#i think it was a girl tbh??? i think low-key it was a white girl i clocked as racist 😭 idk. pretty sure that was the conclusion i came to?

[xx-obliviousfantasy-xx]

Me:

-Is pulled to the ground from behind by my backpack

-Hits my head and blacks out

-Wakes up with everyone around me

-Everyone is literally about to call 911

-I have a splitting headache

"NOOOO guys guys guys, I'm fine. Don't call 911." *Gets up and wobbles home*

[astralnymphh]

car wrapper ellie tbh.. ౨ৎ

the vision is fresh in my mind, and nonetheless, i'm still THROBBING at the mere thought-up imagery of ellie thumbing and smoothing your car with such tender and trained pressure in her fingertips— you wish you were in its place. established as a side gig in joel’s auto body shop, she wraps cars day-to-day, hour by hour, arranged inside a well-lit, decently compact garage swarmed with the whole hardcore shebang of grunge rock and various metal genres (with a biased cling to nirvana tbh). notorious outfitting; bare, freckled, and sun-showered arms, cut delectably at the shoulders by an off-white ribbed tank worn and sweat through. those hips fitted in some low-waisted, slouchy denim, accompanied by a small metallic carabiner clip that holds all of her jangly keys. and— most markedly, stud-pierced lobes with an industrial bar bridging one ear; absolute hottie alert. now, besides appearance and attitude, i think she has some sort of inherent apt for making girls swoon. doesn't even necessarily intend to— actually, whenever she opens her mouth, a total nerd comes out! though what seems to shoot right over her head is the fact that all her oral mannerisms and idle chit-chats of, “you sure you don't want me to take a quick peek under the hood? could save you a couple of bucks..” which, with a tone so tempting and drawled in such a convincing ‘advertisey’ way, ends up easily persuading girls and brings the heat to their cheeks. so, when she sways you, you decide to slump somewhere and watch. witness; consume her expertise with your eager pupils. ellie assures she'll only be a couple hours— but to rephrase it, those handful of hours spent chatting, eye-flirting, and chuckling silently to yourselves, always routes the afternoon into her tiny office where she eats the fuck out of your pussy.

masterlist . daily click . read this . palestine mp

no i did not see those car wrapping videos on tt and no i definitely did not get this idea from them DENY DENY DENY

[pruneunfair]

Also if you don't mind asking, what is the villainess) female antagonists like rashta, Marianne, Cosette, Yvonne, Freya, Diana, Soleia, etc animal pets will fit in them?

sorry this took so long to answer. Your question was actually put on a list for questions to turn into full on posts and it unfortunately got delayed, I'm sorry for the hassle.

A lamb for the innocence she once had before the palace ruined her. After she was corrupted I imagine the lamb would become more rabid in order to protect itself.

I don't think Rhyse knows bread is actually bad for ducks and would keep feeding them it anyway.

There's a lot of bird symbolism already in COBYB but this image I found low key fits Claudine the best given how she is stuck as only a wife and it could also symbolize her more self centered behaviors.

One of those really prissy cats that don't listen to what you ask of them. The type you spoil and they won't even sit on your lap unless it's on their own time.

All I knew was is that it had to be a snake. No other explanation, girl just loves her snakes.

This dog except it's covered in extra accessories and put in a purse to be taken everywhere regardless of any no dogs allowed rules because Sumin is honestly a menace who would claim her purse dog is a service dog. (Not sure if Sumin should have access to pets 😅)

Have you ever heard of chronic wasting disease? The deer is an unfortunate victim of the disease which is slowly killing it and I think it symbolizes Yvonne well knowing she's basically a walking corpse.

This is a skin walker. According to the Navajo, they are malevolent witches who have the ability to dawn the appearance of whatever animal they choose. Thought it suited Ragibach pretending to be Cosette in the creepiest way possible.

Shes petting one in the picture so why not, plus she's described as attracting animals to her so I just imagine Charlotte with Disney princess aura to attract all sorts of woodland creatures.

Any kind of creepy looking bird would fit Marianne tbh. Ravens though just naturally give off the most energy for eerieness.

I haven't been giving Mia any attention cause I kept forgetting about her. Frankly, she looks like the type to like bunnies.

probably can be used for most white lotus characters but dolphins are the best match for Isabella considering how evil dolphins actually are and Isabella is a villianess who legit has no excuse to be the way she is, no sad backstory, no possession, she simply came out the womb a hater

Chihuahuas are often thought to be aggressive always which there can be but with enough love, help and understanding they become the sweetest babies known to man.

Chaotic ass dog for one of most chaotic looking but also kinda stupid villainesses.

Again, no real reason, all I know is that I would give Aisha a deer.

EDIT: accidently reblogged this post twice. Whoops

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Asks January 24th

Fated Anon (TW ED), Red Flag Anon, Midnights Anon, Low-Key Anon (new), 30 people anon (new), student teacher anon (new), crash and burn anon (new)

Fated Anon

HIIII! It’s fated anon again ( I like that alias it’s so dramatic and fun I love it)

I took ur advice it helped a lot! I spoke to my friends and kinda fixed up what we had before and it helped me kinda get back on track. I never rlly realized how much all this has been messing with my head, I forgot how horrible I am with feelings. Ik it was et that long ago but just that conversation alone was so much progress which is fortunate just before exams, i have a tenancy to get a bit in my head about things and it was lowkey the worst I’ve felt in a while. Anyway for the boundaries thing, I’ve spoken to my friends and they seem to be more receptive to it than before except for one :(

I’ve took time to think about it but I think it would be better if we parted ways tbh I’ve only now realized how toxic our friendship has been. They never liked me to begin with for some reason always excessively dismissive at any chance I took to be friends. Anyway turns out they had a thing for my MULTIPLE of my friends and took it out on me??? Idk their behaviour is so odd to me. They feel the need to comment on literally everything. On my clothes, my weight, my hair, my grades, in their mind they’re the peak of human evolution which is so ufhdgchggsd. And all this feels so much worse when they know I was struggling with eating and such ( only realized it was an ed after I started recovering ) and used to make jokes about me being anorexic on the regular??? They used to make fun of my hair after I started to get comfortable wearing it curly, dirty looks and odd comments whenever my religion came up. It all feels so weird and lowkey kinda racist??? I thought I was overthinking this but it’s to the point where other friends are asking me about it. This is the kinda thing I hate, when other people get to pick and choose what cultures r ok based off weather or not their “ascetically pleasing” enough.

