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icedille · 4 months

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can i be honest for a second. i absolutely fucking hate myself and pray every night that i die in my sleep but god keeps ignoring me

#everything is going to shit and it's my fault and it's deserved #no chance this exam session goes well. i'm not trying i'm not being kind i'm not doing anything that could make things even a little better #keep isolating myself bc i can't look the people i'm close to in the eye. suicidality at one of the worst points it's ever been.#but i'm still too lazy to do anything which is a shame bc we would all be better off if i rid the world of my miserable parasitic existence #and i'm not talking about any of this to my therapist bc i'm stupid but also what's the point.#maybe i should cancel it for good and stop wasting my parent's money #anyway. if you've ever thought 'woagh this girl is kinda dumb/annoying/keeps talking about killing herself ok bitch then do it?' i agree!#i wish she were dead too!

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sskk-manifesto · 2 months

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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs #It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga is–#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes of–#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and her–#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated #I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I mean‚ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joy–#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the “proving my strength against–#myself” narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity that–#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg #but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw and–#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka #and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb #Next. Da really is shipping paradise (╥﹏╥) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin #and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Also‚‚‚‚‚ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily on–#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the belief–#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we really–#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up #random rambles

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rotisseries · 1 month

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i havent seen mha since i was like 13, is uraraka and blood girl yuri canon?

technically no but to me yeah it very much is but tragically

#it's complicated. so like toga is obviously in love with uraraka #and they end up over the course of the series having several complex moments that result in uraraka realizing she's just another teen girl #and she wants to save her she starts really empathizing with toga #this culminated in their part of the final war arc #wherein they're fighting and toga's upset about like. society and heroes as per #talking about how everyone just wants her dead cause of her quirk and whatnot #uraraka is telling her she wants to talk to her and that she's sorry for not understanding earlier #toga is saying it's too late and uraraka just continues telling her she wishes she knew what happened to her when she was younger #and she tells toga she has a lovely smile and then tells her she wants to give toga her blood for the rest of her life #and that she wants the two of them to talk about romance. and that she wants to touch that sadness deep inside toga #toga stabs uraraka at some point so she's bleeding pretty bad and also they're in the sky cause of uraraka's quirk #and then uraraka tells toga she's the cutest girl in the world and passes out midair #and when they hit the ground and toga can see she'll probably die she decides to drink some of uraraka's blood to turn into her #so she can give her a blood transfusion and save her life. she says smth #like “what if I had found a love that made me want to give blood sooner? I think it would've been much easier to live in this world”#and she passes out next to uraraka and says “I'm himiko toga and I lived exactly how I wanted to”#this presumably kills her. she is never found after the final battle #but you can see why I think it should count as canon and REQUITED given that uraraka verbally reciprocates #all of toga's standard ways of talking about love and romance #like. giving and taking blood IS romantic to toga. so why is uraraka offering her blood to toga🤨🤨🤨#uraraka then in the epilogue as a pro hero apparently does lots of quirk counseling work. um. crazy #alo apparently they were created and written for each other. so #blood girl yuri!!#ask #supercoolswampert #hi hanaan!

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sillyfudgemonkeys · 1 year

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Everyone's talking about Wish right now.... The only thing I can say about WISH.......let's hope it's like a Frozen 1 type thing. Where the trailers were ABSOLUTE ASS but then the film turned out really good. TT0TT

I mean.....there is a difference between the two. While the west got weird trailers that didn't matter for Frozen (Olaf vs Sven carrot thing), JPN and other countries got trailers that actually showcased the plot and drama in an interesting way.... And Wish.....well...... Wish at least gives us a villain and a part of an argument.....and I can't see that argument leading anywhere.....great tbh. So maybe not the best comparisons but let's hope for the Frozen 1 vibe!

