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Under attack again rn
#kers ramblings#i woke up to that and I'm fucking mad#literally heard one passing by and then it got blasted#I've had fucking enough for today#nevermind i hear ambulance sirens too rn#which doesnt mean anything good..
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Hey did I ever tell y'all about the time I dreamed that I had a baby daughter called Ellie that began with my finding out I was pregnant and ended on like her third birthday?
I legitimately woke up thinking "I should go check on Ellie" and then realised she was never real and when I tell you I SOBBED. I've been haunted by an implacable sense of loss ever since. Did I travel to another dimension? Wtf happened because that was insane.
#I'm not even joking when I say it felt REAL#I have this baby doll (it was my mum's when she was a kid and I have it now) that sometimes I just hold and it makes me feel better???#Did I astral project into another life?????#Was it just a really fucking intense fever dream??????#For the record I was like fifteen I have never even done the do let alone had a pregnancy scare#But yeah my little Ellie#And she never fuckin existed#I woke up halfway through planning her birthday party like baking a cake or sm and I was thinking#“I'll give her the little green cardigan I knitted”#Woke up to a silent house and was like “she's never usually quiet this time in the morning”#Then realised what had happened and started CRYING#idk man it's insane#From a psychological point of view it's fascinating but I've tried and tried to analyse the dream and?????#I always come up with something different???? I can't pinpoint the actual cause and effect of the whole thing?????#Madness honestly#And it was just a normal day too nothing weird had happened it wasn't a coma and I wasn't knocked out it was just a Dream#A very very real one#For the record I don't think Ellie had a father#I think it was just an immaculate conception that nobody ever questioned#Might have been IVF now I think about it#That would make more sense#dream#weird dreams#Ig I should add a grief trigger warning???#tw grief#one time i dreamt#Very confused and it's been like two years so wtf yeah that was... Intense#The most dream of all time#Maybe I'm just fucking insane lol but yeah
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one thousand year curse on my brain I had the worlds most boring nightmare where I had to pack and then get on a plane to fucking england
#NOT ONLY THAT but in the dream we landed and the MOMENT we got off the motorway it blipped and I had to pack and leave to go back home#it feels like the longest dream I ever had and the entire time I was so uncomfortable and the fucking whirring noise was ALWAYS there#and there was zero dream like zany happenings it was literally just me trying to entertain myself on a plane#then I woke up#I'm so mad#I'm still so mad#for extra context I am afraid of planes so there was also the constant fear#but not an interesting amount of fear#I cannot stress enough it felt so real#I was just on a plane#fuck this terrible planet runs away with tears in my eyes
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This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.
Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said “Hello, Captain.” Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied “Well, hello yourself.” The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. “Rook, is that really you?” He nodded. “It’s me.” Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said “What did she do to you?” Rook’s heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmar’s ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out “Two years.” A wave of grief swept across Zara’s face as she said “I’m so, so sorry.” Rook shook his head vigorously. “It’s not your fault.” Zara ignored him. “It is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, it’s my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.” Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. “She sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. I… I let you down.” Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to him… somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. “Where were you?” And why didn’t you come? “She said she’d kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. You’re standing here because I stopped sailing.”
(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd writing#oc: Rook#oc: Zara#btw when I say that what she said was more painful than any wound wolf inflicted I'm not just talking about her not saving him.#it also just hurts him to know that she was hurting too.#she left him with that woman for two years (to save his life yes. but she left him there all the same) and yet half of his thoughts are#''I'm sorry I hurt you.''#ROOK. MY BELOVED BABY BOY. PLEASE.#STOP APOLOGIZING.#also if anyone needs a cheering up after this please know that their conversation got interrupted by a giant snake showing up and zara#immediately asking Rook ''WHAT DID YOU DO???'' bc she knows her boy.#and he's like ''idk I just woke up like an hour ago'' and then he suddenly remembers that he swore like 3 times (town rules say no to that)#and he just goes ''SHIT'' and Zara fucking clamps her hand over his mouth and says ''take that back!''#and through her hand he says ''how the fuck am I supposed to take that back?'' and she just clamps his mouth harder.#oh. and the time he swore earlier was bc he stepped outside and got spit on by a bull and he was like ''is this normal??''#and someone said ''I've never seen that happen but these animals are part of [big snake almost-god]'s menagerie'' and hands Rook a paper#with all the town rules (there are many). And he goes ''what the fuck?'' and then he gets to the rule that reads ''no swearing'' and he goe#''SHIT!'' and then he realizes what he says and goes ''AAAHHHH.'' and I was cackling.#I was doing this on purpose btw. I knew that this would make the snake mad at me and I did it anyway bc I am a chaos gremlin.#however I did NOT know I would get Rook's only friend from before the party killed by doing this. RIP Jay. I loved you so much.#but yeah. my boy swears like a sailor bc he is one. and it did in fact get people killed. But it was funny to me.#ALSO when she met the party the first thing she said was ''thank you for saving my boy'' and I almost sobbed.#like yeah. he is her boy.#I'm going to explode just thinking about it.#okay if you read all these tags I love you forever and please feel free to yell at my idiot boy in the comments/tags/wherever.#maybe if enough of us join in he'll actually listen. (no he won't)#OH RIGHT. And the party is finally staring to realize how much of a capital L Liar this man is.#because they can literally see him catching himself about to say ''I'm fine'' every time they ask how he's doing
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had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.