This is the kinda bs I’ve been dealing with for years. I got off without as many problems as a kid cause I was white passing, no problems on the schoolyard or anything but still annoyed me that no one would listen to me, but now the melanin finally showed up and a realized how shitty people can be. EXHIBIT A: the friend who genuinely thinks I can’t be mentally ill, and shoved me into the “angry black person” stereotype???? Like I’m not pulling things out of my ass this is the only way to describe it. AlicdYjuZhkjzfhK one more thing then I’ll move on cause Im on a roll rn, one of those people that think of mixed people weird??? Like better then being like totally one race and I’m sure has tried to use the one slit( I think it’s a slur still a shit thing to say regardless) idk its lowkey some Harry Potter type segregation going on but not my problem soon enough.

Im holding myself back from saying anymore but holy fuck I need to get that out of my brain even if it makes 0 sense. Anyway talked it out with my close friend and I plan on parting ways cause this is nonsense.

Anyway quick update on my girl problem, I think I may spontaneously combust. SHVFHXZBXC I can barely talk to her and she’s starting to catch on I think and I’m a shit lier and can’t say no to her so my solution is to just avoid the convo:( still can’t tell if she likes me or not cause we fit the one gay trope ever they be saying literally anything but “hey I like you 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃” idk I don’t think I’m going to make it😭😭😭 my grave will read “ here lies fated anon , cause of death: the girl was to gay to speak” this may become reality this girl has been making me lose my mind. I caught myself getting jealous at a shared playlist with another girl🙃 I know ur way past ur days of pinning being married and all but how do you deal with jealousy? Like it’ll be over the smallest things, and I know the first step is being able to realize that ur doing too much but like it’s still there?

Anywho I’ve realized that writing has been a good outlet for all this nonsense going on, idk I might start posting if I pump out somthing half decent :/

I lowkey forgot I have school and it’s past one so imma leave it at that, I write a bit much anyway sorry:( but I hope u have lovely night and thank u for everything u do Cas<3 ( I do apologize for the grammer I fear I may be a lost cause)

Hi! Honestly those friends sound like...horrible friends, tbh. I'm glad you're stepping back. So many of the things they're doing are NOT okay, and it's so good that you're working on setting boundaries and realizing that. I'm sorry that you have to do so in the first place.

As far as jealousy...yeah I think that thinking through the logic behind it might be helpful. Plenty of people share a playlist with friends, you know? But I'd also say that avoiding conversations certainly isn't going to like...help her like you. Like if there's a chance she likes you, avoiding her is just going to make her think you don't like her, and she might move on. Have you tried doing some of the things with her that you're jealous about? You can always make and share a playlist!

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Red Flag Anon

I'm not gonna copy your whole message here but I just wanted to say I'm so sorry about everything you've been going through. It sounds so scary and exhausting and just...I have no words. I'm glad you at least seem to be aware of the things you need to work on and you have a plan on how to take care of yourself. I am sending you so much love and so many hugs, and I believe in you <3

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Midnights Anon

I'm so sorry that your parents are acting this way. I think a really common thing with parents is that they let their own issues, upbringing, trauma, and emotions affect their parenting. Obviously nobody is perfect, but when it's affecting you this much, it's not fair. Do you have ways to get out of the house more? Maybe you could join some clubs or go over friends' houses? Just so you can get some distance, you know? And I'm glad that you have the coping strategy of reading fanfic. Maybe it would be helpful to come up with a list of coping strategies for when things get particularly rough?

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Low-Key Anon

Here's the beginning of your ask so you know it's you!

hiii cas :) im a moot of urs, a low-key one, and I’ve never done this before but I love ur asks cas thingy and omg I could rlly use some advice. 

Okay so...I think you should do a bit of both of what you were saying. Based on what you said, N is definitely someone you DO NOT want to be close to. The fact that N just like...admitted to hurting someone like that is insane. But I can see where you don't want to cause drama, either, and yeah, it's hard to cut someone out when you see them every day. So could you do a bit of both? Like..just pull back from N. Don't get involved in the drama, don't seek out time or conversations with N, only speak to them when spoken to. Don't give N a reason to be mad, but don't like...act all buddy-buddy, either. I think if you pull back, you'll find it'll be easier to avoid the drama as well.

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30 people anon

I wanna know if I'm in the wrong here

So me and my friend group are part of this big group chat of around 30 people

Another person in this group chat is one of my friends exes

I made some joke about how they used to date and this friend got really pissed at me because it turned out neither of them wanted anyone in the group chat that didnt already know to know they dated.

Not once was I ever told about that

My friend said I should've picked it up from "context clues"

Their ex hasn't been brought up in conversation pretty much at all since they broke up bc there wasn't any reason to bring him up

but apparently everyone refuses to bring him up as their ex which I didn't know because we have had literally no reason to talk about this man considering the fact they dated him over a year ago

Personally I don't think I'm in the wrong and I think they should have clearly stated that they didn't want everyone else to know about their relationship

But I need a second opinion because I don't trust mine alone

Honestly I think this one is hard to tell without knowing more about the dynamic of the group. But going off of what you've told me here, no, I don't think you're in the wrong. I think if someone says "oh me and x are dating!" and doesn't tell me to keep it quiet, then...there's no reason for me not to, especially around a group of supportive friends. So the same would hold true for exes.

