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#i’m crying into my drink rn#I CANT EVEN DRINK#this is water#this is sad#erik johnson#colorado avalanche#philadelphia flyers
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hey google how to watch musicals without crying
#post concert depression is even worse with musicals istg#here I am drinking coffee out of my new Les mis mug reading through my Les mis brochure listening to my Les mis CD#and I’m crying#les miserables#les mis#istg I’m in a chokehold I’m going insane and I live alone so there’s no one to talk to rn#so tumblr void it is
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#GUYS!!!#I made it to a year of no contact!!!! :’)#are you proud of me?!#holy shit does it feel good#still miss him but I deserve so much better#and I want better#I went out and had a drink with my friend#having girl friends that are so genuine and supportive has helped me a lot through this#and ofc my one bestie on here that I can turn to for anything 🥹#I’m sappy and emotional rn#but happy that I made it this far#last year at this time I was so heartbroken and couldn’t stop crying#a year later I feel so much lighter and better
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film bro regulus who will stand up and leave the room every movie night he has. someone puts on a tarantino film and he books an uber
#he’s me#i cannot sit through another fast and furious i’m sorry#this is a cry for help#i need my three girl party to watch 17 movies and drink 3 bottles of wine with RN#regulus black#rab#marauders#marauders headcannons#hp#harry potter
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The thing about my mum is that she is extremely powerful and can just clean for hours without break, which is decisively not how I function
I’m moving into a new place and she has been helping and the way I have been dealing with this is declaring loudly every so often that it is time for my union break
#my posts#cleaning#help me#on my mandated union break rn after scrubbing grout#my mum is like ‘oh we can just do one room let’s do the kitchen’#and then suddenly we are lining every draw and cupboard#mopping and spraying hydrogen peroxide on the ground and scrubbing grout#shifting the massive amount of stuff from my mums garage that was full of hyper specific kitchen tools#and I am laying on the wet soapy floor crying because I’m not built to just go from job to job to job#I already broke a wine glass by accident 😭#I don’t even drink wine !!
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i literally have the pigeon corpse in my freezer
#stream#like#girl what do i do !!!!!!!!!!!#i want to taxidermy him 💔💔💔#give him the honor he deserved in life that he wasn’t allowed to achieve#i’m still so devastated it rly did break me#i’m going to go feed the birdys bc i’m at my old flat rn shitting#bc i need to go across town & move other shit too but still#i’m still so upset like 😭😭😭😭😭#I WISH I WAS ABLE TO SAVE HIM#i just feel like i could’ve done more maybe i should’ve had him euthanized when the vets offered but i didn’t want to bc i was hoping he’d#be able to pull through but he didn’t & im afraid he was in so much pain when he passed#but he was in a comfy box w my sheets literally they were the same sheets i was sleeping on deadass i flew up the stairs & just pulled them#off the bed asap to put him somewhere warm & soft & he was doing alright#but i gave him water - he refused to eat - he was drinking and then i let him chill again but when i returned w more stuff he was gone#i’m still so upset#i’m not allowed to cry#anyway
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#i am so depressed i cannot keep going like this#i can’t say this on twitter and my journal is across the room so!! rambling here it is!!#it sucks that you can do everything right during the day—drink lots of water; go on a walk; chat with friends; etc.#but night hits and suddenly it’s just you#and there’s subzero actual advice for ways to cope with that#like i want to be dead so bad i am so sick of having anxiety attacks and trying not to throw up because i’m crying so hard#:(#this sucks so bad#and i’m not sleepy at all because it’s only 10pm so i’m just stuck here not wanting to do anything#i just want to stop crying and i miss my mom#but part of why i’m doing so bad is because i’m broke and i don’t have the money to go home or go on a solo trip or anything#and i can’t even say i wish i was home rn bc my apt is my home and i don’t have childhood home or room at my mom’s place…#i need a win so bad#…good lord
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i’m ending my life i can’t do ts anymore
#daniel ricciardo#vcarb when i catch you vcarb#never drinking another red bull#i’m tweaking so hard rn#and so what if i fell to my knees crying in class?
