#i want to give anon benefit of the doubt and is just asking a genuine question

[inevitably-johnlocked]

so are you on hiatus or still posting or...? what's the deal w/that

Hey Anon...

I'm not sure if you're just joshing me or being silly, or are being serious or whatever but your ask comes off as rude, especially since I try to have a post every half hour or so from 8 AM EST until noon DAILY (since I discovered those are my peak hours), unless I have no content, which y'all provide me with through asks and suggestions. I have posted fic recs EVERY Friday for over 3 years and curate a fic rec list nearly every Sunday unless I take a break / holiday. My blog tags are specifically designed to show me where in the cycle a post is, and, a lot of the "selling" point to this blog is its interactivity (where I check the replies and additions on every post that reblogs each day and I tack it onto the main post).

Granted, I don't post nearly as much as I used to (because it was affecting my mental health, and I have a day job I work between 40 and 60 hours a week with very little free time, and I'm back at the office so I can't post during work hours anymore) so I had to cut my queue back to auto-post 3 posts a day so I don't run out of posts before month's end. I also prep my blog the night before the next day, so I spend anywhere between 2 and 4 hours NIGHTLY, AFTER my day job, to file, answer asks, and schedule posts so that my blog LOOKS active.

AND if no one sends me asks or asks I'm not ready to answer (bad headspace, too long to reply so I save it for another day, etc), then the queue the next day is, admittedly, smaller and instead is about 1 post an hour up until 3 PM EST. All my new posts from asks get answered and posted between 8 AM and 11 AM, unless I have no content / next-day-reblogs, then I slot other asks into the 11 AM until 2 PM slots. I try not to do that on first posting, though, 'cause as I said, my peak hours are early morning so I'd rather have people see those ones first.

When I'm on hiatus, I pin a post to my blog. My Lovelies and Lurkers™ know when I am on Hiatus and are very understanding and know that I am a human being who needs a break once in awhile. I'm sorry I'm not posting up to your standards, Anon, I truly am, but I just physically can't anymore, since like, 90% of my free time is dedicated to either sorting fics or answering asks. And I don't really have the energy to do it at the rate I was doing it when I was working from home. I rarely take a break from this blog as it is.

Perhaps Tumblr has unfollowed you from my blog, which is why you don't see my posts anymore (it has happened, I've had to re-follow people before), but I can assure you, I have new content DAILY unless I have no asks I'm ready to answer. Some days are less than others, because, again, I am only human, and I have no obligation to provide content daily. I do it because I LOVE doing it. But asks like this make me feel like all my work is for naught. *shrugs*

Less is more, Anon. 💜🖤

[azen13]

Can I request some yandere wriothesley HCs? 🥺 (Fem or GN reader?)

I’m so sorry if you’ve already done this :(( It’s my first time requesting.

Thanks!

CW: Yandere Themes

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You're absolutely fine anon! At the moment I'm really thinking about Wriothesley...a lot, so I've been meaning to write for him, and you've given me a great opportunity to talk about him, so thank you :D

Wriothesley is a very interesting yandere to me. One of the things I think about when it comes to writing yandere characters is power, and how the imbalance of power between a yandere and their significant other can affect their relationship. Zhongli and Neuvillette, for example, are so powerful that their significant other would likely have a difficult time getting away from them. With Wriothesley, dare I say, I think he's on a similar level to those two. If his lover is already stuck in Meropide, then they're already under his control. After all, Meropide is in his jurisdiction. He makes the rules here.

In my opinion, he's also one of the most possessive yanderes in Teyvat. Considering his past, I doubt he's ever had someone he can confide in, much less be vulnerable around after how he was tricked. And there's no way living in Meropide doesn't harden your heart and make you have to pretend like you're completely uncaring all the time. But you get him. You just do, and it's so addicting—to be held by soft hands and get the hardened layers of his heart pared away, revealing something soft and fragile. He can't let you go, even if he knows you'll hate him forever.

That being said, I also think he's absolutely soft for you. Like, buy-you-whatever-you-ask-for soft, make-you-breakfast-in-bed soft, carry-you-around-if-you-asked-him-to soft. It's both strategic and genuine: he wants you to know that he loves you, and he will do whatever you want. He just can't give you your freedom. He tries to ease the feeling of constriction by taking you on dates above the surface—if you behave, that is—wary of any nosy reporters looking to write about the Duke's new lover. You're his, and he doesn't need the world to know it.

Compliance is rewarded with plenty of other benefits, but only if it's genuine. Sulking by his side as he does paperwork only makes him pout. He hates seeing you upset, but he can't let you go now. Give him a chaste kiss on the cheek, or hold his hand for a few minutes, or entertain a short conversation, and he'll be happy to reward you. Misbehaving, on the other hand, isn't met with anger, but disappointment. Try to escape, lash out, or fight, and you'll be put in a pair of soft padded cuffs. Normal prisoners would have to endure the bite of metal against their skin as they writhe in their restraints, but you deserve better, even when being punished. Subtler resistances are given subtler punishments: if you want to avoid him, as much as it pains him, he'll give you his space. But his private quarters aren't exactly large, and loneliness will creep in eventually, making you needy for any form of social interactions.

You'll love him eventually, and when you do, Wriothesley will be a good lover. A great one, even. It's only a matter of time.

[evalevaeva]

Hi! Do you write headcanons? If not than you can just write it as a fic or ignore it. It's ok 😊.

Ryu sio falls in love with a soft and sweet female reader who genuinely cares for him and wants to be his friend unlike Nam soon. He was at first skeptical about her and used to be rude towards her. But slowly he realised that reader is actually a sweet person and wasn't pretending to get close to him. So he starts to like her and tries to win her love.

Thank you 😊

Ryu Sio falling in love with someone sweet:

thank you anon! is this how i make a headcanon

- i think he'd definitely be a bit skeptical after everything that happened with namsoon

- he'd be the type to fall in love at first sight

- he'd walk into the office and you'd be walking into the office with a coffee in hand and he'd be absolutely smitten

- he'd tell himself that he was just being tricked again, but he'd find himself taking walks around the office to catch a glimpse of you

- he'd eventually give your team more benefits, and eventually, he'll begin talking to you

- sio would convince himself that he was just using you to get over namsoon

- would see you as a replacement and would switch moods really fast

- he'd probably think that all your kindness was a facade

- would try to push you to your limit, but somehow, you're too patient and thought he just needed to vent anger

- but he'd find himself waiting for your calls, waiting for your texts and waiting for you

- you'd probably be a bit confused at first, i mean, your boss is literally taking an interest in you

- eventually, he'd find small things about you that he likes

- he'd be in his fancy car, passing the alleyway to your house and he'd see you helping a grandma carry her groceries home, and he'd find himself smiling and giggling like a teenage girl

- he'd find you feeding the neighbourhood cat, and he'd ask you if you like them

- if you say yes, be prepared to get kittens as your christmas gift

- this man doesn't hold back when it comes to you

- whatever you want, is whatever you'll get. he doesn't care if you wanted a mansion, he'll get it.