But I guess it also depends on like...the dynamic of the group, the situation between the two people dating, the circumstances of the breakup, if the people faced any backlash from dating. Like there's so many things that could affect if it's a good idea to bring up a relationship or ex-relationship, that I can't really tell. Because yeah, if you were never told not to bring it up, you're not technically in the wrong, but there could be a million different circumstances that would make it so you still shouldn't bring it up.

SO yeah, all this to say...I dont know. (Also I asked my wife and she agrees with me)

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Student teacher Anon

hi cas!

I am asking for some advice? comfort? a sounding board? idek at this point.

Basically, I am terrified of what is happening rn in the US and I'm not sure how I get through this. on top of that fear, I am a student Teacher at a small school in a red state who is very left leaning. I listen to students every day talk about how great the horrible people are and how they're doing great things and I can't say anything without getting reprimanded and I know this won't end here. I know it'll be like this after I finish student teaching and signa contract too I have also been really struggling with my gender and know this is also not something many schools will accept.

I worry that I'm losing myself bc of teaching. I used to be a very involved activist who was speaking their mind and inspiring peers and now I feel like I'm not making any sort of a difference. I also feel like I have to hide my tattoos and change my self expression to be allowed as a teacher.

I just don't even know where this leaves me and I really don't know how to make it through life with the state if the US/world rn. leaving my state isn't an option unfortunately bc I can't leave my family here.

any advice?

Hi! I am also a teacher and all of these struggles and concerns are so valid. I have taught in a red state and I currently teach in a red town. I do want you to know though that it IS possible to find schools that allow you to express yourself and your gender, and to make a difference.

Don't get me wrong, my school still has lines I have to tiptoe, but I am able to wear what I want, identify as Mx., have purple hair and tattoos, and help run the GSA at my school. I still have to listen to the bigoted ideas come from other kids' mouths, but MY room is a safe space.

The reality is, it might take you a little while to find a school like mine because I had to be picky to find it, and when you're a new teacher, you can't be quite as picky. But if you're able to get a year or two of experience, then you'll be able to move to a new school and be pickier about what you want. Also make sure to ask the right questions in your interviews to see if the district/school is aligned with your goal (DM me if you want more details).

No matter what school you're at though, youll find that there are ALWAYS kids who are looking for an adult who understands. Even when I taught in a red state, and I had to hide my identity, the queer kids always found me and I was able to make a difference.

I know it's hard, but it is possible. Again, feel free to DM me to talk more! <3

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Crash and Burn Anon

Here's the beginning of your ask so you know it's you!

Hey, so I've been dating my boyfriend for about 3 months and 11 days. (But who's counting) And last night I was talking with my bestie.

Okay so I don't feel comfortable addressing your entire ask but I can say that it's your job to decide what you are comfortable with, not your best friend. Everyone's boundaries are different, you know? I think you need to reflect on what you want, and communicate that with your boyfriend. It sounds like he's respectful and willing to listen.

[humblefryingpan]

(Once upon a time au - spoilers for season 3 and I think season 6)

Ngl I kinda loved the Henry/Pan body swap I low-key wish it stayed like that. It probably wouldn't have been great in the actual show but I'd love to see that in a fic/au

Everyone really struggling at fighting Peter because he looks like Henry? Amazing. And I like thinking about if they kept it that way, imagine them trying to raise the kid who looked like their enemy

(this is an angsty and long post)

Rumple looking at his grandson and only seeing his father who betrayed him. Tbh, I don't think he thought of Pan as the same person as his dad in general. Like pre-neverland he only saw him like that twice and it probably would've been more "the boy my dad invented to get rid of me" yk? That's my opinion at least

So Rumpy knowing Henry was supposey fated to kill him and then looking like that guy? He would not have handled that well and I'd have loved to see him having more of a reaction

Killian seeing his stepson and trying to ignore that he looked like the man who killed his brother. Pre-neverland I think he only knew Pan from when he rocked up and tricked him into killing his brother/best friend/only remaining family? So going from that, as well as everything in neverland, to marrying Emma and having to live with someone in Pan's body would've been sad as shit and I'd have loved it. He was dealing with his own guilt a lot when he moved in and I think this would've made it just that little bit worse

Regina and Emma trying to raise their son while looking at the man who kidnapped him. Both of them are definitely "fight first, question later" girls and they would've had to try to unlearn that in order to not hurt their son. Especially since they knew Pan as the guy that kidnapped Henry and the guy that tried to kill them all.

If this happened then the way I'd have done it would be someone finding out he was planning the curse and killing him before he could kill Felix (to stop the curse and also bc I love Felix and I have plans for him). Since he was still in Henry's body when he did the curse I would've said they killed him before he could switch places (I forgot how and when they switched back mb, doesn't affect the au too much right?)

So somebody (Rumple would probably work best but readers choice ig) killed Peter/Malcolm while he was in Henry's body and he got trapped in that body with magic so that he couldn't escape. Since the body would've been messed up when he got killed, Henry stays in Pan's body.

And I mentioned I had plans for Felix - he was clearly very devoted to Pan, like he didn't even get that mad when he killed him. I'm willing to bet that if he survived he still would've defended him. But now "Pan" is actually not Pan, it's the boy Pan wanted to sacrifice and I think Felix would've been pissed about that.

So he'd also be struggling with this entire situation. Losing Pan, but still seeing him in this town. Knowing Henry he'd try to talk to Felix too. Felix would either fully isolate himself, seek revenge on anyone and everyone who took part in Pan's downfall or he'd follow Henry around, trying to cling to any remaining part of Pan's existence. Assuming Regina doesn't kill him that is

Or if you want to stick to the canon show a bit more then Rumpy could kill him after the curse was cast but before he could turn back to himself.

