” Your body craved him and needed him. 

“Then cum on my cock first.” Cockily, he sharply rolled his hips forwards so the tip of his cock pressed against your cervix. In any other situation, it might’ve hurt but gods, part of his anomalous nature must have been suppressing all sensations even hinting to that. He pressed so thickly against you, the tight coil cracked under the pressure, snapped and rushed out from you in white hot pleasure. 

Your pussy fluttered and squeezed around his cock as you arched your back and screamed. You didn’t mean to scream, at least not like that, but the pleasure was far too great to ignore. Tears welled in your eyes and clumped together in pearly beads before they rolled down your cheeks. You gripped him tightly as you rode out your orgasm all the while still begging him to unload everything he had deep inside of you. 

He was never terribly loud when he came, but something about seeing his cock pressed deep inside of you, it made his heart spin. He groaned deeply as he rutted against you and stilled, his cock twitching as his balls rested flush against your ass. “Fuck you feel so good,” he rasped breathlessly as thick, sticky ropes of cum spurt against your cervix and filled you to the brim. He rolled his hips against you as if to fuck it deep inside of you. His lips pressed gingerly to your neck, even going so far as to flit across your jaw before his eyes caught the sight of the thick white liquid dripping out from your pussy and around his cock onto the bed. He laughed softly before pushing his hips forwards once more. 

“Look at that,” he cooed as ons of his hands moved up to your lower abdomen and softly pushed down. “Some of it escaped.” 

You looked up at him and felt more heat rise to your face. “Laughy,” you warned. Your tone may have conveyed some form of annoyance but he could recognize that hunger from miles away. “You don’t want me to give you another load?” He cocked his head to the side like a lost puppy. He started to move his hips back. “And I wanted my audience to see an x-ray view,” he trailed off. 

You squeezed your legs around his waist once more to draw him in closer. Too embarrassed to say it outright, but craving him oh so badly, you pulled at his collar. 

Laughy himself was surprised at the action. He suppressed a yelp before his lips met yours. And he laughed. Genuinely this time. “You have such an odd way of telling me what you want. Don’t they, folks?” 

From the TV, a stereotypical chorus of ‘aw!’ filled the room followed by the manufactured wave of clapping. 

[kafkasgirlhood]

HHIHIHI 🎹anon here!!! okay i promised myself I’ll text later in the week but hell i have no one to talk to actually 😭.. (I promise I’ll come back next week this time, you’re probably tired of me lol)

So I did the reading to know what Apollo "thought of me" and bla bla and well it doesn’t looked good i stopped crying for a good five minutes and doubted my whole existence here what the person who did the reading said..

"Okay so judging by the cards, Lord Apollon seems to be telling you that you need to stop overworking yourself. (Queen of Pentacles reversed and ten of pentacles reversed). That and you seem to not be honoring your needs and not prioritizing self care and yourself. (Queen of pentacles reversed) . From that I am definitely getting the feeling that he wants you to work on that. Then we get to the page of cups which IMMEDIATELY told me that you need to work on being kind to your inner child. Why are you hurting a child? Not only that but why are you hurting a child who is you? You didn’t deserve what ever happened. Your child self DEFINITELY didn’t deserve it either! So stop acting like you did. That kinda what I’m getting"

So I didn’t expected for my inner child to be the problem but now I see it, wanting to grow up so fast but at the same time no, accusing myself (inner one) for bringing misery into my family, basically a whole lot of bullshit and self doubts about all the trauma that happened🥲.

Today I feel a bit better, we did class sport and usually during that class im way too lazy like really but this time I got really into it and was legit playing good? Idk who gave me the motivation but I may have a guess 👀.. and I had the best sleep after crying so much, I felt like I slept a good 10 hours when in reality I slept 5 hours 😭😭😭

Im glad the gods gave me a break today and made my day slightly better because I’m telling, I should had a way worse day but hey it’s went well :3 !!

Tonight I’ll try to go to sleep earlier, and try the Apollo meditation from the channel you suggested ٩(๑´3｀๑)۶

Oh and what do you usually do during the meditation, do you just yap to Apollo (I mean why not I could yap) 😭? Not asking for a tip just wanting the context of what I could do because I’m so confused.

🎹 anon i could NEVER get sick of you !!!! i love seeing your messages in my inbox sm 🥹 things like this make my day truly !!!!! feel so free to yap in my inbox whenever you'd like !!!!

THE READING !! yes He tends to call people out IMMEDIATELY , happens to me ALLLL the time . IM SOSOSOSOSO HAPPY YOU FEEL BETTER TODAY !!! YOU DESERVE IT ^0^ take care of yourself 🌷

during the meditation , i don't really talk to Him much actually . i just focus on feeling Him there and try to decipher what He's telling me ! even when i reach that “inner space” , i don't yap . i just listen . the yapping happens before the meditation for me ! i talk to Him about what i want Him to respond to , and during the meditation i listen . i also find if i try to talk to Him then my concentration starts breaking and i end up losing the inner space , because i’m not used to being there just yet .

but again ! that's just what works for me ... you can try that , and if it works for you too , then yayy ! if it doesn't , don't be discouraged ! all it means is we're different people 🌷 and if yapping during the meditation works for you , go for it !

I HOPR THIS HELPS GOOD LUCK !!!! KEEP ME UPDATED <333

[palomahasenteredthechat]

This whole joe thing is hella getting to me, like obviously I don’t know him but idk something about him feels different. Like I have no idea what changed him, the media ig. I have a lot of mental health l problems and the biggest coping mechanism for me is pretending to be someone else. And when I joined the Joseph rpf fandom I started imagining scenarios in my head of me and him being together (ik it’s weird) and I kinda fell into and but overtime it got rlly toxic. I was rlly dependent on my idea of him and it got obsessive which is super embarrassing. but now with all this Doja drama and ppl noticing that he’s changed it kinda helps me realize that he’s a real person and not someone in my head that I can just warp into acting as I want.

This whole Doja cat drama has rlly fucked with the fandom and now it’s not as fun as it used to be

This whole thing is rlly effecting my mental health, it’s honestly crazy to see him now compared to who he was after st4 and how, in my opinion, he’s completely changed, but that’s what fame does to you.

Sorry for like totally venting lol I just wanted to say where I stand

But because I’m leaving the fandom, I wanted to say thank you bby, you’re writing rlly helped me get through some stuff and I will forever be greatful, you are so talented and your work has rlly changed me for the better, thank you ❤️❤️❤️

Aw, thank you for writing, Nonny. It was brave of you to share that. I appreciate so much that you did.

People who have never created imaginary friends for companionship won't understand, but I do.

I'm flattered and glad my fics made a difference to you. They helped me too by channeling feelings in what I hope was a productive way.

Take care of yourself and I'll be here, the last stan standing.

[coolcattime]

Hiya it's the Usual anon here.

All the recent post about the Noir au has me caught up in it again. I really do love some magic and eldritch horror themed noir. I especially love the your Under The New Moon story from earlier. (IF YOU HAVEN'T READ IT YET READ IT #ad) now i might be getting the mianite brainrot again so i've been re looking over my noir au notes and

My original idea for the noir was someone (originally was going to be champwan, in disguise sent by dec, but i also left a note that i didn't really like that idea too much.) came to tucker with a case of a series of missing people connected to a cult, and a man with a skull mask that seems connected. Originally the story was going to eventually lead to the fact that the police force are involved with the cult and

sonja goes undercover and joins the cult and finds that they are worshiping an eldrich god that promises them all great power, and in the altar to that god sonja feels an allure from the ancient statue of the god. a shadow creature with hundreds of lashing tentacles shaped like wisps of smoke. She doesn't submit to it but from that point on it lingers in her mind enthralling and beckoning to her from that point she can draw on it's powers the same way she can draw on Mianite's. From that point on she finds her struggles against the corruption infesting the police and her friendship with tucker both weakening

Tucker, Is quick to realize a pattern in the missing cases and realizes there are two separate cases of people going missing, but they are both very similar conditions, one is just much easier to find information on and investigate, the other is way more difficult and tucker realizes that the police are covering up the latter. Turns out there is a splinter cell in the cult and now two competing factions both heading for similar ends, but for different reasons

I have no notes on what the ianitees are up too, the section with them are just completely blank i think i got caught up in writing angsty stories instead right after this lol

Hi Anon!

I’m so so so happy that you like Under the New Moon 🥰🥰🥰 I had so much fun typing it up and editing it these past couple of days and I’m so glad that people have enjoyed it! I absolutely love to vibes of magical and eldritch horror in detective and noir stories (a TTRPG channel I watch has released two Call of Cthulhu oneshots in the past month and I have been absolutely consuming them).

Okay, I love these original notes so much! So Under the New Moon would, if I continue it, follow the plot idea I laid out of the group trying to track down the serial killer who kidnapped Redbeard, but gods do I really love the idea of Sonja going undercover in a cult to the Shadows. Like it works so well with her character and I also love the angle of Tucker realising the cult has split into two with the police being loyal to one half. It works so well as a noir eldritch horror mystery.