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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane
(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)
#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school#so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away#i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute#and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with#someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over#so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job#not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people#and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie#or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired#i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family#but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying#and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home#logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do#i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out#and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years#i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year#i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out#even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times#and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable#i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something#plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later#vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space#and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year#and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends#so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything#i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything#but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know#i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to#vent
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Lmao I’m having a night and I’m over it all 🥲
#Joce.vent#mainly in the tags#I bumped into one the servers and caused her to drop all the drinks she was carrying and they went fucking everywhere#no one was hurt dw but the glasses all shattered and the floor got soaked with all sorts of beverages#and despite no one being upset at me#I still feel like a massive screw up and I’m crying in the restroom rn#I just want the next three hours to pass by as quickly as possible I don’t wanna be here anymore#the new year is off to a rocky start with my mental health and I’m just. over it#lmao my f/os would probably think I’m a dumbass who screws shit up all the time#sorry. just in a mood#idk if anything would help I’m just venting
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CW: mention of gun violence (in a nightmare. not IRL)
i know for a fact that my period makes me more apt to cry over things because i can have a vivid nightmare about getting randomly gunned down while waiting in line to pick up a pizza then wake up and not shed a tear but when i’m on my period i can have one (1) bad dream about my father yelling at me and i wake up and promptly begin full-on sobbing into my pillow
#cw gun mention#cw gun violence#cw nightmares#cw menstruation#cw periods#Seven.txt#Seven’s Public Diary#anyways i gave myself a headache from the crying so that’s cool#what’s ironic is that while i was laying there feeling all sad and pathetic i suddenly thought of the Reader x Moon oneshot i wrote#uhhh what was it called i can’t think straight rn#‘when i’ve got no one else’ or smthn like that#and i started crying even harder LMAO#alright it’s midnight-thirty i need to drink some water and go back to sleep#everything’s fine i’m just Stressed™️ right now and yesterday was a long and draining day#i’m almost grateful for my periods making me more emotional actually bc it’s like. easier to just cry and let it all out. y’know?#i used to despise that part of menstruation cause it made me feel weak but you know what? fuck it#maybe sometimes we need to let ourselves feel weak. maybe the inability to let ourselves be vulnerable is actually the thing to hate#being weak sometimes is important in a way#if you can’t let yourself break down sometimes you will like. explode or something. maybe not physically but. emotionally. mentally.#constantly being strong and/or dead inside will hurt you in the end. you gotta be soft and vulnerable every so often. me thinks#okay enough midnight thoughts GOODNIGHT my everything is sore and hurting so i am gonna stop talking now and go back to sleep
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#diini rambles#currently wrapped in a king sized blanket I got a couple months ago#it’s actually very comfy#its cool enough to use it tonight and honestly giving like winter vibes#also had a vanilla chai earlier so this is just full on winter 2022 vibes for me rn lol#school started last week and feeling a bit overwhelmed about this semester ngl#I will be found cry at some point in the future#just ignore me pls#I just need to get over it#give me some tough love and I’ll be fine#just saw a typo and I’m not fixing that#mayybbeee I’m tired#also currently slowly developing a caffeine addiction#I’ve started making expresso and it’s been fun#pretty much make double shots for my sister and I everyday (she has a full on caffeine addiction but hey it limited how many energy drinks#she consumes in a day)#I like the routine of it (I could start healthier routines but where’s the fun in that?)
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Omg and on top of it all I fuckin broke the straw off my water bottle so now I can’t,, drink water until I either get a new one or go buy a cup or plastic bottle of water and keep reusing that in the meantime. Didn’t want to do either of those things yesterday bc I was focused on Survival + my day had been fucked up enough I didn’t want another unexpected problem to fix.
