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So I got my first pair of forearm crutches today and I was wondering where you guys get your decals from?
Spoonies please respond with your favourite stickers, artists, and brands, so I can get some inspo for customising these guys!
Also feel free to share what you've done with your own gear on this post too!
#also was my first time using a mobility aid in public without an Injury Marker like a cast or moonboot#and everyone was super nice about it which is great#i was anxious as hell#mobility aid customisation#mobilty aid#crutches#cane#spoonie
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hot take ??
the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.
it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)
anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around them— especially their families— happy.
they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a star— a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurse— and you can see the similarities from there.
for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctor— suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.
for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main story— becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into question— maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.
their insecurities are incredibly similar.
in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other people— despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.
in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those characters— it's a reflection of his traumas.
just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.
now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.
for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.
mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressures— her mother's demands.
tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himself— if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.
and even then, there's some overlap.
tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.
mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother them— she doesn't want to be a burden— and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.
and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.
mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floor— puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.
tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything else— puppeteering silenced plushies— his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.
mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.
tsukasa has not yet cut his.
#project sekai#colorful stage#prsk#tsukasa tenma#mafuyu asahina#mafukasa#theres also obvious ones im sure you all know. like how theyre the sole sekai creators#or their designs paralleling eachother (color schemes of their eyes and hair)#or how theyre both connected to the moon and bunnies#and how theyre connected by a piano with a moon design thats only shown up in mafuyus 2nd mixed and tsukasas 2nd mixed... where they had#their first mixed events together#or how they both easily overwork theirselves#or how theyre almost always projecting onto other people as if their experiences are the norm#ex: tsukasa with rui in wonder halloween and mafuyu with niigo in main story#I CAN GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AS YOU CAN SEE .#EDIT: HERES SOME MORE THAT I DIDNT REMEMBER AT 12 AM LAST NIGHT#theyre both connected to apples! points at tsukasa in fixer 2dmv and points at mafuyu2#literally all of their vocaloids parallel eachother.#wxs and n25 miku have a childlike sense of curiosity#wxs and n25 rin are based off someone that isnt them for the most part (saki and ena)#wxs and n25 len are both anxious and pessimistic (in island panic... wxs len has a conflicting pov from meiko and wants wxs to just stay in#the sekai instead of being stuck out on an island... which is kinda escapist as hell)#wxs and n25 meiluka have conflicts that are very similar. n25 meiluka represents mafuyus inner conflict between isolating herself and#helping everyone because she didnt know what would be better#and wxs meiluka is the conflict between tsukasas ambition and his fatigue#which is why wxs meiko always acts like wxs luka is a burden whenever she falls asleep— tsukasa himself wont rest#not when he thinks it will burden other people#and wxs and n25 kaito are both driving forces in tsukasa and mafuyu accepting their true feelings#(although tsukasa is kinda not where mafuyu is yet i think you get what i mean)#EDIT: 5/22/24 I CANT ADD ANYMORE TAGS FUCK
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What's there to be afraid of?