And side note- Peter actually looks more like Emma and Neal's kid tbh. Like Henry looks sort of like Regina's son, and I see the snow white in him, but I don't see the Emma yk? So in the "Emma loses her memory again and thinks she's a regular parent" storyline she'd just assume he turned out more like her, Regina could alter her memory into thinking he always looked like that anyway.

And in that version she'd have the two versions of her memory. One where she sees her son as he always was and then getting the memory of who he actually was dumped on her. And struggling even more with seeing both simultaneously, even worse because Henry also wouldn't remember.

Which brings me to the point of - imagine Henry trying to grow up looking like the guy that took advantage of his kindness like that? Every time he looked in a mirror he'd see Pan instead of himself (and there are a lot of mirrors around when you're being raised by the former evil queen).

He'd see everyone struggling to adjust to him, he'd know why, and he'd probably feel insanely awful about it. He blamed himself for Neverland anyway, now he'd blame himself for everyone's discomfort.

And like I said at the start of this lil au infodump, I don't think it would've worked long term in the actual show. I don't think the writers could've got it to work in some of the storylines, but Pan-Henry has been rattling around in my brain like a lego stuck in a jar since I first watched it. Basically I want everyone to be sadder and I want more Pan, the angst potential in this is incredible to me.

[audreys-diaryy]

Current wishlist 💖

I have been on the hunt for my perfect sequin bag foreverrrr! I’ve been eyeing one from Coach, but it’s a bit pricey for me (but that never stops me lol). But we’ll see!

My Birkenstock arizonas are going on 4-5 years old and they’re nasty, and the clogs are so cute!

My family and I moved last November and my walls are still bare 😫 So I still need to purchase some black frames for posters!

Still haven’t hoped on the adidas trend but I want to! Still unsure which shoe to get, but I know I want something from adiads! (Let me know if you have a fave)

Glitter eyeshadow palettes 💥💳 Listen.. I probably won’t wear glitter eyeshadow, but I can never get glitter eyeshadow palettes out of my head; AND ITS BEEN MONTHS! (Let me know if you have a good rec)

White wedges! I don’t have white wedges and I am slowly becoming a wedge girl!

I know.. a lot of shoes on this list - I think I have more shoes than clothes in my closet tbh! Anyways, black Mary Jane flats! I didn’t like this trend at first actually, but they’re low key the perfect shoe to spice up a boring outfit!

New iPad case! It’s not a must, but just want something new for the upcoming semester!

New desk chair! My current one is literally falling apart, so it’s time for a new - and cuter - one!

Okay! Thanks for reading ♡ Share your current wishlist with me ⬇️

— Love, Audrey

[hazzybat]

Hiiii! The last chapter was my first time reading Bo(jan) (or even really considering them as a ship) and now I'm low-key obsessed with them together??? I love that you're doing ficlets and was trying to think of one that didn't feel like it would cause spoilers, and I was thinking I'd love to read about one of the times Bojan and Jan had their hands down eachothers pants backstage (as Bojan described in the last chapter lol) Backstage semi public sex? Hot. Maybe the first time they messed around? Thank you!! And no worries if you don't want to write it!

i've been saving this ask and tbh I ended up with something pretty rough but it was a good little exercise to get me back into writing after my break. Hopefully you still like it even if it's very short and pretty rough. have some Bo(jan) greenroom sex. kinda.

Bojan and Jan were utilising the adrenaline rush they felt after their first concert together the best way they knew how. Martin and Kris had been stolen away for congratulatory drinks by their vampire clan and Jure had found a girl willing to let him possess her in order to get drunk. That left Jan and Bojan alone in the greenroom. Bojan found it funny how similar arousal and excitement tasted to each other.

As soon as they entered the space Bojan pressed his lips to Jan, kissing him hungrily, needily as Jan instinctively wrapped his arms around the shorter man’s waist. Bojan pushed him to the couch and straddled his lap, lips pressed against the werewolf’s neck. The incubus wasted no time, figuring the bulge he felt in Jan’s jeans was a good enough indication as any he wanted this too.

“Bojan…” Jan moaned out, eyes rolling back as Bojan sucked a mark on his neck, wanting to feed on the delicious taste that hung thick in the air.

“What is it?” Bojan asked, voice low and dripping in desire. He felt a hand in his hair and Jan pulled him back so the werewolf’s lips were against his ear.

“Touch me, please,” Jan growled, sending shivers down Bojan’s spine. He did so eagerly, unzipping his jeans and taking out his boxer-clad dick. Jan was a good size, thick and already leaking precome. It might have been due to Bojan wearing a particularly sultry outfit for their first gig, swaying his hips seductively and playing with the hair of all his bandmates during their performance. Foreplay was his speciality and he’d been working Jan up the moment he stepped on stage.

Jan captured his lips and Bojan’s hand sped up as it jerked him off, bringing him closer and closer to the edge. Jan came quietly, mouth open and hand gripping Bojan’s bicep as his cum stained his boxers.

He was panting as he met Bojan’s eyes, pupils still lust filled as he pulled the incubus close, kissing him over and over, his hand snaking down to cup Bojan’s own neglected length. It didn’t take much, a bit of grinding and touching and filthy words Bojan was shocked Jan was so good at using. He came muttering thank yous into Jan’s neck.

As they lay there, panting against each other, the door opened and an attractive girl walked in, her eyes covered in a milky white film. Walked in might have been a bit generous. Stumbled in would be more accurate.

“Oh fuck am I interrupting a feed or something? Shit sorry guys,” Jure’s voice came out of the woman, his speech slurred. Evidently he’d found a host with a low alcohol tolerance.