If I continue Under the New Moon, I’m definitely stealing the Sonja and the Shadows cult ideas, possibly with it being linked to the serial killer, possibly just because the time limit is getting desperate and she feels the need to do something extreme for information. Idk which one but the cult vibes that you described are just so !!! and I wanna play with them!

Thank you for the ask! Glad you’ve still vibing with the AU ❤❤❤

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hayoooo vaygus 💋💋💋

i’m glad da hear that you got some rest 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼!! omagaaaaa vinyls 😈😈, which one did you buy ? and plant food ?😭😭i didn’t know it existed 😨

i had a good day although tiring, but when i got home i changed the sheets, vacuumed and cleaned my room then showered and settled in my bed with my pou (lol idk if you see but the game pou (i bought a doll of it recently…impulse purchasing they say 😞😞) and then enjoyed some free time after all the exams🤞🏼🤞🏼

wouuuuyh, an actor seems so kewl and it suits you really good ☝🏼☝🏼 i have interest toward medicine too but the studies are so hard and long 😪😭😭 like i find the anatomy and just the medical sector so fascinating in general so i aspire to be a surgeon one day 🤷🏻‍♀️

otherwise, i’d reeeeeeally like to have a vlog channel (or a channel in general on ytb) and so TRAVEL. the first dream on my bucket list is to travel allllll around the world and also film it bc i loooove editing and stuff. i also would like to write more on tumblr specially in english, so, my other dream is to be bilingual 💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️ and to keep on with tumblr, having a community on it would be a must ,LIKE, having anons or ppl talking and sharing their life seems so kewl too 🌚🌚 and i think it’s gutch for nowww

off topic but, what are you 3 top song of the moment? for me, the songs i have on repeat are :

-astrology, kali uchis (unreleased)

-she’s my collar, gorillaz ft kali uchis 🌚

-low, sza

those songs are playing on repeat rent free in ma head 👨🏻‍🦲👨🏻‍🦲👨🏻‍🦲also off topic but you really gimme SZA vibes ???? (/pos ofc)

well bye bye (i wrote a whole essay sorry😭😭😭) have a good day, day at work, a good night and dreams 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼!

-🌟

helloooowww star 👨🏽‍💻💓

hehe yessss, i love anything vintage related so i have a lil vinyl collection — mostly the vinyls hang around my room and the rest i play while i work or write >.< i got the demon days vinyl by gorillaz and a night at the opera by queen, two of my fav bands of all time 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ i wanna get a tame impala vinyl too bc currents is prob my favvv album ever

lel yes 🧘‍♀️ i have a venus flytrap and it basically eats bugs and stuff like that. its near my garden, plant food in general i usually buy things like miracle gro n stuff !!

i’m glad u had a good day tho !!!! my day was okay, yesterday i basically stayed inside and did nothing. i’m gonna visit some campuses later today maybe and i have a piercing appointment today also 🙂‍↕️ LOOK AT UUUU being productive 🤞🏽 this is inspiring me to do spring cleaning today (is it still spring aha) so thank u !! <3 aw i remember pou, i used to stave mine bc i forgot ab it. poor bb

ooooo a vlog channel would be so nice !!!! 💓 i kinda wanted to do smth like that too, like it could help w my speaking bc i hate speaking but its soothing to record urself and just talk yk? doing grwms or shopping hauls would be soooo cute. and same i wanna travel too, i hope to visit the states one day (im from the carribbean) but i wouldn’t know where i wanna go first :0

THANKKK YOU 💖 i know right, i kinda backed out of medicine bc of the long years of school you need for it. im okay w my current career path but imagining me as a neurosurgeon would be kinda cool 🙂‍↕️ it was greys anatomy that even made me so interested in medicine LMAO. ik how the show is nothing like irl but i loveee greys n had a little doctor phase for a while heh. but i wish u luck on ur writing + bilingual journey !!!! you got this my friend mwah mwah

top three fav songs would be — dark vacay by cigarettes after sex, pyramids by frank ocean, and evil by melanie martinez

ITS OKKAAY i always appreciate whenever u stop by 💓💓 you too love have a good day !! BISSOUS 💋

[m1ckeyb3rry]

OK CATCHUP TIME bro I fr thought you meant a HIATUS LMAOO GLAD YOURE BACK THO!!!!!! I fr was wondering if you’d be back for s2 maybe I was just primed by the usual tumblr hiatus sessions LOL

Tumblr the ultimate opp bruhhhhh someone come fix this site

ISAAC NEWTON AHAHAISHABAB bro what kind of poster is that…it’s FUNNY but aren’t you trying to encourage your students LMAOO??? It’s most definitely oaeu vibes coded

FR that’s the description I was looking for like he’s emo but that’s it. No other personality flavor. No you’re so real for megumi sae has no wit no sass it’s just flat emo and insults his insults aren’t even creative

BRUH I SAW THAT AND WENT ?????? Im ngl that ending felt like a whole load of nothing like huh??????? Idek what to say atp like yes gege give us NOTHING??? Whatever wars over ig truly the end of an era can’t wait to get my sanity back

SHAHSSH LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK sometimes I scroll through a tag and see a completely different character from a completely different fandom like WHAT are YOU doing HERE??

No because I usually look on the usual site likes bulbapedia or serebii but I didn’t find anything at first glance so I scrolled a bit to find something that was more formatted for fast looking ig that was my first mistake

Wait actually???? Wtf…ok wait BAROU how did I not think of that LMFAO anti-ginger campaign so real (I also don’t like the carrot juice aesthetic dw) but OMG can’t wait to see the manifestation of that Reo fic

LMAOOO real almost forgot that I didn’t even recognize some of those pokemon (Kunigami getting slandered and catching strays real wc Kunigami ESPECIALLY gives me scovillain vibes)

OOOOOOH wait the summoning concept slaps I’ve always found it really interesting but I haven’t read anything that uses that trope in awhile I’m very intrigued

Too real I think we have the same brain I LOVE CJILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS had to resist from adding fairy to mine because Wb already has that going on but yeah that’s also why I’ve always preferred rivals instead of enemies like something about the “extreme” of enemies usually ends up in a lot of wacky and cliche things that I don’t specifically enjoy

LMAOOOOO WAKT I’m excited and scared (only because of the swerve factor) KARASU MEDDLING WOULD BE SOOOO GOOD also wait on that note if you did feel like childhood friends would help you feel free to add it idm either way lowk I had some vague ideas about miscommunication but nothing concrete either LMAO I mean my first thought is always angst relating to his traumatic upbringing but that’s kinda a given…maybe his differing personalities (when he’s with friends vs parents) idk I’ll leave this in your capable hands and leave it vague so you can work your magic….i trust you’ll cook!! (No pressure though obv we will NOT be channeling Hiori parent energy) karasu fr about to come save hioris ass though HAHA

OOOOOOH I’m living for it I can sense a real work of art brewing here

AIKULATIONS anything with aikulations is gonna slap I can just feel those vibes

LMAOOOO dumbass Karasu we love to see it trip down memory lane to fwtkac vibes

“Sae number 2” has me crying (still not getting over the fact that there’s 3) LMAO sae would fit that trope perfectly like with the way he’s got his manager sweating HAHA

The love triangle is actually so exciting it’s been awhile since I’ve read a good one that combo of characters too is also such a unique choice many possibilities

The Isagi one is fr so isagi it’s hilarious but OOOH MURDER MYSTERY I see the vision

Sae number 3…ok wait Spanish tutor that’s kinda cute I also think when done well childhood friends with Rin has a lot of potential too excited to see what you cook

WAIT IM ON MY KNEES PLEASE USE THE SCATTERBUG IDEA LMFAOOAOOOOOOO especially with it being from Tullia I’m crying I’m so invested in the aiku Niko dynamic now (wait speaking of what vivillon variant do you think he’d get….lowk idr the mechanics of how you get different ones I just know they exist)

CRYING its kinda giving fwtkac once again this is so funny yuki is about to have a really good sense of smell at this rate if Karasu blows his eardrums out

RANDOMLY PASS AWAY (NOT THE HOLLYHOCK REF) he would just do a ninja despawn move and never come back

I forgot he liked owls I was fr like “bro what sparked you to think of this” now I see it HAHAHA wait you should use this for the Rin fic for the event it’s actually perfect (wait this would also be really funny in ref to the sae spanish teacher fic but sae likes seagulls)

NOOOOO omg hope your wrist gets better soon!!! Wait that’s actually crazy bro writing a whole PhD thesis paper in 36 hours or something and THE EYE omg manifesting a very speedy recovery!!!!