#i think her 3 years w thancred were a special kind of hell but i think thry had good moments too#i mean ryne very clearly admires and looks up to him even when hes fucking everything up#and shes never shown being scared of him#at most shes nervous or anxious#the closest to her being scared of him weve seen is right after we save her from capture#and shes nervous when she admits she ran off bc she didnt think thancred would let her go#but thats just being worried about ur parents scolding u which everything has felt at some point#that said i do think she recognises that thancred COULD be scary#and probably is to some people#but shes never seen him that way#tho tbf her point of reference is ran'jit who is far more intimidating than thancred could ever be#so really i think her scale of whats scary or not is kinda skewed#ryne waters#thancred waters#final fantasy#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#ffxiv#art#my art#xanders art#digital art#fan art#xander being insane about ryne
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Socialising is difficult why can’t I just yell out my lineage from across the battlefield and invoke the ancient laws of Xenia to my fellow enemy Trojan resulting in a friendly unequal trade and a bro hug
#greek mythology#the iliad#diomedes#eugh someone save me from this hell of wanting to make friends but every time I try an anxious pit makes itself known#i give up honestly just send me back
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diversity wins! this war criminal is trans 🥳🏳️⚧️
late pride month art for myself because even though riza isn’t trans or even a man in canon(and i don’t even want/need it to be) this AU means so much to me!! getting to explore gender and aspects of transition through my favorite blorbo is great and nice and makes me feel happy and much more comfortable thinking about these things!!! i love riza :)
#fma#riza hawkeye#transmasc riza#i always avoided looking up transition stuff for mysef because it made me anxious as hell but i love learning about it for Him..#the power of Love
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Excuse me! He asked for no pickles
Don't worry about where the boxes came from 😘💙💚
#dorian's charisma may be 16 and a prince but he's still an anxious boy#critical role#critrole#critrole memes#cr3#cr c3#bells hells#bell's hells#dorian storm#orym of the air ashari#dorym#dorian x orym#orym x dorian#he asked for no pickles#reusing a meme i did for laudmoore because having orym stand on boxes for it was too funny to not do#cr memes#cr shitpost#courtesy of me#cr campaign three#crit role#critrole meme
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pretending my oc had a menswear photoshoot for a magazine
#nero huntington#art only#bc of the setting of the rp comm he was in he's technically super duper famous#but he is extremely socially anxious and he physically hides from cameras behind other people despite being the tallest in the lineup#anyways charity photoshoot benefiting a wolf sanctuary is the only reason he'd do this#also getting to hang out with wolves#i need to practice animals more#also hey! i've been working on stuff that i'm not allowed to post! my life is hell! i'm dying inside#i'm going to be working on merch soon hopefully#i'll at least be able to post processes on patr*on
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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*
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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
#Pactw#QSMP#Pac#March 18 2024#As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators#I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore#I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know#like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on#And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation#but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk.#I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about#esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources#and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive''#but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this''#''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?''#And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know#idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info#Happy to hear other folks' perspective#I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those#but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric#which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs#but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying#Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript#that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing#and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate#idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags#But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter#Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn
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(Basic context is that AU of Duel Desinties where the phantom impersonates Phoenix to get him found guilty of Clay's murder, I talk more under the cut abt it jkhlj)
-Basically meant to be a parallel to turnabout trump, cause if you can have ONE boss get found guilty of murder, why not a second one?
-OK basically: everything in DD happens normally until like- a day before clays murder, Phoenix gets yoinked by the phantom somehow (he is still alive, just being held captive), Phantom is still Fulbright, but they've decided to be silly goofy (target Phoenix and get him found guilty of murder, escape police custody and then murder phoenix and make it seem like Phoenix accidentally died while on the run, thats why they didn't kill phoenix right away unlike the real Fulbright) there is an imposter amo-
-I dont have the logistics as to how this affects solving Metis's murder, and how it effects what evidence is used n whatnot and turnabout for tomorrow as a whole, so im just going nuts HGJKHLJ
