#idk maybe im just overthinking lol
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#series of unfortunate events#lemony snicket#idk lol#grunge#lana del rey#idk man#idk why#maybe im overthinking it#girl interrupted syndrome#i’m just a girl#i’m just rambling
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wait im too lazy to rewatch the whole series but i just remembered that in the scene where bill's in stan's head before they're erased stan says he's surprised bill didn't recognise his mind
was stan ever told that bill was in his head before? how does he know that bill should know what his mind looks like. hm
#shhh sh shhhhh quiet i know that there's a lot of easy explanations but let me overthink dumb stuff it's fun#yeah yeah it could just mean ''i'm surprised you didn't recognise it isn't ford's'' i guess#and ig it is likely bill spoke to stan before years ago even if the thing alex talked about is technically not canon#but also in tbob stan basically said he first met bill during weirdmageddon so. idk lol#but shhhh shh quiet#thinking thoughts about stan being more aware and in control of his mindscape than usual..#something something acting like he wasn't aware during dreamscaperers but he saw everything#idk. again im too lazy to rewatch the whole show maybe they told stan bill entered his head one time and i missed it lol#i may be stupid and looking at something that isn't anything but it's fiiiine#gravity falls#stan pines
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Alright, I'm still conflicted about this, help me out y'all
#mononoke#mononoke karakasa#mononoke oni#fan translating#even if i do grab karakasa there's no guarantee im not going to feel too guilty and go back to oni anyway lol#but if i say im sticking with oni while longing for karakasa it makes me want to work on oni less#but im used to how hideyuki writes these spin-off novels by now so idk if a different author for karakasa is going to throw me off#due to different writing styles (maybe it wont be a big enough difference to matter but idk)#working on both at the same time could either be great because when i get to a point where its hard to work on one i can just#jump to the other for a bit#or it could be bad because now i have two staring me in the face and putting twice the pressure on myself to make progress#so that option's a gamble#anyway i can overthink myself into circles all day long#take the decision away from me lol
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i hope they fight (can’t read past this point)
#l e m m e i n n n n n n n n n n#never thought that i’d ever find something in common with mr face reveal but here we are (dude’s a retail pharmacy cashier. poor guy :()#i need to know if the pharmacy manages to survive the encounter#i hope he calls out her bs and enforces the ‘1 lxl gummy per person’ rule to extremes#this is unfair i can’t even skip ahead to the ch 3 previews bc this site doesn’t even have them yet auaaaaaaa#but hm. looking at this and the calendar… plus chizuutan’s planner from doutan kyohi… this encounter takes place on 1 august#july and august are the only 2 consecutive months of 31 days after all. sooooooooo#so ig it’d put the nonfan release somewhere in july… hmmmmmmmmmm#which would kinda make sense i think… in the nonfan novel hiyo’s contract was supposed to end in august… right? i can’t rem lol#hmmmmmmmmmmmm. but that’d only be the case if the chizuutan mvs complement the [redacted] anime/kawaikute gomen manga timelines…#i hope we get to see her pov of the hiyo makeover for the nagisa visit lmao#but then again. maybe lxl have had 2 separate gummy collabs and im just overthinking it.#idk why am i wasting my precious lunch break thinking about lxl and chizuutan anyway i’ve had enough of them ausuxyshxhshhshajsjshshs#chizuutan chizpost
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i wish i had more josh mutuals that don't seek to include chris in everything like. i don't hate chris at all or dislike cc, i said this already but. just clarifying again.
i don't like how most ppl who like josh don't even really like him. they usually like josh if chris is also there. like y'all don't get me. i'm here solely for josh and i like to have fun w characters on their own. i don't get why most interpretations of josh always include sam or chris.
and abt ppl only liking josh when sam or chris are there-- i don't mean to be rude, but josh is more interesting than those two combined, bc of the stuff he has going on beneath the surface. he doesn't need them to be interesting, he's already compelling enough on his own.
