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TW: Suicide
“I’ll hang myself here.”
#suicide#trigger warning suicide#tw#cheng xiaoshi#shiguang daili ren#fan art#lu guang#link click#donghua#fanart#digital art#art#anime#angst#angst art#this fandom made me a sadist#and also a masochist#i’m not okay basically#i need to improve on backgrounds jfc#i have so much to draw holy shi save me#illustration#dark art#suicide implication
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Doing this bc I’m scared to and won’t on my own
if this gets 5k notes by October 20th, I will tell my dad about my eating disorder and get help to recover + therapist
Rules:
No spamming
5 notes per person including likes
if either one of those is broken, I’m reducing the time limit, basically making it less likely to hit the goal on time
FOR CRYING OUT LOUD PLEASE STOP SPAMMING
tagging is okay
Might delete later(sorry!) because I’m scarrredddd, I don’t wanna tell my dad >:l
#Basically I’ve been trying for the past two weeks to recover on my own without having to tell anyone about it and bro I just cant#Jsbsjdhd#It will only be a temporary recovery though heads up#Because I’m not going to get away with this eating disorder for much longer#I’m going to get found out so this is just temporary until I’m an adult#Once I’m an adult I won’t have to worry about getting caught 😌#Ahhh I’ve had this disorder for like a year now I’m sick of it 😭#Okay maybe not temporary#Actually I wouldn’t mind recovering for good actually this sucks#Notes game#note game
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satoru being one of those kids who was picked on and embarrassed with those cruel jokes. the “so and so likes you/wants to be friends with you” ones, and when he goes up to them all excited like “wow new friend!!” they just end up embarrassing him in front of everyone because “why would i like you? or want to be friends with you? you’re super weird.” the entire class is laughing at him. he’s humiliated.
and now, as an adult, satoru struggles with telling when someone is being genuine to him. not many are, most people don’t care to be around him which hurts in and of itself, but it hurts even worse when they pretend to like him only to end up betraying or disappointing him later. so when you come along, and he watches you approach him every day with a big smile and try and talk to him and you ask him if he wants to grab lunch together or hang out, satoru prepares himself for the worst.
he tries not to let himself get attached to you, and your friendly face, and the way you laugh at him because no one has ever laughed with him before, and those knowing stares you always give because satoru just knows one of these days you’re going to grow bored and leave him like everyone else has.
he keeps himself stuck in a constant state of denial, not realizing that your actions are indeed genuine and your motives are pure.
#everyone say thank u Logan bc they sent me the worst tiktok ever and I’m sad#CHOOSE HIM!!!! DO NOT BE MEAN TO HIM OKAY OR I WILL SHOW UP AT YOUR HOUSE.#he has these super high walls up around his heart#every time someone shows him even the most basic kindness#satoru instantly believes they have ulterior motives. they’re going to embarrass him. they want something from him.#they dont want him for him it’s just what he can do for them#⋆。゚☁︎ summy is thinking . . . 。⋆#gojo satoru imagine#satoru angst#satoru imagine#satoru gojo imagine#satoru gojo angst#gojo x reader
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cw. none, except for satoru being disgustingly cute.
to outsiders, your relationship with satoru is as much a blessing as it is a curse. it’s a blessing, because even your mere presence causes satoru’s talking to drop by a hefty 80% at the very least. it’s a curse, because satoru only stops his chattering to cling to you.
he wraps his arms around your waist, and nuzzles into the crook of your neck. he holds your hands, and cups his own face with them. he tucks your hair behind your ear and squeezes your cheeks together. he’s so utterly enamoured with you, that words suddenly feel unnecessary. and you let him be.
it’s his way of recharging, of finding little bits of peace in a stressful day. so, you allow him to do as he wishes, and simply continue whatever conversation you are having—as if satoru wasn’t currently biting your finger. you dismiss the looks of disgust people throw at him, finding the way he clings to you like a baby koala oddly endearing.
it’s a custom, by now. a custom that’s loved by the both of you, and only the both of you. so, yes—a blessing and a curse. satoru is quieter when you’re around, but in exchange for a (not so) healthy dose of pda.
pick your poison, as one would say.
