#i’m just rambling

[atelierlili]

I always wondered why Katniss factored marriage and children into the equation when it came to reciprocating Peeta’s feelings for her. It’s a rather large leap, especially when Peeta himself never expresses wanting children at any point in the story. He uses children as a tool to persuade Katniss and the Capital to save her life, but the only time we see him express any desire/feelings of having one of his own is when he’s crying after the baby bomb. But we never hear his real thoughts.

But you wanna know who does express wanting children? Gale.

It’s one of the first thing he mentions in chapter one. And it pisses her off so much.

(I also want to add that Gale reframes/establishes the dynamic of Katniss and him caring for their siblings from something that is sibling-sibling to parent-sibling. And he is not wrong. Katniss doesn’t refute him. Both Katniss and Gale are surrogate parents to their siblings. Which is also why Katniss love and affection of Prim, is not just sisterly. I’ve seen people say Katniss is only sisterly to Prim- but she’s not. She’s parentified their relationship to the point she subconsciously see Prim as her child, which makes this a tragedy because she’ll loose her first child no matter what she does by the end of the story.)

But Gale’s phrasing here elevates himself as a potential suitor to Katniss by placing them both as the parental roles to these children. (Which irritates her a lot ). Which is why she brings the topic up with her relationship with Peeta. Because she’s subconsciously aware of Gale’s efforts and knows it will be a point of contention between them. It hangs over her head in a way.

With Gale, children are extra mouths to feed. (But Gale will do fine. He can work. He can hunt.) It’s all framed with calculated survival in mind. But it’s also not something she had planned in the future at any point.

But Peeta’s children? Oh they deserve to be born because Peeta deserves to be a father. He would be such a good father. They deserve to exist in a world where they can be safe and happy. (Even if it’s not with her.)

This is also why I think she subconsciously sees Peeta’s baby as her own. And I don’t think of it as a cruel/heartless thing, it’s just you’d be more protective of your own child compared to someone else’s. Katniss sees Gale as a reliable person who’s equipped to look after a kid. She doesn’t express the same kind of maternal instinct/yearning for the Baby Hawthrone’s safety as she does with the idea of Baby Mellark, because she doesn’t think of Gale’s child as her own. She never hopes for a better future for them, but she does with Peeta because he and that baby gives her hope. And she loves him that much.

[boba-beom]

taehyun hard thoughts

bf!taehyun who sits you on his lap, wandering hands over your ass and pushing your hips forward to grind against his half-hard cock.

bf!taehyun who has his hands resting behind his head as he lets you rut against his boner through his grey sweats, your pussy getting wetter by the second while your face buries into his neck.

bf!taehyun who lets out small grunts and low moans as you place light kisses along the column of his neck, nipping and sucking as you leave a couple of marks so they peek above his shirts and tank tops.

bf!taehyun who’s dick twitches when you buck your hips a certain way, the head of his cock deliciously rubbing against the material of his pants.

bf!taehyun who loves hearing your heavy breathing by his ear, your soft sighs and gentle moans as his orgasm nears.

bf!taehyun who tells you to go on your knees, pulling down his pants and continues to jerk off his pretty dick in front of your face while you kneel with your mouth open and tongue sticking out.

bf!taehyun who gets pushed over the edge by your eye contact. loving the way you look needy for him and he twitches forward as he shoots his cum on your tongue, a couple of spurts missing your mouth and dripping on your chin

[buckleyflower]

you can’t convince me that now that chris is gone eddie diaz won’t spend his nights cuddled up with his head on buck’s chest and his hand under buck’s shirt, occasionally squeezing his hips and belly

and sometimes he will gently bite him too (and buck sighs and lets him because he loves him y’know, he lets out a cute little laugh too)

[depressed-cherry11]

the duffers better not pull a reddie on us with byler istg

[apollosothertwin]

when he was very little apollo was scared of roosters and artemis always made fun of him for it

[albino-parakeet]

Laughing so hard at the damn framed picture of Eddie and Wu, Brooklynn accidentally steps on.

[qaze]

So I um. May have made a google doc with a breakdown of every song by The Crane Wives and both associated and explained why it matched certain fable smp characters and I cannot decide if I want to post this or not. But it has taken the greater part of 4 hours to make this and I would just like the fact that this document exists to be known by the masses

[starryrock]

Satoru Fujinuma (cosmically forced to time travel back to being 10-years-old) and Conan Edogawa (medically altered 17-year-old that survived a poisoning attempt only to look 7-years-old) in the same location together. One is the universe’s unwilling errand boy to stop tragedies before they occur, the other regularly finds himself in the middle of a crime scene (usually a murder).