- he would feel doubts once in a while, but then he'll see your text and he's all good again

- he's definitely a hugger

- would lean onto you (eventhough hes two heads taller than you)

- definitely a gift giver and is big on pda

- wouldn't want you to be in danger because you're in a relationship with him, but can't stop himself from holding your hand or clinging onto you

- I'd like to think he would try to convince you to just become his assistant because you're too sociable with everyone in the office

- would get jealous and be all clingy when you take too long to talk to your manager

- would get jealous when you go out for lunch with your coworkers and not him, even though you spend way more time with him

- you'd make a bento box for him to bring to lunch, and he'd be all smiley the whole day, and he'd take a lot of photos of it

- would have a whole album in his gallery of just photos of the both of you and would open it everytime he feels stressed

- he'd probably hide the whole pavel thing from you because he doesn't want you to worry or think he's a monster

- if you did find out, you'd probably be more worried about him than you already were

- if you were worried he was overworking himself, now you were worried for his life

- you'd make him text you every few hours to make sure he's alright and he'd feel guilty because you're worrying for him

- he'd make sure you know his every whereabout so you won't have to worry as much

[stormblessed95]

Can we now please skip over the "when you were free, you never called" thing, please?? That's already been discussed enough. Let's now please discuss JK's tone when he said "Finally". He sounded relieved... a bit melancholy... a bit of something something. This isn't talked enough :(

I genuinely want to know how some of you guys decide to send in asks and to whom. I know so many of you probably mass send them out in an effort to, idk, reach as many people as possible? Higher chances of getting posted?

Anon, this also isn't just you, you just drew the unlucky straw for my rant. Sorry. Your ask is also "almost" but not quite a copy/paste of the post I made not even a full day ago.

I specifically requested everyone to stop sending me asks about the car conversation because when I was no longer sick and my brain worked more coherently, I would put together a longer form post addressing it for everyone. And yet since then, I've gotten like 18 different asks referencing the car conversation. Half of them saying "yeah, can't we just let it go because XYZ opinions"

Okay great. I'm glad you agree with me I guess but you still aren't listening and honoring my request. So low-key, it still feels really rude. So now I have to sit here and hope that maybe my followers aren't actually rude and forget I am a whole person behind this account where making demands for content isn't super nice, especially when said content was already said to be coming, just later on. But instead they just.... Idk, don't actually read my posts and just send in asks without reading anything because why bother? Idk. Feeling entitled to my time without giving me yours through reading my opinions about a subject first feels less rude in some ways than just not giving a shit about what I say. Lol 🙃

And I KNOW I make a ton of posts, especially lately with AYS and trying to keep up with at least most of the asks I get, I've been much more active on here than I have been otherwise in the past year. So I often try to give the benefit of the doubt. But honestly.

Idk, maybe I'm just extra cranky because I feel like absolute dog shit, I'm sick, trying to take care of my family, get ready for back to school, get ready to start working, and take care of myself too... But it feels a little disrespectful and it doesn't make me want to actually make more posts or answer asks.

And all of this is a general you, not directed at anyone in particular. I'm just.... Venting. This is why I kept turning my anons off occasionally in the past...

Thanks

[ryuichirou]

Replies

A lot of replies! A bunch about a Florid Prison Warden AU comic from yesterday, a couple about other fandoms, one about antis, a bunch of shippy stuff (Falena/Leona, Lilia/Silver), some spicy stuff etc.

Anonymous asked:

Prison Warden au is back!

Yes!! After almost a year... I am amazed that so many people remember this AU. Thank you...

Anonymous asked:

How long can Floyd possibly hide Riddle in his cell? Also, how did he knock him out to begin with?

Riddle is currently far away from the prison, he was knocked out pretty much for the entirety of Floyd’s escape and has no idea where he is. He is technically in a cell right now... but in a different kind of cell.

Knocking him out wasn’t that difficult, Floyd just went ahead and squeezed him very tightly~ Until Goldfishie fell asleep...

Anonymous asked:

So what will they do to Riddle now?

Anonymous asked:

So Riddle got kidnapped after Floyd escape? Now I wonder what happened.

Well, for now Riddle will stay at an undisclosed location in the middle of nowhere in some dark room, and Floyd will have to take care of him. How the turns have tabled, eh? Now Goldfishie is the one being locked up <3 These two will have a lot of fun during Riddle’s stay! And Riddle is going to end up being traumatised for sure...

But they probably won’t be able to keep him there forever, so who knows what will happen next?

Anonymous asked:

You have made Sukufushi art before??? Omg why was I not aware of this

Hehe yes!! It was ages ago, but I used to draw these two a lot. We didn’t post the majority of my jjk sketches though because we didn’t really post very often back then + didn’t think anyone really wanted to see them, which was kind of true lol

Anonymous asked:

I'm the one who asked about Bobobo.  It's a very silly, nonsensical, random show.  An evil empire is trying to make everyone bald and a man fights them with his armpit and nose hair.  There's also a guy who fights with farts.  It's been awhile since I watched it but I think there were a few serious, dark moments, though most of it's a lead up to a joke.  I wondered if you and Katsu would like it cause the reason I watched Gintama was cause it reminded me of it and iirc you've Gintama

Oh god, so it’s this kind of show (in a good way)!

Dark and heavy moments that are a lead up to a joke is honestly one of my favourite ways to treat comedy+drama, this is why we love Gintama so much (and also Osomatsu-san and also South Park lol). Bobobo really does sound like it has this same vibe.

I don’t know if we’ll watch it anytime soon, but I’ll definitely keep it in mind. Thank you, Anon!

Anonymous asked:

Regarding the sneezing HCs, do you think Malleus will spit fire and roast everything in front of him when he sneezes? Bro has pretty bad control over his magic after all LMAO

YES. THIS IS SUCH A GOOD POINT AND I DIDN’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.

Hoo boy, just imagine Malleus feeling like he is about to sneeze and Lilia running from the other side of the dorm to grab his nose because he knows it never ends well.

Anonymous asked:

About the response talking about antis, yeah it's hard for me to look for fics and fanart because I'll often run into antis...

I feel like part of it might be that they don't look at who a game is for or what genre it is apart from RPG/visual novel/ect, I don't think they know what joseimuke is (and I'm a still lil confused on the target audience of those as well, but I think it's mainly women with a disposable income?) and they think the target audience's age = casts' age, so since the cast is teens, then it's for teens by their logic...even though shows like South Park exist and I ain't showing that to a young kid.

I'd like to give them the benefit of the doubt that they genuinely think they're helping people/doing good things/ect since a lot of them aren't adults, but I can't.  I just can't get that impression from them at all.  The "nicest" I can be towards them is that they're young and dumb and will hopefully grow out of it or they need therapy but can't get it for some reason and this a kind of cry for help

Let’s be honest: if they weren’t dicks about it, no one would even care. We all understand that people don’t like some things, and all of us don’t like certain categories of people in our own fandoms, this is just a human experience. Minding your own business is what matters, and this is what they can’t do.

The majority of them are young and dumb, and a lot of them will grow out of it (or switch their aggression elsewhere because they’ll lost interest in fandom stuff) though. Some won’t, but there always are immature people that are much older... this is where they’re coming from lol

Maybe some of them really do believe that they’re doing the right thing and genuinely don’t know better, but I think for a lot of them finding a convincing enough reason to shit on others is the entire point of fandom experience. So even knowing what joseimuke is won’t stop them, only them losing interest and moving away from these spaces will.

All we can do is shrug and wait... and block people left and right lol

Anonymous asked:

What kind of hentais does Idia read or know of? Does he play eroges? If so what kind?

