#i use my pain for good
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Inhaled a Tylenol last night on accident. Literally. All the way down the windpipe. Was coughing powder all night til it dissolved. Had to lay on my back with my entire torso hanging off the bed to keep it from slipping down into my chest cavity, and I honestly have no idea how I was able to fall asleep like that, except for total exhaustion.
If I had a nickel for every time this has happened, I'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it's happened twice.
You know who should have this happen more often?
Your whumpee.
#last time it was a lyrica capsule#something may be wrong with my drowning reflex#but hey#i use my pain for good#do this to a whumpee whose body is too weak to function right#and they're being force fed#my life is a whump prompt#any fellow ME/CFS peeps having issues with this???#a lot of the things we assume is just my body being weird#turns out to be damn near universal for ME/CFS sufferers
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i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw
#camera talks#disability stuff#this is for my chronic migraine girlies (gn) <3#i think we should all get 1 million million dollars everyday actually#this is the worst fucking night of my life (everytime i have migraines) (specifically rn tho)#chronic pain#chronic migraine#migraines#chronically ill#disabled#disclaimer because idk I’ve got a lot of notes on this#I have diagnosed chronic migraines. I used to have them 5-6 times a week#now with medication on a good week I’ll only be affected 2-3 days#on bad weeks it’s much worse#anyways don’t doubt my condition I know what I’m talking about thx
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bw sketch practice before i leave on holiday !!
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#gojo satoru#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#jujutsu gojo#jujutsu kaisen art#jjk satoru#im not gna have access to my tablet until i get back so any drawing i Do manage to do will b good ol pen and paper babeyyyy#(pained voice)#but i figured might as well get myself used to the monochrome and make sure im not samefacing my most common subjects#i think we're good gdfhj#ill miss my cintiq ill miss painting n drawing in colour tho cries foreverrrr#i do have a few things drafted to post During my trip but it wont b as frequent unfortunately#itll b fine i hope pls bear with me and the quality drop#for now i leave u with this <3
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Lan Wangji goes to Lotus Pier (No relation to the AU of the same name)
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#poorly drawn mdzs#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#wei wuxian#Another split type comic because I decided to be ambitious.#This flashback is currently beating my ass. There are so many timeskips within the flashback! My flow and pacing are wheezing!#I loved how this scene starts with the crowd's point of view. The observations and gossip add a lot.#And it helps reposition us to what the external perspective is on these two. Namely that 'they don't get along.'#Tensions are known! Even here in Nouveau Lotus Pier.#Ah...Lan Wangji never got a chance to see the Lotus Pier of Wei Wuxian's childhood and adolescence...did he?#It's not the same. He's not the same. Call them by the same name and people will know what you mean...#...but the first version - the one with the fond memories - is gone for good.#It's sort of interesting isn't it? How names can hold so much power and still be hollow?#We often get stuck over past versions of things. Be it ourselves or other people or places.#Change is scary but the truth is nothing ever stays the same. It's always moving. You're always moving.#It's okay to mourn the past. Maybe it's people you lost or the person you hoped to be. Let yourself feel the grief.#And then? Then you grow around that pain and keep on going. If you feel like you can't - remember you don't have to do it alone.#A side note: Listening to the tossing flowers extra is so essential for this scene. It's cute and gives us more of [redacted]#What's [redacted]? You'll see in the next comic!
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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3
#my art#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian solace#painter pressure#thought more abt my headcanons for seb’s anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that there’s spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it#the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris that’d be bad for him to slither on#also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that#i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while#there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal#and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible#and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that#seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime#oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter#pressure pathways#pathways#wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them
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Really I think nothing shouts "my first Presidential election as a politically active person was 2016" more than the fact that when I feel hope and excitement for the future (possible President Harris) for more than five minutes I immediately get a crushing, all-consuming anxiety of "feeling this positive emotion now is going to make it so much worse when the worst thing possible happens" to the extent that I'll probably need my break-glass-in-case-of-emergency anxiety medication.