NAGI HATING MUTUAL SHAHSHSH but that’s so funny imagine no one ever caught it until pursuits full debut

REST AND RECHARGE TIME!!!! Yes omg a long kdrama binge session is in order! I think the most recent one I watched was “marry my husband” that was actually CRAZY although if you’re looking to not get mad maybe choose a different one because I was getting invested into that drama

SHSHSHS no because I kept debating how I should’ve perceived the way you worded it but the “come back stronger” made me think you were gonna go through a journey first not a 36 hour boot camp LMAOOO welcome back though HAHAHA I originally read it as “oh shit I have more work than I thought this is now going from 36 hours to indefinite” oops

- Karasu anon

SLDKJFHSK no i could not do a hiatus i fear…like yeah individual stories of mine go on hiatus all of the time because i start them and then don’t feel like writing until i randomly get motivation months later but me going on hiatus from being online is like antithetical to my character i NEED my phone time talking with my online friends hehe it was like actually terrible when i was gone for two and a half days i couldn’t even make it through the full 36 hours 😭 and omg you’re so right i could never be gone when bllk season2 is on the way!! just barely a week until it’s out AHH

HELPPP no he was such a silly teacher he did not gaf…i took calc 2 my senior year of high school and bro would make fun of us like i remember one time someone asked him what math he took in high school and he was like “i never took calculus in high school because i wasn’t a nerd like all of you” LMAOOO it sounds mean but he was really chill and funny (plus he was a really good teacher too) so i loved him…my friends and i made jjk ocs of some of our teachers (i wish i had a reason but it truly was that we had the free time) and i think his was my favorite he even features in the one megumi story i never talk about online because it’s so dependent on the high school teacher jjk oc lore that i could never post it but it’s SO special and dear to me even though i’m not into jjk much anymore

SAE A LOAF OF WHITE BREAD HAHAHA no because i would defend him but even giving him personality in oaeu made him feel like he was leaning ooc?? like wdym he makes a couple of sassy jokes and suddenly he’s not even himself?? that’s just not a character i fw i fear…yeah the jjk ending was. well. it was something!! idk like i said i wasn’t super impressed at all honestly i’m probably not going to engage with much jjk content for a while just because the ending was so…yk. anyways i saw a really interesting video on tik tok (during my self imposed isolation so sadly i didn’t save the link) that was talking about how animanga tends to rely on the visuals aspect of the storytelling which allows authors to get away with much more simplistic worldbuilding that doesn’t get explained as thoroughly and this also seeps into the plot/characters as well and i really think that that’s something that impacted jjk — there were definitely points where there was more flash over substance (in my opinion) and the magic system is definitely unique and well thought out in some ways but also unnecessarily convoluted in others?? it’s a story that would not at all hold up as a novel which again different medium of storytelling but if key elements of the plot/world like cursed techniques such as hollow purple fall apart when you cannot physically show them to the audience (just think about if you had to read gojo explaining his technique and then he just uses it on paper SKLJFHS it’s so anticlimactic lowkey) then that’s a marker that more groundwork needs to be done 😭 people who glaze relatively basic shounens like jjk for being peak writing and having amazing character dynamics etc etc (in my opinion and this is controversial hence why i’m hiding it in our chats) need to go read like…actual books (or even light novels) because if you think that gojo and geto is the most interesting dynamic conceivable then i fear you are cooked because number one craziest mira take they are NOT that special/compelling/appealing to me like i can see why people might like them but they are so normal and average to me in terms of writing 😰 READ ORV OR SMTH whatever kim dokja and yoo joonghyuk have going on is 10x more fascinating (superior white x black duo sorry not sorry)

BROOO EVERYTIME I SEE ONE OF THOSE PARAGRAPHS I CRASH OUT no because like i said it’s always such a random blend too like wdym sukuna and nagi are both in the “they would definitely cheat on you” category?? HELLO??? first of all WHAT do those two characters have in common and second of all NO THEY WOULD NOT?? ugh the mischaracterization is insane fr bro idk i was “off” of tumblr for like. two days. and now my dash is just going crazy (not about me it’s just like everyone is going through it atm for some reason which means a lot of negativity and complaining and whatnot from others) so i have a lot of rage in my heart for tumblr users rn SDLJFHSDK (not really but also like all i’m saying is if anyone ever tries to drag me into some dumbass conflict on here i’m fr just going to block them i don’t have time to beef w 14 year olds when i have characters to write fics about and actually enjoyable people [like you] to talk to)

NO WAIT WE NEED TO EXPAND ON THE BAROU VISION just like first of all i can so easily imagine him in a royal guard uniform holding a sword and being all stern but immediately caving as SOON as you bat your eyelashes at him and letting you get away with things like sneaking out of the palace as long as you take him to look after you but he starts falling in love with you when he realizes you’re not as stuck up as the rest of the royals (yes i did steal this from the megumi fic what about it…) imagine we get aikulations in here via aiku also being a royal guard to like. fucking sae or smth…omg wait yeah imagine you were sent to marry sae and barou’s your guard and aiku’s sae’s guard so he occasionally pulls up, says smth sassy/wise/meaningful/borderline insulting and then he just leaves (bonus points if niko’s his squire) AHHHH omg hold on imagine we throw in a little tullia and aiku subplot while we’re at it…i would say bring back elakshi but she’s deadass public enemy number one i’ve gotten so many comments on wattpad hating on her to the point that i’m abt to delete my work off of wattpad and be like “sorry but you all suck”…anyways so instead of elakshi we could have a may ducat comeback i suppose 🤔 if i didn’t have a bazillion things to be doing and a royal au following almost exactly the same plot for jjk already (which lowkey idk if i’ll ever finish given my motivation for jjk rn) i’d fr be attending to this but alas. pursuit and my requests are taking precedence rn

i def think the summoning concept is NOT what the requester had in mind but ykw i’m not basic so we’re going to do smth a little different hehe and honestly one day i want to write an enemies to lovers but to do it PROPERLY if that makes sense…like miraverse enemies to lovers where it’s not just stereotypical cold rude black haired male lead x idiot dumbass “perfect” badass female lead…however sae itoshi is NOT the one i would do that for (even though i’m fr in an enemies to lovers with him irl i think) i’m trying to imagine who in bllk i’d give that honor to 🧐 not nagi he has no enemies he doesn’t care enough…karasu’s too much of a lover at heart he fits rivals perfectly but true enemies no…barou’s the same he’s just a simp at heart despite his gruff exterior…otoya and yukimiya are too chill to ever give antagonistic vibes…kaiser and rin are too annoying and obvious for it it would end up being basic and cringy…reo is a sweetheart he can pull off angst well but not enemies…i’m stumped actually maybe just because i hate the trope HAHA

ooh vivillon colors…iirc it was just based on what country/region your ds was set to!! so like depending on where you lived irl you would get a diff vivillon but since pursuit obviously takes place in one region where the outside world has no bearing i’m going to say that it just depends on where you end up evolving scatterbug into vivillon (maybe like an evolutionary advantage thing in terms of camouflage??) i think niko’s based on vibes would be the jungle variant and tullia’s is either the meadow variant (which is like the really famous pink one) or the savanna one!!

LMAOOO yukimiya cannot escape the fwtkac menacing karasu role i think it’s so funny how in actual canon we honestly barely see him interacting with karasu (actually i cannot remember if we ever see them have even a single conversation it’s very much so tabieita + ken…bro’s fr just ken 😓) but in the miraverse he’s always pulling up and accidentally making karasu miserable by being too perfect 😭 PLSS otoya’s like “i was never even there baby i was an illusion” so hollyhock mysterious core of him

PLS i lowkey was looking through the account they’ve also made these gorgeous blue and gold rose dividers that would be PERFECT for kaiser i was going to reblog those too and be like “ok kaiser girlies come on now” and then i remembered that i actually also have to write for kaiser now…tbh i don’t usually use super embellished dividers those!! like i prefer to use plain lines and let my headers be aesthetic but lowkey maybe the move for this event will be no headers only ask response + pretty dividers because that’s less work for me SLDKJFHDS

AHHHH my wrist is feeling much better today!! i tried to write smth and my body took a screenshot so i’m giving my hand the weekend off but she’s feeling much better already and same with my eye!! i can use my contacts again on like tuesday ish so hooray for that (i actually don’t mind my glasses as much as i used to in the sense that i don’t think i look horrible with them anymore and everyone actually says i look really cute BUT they hurt behind my ears because i’m not used to wearing them for long periods of time so i cannot wait to retun to my beloved contacts and seeing how i like)

HAHAHA she’s a kaiser stan but she absolutely hates nagi it’s actually very funny to me plus i love meeting a fellow hater no matter who they hate so i love when she drops new haterism posts BUT omg agreed i can only imagine how many people would be in my inbox like “you linked the wrong master list 🧞” (<- sae itoshi emoji)

i feel like mentally and emotionally i do NOT have the space to start smth new so it’ll probably be one i’ve watched before…cloy was the first kdrama i ever watched (only last december!! i am very late to the kdrama game) so it might be time to revisit that one since i haven’t rewatched any of the ones i’ve already seen yet 😩 i also really really liked a time called you so i could def go for another watch of that one 🤩 and i can’t rewatch yet because i literally just finished it in july-ish but i watched this one on netflix with my mother about a vet that gets psychic powers and has to team up with this police officer (tbh reader and noel noa coded) and i wasn’t expecting much out of it but it ended up being really funny so i do think that’s one i’ll probably watch again when i’m bored or looking for something silly to lighten my mood

LSFJK no i’m just really dramatic it was still just a 36 hour “these are the consequences of procrastinating” grind session but i was being emo because i wanted to tap out (i didn’t though!!) fr glad to be back (although i wasn’t on tumblr as much today because i was working on a new pursuit chapter so it probably seemed like i had cut myself off again but in fact i was just working hard so i can please you 🙂‍↕️ you know what they say a win is a win or smth like that)

[misswoozi]

Hello there. It’s me once again. Back to defend my thesis.