I think Idia knows every single hentai there is, even if he hadn’t read/watched/played all of them. Alright, maybe not every single one, but quite a lot lol But at the same time, he strikes me as someone who would be into it art-wise and would legit watch porn for the plot. So his favourite eroges are the ones with engaging stories and good character writing... I guess asking for that from a hentai game is a tall order, but Idia would argue and rant about some of his favourite titles if he was told “it’s just porn”. It’s not just porn, it’s an entire experience, the buildup that makes the porn good!

I know a part of me wants to say that he would play “oniichan” kinds of games, but I think he would ironically stay away from those... it feels weird to him somehow... too embarrassing.

He also doesn’t mind really fucked up tropes and scenarios. He could look at a tentacle hypnosis scene or a scene where someone is pushing out an alien egg and say “heh classic”. Truly, the greatest enjoyer of art.

Anonymous asked:

Hello! So I’ve been wondering of all the TWST tops, who’s winning the girth-and-length off?

Personally it could go either for Jack, Rook or Sebek. the Octatrio kind of cheats tho? their merform could pull these off easily.

anyway very curious to hear your thoughts!

Anon, this is such a good answer and I agree with you, even though I did write a post about peen sizes at some point, and I had a bit of a different top3 lol

To us, the winner is Lilia both because we are very committed to this joke + apparently for bats dick-to-body proportions are insane, so I guess there is some meat (heh) to this joke after all.

The second one was Floyd, and I still think the Tweels are one of the hugest, but... Jack and Sebek are absolutely up there, and I think they’ll grow bigger and girthier. They’ll become the biggest ones in a year or two.

I agree that Rook is big, but I think Trey is longer than Rook while still being quite girthy.

I am also 100% sure Yana has a list for this that we will never see...

Anonymous asked:

Firstly, I’m new to your blog and I LOVE YOUR ART AND HCS SO MUCH! They’re beautiful and amazing and it’s incredible seeing a blog being so unabashedly problematic with no shame!

That aside, I’m not sure if you ever talked about him before, but what do you think about Falena. Specifically for Falena/Leona?

I’ve seen some works (all super incredible, of course) of Faleleo stuff in Leona’s perspective, so I was wondering how do you think Falena would be like in the situation he’s loving his little brother a bit too much? We all know Leona’s gonna be a tsun about it but what about niisan?

Anon! First of all, welcome and I hope you enjoy your stay. Second of all, thank you so much for appreciating our stuff and being supportive of our self-indulgent selves! lol

We love Falena/Leona in theory; we haven’t dived into them because we haven’t seen much of Falena + don’t care much for Leona. Still, we are 100% supportive of this ship! Every time we rewatch The Lion King, I get more and more into Mufasa/Scar...

Regarding your question, it’s interesting because I think the default really is to think that it’s Leona who is obsessive over Falena, and Falena might not even have a clue about it (or have a clue but still choose to be a proper future king instead of fooling around with Leona). But it’s entirely possible for him to also be very into Leona, it could even be more fun this way.

I feel like Falena has always been an adoring brother and Leona greatly underestimates just how much Falena loves him. Not only he worries about his future and cares about him (that’s a given), he also is genuinely impressed by his wit and intelligence; I wouldn’t be surprised if Falena talks about Leona all the time lol Maybe he gets as excited as Cheka sometimes, which is endearing at first, but then feels like Falena is um... a bit too much into him...

Falena also feels like someone who would rationalise his feeling by thinking that him being a king and having a wife and a son is one thing, but being with Leona is another thing, their private special thing that could actually still improve things for the entire Kingdom: if Leona is by his side and works together with him, they will be unstoppable. This is something that Falena wants the most... even if it’s just a way to justify his desire to have access to Leona (and his body) all the time. He needs to give Leona some attention, right? He wasn’t able to do it lately, right? This has to change.

I also wouldn’t be surprised if they had a bunch of “iffy” moments when they were younger. A sudden closeness during sparring, a hug that lasted longer than anticipated, a bite that was meant to be playfully teasing but ended up being too sensual and dominating. That tension existed for a very long time, and it only gets stronger with time.

Anonymous asked:

God... I am enraptured by Them. Completely obsessed with those first days Lilia started playing with Silver. You think he went slow with touches and inappropriate kisses, or just one day told him they're doing something new and put his whole dick inside him at once??? Silver couldn't have gotten so good at handling anything without trial and error... Have there been times Lilia overestimated him and left him overwhelmed and SOBBING sobbing, like he had to stop immediately or his kid wouldn't be the same person again kind of overwhelmed. Ughhhh I'm obsessed with them and their awful history

Anon, I am so happy you like these two this much. I feel like this awful history is such an obvious but tasty and amazingly working trope for them, it just works.

I guess it’s fair to say that Lilia went slow with his inappropriate behaviour, I honestly think that Silver didn’t even notice the switch, as if it was never there. He’s always been his father’s cute boy. Of course it’s just the way he remembers things... But he does remember the first time he had Lilia’s whole dick inside him!

But also yes, of course there had been a bunch of times when Lilia got too excited and overdid it with Silver. Even though Lilia did try to pace himself, I think he completely broke Silver all over like 10 times; and sometimes he is amazed that he turned out okay with what he went through. But he got better very fast! A miracle of true love <3

[pillarsalt]

My personal approach for situations like yours with your friend is to act very confused and unaware. Like acting shocked at his name, and then continuing to act super confused and horrified but in a way that makes you seem just out of the loop. That being said, that's kind of non confrontational, and I really respect you for having the difficult conversation.

Oh yes I've used the feigned ignorance technique before, especially with nonbinary women friends (and now I've just realized that over the years I've had more female friends who started to pretend they're not women than ones who haven't, that's fucking depressing lol.) Sometimes with the more empathetic individuals, they will genuinely consider what you're asking and you can actually see the wheels turning (I remember this happening with a college friend NB woman, someone else made a comparison between men identifying as women and rachel dolezal, she said "that seems wrong to me but... I can't really say why.") Unfortunately, trans activism has instilled an easy way to shed any doubt that creeps into the minds of its devotees: you can't think that because it's internalized transphobia, it's TERF rhetoric, that thought is bad and you need to give yourself 100 lashes and listen to transwomen instead. So it's very difficult to get someone who fully buys into this ideology to honestly and critically reflect on it. It's not impossible, but it's very difficult.

We'll see, I'm definitely going to question the name first and foremost, establish that I think it's weird as fuck if he deliberately wants everyone who learns his name to immediately associate him with blowjobs. That honestly gives me the most apprehension because I've never seen or heard him say anything porn-brained, and it makes me wonder how well I really know the kind of person he is, or how much the usual internet cesspools have melted his brain. But I want to give him the benefit of the doubt at least until I can ask him wtf he's thinking.

The book I'm halfway through has put the brakes on my guns a-blazin plan to say my piece all at once though. It's tough because I have the feeling I might only have one chance to relay my position, but just simply delivering a message is not an effective way to have someone hear and seriously consider your point of view. It may have to be more long-term and subtle, not pretending to be ignorant but asking questions that he'll have to really self-reflect on to answer honestly.