#my boo bear#i’m a sucker for casual intimacy that others wouldn’t think of as casual but feel like the most natural thing to the couple :((#it’s a love for me that goes so deep#it basically says ‘loving you is as breathing; it comes to me effortlessly and constantly and i do it without thinking’ ITS JUST SO#oh to be loved like that#ꕤ — sanatomis darling: gojo satoru#gojo satoru x reader#satoru gojo x reader#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x reader fluff#gojo satoru x reader fluff#jujutsu kaisen x reader#okay sneaking this in. . .#⍣ ❥ ೋ 𝑠𝑎𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑖.
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This came to me in a vision at 3 AM and I got out of bed to make it.
- Gabe
#booklr#memes#book blog#monster fucking#monster romance#monster fucker#books#reading#bookworm#humor#Gabe posts#polycraftory#okay look so i read SEVERAL books last month that claimed to have monsters in them and then had an aggressive lack of monsters in them#i complained CONSTANTLY about it and by god i intend to continue doing so#I’m taking suggestions for basically any book with good worldbuilding and MONSTERS#i’m not married to it being romance. monster hunting is fine. i am not picky.#also: humanoid angels are for cowards#my eternal love to anyone who can deliver me a romance novel with a monstrous angel in it
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The Life Cycle of A Star
#my art#digital art#procreate#bg3#gale dekarios#astarion#astarion ancunin#gale of waterdeep#bloodweave#galestarion#comic#I am hoping and praying that this makes sense to everyone else#I’m basically just relating Gale to the life cycle of a star#like from baby gale to now gale#and Astarion is just happy he ain’t dead and exploded#okay bye now#PLEASE DONT SCHOOL ME ON STARS BTW I DID LIKE#30 MIN OF RESEARCH OKAY#MOST OF THIS IS FROM MY MIDDLE SCHOOL BRAIN SPEAKING TO ME#but tell me fun star facts and I’ll go :) !
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i don’t mind suspending my disbelief for leverage’s person-sized ventilation shafts bc that’s pretty standard for the genre, but that doesn’t mean i won’t laugh a bit at some of the egregiously large vents. particularly in the crowning acheivement job (lev: red s2 finale) because - well just look at this lol! harry and parker, two adults, can kneel side by side in those vents. parker can sit upright.
that museum was made for vent crawling purposes. that’s just an extra room in the museum they forgot to decorate. the leverageverse has a thief union that successfully lobbied for a better working environment. these vents double as a playground for museum-goers’ children. i was crying with laughter thinking about this and harry’s vent crisis was NOT helping me remember that there was a serious heist thing going on lol, i love this show.
#leverage redemption#leverage#parker leverage#harry wilson#harry wilson leverage#parker#wren speaks#leverageposting#the sun roofs (or are they just lights?) really get me lmao#ALL of the person-sized vents are unrealistically large so this is not criticism! this is a generic convention!#vents are not human-sized and clean or remotely safe enough to reliably crawl through irl#but basically every building in every crime drama has comfortably person-sized vents#usually for knee crawling not even people lying on their stomach bc that’s difficult to move and looks sillier#and that thin layer of the ceiling under the vent is usually surprisingly built well enough to support a persons weight#and there’s no fans or rats or dust or bugs or that foil tube stuff i forgot the word for#and it’s often oddly well-lit. and that’s okay! it’s fiction! we’re having fun!#sewers tend to be unrealistically large + accessible + well-lit etc in fiction too.#anyway my point is i’m not saying this as criticism! just a neutral obserativion of something i found funny!
