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mbat · 6 days ago

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something i kinda realized earlier is like

i love barney guttman from dead end paranormal park for being like me. a fat jewish mlm trans man. and i love most of those parts of myself. but its the part about being fat that always gets me.

its something ive been dealing with lately, my relationship with my weight. i had like a whole epiphany a few months ago, but one moment of realization does not fully transform years and years of complicated and unwanted feelings. it helps, of course

anyway, i just had this thought of like... if i love him for being like me in these aspects, why cant i love myself the same way for all of those aspects? why is it different for me?

#my post #reminder #depp #the thing about getting better is that you need to have sooo many realizations and some of them can be gathered from other people #but a lot have to be made for yourself yknow #sometimes things just dont click into place until they do if that makes sense #what sucks about weight is like. not that my other issues were unfounded but like #people arent exactly shy about fatshaming. they can be kinda shy about other negative things they do depending on the person #but people have no shame treating being fat like its a deadly sin #so its like. all these voices that make it so clear how much they think its a bad thing to be this way #and it makes me not want to be this way. but... why?#people say its bad for my health. i think they should mind their business. its MY body.#these people dont know my body as much as i do. and yknow what? if i wanna be unhealthy then thats my choice #i dont care about combating the idea that its inherently not unhealthy cause like. what the actual fuck ever #oh noooo someone isnt being the pinnacle of health! theyre gonna die in 5 years to the day because of this or something!#who ! the fuck ! cares ! leave me alone about my body. fucks sake #(but also its not inherently unhealthy for someone to be 'overweight' lmao no 2 people are built the same. except twins probably)#also i literally have pcos which can fuck with weight bro 😭 it fucks with like how your body processes sugars(??)#i swear i know what it does im just tired. but it fucks with how your body can process stuff and it has to do with insulin and stuff #which is why people with pcos can end up having diabetes more often #anyway good night

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