The point of me sharing tho is I also need to find a new water bottle that’s dyspraxia accessible and i dunno where to look bc the one I broke was a (expensive) gift. And I wish nondyspraxics realized how hard it is to buy anything when all the little features make a difference in if you’re able to use it. You have one clumsy moment and now you’re like aw shit now I can’t Drink Water
#it sucked I had like finally taken all the steps I can for now regarding employment#and went to the pond which I’d planned to do hours before#enjoyed it for a good 10 mins in the sense of ‘my life is fucked but at least I’m not in a freezing cold room rn’#then proceeded to break my water bottle and start crying at the pond lol#and was like ‘man do I go check cvs or just kms’ which led to me calling the hotline#and I like woke up today being like ok things still suck but it’s a new day#I’m going to a fair and a concert w friends I haven’t seen in a while#and I like need a day in between today and yesterday tbh but I hope it will be fun#but I say that to say. I woke up and realized ah fuck I still can’t drink water#I can buy water at the fair at least but I should rly hydrate beforehand since I’ll be freaking moshing#my options are 1) go to a water fountain which only helps short term#2) buy a drink somewhere n reuse the cup which helps like. slightly more long term#or 3) go look for a water bottle today. which I rly don’t want to in this state#bc if I don’t find an accessible one I’ll be upset abt wasting more time#n then have to go be normal at the fair#so I think. I’m going w option 2#the thought processes u have to go thru every day when ur dyspraxic…#ALSO just now realizing I can’t take my pill without water#but I also only have 2 more pills left bc I don’t have insurance 👍🏻#luckily it’s not a pill that will have immediate affects from not taking it it’s more like a matter of months but yk#mine#txt#personal#vent post#suicide tw#(<- in tags)
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I can’t believe it’s wednesday and I haven’t been to the gym at all this week it’s so sad
#spicy speaks#I was too busy on Monday and my roommate and I had to go grocery shopping which turned into like a 2 and a half hour excursion#then yesterday I had a breakdown and cried intermittently for like 3 hours while trying to do my pre lab and catch up on notes#definitely have to go today#or I’ll cry again#going thru it rn#gym for sure#I’m also drinking tonight though💀#I’m just so so stressed#I gotta break out the raspberry smirnoff again
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July 13, 2023 — 1:39pm
Bruh I fucking hate my period bro— MY FUCKING STOMACH HURTTSSSSS
#tw#trigger warning#tw period#tw period mention#dove speaks#don’t even get me started on the fucking mood swings#tell me why#I was upset literally about to start crying#cuz I was meant to go to my mom’s job to work volunteer hours for my school#and I was tired today cuz I unintentionally stayed up until 5am last night so I said no#and I woke up and I forgot that I said no and I had planned everything out too#my outfit what I was gonna eat for breakfast my energy drink—#all of it#and my mom literally tells me not to worry about it#and all of a sudden I’m energetic and I do my skincare routine and make myself a bowl of cereal to take this pain medicine#cuz my uterus lowkey feels like a spring lock suit rn ngl#like what happened babe??? how did we get here???
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welcome home, little guy
pairing: lando norris x reader
summary: to you, summer break means no races, no responsibilities, and all the poolside piña coladas you can drink. apparently to your boyfriend, it means bringing home a new addition to your family. (1.8k)
a/n: working on way too many things at once rn but i simply couldn't resist <3 lando puppy video u will always be famous to me
To say you’re looking forward to the summer break is an understatement. It’s the first time during the whole season you get to spend two straight weeks with Lando, doing whatever you want, whenever you want. No races, no working, nothing but relaxing with the love of your life for fourteen whole days. You can only imagine the things you’ll do, the places you’ll go.
Truth be told, he needs this more than you do. Things have been a bit tough lately, on and off the track, so to have some time off to rest and recharge before the second half of the season will be good for him. Good for you too, so you can make sure he isn’t thinking about anything other than his well being.
You’re buzzing with excitement at the thought of him coming home any minute now, opting to await his arrival in the comfort of your shared apartment instead of braving the swarming crowd you know for a fact is waiting for him when his jet touches down in Nice. You’re so eager you’re surprised you haven’t paced a hole in the living room carpet. You like to think you’ll kiss him stupid once you set eyes on him, though you also think you’re more likely to cry a little first.