[drizzledrawings]

When people say that Mary is manipulative it makes me pause a little

Did she ask Arthur multiple times for help? Yeah. Did she ask him specifically cause of his skill set and his relationship with her? Of course. Do I think it was malicious? Absolutely not!! Mary is a flawed character just like everyone else in the story. She loved Arthur sure, but he’s an outlaw, being with him would ultimately put herself and her younger brother in danger. She is hyper aware of that. It makes sense that she has complicated feelings towards him and feels like because of their history she can still call upon him to help

Arthur is manipulated by many characters in the story who are far worse than Mary (DUTCH). Arthur loved her, and in Saint Denis he wanted to go with her, she wanted to run away with him. There was no manipulation there, if Arthur didn’t feel this great responsibility towards the gang, if he wasn’t so deep into the cult like following of Dutch, I think he would’ve gone

Idk the amount of discourse and hatred when it comes to the very few important women in rdr makes me angry. Wether it’s saying Mary is manipulative, Sadie is annoying, or villainizing abigail for her past prostitution, it all feels very wrapped up in misogyny

[shouta-aizawow]

Xie Lian’s Relationship with Pain Thoughts™️

It’s canon Xie Lian doesn’t care much about his physical wellbeing bc as far as he’s concerned he’ll just heal anyway and he’s already gone through the worse, so what’s one more injury?

But I think there could also be more to that.

On the one hand, physically, I think him being hurt with no one to care for most of his very long life has kinda developed into warped nerve sensitivity. Like he went through so much that some pains don’t register (or slowly fade into just another part of him) as he unconsciously suppresses his feelings and discomfort, but gentle touch is so rare for him that he has no “defense” against them. He’s hypo-sensitive to harsh things but hypersensitive to gentle things.

On the other hand, emotionally, Xie Lian has gone through torture and suffering for 800 years with no scar to show for it. He carries his pain in his head but it doesn’t show on his body, and it creates a dissonance within like “did I really go through that? Was it really that bad if it even did happen?” It makes nothing happening to his body feel real after a day or month or year (bc what is a year to someone who’s lived for 800?)

So, in that side of it, I think the lack of consideration for his physical safety and nonchalance when it comes to pain is his way of “proving” to himself that he’s there, present, and his experiences are real (bc, to him, that’s evidence more reliable than nightmares) for as long as the pain will last.

[blowingoffsteam2]

I think we always need to remember that CoM came out in 2004 and how absolutely off the wall insane it is that they got away with the subtext that they did. Especially considering it was Disney. It’s also just. Extremely clever? In the way it uses the subtext and red herrings? The red herrings being necessary to get past the censors yet baking them into the story as part of the mystery like I dont quite know how to explain it but CoM and the way the series depicts Sora’s queer experience is real to me because of the fact that it had to hide it and couch it in confusion- because I feel like that mirrors my and many other queer kids’ experiences of that generation?

Anyway I don’t know what I’m saying I just want people to remember that it wasn’t that long ago that making queer stories explicit especially in kid friendly media was basically impossible for creators and they did the best they could to slip in whatever they could get away with.

[ixtaek]

Today’s rambling thoughts about my specialest boy: Wind Waker Link

First off, at least in Wind Waker alone, the kid does not steal anything (barring swiping things off monsters but seeing as those drops would happen anyway…). Sure he definitely… receives some stolen property. But he does not rob anyone. He actually stops at least one burglary in the course of the game.

The worst he does is break some pots, which every Link does. Notably though, he PAYS FOR IT WHEN ASKED. By a guy who is a full floor away, whom he could easily outrun. But he pays!

Next, this kid was raised by his sweet old grandma, and clearly is very protective of his little sister. He’s such a sweet kid his grandma is worried literally sick about his welfare while he’s away with pirates. He stops dealing with the giant curse overwhelming the ocean to help her recover. We know he cares about Aryll. That’s literally what kicks off the whole plot.

Where am I going with this? Oh right.

