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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#Sibling similarity but you only see it when you realize they have the same soggy eyes.#These two always struck me as a bit of a play on Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli for 'siblings who contrast each other.#But after spending a lot more time marinating on Wen Ning I actually think they are way more similar that is initially apparent.#Sure their surface level personality traits are pretty contrastive. But they both are so willing to risk their lives for what's right#Who raised them? In a story so full of examples of how parents shape their children - why are these two lacking in parents?#I imagine that Wen Qing is the older sibling and so her morals of 'help those who need it no matter who they are' got passed a long.#But how did *she* arrive there? Was that instilled within her or was it a reaction against bearing witness to callousness and cruelty?#We'll never know..the only thing I can say for certain is Wen Qing is *so* soggy in the audio drama.#She's like the ant with the bindle. It's a hell of a way to bring a previously sharp tongued character back into the narritive.#Side note: Thank you all for being so patient and kind while I took my break!#It's been a very chaotic few weeks and I didn't realize how bad my burnout was getting. I'm back and ready to keep drawing again!
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A piece of home
#i like to think that when siffrin loses their hat loop picks it up#particularly in one hat endings#i know that doesnt mesh well with the symbolism of letting go#but loops very bad at that anyway#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#two hats spoilers#isat loop#the ocean took me 2 months#multiple do-overs#and a burnout#but i got there! and i like how it turned out! and i even had fun!!#edit: whooopps i can see how it looks like sand ahdhsg. oh well!#art tag
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oauuuuuuuuuu
#cotl has slowly been makings its way in my mind… its pulling me in#anyways. i like this cotl sona design#still wanna try researching a bit more stuff for the clothes and. everything but i got a decent bit down!!#they r based loosely on the chottanagpuri sheep#cause i think they look like sun bleached balck cats :)#though the breed is subj to change w more time and reseadch i just wanted to avoid the rabbit hole#i cant find much info on how their horns work/look but they seemed small in the images i saw (<dont kill me i dont know much abt em rn)#sorry ive been only able to muster messy sketches… planning to get into other art media to see if thatll help the burnout#doodles#cotl
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Going anon for this one because I was feeling embarrassed but I also gotta know-- How did you manage to leave the Mario fandom? You seemed really passionate about it, and your posts were some of the best I've seen and read. What made you able to stop and focus on other things? Asking because as a small writer I kinda wanna do the same but I fear losing the few followers I have, so I feel stuck.
Do you have any advice for me?
Hi. ☺️ Thanks for reaching out!
While I wouldn't say I entirely left the Mario fandom (as I still have a genuine fondness for the games and part of the lore), I did let go of it quite a bit as an artist and I appreciate that you sought my perspective on what is a rather complex and delicate issue. 🤲
Fanwork and involvement in itself can be really fun and quite harmless when done right, but there are three things that I believe should always be kept in mind when participating more actively:
1- You are not getting paid for what you do. A vast majority of creators online receive absolutely no compensation for their contribution, and those that do usually obtain it strictly through commissions. For the most part, it's hours of hard work spent creating and then sharing content for free. And while this isn't inherently problematic per say, it's important to never lose sight of what your efforts go into and in what way it benefits you (or not).
2- There are thousands upon thousands of communities out there, for nearly every subject imaginable. The one(s) you're currently focusing on may mean the world to you right now, but that could very well change tomorrow, or next year. My point being: it's nice to have a notable passion towards something, but I don't think we should let it reach a point where it takes up all the room and seeps into our every waking thought. Being open to discovering and learning about other things can be an eye-opening experience, and having different interests is very good for the mind.
3- Views and likes don't matter at the end of the day. They really, truly don't. They won't make a significant impact in your life nor bring anything substantial to the table. Essentially, it all circles back to why you're creating something and who you're making it for. Having followers can be very exciting and uplifting for sure... But it shouldn't be your sole motivation for staying in a fandom, because chances are this will make you very unhappy longterm. If you want to draw or write about something, please do it for yourself above all. It's the only lasting way you'll get a genuine sense of joy and gratification out of it, trust me.