The beep of the front door padlock powering down pulls you out of your thoughts, and then his voice, achingly familiar and soft, “Baby? Are you home?”
“Yeah!” You say, nearly bouncing on the balls of your feet. He appears from the hallway slowly after a few seconds, and his back is facing you, which makes you pause. “Uh…Lan? What’s happening? Why are you facing the other way?”
“Don’t get mad at me,” He replies over his shoulder, lowering his bag onto the floor gently with one hand.
You narrow your eyes at his back, suspicious more than anything. “Why? What’ve you—oh my god, please don’t tell me you got that tattoo you were talking about a few weeks ago.”
“Alright, relax, I didn’t get a tattoo,” He huffs. He’s still facing backwards. “Though it’s good to know how unsupportive you’ll be if I ever do get it, thanks, babe.”
“Seriously, what is going on with you? And for fuck’s sake, love, will you please turn around?”
He spins on his heel gingerly, beaming so bright it rivals the sun. At first, you think it’s because of you, but then you catch sight of what’s most likely the reason for that big smile, and your breath catches in your chest.
The tiniest puppy you’ve ever seen sits snuggled in Lando’s arms, peering out at you with wide eyes. Dark brown fur covers its head and pointy little ears, fading into a lighter coppery color around its eyes before turning pure white at the snout and along the rest of its body. The same lighter brown spreads in a patch along its back.
“Lando, you did not.”
“I did.”
“Are you serious?”
He smiles guiltily, stepping closer with the pup. “Are you mad at me?”
“No, I’m…just surprised, is all. How did you—when did you have time to get a dog while you were working?”
“The team partnered with a shelter for dogs for a video to, like, bring awareness and hopefully get the pups some forever homes, and um, they brought a bunch of puppies,” Lando explains, shifting the puppy a little higher against his chest. You close the leftover gap, reaching out to let the timid pup sniff your hand a few times. “This little guy crawled right up into my lap and didn’t move the whole time we were filming, and I think we just bonded with each other immediately.”
“Bet you loved that, didn’t you?” You smile, stroking its soft fur gently. Whether you’re talking to the puppy or Lando, you’re not really sure, but either way, you’re already feeling yourself start to fall in love.
He gazes down at the dog curled up in the crook of his elbow so fondly you’re almost jealous. You’re not, but you’ve never seen Lando look at anyone or anything with this much love in his eyes before (other than you, and maybe spring rolls). “I know we've never really talked a lot about the right time to get a dog, but I couldn’t—I knew I couldn’t not bring him home with me.”
The pup leans forward, licking your fingertips with his little pink tongue, and your heart melts into a puddle at your feet. It’s true, you’ve had the dog conversation with Lando many times before, all of which always ended the same way. With Lando being away so much and you with your own job, bringing in a new addition to your lives would be tough to figure out.
But as Lando transfers him into your arms, and he instantly nestles up against you like you’re his home, every excuse you’ve ever made for not getting a dog flies right out the window. You know it in your heart, this is the dog you and Lando were meant to love.
“Hi, darling,” You say softly, lifting the pup to your eye level. He’s so small he fits comfortably in two hands, tiny black nose twitching as he cranes his neck out to sniff at you. “You really did a number on this one, huh? Made him fall in love with you?”
Lando steps behind you, sliding his arms around your waist to bring you flush against him. He hooks his chin over your shoulder comfortably, pressing a kiss to your cheek as he gives the pup scratch under the chin. “Seems like he’s doing the same to you.”
“Seems like it,” You hum. You bring him back against your chest and up towards Lando, who breaks into a fit of giggles as his nose gets a good few licks.
“So…can we keep him?”
“This isn’t going to be easy, Lan, you know that, right?” You say. He nods. “We’ve got to take him to the vet, set up sessions with a trainer, potty train him. Figure out how we’re gonna do this when you’re gone.”
“We’ll figure it out before I leave again, baby. We’ve got time,” He insists, rubbing his hands up and down your arms reassuringly. “Besides, I’ve already asked Charles and Alex for tips, they’re coming round for lunch and a chat as soon as they’re back in Monaco. And they’re bringing Leo, so who knows, maybe these two will become best friends.”