Even though he sails, and he hangs out with pirates, Link just. Isn’t one. He isn’t the type to raid and pillage. He’s not going to kidnap or hold for ransom. If anything, it makes me love the dynamic with Tetra even more: she’s the one who would fight dirty and jumped Ganondorf while he was distracted in the Forsaken Fortress, while Link is so ridiculously honorable he doesn’t try to fight the guy who kidnapped his sister and his friend until the other guy initiates it.

Link may say he’s a pirate, but he’s a pirate like a little kid playing pirate. He’s acting tough. In the War of Eras he literally keeps his little sister on the phone (pirate charm) the whole time. He’s a ferocious fighter, but he’s still a sweet kid. He still cares about others. That’s part of why I think Linebeck eventually warms to him, because he’s just so sincere, so honest, actually the opposite of a real pirate.

I know “Wind Waker Link is a big swearing pirate swaggerer” is a popular characterization, but honestly this kid gives off the most wholesome vibes out of any Link. He’s the sunshine child that has a bunch of dangerous friends who will cut you if you try to hurt him. Yes he can kill you, I mean he shoved a sword into a man’s face, but to protect his home. And he didn’t care about Ganondorf after, he was too busy trying to reach the King. He was still the same kind kid.

[buckleyflower]

have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe (maybe i’m wrong) eddie was already asking about buck’s return to the firehouse as soon as his shoulder was fixed because he knows that buck is bothered by the thought that he can’t do his job, or maybe because the last time buck was in a hospital, he couldn’t immediately get back to work and eddie had first to live every day not knowing whether his best friend would survive and then with the reminder of that moment until buck’s medical leave ended? i might be wrong tho

just thoughts to think i guess

[vreetea]

One side of me wishes that Gregor Samsa and Victor Frankenstein are friends but the other side tells me that as soon as Gregor turns into the bug Victor would call him a fiend and leave him like he did with Adam

[marimarra]

I really truly dislike parental Sebastian or when people try to humanise him or his relationship with ciel

Like ciel very explicitly made a contract selling his soul, he hasn’t forgotten that? He knows damn well it’s all transactional, reliant on what they can get from each other. that much is obvious in the green witch arc

Like he’s fully said well into the manga how he trusts Sebastian ‘least of all’. Ciels a smart cookie he won’t fall for Sebastian’s perfect butler act when HE’S the one that ordered him to act like that in the first place

That’s not to say that ciel doesn’t find comfort in Sebastian which I feel like that’s where people misinterpret it. When ciel is helpless Sebastian is basically his tool, sword and shield all rolled into one which is SO important to consider, especially with his backstory. Ciel obviously relies on Sebastian bcs of his role as his servant, even one of the terms of the contract he made is to protect him and not betray him. WE KNOW ciel suffers from his past traumas ofc he’s going to cling to the thing that will never hurt him.

My point being ciel has never and will never view Sebastian as a person who will protect him- he made a contract with a demon to serve him and protect him, that contract is concrete and keeps him safe, THAT is his safety blanket, not Sebastian himself. That dynamic is not one where ciel can look up to Sebastian in a parental way.

onto Sebastian, I feel like people pick out parts of the story where he’s nice to someone or some shit & they say some bullshit about ‘found family’ and how’s he’s fond of the servants or whatever. Like he’s playing a role, he’s always been playing a role. When he tried to eat Ciels soul in the GW arc & he thought his contract would end, he so easily pushes finny off and ignores him- he thinks his reason the reason to play that role was over so he drops it. He does not give 2 shits, he’s only here for the contract!!

Like I don’t think he has no emotions or anything like that but I feel like he’s more amused rather than attached. He’s never been a stoic character, he shows his interest and entertainment but he’s not invested in anyone.

He’s a demon thousands of years old, it’s not his first time around humans, like he’s not a changed man, he’s not suddenly discovered the true nature of humans or found a spark that wasn’t there before

[abugshapedeldritchbeing]

I love all of the mcsm characters.

I want to give them a family, i want to rip it away from them and hurt them and make them scared and then i want to give them safety and catharsis and love again, but never a final happy ending. I want them to live like me because I see myself in them. I see myself in Radar, belittled by his idols and trying so hard to prove himself. I see myself in Lukas, a creator who loves his friends with all his heart. I even see myself in Romeo, pushing people away because he doesn’t know better but trying so hard to be likable. It’s incredible to me that I see a little of who i am or have been or want to be in every single character.