And I wanna start by saying that I see why people don’t get Yoona as a dom, because she is not what you expect to a dom to look like. But not everyone acts like their role in bed. I think that’s the biggest misconception when it comes to BDSM and power play. That being said, Yoona is 100% a mommy. She’s soft, caring and sweet in a tone that is borderline sarcastic. She is a fucking tease. With Johnny I imagine her pretending to let him lead to just make fun of him when she denies him of his orgasm. “Oh poor little boy thought mommy would let him cum so soon? I’m sorry, but we need to have more fun tonight. You understand mommy, right?” things like that. And I can clear as day ser Johnny almost crying and nodding because he wants to cum so bad but he also I wants to fuck her and he knows the only way to be allowed to do that is behaving. (But can you imagine Johnny crying from orgasm denial? Suck a beautiful sight ngl) Also, she’s a Gemini, the duality in her runs strong.

On the Hani subject: sungchan is a fucking furry like… he would obviously submit to her naturally. I think she’d also be a great pair with Jungwoo. This boy… on his knees the moment he sees her and the way she looks at him from above? Cum untouched. But also a lot of the neo boys give me sub vibe IDKW??? But with Hani my fave ones for her to dominate would be Sungchan, Jungwoo, Donghyuck, winwin and Taeil. Maybe mark if he’s feeling it.

My thing with Irene is that she is a brat tamer. I’m talking donghyuck level of brattiness. She is a sadist, she likes the pain of punishment, she likes when they are a little too hard to tame. But all because she loves the challenge. Johnny is a diff type of brat, I can’t quite pin point but in my head he reminds me of the daddy from the YouTube channel “watts the safeword” idk if you’ve seen them, but they are amazingly funny and the daddy is a bratty bottom (as said by them in some of their videos).

Since English is not my first language sometimes I wonder if I’m making myself clear lol but I swear in my head makes sense

Can’t wait to read your thoughts 🎠

YOUR FIRST LANGUAGE ISN'T ENGLISH? OP, you are amazingly fluent because I have never had any doubt about what you've meant in any of your asks!

We may headcanon Yoona differently but you HAVE opened my eyes to the concept of her and Johnny. YOUR HARD WORK IS NOT IN VAIN -- YOU HAVE GOTTEN INTO MY HEAD, OP. I feel like I've written Hyuna the same way for so many years that it's actually really nice to have a fresh perspective and a new ship. (Plus I love Johnny AND Yoona so much that it's nice.)

WE DO AGREE THAT SUNGCHAN IS A BIG, OL' SUB. There ARE a lot of subby boys in NCT, though we seem to clash about who they are lmao but you should know that I LOVE when my friendly anons have different opinions and headcanons because it makes for really good discourse.

AS FOR MISS IRENE, PERHAPS IT'S TIME TO FIND A GOOD SUBBY PARTNER FOR HER, OPEN UP SOME NEW DISCUSSIONS.

I'm genuinely glad you've joined the team, OP. You bring really, really good stuff lmao

[chaos0pikachu]

I’ll admit, I’m not overly familiar with Gmmtv’s catalog of media. The shows I’ve tried from them, well, to be honest most haven’t worked for me - the ones that have off the top of my head are things like Love in the Air, TharnType, and the ambition of Not Me more so than it’s execution lol -  they produce so much media but most of their BL content is: 1) severely under-budgeted the sound issues alone on their BLs makes me just sad tbh 2) kinda boring tbh, just very same-y and I think that’s mainly due to the budgetary issues. This could be, in the effort of fairness, an misconception on my part since I haven’t watched a ton of Gmmtv shows but again what I have has been...okay majority of the time at best. 

I’m happy to see Gmmtv taking a few more risks with their BL programming with things like Moonlight Chicken and dabbling in office settings with Boss and a Babe and Cherry Magic adaption (which is apparently staring the actors who played Tum and Phone from today’s episode of MM). I expect at least in this version of Cherry Magic we’ll see the characters kiss lol 

But just to back myself up I looked at what I could find of their line up and it’s all pretty...basic? 

Boss and a Babe - office romance, interpersonal drama

Hidden Agenda - school/university romance, interpersonal drama

23.5 - university romance, interpersonal drama

Cooking Crush - workplace romance, interpersonal drama

Last Twilight - workplace romance, interpersonal drama 

Only Friends - interpersonal drama and romance within a friend group

Dangerous Romance - university setting, interpersonal drama

Our Skyy 2 - various, mainly university settings and romances

Before anyone comes at me, I’m not saying a modern day setting, in either a university, high school, or office for romance is a bad thing. I’m not! It’s just kinda...boring for bitches like me that have zero interest in university settings and wants some variety. 

This is especially kinda frustrating b/c other shows I found in their line up, The Jungle (which looks fucking awful imo but w/e) and Double Savage have way more interesting premises? I note these two b/c they were listed on MLD under their upcoming BL/GL shows but it’s so so so clear via their trailers on youtube that these two shows are neither. They’re both het dramas, one in a seedy, bar setting that seems to be a sorta adult take on Boys Over Flowers and the other a crime drama. 

So yeah, I think it’s kinda a bummer that their BL/GLs are pretty safe in terms of content, and narrative. They’re all low-stakes romances in low-stakes settings (the newest and spiciest setting we have is an office woo~). 

Like you said, it would take very, VERY little to switch Khatha and Dome’s relationship up into soulmates/long lost lovers trope instead of this weird found family/brothers thing they keep trying to push. 

I’m glad to see more gays in crime - trapped, kinnporsche, chains of the heart all come to mind we can throw in not me as like crime adjacent lol - but gmmtv is really struggling imo lol like ppl can bitch about BOC all they want but kinnporsche was a smash hit in part, in my opinion, because it specifically offered something fresh and new (and didn’t sound issues), their historical drama film sounds dope, even 7 Minutes is a fresh concept. Hell I’ll give it out to the Mandee Channel, even their line up is more interesting: Punk Spy’s poster was a graphic design mess but I appreciate the ambition of the project, Love Upon a Time is something new in concept (I’m personally a sucker for historical dramas, queer ones even more so) The Next Prince is new in concept and the new ZeeNeNew film is apparently another period piece plus horror! 

Like, gmmtv step your fucking game up pls I beg 

or maybe they’re comfortable making all their more interesting and bigger budget shows het dramas or bromances idk idk I just wish they gave us more variety 

(this got so off topic chepa I apologize lol)

#why is it always the bromance shows#the cinematography#chemistry#emotionalism#script and character work#the acting#it makes me get so conflicted

ngl in this regard it does bum me out. I really want more genre/sff based BL/GLs in the world. Kinnporsche (and others following it's footsteps or pre-date it like Trapped) so far was the closest we got since it falls under the crime/mafia genre that remained uncensored. The Untamed and Word of Honor def fall under that genre/sff range but they were unfortunately censored (I don't hold this against them it's just a shame).

But what I wouldn't give for something like Midnight Museum, with it's supernatural modernism mystery but actually including a queer romance at its center stage. I'll ship Khatha/Dome all damn day (and push for more fic to be made) but it does bum me out legit that genre fiction is still so reluctant to include queer romances in the mainstream.

Who knows, maybe Gmmtv will see the response and the way folks had been hoping for Khatha/Dome and next year or the following we'll see another genre show come along that will go there with the romance.

Yeh I mean this isn't the first time where I think GMMTV writers have used bromance in a very extra way that makes you go why didn't you just make it a bl? It would have been one of the best things to be seen as BL, from how we react to stories like Untamed I wish people would see fans are okay with more story telling and world building and two boys being in love with each other and getting together and being explicit about their love won't change the vibes or cheapen the story. I'm having a hard time with bromance used as a tool to remove the chance of directors making shows feel cheaper to them, there's this ideology in thailand because of the BL culture how BL works and how thats the only way it can be viewed, some people out right refuse to call their own deep show a BL (ITSAY) because it feels more than that to them, it really annoys me cause a bl can be just as great, and have a lot of depth to it and different worlds/narratives more than just that aspect. I'm more conflicted at the moment because Korea seems to want to take explicit bls and make them bromance, and that's been something as well as China which did it to censor and be homophobic, I know thailand isnt trying to do that well with this show, but i can't help but wonder, knowing GMMTV can bring something like this to life, why couldn't they have just made it explicitly romance and two lovers pining for each other, it wouldn't change any part of the script, it wouldn't change the way they interact so far in the show, it wouldn't take away from the plot it would have been the same thing and it would have been seen as a really great BL example to follow through with... I want more complicated stories, not just romance. But I will see MM as a bl even if its not because thats how I do shit, I did it with Gifted so meh, it would have just been so great to just get that confirmation that for once we got another GMMTV show that is both a BL and just so unique and different from how bl/queer shows is normally perceived

[the-widow-sisters]

I’m glad your back is loads better, but I’m sorry your knee isn’t!! If it’s not one thing, it’s another 😅.

As always, feel free to veto this prompt:

Keeping with the Carol theme…

Nat has always been the one that everyone gets their comfort from (and she is honestly so good at it!), and usually it’s Yelena, and sometimes Kate, that in turn comfort Nat on the rare occasion she lets them.