I'm hoping that I've proven myself to be someone who cares about her friends and wants the best for everyone, and that he'll see I'm not trying to attack him. If in the end we can say "we have a fundamental ideological disagreement but won't let it come between our camaraderie", that would be actually ideal to me. His nonbinary longterm girlfriend is a STAUNCH genderist though, so the diplomatic effort may all be for naught. I know you are all probably wondering why I'm so invested in this man; besides the fact he's my friend, he is the same age as and reminds me so much of my little brother, and I have this protective instinct about him. About all my friends really. Man it will really suck to lose them. This probably sounds dramatic but I've been thinking about doing my own private goodbye tour with each of them individually, like one last nice peaceful hangout sesh each before everything blows up.

Anyway I need to stop pacing in circles about this for now. Thanks for the nice ask anon <3

[mazzystar24]

One thing that I dont understand is why everyone quickly forgetting about Oliver's comments that he wants bucktommy to follow Tarlos history

Or Tim saying that he wants to write a romcom with this relationship

Also, Kenneth saying that Buck finally found love or JLH wants scenes with Tommy in the season 8

Like, I think there is a strong chance of Lou to be in season 8

Hi anon!

I’m assuming you’re asking why people aren’t more convinced of bucktommy endgame and are still shipping buddie, I’m taking this at face value with no malice behind it but I will say if your intention was to kinda discourage buddie shippers or whatever by asking this then that’s a bit impolite because I’ve been very vocal on my blog about not icking other people’s yums or put a damper on anyone’s enjoyment of a ship or fandom

Now assuming you meant this genuinely and giving you the benefit of the doubt-

About the tarlos thing I genuinely don’t think I saw that (if you can send it I’d actually wanna read it) but there was sm press around the bi buck canon ep that I think maybe it just slipped my memory if it was around that time, even saying that if he did say something about that that could still mean a lot of things, like Ive personally not watched lone star (except a few eps here and there) and only have a vague understanding of tarlos but it could be talking about wanting a dynamic similar or something like that

Like let’s not forget Oliver also spoke multiple times how his ideal for this storyline is for bucktommy to break up and remain friends and for tommy to still be this guide to buck as he goes through his self discovery

And Tim saying he wants the relationship to be a romcom can just mean what he also said about wanting buck off the hamster wheel and sort of wanting his queer arc to be lighthearted and fun, like the relationship being a romcom doesn’t necessarily mean endgame to me for me it just communicates tone, like he doesn’t want them to struggle or kinda be put through too much angst and he wants it all to be light and carefree and a good experience for buck, which even as a buddie shipper I genuinely agree with so much because every relationship with buck has ended very badly and he’s just constantly getting hurt and I feel like he needs to have a good relationship and he needs that end to be amicable and have that be a good and healthy dynamic

Again Tim also said multiple things about them being a brief relationship, called them a fling and to not expect wedding bells, etc

Kenneth is not a writer or part of the ship so his opinion is interesting to see but doesn’t really hold much bearing on whether I think buck and Tommy are endgame

I do agree that it seems like Lou/tommy will be in s8 and I actually wanna see how it unfolds and also I feel like with so many bigger storylines it makes sense to keep the relationship going until s8 when you can actually get to see their relationship and also if/when they break up give it the time it needs to have actually made this a relationship rather than like a two episode/ date arc, you know what I mean? (idk if I’m being clear with what I mean)

Thanks for the ask anon!

[themoodyestj]

something that tells you they love each other. well, there's this little video of Jenneel that i adore, is a very candid image that someone took without them realizing, is kind of rude to be honest, because they were on their own in a second floor somewhere and some fan recorded them by making a lot of zoom.

I wish I could show you, but I'm not abandoning the safety of being anonymous, so I will describe it to you. in the video they are sitting at a table and Jensen is with his face buried on Danneel's chest, she's holding him and resting her chin on his head and talking to him with a very sweet expression. I mean, I wish I had someone to bury myself in and feel safe, if that's not love, I don't know what is.

I know the video you are talking about. I saw it, don't know where to find it, otherwise i would show it. I honestly don't read it as sweet, but I don't see her as her lately hateful self either.

Look Anon... I really want to see your point, I really do, but it's one good moment amongst many many crappy ones. We can't cherry pick what we like and leave the rest behind. There's a whole picture here. And for me it didn't read as Jensen leaning on her chest and feeling safe. It felt more like Jensen feeling stressed and asking for help. And he doesn't stay there for long, he immediatly pulls back and starts talking to someone (I thought it was Jim Beaver). I accept your POV. It's fine, youre free to think what you want to think. I just can't take it as mine. Even if Danneel was genuinely good before (which i doubt), she isn't now. Maybe she was just as naive and she entered the relationship with different expectations and turned bitter now. That's not something I'm inclined to believe, but I give it the benefit of the doubt. Maybe Jensen has some part in this game. But that is not love. Maybe the ideation of love, a Hallmark Hollywoodized version of love, but not love. I honestly have to tell you, abusers are not always mean. If they were, they wouldn't be able to get victims, or make them stay. They are known for love bombing first, for example, notorious for that even. No one will make you feel as important and relevant at first like an abuser. People are wicked in villanous ways, in distorted ways, ways that sound like love or justified by love, but it's only... their issues projected on a human punching bag. I'm pretty sure somewhere in that shitshow Jensen thought Danneel was loving and genuinely a good person. Otherwise he would have disengaged quickly. I hope that you find true true love (if you haven't already). But that ain't it.

[multiplicity-positivity]

Hey! Staying on anon because I'm anxious, but god I REALLY need some help.

Do you have any advice on unmasking, especially for systems that tend to fall back on heavy masking at the drop of a pin whenever things get too stressful?

We've known about being a system for nearly 3 years now, and despite it and many other symptoms/experiences that make it obvious we are, I (host) still have so much doubt and imposter syndrome about it because of just how heavily we mask.

We've never been able to get beyond just seeing an outline of things in-headspace due to poor visualization (I'm not sure if it's due to a form of aphantasia or something else), and whenever things are hard we can barely hear or feel each other. It makes it so difficult to know which is real or fake, and the more doubt I see from those I'm close to that used to identify as systems, the more terrified I am of faking it myself.

We can't even remember to talk to each other in Simply Plural or in our system server because our mind completely blocks out all of the reminders we set up.

Please please help if you can, this is genuinely getting very difficult and painful, and I'm not sure what to do. I've hardly found any posts or advice for unmasking. (Please give traumagenic-centered advice!)

Hello. A few parts started working together on a response to your ask, and it kept getting longer and longer, so we eventually made this post on unmasking instead:

Additionally, we will share this post on dealing with denial, as it sounds like denial, imposter syndrome, and fear of faking have been making life in your system challenging:

Ah, and we may encourage your system to try and avoid being harsh with yourselves for forgetting, struggling to communicate, or reverting back to masking. Rather, you may benefit from focusing on communicating and building relationships whenever you do remember. Positive reinforcement often yields better results than punishment, especially over something so morally neutral as forgetting. If you have a dissociative disorder, there very well could be barriers in place that are preventing you from achieving the results you desire.

It is quite difficult and may end up dangerous to attempt healing from trauma alone, without any help or guidance from a medical professional. If your system has the means, access, and comfortability, it may be for the best to seek our a kind, trauma-informed therapist to help you with this challenging process. Regardless, we do hope our posts will provide some insight for you and help you through this difficult time. We are sending you all our best regards as you proceed with this journey.

