#i wanna like. process and post about this stuff more

[rayleeschobel]

A couple big project plans for 2025!

Hey everyone! 2025 is just around the corner (terrifying) and I have a couple big projects I wanna talk about!

2025 Stamp Project

First off is what's going to be a year-long project highlighting different extinct bird species. Each month I'll be making a limited edition reduction relief print using a postage stamp format to showcase a different species that has gone extinct in modernity. This was directly inspired by my most recent print of a common loon stamp that was an absolute joy to make. I feel like using the composition of a postage stamp will also be super neat for including more information on the print itself, such as the name of the species, the country/locale it used to reside, and the year it went extinct. The prints themselves will be exclusively available at in-person shows and... my new Patreon! (deets below!)

The loon stamp that inspired this project ↓↓↓

Launching a Patreon!

This might be bigger news than the stamp project, but I'll be launching a Patreon in January! I'm planning to have 5 different tier options, 3 of which will include physical rewards sent to subscribers. The physical rewards will include monthly exclusive stickers, fabric patches with hand-printed designs, and of course the monthly stamp print. I'll also be posting a lot of digital stuff there as well- such as a monthly deep-dive into a different bird species, process posts about different prints, and whatever else I feel like yapping about. More info coming soon!

[holymolyfizzie]

i don't wanna derail @kityana's post about stolas's pill popping, so i'm making a separate one. but something kityana said finally made me think about something: "i'm still not sure if those pills are actually helping him or if they were just given to him to numb him to how shitty his life is"

I've wondered something related to this a lot myself. but Stolas takes his antidepressants with alcohol (and in the aftermath of alcohol, like at the end of The Circus), which is a depressant. taking antidepressants + alcohol at best just cancels out your antidepressants so they don't actually do anything. but both at once, at worst, makes your depression symptoms a lot worse. taking them together is the sort of stuff that college girls get yelled at for, but i guess no one told stolas. i wouldn't be surprised if he's been popping them like candy and upping his dosage because he was told they would help him…and then they don't because of the rampant alcoholism. which is to say that we don't know if the meds even worked for him at all (i'd argue strongly they didn't, considering his alcoholism only ever got worse and he kept taking more and more pills, like they never worked enough) or if they were a placebo while he was taking them

and this might be a bit too nuanced for such a show, but as someone who has suddenly gotten off antidepressants that didn't work at all, the withdrawal symptoms don't always affect mood that much (they did nothing for it to begin with) and they sure as hell don't last a full month after getting off. in fact, going cold turkey off of meds that do work for you shouldn't have withdrawal symptoms that last a full month (if you do, it's a Talk to Your Doctor moment). i just really wonder if Stolas noticed the lack of antidepressants after the first few days beyond the old habit of taking them, and if we really can contribute much of his mental breakdown to getting off antidepressants

but you know what he was taking religiously, that did affect him for sure, and that we haven't seen him touch in a month now? the alcohol. he was drinking during Mastermind, but he clearly hasn't touched it since the trial. Blitz doesn't seem to have alcohol around, and Stolas wouldn't ask for the extra expense -- he's being forced to quit. he passes up Loona's beelzejuice at the Sinsmas party, noticeably. the beelzejuice is brought in, and Stolas immediately goes outside for a smoke instead. he's not drinking anymore. and quitting alcohol cold turkey is an insane process, esp at his level of hard liquor. we're talking about disastrous health consequences and a whole host of withdrawal symptoms -- anxiety, depression, irritability, fatigue, loss of appetite, brain fog, hallucinations, and much worse stuff (in humans, seizures). it's impossible to underestimate the severe damage alcoholism does to your brain and body longterm. and a lot of those withdrawal symptoms stay weeks after stopping cold turkey

like, i don't want to detract from him going off of antidepressants; he needs and obviously wants working antidepressants, he's desperate for them. but i'm gonna be so for real, i've had my experiences going off ineffective antidepressants, and i've watched family members try to quit alcohol. an alcoholic quitting is a brutal, drawn out process that shakes me to my core. there are reasons a person still says "i am an alcoholic" even a decade after quitting. that shit's insidious in a way that antidepressants aren't, and it was affecting stolas noticeably more, surely enough to render his meds useless. if you want him back on antidepressants, then you need a sober Stolas first, and this is what he's FINALLY working on

so i think more emphasis needs to be placed on Stolas's recovery from alcoholism when discussing his mental breakdown, irritability, etc. the fact that he's doing this without rehab or other interventions is miraculous, nearly impossible. i don't want his impressive recovery (so far) from alcoholism to end up getting buried under the antidepressant talk ngl, especially when his getting off of alcohol now means that his antidepressants may actually work in the future and help him. this is something to be so so proud of!!