#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading#oc#im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people#im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though#besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol#sketch#god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking#colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING#and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement#it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it#put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead#ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it#the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does#rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you''#however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here.#includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares#which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down#and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that...#(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL)#seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.
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dude I just saw a tiktok abotu the minecarafts movie (sidenote but why is it so hard to type with nails suddenly. Bruh I never have short nails why am I struggling) but like I saw a tiktok about the Minecraft movie and it was one of those annoying ones where they're like "big news !!!" And then say something that everyone knows, this one was about jack black playing steve. BUT THIS PRICK USED MCSM CLIPS ON THE BOTTOM HALF OF THE SCREEN. YKU CANT FUCKING BAIT US LIKE THAT. I WAS SHAKJNG AND GIGGLING FUDE IM GONNA 💥💥💥💥💥
#HE USED CLIPS OF MCSM#WHY#ALSO JAVK WAS IN MOST OF THEM AND I GOT WAY TOO EXITED LIKE AHA ARE WE GETTING A SEASON 2CHARACTERS CAMEO#NOPE#JACK FUCKING BLACK#JACK BLACK I DO NOT CARRREEEEE ABOUT YOU. YOUR NOT MY JACK#IM ACTUALLY ANGRY#not angry I'm just giggling#I just woke up like an hour ago so I'm still groggy n trying to get my brain started#OPENED TIKTOK TO A FACE FULL OF MCSM SEASON TWO WITH THE PHRASE “BREAKING NEWS” LIKE DUDE STOP#this is alll lighthearted btw. I get why he used mcsm clips n I'm not mad#Just find it funny n a bit frustrating how easily he baited me#I am no better than a 79 year old 😞
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me: i'll stay up late thursday!
also me, a grandma: falls asleep and wakes up at 2am.
#❅| ( ooc. )#.i do not have work today#.so it's fine but i'm just sitting here like#.'dude you're not even 30 why do you fall asleep so fucking fast'#.answer: it's cold in my room and the cold makes it INSANELY easy to sleep for me#.back to starters/dms#.edit: it was 3 when i posted this because i was mad that i woke up at 2am and i malded over it for an hour
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love it when my cousin cancels plans AGAIN
#all i wanna do is hang out with her for like two or three hours. that's not unreasonable considering i've not seen her all summer. yes i'm#happy she's got a girlfriend and friends to hang out with but i've been here the whole time yk? and it feels shitty that after all these#years of me being there for her i've just been sorta left to the side. i don't wanna sound like a bitch but it's really pissing me off#she woke up late after staying up all night even tho she knew we were planning on hanging out today. some of that can't be helped but it#feels shitty. i'm really angry and upset and i don't want to have to be the person who reaches out every time#or the person who's always so understanding and considerate and lets herself be pushed to the side#fucking spend time with me sometimes. reach out. put effort in#anyway. rant over. i'm gonna be mad all day now but whatever#albatross rambles#vents
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NOOOOOOO NOT LAUKS AS WELL????? I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY WOULD DO THIS TO US
#it's 3:49am i just woke up and felt a sudden urge to open tumblr bc something felt wrong#I CANT BELIEVE ITS BC THEY TRADED MY BOY#so soon after ully too#they're gonna send me on a killing spree the way things are going#don sweeney better fucking RUN#i'm genuinely so upset right now#NOT MY LOTR NERD :( THEY CANT TAKE YOU AWAY FROM ME#WHO THE FUCK IS SUPPOSED TO BE SWAY'S EMOTIONAL SUPPORT BOY NOW????#pat pls give him so many hugs he lost his two boyfriends in the space of a week#AND WHERE IS MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT PERSON????#bruins i'm so mad at you right now!!!#biggest sad hours ever#julian.txt
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I am going to loose my mind trying to organise this funeral. And it's just me doing most of it alone so i cannot stop. I have to keep going
Okay.... warning i did hit 30 tags. Like u been warned if u open my tags u will be scrolling
I need a cigarette so bad and I can't drink because health. And I'm SO WIRED
#i slept after doing funeral stuff#had a dream my dad was alive and there had been mistake#woke up 7am did funeral stuff#went to sleep again and woke up with Health Symptoms#briefly sat outside#more funeral stuff#emails#phone calls#planning#checking anf rechecking anf recchecking and rechekcigng my damn to do list and emails bc i am so traumatised by#the amount of times i will forget literally any and every thing of little or great importance#music planning#email#photos and massive crying fit#break to eat#looked through 7 photo albums until my mother got mad bc she doesn't wanna do that#looked through cd after cd after cd for 3 hours of photos and some did not have photos and some had funny childhood things and i learnt a#lot about my dad from the cd from the old Brick Box Computer backup from 15 years ago and laughed so hard i triggered my asthma#and couldn't stop cry laughing hysterically for minutes#more photos#checking obsessively my email again anf adding shit to the to do list#and now....#i .... need to sleep but I'm so fucking wired#this is just like when i was at uni#i would work day in day out until i passed out. fall asleep with my laptop on my chest. dream of essays snd research papers. wake up and#start writing without even leaving bed#no fucking wonder i was so suicidal holy fuck???????#all I'm doing is funeral planning for my father but it's like being at uni again with deadlines just not enough time and the urgency
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oh my god i found my posts from when i got my wisdom teeth out & all i can say is what the fuck
what was she trying to prove...