Nat has been there for Carol a handful of times now, so I was thinking maybe its Carol’s turn to be there for Nat! A Red Room flashback, or maybe we get a glimpse of the black widow and carol has to subdue her. Once she snaps out of it, Carol is there to comfort her. Honestly, however you wanna do it!! I’m just throwing things out there and talking way too much LOL 🤣🤣🤣

Anywho, feel better soon! 💕

A/N: Thank you so much for this amazing request! 💖💖💖 And it’s all good! My knee is actually doing better now and no pains seem to have taken its place yet 😂💕 Hopefully it’ll stay that way 😅😬

Sorry it took me a little bit to get to this! I’ve been really lacking in the way of motivation lately, and idk why. However, I have been working on some video edits that I’m thinking about posting on my YouTube channel for y’all 🥰💗 I’ve also been working on a little art 😊💕 

Hopefully the motivation will come back soon, lol. I’m just in a little slump for now 💖

I hope y’all enjoy! 💕

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  “Hey, Nat… What’re you doing?” Carol questioned uncertainly as she entered the gym, pausing as she took in the sight of the redhead.

  Carol happened to be coming in late from a mission when she saw that the lights were on in the gym. She normally would not have questioned it, but it was in the neighborhood of two or three in the morning, so she had a few questions. Especially since she knew that no one would be there that early. Not even Steve, who religiously woke up at five every morning.

  So she had come in to check, and that was when she found Natasha.

  At the moment, the woman in question was very gracefully, effortlessly, and beautifully performing a very intricate ballet routine. It completely took Carol by surprise since she had never seen Natasha do ballet before, and she actually had no idea that Natasha knew anything about it. Carol definitely did not know much about the subject.

  “I didn’t know you knew ballet. That’s really cool,” Carol complimented, speaking up again as she grinned at Natasha. However, her smile soon slowly fell away from her face as she realized that Natasha was remaining completely unresponsive.

  “Hey… You okay?” Carol questioned as she came a little closer.

  As she approached the woman carefully, she quickly realized that Natasha had a glazed sheen to her eyes, and she did not seem to be overly aware of anything happening around her. Carol immediately felt her guard coming up a bit. Something was not right at all with the redhead, and Carol was not sure what was about to happen.

  “Hey, Nat…?” Carol questioned, moving nearer as she risked waving her hand near Natasha to try to get her attention. Natasha stayed quiet, not offering Carol any manner of reaction. Carol swallowed, eyeing her wordlessly.

  Natasha seemed almost as if she were having some manner of breakdown. Carol was not at all experienced with dealing with this level of emotional situation unless it was she herself having the episode, but she was quick enough to realize that this must be the signs. And she was not about to let Natasha suffer through this alone. Not after everything she had helped Carol herself through.

  Carol braced herself, calling upon her enhanced strength as she prepared to handle this situation the best she could.

  “Natasha, hey… I’m going to put my hand on you. I know you probably can’t hear me or at least can’t respond, but I thought I’d warn you anyway, okay?” Carol told her, and Natasha remained still performing some outlandish pose.

  Carol let out a breath before reaching out and closing the distance between them.

  Almost immediately, Natasha’s gaze snapped to Carol’s, her entire demeanor changing as she almost bared her teeth. Carol’s eyes widened slightly, and Natasha immediately started attempting to pull her signature move on her as she pounced upward, wrapping her legs around Carol’s head as she started trying to pull her down.

  If Carol had not been braced already with her strength, the move would have doubtlessly brought her to the ground. Instead, she simply grabbed Natasha, prying her legs off of her as she threw her into the floor accidentally with the force of her grip.

  Natasha quickly was back on her feet again, but as soon as she made a move to attack, Carol shot her hands out, grabbing Natasha’s shoulders in her hands firmly as she met her eyes. Natasha started trying to jerk herself out from Carol’s grip, but Carol remained steadfast, fighting for a strong grip. She grabbed the back of Natasha’s neck with a hand, searching for purchase as she grappled with her.

  There was a reason that Natasha was considered the slipperiest and most agile person on the team, and Carol was quickly figuring that out as she fought to keep ahold of her without hurting her with her super strength.

  “Natasha, stop,” Carol breathed out between them. Natasha just glared daggers at her, obviously nowhere near back to normal as she seemed almost feral.

  “It’s me. It’s Carol,” Carol tried to break through to her, and Natasha surged toward her a little, trying to push through her hands. Carol simply kept ahold of her.

  “C’mon, Nat,” Carol pleaded with her, but there was absolutely no response. Instead, Natasha just lunged once again. Carol tightened her hands around her again, her mind racing as she tried to think of some way to break through.

  “Gosh, I don’t know how to get through to you,” Carol uttered her thoughts aloud, her voice soft as she never removed her gaze from Natasha’s. She was aware that on one hand, it might appear like a challenge to the woman before her, but she was also hoping that maybe she could reach through to her if she looked into her eyes long enough.

  She had no idea how Yelena usually pulled Natasha out of these episodes. She did not ever know the details of Natasha’s trauma-related issues, but she knew enough to know Yelena was always able to do so. She knew that even Kate was able to coax Natasha out of them usually.

  She just had to find something that would pull her out of this fit and this animalistic rage. She knew that putting her hands on Natasha was definitely not helping things, but she literally had to keep ahold of her to keep her from trying to attack. She also knew that saying things to her was not going too well either. However, it seemed like her only option at the moment, unfortunately.

  Carol swallowed, trying to think of some phrase or words that meant something to the both of them. Something that would bring her out of whatever memories she was locked into now.

  In the midst of her thoughts, she must have loosened her grip just a little. Natasha quickly took advantage of the opening and brutally crushed her elbow into Carol’s chin. Carol’s teeth clacked painfully in her mouth, and she let out a cry, having not been braced for the hit.

  Natasha immediately made a move to jump at her again and entwine herself around her, but Carol swiftly surged forward, grabbing Natasha as she got the tightest grip she had so far upon her. She grasped her wrists firmly, and she moved forward to slam the redhead into the wall. Natasha gasped hard, the breath knocked out of her, and Carol felt guilt surging through her.

  “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Carol tried to soothe, but Natasha quickly got that wild look in her eyes again and started fighting once again to get out of her grip, grunting as she struggled to get away.

  It was then that the perfect words to say just happened to hit her as she fought the woman.

  “Where’s Fury?” Carol attempted, using the playful voice that she usually had when she made a point to try to sneak up on Natasha when Carol had not seen her in a while. Natasha immediately froze in her efforts to fight her.

  After a long pause with no belligerence on the redhead’s part, Carol slowly started loosening her grip. Natasha took in a sharp breath, fully taking in the fact that Carol was standing there holding onto her. Natasha remained silent for a while, her eyes a bit glassy as she slowly took in the sight of Carol. Carol slipped her hands away from Natasha’s wrists in favor of moving one to her shoulder and the other just barely touching her waist in case she needed to grab her again.

  “Carol,” Natasha breathed finally, recognition in her stare, and Carol almost sighed with relief.

  “It’s me. It’s okay,” Carol whispered in acknowledgement, preparing to take her hands away from Natasha so that she did not overwhelm her.

  However, just before she did, Natasha suddenly just collapsed into her, and Carol had to swiftly grab her to keep her from falling. Carol’s eyes widened a bit as she returned the embrace and encircled Natasha in her arms. She rested her head tentatively on Natasha’s as she hugged her back.

  Natasha let out a long, shaky sigh as she gripped Carol tightly, her fingers trying to gain purchase in the fabric of Carol’s suit. Carol took in a deep breath as she remained steady and held Natasha’s slightly trembling body. The entire thing felt slightly awkward given the fact that the hard, metal star in the center of her chest-piece of her suit was pressing into Natasha unforgivingly, but Natasha did not seem to mind too much.

  There was a long while of silence where Carol just alternated between rubbing her back and squeezing her a little more tightly. Natasha kept getting closer even though there was realistically no way to do so, seeking some manner of comfort that Carol had no idea how to begin giving.

  “How long?” the redhead finally asked, her voice soft.

  Carol was quiet for a moment, trying to understand Natasha’s question. After a moment, it quickly occurred to her that she was asking how long she had been performing ballet routines.

  “I don’t know. I walked in on it about twenty, twenty-five minutes ago,” Carol answered, giving an estimate of the time. She made sure to keep her voice at the same volume as Natasha was speaking to avoid being too abrasive in the face of Natasha’s vulnerability. Natasha swallowed hard, retreating within herself as she presumably remained absorbed in her own thoughts.

  “Where’s Yelena?” Natasha questioned, and Carol shrugged, starting to loosen her hold just barely.

  “I guess still sleeping. I can go get her if you—”

  “No,” Natasha abruptly interrupted her, and Carol quieted, waiting for Natasha to speak. Natasha’s full body weight leaned harder into Carol, but she did not budge, the weight feeling like nothing compared to the amount of power coursing through her veins.

  “I don’t want her to worry,” Natasha admitted. Carol nodded in understanding. It was a sentiment that she could completely respect since she had often done the same thing with Maria. Even though it never ended up working too effectively since Maria knew her far too well. She suspected that Yelena would likely figure out about Natasha’s incident tonight, too.