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cuddling with your f/o(s) in bed but your arms always fall asleep. their hair gets in your face sometimes or vice versa. being in the middle of kissing, noses bumping too much or you just miss their lips completely with your eyes closed. bumping foreheads accidentally!!! kissing even more and then breaking it off to yawn or giggle and trying to kiss again but it only repeats. goosebumps and shivering whenever you touch them. accidental (or very much intentional/jokingly) shoving/elbowing because the others feet are too cold or it is suuper warm to even be this close to each other. they love and love and love you tremendously still through anything and everything. even if you steal the covers off them when you sleep, maybe
#basically cuddling doesnt have to be perfect i think. and thats okay not all of these r rllly imperfections tho? just trying to be#-realistic. but also this post was made at 1am Um probably doesnt make sense hnum#sry if this doesnt make sense#i type all of this yet i haven’t had my first properkiss ever Haaahaha#nor have i ever cuddled i’m very inexperienced#❥ vels ramblings#self ship#self shipping#f/o imagines
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he’s mad she ratted him out
#doctorsiren#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#jheselbraum the unswerving#gravity falls fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#okay because 1. she used to be a henchmanic but I don’t think she was ever on his side#2. I’m pretty sure she was a spy or SOMETHING#3. when the shaman guy started rejecting Bill. written on the side of that page it says (in code):#‘which one of my henchmaniacs ratted me out’#and then the prophecy was given#and she’s The Oracle. which y’know…give prophecies#on her little scribbled out bio you can kinda make out that it says she’s the smartest one or something of that sort#but that she betrayed bill or something like that (I’m going off of memory)#and so I think she was never really on his side to begin with and was there to learn what he was trying to do#if I’m wrong *DON’T CORRECT ME* 🥺🥺🥺 please HAHA#I’m having a matpat moment 😎 I dunno I just don’t think she would have been on his side#also considering the fact that her name is ‘the Unswerving’#a term that means ‘unwavering’ or ‘steadfast’ and basically implies that she would not change her position on things#so it doesn’t make logical sense to me that she would have been on his side and then switched and then gotten that title?? idk#I just think about her a lot…I love you space fish mom…#just a goofy drawing I did during church 😁
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Gourmand: Any minute now.
Hunter: …I-
Arti: I’m sorry!
Hunter: Huh?
Arti: I-I’m so sorry. For attacking you, and for- for everything.
Arti: I’ve been such an asshole to you.
Hunter: …Yeah you have been an asshole. But I fucked up too, I didn’t know what I was saying. I thought…
Hunter: …it doesn’t matter what I thought. I shouldn’t have said that. I, uh… I-I heard about your k-
Arti: Don’t. It’s in the past now.
Gourmand: Is it?
Gourmand: You attacked him over saying something that triggered you, so no, it doesn’t seem to be all in the past.
Gourmand: It isn’t fair to hurt someone for not knowing something that you never told them.
PART ONE IS DONE!!!!!!!!! Part two will probably come in about, uh, seven years, give or take. /j
(It isn’t perfect, but it’s been too long and I needed to get the first part of this comic out. I’m honestly super happy I finished, because it was unnecessarily hard lmao. Anyways I’m gonna ramble in the tags now)
#Rw siblings au#Rw Artificer#Rw Hunter#Rw Gourmand#okay okay so#The last frame is basically Hunter realizing that Arti doesn’t actually know anything about what happened to him either lol#Also we finally get the reveal of what that one drawing of Hunter being confused was about!#He did not expect to ever hear Arti say she was sorry#Like for anything#The Arti he knows doesn’t do that lol#But! She’s changing! For the better! :D#Gourmand is out here desperately trying to parent these two idiots#He literally put them in a time-out to think about what they’ve done lmfao#Neither of them have ever been hit with the “I’m not mad I’m just disappointed” before lol#But it’s finally happening! They are having a conversation!!! Yippee!!!#The time it took for me to draw this comic is canonically how long they were sitting there for before either of them said anything /j
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omggg it’s national albedo day
#genshin impact#albedo#I think albedo is a very beautiful man and I love him and I’m very normal about him#his birthday is so close to my birthday we’re basically twins#okay anyway when albedo rerun
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does rekha know she’s the funniest person alive
(taken from this article! it’s very good you should all read it)
#okay yes this is basically every part of the interview#but in my defense. she’s simply the funniest person ever#also i love this article in general. i can hear all of their voices so clearly lmao#dimension 20#never stop blowing up#rekha shankar#usha rao#g13#loosely. i’m counting them
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What’s baffling to me is that according to what western governments/media said these past days, hamas shouldn’t have attacked civilians in response to the violence they’ve been suffering for decades because it violates international laws, and I agree, civilians shouldn’t have been victims of an attack like this. However now, according to those same people, Israel has the absolute right to defend itself and have no other option but to respond aggressively, no matter how many civilians get caught in the crossfire, and thus also violating international laws? I’ve been racking my brain to see if I’m missing something, or if all of these politicians and journalists are intentionally contradicting themselves in order to please each other?