#I WAS SO MAD???#i was so paranoid about being vulnerable and so i woke up SPITTING MADE#''i'm completely lucid rn'' no girl you have poisoned yourself with your anger & fear!#you are suffused in the fucking dark side!!!!#wisdom teeth#just squirrelly things#undescribed
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How uniquely good is the expression work and animation in @worthikids (Ian Worthington's) Bigtop Burger??
So good that I have spent many hours combing through every single frame of animation in this series so far while taking well over 1,000 screenshots so that I can use them as reference for art practice.
Highly recommend for anyone who has like 20 minutes to watch everything that's out so far. So many of the quotes from this just live in my brain now
But I'm not done talking about the animation - I mean, it is absolute next-level delightful shit right down to the cinematography and it is so wild that most of the work on this is done by one guy.
All the characters have great expressions, but ffs every second that Cesare is onscreen, Ian Worthington has animated Chris Fleming's voice-acting and improv SO GOOD that I basically had to watch every single one of those lines on 1/4 speed over and over to make sure I didn't miss anything.
#original#bigtop burger#cesare btb#bigtop burger cesare#cesare bigtop burger#steve btb#steve bigtop burger#ian worthington#worthikids#I probably wouldn't have to keep rewinding if I just downloaded all the videos to my computer but#I screenshot every ep that was out like 1.5 yrs ago while on my phone and i did the most recent eps today on my phone so. lotta rewinding.#I'm excited to practice with these new screenshots once I organize them and delete duplicates and blurred frames.#the only other thing I've done this with is probably Red Dwarf. I have hundreds of screenshots from that show spanning like 100 hours.#and I have hundreds of screenshots from this show spanning about 20 minutes.#which is pretty fucking incredible if you think about it. also the red dwarf ones are only about 20% bc i wanted to practice art#and the other 80% is bc i find Dave Lister so sexy that it basically broke my brain for a month XD#i blacked out and woke up 30 days later covered in red dwarf fanart. the walls of my apartment covered in a language forgotten by mankind#which only those who have touched madness may decipher without going mad. but once translated spell out#I CAN FIX THIS MY HEADCANON WILL FIX THIS I MUST FIX THIS OHOHOHOHOHOO!!!! TIS GAY - GAY I TELL YOU!!!#NONE OF THE PRISON SEASON HAPPENED. I CAN FIX IT I CAN I AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA#so you do have to consider that.
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One thing I fucking hate about my sleep is that I'm exhausted the entire day, but as soon as the lights are off and I'm in bed I become restless, literally.
I am thinking too hard about things, rotating like crazy to find a semi comfortable position to sleep in, thinking too hard about my past again (tell me it's shit, please, I need people to heckle at it with. I am being a hater alone and that's not fun), having to physically not move for twenty minutes in the hopes of falling asleep, my entire body goes numb because IT does, but not my brain. Then it's not good, so I have to move and thus undo the last twenty minutes of trying to fall asleep to find another position and try again.