  Carol allowed her to remain there against her, and she stayed still, uncertain of what to do to make things better. She was more of a doer and when it came to comforting people, she wanted to fix things. She wanted to get up and go take care of whatever was hurting someone.

  But when the problem was within their own mind or within themselves, however, she felt entirely powerless.

  “What can I do?” Carol finally asked her, hoping that if she had a clear vision of what to do that she could help somehow.

  “Just… Just be here. Please,” Natasha whispered, and Carol immediately felt her heart hurting for the other woman, the pulsating pain growing stronger as she remained there as Natasha’s rock. She squeezed her more firmly, moving her head to the side as she pressed her cheek to the top of Natasha’s head.

  “Don’t worry. I’m not going anywhere,” Carol replied gently, and Natasha let out a long, deep breath, closing her eyes.

  And she would definitely be there for her as long as she needed her.

[kafkasgirlhood]

Your post brought me tears again, I’ll try to vent to Lucifer tonight, since I believe his sacred days are Mondays too.. On Sunday if I don’t forget Apollo and Friday Aphrodite!

And thanks you, I’ll try to demand a tarot divination before sleeping because I am a mess right now, I always had depression (I didn’t seek out someone because I’m anxious about it, but it’s kinda obvious honestly everyone in my family think that) and if getting out of bed is enough for them I’ll try to do it more often! Plus I’ve recently tried to do indoor sports for Lucifer and Apollo I hope they appreciate it.

I’ll maybe come back by the end of the week to unwind a bit I feel very sick (stuffy nose, i feel im suffocating when crying lmao) and tired.

Also my last request (sorry I ask too much already you’re so kind bdhwjdhejfbjw) How exactly do you meditate? I used to be Hindu and kinda following Buddha teachings, well didn’t work out I still don’t know how to meditate lol embarrassing— But I was kinda curious! I found this one enn meditation for Lucifer and another one but for Aphrodite and Apollo do you suggest just to use an normal guided meditation ?

— 🎹

i'm so glad that it helped !!! i was lowkey dumping everything i knew on there out of small panic because i didn't want you to feel that way LMAO but i'm so so so happy that it helped bring you some peace of mind ! i'm so sure they appreciated it btw !

usually to meditate i use audio from youtube to help . if i try it without audio then i end up falling asleep LMAO so music helps ! i've tried guided meditations but they just annoy me most of the time because i like visualising on my own so having someone telling me what to see doesn't cut it for me , but simultaneously , the first time i managed to get into that "inner space" that so many meditators talk about was through a guided meditation for apollon !

i suggest try all . try the ones made for those specific entities first , and if those don't work , then try normal guided meditations . it's all about what works for you , so just try everything and figure out what fits you best ! but i would personally highly recommend any enn meditations for beings like lucifer

i don't like sitting up in the classic meditation position because it hurts my back and i find it very hard to sit still to begin with ( i'm always rocking forward and backward just a little , even now help ) so i've tried different comfortable positions and i've found it works best for me when i'm laying down on my back with my hands at the sides . especially if i'm trying to get back into that "inner space" , i can't do that if parts of my body are touching each other , so i try to make sure my limbs aren't touching but also aren't too far apart so that i'm still comfortable . again , you'll have to experiment with what works for you !

since i don't like guided meditations , i just use audio from the youtube channel sound of sleep ( though they do have wonderful guided meditations and their guided apollon meditation is what i was talking about above ! ) because they have a huge variety of different deity meditations ! also idk their meditation music just hits different

that's all i do for meditation ! i hope this helps ! don't worry about asking too much , i love helping people out 🥹

[bruh-changbin]

fic rec tag game 😸

tagged by @aura-mp3 @seo--changbin @petrichor-han like a week ago and I just kept forgetting to do it so here I am now 😵‍💫

rules: recommended 5 or more of your own works that you would rec to someone asking what they should read first & explain a little bit about the work. these can be the most popular, the ones you think are underrated, or your own favorites! then tag five other writers 💗

1. read u, wrote u

smth about buff student librarian changbin wearing sweaters that can barely fit around his muscles is so yummy to me 😻 I really had a lot of fun writing this fic! it was for my spring fling collab which I had a lot of fun hosting and I’m v happy with how this fic turned out! there are some fics that you really have to grind out and squeeze your brain to finish and then there are some fics that just flow really easily which was this one 😸 also icky frat boy jisung was very fun to write

2. S.O.S - skin on skin

I have a vivid memory of writing this fic at uni while a literal snowstorm was happening outside and I was sat behind my laptop writing shit like “it’s so fucking hot let’s go to the beach” 😻 LMAO besides that this fic was also a breeze to write and im happy with it! I’m a huge fan of descriptive imagery in fics so I really tried to channel that w this one. also THANK YOUUU for all of the love on this fic it’s my most popular one and all your reblogs make me smile yas so glad you all liked sexy jakey lifeguard 😼

3. ghostface

by far my fav fic I’ve written for channie (I really need to write for him more lol). unlike the other two I kind of struggled with writing this ahhh idk I just found it difficult for some reason 😵‍💫 BUT I really love the insane got7+skz+reader friend group I had sooo much fun writing the dialogue and the dynamics of that insane friend group lol. also I remember seeing a reblog of this fic where someone said that this awoken their mask kink and let me tell you I have never been more proud

4. invasion of privacy

SO MUCH FUN TO WRITE!!!!! I wanna say this fic literally only took me like an hour or two to write (it usually takes me days to finish up a fic and be proud of it even if it’s short 😵‍💫) and it was so fun lol. I loved writing it in heeseung’s pov and describing like the inner turmoil he was facing for being a pervy roommate lol. I can’t wait to share part 2 with all of you (I’m hoping to be finished by the end of September?) and you’ll see if heeseung finally gets with hawt roomie (aka reader lmao) 😻

5. 01:19 am

short little time stamp 😸 this little fic is like my absolute dream very intimate but also very hawt and I’m a crystal whore so this really came from my heart. also the sound and smell of rain HELLOOOO my favourite thing ever. also hyunjin dyed his hair black again (I think? or is it dark brown…) so hair colour in this fic is accurate once again. overall this fic just has my favourite vibe love it

tysm yue, sage and rain for tagging me! I’m going to tag @drunkjaked @woniewhite @nyanggk @angelwonie @lix-ables @heetro @polalvsjy @lixesque more than 5 but whatever (only if you want tooooo 💗)

[himynameis4]

Okay i just. I can’t wait to see what yoy come up with I just really need to talk about my pjo headcanons. I—like, i’m so glad that pjogate is a thing now, but i don’t think you understand, this au has been living rent-free in my head for a WHILE. I have THOUGHTS, and seeing as i’ve seen how you dive into aus with ur atlagate, i just… i’m making your problem, basically. Whether or not anybody actually reads this, idk, but yeah.

Setting this au in a parallel universe, where none of the pjo characters exist but most of the lore/worldbuilding is similar, though i’m considering moving the timing of the Big Three Pact not to have kids, because I like the fact that Hades was one of the only one to never break the oath, and for this to take place in the 80s the oath has to take place later (thinking… “end” of Vietnam war, rather than the end of WWII, so 1973–2 years after Will & El were born).

I have Things to say about Camp Jupiter and legacies and families, but first, I wanna go through my parents for everyone really quick & then I’ll backtrack to give more backstory/plot for the au idea lurking in my head.

Dustin: Hephaestus

Billy, Steve, AND Max: Aphrodite

Robin: Hermes

Lucas: Apollo

Erica: Hermes

Argyle: Demeter

Eddie: Dionysus

Mike: Calliope*

Will: Hades*

El: Hades*

Henry: Arachne*

Jason, Chrissy, Patrick, Jonathan, Nancy, Joyce, Hopper, Troy, James, Lonnie, Ted, Karen, Holly: Roman Legacies*

Murray: Faun

*= will elaborate later

Dustin I think is a no-brainer. Ik ppl were talking about Aphrodite Lucas & Ares Max, Ares Max & Aphrodite Lucas, etc, but here’s the thing: Aphrodite suits Billy, Steve, and Max so perfectly. Shows the darker side of Aphrodite/Aphrodite’s power through Billy (Aphrodite is hardly harmless), Billy def has charmspeak tho lol. Steve is 100% Aphrodite—Imma be honest I was tempted with Poseidon, but even the swim captain bit works because Steve’s mom rose from the sea, so there’s still that connection. Max is like… challenging Aphrodite stereotypes while still enjoying “girlie” things like clothes & magazines (& continuing the Aphrodite tradition of Getting Bitches; see: Lucas & Dustin & El, though she’s only in an active relationship with two of those). Like Lucas, Max can be both. & we get the sibling dynamic between Max & Billy AND Max & Steve, which is perfection imo. Robin’s languages make her SUCH a good fit for Hermes. Plus, she has the chaotic energy necessary. Lucas is Apollo. His basketball skill which is referenced in PJO as an “apollo kid” thing, his SLINGSHOT?!?!?! Not to mention his singing (🎶 turn around… 🎶). Also, Lucas is LITERALLY sunshine, but more importantly, he’s Max’s LIGHT. Plus, Apollo is the god of truth, & we all saw how upset Lucas was at El in season one for lying. Erica, however, is Hermes. Capitalism? That entreprenerual spirit has Hermes written all over it. Here’s the thing. I love the Sinclairs and their marriage. They are one of the ONLY healthy marriages on the show, and I refuse to meddle with that. So, here’s how it went: Apollo had a threesome with the Sinclair parents, from which Lucas resulted. Hermes heard Apollo talking about how cool this couple was, decided he had to meet them, and fell into a whirlwind romance himself. Erica was born. Kiddos are half siblings in different cabins at camp who share 2/3 parents, with a healthy outlook on relationships, communication within relationships, and polyamory. (This will come in handy for Lucas, once his girlfriend gets a girlfriend). Argyle is Demeter, and also the camp weed provider. ‘Nough said, I think? Eddie is Dionysus. The way he channels dramatics into his DMing is so Dionysus-coded. We know he enjoys alcohol when stressed, which his father can relate too, I’m sure. Eddie would be a good Hermes (lockpick, hotwiring the car, hating that he has this skill bc of his criminal father the way Luke Castellan hates having an innate ability to pick locks in the demigod diaries), a good Apollo (his music, Corroded Coffin, etc), but Dionysus ultimately matches his energy best I feel.