im still insecure about posting in this fandom even tho i do it every day. but i'd be less nervous about posting my josh stuff if the people who claim to "like him" weren't so. odd. cuz the josh mutuals i have rn (who solely like josh on his own...) are okay with every silly doodle i draw of josh, bc they don't care. they're here for him and they just like him
meanwhile cc likers that i've met are really. not people i get along with. bc like i said, they kinda only like chris and josh and that's it. id go as far to say they don't even like the game lmfao bc they only like it for cc.
idk... real josh fans are ok with seeing him in a dress from time to time lol. one of the main reasons i can have fun with his character is bc i know Allll there is to know about the source material + josh's canon depiction. which i honestly love, i don't need to change josh in order to like him. but i feel like some ppl do that and those r the people i can't get along with
i wish ppl were more open to having fun w these characters. posting them in silly outfits and such shouldn't be like, anxiety inducing lmfao i want to have fun and i wish others would be more open to that but as of rn, it just doesn't seem that way.
it's hard to tell if i'm making this up or if my anxieties are real, but the thought of it being real is enough to have me stress over it every time i think of posting or if i'm drawing something.
but everyone who follows me for ud-- hi, thank you for following and liking and reblogging my stuff, esp thatoneudguy cuz he supports like everything i say and make lol (and special shout out to queerkearney for always complimenting my work, its rly motivating <3) y'all are cool!!
#i know i sorta just talked about this but#it's one of my main quips w this fandom#i try not to sound overly picky when it comes to characterization#i'm honestly down for any characterization as long as it doesn't completely sabotage the character#ie making josh a bad boy or a flirt cuz that kinda just ignores every other factor about him that i don't usually like#i'm also down for any Visual interpretation of a character!! if you think like ... chris is feminine or something i'm so down for that#and all for it !!#but also people are more ok with seeing him feminine than they are with josh... idk... thags just the vibes i get...#maybe im overthinking it ...#or it's bc i give him boobs. i rly don't know what the issue is lol#josh
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I know I'm valid in my feelings but afdbdbdmdbm still trying to tell myself it's nothing (bc what can you do but move on) when I share smth n it gets no reaction from ppl I wanted to hear from TT
#makes me overthink so i have to tell myself its nothing#like. my writing was sfw. it was soft even... Mostly. not the rui fic. the dove was alive and healthy.#so its like. Oh. maybe its my fault for sharing the link to my blog? where i have a big warning on the front ^^; and they dni bc that#maybe they saw the fic links n then clicked the blog itself n saw my pinned?#honestly probably not which is why i have to tell myself im overthinking and its probably nothing#its ok to be sad no one responded to fics u were proud of and thought they would like but dont overthink it#i sent it late and it was immediately buried under art that someone sent right after me#and fic is more time consuming/less easy to react to than art and thats probably thw only reason why#ughhh idk man. im just a little disappointed bc i hyped myself up enough to be brave and that it would be ok to share my fic blog#:') it's ok the tags on my fics make me happy already#thoughts.ddz#ignore me lol
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on one hand. it's deeply funny how whenever I'm in a new situation/I'm busy my bodies just like yeah we don't need food right it's fineee and then I barely eat because I forget to/don't feel like it. on the other hand I would really like to. yk. try more Japanese food while I'm here? like cmon man work with me here
