#i woke up to that and I'm fucking mad

[greenbirdtrash]

Under attack again rn

[thetardisisnotourdivision]

Hey did I ever tell y'all about the time I dreamed that I had a baby daughter called Ellie that began with my finding out I was pregnant and ended on like her third birthday?

I legitimately woke up thinking "I should go check on Ellie" and then realised she was never real and when I tell you I SOBBED. I've been haunted by an implacable sense of loss ever since. Did I travel to another dimension? Wtf happened because that was insane.

[somelazyassartist]

> develop ✨ mystery disorder ✨ that makes it so that if I move too much my organs start eating themselves alive. Have disorder for over a year in which it progressively gets worse from the roughly one episode a month to nearly daily now

> cars become especially bad for me due to how jittery they are, every time I get in one basically guarantees being bedbound the rest of the day or longer to recover

> put up with car ride to go to hospital, the 6 minute drive is so bad I feel like I'm going to die

> "Doctor can you fix my mystery disorder I want to be able to move again"

> Doctor says it is bad I can't move. Doctor agrees that it's best not to agitate it on purpose, so limit leaving the house. Doctor says they can't do the tests for my mystery disorder

> "Why can't you do the tests for the mystery disorder it says on your website you can do those tests"

> Doctor says website is old and they stopped doing those medical tests but haven't updated that in their info page

> "Why did you stop doing these tests when clearly there are people here that need these tests"

> Doctor doesn't know

> "Where can I get the tests done if you won't do them"

> Doctor says I have to drive 3 hours to the big crowded city with lots of curvy bumpy roads to do the tests, go through all the procedures, and then drive 3 hours back. This is only for the first appointment to see if they can figure out what I have, and if they find something I will have to do this again every time I want to get treatment for it

> "You just told me to limit being in cars because they make my organs fall apart"

> Doctor confirms I shouldn't be in cars

> "But my only choices are to either purposefully trigger the mystery disorder for 6+ straight hours a day for every day I try to figure out what it is and get treatment and therefore put my body into a constant state of eating itself alive, or be essentially housebound until it magically goes away on its own because you won't treat me"

> Doctor says yes

> "Are there any other ways of finding out what this is"

> Doctor says no

> "What can I do about this"

> Doctor asks if I've tried not having the body I have

> "Sorry wow no I've never thought of that before I'll give it a fucking shot, sir"

[memento-morri-writes]

This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.

Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said “Hello, Captain.” Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied “Well, hello yourself.” The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. “Rook, is that really you?” He nodded. “It’s me.” Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said “What did she do to you?” Rook’s heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmar’s ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out “Two years.” A wave of grief swept across Zara’s face as she said “I’m so, so sorry.” Rook shook his head vigorously. “It’s not your fault.” Zara ignored him. “It is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, it’s my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.” Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. “She sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. I��� I let you down.” Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to him… somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. “Where were you?” And why didn’t you come? “She said she’d kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. You’re standing here because I stopped sailing.” 

(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)

[izzy-b-hands]

my back really hates enthusiasm. woke up not eager but ready to get started on multiple things at once and it really said 'oh? you want to be able to move without pain? fuck you'

But fuck my back say I, bc I can work on the grocery pick up while laying down. Check mate, you... spine.

(turns out nothing i can think of to say/type to shame my spine sounds effective. it all just sounds vaguely clinical lmao)

[oozeandgoo-art]

had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

[themintman]

dude I just saw a tiktok abotu the minecarafts movie (sidenote but why is it so hard to type with nails suddenly. Bruh I never have short nails why am I struggling) but like I saw a tiktok about the Minecraft movie and it was one of those annoying ones where they're like "big news !!!" And then say something that everyone knows, this one was about jack black playing steve. BUT THIS PRICK USED MCSM CLIPS ON THE BOTTOM HALF OF THE SCREEN. YKU CANT FUCKING BAIT US LIKE THAT. I WAS SHAKJNG AND GIGGLING FUDE IM GONNA 💥💥💥💥💥

[dracolizardlars]

Dude my fucking stupid medication for my fucking stupid undiagnosed handwavey stomach issues ran out finally and I always honest to fucking god thought it didn't work but it looks like it did because they have come back immediately and I am so fucking mad. I'm so mad. I can't believe it actually worked and now I have to keep taking it. For what? For no fucking reason. Doctors refuse to actually put a name on it. Symptoms disorder. You're 25 years old and eat healthy but no fuck you you get tummyache disease. Take these stupid pills forever and also don't drink the fucking tap water you've been drinking for 15 years with no problems until now because that makes it so bad the pills don't even work. Killing myself

[irondad-defensesquad]

ew a/nti tony in my notifications! *bug spray*

[wings-of-flying]

love it when my cousin cancels plans AGAIN

[jerswayman]

NOOOOOOO NOT LAUKS AS WELL????? I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY WOULD DO THIS TO US

[parakeetpark]

I am going to loose my mind trying to organise this funeral. And it's just me doing most of it alone so i cannot stop. I have to keep going

Okay.... warning i did hit 30 tags. Like u been warned if u open my tags u will be scrolling

I need a cigarette so bad and I can't drink because health. And I'm SO WIRED

[rubensmuse]

oh my god i found my posts from when i got my wisdom teeth out & all i can say is what the fuck

what was she trying to prove...

[giantkillerjack]

How uniquely good is the expression work and animation in @worthikids (Ian Worthington's) Bigtop Burger??

So good that I have spent many hours combing through every single frame of animation in this series so far while taking well over 1,000 screenshots so that I can use them as reference for art practice.

Highly recommend for anyone who has like 20 minutes to watch everything that's out so far. So many of the quotes from this just live in my brain now

But I'm not done talking about the animation - I mean, it is absolute next-level delightful shit right down to the cinematography and it is so wild that most of the work on this is done by one guy.

All the characters have great expressions, but ffs every second that Cesare is onscreen, Ian Worthington has animated Chris Fleming's voice-acting and improv SO GOOD that I basically had to watch every single one of those lines on 1/4 speed over and over to make sure I didn't miss anything.

[morningmask27]

One thing I fucking hate about my sleep is that I'm exhausted the entire day, but as soon as the lights are off and I'm in bed I become restless, literally.

I am thinking too hard about things, rotating like crazy to find a semi comfortable position to sleep in, thinking too hard about my past again (tell me it's shit, please, I need people to heckle at it with. I am being a hater alone and that's not fun), having to physically not move for twenty minutes in the hopes of falling asleep, my entire body goes numb because IT does, but not my brain. Then it's not good, so I have to move and thus undo the last twenty minutes of trying to fall asleep to find another position and try again.

All that and I go to bed at midnight and only fall asleep at two in the morning, my sleep is absolute shit and truly I want a refund

[gentlethorns]

god this SUCCCKKKS i'm trying so hard not to be negative and look on the bright side but there like. is no bright side lol. i am angy