This is where it gets interesting. Ik I listed Mike’s before El & Will, but Mike’s is ultimately more complicated than El & Will’s explanations, so I’m going to get to him after.

Will is Hades. “Zombie Boy”? Will is literally perfect for Hades, & it fits with his being ostracized within the community. Will’s connection to the Upsidedown/monsters is a lot like Nico’s ability to sense death. I know Will’s powers aren’t confirmed-confirmed, but the way Will keeps having flashes to the Upsidedown mirror’s Hazel Levesque’s flashbacks incredibly well. Will has the ability to communicate with/sense things that other people don’t understand, gives cryptic warnings based on his powers, etc. Also, I love the way Will parallels both Nico and Hazel, Nico’s struggles with his sexuality & attachment to a geeky game deemed “immature,” Hazel’s love of art & her childhood friend, BOTH of their willingness to sacrifice themselves for the people they love… these are also parallels I lean into further with my outline for some of his plot/backstory that makes me So Happy i can’t. But imma elaborate on that later lol.

El is also Hades. El… idk how many of you read Trials of Apollo, but El is a child of Nero. She had the misfortune of being his child back when Nero was still learning how to do the “raising kids” thing—he mostly wanted weapons, so he left it to a trusted ally, Brenner. “The numbers” were still the numbers—they all have their tattoos, etc, and their childhoods were still incredibly horrifying. Nero’s parenting style for Meg is after he’s worked out the kinks—El was the trial run. But here’s the thing, guys—for both will and el I was torn between Hades & Zeus, because of the lights, etc. But then I thought more about El’s powers. Remember that time Nico TURNED SOMEONE INTO A GHOST? Were y’all there when El banished a demogorgon & a Henry to the Upsidedown with her mind? Kinda reminds me of that time Nico opened a portal to the underworld & banished the unkillable skeletons down there, or the time(s. Plural.) he GHOSTED PEOPLE. Nico’s ghosting people, in turn, reminds me of El making them bleed with her mind. And the way El moves things with her mind? Ngl got me thinking of Hazel using her metal manipulation, and the way Hazel shapes reality around her. El’s ability to get in people’s heads/find people/view their memories reminds me of Nico’s ability to control dreams & find people in dreams, or of Hazel’s ability to share flashbacks and memories. And, y’know, their ability to SENSE people’s location if they’re in the underworld/risk of death. El’s belief that she’s a monster? SO Hades-child coded.

(Also btw remember that time Will talked about El using her powers to rig the games in vegas? Let’s just say the siblings have a lot of fun in the Lotus Casino. No i will not elaborate. Yet.)

Then we get Henry. Henry’s obsession with spiders got me pinning him as a demigod child of Arachne (likely with mist-manipulation skills), also a victim of Nero & Brenner’s parenting as “One”. Henry’s obsession with time sealed his fate as the guy trying to host Kronos & bring about the end of the world (not to mention his willingly merging with the mindflayer).

Now. Mike. Remember when I said Mike was… complicated? So, as a greek demigod, Mike is the child of Calliope. We all know Mike is a storyteller, and as such, I thought the muse of epics was a fitting parent for him. His love of DnD & storytelling & writing matches nicely. This version mike is in fact a musician (singer specifically) which, again, fits with calliope. Another child of calliope, orpheus, used his voice to pull his lover out of the underworld, which… I thought was a nice parallel. There are other reasons Calliope chose to be the mother of this particular child, though…

Because Mike wasn’t ALWAYS a child of Calliope in this universe.

Remember when I said this was set in the 80s? I lied… only a little bit. PART of it is set in the 80s… and part of it is set quite a few years later.

You see, before Mike was a son of Calliope, he was the son of Karen & Ted Wheeler. Before Mike was a Greek Demigod… he was a Roman Legacy.

Not that he remembers it, of course. But forgetfulness is par for the course when it comes to the Lethe, and if you want to be reincarnated, well. You have to pay the price.

OKAY i think i indulged my dramatic tendencies enough now ill elaborate. Basically, our story “starts” (sort of) in New Rome. The Hoppers, Byers, and Wheelers are all very old legacy families. (Exploring this au gave me the opportunity to worldbuild for New Rome which made me so happy I have so many new headcanons). I’ll give a brief breakdown of them (we’ll get to Jason, Chrissy, Patrick, Murray, etc. later).

The Byers:

Lonnie Byers is a Vulcan kid. Undecided if he’s a demigod or a legacy, but leaning towards demigod. (See: Lonnie’s car. I didn’t want to do some shit like make Lonnie a son of Bacchus & have that be an excuse for his alcoholism bc thats bs so I tried to look at what we actually KNOW ab Lonnie. This is what I came up with).

Joyce Byers is a MAJOR legacy. The thing about Camp Jupiter is, there are WAY more legacies than there are demigods. And because legacies have long family lines… you get New Rome families that have journeyed with New Rome/Camp Jupiter since Ancient Rome, since before that, even, families like Frank’s with a deep history. And you also get a lot of families/demigods/legacies intermingling, a lot of legacies related to multiple Roman gods because of this. Such is the case for Joyce Byers. She’s descended from the greek(ish? Don’t quote me on that, I’m not POSITIVE she can be considered greek though she’s in greek mythology) prophet Cassandra, blessed with foresight by Apollo but cursed (also by Apollo, who according to ToA cursed her because she rejected him) so that no one would believe her. This… is very Joyce. Joyce be spitting facts & the men in her life be calling her crazy but she’s like. Always right. Cassandra was said to have two twin sons, Teledamus and Pelops, who were murdered as children. In this au, one survived, and the Byers are descended from that one. On the godly side of things… Apollo decided he really liked Cassandra’s bloodline, I guess, because he had a kid with one of her son’s descendants at some point down the line (or HIS kid or his kid’s kid had a kid with one of her descendants), and so Joyce Byers has some Apollo genes in her. She’s also (potentially) related to Providentia, the minor Roman goddess of foresight, and Iris, the greek goddess of messages & rainbows, though I’m v v torn on that last one.

Jonathan Byers is related to all the godly people his parents are related to. Because Camp Jupiter was said to be so disconnected from the gods (we only really see Camp Jupiter post-Jason going missing, post-Percy making the gods promise to do better, during a time of crisis—and when we see it AFTER that policies have changed even MORE because of Jason. We never see Camp Jupiter in its disconnected from the gods era, but we know it had one from the books, so.) claiming, particularly for legacies, works a bit differently. When you know which gods you’re related to, because Camp Jupiter has records of your family line as a legacy, it’s less a matter of who-is-my-parent (singular) and more a matter of what-relative-likes-me-best (for legacies whose families have a history with New Rome). New Rome is much more comfortable with minor gods, and claiming is much less important. Or rather—it’s a polite lie that claiming aren’t important. They are. Still, you can have successful campers who know full well which gods they’re related to & yet are never claimed. In Jonathan’s case, he didn’t want to be claimed by Vulcan, because he didn’t want the connection to his father. He chose a deity his mother was descended from (Apollo, i think) & prayer to them, instead. Jonathan isn’t defined by his godly heritage—he continues to have a passion for photography. But Apollo is the god of truth & light, & Jonathan likes using photography to illuminate the truth about his subjects (see his rant to season one explaining to Nancy why he photographed her).

Will Byers is, as mentioned earlier, a Hades child. Hopefully, after reading all about his Roman legacy family, and learning that Will grew up in New Rome, and learning about the ban on Big Three kids in ‘73–two years after Will was born—you can see why this might be a problem. Will is the son of Joyce Byers. Joyce & Hades met when Joyce & Lonnie were on a break (it looked like they’d be getting divorced. Unfortunately, they got back together). When Will was born, it was safer to say he was Lonnie’s. Still, when Lonnie said shit like “That’s not my son”… she wondered how good she was at hiding it. (If will’s father had been anyone else, the Lares of new rome, the house ghosts/house gods, would’ve been gossping about his greekness like the gosspied about percy’s in SoN. As it is, Joyce hid Will by the skin of her teeth… and it didn’t last. More on that later.)