#its like#im not not eating yk#ive been living off seven eleven sandwiches and onigiri#and a shit ton of drinks while I'm out#i think its a combo of like#a. me kinda shifting into the same mindset i get at cons where its just go go go make the most of it do everything you can eat and feel like#shit when you get home#b. food expensive. not that expensive but it feels like a cost yk#c. shit ton of unfamiliar food and again. dont want to waste money on something i wont like. my ass is bad with certain textures and tastes#i feel bad getting boring western food bc migjt as well try something new while im here right but also all the new stuff scares me#d. going anywhere that isnt a self serve conbini/fast food place is uh. terrifying? idk.how to do that#e. i just forget food is a thing i need#idk im bad with food in general#hashtag autism thingss#but i think theres just a lot of compounding factors that lead to more stress around this#(new country so new things so i dont know if ill like them but i need to try them while im here bc i migjt never get to again and then ill#regret it forever but idk how but i cant just keep going to the same two or three places but going anywhere else takes forever ajd feels#like a waste of time but-)#so my brain just kinda goes. lmaao yeah no and then avoids thinking abt it?#or maybe im just overthinking it who fuckin knows#probably overthinking. and oversharing#lol. lmao even#idk im not really a huge food person anyway? still seems like a waste ig#drinks are fucking incredible tho#and hey im getting hydrated while im walkong aroind thats more than i usually get#imngonna. shut up jow#me.txt
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the good thing about asperger's no longer being a diagnosis is that it's just called level 1 autism spectrum disorder now. i know i probably shouldn't be poking around in the mental health of strangers online, but as an autistic person myself, your struggles resonated with me. ever since i've been able to accept, understand, and begin to provide myself accommodations for my autism, my mental health has improved tremendously. autism is also co-morbid with oodles of other conditions, so it is definitely possible to have autism and other conditions that may have overlapping symptoms
It's funny, I was diagnosed, accepted it, over analyzed and rejected it, subsequently forgot about it entirely, then when the only helpful counselor I ever had brought up the idea I was like: Oh yeah! That makes sense. And went through the same process over again. I will say, having someone point out that something might be inhibiting my ability to interact with people was extremely helpful. Because I just thought I was really bad at it and processed it as a point of failure (which was intolerable). At one point she said "You don't have to do things you don't want to just because you feel like you should" and I think about that a lot. That should have been obvious but it was like she slapped me with a fish
#i used to pretend to be a person a lot more. now im just like im too fucking tired to not be anything but myself#ill wear whatever weird patterns i want. ill avoid all eye contact and say whatevers in my head. bc usually its nothing#harmful. perhaps a bit blunt but usually in a way thst makes ppl laugh. with me or at me idk but whatever#ill be as weird as i want. i wear fucking white moon boots around everywhere lol. ay now im just being defensive bc#these r the things my sister would make fun of me for lol. point is im probably autistic and overthinking it#but in the past few yeas when the obsessive compulsive behavior started to become a more and more obvious problem i was like hm maybe its#something else and my brain restricts even the words i use in the context i use them so i became no longer allowed to say oh yea im#autistic. which is annoying. thr malignant force that is my obsessive compulsive tendencies. which again im not allowed to name bc its not#allowed without an official diagnosis bc thats how my brain work 👍#level 1 autism sounds Hilarious tho. the teired heavens of autism. ive only ascended to level 1. allegedly.#god. my brain. y do i have to plausible deniability myself. its like im waiting for someone to collect evidance and make an arrest bc of#messy liguistics. ay ay ay. there r 2 wolfs inside me. one is trying to drown the other lol#unrelated#me when i have to b around ppl: actually im an insect person. an alien studying humans. watch them go#but no no im not one of them. im simply an observer
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i love kirby super star fanfic or comic adaptations where marx and kirby are actually best friends during the course of the entire game and marx blindsides kirby, to the point where i want to do something soooort of similar with my kirbyverse, but i also just kinda love how in canon marx was just like “im gonna very specifically ruin this guys week”