As far as the online experience goes, I consider friends and enthusiastic exchanges about common interests to be THE ultimate purpose of any community. Not fanwork. Not the followers count. Only good vibes. And the greatest thing about this is, the close friends you make will stay with you no matter what you choose to focus on next, I can assure you that. 💫💙
#Sorry this got quite a bit longer than I initially intended ><#Hope this was useful to you in any way Anon! 🥺 Other than my burnout these three reminders were what helped me the most I think.#Good luck in sorting things out 👐#Being honest to ourselves is the first step and also the most important one#So I'm really glad that you're acknowledging this#Wishing you well 💐#Fanart and fanwork#Important#Creative freedom#Community#Thoughts and ramblings
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me when the 18 trips i dont know
#nep draws things#sketch#18trip#renga nishizono#ten murakumo#ushio kurama#nayuki kitakata#i forgot my watermark in all of these Dont make me regret that people okay#anyway i think 18trip singlehandedly got me out of my burnout (somewhat).. i love them so much#also dont talk to me about nayuki. i wont be normal
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your artstyle looks like it would make really cute mlp fanart and its making me want to ask if youve ever drawn mlp characters so here i am
Now I have!
#i think I did used to draw some ponies years ago- a mutual of mine had a lot of pony ocs and I was in direct exposure#but Ive Never watched or gotten into the show 🧍 i just really like designing ponies LOL#the naming schemes and colors are really fun too. this ask got me thinking of making pony designs actually#also I dont know squat abt this guy but from what Ive read hes a College burnout. and his design goes so hard for no reason#so he’s an automatic fav LOL#currently lining and coloring this in so expect to see a finished ver + some pony designs 😈 hehehehe…..#myart#doodles#ask#mlp#my little pony#i don’t really like the style for gen5. maybe its just because im so used to g4. ehh#mlp sunburst#sunburst
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Hey omori fans! new genre of omori au that we should be making:
Previous iteration of headspace where Sunny got bored and decided to do a themed one, think about it right? There’s been dozens of different headspaces over the four years Sunny isolated himself he couldn’t have literally been doing the exact same thing the entire time right?
If the cycle can repeat in as little time as three days IMAGINE HOW MANY THAT MUST BE OVER FOUR YEARS And to be entirely fair it is said that this particular iteration is shorter then usual but even still I can’t imagine one headspace adventure ever lasted more then a week or two
Maybe one time Sunny decided he wanted a sc-fi headspace or a steampunk headspace, THE POSSIBILITIES ARE INFINITE PEOPLE!!!
(And yes, I did realize halfway through typing this that this is just the undertale au phenomenon.. but should that stop you? Absolutely not)
Me? I wanna make one where sunny got bored of how PG everything was so he made headspace gothic grimdark, the characters are allowed to curse now and the enemies bleed but.. like in the way a 13 year old boy would think is cool … right? That’s funny to me and I would absolutely like to make designs for it
But there’s so many ideas someone could do here, where was the truth contained? What areas are new and what’s consistent? What form do the keys take?
Omori fans I WANT TO SEE THIS. It’s crack it’s absolutely crack!! but do it anyway because it can also be fun !!!!
#omori#omori au#omori headspace#omori sunny#omori omori#I’m tagging him because it’s his job to construct all these new headspace’s#he’s getting tired of Sunny’s shit after sunny asks for a noir detective headspace#that’s why the one we play in is default headspace#omori got burnout and demanded they go back to normal for a bit#omori to me a is a very disgruntled writer trying his best to make this work for Sunny’s sake but GOD he is so tired#“can we please just do something basic for once? do I really HAVE to design you another dragon?”#“can you not settle for captain spaceboy?”#“yes I KNOW I didn’t even make captain spaceboy THATS THE POINT”#anyway#I think the time loop-like idea of headspace opens up so many possibilities that we are not considering
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look I’m not saying that gifted kid culture wrecked my entire self esteem, made me feel like I was never good enough or special, or low-key affected 20+ years of my life
…actually, yeah, I am saying that. but here’s the kicker.
i wasn’t the gifted kid. I was the average one.
i get that gifted kid culture wasn’t good for the gifted kids, but geez, I can’t be the only one out there who WASN’T gifted and was still hurt by the system and is still dealing with emotional and psychological fallout.
can we start recognizing the impact gifted kid culture had on the non-gifted kids too?