[eliounora]

anti/pro ship discourse is extremely annoying and I would honestly recommend trying not to get involved on either side, but I just wanted to say that I think the prev ask was pretty disingenuous. There are many problems with chronically online ppl who identify strongly with "anti-shipping", (the main one being that, as you say, these are nuanced issues and intent/context need to be taken account), but to describe them as being "anti ship just for the sake of it" is pretty.... suspicious, let's just say.

that's just my two cents and all I'm going to say on the matter, I don't want to use your inbox as a battling ground with that other anon. And obviously you should be free to draw your own conclusions on all of this. But frankly I would just recommend keeping out of it altogether. People who use the labels "anti" or "Pro shipper" as unironic and uncritical character traits need to go outside, touch grass etc.

YEAH to be fair the previous ask did sound like ao3 paid them write it (sorry to that anon) but I decided to give the benefit of the doubt and use the response to give my own opinion, haha!

I agree with you 100%, I think "anti-shippers" definitely talk about genuine issues that occur in fandom spaces. the way of going about those issues through the divide of "anti-" and "pro-shipping" seems to be quite misleading though. as said, I think shipping in general doesn't have moral value to it, but how you engage with other people and surroundings does. issues like racism, grooming etc. in fandom should be discussed, but sort of centralising them around shipping and fanfic and being strongly for or against either one doesn't seem to me the most constructive way of going about it, which is why I'm also not too interested in becoming tangled in this discourse. I hope you get what I mean!

[thevtuberconfessional]

Oh I get you, I try to keep away from Nijisanji as much as possible as well. The only streamers I actively watch are Zali and occasionally Sonny (if there's anything bad about them, pls lmk 😭)

But about Kyrio, I really didn't know anything about him so I went in without any prejudices and still immediately picked up on his manipulative behavior.

In one of his first streams he went on a long rant about how there are so many people that keep away from him without ever having talked to him before. He painted it as everyone was wrong and he's so misunderstood and ofc his chat ate it up. But to me this whole rant was just so strange because... sure, there are exceptions, but everyone knows that you can easily manipulate the narrative in a private conversation and that it's better to listen to the majority than to go the "but he was nice to ME" route.

He also often went into long monologues on how much he missed and loves his chat. At first I was like mmm well it's a bit excessive, but pretty much every cc says that nowadays. But since then, it has become just extreme. There is absolutely NO reason for any cc to remember viewers names, not simply usernames but actually preferred NICKNAMES, and single them out and SPECIFICALLY tell that one individual that "I care! I love you! I think you're beautiful! And I am here for you!!" NO. NEVER EVERRR. That's so fucking unhealthy. Luckily I am an adult with friends and family and the ccs I usually watch all set healthy boundaries so I know very well what line is strange to cross. But for anyone in a bad mental state and more vulnerable position, this is so incredibly dangerous. The way whenever new chatters come in he specifically singles them out and asks personal questions and wants to know more. Having nicknames with regular viewers. Saying "don't trauma dump" but every time someone says they have a hard time, he spends minutes telling them that he cares and is here for them. It's sick.

Also, this is a bit more petty, but why tf does he act like he goes through hardship just because he has a deep voice. Like even for men, men with deeper voice have it easier in life. There are so many ccs I can name on top of my head that went viral or popped off PURELY because they have a deep voice, there is a reason so many amab streamers purposely lower their voice when they get started. Sorry Iris but he mentions this so often, it pisses me off every time 😂 YOU'RE LIVING LIFE IN EASY MODE, JUST APPRECIATE IT DUDE 😭😭😂

Hey, no problem. No need to apologize, this is a confession blog-- this blog is BUILT for this stuff! But anyway, yeah. Reading through this ask was the first time I got fully acquainted with the Kyrio drama and WOW, this was a lot worse than I thought. It's really not right. It just feels...scummy. To be honest, this feels like some big issues on his part--I'm not sure if he's doing this on purpose or not, but regardless, he's reaching ALL NEW levels of parasocial. Literally-- I've been in a lot of streamer Fandoms, and this is genuinely insane. I really hope he calms down soon somehow, because this is getting concerning.

Also, yeah, I totally get the last one--while you can mention disliking having a cheap voice a few times [I completely understand having insecurities about your voice and sometimes having genuine difficulty with them], after mentioning it so many times it definitely sounds like attention seeking/fishing for compliments. I try to give the benefit of the doubt in that aspect, usually, but let's be honest, it's getting weird...

Again, no prob, Anon. I like reading your thoughts! Have a good rest of your day or night ~ .

~ Mod Iris

[mari-lair]

Hello sorry to bother you. I would like to ask if we can get more information about Hanako and Kou's relationship in your Phantom Thieves Au? It's one of my favorites to read in your writings. It's okay if you don't want to reply, I hope you have a nice day!

Thank you, Anon! It is no bother, don't worry, I was just saving your ask for when I inevitably got in a hanakou mood. (they are my fav tbhk ship outside my awful trio, so I get hanakou brainrot at random.)

Thief Hanako is kind of an asshole, he can be cold and careless to most people, mostly focusing on himself and having difficulty getting attached. Is more common for him to approach someone because he wants to use them than because he is curious or intrigued. The reason he first looks at Kou is because of his status as a Minamoto, he wants to make him spill some secrets about their treasures and how their security works: He acts friendly, mischievous, and nice to get Kou's trust.

He learns quickly Kou is easy to manipulate and far too trusting, but he is no pushover, his reflexes extremely good, and his persistence to follow Hanako on rooftops and narrow alleys even after being led to traps and dead ends is intriguing. His ‘value’ decresses after Hanako learn Kou doesn't have any valuable information, so he starts visiting the cop less. Usually, he would have discarded Kou, but he find him funny, so he visits him when he is bored and mess with him.

He only gets a tiny crush when Kou fights with Teru for him, believing there is good in Hanako and that he deserves the benefit of the doubt. Kou bleeds for this belief, reducing Hanako’s sentence from 47 years to 2 years.

Kou visits him and checks on him while he is locked up. Hanako takes two weeks to decide to escape, stealing from Kou and running off, mocking him for being such a foolish guard.

Hanako knows how to flirt but not how to be vulnerable, and his moral compass is a bit… odd.. after more than a decade of stealing and living in apathy. So he constantly flirts and gets touchy but makes fun of Kou on the off chance Kou believes in his word, now even when Kou gets flustered he just assumes Hanako's flirting is an act, a mockery to mess up with him.

Hanako steals a lot from Kou, depending on his mood the thief either has a crisis about what was stolen that ends with him getting emo about life (Such as Kous cop cap. A grocery list that is far too…personal… compared to all the things he steals. A homemade sandwich. ) or a sense of giggly shame, something Hanako will treasure and never talk about it  (Such as a picture of Kou at his training graduation that he keeps hidden with his money.) and in the off chance he steal something that is dear to Kou, he will, sneakily give it back.

Kou genuinely does not know how Hanako feels about him because the thief switches his attitude too much. One moment he is flirting and helping Kou, offering hints about any criminal Kou wants to catch, and “gifting” him stolen jewelry, the next he acts condescending and calls Kou a failure, the worst cop in the city, because a part of Hanako does hate him and how much he can hurt him: He hates getting conflicts of ‘not being a good person, not being good for Kou’ when he is used to not care about his lifestyle, he hates trusting Kou and being disappointed more than anything.

Hanako feeds into Kou’s “I am incompetent and no one needs me” insecurity a lot, especially after Kou starts caring about his opinion and craving his respect. But they are able to have peaceful conversations surprisingly frequently, there is a strange connection between them that makes it so Kou isn't taken aback when Hanako saves him from danger or shows worry about his well-being.