“Please tell me she can’t see us right now,” Jan said, his hands on Bojan’s hips, holding the demon close to him and using his body to shield any prying eyes from the mess between them.

“eeeeehhhh, probably not. They can’t… uhhhhhh….. see… stuff…. unless I let them,” Jure said, finishing his sentence much more confidently than he started it, his alcohol-filled mind evidently struggling a bit to find the words.

Bojan couldn’t help but chuckle at the drummer, his hands now wandering over the body he was possessing, ignoring the two men entwined on the couch. Bojan leaned in again to kiss Jan, slower and sweeter than before. He murmured a soft “thank you,” against his lips before finally pulling himself off Jan’s lap and going to the bathroom to help clean them both up.

[slay0368]

🎀🫶🏼 sanzu haruchiyo and his relationship with fem reader🎀🫶🏼

MINORS GET THE FUCK AWAY

Shitty writing,not proofread,sanzu brain rot

Warnings-anger issues,smut,size kink,hate fucking,slut shaming,sanzu being a dilf, ALL THE CHARACTERS ARE ABOVE 20,enemies to lovers.Yeah I think that’s about it

Sanzu haruchiyo

When mikey first introduced you as bontens new number 4 he saw you as a slut and nothing more but over the weekend he saw you with another man on his lap,laughing and giggling like theirs no end LET ME TELL YOU HARUCHIYO SAW RED. So it’s casual to say by the next day the guy who you were sitting on was gone ,done and dusted all together.

Eventually you and sanzu had to share a room for a mission and as you thought he went out and wouldn’t be back till like 6 hours later you whipped out your trusty vibrator NOT KNOWING THAT SANZU THERE HAD PLANTED CAMERAS TO WATCH YOU FUCKING CAMERAS 😇😇😇😇😇😇

So he planted them to catch you like tripping over or to catch your embarrassing moments but as soon as he opened the cameras he saw you using a bullet vibrator and let me tell you he turned the car around so fucking fast and sped to the house /villa passing all the red lights and as soon as he reached he barged in almost breaking the door and he low key says “having fun without me sweetheart?” While smirking. I AM DEAD. Y/n “fuck” “oh no honey I’m gonna fuck you now” when sanzu said those words she gasped and her mouth fell open when she saw him taking out his dick and let me tell you he was big- “sanzu I don’t think it’ll fit” “oh sweetheart I’ll make it fit”

and when he sees your expression he puts on his smug smile “ bigger than you expected right but you’re a big girl you can take it right?” It wasn’t a question and you knew “now use your big girl words and tell me what you want slut”

The look on his face when you tell him your a virgin- he was grinning like a mad man (I meaannnnn he already is one- 🥰😇🤡 )

“Awww my poor slut never had dick in her life huh don’t worry I’m gonna help with that”he said while scissoring you open with his long fingers and as you get wet enough he lines the tip of his cock and runs it up and down your slit “if you really want this dick then beg for it whore” as embarrassing the scene would’ve been sanzu enjoyed seeing your flushed face while begging him to fuck you like the whore you are “ please sanzu I want you to make me feel good I promise I’ll be a good girl” that was enough for him to push inside you slowly since he was kind enough to see that your a virgin

“Sanzu it hurts,hurts s much” you try to say but sanzu just sushes you and says “your the one begging for this dick right? Then take it like a good whore”

As he bottoms out blood can be seen dripping underneath both of them staining the white sheets. As he starts to move at a rough pace you cry at him to stop but he just moves faster “oh what was that? You want he to go fast right then here” “sanzu gonna cum” you say as you cream in on his cock but he maintains his speed, as you get overstimulated sanzus thrusts are getting sloppier and your about to have your 5-6? Orgasm damn you were too dumb on his cock to count “ gonna cum inside you slut, that’s all your good for” as his pace falters “you love being treated like this don’t you” as he cums inside you as you milk every last drop from his balls

“Damn you okay?” “Yea didn’t take you for the caring type tbh” as he cleaned you up and gave u food and cuddles “your mine from now on got that?” While cuddling you “I was always yours haru” you said while cuddling him deeper

The night ended with you both naked and cuddling until the next morning when rindou found you both cuddling under the covers at 10 am when they should be ready for the mission-

OKAY THATS ALL FOR NOW THANKS FOR READINGGGGG

Pls reblog and like!

ITS MY FIRST TIME WRITING SORRY IF ITS A BIT YK-

[rachelfoleyisntdead]

Oh,can I give my hot take since we're discussing the MK1 girls? Honestly, a solid quarter to a third of the roster could have been DLC, considering how little they do or contribute to the story. Reiko? DLC. Nitara? Package her with a couple Jennifer's Body skins and you have a Halloween DLC for the girlies. Havik? DLC. Kronika is literally just there to chat shit.

Also,there's certain storylines that if they really explored them, could get uncomfortable real quick. Nitara's tower ending comes to mind, considering that it pretty much implies that she becomes a human trafficker outright,which........honestly could lead to some interesting moral questions for her if handled correctly. But I don't trust NRS to do that. Ashrah's another one that they have to tread real light with.

Yeah tbh a few people in the cast kinda aren't doing much, but I low-key do get the vibe that NRS has a lot of love for the Deadly Alliance era characters, which is why we're seeing a bunch of them in MK1. I don't know if I think they should've been DLC bc we don't know what the DLC schedule for MK1 looks like but Sonya should've been in the main cast at launch. That was a huge miss.

Tbh, I don't see Nitara getting expanded on sadly due to the poor reception of her character, but Ashrah might--given her connection to Sareena and Syzoth, and that she essentially got upgraded to a champion of Earthrealm. I doubt they'll handle any continuation of her story with any nuance; given Johnny says that Sareena is Bi-Han's future bestie, and Ashrah expresses worry that Sareena is turning back to darkness, and that Bi-Han is redeemable, what they are probably going to do is have Ashrah and Sareena play a role in redeeming Bi-Han and stopping the Cyber initiative, and Sareena being 'purified' through the same means as Ashrah. Which is boring, but they're going for black and white and I don't see that changing course. But I'd be happy to be wrong and see them make use of the potential they have.

