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Hey, I am respectfully responding to this post (feel free to not respond and just block me if this bothers you)
https://www.tumblr.com/deandraxon/749870862386249728/im-not-going-to-entertain-people-who-think-that-a
Plurality simply means “more than one.” That’s all. The vast majority of endogenic systems don’t claim to have DID, and they don’t claim to be made up of dissociated parts.
Plurality actually is practiced outside of dissociative disorders by a wide variety of people from a plethora of different cultures. There are many religions, cultures, and spiritualities outside the West where plurality is common and accepted as a phenomenon that does not involve trauma or dissociative disorders.
And again, plurality simply means “more than one.” So if, say, a writer feels like their characters are real /to them/, and if /they personally feel/ like they are not alone in their mind due to their characters… they are existing as more than one and they could call themselves plural if they want to.
DID and other dissociative disorders are not “alter disorders” and I’m tired of people using my serious trauma disorder as a “gotcha” for all sorts of plurality and wide swathes of human experience. My disorder is not defined by my plurality. It just isn’t. And plurality is such a basic concept that applies to such a huge range of people, other than just those of us who have dissociative disorders.
Hate to break it to you, but if you weren’t a system, you wouldn’t have the disorder. The disorder IS defined by plurality, whether you like it or not.
These people are claiming to be systems, which is a term made BY people with dissociation disorders, FOR people with dissociation disorders.
I’m not using my disorder as a “gotcha”, I’m telling people to stop fucking playing pretend that they can just be a system just because they want to be. Because they think it’s “fun”.
As a writer myself, it is appalling that you think it’s okay for them to say they’re plural because “my characters are real to me, so I’m making them part of me uwu”. Every character a writer created is part of them, that’s how creating characters works. That doesn’t make you “plural”. They aren’t “existing as more than one”, they’re being a fucking writer.
Every member of a system is their own person. Their own being. They aren’t just “part of the whole”. You can’t will them into existence, and you don’t get to decide who they are. Being a system is a disorder. Period. And I’m tired of these people just deciding that they are one because they have active imagination, or they like to roleplay with themselves.
As stated in that post, people just deciding upon themselves to “live as plural” has literally led to therapists trying to dismiss real systems as people with “overactive imaginations” or saying “well if you can choose to create alters, then it should be just as easy to choose to get rid of them.” And don’t try to tell me it doesn’t because it literally happened to my brother.
Systemhood is not something you get to claim for shits and giggles. There’s no shame in being a singlet who plays with your dolls in your head for fun, just stay the fuck out of our spaces.
#fuck outta here#fuck you#fuck endos#not endo safe#pro endos fuck off#endos fuck off#endos dni#pro endos dni#being ‘respectful’ doesn’t erase the imense ignorance of this bullshit#i’m fucking tired of this shit
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cafes: stop putting shit in ur sandwiches that doesn’t belong there without telling me. i don’t want spinach in my ham n cheemse. nor do i want mayo. just stop
#i’m fucking tired of this shit#ik ur trying to be fancy#but spinch is not fancy#it’s gross#juno.txt
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i hate tolerating smth for so long then reaching ur breaking point before u can actually do anything to change the situation so now ur just gonna be an asshole all the time bc ur past the point of being able to just ignore all the bullshit that goes on here.
#i fucking hate being mean but#i’m fucking tired of this shit#once i come back from xyz i’m gonna try to get out of here asap but#idk how well that will work 🙃🙃#whatever.#i’m just done but i hate being an asshole but i also hate how i’m treated here#why cant anyone i live with ever be decent or nice or just okay to live with#i’m never gonna find a safe place to live ever. am i?#blowing myself up.#srry i hate being negative but i have to post angry so i dont start screaming at the ppl i live with rn.#jitter bugs u
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In case any of you here also use X/Twitter.