[error-dark]

Helluva Boss Sinsmas Spoilers!!!

So much to talk about. I am absolutely feral right now. Even with a bit of time to process everything, I'm still not okay (in the best way possible).

Blitz, giving Stolas lots of horse plushies to cuddle with, cooking Stolas food, helping him with shopping, laundry, getting food and clothes, hell EVEN FUCKING ROBBING stores for Stolas! He's giving Stolas everything he needs right now!!

Not to mention this!!!!

HE HIRED STOLAS!!!!

I also noticed there were a lot of Season 1 parallels. For example:

There were even parallels to "You Will Be Okay" within Octavia's solo, "I Will Be Okay". (Actually, now that I think about it, it might be the revise version/Octavia version of "You Will Be Okay".

Speaking of Octavia...

I made a theory post some time ago about the possibility of her coming in to save her dad.

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT!!!!

Also, I love this anime/manga effect that they chose to do. I was not expecting that and I LOVED IT!!

It is bittersweet, really. She still saved him (and Blitz), obviously deep down she still cares and loves her dad. She's still hurt and disappointed that, in her eyes, he left her for Blitz. I mean, she's not wrong. That's technically what happened, even though we all knew that Blitz would've died if it weren't for Stolas. But she's disappointed that he broke his promise. She has every right to be upset right now.

I know Stolas did everything he could to protect Octavia, to avoid giving her the similar trauma that he went through as a kid. But even then, I feel like some of this complicated stuff could be avoided if he had just told her the truth. Even though it's a hard pill to swallow, Octavia still needs to know the truth about everything.

And yes, I know that Stolas tried to tell her at the end, but at that point, it was technically too late. Octavia is not gonna hear him out right now or any time soon. And that hurts, for both of them.

Perhaps one day, Octavia will learn what's really going on behind the scenes. Perhaps she'll understand better why Stolas acted the way he did, and why he did all of those things. She doesn't have to forgive him right away (though, she could forgive him much later on if she wants to). But I still have a strong feeling, despite everything, deep down, she still loves her dad, even if everything's complicated right now.

Moving on...

MILLIE'S PREGNAT!!!! AHHHHH!!!!

She even called up Sallie May for advice!!! She's worried about how Moxxie would react!!

Honestly, I'm highly sure Moxxie would still love Millie and support her. I really hope he'd be happy with having a child (or children if they end up being twins or triplets). Maybe he'd also be worried about ending up like his shitty father, in which Millie would reassure him that he is NOTHING like his father and never will be.

And of course, Blitz would try to give them Parenting 101 Lessons on What To Do and What NOT To Do. Maybe Stolas would also try to help them out as well, but I feel like he'd get very emotional, because it'd remind him of his daughter.

One bonus thing I wanna mention real quick: Loona's still calling Blitz "Dad".

Alright this post is way too fucking long. I'm so sorry but there's too much to talk about and point out. And I'm sure there's a lot more to talk about, like Blitz and Stolas acting like an actual couple. But I'm gonna leave it here.

Anyway... how are y'all feeling about the Season 2 Finale?

[aurosoulart]

I was on a podcast talking about my job recently weeeeeeeeeeeeee

it quickly covers what it was like to suddenly go from college dropout to art director, the origin story of Figmin, and some hopes and dreams for the future of AR&VR

[baflegacy]

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[commsroom]

i wish i could make posts where i say nothing about hera the way i do about eiffel, but the thing is. they have a lot in common, but one thing they very much don't is that they're on opposite ends of the spectrum of 'person you're likely to just meet somewhere out there in the world.'

there's a guy i see smoking outside 7-11 sometimes who reminds me of eiffel. people regularly tell me about guys they met who reminded them of eiffel. there's nothing fundamental about eiffel that you couldn't also find in some average guy, and that's what i love about him, and that's why, like... you can talk about mundane stuff as it applies to eiffel and it's natural for him.

... but you can't say the same kind of nothing about hera, because those mundane things would be everything to her. all of it is novel. there's an underlying sadness when you talk about hera just existing, and experiencing mundane, trivial, comfortable things - and i want those things for her, so badly! - because it's always with the knowledge she's never had the chance to experience any of it before.

[kyoupann]

To all my neurodivergent besties out there, here's the situation :

So I've been in therapy for about two months now and a couple sessions ago I told my therapist how when people recommend stuff to me like books and shows, to me it feels like I'm getting to know the person. I'm learning about them through media they like; and that if I feel said media is gonna teach me something new about the other person, then I engage with that media. In my mind, it's a scale "will I learn anything new about them? Yes/no"

I rarely ever have interest in new stuff, but when my friends get into something new I like to ask the why's and how's first because I'd love to understand. In a way, it's something I do out of interest for my friends. And yeah, sometimes I've felt like I'm being more annoying than anything else but—that's besides the point; I like to watch new things to understand people, I watch things with people in mind. I read and I like finding a scene that makes me understand why this person recommended this story. My love language some would say lmao.