[uncriticalbunny]

I absolutely agree with your sentiments with regards to syd's yet unexplored sexuality but am I the only person peeved at the wardrobe choices for Syd, I appreciate her quirky, nerdy vibe but she dresses like a drab middle aged school teacher. Ayo herself has such a funky, unorthodox yet undeniably sexy vibe, she is gorgeous with an insane body. while the show does not need to have her in revealing outfits, some fitted or more age appropriate clothing would not diminish her character arc. it almost seems as if the show wishes to diminish her attractiveness, to reduce her desirability as a woman and thus vetoing any possible romance with the white stud Carmy, it always baffles me that with the exception of Molly Gordon most be ppl downplay the white hot chemistry between JAW and Ayo like it is so noticeable. there is real fire between them that any show runner wold have capitalized on.Realistic audience sees it, if syd was white, ppl would be shipping it. but u know the black girls gotta stay platonic

i think syd's style is quirky and cute and very in line with her characterization. the costume designer is black btw, but she's still beholden to storer's vision and gets input from the actors. she also did an interview, it's an interesting process! tbh even if syd was in drop dead gorgeous attire, this fandom would still struggle to see her desirability [as it generally is w/ black female characters]. it would still be nice to see for sure. because you're right, there is something to be said about it in the larger context of how black female characters in media are treated.

I sense there is a desire, I guess to try to get people to take sydney seriously by making her low femme. but it really kinda just ends up feeding into certain stereotypes. black woman -> serious character -> low-key fashion -> not seen as desirable both by the cameras/fandom -> ergo lesbian storyline w zero effort/straight or ace w no need for a romance arc. [sidenote: I think ayo has been lit a lot better this season [still not 100%] and they finally got a clue to focus on those amazing eyes of hers.] which I would normally be like whatever to these things in a show like the bear, but the show and its creators are doing and saying a lot of funky things about sydney, both quietly and out loud.

i've spoken about it ad nauseum and now I'm just tired at the circus surrounding the ship. i will simply go back to continue appreciating my completed shows with satisfying romantic arcs featuring black women whose actors/creators weren't prompted about and didn't cry every 2 seconds about ships ☝🏿 [the expanse and twd to name a few]

[moriartyluver]

🦢 anon is back with the song analysis again

ok but teen fl + teen idle by marina is soo real

“I wanna be a bottle blonde I don't know why but I feel conned”- her feeling like liam is more privileged than her and feeling slightly jealous of him because she saw him as a white b who got everything handed to him

“I wanna be an idle teen I wish I hadn't been so clean”- revenge revenge revenge

“I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away”- her being an introvert as a teen and only ever studying and maybe occasionally socialising

“I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake”- her putting on a facade

“Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible Feeling super, super, super suicidal”- the third line here is kinda like her being 16 and committing crimes ig?? Also fl low-key wants to unalive herself but knowing her she probably won’t try because of all her responsibilities

“The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth”- I know we didn’t get an exact thing abt fls relationship with Theo the pedo but I’d say it’s implied they probably did the deed. Like how when they were dancing in the Ashfordshire arc, liam said something abt fl having multiple partners in other aspects, also in the past chapter u mentioned that fl would visit Theo at night. I think she’d lie to herself and act as if she was just seducing him but really she was probably getting abused by him

“And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive”- fl having her grand duchess glow up post timeskip 👏 👏

“I wanna be a virgin pure A twenty-first century whore I want back my virginity So I can feel infinity”- fls issues with intimacy with Liam because of Theo. She probably never enjoyed the devils tango until liam came around because she was so used to using it for her ulterior motives 😕😕 also she always is getting fetishised and flirted with by the other noblemen to the point she felt she had to marry a guy she considered her biggest rival just to shake them off only for them to keep going and not understand how uncomfy she was

“I wanna drink until I ache I wanna make a big mistake I want blood, guts, and angel cake I'm gonna puke it anyway”- in the Noahtic arc, fl got drunk a bit and was probably using it as escapism for her issue of an heir. Also fls implied Ed ^^

“I wish I wasn't such a narcissist I wish I didn't really kiss The mirror when I'm on my own Oh God, I'm gonna die alone” - fl has slight self esteem issues imo so this lyric makes sense especially because she seemed to be a little meaner as a teen and rightfully so bc her brother literally died because of the British ofc she won’t like any of them. In like the second chapter fl made a comment abt dying alone and I thought that fits

“Adolescence didn't make sense A little loss of innocence The ugliness of being a fool Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?”- fl was suffering since she was like 9 and I don’t think anyone reached out to her tbh if she was really killing whole families at 16. She was probably hella merciless and numb poor girl. She also probably lost her innocence because of Theo and other weird noble guys

also she fits seventeen by marina too. If she was an mtp character she’d probably get angst edits to that one bit “I was brought up as a baby well you don’t know fuck about my family could never tell you what happened the day I turned seventeen the rise of the king and the fall of a queen”

fl is just sooo Marina coded idc

ALSO I AM BEGGING YOU TO GET SOME REST GIRLIE. u usually update like every day. We don’t need u losing sleep over false lovers I promise. Get ur beauty sleep 🙏

Stop this is literally a whole essay 😭 u are right abt most of it tho

Theo is literally such an asshole I’m glad fl killed him and tortured him

Bro was 20 and courting a 16 year old but wasn’t even following proper etiquette rules

Fl finds it so difficult to be affectionate with Liam all because of that stupid mf.