The Hoppers:

Hopper is a member of an old New Roman family. He’s related to Mercury, Mars, and Venus, among others.

Hopper’s daughter, Sara, had a mortal mother. When Sara got sick, Hopper brought Sara to New Rome in an attempt to treat her. Sara couldn’t be cured. (Maybe she didn’t have enough godly blood for ambrosia/nectar? I’m curious about toying with that—maybe that’s why New Rome uses unicorn draught more, bc of how many legacies can ONLY use that). Lupa eventually took Sara, as she takes all Roman descendants (whether demigod or legacy) to test them before they can be allowed to join Camp Jupiter. Remember, this is canon: Lupa eats the ones she deems too weak. Lupa eats Sara Hopper, and the talk in New Rome is what it always is when Lupa eats a child: Lupa knows best, it was for the good of us all, it was a kindness.

The Wheelers:

Ted is a legacy of Jupiter—a very, very distant legacy. Still, the connection to Jupiter & his family’s long history with New Rome garner Ted some respect. I haven’t decided if Jupiter claimed Ted (as his legacy, like Apollo did for Octavian) or not. Ted is also related to a minor god called Sancus—the god of honesty and vows, though more related to contracts, look it up its cool (think: friends don’t tell lies. Think: a promise is something you never, ever break). He’s probably also related to Mars & a few others, like Karen & Joyce & Hopper, because Old Families.

Karen is ALSO a member of a respected legacy family, known for being & claimed as a legacy of Venus.

Karen & Ted are a power couple

Nancy is related to all the gods her parents are related to, some of whom i haven’t listed. Nancy advances quickly in New Rome, though isn’t claimed. (The popular theory is that Jupiter and/or Mars are waiting for Nancy to impress them before claiming her). Nancy becomes a praetor, goes on a bunch of quests, is highly proficient in weaponry and as a leader/strategist/intellectual. (More to say on Nancy. A Lot more.)

Mike is also related to all the gods his parents are, just like Nancy, just like Holly. Essentially… Mike has big shoes to fill. And Mike, as he is (un-athletic, slow at running, bad at fighting, “frogface”) doesn’t fit the expectations for a legacy of Jupiter and Venus, for a Wheeler, for the brother of Nancy, for the son of Karen. Most expect that when Lupa summons him, she’ll eat him, and they talk about this openly and loudly around Mike. (See: Troy & James)

I have more lore, but i know i’ve rambled a lot already, so basically: these three families are at camp jupiter. As in canon, mike and will grew up together, and are best friends. The dodge taunts of “zombie boy” and “frogface” together, go to the elementary school in New Rome together, prepare for Camp jupiter together

(Btw, when Joyce & Hop joined Camp Jupiter, they 11, & were in the same cohort)

Then, when they’re 12, Lupa summons Will. Will’s worried. Mike thinks that’s ridiculous. Will’s the strongest person he knows, he’s great with a gun, he’s powerful—Lupa has no reason to reject him.

(Except for that he’s greek. Except for that he’s a son of Hades. Except for that he’s not supposed to be alive. Except for that THIS Big Three child isn’t a pawn in a goddess’ plan, THIS Big Three child isn’t the key to saving the world or Rome, THIS Big Three child isn’t coming to Lupa in years of conflict, or in the years after Percy Jackson got the gods to make Big Three Children legal again. THIS greek Big Three Child is simply a threat.

Not that Mike knows any of that. Even Will doesn’t know all of it before he meets Lupa—he just knows enough to stay hidden.)

Lupa tries to kill Will. Will, as a son of Hades, as a greek demigod, escapes into the Labyrinth. He encounters another demigod called Henry there, but… that’s a story for another day.

When Will doesn’t return, it is treated as par for the course, an acceptable loss. This infuriates Mike, who feels like… like he’s the only one who’s acting normal. Like he’s the only one who cares about Will. This plants the seed of resentment against the gods in Mike, the seed of anti-government leanings we see in canon (in mike and nancy and jonathan and joyce and hopper and—) (anarchist Mike Wheeler, Luke-was-right Mike Wheeler (not that luke exists in this universe but still)—& he starts Nancy down the pipeline, too.)

Joyce calls up Hopper, who she knows will understand having a child taken by Lupa. She’s sure her son is alive, that he’s reaching out to her (in her dreams, perhaps?). The labyrinth takes the place of the upsidedown in this au more or less. Jonathan leaves New Rome with Joyce & Hopper to try & find will. He tries to get nancy wheeler to care, reminding her that it’ll be her in his shoes soon, that everyone expects Lupa to eat Mike—but Nancy gets defensive & lets Jonathan leave. (She’ll regret that, later).

Mike eventually leaves, too. He stumbles upon a girl called eleven, on the run from her papa & Nero. She tells him that she’s a greek daughter of hades, in her season one way of speaking, and Mike outs together some clues about will, will’s power, and will’s heritage that he’d willfully ignored. They enter the labyrinth together, Mike and El. Mike gives El her nickname, tells her about will, tells her how they’re going to go back to new rome once they find him. El keeps mike from getting himself killed with his negative survival skills and utter lack of fighting prowess/athleticism.

Mike doesn’t find will. Mike never finds will, in fact. Not before he dies.

El does, though.

Hopper, Joyce, and Jonathan were able to find will in the labyrinth. Reunited, they make plans for will & jonathan to go to a place called Camp Half Blood, which will be better for greek demigod will (as long as he hides his father). (Jonathan is fine hiding his heritage; camp half blood is a bit of a culture shock for the byers, because of the emphasis of demigods & parentage & cabins-by parentage). I’m unclear on whether they find El in the labyrinth or in the casino itself; regardless, the clan meets el, learns of nero & the trimuvate’s plans, and ends up running into the lotus casino in an attempt to avoid the monsters tracking them down.

El & mike got split up in the maze. Nancy either brought mike home, or mike died. I think mike lived, though. He lived to 15. He lived to grow bitter towards the gods, to be claimed by his godly ancestor Sancus, to be summoned by Lupa. I can’t decide whether Lupa does kill Mike or not—kind of the whole point is that WE know Mike has value, but by Lupa’s standards, his life doesn’t, to show how insane it is to judge kids in this way. & to illuminate the flaws in camp jupiter, same as camp halfblood has its own. (Why a child army if you have adults????? Why eaten children when you can protect them?????).

That, or he jumped off a cliff at 12 in an attempt to save El. One of the two.

Nancy Wheeler lives to become praetor. She mourns Barb, taken by the dangerous lives demigods lead. She mourns Will Byers, pointlessly lost. She mourns her brother, who she didn’t do enough to protect. She tries to change the system from within, fails, wins more accolades, fails to change things, goes on more quests, and fails some more. Nancy’s violent edge that was so out of place in the canon universe, that was non-conformity, here allows her to conform and thrive. But, as in canon, Nancy grows to embrace non-conformity while retaining the aspects of herself that, while valued by general society, SHE enjoys/likes (her femininity, her intelligence, etc). She becomes a radical rather like Mike, and likely joins the Amazons. What I CAN’T decide is if she is blessed as a gift for a successful quest with eternal youth, for what an awful thing that is—most godly descendants never get to grow up, and Nancy’s reward for her efforts, for her blood and sweat and tears, is that SHE will never grow up either. But you can’t reject a gift from a god. Would be great if she could get something useful out of it, a way to change the system they’re stuck in, but…

She & Murray the faun bond over their bitterness.

Meanwhile, the Byers (Joyce Will El Hopper Jonathan) are trapped in the Lotus casino. Willel DO use their abilities to rig games. Willel also cry together when they sense mike die, their minds so foggy from the casino that they can barely understand what it is they’re sensing, why it is they’re crying. Eventually, decades after they first entered, they emerge from the casino in a new world, and resume their quest to camp half blood. (Not the 80s anymore).

Joyce & Hopper are perplexed that adults aren’t allowed in camp half blood, but. While jonathan enters with will and el (who was reluctant to go east, so close to nero), joyce and hopper begin their quest to take down nero (perhaps running into nancy wheeler or murray bauman or bob newby along the way).

Inside camp? Will & El & Jonathan hang in the Hermes cabin, Jonathan obviously (to Chiron) Roman, Will & El obviously powerful & dangerous. They make friends—Max from aphrodite, Dustin from hephaestus, Lucas from apollo, Argyle from Demeter…

And Mike, short for Michael. Son of Calliope, theater enthusiast, Hermes Cabin resident… and the reincarnation of Michael Wheeler, Roman Legacy.

Not that he remembers any of that, of course. Certainly not.

(On an unrelated note, he’s been having some incredibly vivid dreams lately—they feature the new kid, Will, but younger, more innocent, in a strange camp… They feature his sister El, but smaller, quieter, with a shaved head and a frantic edge, in a maze that never ends... )

(Calliope found the tragedy of it all romantic. Mike and Will are less inclined to agree.)

(I did not expect this to be this long jesus christ)

(But its written now ig)

Currently putting together all my thoughts about the pjogate guys... I will never know rest until I do the whole world building. I am obsessed, my mind will not know rest.