#idk was very frustrating today

[preciousmetaltimeofnight]

I think my main frustration with the lore today comes from tonal disconnect between what we knew about the event today vs what the event actually was. Like the event itself would probably have been a fun silly thing that I would have enjoyed. Had it not been built up to with the implications that they were gonna learn a important new information about the federation and steal important tech. When we learned about the mission it seemed like a secret spy thing with high stakes. Atleast from Cellbit's pov, with a possibility of more answers about the federation. And then today it turned out that it wasn't a small spy mission. But a server wide event that half the characters had no in character reason to attend.

(Like some of the sillies were from qsmp being MCRP and inherently silly but also a full half of those characters had no reason to attend instead of just getting info from Cellbit later Lore wise)

There's also the disconnect from it being really obvious meta wise that the admins want them to keep the MiniMes and the players supposedly stealing secret tech from the federation. Like what's the point of a heist if you are just gonna later have the guy they heisted it from just give them out? Or imply via Duck video that the federation wanted them to steal the MiniMes?

[ledzeppelinmixtape]

wish house was a real doctor so i could be his mystery insomniac patient and after giving me horse tranquilizers and still not falling asleep he just hits me in the head with his cane and im out like a light

[jils-things]

by the lighthouse.

dividers

[vagun1ka]

some vent art with ganyu

[arundolyn]

ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode

[thebaffledcaptain]

Been thinking about historical beauty standards lately and the fact that being rounder and heavier was, in fact, considered fashionable for a very long time, and then the fact that people will always interject with the “it’s because weight meant you were wealthy and able to afford food and leisure,” which, sure, is true to some extent, but it’s not like… the only reason that was desirable? Like, is it that hard to believe that people genuinely found that beautiful? That both men and women would rogue their cheeks to make them look more lively and full? That men would tailor their waistcoats to give the illusion of a potbelly because it was the fashionable silhouette? That to be soft and plump was considered lovely and attractive? Honestly, I feel people’s insistence on the whole “weight meant you were wealthy” thing can quickly become a kind of backhanded fatphobia, this assertion that being fat meant something else desirable, and thus became the Desirable Thing. People have had fat and been fat all throughout history and been found beautiful for it, period.

[reminiscentrainclouds]

You guys ever feel trapped? Yea I'm well-acquainted with the feeling of being trapped.

[dimonds456]

Gonna take a break from Tumblr for a while, I think. My mental health has been plummetting, and I need time to get back on my feet.

Though a large part of it is definitely the on-going genocide, my eyes are still on Palestine. If I reblog anything in the next few days, it'll more than likely be either personal stream stuff (huge maybe on that) or Palestine news.

I'm okay, I'm not going to do anything drastic, I just need to take a step back and take a breath. If anyone needs me, DMs are good, or if you can reach me on Discord that would be better.

See ya when I see ya. Eid muburak.

-Dimonds

[challengers]

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[lovelaceisntdead]

Me: I would like to be rereferred to this service if you still have a psychologist. If there is no psychologist please don't refer me, I don't want to have to go through the assessment process again otherwise.

Them: okay :) the wait will be eighteen weeks for an assessment appointment :)

Me: okay, that's a little frustrating so in the meantime I will reach out to another service as the wait is so long and then maybe the assessment will be helpful

Them, after several weeks: oh we see you have reached out to another service so do not need our help. Also we lied there is no psychologist and we are not a mental health service. Bye.

[supercantaloupe]

truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs

[halogalopaghost]

I just found out that a tilt table test isn't like, getting tilted back and forth for a while, you lay there for thirty minutes and then they tilt you upright REAL QUICK, im gonna fail that test so hard lmao

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[br1ghtestlight]

genuinely kinda pissed I have to give a presentation tomorrow for school and I'm going to be graded on eye contact (among other things) WHICH I CANNOT DO not only bcuz of autism but because my eyes physically. do not have the ability to focus together on a person place or thing like the muscles in my eyes are too weak. im gonna be wearing an eye bandage anyway so I'll be basically completely blind unable to see my teacher but I just hate being graded on something I quite literally have no control over. ughhh education system sucks

[imflyingfish]

Its weird because i dont actually have much of a desire to move to france or use french reguarly in my life but at this point ive deadicated over a year to learning it so i might as well keep going and finish

[phagodyke]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(