#i think marx is less outright evil and murdery and more ''i just want to fuck around with no one to stop me''#saw itsquakey say that marx seemed to be an antagonist more out of petty antagonism where he just wanted to play tricks with no backlash#and i gotta replay milky way wishes again to verify that bc ill admit i never paid that much attention to his dialogue but thats interesting#or at least it differentiates him from magolor a bit more#who more or less just outright wants to rule the universe#im torn on whether or not i want him and kirby to be besties tho#for one im like. so unsure if i want him to be the same age as kirby#bc ngl ive always seen marx as rather young so i saw him and kirby as being the same age at one point#and magolor was also the same as them. but now i firmly see magolor as like in his early 20s or so mentally#mayyybe a late teen at best? and i feel like if he and marx are gonna be a duo itd be cool to keep em the same age?#but then i want marx and kirby to be like. direct parallels in some way like idk. theyre the same age yet had totally different circumstance#that shaped who they became (still sort of want to play into my ''marx is a mirror of kirby'' hc from when i was little)#ig i could just also age up kirby but like youll have to pry child kirby from my dead hands#none of this matters ik its not like i ship marxolor or marxby or anything (anymore) but like idk#maybe im overthinking it LOL#idk tho basically idea is that marx and kirby are actually childhood best friends who've known each other since they were newborns#but like. besides that i have no ideas sdklfjsdlkfjsdlkfsd i used to have an edgy ass backstory for marx where his parents were murdered#and thats valid if you have something like that for his backstory but idk if i want to go that route anymore#bc marx is less villainous here and more ''i have no real moral compass and i want to fuck with people''#idk im throwing spaghetti at the wall btw nothing here is verified at all#echoed voice
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New update in life:
I have to quit smoking weed because it sends me into ✨drug induced psychosis ✨
#help lol#quitting weed#mitski#lana del rey#kawaii#harley quinn#maybe im overthinking it#idk lol#i just want to be loved
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hi it’s midnight on june 8. one year ago today i found out i got the job im currently in. and today i will be interviewing for it again 🤪
#im scared shitless but trying rly hard not to think about it at all. idk if that’s a good strategy but this time it’s like i stay in the job#no matter what it’s just do i get permanent status and a raise or not. so it’s not low stakes ofc but the stakes aren’t as high and maybe#overthinking and prepping responses and shit will be unhelpful. but idk. i kinda want to explode about it lol. i just want this hell process#to be over and for all the secrets and politics and whatever to just… stabilize bc my nerves are so shot at this point lol#purrs#also ngl i am like 85% confident that no one else who applied (IF anyone else applied) made it through to interviews so the odds are… pretty#strong that this is gonna work out i think. but it’s still just so stressful and i want and need to not be stressed. lawl
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i wonder if anyone's discussed the buddha statues and their representations of the days of the week and their general meaning yet or am i going to have to do that
#snow plays hsr#IM JUST THINKING ALOUD#i have ideas and its like a.#its like one notebook page in very very tiny font of notes and ideas lol#but anyways#like i still have to read through this one thread on twitter about the buddhist/cultural references but alskdfh maybe theyve discussed it#there!#i said i wanted to talk more about cultural references but i feel like that thread does it way more justice than i can#but again: didnt finish reading through it properly#so idk if theyve talked about that and like some of the references over there#i wanted to reference it for phantylia but like? im pretty sure this is me overthinking if we're being real here LOL#i mean. i dont want to because i am lazy and so low energy (super super negative energy LOL BUT WE ARE TRYING!!!!)#but if no one did it i will. in some way LOL#maybe i should just start reusing my rambling blog i dont mind doing that tbh#at least its a little more organized there than here LOL
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one of my favorite shirts is just a restaurant shirt with the name on it and its like super confortable but its so funny to me bc i think its like a chain restaurant thats only in my county so theres like no chance anyone outside of like said county would know what it is and i feel like its probably really weird to see if you dont know it and anyways this is just a long winded way to say one of the things i wear in public is just a shirt that says Long Doggers
#or maybe im just overthinking it idk#such a stupid name HAHAH#i dont even like the food there lol its surf and turf i hate fried seafood
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eep!