#Maybe I shouldn’t be saying this but#The rest of us were just average#And I’ve spent essentially the entire rest of my life trying to be “special” at something#Gifted kid#gifted kid burnout#My journey#I’ve literally clung to my severe OCD sometimes because it makes me unique#My entire life has been me trying to be special in some way and not feeling satisfied#All because my best friend was gifted (read: special) and I wasnt#That was in THIRD GRADE#And it’s still DEFINING MY LIFE#I struggle with feeling jealous of former gifted kids even though y’all were messed up by it too#Because at least you got to grow up thinking you were special
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ignore the fact i disappeared that was simple winter hibernation ( still sick and coughing out my lungs btw )
for a basically nonexistent context it’s currently 1:50 am my paper is literally just on my mattress hello hard surface who and this is the most abhorrent lighting and i COOKED (dubious) 🔥🔥🔥‼️🥶🥶🥶🥶🥶🥶🌶️🌶️✨🌶️😋😋🌶️😋😋🥺🥺💖💖✨✨
one of my ocs grgrggrjekslalksj I need to talk about them more on here nyways yeah uhm bye read the tags thanks
#★ ˎˊ˗ melonrambles!#guys. guess what. your dearest father#i mean melon#has returned with the goods omg this is so splendid wait wait why are you turning around#and leaving again wait no wAIT#too slow. ive disappeared with the wind 😱😱#on a less silly note writers block burnout and a bunch of other silly fun happy things got meshed together into this really ugly ball#and it may or may not have taken we like 3 full days to get down a single sentence#so. hahahaha#melon is sometime but definitely before February definitely definitely aaha im not gaslighting myself im not g-#and to like throw something at this feral audience i have ammassed#a bone#if you will#ill get a work out soon#plan smth special for our silly celebration ILY GUYS SM SHHSHSHKS UGH WAHHGHH 💖💖💖#and i am finally going to be poking that smau of mine that’s been on mine indefinite hiatus for far too long <43#i was honestly thinking of discontinuing it but the anemo men… im an anemo kisser I couldn’t possibly..#so. that should be all from me#ill be workin on a new tagging system when I get back fully hopefully#so this blog will look less like an active track wreck <3#giggles okay bye im off to do more silly bybye 🫡
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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?
Things I need to do:
Finish reading icebound land
Make a whole lotta art that I promised people
Research study abroad programs
At least one Dutch lesson a day
Keep my room clean
Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)
My math homework
Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane
Eat at 7pm
Various things I enjoy as to not go insane
All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00
So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks
But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup
#“but you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!”#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else#but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo#I hate high school#rambles#adhd#executive dysfunction#<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk#im so tired#burnout#adhd burnout#(????? I think????)#high school#I'm just so tired of all of this#the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud#and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore#and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was#and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely#why the hell am I so stressed#I do everything I'm supposed to do#I just want to go somewhere else man#The Netherlands hopefully#I wanna actually DO something#go on a trip for band#not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day#I wasn't built for this shit#I'm so fucking tired
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idk what came over me but i like this series again
#i mean i always liked it ofc but its just been dormant for a while#I got baaaad burnout (maybe still do idk) and there's NO kh news#but idk maybe its writing for the podcast again but Im like ''hmmmm actually maybe I think about all this all over again''#i think its because rn I'm focusing on the organization#and like....... sry but the organization is just so interesting#sorry foretellers I love yall but the org is what got me into this series#and I always thought the KH2FM cutscene of xigbar and zexion was interesting#and later the conversation between saix and axel about having their own agenda#and it was just really cool all that coming back in KH3#and i want more... im hungry for more#how could they bring this all back and then kill ansem AND xemnas#young xehanort you got a LOT of fucking weight to pull now young man#you better show up in that Nomura drawing's black techwear and umbrella and address all this shit
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Someone needs a Rev Up.
#fanart#sketch#Fear and Hunger 2: Termina#Kida Tanaka#can you tell that I am OBSESSED with this character?#waiting for the update that will make him playable#was supposed to be a Tanaka dump but I think I'm hitting burnout again#probably just need to take a break for a little bit but I'm always open for requests and suggestions#sorry if I don't do all of them#stress about Election Day has got me down big time#always hate this time of year and tje presidential ones always have me on edge#scared of the outcome and the backlash that might follow if something doesn't go someone's way#I worry about a LOT of stuff tbh#stress and anxiety 24/7 just about
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Makomo’s album part 14 (Masterlist)
References:
Link to Bunny Weightlifting
#You 🫵🏾🐙 should listen to EEEAAAOOO it’s great#got me thru this drawing session#part 15 already in the works. I sketched them in the same sitting#it’s been a while lmao#not really just a month but that feels like Forever for me ?#I got used to doing them almost once a week. idk Album burnout ig#can never get tired of these two goofs#I rotate them gently in my head always#RABITO LOOKS LIKE A BAKED POTATO#he was in the oven too long#I think I mixed up his markers again#kny#demon slayer#octo’s art#tomioka giyuu#sabito#Sabigiyuu#Makomo’s Album#SABIBUN AU