#I’m sorry I know I keep going back and forth with the topic but 1) I genuinely can’t stop thinking about it#and it feels wrong to stop thinking about it#and 2) I’m truly trying to understand how they can get away with lying and openly saying#‘we’re okay with the ethnic cleansing of palestinians’#i understand the reason on their basic level (they do not care about brown people)#but surely they should at least pretend that they do?#I don’t know I feel like I’m being gaslit on a global level rn#because I know that as brown/muslim people we are never 100% safe in the west but this feels like it’s on another level#palestine
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cult leader geto throws up blood if you don’t tell him you love him before he leaves for work btw
#he is such . a fucking loser i adore him#this is kind of a scene in the old cult geto fluff fic i’m working on… he is. the world#i just think the fandom sleeps on his loserboy loverboy potential :(((#considering cult geto is basically just suguru without shame#i think all his silly little loser ways come on out <3333#he stares at you until you say it with the most deadpan ass look …#Will pout if you refuse to say it. will keel over and pretend to die#your precious working hubby needs his kiss and ily okay…… don’t keep them from him.#ari noises ✩
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this is still very very subject to change but i think i’ve finally got at least the base concept for what i wanted my hermitcraft joel design to be lol
#.png#hermitcraft#smallishbeans#fanart#no id#<- too tired :/#i’ve gone through like 5 different variations on basically this exact thing#and i Still don’t know how happy i am with it#it’s got the elements i want. the cherry tree like pattern on the jacket#the cybernetic legs with teeny hoof feet#the visor over his eyes#i think i just need to work at it a bit to get everything to work how i want it to#but this is Okay For Now#if i draw him enough it’ll inevitably evolve into something i’m really happy with
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Her kisses were all-consuming and he felt his heart surrendering to her with every gentle nip, losing himself in the feeling of her. Her soft body pressing tightly against him, her breathy moans, the soft hair at the nape of her neck, her taste.
When Eloise finally pulled away from him, breathing heavily as their foreheads pressed together and their eyes locked, Sebastian was dazed and content and...happy. Merlin, he was so happy. Her cheeks were bright pink, and her lips were swollen and red and smiling up at him. His breath caught in his throat - he didn't think he had ever seen anything so beautiful as Eloise in that moment. Sebastian knew that he was grinning like a fool but he didn't care.
Happiness was bubbling up in his body and he was leaning down to kiss her again because it would never be enough and -
She started coughing.
Eloise abruptly pulled away from him, covering her mouth with her sleeve as she doubled over. A terrible, horrible, familiar wracking cough that Sebastian never thought he would hear again.
When she pulled her sleeve away from her mouth, there were little flecks of blood.
They both looked at each other in horror.
"Eloise..." he started, his voice cracking. The balloon of happiness that had filled him burst and he felt himself crashing back to the grim reality that had been his life for too long. Arms hanging limply at his sides. When his voice came out again, it was a whisper. He could barely choke the words out.
"...what did you do?"
their first kiss😇😇😇
#sorry guys I can’t help but be an evil gremlin🫡😔🙏#idk if I’ve drawn them kissing before but this was fun!!!!🥹 so I’ll do it again💓💓💓#do you like when I add these little excerpts from my writing??#also😫#I was thinking of rewriting my fic from the beginning is that like…okay? normal? something people do????#it was the first thing I’ve ever written and I’m just pantsing the whole thing#I like the plot and basically all of it SO MUCH😫#but I feel like my writing’s improved since I started and I have a better idea of who Eloise is#so I want to rewrite and tweak things a bit so it’s BETTER#idk😫😫 maybe I’ll just keep going forward with my disaster😇#anyways hope you enjoyed this KISS😙😙😙💓💓💓🥹🥹🥹#😇😇#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#sebastian sallow#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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