Anyways,

[heartbeetz]

I think it would be really funny if I somehow snuck some jazzton stuff into the anton shimeji thing I made for my blog, then released the embed link for other people to use. Like yeah sure you can have a little Anton to put places :) BUT you also have to support jazzton nation 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[risingsunresistance]

bonus pig for the occasion :]

[autistic-britta-perry]

watching bmc London and having the opposite experience of when you hear musical songs out of context and interpret stuff that's not actually in the text not only it is THERE but there's even more in the dialogue

[evilsciencebox]

gonna start this one by just saying that this is only focusing on the first 3 games + 4 IAT, just so ya's know.

more thoughts on n brio but i definitely don't think n brio hates n gin bc he wants to be cortex's right hand man. it really doesn't make much sense especially considering that the flashback tapes indicate that he was plotting against cortex even before n gin was there.

this man now lives out of his hate and spite as a result of the way cortex treated him. his ire is purely directed at cortex and anything that obstructs it. unfortunately this means anyone that associates with cortex, regardless of intention, is going to be affected too.

by crash 4, this has gotten so detrimental that getting vengeance once in crash 2 just isn't enough any more.

he's so lost in this cycle that he's dug himself further into that he won't take into account that it'd probably be much more beneficial for him to get along with n gin or that maybe you probably shouldn't test out potentially deadly chemicals on people you consider to be your only friends.

he's making things a lot harder for himself whether he realises it or not.

[aro-culture-is]

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[tealfruit]

I think I just really like movies. I'm gonna turn into a film bro but like the fun kind who also enjoys bad movies. if I ever go back to school I'll take a film class of some sort

[bbrattywise]

STOP WAITING, START PERSISTING & LIVING

something i've realised about manifestation & stuff is alot of us tend to "wait" for our desires which can get so stressful & tiring (especially on a time crunch) so why not js persist in the assumption you already have it & live w/ your desires in ur imagination? "But, isn't that faking it till you mak-" hold it right there! If anything, the imagination is more 'real' than the 3D because your dominant thoughts are the ones which materialise reality, not the other way round. So start making manifestation fun, why wait for your dr when you can js visualise you have it, write affirmation vaunts, write diary entries, live on end, etc (however u wanna do it) because not only does it 'elminate' the whole waiting process of manifestation (because at the end of the day, manifestation = instant), it is also inevitable that your desires will materialise so its like a 2-in-one!!

what i want you to take from this post? stop waiting for your desires & start persisting/living in the assumption that you have your desires (because that is infact TRUE)

divider creds:

[luvmanifesting]

WHY YOU’RE STRUGGLING TO INDUCE PURE CONSCIOUSNESS

You guys need to get out of that complainant mindset. I know and understand that you’re human but what will you get out of complaining? Pure Consciousness AGAIN is just shifting your awareness away from the 3D and shifting your awareness to the 4D. THE 3D is everything you see around you like right now is the 3D. The 4D is YOUR IMAGINATION! IMAGINATION IS THE TRUE REALITY!

The real reason you can’t induce pure consciousness is because you want to:

Focus on time

Wonder when you’ll get “symptoms”

Focus too much on when your body will get that floaty feeling.

Truth be told there isn’t always symptoms, you can induce pure consciousness without having any symptoms. You’ll know you induce pure consciousness when you don’t have your senses anymore (no you’re not dying) The only reason why HALF of the community complains about not inducing pure consciousness because again; YOU FOCUS TOO MUCH ON YOUR BODY. When are you going to learn to trust yourself and let go? It gets so incredibly annoying when i see people still complaining about the most easiest fixable problem, I mentioned the problem before ITS ALWAYS YOU. Now that i’m still typing this i also wanna mention two MORE topics.

RUSHING

DESPERATION

These two things get you nowhere, We know you want your dream life right now but rushing a process and BEING DESPERATE? pathetic. When you rush something you don’t get it and its just like that. You’re not supposed to rush pure consciousness thats literally your failure. For the LAST AND FINAL TIME stop rushing stuff, STOP being desperate! think of this post as a harsh reminder or slap to the face, You guys are taking pure consciousness and acting like a trigonometry problem. USE COMMON SENSE.

THE CLOCK IS STILL TICKING, YOUR STORY ISN’T OVER DO NOT GIVE UP.

* if i haven’t responded to your DM i’ve been busy enjoying my life. I’ll answer some today.

[snowflop]

i kinda hate this conceptually but like... technically i'm really happy with the colours and stuff orz