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idk as the days go by the urge to hang myself is getting stronger
#mentally tired#actually sad#depressing life#depressing shit#i'm sad#kinda depressing#actually bipolar#actually bpd#actually borderline#bipolar thoughts#mentally drained#actually mentally ill#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#mentally exhausted#mental illness#mental health#i’m going insane#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bipolar things#bipolar mania#bipolardepression#bipolar disorder#i hate my existence#i hate it here#i hate this
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I usually get addicted to literally anything that distracts me from the fact that I exist
#depressing shit#tw depressing thoughts#depressing life#sad thoughts#self h@rm#i'm sad#im sorry#suic1de#quotes#trauma#i’m so tired#tired#mentally exhausted#mentally fucked#mental health#tw self destructive behavior#tw self destruction#sexualassault#sadnees#su1c1d3#su1cide#su1c1dal
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MGS (+R) sketchdump *claps like an idiot*
#mgs#mgsv#mgs3#mgr#metal gear solid#fuck so many characters#naked snake#mgs Eva#kazuhira miller#venom snake#raiden#sam rodrigues#uhhh shipsssss#vkaz#samuraiden#I don’t ship snack and eevee cuz I’m just too tired of and uncomfortable with comphet shit#but they get a solid chuckle out of me
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#I wanna fucking off myself Jesus Christ#why did nobody help?#I’m so tired of them saying “well we didn’t know#THERE WERE SIGNS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE#bpd#mental health#actually bpd#mental illness#bpd shit#actually borderline#bpd shitposting#bpd problems#bpd mood#bpd meme#parental abuse#tw sa implied
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when your friend says “i’m becoming the joker,” reply, “well, i’m becoming jigsaw” to one-up them. do not elaborate on what this means
#shitty saw traps#saw franchise#mod amanda#oh you’re gonna do fucked up shit because society has driven you crazy?#well I’M gonna do fucked up shit because I’m tired and done#your violence is rooted in a desire to shock while mine is rooted in a desire for connection#(even if that connection is through trauma)#you may have lost control. but I just gained it. and that’s scarier#anyway im sorry to hear that your shift sucked#(sorry if this post is too edgy)
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Can’t wait for this shit to end
#depressing life#depressing shit#i want to diiieeee#i want to disappear#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw sui ideation#end it already#suic1de#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#kill my thoughts#mental exhaustion#venting#vent#i’m so tired#i’m done
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This is bullshit
#if i had a nickel for every time someone with a relatively large platform used it to target me specifically i would have 2 nickels#which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice#especially since the thing that triggered it literally doesn’t matter like at all#i am literally just a guy y’all could literally ignore me#i’m fucking tired of this shit
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Khaos Lao sketches that follow @helsensm AU lmao
No neat/ clean sketches, busy week 🫠🫠🫠
#fanart#my art#art#mortal kombat 1#doodle#doodles#kung lao#mk1 raiden#railao#khaos AU#helsen is the mastermind behind all this#give them ALLLLLLLL the credit#I couldn’t make this shit up if I tried hehehehehe#I’m so tired man#I wanted to put more but I got no energy or time#also anxiety can go fuck it self OMFG
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i know this will be a controversial statement for some people on this website, but you guys need to understand that being a radical communist with zero awareness of the nuance of living on planet earth is really not very different from being an alt-right extremist.
if you’re past the point of using logical thinking and understanding that societies and politics are complex and can be wildly different from one place to another, you’re just a fanatic, in spite of the place in the spectrum you place yourself on. you’re too swayed and brainwashed by propaganda. you’re just a blind fanatic, and your agenda becomes dangerous for real people living in the real world.
#you’re no better than a twitter stan but actually worse bc you don’t give a shit about misinformation and harming real human beings#just to try to make a point and prove how you’re ideology is perfect and anything who identifies with it is perfect and fuck anybody#who dares have critical thinking and nuance bc they’re just fascist traitors#and the fact that i can apply all this to two different topics. see: american election and venezuela’s crisis just further shows what i say#i’m tired. TIRED!!!!!! of ipad communists trying to spread misinformation so blatantly and maliciously#fucking stop!!!!!!!!!!!!#i don’t think this applies to any of my mutuals / people i follow btw so pls don’t take this personally bc it’s not any of you#if you follow me tho and feel offended by this post. well. question yourself and your beliefs!#politics
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No actually I’m not fucking over what they did to Carmen. Literally when they introduced the baby plot I was going hey does anybody else think it’s fucking insane that they wrote this 38 y old woman just accepting a surprise pregnancy with zero second thoughts or concerns, when having a pregnancy at that age could put her and the fetus at even greater risk than average, when her son that she had at twenty, after getting trapped in an abusive marriage at eighteen, is just about to be a fully grown adult and she is SO CLOSE to having a little more independence and freedom and getting to be SOMEONE outside of just a mom; and she just?? Is not allowed to have even the slightest reservations about having this baby with a man who REGULARLY DRUNK DRIVES, HAS NO STABLE INCOME, and definitely does not have fucking INSURANCE
And then!! After all of that!!! THEY DECIDE TO ALMOST KILL HER!!! They admit, logically, that pregnancy CAN KILL PEOPLE. That she should have, clearly, had A FUCKING REASON TO WORRY. And is she allowed any fucking characterization in this? Is she allowed any SCRAP of humanity?? NO!!! ITS FOR JOHNNY’S MAN PAIN!! it’s for her SON!! They deny her the right to be anything other than a fucking meat sack for an unborn fetus and a receptacle for the emotional labor of every man in her life!! CK WRITERS PLEASE DIE SLOWLY!!!!!
#I can’t start thinking about latina maternal mortality or I’ll have to molotov cocktail someone’s house I S2G!!!!#can somebody get those evil men pregnant and we’ll see how they fucking like it. I’m waiting#this is mask off birther shit and I’m tired of pretending it isn’t!#carmen diaz#cobra kai#ck#ck spoilers#ck season 6
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katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions
based on this photo from the live action cast
#my art#i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i can’t wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose#instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol#anyways#zukka#idc about tagging rn tbh i’m tired#fuck backgrounds dude#hate that shit#i need to do lighting studies fr tho#i can’t do interesting light i just. don’t have the knowledge#makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems#also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton#what i landed on here isn’t my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion she’s showing#ok whatever i’m done rambling#post
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I would sacrifice pieces of my flesh but I’d still be considered selfish for wanting to keep my bones
#depressing shit#tw depressing thoughts#depressing life#sad thoughts#self h@rm#i'm sad#im sorry#quotes#suic1de#trauma#su1cide#su1c1dal#su1c1d3#tw self destructive behavior#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw abuse#i’m not okay#im so tired#im not okay#daddy issues#family issues#please help#heartbreak#heartbroken#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#mental health#bpd vent#bpd
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