Hanako breaks into Kou’s bedroom sometimes. Usually Kou is asleep, so he just stares at him a little bit and steals something before going out, but when Kou is wide awake they chat. They once stayed until 4 am playing card games and avoiding the insecurities that come deep in the night.

Hanako and Kou are not dating, they remain oblivious to each other’s crush. The topic of love or dates is rarely touched at all.

There is a strange tension between them when Hanako attempts to run from his feelings with an elaborate heist and ends up with people injured. Hanako doesn’t care about scaring strangers but it does make Kou sad and frustrated, which he cares about.

On the few times Kou does catches him and drags him to prison is either tense or playful. When Kou is the one to catches him is not that bad, Hanako is oddly proud, even flustered. But with time Hanako is no longer able to trick Kou, so he is forced to stay in his cell for a while after being caught. Could be months. He is ironically Kou's biggest teacher and what made him better at his job.

Kou visits his cell regularly, sometimes they play cards. They never kissed. They never talk about their feelings. And they want the others to admire them, so they rarely talk about their fears. Is a strange bond.

Extra info:

Hanako is 22 years old and Kou is 24 in this AU but he still calls Kou 'Kid'. 

Hanako wears heels but he is still on the shorter side, shorter than Kou at least.

Akane is the only one who knows Hanako has a crush, when he mentions it to Teru, the police chief starts hating Hanako more.

Hanako is rich, very respected, feared, and hated in the criminal business. He actually tried to buy an honest gift for Kou once, but Kou did not believe him, having fallen for the "oh no, this one isn’t stolen! I brought it just for you, you'll break my heart if you refuse it~" talk with items that are in fact stolen far too many times. 

Kou is one of the very very few people that knows Hanako birth name is Amane. He does not tell this to his brother.

[comikadraws]

Anon from yesterday. I have nothing else to say? I'm not sure what you're waiting for I'm just going to steer clear of you and theheirofthesharingan. Because again the word prick just completely put me off. Slurs don't need to be used anywhere on a spectrum when topics of plagiarism are being discussed. And theheirofthesharingan tagging that ask with rude anon just because someone called them out for being rude is immature. They act so self righteous when anyone tries to discuss anything with either of you it's pathetic.

If you want to discuss copyright go for it you don't need my ask for that...? I won't return.

Ah, so you are not and never were interested in copyright, I see. Well then. This obviously seems to be a personal problem you have so let's also get the personal critique started.

I am genuinely curious why you seem so upset about my calling a hypothetical person "a prick" or "entitled". Especially since you only show up to defend one hypothetical wrongdoer (ie. the accuser) but not the other (ie. the accused).

Don't get me wrong. I can work with the criticism that insults have no place in a copyright discussion. That's fair criticism. But looking at everything you've done so far, it doesn't seem like you are taking issue with the word itself but rather with me expressing doubts over who might be in the wrong (because, unlike you, I suggested that "it is impossible to say" without context).

To be frank, I think you might be moving the goalpost here, actually. This was a pretty huge shift in focus from your previous ask just now.

You know what is putting me off?

Generally speaking, you are very quick to choose sides in this particular debate and you act as though I personally offended you. This leads me to believe that you are either the original anon or a friend of theirs. You are acting like you already know whether the original anon was a legitimate victim of plagiarism or not. That's a conclusion you can only make with necessary context (unless you consider yourself to be the ultimate authority over who is right or wrong, capable of unleashing judgment prior to trial - which, in your case, would make you a hypocrite). That would mean this entire discussion is unfair in nature, as is your lashing out against me.

I should probably also mention that I have already tried to be lenient with you (making concessions here, attempting mediation in comments there, giving the benefit of the doubt afterward, maintaining a professional word register outside of tags, and refraining from criticizing you as a person until now). Meanwhile, all you've been doing so far is making baseless, bad-faith accusations and personal attacks with just very few valid points in between.

Are you sure that I am the self-righteous one here?

[dnpbeats]

capitalism, socialism etc are all ideologies, yk that right? it's about what someone believes should be the order of society. their social standing/financial situation has absolutely nothing to do with it. it's the people who have sm privilege like him that should be more vocal about their beliefs actually. what do you think is the point of activism then? do you have to be on the level of the people are advocating for, have the same struggles??? like what. YOU DON'T. THAT'S THE POINT

hi. im not sure why youre sending this almost a week after i made that post and deleted it because i feel like i made it clear this is not a discussion im going to be furthering in public on my blog. i already apologized for wording it poorly and for the timing of it. that’s why i deleted it. i would be happy to talk about it more, if u genuinely want to have that discussion in good faith, in private but it is not something im going to go back and forth about with anons. but i wanted to answer this bc I just want you to consider im an actual human being with feelings and it’s kind of shitty to come on here and receive what comes across as a disparaging message about a post that was personal opinion (which as a side note, i didnt say dan couldn’t criticize capitalism or voice his beliefs. that’s not what my opinion was). i shared my opinion on my blog, i didn’t even put it in the main tags. you are allowed to disagree with it. I posted it publicly so im not gonna sit here and cry and say people can’t respond to it. you’re allowed to. but im just asking you to be respectful. sorry I fucked up. im gonna have takes that are bad, that doesn’t mean u have to send condescending messages to me. im gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that you were just mad and shooting off an ask and not thinking about how it might feel for me to receive it. but im just asking you to extend that same attitude towards me. we all say things without thinking how they come across

[lords-of-mayhem]

Hey there! Previous anon again lol sorry. Thanks for the advice from before! I really didn’t have specific questions in mind I wanted to ask, but now that it’s on my mind since he is a central character/lead the fanfic, tips on writing Euro? Maybe Ann too?

Sorry for taking so long to answer this! I ended up doing a more comprehensive answer than I initially expected. Also, sorry for not including Ann in this ask. I don't really write her currently, so I didn't have much to say. Here's my tips for writing LOC!Euro.

Keep in mind, these are just my personal interpretations and how I write him. Yours may be completely different. it's just important to find something that works for you.

Also keep in mind this is specifically about the LOC version rather than an irl version.

If there's another specific character anyone would like a list of, please let me know! I originally planned to make this a list of every character.

So, here's my full list of tips and tricks to how to write Euro just like Tumblr user lords-of-mayhem

Major emotion: Conflicted

Conflict is a major emotion that I play off of when it comes to Euro. This comes both internally and externally. He's a character who wants to set himself apart, but also wants to fit into the group. He needs to be seen as a leader and wants to be one, but often doesn't have the tools needed to be one. He also often prioritizes how he's seen in general over how he's seen by those closest to him.

Example: Leading Mayhem on technical ability, but not being great with the emotional aspect. Particularly choosing to use Pelle's death for attention whereas Necro needed him to be more respectful of it. Subsequently, the conflict forcing him to kick Necro out, securing his place as "leader" over "friend."

Euro also deals a lot with external conflict. Varg is the most obvious example, but he also clashes with plenty of other characters especially Necrobutcher.

Euro is a character that often gets defensive when he feels his actions or his intentions are being called into question. He also tends to shut himself off rather than explaining which causes further issues. He tends to be a person that believes, "you should give me the benefit of the doubt" and that it should be enough to clear up any doubts or concerns.

He shuts himself off completely when this happens. He finds it easier to shut someone out and lash out at them rather than allowing himself to feel hurt or to try explaining his feelings/point of view.