#politics#us politics#kamala harris#donald trump#2016 election#2024 elections#personal post#I can't feel any hope about politics without my brain reflexively shutting it down in case things get too nice before the fall#I know Harris has flaws#But I just like her--she's more progressive and feels joy and isn't shy about hating Trump#But then my brain is like “do not get attached or The Pain will be worse later”#This happened in 2020 too---I couldn't believe it when we won I was so busy preparing for the worst#harris for president#democrats#vote democrat#seriously vote democrat#If you are following me or reading my fic and capable of voting in the US election and are not voting Democrat please feel free to fuck off#You're the reason Trump won in 2016 and if you prove my anxiety brain right I hope all your food comes out burnt for the rest of your life#good thing I have therapy tomorrow
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paradise
(INSPIRED DIRECTLY FROM THIS ITS COOL)
#THANKS MY BRAIN WOIMS#so funny . so story about how this happened#i stayed up until 2 am last night no one will guess what i was doing until then#and then woke up went to work came home and in a complete fugue state banged this entire thing out in two hours#(standing in the middle of my room covered in blood) .. ok. im good now. i think im good now. alright. goodbye#padabana#blsmp#balloon smp#animatic#my art#the animatic monster rears its head once again. ominously crunches on some ritz#... i think roughanimator is using splines for camera movement now instead of linear interpolation and if i cant control that its#a downgrade i do not want eased camera unless i say so :/ but.. then again... manually 'splining' that camera is a pain...#whateva#YAAAAYYYYY YOU WON!!!!!!! isnt it nice to win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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JJ + chest pain
#obxedit#whumpedit#outerbanksedit#outer banks#jj maybank#rudy pankow#anxiety#panic attack#heavy breathing#chest tightness#wincing#pain#4x06#whump#my gifs#outer banks spoilers#i hate how they never explored his panic attack episodes#sighhhh :(#they took the one good character we all loved away from us#obx writers when i see you…
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Shout out to fat people with chronic pain. Use that mobility aid, get yourself a tasty treat, and don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks. Your body deserves love and care no matter what!
#thefatfemme#Chronic pain#fat positive#fat liberation#Disabled#body positivity#Self love#fat acceptance#fatphobia#mobility aid#No this has nothing to do with my hips and back screaming today why do you ask#Also if anyone who sees this uses a cane while also having wrist pain#Do you have any good ways of mitigating the wrist pain while using the cane?#Cause I have tendonitis and will likely develop carpal tunnel from grooming dogs and some days my wrists are just terrible#Can't grip for shit#And while rn I can manage without a cane for the most part#there are also days where my back and hips act up and a cane would be a major help
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as a kid i wanted soooooo badly to have a bill gijinka for my very own but i could never come up w one that didn't just feel like i was ripping off all my favorite fan designs for him at the time. and all this time later finally this one came out SO Perfect For Me that i think it's a little bit of a mistake actually like i didn't intend on becoming this obsessed with him ever again in my life but HERE WE ARE !!!
Palestine: Funds | Action | eSims | Info Sudan Resources | Congo Resources
u guys see what i mean tho. these are from like 2015(?) or smn and visibly just patterned off of what everyone else was doing at the time lol
#EXTREMELY ''OH GOD WHY IS HE HOT'' PAIN FOR ME LATELY I WON'T EVEN LIE TO YOU GUYS FHDKJFHKJDGFKJDHFKD#godddddddd#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#the book of bill#tbob#bill cipher#dipper pines#mabel pines#human bill cipher#i literally have 3 other designs for him in reserves that i was planning to use for various au purposes#simply cuz i have a lot of thoughts about Why he looks any particular way (obviously fewer whys for this one but hdfkjg)#but anyways all that to say even tho i liked the others a lot or had fun ideas for them this one has completely swept them aside#all i want is HIM NOW. AGAINST MY WILL OR GOOD JUDGEMENT. THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP.#gijinka
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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda#stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days#so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars#also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain#Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png#i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good#also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap#not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately#that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired#kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars#idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic#its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333#i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song#i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake#shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)
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There's a disabled angel in good omens 🥺
#listen im only in episode two and i know there's some drama going down but im focusing on this lol#i love that not only do they show the angel using a wheelchair and being ambulatory#but they also visibly show them miracling innaccessibility issues so that they Can still use the chair#instead of just getting rid of the disability#part of my is conflicted bc im like... there's disabilities in heaven? and that makes Me sad bc my disability is hell and painful as fuck#But getting rid of disability in fantasy is eugenist crap and showing that god made a disabled angel is a net good thing#while it personally makes me sad to think if there was a heaven i could still be in pain all the time#not all disabilites are bad and need to be cured we're a wide spectrum and we've been fighting for disabled rep esp in fantasy for ages#it's objectively good my personal feelings about my own disability aside#part of me thinks it's cliche to say 'you were made perfect' bc they're an angel But it's not we literally havent had this type of rep lol#anyways it made me happy to see#and im so glad it's a power chair user that's ambulatory it's important for abled ppl to see that#anyways y'all keep your drama and spoilers off my post im not far in and im only talking about this shoo#oh also!! love the fantasy hover chair they use in heaven specifically too i wish we had that it kicks ass#p
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I read a couple of your posts angry at Solas about Felassan, and thought, "wow, this guy really loves Felassan"
then I scrolled and was reminded what your username was.
hello! ◕‿◕
stanning felassan and being _(:3」∠)_ about his death since 2014
edit: 💀..