-Originally I was actually imagining this taking place during turnabout for tomorrow and I wanted that case to be apollo v klavier instead of phoenix and edgeworth and thats why klav is in here instead of Simon (I decided that Simon got badly injured and couldn't stand in court for the retrial, so klavier was asked to step in)
-The courtroom bombing still happens the same way it does normally, but Apollo decides to take up the case again instead of taking a leave, instead of like, you know, healing from the traumatic event that just happened, turnabout countdown still happens as well
-Apollo and Athena do not find out about the phantom's existence until well after this trial, so they have no idea that Phoenix could've possibly been replaced, though simon, after hearing about the trial, might be suspicious about whether or not that was the real Phoenix
-The Phantom had been not only keeping an eye on Simon for a while, but was also stalking Phoenix and Edgeworth after they both started looking into UR-1, so they were able to impersonate phoenix so well that not even his own daughter thought that anything was up (though while Trucy did find him a *little* bit off, but she figured that it might've been the bombing that caused him to act ever so slightly weird, so she didn't pay much mind to it until she heard about his confession in court and realized it might've been because he possibly, ya know, killed someone)
-it's pretty much just switching Athena being framed for murder with Phoenix, and instead of the trial ending on a cliffhanger, it continues on (probably with Klavier insisting on it) ending with soloman being found innocent and Phoenix being declared guilty
-There's a couple days inbetween the end of the cosmic turnabout and the start of turnabout for tomorrow, so Athena, Apollo and Trucy all get a little bit to process the fact that "oh god my boss/my dad killed someone" (simons execution date is pushed back a bit in this au) and they probably get to talk with Klavier and eventually a lil bit with Simon after he gets out
-Im not sure how it all winds down in turnabout for tomorrow (Phoenix escaping and being at large is basically the perfect cover for the phantom to resume being fulbright for that trial) but they do eventually realize that the phoenix who confessed wasn't the real one and now there's a search on going to find out where the real one is being held captive, hes fineeee just ready to take a week long nap and a good vacation (along with every other waa member)
-I dont have anything else to add on rn but if you want to add something or just throw in a scenario feel free to!! this idea has been bouncing around my head for like a month now and Im very happy to finally show yall it
#ace attorney#ace attorney dual destinies#apollo justice#athena cykes#klavier gavin#phoenix wright#copycat au#indys art#apollo faints like- 0.5 seconds after the verdict is called which is very understandable#Apollo and Athenas horrible no good very bad court trial#and klavier isn't fairing any better tbh HJGKHL#no one is doing well at all and it gets worse before it gets better hjgkhl#Im both very excited but also TERRIFED posting this#I rarely try to actually write actual serious dialogue for characters cause im not a writer-so im hoping it's like- halfway decent HGJKH#I may be anxious as hell but Im going to be very brave and post this instead of- not doing that HJGKHL#I also tried to push myself a bit with this one so I included more panels to work on and coloured it#I like how it came out though!!#I hope u enjoy <3#also if something doesn't make sense blame it on the fact that I wrote the caption and these tags at like 2:30 am
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things i cannot be assed to finish part 586 the furry au (my first time drawing a not-sonic-like furry in years so im not very confident... also how do i wings???)
leaf is a tree frog, red is a snow leopard and green is a falcon :-)
#idk why but i was a MASSIVE bird furry as a kid and thats why i was obsessed w those asshole birds from sonic riders#then i just kinda. stopped. maybe i got anxious as hell bc of all the negativity surrounding furry stuff on the internet#but hey. heres green getting zapped with the bird beam now LMAOOO
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I'm not home rn so just some sketches I saved yesterday after the stream not all of them
Was in a bad mood yesterday to post them.... Or clean them, or anything really
Meh
#fanart#sketch#my art#isat#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#isat loop#isat fanart#in stars and time#two hats spoilers#Siffrin#Loop#halloween#halloween sketch#I'm still thinking how to make Loop a ghost but this idea was good enough on a stream when I was super anxious about the whole thing#Never repeating this again.#My mood fell down so fast it felt awful#I'm good now! On my way home in a car downloaded star rail update genshin update and even honkai update#yayyy#Anyway vampire Siffrin and Ghost Loop live in my head rent free#Thinking of my animatic thing tho#Like actually thinking the way it'll actually work#Love it#Those sketches are messy as hell#I feel dizzy from writing on a moving car ooops
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are you okay? horse figures are important, but so are you!
Horse is how I cope but thanks<33
#short story: i'm too autistic to function and don't know when to quit#and i've been very very angry and anxious and frustrated for the last? 3 weeks??#and basically i just told someone to turn off their music in the least diplomatic way possible and almost got choked out for it#it's extremely embarrassing because it was a bunch of high schoolers and i'm an adult like#i'm not supposed to let my anger out at kids. even if they're being extremely annoying at midnight. and i have an exam tomorrow.#but also they shouldn't have threatened me or grabbed me or tried to smash my phone so like#one of them grabbed my neck and without thinking i grabbed their neck too and i have no idea how it didn't escalate to an actual fight#idk man#i hate living at a dorm with such a wide age range#why the hell do they force 30-somethings to share dorms with 15-year-olds#i actually had a nightmare last night that someone was listing all my autistic/adhd traits as reasons to hate me so that was fun