#cryptic ramblings#in the tags#feelinggggg a little bit neglected by me irl friend group 😖#just like. every time i say smthn/yap a lil i dont tend to get much acknowledgement??#vs the other two will always get some kinda acknowledgement etc both from me and the other (theres 3 of us)#idk im hoping its my pre-period bs talking n overanalyzing things but like... idk#bc its like. we're all stressed bc of our jobs n like other stuff#n we all share w eachother! abt those stressors! n we sympathize n offer advice n help where necessary!#like these r my Best Friends. theyd both be my Co-Smthn Of Honor when i get married!!! so i dont wanna assume smthn negative abt em yk??#but i just... yknow... feel a lil... blergh#like neglected is kinda too strong but just like.. im kinda annoying??? bothersome maybe??? idk#like if uve seen some of my other tags ive been stressed tf out over cleaning my room bc i had a certain deadline (which was today)#n last night was the worst of my stress but it was the most id done n i shared this w them but another one of em shared some their own stuff#n we all responded to them while i did not get anything n it made me feel a bit ignored 🥴#n ik i should prob bring this up to them but like i also dont wanna guilt them into feeling likr they HAVE to respond to everything i send!!#bc sometimes i rly Do Be sending just stuff tht doesnt rly require a response like truly#n i get just not rly having anything to say either so mmmmmm idk#def think im overthinking it all n my dumb pms hormones or w/e are making me overreact as a result but i just wanted to vent a bit#get it off my chest. yk how it is#(i also hope this isnt the One Time one of em decides to hop onto tumblr after YEARS of not using it 🥴🥴)#IM the resident tumblrite so itd be quite a coinkydink if one of em hopped on outta nowhere 😖#...anyways... yeah thats p much it)#i love em!!! i dont think i could Not Love Em!!! but my brain's just bein rejection-sensitive or smthn#n taking the lack of responses twrd my shit as Rejections ig#is wack#end of vent. thanks if u read all this lol
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#back to Overthinking HDJDJDNDNDN#glad i got called in to work tomorrow LOL#personal#i should just ask him to hang out n get it over with BUT IM SCAREDNFJFJDJXKXM#theres nothing to even be scared of bc im pretty sure im the reason he even showed up last time NDNNDNDND#literally texted me like. youre going tonight right. and then saying it should be thrilling (sarcastically. he doesnt feel much toward the#other ppl we were meeting JDJJFJD. hes said this on several occassions)#n e way. one of us has to put on our big girl pants n i guess it has to be ME DNNDJDJXJX#im also like irrationally worried that he'll find someone else. idk where since he works at home anyway and overtime on top of that but#HJDJXJXJZJZ HHHHHHH#if thats the case tho then hes not the guy for me n thats that ya.... HDNDJDJDJ#literally hurting myself on ourpose like this is so fucjed up JDJDJJDD#why cant i just like. accept that maybe he does like me. like for sure we're friends n he cares about me enough but if its romantically...#well i dont want to Assume........#but i dont think you go to dinners filled with ppl you dislike just to hang out with a friend. i really dont NDJDJDNNZ#n e way#im just afraid to think that somethung good may happen for once. like its already a lot to handle rn that i have a job#if i also have a bf thats.... well is that even allowed for me to have#this sounds so JDJDJDJDJDJ irrational ik. but in my mind its like. idk. other ppl can do these 2 good things at once but i Can't......#idk
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aww <3 still amazed that you remembered about the guerlain picture and but that this made you not want to change the scene omg!!!! also i definitely remember about the jump in the water that everything around it was a bit different. i loved it back then already but i love it even more now and somehow it feels more positive because she didn’t ignore him all day and because of everything that follows after the jump - 🌄
ahh, thank you!! it feels really nice when you put a lot of effort into something and someone enjoys it, so this truly means a lot 💗
#especially bc ngl im not 100% happy with part 4 lol#but i didnt want to overthink it and keep changing too much so i just posted it#but idk. maybe it's just my mood or whatever but yeah. lol#so anyway it feels really nice to know you liked it! thanks!
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