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(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this
#Shrouded In A Rectangle neither sleeves nor an open front to be besieged with? yes#just doing whatever else like doesn't matter. tee cargo shorts which is my best guess rn of my ideal outfit. + sandals Absolutely#unfortunately my hair could never do that. somehow neither am i yet like forties fifties? have i not been at this for eons?#i Can be like uh let's just nobody talk to me i'm busy pensively perceiving truths that you don't ever actually wanna hear about#just the other day it was like hey....a [way Having To Talk could be a difficulty / problem] was under my nose in this lifelong pattern#certainly noticing the Verbal Exchange Demand heaped upon burnout as like [delay delay delay struggle weariness stress]#but also who knows like spent plenty of time just probably indeed Not having to have such exchanges while burned out. not noting them#anyway like this isn't even [dysphoric Ideal Outfit until i could [whatever supposed even more ideal than that gender euphoria]]#though shoutout to that but like nah get shrouded anyway. the only [how do i look] im motivated to consider is: when it's a costume#when it's just me it's like. i guess whatever pants and a comfortable enough tee. need glasses. hair's w/e so cut quite short ig#might accessorize w/things that are fun to me like hey yeah yknow i might want a calculator watch#[yea as a kid it was like :( im actively appreciating the animals supposedly Gross or Bad] if i had hated little friends Sure yaay#if i had disorienting light effects like a pelagic creature. but you don't even need that. like hey i'm nd in real life. i got it#chat i'm in the walls too bestie lmao. if only my bigfoot pose reference Step was this good#tl;dr long rephrasing of my being like; now the gender slay....#& nodding & Noting when [worksheet exercise: what's your gender euphoria look?] is like shrug idk. but this is serving maximally to me; so#going Chat how can i up my uncanny stats. looking up ''isn't it like Uncanny knowledge e.g. so like why not....canny''#but i think the un canny is the Uncanniness Accuser's perspective. not of My ken. your literal weird one maybe#so again apt to be like jk i'm just autistic & shit; i got it....horror shit challenge impossible: Don't have sm typical mundane#[disability moment] as like Unsettling danger/malice cues. challenge impossible; again#subverted here like as [horror holding hands touching foreheads w/comedy] w/o Rescinding just casual disabled behavior/qualities#just remembered like three witches weird sisters etc macbeth. weird uncanny soothsaying gendering. word#anyway i should be shrouded (made no any connection whenever i put the blanket now over my head & shoulders in place min ago)#perhaps the real Ideal Look insight: i do not have any way i wish to be observed by people. secret passages / removed room anytime
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I finished my slutty Fuuta art...
"Sometimes you gotta take your fave very seriously, with accurate characterization and themes and details -- and sometimes you gotta throw all of that away and make them your little paper doll to dress up in slutty outfits" (+ base one so you can join in the fun 👍)
(Edited to add the one from the maid fuuta ask hehe)
#last slutty fuuta art youre getting from me in a while asdfsdf 😅#i have exposed myself too much and i need another long span of my usual art to trick people into thinking im normal again 👍#meme idea stolen from kyanako lmao#got smacked with writing burnout so it was easy to just color these in when i got the chance#paper-doll-style is surprisingly easy -- half the drawing is already done for me when i sit down to start :0#my next projects include some fire emblem things! its been a hot second so im excited#and including my tags from the original sketches because my partner was still laughing at me:#me: im drawing this as a joke. because of the milgramblrgram poll. its a joke see? its just for my friends on tumblr. its silly.#my partner watching me do three sketches to end up with four drawings that are the same quality as my other art: i know what you are.#fuuta kajiyama#thou shall discard vulgarity
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Yeah I've just realised it's been months since I posted or reblogged or replied to anything on here, so. Yeah. Obligatory announcement that I am still alive and well. My mind got wiped midway through exam season at the end of january and since they then I've been vibing in a stress free world where I am not worried about anything or doing anything
#no kidding#it's like someone pressed a turn off button on me#and it got stuck and you cant turn me back on#i feel like ive been floating through life in a bubble for the past few months#like#hell#since this started in the middle of exam season that would be a good example#1st half of the season: worried#2nd half of the exam season: i am gonna read an entire semester's worth of notes (several hunreds pf slides) the night before the exam and#not be worried in the slightest about passing despite not knowing anything and my brain being scrambled#currently entering exam season yet again and i literally STILL don't feel anything#no stress#no pressure#it's kinda annoying because stress and pressure are my only way of avoiding procrastination lol#but yeah ive been kinda out of it for thr last few months#same with tumblr#i lurked here at least once or twice a week but just#nope#pressing a reblog button? replying to anything or anyone? posting anything? exhausting#i dont think ive actually checked my notifications and messages in months?#sincere apologies if ive been ignoring anyone for months XD#idk how active i am gonna be in the near future but hey i am here#for the record i don't think this is burnout or anything like that? and i am not in a bad mood or anything#i am pretty good actually XD i am just not doing... literally anything unless i absolutely have to#at the last possible second because procrastination my behated#ema rambles
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