Anyway I'm not liking what I'm seeing so far, but I'm hoping its better than the ass disaster Frozen 2 and Ralph 2 were. ;w;

#silly talks #disney #WISH #frozen #as frozen's first fan and the one that didn't care the trailers were ass......my heart goes out to Wish fans rn kldjsafkljsaf #'silly that's pretty bold of you to consider yourself THE FIRST frozen fan-" i drove that damn bandwagon y'all just jumped on later #no really around 2009-2010 i remember looking at the Snow Queen disney page wikipedia page to see if it finally got taken off of hiatus she #*off the hiatus shelf #i remember the damn day the announced Dinsey would take a crack a the Snow Queen adaptation again #then when they announced Kristen Bell for a character (super estatic cause i wanted to hear her singing even more after watching Veronica m #*after watching veronica mars)#The Snow Queen has been a fav fairy tale of mine since i was a baby so yeah I was excited to say the least TT0TT #and yeah 5 seconds into the movie (the day it released mind you! yes I was there I remember how dead the theater was) i was like 'I love it #I ended the movie and wanted to go back in too i loved it that much #safe to say I was BLOWN AWAY by how much OTHERS loved it esp after everyone was bitching abt it leading up to that film TT0TT #anyway love frozen 1 it's my fav #hate frozen 2 it's hot garbage I never felt more lied to by trailers than this movie holy shit #i'm like 8 rants away from writing a complete dissertation on how Frozen 2 completely misunderstood Frozen 1 in it's entirety #(note: I dont think F1 is perfect nor do I think it's a masterpiece I just happen to love it a lot uwu)#anyway I hope wish has a similar thing (sleeper hit release part....not a shitty sequel part)

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eiko-chatter · 9 months

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#is it weird that this feels worse than 'just'#grieving my dead friend #the set of things i'm feeling are so confusing and complicated rn #maybe it's just the sick brain but #i feel like i'm being washed with bleach on a high spin cycle #there's so much going on and it all feels like too much and -#and i feel viscerally like i'm failing the people i care about #i don't endorse a lot of what i'm feeling and that makes it worse bc #like what #am i going to dump it on the people who care about me when i don't even believe this shit?#i don't even feel okay posting this in my crying channel rn for reasons unknown to me so it's just #going to be here now.#sorry!!!!#tomorrow can be brighter than today!#today was. bad. so it's easier to believe that than usual actually #it all hurts and #and she's stlil dead!! and i still miss her!!! and keep thinking about ways i could have saved her!!!!#yep even in this post that starts “this isn't about my dead friend”#i'm coming in at the end with dead friend posting #i wish things were different ;-;#delete later maybe

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kazoosandfannypacks · 1 year

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1989 is so ScarletQueen coded and I will die on this hill.

#taylor swift #once upon a time in wonderland #scarlet queen #will scarlet #anastasia ouatiw #will x anastasia #Welcome to New York is about Will going to Storybrooke #Out of the Woods has the line 'we were built to fall apart and fall back together'#'ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS STAY' is basically a summary of Will's entire feelings about Ana #I Wish You Would is literally just them in a modern au. 😭😭😭#BAD BLOOD IS THEM TOO #'say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress' and then when Will makes Liz into his Ideal Woman she's wearing a dress that resembles the #dress Anastasia was wearing when he last saw her #'THIS LOVE IS REAL THIS LOVE IS RED THIS LOVE IS ALIVE BACK FROM THE DEAD WOAHOHOH' IN ALL OF WONDERLAND THEY WERE THE ONLY THING THAT WAS #REAL FOR EACH OTHER!!! AND SHE'S THE RED QUEEN!!! AND SHE CAME BACK FROM THE DEAD!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭#'i know places' is them pre-wonderland. the place they ran to hide from people judging them for choosig each other was wonderland.#Clean is a song Will thinks he can sing now that he doesn't have his heart anymore #WONDERLAND. NEED I SAY MORE?#(i will. listen to that song. it's literally the story of their relationship. i still don't believe it wasn't written about them.)#You Are In Love is kinda generic but yes they are in love #and they COULD build a castle out of the bricks thrown at them. the universally hated queen and the universally wanted thief.#also that one mentions SCARLET letters and PLAYING CARDS and CASTLES it's literally about them. Heartbreak IS wonderland's national anthem.#and i know i didn't mention all of 1989's song so here's a bonus.#Will Scarlet was Sunshine and Anastasia was Midnight Rain.#(he wanted it comfortable. she wanted that pain. he wanted a bride. she was making her own name. chasing that fame. he stayed the same.#and both of them changed like midnight rain.)