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look we all know that aziraphale is mr. fiddlesticks-not-fuck and dearie-me-good-gracious, but my favorite thing about him is that there is also, at all times, a fuck-shit little bastard inside of him just begging to be let loose. he's petty, he's passive aggressive, and the Second he decides that playing by heaven's rules isn't going to help anybody, it's all "i know who you are, you idiot!" and "you STUPID man" and "FUCK"
#i'm so passionate about his portrayal in the book as this glass-closeted dickhead and i will advocate for it every day of my life#he and crowley would literally never have worked if aziraphale wasn't a little mean and conniving himself#i mean the man Disappears people who try to coerce him into selling his shop for god's sake#he is Known for scowling and skulking and being rude as hell to everyone who so much as thinks about buying a book from him#and we all saw how much he Enjoyed taunting beelzebub & michael in the bathtub scene#and yes at the same time he is kind and darling and anxious and proper and everything we love about him#but by GOD i live for the moments where he's just a little bit of an asshole just because he can be#imo michael sheen absolutely Nailed the aura of the lovely (slightly bitchy) old queen whose customer service voice doubles as a threat#aziraphale#good omens
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I think, in my Valgrace Good Future Au, on their last death cycle Leo just goes downstairs and straight up drags Jason out
Jason literally just died in Leo’s arms, bleeding out from a stab wound he took to save his life, Leo is Done playing the game
Like for a while I was toying with him Orphiousing him, but Leo is past formalities now he's not asking anymore
Just Jason waiting again to get judged, twiddling his thumbs and staring at the wall when all of a sudden Leo is pulling him out of line. Jason gets a quick “We are leaving” out of him and then Leo is marching him back up the way he came
They hold hands the whole way, its the moment Jason knows that he Loves him loves him
#notes#pjo#jason grace#valgrace#leo valdez#valgeace good future#talk#he drags him out of hell#like frfr#I like this because it makes more sence why Leo is so anxious about drawing attention by making a move#he technically cheated
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It's pomegranate season :)
A redraw of this piece from around a year ago
#hello guys...(:#i started school back in mid September! its hell#and my chronic pain is rly bad these days i can barely do anything#and my next break will be spent at the hospital#but love and light at least we're trucjing along and getting somewhere hopefully#this drawing isn't exactly the most finished the most effortful what have you but its all i can guve you#confession time: idk if i have it in me to keep drawing the guys#dont get me wrong still adore them. but i feel a little out of it#maybe this'll change the second i post this but whatever.#i had an amazing time being active in the fandom you guys are so sweet and you got me thru rough patches <3#I'll still be around just even more inactive#anyway i hope you enjoy this!!!#i feel like I've improves substantially which is good#cwilbur#dsmp fanart#my art#thx to everyone that's loved my art yall hold a special place in my heart#alright bye bye xoxo#ps esteemed mutuals and lovely audience never hesitate talking to me i am always around and i love ppl I'm just socially anxious#fennec.art
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started stardew valley for the first time. born to remember villager likes and dislikes forced to immediately forget it the moment i take my eyes off thw wiki
#HELP. HEEEELPP <- THE FORGETTER#i have 18 different tabs open and im pretty sure half of them are duplicates. i have not made anything past 5000G i am so cooked#rn im at summer 11 ish?? i cant remember dates in real life either jesus christ GRIPPING THE COMMUNITY CALENDAR WITH MY BARE HANDS#my ass really went into this like “ill just take it easy and go into it blind so i get the newborn baby deer experience" completely ignoran#to the fact that i get anxious disappointing ppl and not having any background knowledge going into smth new. like a FOOL#also the walking speed is just slow enough to make me space out and forget where i was going and what i needed to do head in my hands#ive had to backtrack all over pelican town so many different times im in fucking adhd hell. resource management hell#im saying this like i hate it but its actually pretty fun and engaging when im not gripping my head trying to remember what i was doing#i got linus' 2 heart event and it made me whimper a little. LINUSSS LINUS I LIKE HIM. AND WILLY AND MARNIE THEYRE SO NICEYS#marnie kinda like.. reminds me of my friends mom even her face is pretty similar. shes sweet i like her. also willy calls me lad hes cool#i think im just gonna start a new save and NOT rely on the fucking mixed seed forages bc my ass was too stubborn to buy seeds#i just got sebastians 2 heart event too ughhh ive never had to work so hard for an emo boys approval. but it was satisfying#corn will fix me. its a replenishable summer-fall crop corn has to fucking fix me PLEASE#i also. made a stardew valley farmer. the one im playing as. their name is cosmo they have a backstory and everything im making#him a ref. his backstory is so fucking funny just wait#yapping#diary#puppy plays sdv
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