“Look at you, planning puppy playdates already. He’s got forever with us now, you know? Let’s get him used to us and this place before we introduce him to others, dog dad.”
Lando scoffs, but not unkindly. More amused than anything. “Well! Seems like we already know which one is going to be the mean parent out of the both of us, don’t we, Archie?”
“That’s his name? Archie?”
“It’s the one the shelter gave him, but we can still change it if we find one we like more.”
“No, it’s perfect,” You murmur, planting a kiss atop Archie’s furry head. “Welcome home, Archie.”
“Yeah,” Lando replies, squeezing you a little tighter. “Welcome home, little guy. We love you so much already.”
You angle your head towards him, catching his chin with your free hand, bringing him towards you and kissing him gently. Lando all but melts into you, happily reciprocating. “Welcome home to you too, my love.”
“Mm, I’ve missed you,” He hums, nuzzling into the crook of your neck with a content, deflating sigh. “Gonna be a nice break, innit? No more grainy video chats or time differences for fourteen days, just you and me.”
Archie lets out a whine, the first noise he’s made since Lando’s gotten home, as if to remind the both of you that he’s here too. Lando laughs, smoothing his fingers between the pup’s ears goodnaturedly. “And you too, of course, buddy.”
You know Archie can’t understand a word either of you say, but the way he cocks his head intuitively makes you think that maybe, just maybe, he might.
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You’re used to Lando being an early riser, but he always stays in bed waiting for you to wake up on his off days, ready to cuddle with you until one of you gets hungry.
This morning, however, when you lazily reach out an arm to find him, you come up with nothing but cold sheets. Blinking the sleep out of your eyes as much as you can, you squint over at his side of the bed to see his squashed pillow and rumpled duvet, but no Lando. In your half asleep state, part of you thinks you’d just imagined him coming home with a puppy yesterday.
But then you see the crinkly fish shaped toy on the floor in the hall as you go to find Lando, the one you’d insisted on getting on your impromptu trip to the nearest pet supply store last night despite all his huffing and puffing about it.
It’s Archie’s favorite out of all the toys you’d bought, you’d say, based on the way he’d dragged it around the living room for ages even though it was nearly the size of him.
Lando’s laying on the floor in the middle of the kitchen when you make your way in, spread eagle on his back with said puppy standing right on his chest. As soon as he spots you, he lifts his head, grinning at you excitedly. Archie takes note of the sudden movement and barks, leaping off Lando and making a beeline straight to where you’re crouched with open hands.
“Little traitor!” Lando grumbles, pouting as he pulls himself into a cross-legged position. “I’ve played with you for the last hour and you run away as soon as someone else comes along? Rejection is a bitter cold.”
“Don’t be jealous, Lan. Archie just knows who his favorite is already.”
“That’s bullshit,” He scoffs, rolling his eyes playfully. He directs his next words at the pup currently enjoying a nice belly rub from you. “Remember who brought you home, Archibald Norris.”
“Hang on, why does he get your last name? Why can’t it be mine?”
Lando shrugs nonchalantly. “Mine’s got a better ring to it. Duh.”
“That’s not fair, he’s my son too, he should have my last name!”
“Fine, we’ll hyphenate. Happy?”
Your nose scrunches, head tilting side to side in contemplation. “Mm, feels like the short end of the stick, but I’ll take it. Alright buddy, go to your dad! Go, go!” You encourage, throwing the fish toy you’d picked up towards Lando.
“Not the fucking fish!” He yelps, but he grabs it anyway, scrambling to his feet to have Archie come after him in pursuit of his beloved toy. Archie barks up a storm as he chases Lando, tongue lolling out of his mouth, little legs moving as quick as they can.
Sure, maybe there won't be any jet setting away on holiday during this break, but it’s fine. You haven’t seen Lando look this happy in a long time now, so you don’t care at all, really.
In fact, as you watch Lando and Archie run around the apartment like they’ve been best buddies forever, you know there’s nowhere else you’d rather be.
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