#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#<- this is my spoiler tag#dragon age: dreadwolf#redrook#dragon age 4#the dread wolf rises#da4#dragon age#bioware#felassan#Best Elf#lul#mjs mailbag#gpoy#video games#solas#hhhh :D#its true.. u got me. i really love felassan#i also love solas :D#just as felassan did... OUHGHHH its pain hours again#one good thing about the double Blight in northern thedas is that it brought felassan to the wider world#and brought people together since now everyone has witnessed him in all his realized-in-engine glory#(witness heeeeeeee)#and the felassan fandom is now no longer limited to peeps who read TME and liked him from there (there were dozens of us.. dozens!!)#if you're reading this and liked felassan in DA:TV and want more felassan content and haven't read TME#read TME :D#also did i say death i meant 'death'#'this guy felassans'
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Got fucked so good. My eyes were rolling back, mouth open but no sound coming out, with a big plug in my ass. Just completely lost in pleasure as my dom fucks me from behind while I'm face down ass up with my hands and feet secured to a spreader bar. Head empty, no thoughts, just pure ecstasy.
"Look at you. I fucked you dumb."
#this was after some heavy impact play#i was high on pain#and that plug feels so fucking good#she also choked me with the leather paddle she used on my ass and it was so hot#love the feeling of being high and cumming over and over again until I'm an incoherent mess#and how soft my dom gets when I'm flying#checking on me#lesbian nsft#dyke nsft#wlw bd/sm#sapphic nsft#lesbian bd/sm#lesbian d/s#wlw d/s#sapphic bd/sm#wlw nsft#sapphic d/s#butt plug.#spreader bar#double penetration.#anal.#sub original
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I used to get an arguments on facebook and it bit me in the ass enormously because it turns out that when you get an arguments on facebook habitually, you'll be interacting with a lot of other people who get an arguments on facebook habitually, and most of these people are deeply unpleasant and they will be super mean to you in really fucked up ways. so for a couple of years I just sort of dropped off ever interacting with anyone who said things that I did not agree with. I would just scroll past stuff or I would get upset about it privately and move on. I did not ever engage. and the last couple of weeks I've started being able to say things in response to things I don't agree with in ways that I feel lay out what my perspective is but do not get overly invested in "winning" or "proving" anything -- I will say my piece generally for the benefit of other people who might be reading the conversation and need to hear what I have to say. and then I will turn notifications off and go do something else.
anyway. wow. y'all heard about this? pretty cool shit.
#a friend of mine posted on her facebook page about the importance of pain management in dog behavioral problems#and some lady came in and started gnashing her teeth about pill popping and the opiate epidemic and 'masking pain'#and she was using her experience as someone who experiences chronic pain and who refuses to ever treat it.#as like a gotcha. I was just like I'm really sorry that you feel the need to deny yourself pain relief.#here is the scientific medical information that we have about the effect of untreated pain on the brain and the neurological system#here is information about how detrimental untreated pain is to the well-being of any organism#I think it would behoove you to look into some of the recent studies about this!#have a good day!#meanwhile she is like telling everyone to go screw themselves#which kinda proves my friend's point about untreated pain having a behavioral effect. ironically.#anyway
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Like all of tumblr, aparently: we 💜 love ✡️jews✡️ and we would 👊 punch nazis and we reblog five 5️⃣ different haukkah 🕎 posts a year we are like so progresive 💁✨️
Also all of tumblr, aparently: death to all jews 🚫✡️ if you're a jewish person who lives in IsNotRaEl then you're an evil 👺 bad jew and you deserve to be raped and murdered ☠️☠️ what? You fled to israel because we were murdering you by the millions??? Well you should have all died lol ☠️☠️ happy hanukkah btw 🕎
#jewblr#op is pissed off#ישראבלר#jewish#antisemitism#i/p#i/p conflict#antisemitism is so real both on this app and in general leftist communities#and I used to side with these people#if there was an attack on people based on their sexuality; gender; race; religion ect I like to believe I would have cared#that I would have shows campation to your loss and understand your pain#instead of actively be part of the bigotry againsts you#i don't trust so many of my mutuals right now because I now know that if there was a nazi uprising they wouldn't hide me#they would cheer at my death#THIS is why jewish people can't trust you guys#YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT JEWISH LIVES#there was a really good article that explained this really well and how so many people have and will lose jewish friends#because we now know that you aren't there for use. and that you were never there for us#'punch a nazi' and 'never forget' are just cute little slogens to you but they actually mean something to us#it used to mean safety; used to mean that we could trust you; now it's empty wprds ringing with betrayel#never forget#jewish lives matter#hamas#palestine#israel#bring on your hate I don't care y'all are a bunch of privliged fucks anyways who would have rallied behind hitler like a bunch of pigs#noa's jewish talk
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