Example: Him very specifically going blank faced when Necro calls him out for the necklaces and pictures, kicking Necro out and then acting unaffected when he tells Hellhammer "he's not coming back."

Major traits: Arrogant, intelligent, judgmental, goal-oriented, focused, spiteful.

Major downfall: Bad communicator and poor emotional recognition

A lot of Euro's problems in the film come from not being able to communicate as well as he needs to. There's a lot of things he should say or do that he either doesn't realize or outright cannot say/do. He also tends to show emotions in ways that are not easily recognized and communicates in ways that don't hold the same levity as he needed. Whether he realizes this or not is totally up to interpretation.

Example: Asking Pelle "how are you" in the diner after the show. The words are dismissive and don't seem invested, whether he intends for them to be genuine or not is unclear. It could be that he does actually care and just struggles to show it. He also doesn't ask follow-up questions after Pelle just shakes his head. A charitable interpretation is that he trusts Pelle to open up to him and tell him if something genuinely is wrong. A non-charitable one is that he doesn't care to ask anything further.

General tone of voice and speech:

A lot of Euro's talking is dismissive and evasive. If a question or situation is uncomfortable for him to answer genuinely, he tends to redirect or flat out ignore it. He has a difficult time outright saying something he finds overwhelming or uncomfortable.

Example: Saying "Pelle's gone home" instead of outright saying Pelle had died. Then very casually saying, "no he blew his head off" when asked to clarify.

Example two: When asked "what do you mean it's him" by Necro, he responds "it's him, Dead" refusing to elaborate and letting the dots be connected by Necro instead.

Example three: Necro saying it's wrong and "he was our friend and now he's dead." Euro clearly struggles to accept this, expression staying blank as he says "I don't have any friends." Necro attempts to have a genuine conversation about their collective loss, but Euro may find it easier to put his defenses up and dismiss the idea of being affected. This comes across as uncaring due to the way it's said, but it's not recognized as a defense mechanism in the moment and Euro can't communicate that it is one, though it's unclear if he knows it himself.

He tends to speak sarcastically and without too much seriousness when it comes to topics he doesn't want to address. This could point to him having a hard time being genuine with his feelings, choosing to use a common coping mechanism of refusing to be too serious and thus too vulnerable.

Other facts about his voice and manner of speaking:

Euro is very monotone a lot and relies on dry humor. He's a funny character, but his humor tends to be darker and harder to pick up on at times. This may lead other characters to take him seriously when he doesn't mean for them to. This can lead to further confusion if he also believes they're joking, but they're not.

Example of this manner of speaking: Intro monologue, "grey, boring, and very high suicide rate."

Example two: Intro of him telling Necro "cut him" in a deadly serious tone and handing him a knife before falling to the floor laughing.

Major struggle: The way he is perceived by others

Euro is a character who is deeply insecure, although he may mask it well at times. A lot of him revolves around not caring what others think, but appearances are very important to him. He wants and needs to be seen a certain way, although he will act like he doesn't care if he is. He's a very good example of a character who doesn't care what people think just as long as they're thinking of him in a certain way. He may view it as "not caring what they think" because the way he wants to be perceived isn't the normal way people do and thus, he may feel it "doesn't count as caring."

This may cause further conflict for him because he puts up a defensive barrier around himself. He wants to be seen a certain way, but he doesn't actually feel he IS that way. So when people close to him genuinely view him like that, he's hurt or bothered by it.

Example: Euro saying "people are supposed to think we're fucked in the head" and Necro replying "well, you fucking are."

Prevalent issue: desire to put himself first.

Being self-serving is a large part of Euro's character. Throughout the movie, he tends to look at how a situation can benefit him. He tends to look at the paths and options that will best suit his needs and his desires, even if it isn't for the good of the group. He also tends to view his needs/desires/opinions as the ones that matter most or the only ones that matter.

Example: "You do as I say or you're out of my band."

Example two: Encouraging and/or enabling Pelle's on stage self-harm because it made for a good show.

Example three: Using Pelle's suicide to boost the band's image, even though it's actively and clearly hurting Necro.

Example four: "He had some really bad ideas, but with a little help from me, the end result was true metal."

Example five: (About Varg's song) "I changed it...Because it's better with black."

Example six: Taking credit for Varg's church burning, part one. "He did it. I said we needed promotion and he did it, and I told him to do it. I told him to do it."

Example seven: Taking credit for Varg's church burning, part two. "We've been talking about it for years, I'm glad you got inspired. We finally did it."

Overlooked major conflict point with Varg: the same things being met with different reactions

A major conflict between Varg and Euro is Varg feeling like they're the same person in many ways, yet they're met with very different reactions. Depending on the interpretation, they may be the same person in these ways or there may be differences Varg misses.

Euro and Varg echo a lot of the same sentiments. However, they're received in very different ways. This could be hypocrisy from the group or it could simply be that Euro is more well-liked, so his opinions come across better and are received more charitably. Varg may often see it as a personal slight, an attack on him, whereas it could just be that Euro is better at getting his point across. Euro is confident and sure of himself in a way Varg isn't. Euro is also well-established in the group whereas Varg is new and obviously fighting for his seat at the table.

Example: Euro saying he was sick of all the life bands that just wanted to party and the crowd responding well to it versus Varg saying he was sick of all the posers who just wanted to drink beer and have fun and the crowd staring blankly/Euro laughing. Euro says his speech casually and while everyone is riled up from a show. Varg says his in a way that can be interpreted as very desperate for acceptance.

Possible mental illness diagnosis: Post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)

PTSD seems to be a very obvious diagnosis for him, particularly from the death of Pelle and being the one to find his body.

We see him having flashbacks to Pelle, including one where he spaces out on the phone and cries looking at Pelle's photograph.

We see him have multiple flashbacks throughout the movie and "nightmares" surrounding him.

We also see Euro memorialize Pelle in incredibly graphic and triggering ways such as keeping his picture in his office and the skull necklaces.

It's not difficult to imagine he has PTSD from this incident and this is made only worse by not seeing a professional about this. He's also surrounded by people who feed into this issue, either not seeing it as a problem or seeing it as an issue and being pushed away because it's addressed in a way that isn't easy to deal with.

Example: Hellhammer laughing at the necklaces and cannibalism suggestion whereas Necro calling Euro sick/fucked in the head and being kicked from the band.

Major problem: Yes men

Euro tends to surround himself with yes men, people who agree with him at every stop. This is damaging because it keeps him from being aware of his own flaws. Like with Necro, he tends to push away people who don't agree with him. He isn't self-aware of it, but it is pointed out clearly in the movie. He tends to get very comfortable in his position, failing to realize how bad things truly are or can become. This comes from his own arrogance which is then reinforced by the people around him.

Example: "I was building my own empire. Everything that happened made me immune to reality. I had no more limitations. I could do whatever the fuck I wanted. Nothing could stop me."

Euro loves building community (the black circle), but he looks to this community to be supportive even when they should not be.

Reaction to confrontation: deflection.

Euro doesn't tend to react to conflict or confrontation directly. Instead, he changes what the problem is about or shuts it down completely.

Example of shutting conflict down: Telling Necro he's out of the band instead of having a conversation.