Grand duchess fl 🛐

Fls parents tried to reach out to help her with her grief when she was a kid but they were both suffering themselves and they were trying to find out who was responsible for fls brothers death while also suffering responsibilities as the grand duke and duchess. They tried but fl shut everyone out because she only wanted revenge

Fl also has really terrible self esteem issues but she doesn’t let it show at all. From her perspective William was just an asshole and she felt like it was unfair everyone treated him better than her. Paris and rory esque relationship tbh

Tbh fl would get edited with like every Marina song she’s just that Marina coded

Also I’m currently on holiday so I’m trying my best to get some rest after my exams. I’ll try to be constant with updates but tbh I don’t think I’ll update until I’m back home because my internet keeps getting fucked up lol

[nonclassyparty]

watching everyone discuss sr!sans irredeemability is so entertaining i love when there’s so many different opinions

however me personally i don’t necessarily think san is irredeemable but i wouldn’t be all for jump his bones either, i don’t think he’s a bad person nor a good person just a person who’s made bad decisions and is most definitely an asshole (at least he’s also self aware i guess…) but i do think for oc it would be better for him not to be in her life as he’s honestly just hurt her constantly and unless she completely heals and moves on from it he would be deemed “irredeemable” BUT also me as a person i do like to think people could change for the better sooooo….. but….. he’s hurt her so much…..

also to be fair depending on different characters’ perspective, oc could also be seen as irredeemable (i.e. boyoungs pov) so seeing this from oc’s pov shows san as an asshole (which he is but i think he seems even worse from her pov) and that’s why a lot of people think he’s irredeemable. i personally think he needs therapy (and everyone else atp bye)

i just wish for mc to have all the closure possible and for her to learn to love herself and have a good support group that loves her

this is why i love your writing tbh because there’s no black or white, good or bad, the characters you write are so complex and have so much depth that make them realistic and i love how you’ve developed them. honestly you should be proud you’re amazing! the way every single character you’ve written has made some kind of mistake or been some kind of dick somehow to someone and not any of them are perfect is why i love this series sm

(also low-key if wooyoung and yeosang in love or whatevuh and wooyoung her bestie will yeosang also become her bestie eventually…. if so…. looking forward to that friendship development)

take care of yourself stay hydrated and continue to be the baddie you are xx looking forward to the next update xx

i love when there are so many different opinions as well and its playing out exactly how i expected it to bc now instead of everybody being on the good girl's side and disregarding the mean girl, everybody is on y/n's side and disregarding just anybody else 😭

but yes absolutely, i agree with you! apart from y/n going back to him being a complete step back to everything she's worked on (even if he has changed and now decides he wants something serious with her, some hurt just stays and you cant get over that shit and frankly shouldnt bc how do you even build a healthy relationship over all the history the two of them have), the two of them together would just be a disaster i feel like they'd just enable each other's bad behavior 😭

and also yes, from boyoung's perspective yn is the irredeemable one and san is her ex-boyfriend and her first love and the guy she still has a soft spot for. it's all about perspectives!!

thank you very much for reading and enjoying the series, i worked so hard on it when i tell u cant wait for the final chapter to be posted bc i want to write something elseeeee😭

(and u know yeosang will be her bestie as well, she always liked him but the beef between them ruined it😭)

[farcillesbian]

4, 25 (+ music recs if u wanna!), and 28 for the ask game!

4. mythical creature you think/believe is real?

low-key believe faeries could be real tbh on like a minute scale. I've always liked to think of "small magic" being real, explaining away little things that don't quite make sense? also I like to think that mermaids and other mythical sea creatures could exist in the unexplored depths of the ocean... not quite in the way we depict them tho because of the extreme environment

25. would you say you have good taste in music?

yes I have the best and coolest taste in music (jokes) but well I do think I have a pretty interesting varied taste in music that I'm proud of! getting lost in interesting songs and singing along to my favourite songs are some of my favourite ways to stim lol. I'm a big fan of complex guitar melodies and synth sounds & some recommendations I have are:

the entire peripheral vision album by turnover (indie rock/dream pop with pop punk roots?)

pile! no pile! pile! by brave little abacus (midwest emo genre with sorta screamy vocals)

a girl is a knife by boxcutter (always gotta shout out boxxy, the first time I listened to their album sorta blew my mind. great lil emo band with a super fantastic guitarist. I'm a boxhead. vocals are screamy)

all these things by benton falls (more midwest emo but less harsh vocals)

trust me by sincere engineer (I love her she's so good. this is my favourite of her stuff but it's all great. she's like emo pop punk esque singer songwriter)

speeding up the octaves by hawthorne heights (classic emo rock. I love the entire silence in black and white album it's hard to pick just one song but. if u enjoy this I'd recommend checking out the whole album)

untitled #6 by girlfriends (just. so much fun. very math rocky sound. I love this song & this whole album is also great)

and now for some goth rock:

mondlicht by xmal deutschland

Судно (Борис Рижий) by molchat doma

wax and wane by cocteau twins

I coldly stare out by pink turns blue

dot in the sky by drab majesty

fantasmas by twin tribes

esfumados sueños by euroshima

silaluk by shadow age

28. last meal on earth?

THIS IS HARD. something with fun textures... like risotto. with a side of raw beef dish (carpaccio or tartare). and a beef kafta wrap from the Syrian restaurant near me...