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floralovebot · 2 years

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It's insane to me that this entire "debate" (if it can even be called that) is literally just

trans people, jewish people, black people literally everyone who has been hurt by bigotry: hey please don't spend $70 on a game about pro-slavery and fascism when a lot of that money will go to its creator who is publically bigoted and uses her massive amounts of wealth to fund the eradication of marginalized groups

and the response to that was: fuck you why can't you just let people enjoy things, harry potter personally saved my life

like. it's extremely telling that so many people value their own entertainment and nostalgia over the lives of others. jkr is such a horrible, despicable person and literally all people are saying is that yeah you shouldn't be giving a modern day nazi that much money when they constantly bring people to the alt right and donate that money to every anti-human rights organization you could think of.

and no i don't think sending people death threats is okay but at the same time, you don't get to act surprised, defensive, or victimized when people call you out for giving money to a fucking nazi.

#its so upsetting seeing all of this #people have put in so much work and energy trying to educate people about her #but it feels like we take fifty steps backwards whenever a new hp thing comes out #is it really that hard to NOT spend money on the fucking nazi game???#no!! it isn't!! no one is forcing you to give her money!!#people are literally detailing exactly why its bad to buy this game and every response is literally just fuck you let me do whatever i want #she literally donates to orgs that actively spread hatred and bigotry and resort to people killing themselves...#and youre surprised when trans and jewish people say they dont trust you?#when you care about yourself and your enjoyment of a piece of media over their lives?#you don't get to act surprised when people call you transphobic or antisemitic when you willingly give a transphobic nazi money #just cause you want to play the silly wizard game #and yeah sorry if it 'hurts' but no you can't be an ally while also buying this game #thats not how that fucking works #not to mention it literally fucking Astounds me when i see poc and queer people support this game..#she doesn't like you!! she wishes you were dead too!!#hogwarts legacy #like i genuinely dont care if you like hp but knowingly funding her hatred is not okay and i don't understand why people think it is

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ransomnote · 7 months

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genuinely sometimes i look at pictures of my mom when she was younger and i wish i was never born. el oh el.

#she liked horses. she loved horses. her dad wanted another son.#her brothers loved her but they were so much older #i will never apologize about my existence to anyone but her. i wish i could have given her a kid to be proud of #when i was home for winter break we were talking about my brother and she said 'he's a weirdo' and i said 'we're both weirdos' and she said #'i should have had one more' before realizing what she said but it was too late. i think im gonna think about that for the rest of my life.#i wish she was living a different life. i wish i could give her a different life.#maybe my absence would but then i'm just her dead kid. it's 20 years too late for me to be stillborn.

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edmundhoward · 4 months

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“She was a lady-in-waiting to Catherine of Aragon for several years alongside Anne Boleyn, so she would've witnessed the way Anne held Henry off for so long by pleading her virginity. She watched, and she learned. There is a famous tale of how Jane was picking out items for her wedding to the king, while Anne awaited her execution in the Tower. If true, it would show sprinklings of a cold heart. [...] I wonder if Jane was reminiscing over these events, as she was dying of child-bed fever, and if so, what her thoughts on them were. Did she pray for forgiveness for the part she played? I like to believe that she did, given how spiritual she was known to be.”

abfiles comments writing fanfic fantasising about jane seymour in moments of terrible duress!