Example of deflecting: Putting the blame on Varg when Varg is first in his record shop. "Why do you sell this shit? I thought this place was true metal. Where is it then (unique music)?" and Euro putting the blame on Varg. "I have shit no one else does, just not for posers. If you know it, you'll find it."

Euro doesn't answer the questions themselves, instead assuring he does have it and if Varg thinks he doesn't then it's an issue with him instead. Like this, Euro can't be seen as the one "losing" this issue. Either Varg finds things he considers true metal and it proves that Euro was right or he doesn't find it and Euro can dismiss it as Varg simply being a poser.

How he interacts: methodically, but short-sighted.

A lot of Euro's reactions and interactions stem from how he's perceived and his own insecurities. To best demonstrate this, I think it's good to write from his perspective. He has a lot of internal dialogue and tends to go with whatever will help most in the moment rather than long-term. His reactions tend to be impulsive and he tends to do whatever he needs to in order to get what he wants in the moment.

Things he dislikes but needs: conflict and accountability.

Euro doesn't enjoy being confronted by someone, especially when they refuse to let go of the topic at hand. He can do a lot of things he needs to take responsibility for, but often needs someone else to force him to. If your story focuses on growth, I'd recommend considering having an outside person forcing Euro into that change. His growth rarely comes without an external factor forcing it.

He also benefits from having someone instinctively recognize his thoughts and feelings rather than opening up about them. This makes him a good match for a counterpart who is observant and can read him easily.

Words he struggles with and how he says them instead: "I'm sorry" / "I was wrong."

Euro is a very proud character who can't handle being wrong or messing up. He has a difficult time saying this outright. Instead, he opts to fixing the situation and hoping the person recognizes what he's trying to say.

Side notes:

Euro tends to get uncomfortable very easily. Some good ways to show this include going quiet and looking around instead of at the person/thing causing that feeling.

Euro is very dedicated to things he cares about. This is evident with how much he cares about his vision for the band and also getting a pet bird which is a very long-term and very high-maintenance pet.

Euro is very prone to jealousy and will tend to either shut down or lash out because of it.

Euro is bad at recognizing other people's emotions, but he's also very bad at recognizing his own. This could be caused by his own repression and fear of feeling/being vulnerable.

Euro can be highly manipulative, whether this is on purpose or not depends on the situation and the interpretation of it. It's entirely possible he doesn't recognize this trait in himself or that he justifies it by saying his own needs are worth manipulating someone to get them. He can justify hurting or using someone easily by saying it will be worth it.

Euro uses a lot of body language and especially facial expressions to convey his point. At times, his body language and facial expressions may even betray what he's saying. He may say one thing, but it's obvious he means another and he can't help it. Big examples: eye rolling, scoffing, leaning away/towards someone, staring someone down, expression dropping quickly into a blank one.

Euro tends to view criticism of his actions as an attack on him as a whole. He can't separate himself from some of his actions. (Example: someone saying "this thing you did was bad" and him hearing it as "you are a bad person.") This black and white thinking extends to other people too. He has a hard time seeing someone's flaws and not letting it paint them as an entirely bad person in his mind.

Euro has a difficult time letting go of the past. A fun thing to explore may be him imagining scenarios where he did something different and how things might have turned out for him that way.

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but that's what i meant about how i feel like i can only write things if they end up either black or white. either he quits or they break up- there is no inbetween. there is no room to give people grace or the benefit of the doubt- bc then that's unrealistic.

The story isn’t bad at all, which is why the ending felt frustrating to some people. The story was so good! Chapter 2 ended in such a devastating way but then, like you yourself said, chapter 3 just felt a bit rushed? You say Joels POV was supposed to explain that the reader didn’t have to worry about anything but Joel being like “I was thinking of her and that’s why I called the other woman sweet girl” just felt like cop out. Like, oh he was thinking about her so it’s all good! And then the reader was literally packing her bags after Joel was being an asshole again with her uncle and then they have a quick convo, they fuck and then it’s over.

And there is room to give people grace, it doesn’t have to be black and white or whatever. But why is it unrealistic for Joel to quit his job but not unrealistic for the reader to quit her job and be totally fine with her boyfriend having regular sex with other people. That what I was trying to point out. Realistically, most people wouldn’t be fine with that. (I know there are people that would be but everything from the first 2 chapters feel like the reader wouldn’t be okay with it in the long run)

Nobody wanted to see them break up at the end, there’s so many things in between that could’ve happened to make the ending different. The scene with her uncle and Joel being an ass again felt really off. Their talk was so quick that nothing really felt genuine. Reader could’ve said she’s unsure about his job and he could’ve said “we’ll figure it out” and it would’ve completely changed the ending, without anything being black and white.

I think you’re an amazing writer, you’re brilliant! I was absolutely obsessed with that story when you first posted it and I absolutely loved reading Joel’s brat summer the last few weeks. And I’m so sorry you’ve felt so much anxiety over this story and I’m sorry that I’m probably making it worse with this ask. This isn’t meant in a rude or negative way. I don’t know if you’re unhappy with the story because of the feedback you got or because you did feel like it was rushed in the end.

I just wanna say there’s so many things you can do and write that don’t have to make things black and white. Just don’t get too deep into realism and wanting things to be realistic. Of course the characters feelings and behaviour should be realistic but so often writers get completely lost in the “it should be realistic” thing.

I’m not gonna bother you again after this and I promise I won’t send any ask about the ending of brat lol

I just do wanna say that I love your writing and criticism isn’t always a mean or rude thing. In the end, do whatever you want to do, not what realistically should or could happen.

i don't really know where to begin with this. this anon won't see this because i have blocked them, but i still wanted to respond to this ask either way.

it is completely okay to not like how something is written. and i am not a stranger to constructive criticism, i have gotten my fair share of it in uni, and i've also given it. but there is a correct way to do it, and it shouldn't be given if it's not being asked for. coming into someone elses inbox to tell them how you think their story should have ended, is not okay. i am a regular person. i am not some professional writer, i don't consider myself a writer, and i don't want to be either.

this was my story and i told it the way i wanted to tell it. i was only unhappy with it because of the negative feedback i have gotten about it since it was posted. i used to be very proud of what i'd written, but people like this has ruined that fic and writing for me. i feel belittled and misunderstood, and like this person is out to get me in some way by putting words in my mouth. their version of what the reader-character was okay with and not, does not match what i think and developed for her as the character. i speak from the characters point of view, and anon is speaking from their own point of view with their own biases. in the asks i answered yesterday it was a mistake by me to talk about realism because to talk about what is realistic and not is redundant, because what is realistic to this person is unrealistic to me and vice versa. what i probably should've said was that i try to write characters who have flaws, and doesn't always react in the "correct" way every time, doesn't tell the story truthfully, and misunderstands situations and people's intentions. this is what i think is real. i will always be more driven by character moments and their inner thoughts than what is "happening" in the story.

to end all of this by apologizing to me and tell me how great i am feels so extremely disingenuous and belittling.

"In the end, do whatever you want to do, not what realistically should or could happen." "as long as you’re really truly 100% happy with the ending of brat, nothing else matters! [...] But if you’re truly happy with it, then it’s all good!"

i did do what i wanted to do, but then it wasn't good enough beacuse i was both too unrealistic, and too realistic at the same time. why am i expected to put my time, energy and soul into something for me to then get criticised on it in one sentence and then get told to not let it get to me in the other. by sending an ask like this, acknowledging that they're making my anxiety worse, they know 100% what they're doing.