All that and I go to bed at midnight and only fall asleep at two in the morning, my sleep is absolute shit and truly I want a refund
#morningtalks#And this is without the other facts that I wake up a few times a night for seemingly no reason. Multiple times a night. Truly.#If I fall asleep around midnight I can guarantee you I'll wake at 3 am. 5-6 am 9 am 10 am 11 am and then at 12.#Every fucking night is the same#And I'm fucking exhausted when I wake up since my sleep is not good in de either#I don't remember last time I actually woke up well rested. And since I'm chronically sleep deprived I let myself sleep a bit more til 12.#But I'm not well rested and energized for the day when I wake up#Part of it is probably also because I'm NOT a morning person (despite what my name suggests) but still. It takes me a good while to functio#Fucking shit sleep I'm complaining about at three am when I should be sleeping actually but I'm mad about it Right Now#Anyways wish me luck on my next attempt at falling asleep without pain or exhaustion or anger
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Song of the Day: May 29
“Evil Like Me” by Kristin Chenoweth & Dove Cameron for Disney's Descendants OS
#song of the day#time is fake! sometimes I'm awake and it's logical to assume that sometimes I'm asleep! and the days must pass but do I ever know?? nope#fuck I spent all day thinking today was the last day of the month and then it turns out it's not even Thursday#sang 'Evil Like Me' with Duncan at the dinner table while I ate the cabbage and I made this cabbage after the work not-a-bbq so#almost definitely that was today!#I fell asleep standing up in the shower again but the drain has been draining very slowly so when I woke up there was water above my ankles#if I flood our house with the water from my shower while I am actively standing in it and I don't notice because it's the only time I sleep#I'm going to shrink myself down and move in with the mice colonizing our neighbor's boat trailer#the mice will never know my shame. Duncan will put cheese sandwiches out in the alley for us and it will be more than I deserve#this is a really good song. very fun lyrical nonsense and also very fun musically to sing. love the idea of Kristin Chenoweth Maleficent#'I have tried my whole life long / to do the worst I can / clawed my way to victory / built my master plan#now the time has come my dear / for you to take your place / promise me you'll try to be / an absolute disgrace'#Nick really doesn't like this song for some unspecified reason--we've asked but he just gets kind of mad? like it should be obvious?#I think maybe he thinks they're making fun of people who sing about like. doing crimes? being bad???????????????#like honestly what could be more punk she's literally Maleficent but go off I guess#I dunno but if I were going to be mad about a Descendants song that I occasionally roam the house over-selling#it wouldn't be a Broadway-star-supported certified banger like 'Evil Like Me'#it'd be goofyass 'Rotten to the Core' where I'm playing four parts simultaneously and pitching my voice up and down like a rollercoaster#love that fucking song it's so dumb and it's so much fun and I get to stomp on the chorus bits
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god this SUCCCKKKS i'm trying so hard not to be negative and look on the bright side but there like. is no bright side lol. i am angy
#she bork#tbd#idk like i said yesterday this position switch sucks and i'm not a fan. no benefits. also i'm mad bc this is supposed to be my weekend off#but i work tomorrow bc technically monday and tuesday were my days off (even though monday was a FUCKING HOLIDAY so no one works) and i#haven't had a weekend off since like the beginning of the month. two weekends ago doesn't count bc i was supposed to work sunday and didn't#go in bc it was MY WEEKEND OFF and no one told me about the schedule change and then when i found out i accidentally no call no showed after#i woke up i was really upset and anxious all day. we have a friend over this weekend and he comes today and i do not want to go to bed at#fucking like 9 pm bc we rarely see him. that and i feel like shit as it is lol i feel like my arthritis is flaring up bc we're in a cold#snap. so honestly i'm considering calling in tomorrow but i haven't decided bc i don't want to fuck up my attendance anymore than i already#have bc they put me on a corrective action last week bc of the aforementioned ncns and like i'm not exactly in danger of being fired but#being on a ca is not good. so i'd rather just let a sleeping dog lie and take the L on tomorrow lol
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i'm so remarkably bad at math that when i took the college math placement test (which i had to take due to failing algebra 2 in high school) i managed to fail the arithmetic half and scrape by on the algebra/trig/whatever else half. then after retaking and passing that i spent maybe a week in the college algebra class constantly on the verge of a numbers induced mental breakdown before i went to my advisor and got changed to the easiest possible math for dummies who have no aspirations and just want the bare minimum degree. so that's why i didn't do something useful like the chem/physics heavy pre vet track or a cool degree like neuroscience or astronomy because i am allergic to math
#woke up thinking about this for some reason#i was so incredibly suicidal while i was in alg 2 in high school and im still mad at the teacher because he basically told me and my family#that he would pass me on sheer effort (i was spending hours at the end of every school day in that wretched classroom. to no avail)#and then he didn't. 😐#i AM still mad about it he would get pissy and annoyed at kids who didn't understand math (me) like maybe you should try teaching better#and obviously this didn't help the constant desire to kill myself lmao i wasn't even medicated and sleeping like 4-5 hours a night#but yeah i'm sure i just needed to Try Harder. fuck you#god. anyway#every time i think about high school i'm so shocked that i didn't kill myself lmao#me
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