[vonkarma2]

oh also the villains plan is to bring back pre colombian mayan religion because he wants to be worshiped again as this will make him more powerful (low key understandable for a god whose power is fading so much he can no longer leave a small radius and might eventually fall asleep eternally) and this is presented as an apocalyptically bad outcome like 8 million human sacrifices the river will run red with blood etc etc. I don’t know about that as a narrative choice tbh.

it seems strangely pro modernity in general throughout like the main character’s freedom is shown through dressing in a more modern and American influenced style and getting a bob haircut (it’s the 1920s in this to be clear lol) and her god bf gets her a bracelet that she says is “meant to attract the eyes of tourists with its faux pre-Hispanic motifs” as like the start of their romance + she talks about wanting to have a car bc of the freedom it would represent vs a train idk. not that I’m saying conservative Catholicism and pre Colombian religion are automatically morally pure or anything and I think a lot of these are just small details that don’t matter in a broad thematic sense BUT I do think like why do you keep bringing up national identity and the way it’s changing if it’s not actually relevant to the books themes. Maybe I shouldn’t expect it to have deep leftist political themes or whatever just bc it’s set in Mexico and focuses on Mayan mythology like that could genuinely just be the setting for the story of these gods + this one girl gaining more freedom and everything. Doesn’t automatically have to be a political critique. But I do think because of the main conflict you can read it as low key pro imperialism + the support for american capitalist influence as an extension of that

in the expositional narration it seems to be a lot more nuanced abt like oh Mexico City this urban area has had influence from american culture and these other places are influenced by European countries + it definitely isn’t positive overall like neutral to critical and saying the rich people love being associated with Europe and whiteness in general and speak a bit of English or French to reinforce their status. But then the actual story doesn’t seem to support this or deliver on these themes, with the exception of people being very colorist to the main character which does come up repeatedly. Well actually ok I lied there are other major antagonists that are from this girl’s rich family and take for granted their status over her + are very materialistic ally motivated + though I think the criticism of them is mostly like they are patriarchs who feel entitled and prideful and can’t stand a woman talking back to them it’s definitely class related as well. but the ally that got them all this wealth is a mayan god 🤔 and hes not even like the god of selling out or anything hes just a death god ok whatever I actually don’t have a coherent critique. forget everything I just said

[323398149]

It's been 10 years

I'm low-key not even a swiftie anymore (kinda, sorta)

I'm living my dream career (technically) (sorta)

And it's not once an hour, it's not once a day, it's not once a week, a month, or a quarter. It's more like once a year that I miss him. It's not even miss, it's more like think about and contemplate the past and relate it to my present.

I don't even know him. I just know the concept, the memory.

And I know that even the memory was terrible and gross and toxic.

But let me explain what happened recently that triggered these annoying, lame, over-done thoughts:

I got new skincare. I've been eating and sleeping well. I've been praying/meditating. I've been maintaining a positive outlook and been happy and hopeful recently. I finally started wearing nice makeup and I finally have the most fire wardrobe rn that I coulda only dreamed of in the past.

And so I've been getting a bunch of compliments recently of ppl telling me I'm glowing. Specifically three ppl from different parts of my life all used the same word.

But the thing is that none of those compliments feel like they hold any weight.

I already pulled the hottest guy in our grade. He was in love with me. ME! AND keep in mind that that was the ugly, loser, insecure, shitty, judgemental, mean (honestly SO mean), stupid, fifteen year old version of me. Not this sorta stable, medicated, whole, adult version.

Remember that gorgeous older white girl that asked him out? Or all those gorgeous tall academic girls crowding around me in grade 12 asking me questions about him because they couldn't understand how this RUSH loser could have been worth his time? and they wanted to know everything they could find out about him from me before they made their moves. Or when tiffany didn't talk to me for a year and then later apologized because she felt bad for letting a man pit her against me. And Jessica obviously (that one was just sad). ALSO LETS REMEMBER all of this was grade 11+12 so I didn't even have any communications with him at this point but I was still being interrogated about him.

Anyways my point is lmaooooo I think when my heart broke at 16 idk but maybe a part of it really did die. It's hard to describe it but I feel like a part of me is dead inside. Ever since then, anytime I've gotten attention I haven't felt special or grateful. I almost resent it. I feel annoyed that they're telling me something I already heard in a way more special way. Like they're parroting and copying it but they'll never be able to meet the magic or rush I used to feel when he said it.

There isn't a magic to it anymore. Now love feels very clinical. I guess I stopped believing in love? I guess at too young an age I became bitter and now just chalk it up to hormones and chemical imbalances.

And recently I heard someone talking about falling in love and I literally thought "agh that sounds terrible why would anybody want to FALL in love??! sounds like it would hurt smh". I just want to gently like drift into a soft stable comfortable kindness with someone. That's all.

Anyways idk if it's the new taylor swift album coming out (which pls be proud of me I haven't heard all the way through yet and I'm hoping to never hear it and stay halal) but yeah idk if I'll ever love anybody like I did that one time at fifteen which didn't even lead to anything and had zero payoff so it feels so wasteful and annoying that it happened.

But then I think about how like what if I end up dying alone and that ends up being the only thing I ever had worth remembering so maybe it's not so bad and maybe even tho it didn't pay off in a bigger way, maybe it was worth something.

Anyways but loooooooool like LMAO don't get me wrong like I know I know let's definitely not forget that it was literally NOTHING. Absolutely nothing happened but two teenagers feeling seen by eachother.

Tbh one of us should cash out on it and write a teen novel.

Wait after typing that out I just had a terrible realization. Lmaooooo jeez Louise this is why I'm supposed to journal so I can make sense of my toxic period thoughts.

With j I felt like "well duh you should obviously be saying that to me because you don't even compare to him. You saying that does not validate me in any way. I'm out of your league." BUT GUYS IT'S NOT MAGIC HELPPPP

I think I'm just finally grown up and confident and whole??? I don't feel "magic" from external validation. I know I'm a baddie helpppppppppp which I didn't know back then. Which is why I'd probs get hella endorphin release when he'd write those damn poems because I wanted someone ELSE to tell me good things about me. But now I know them in my own brain. Woah. Big thoughts. So maybe we're grateful to him for giving me that back when I really needed the attention. And now I'm ok with dying alone loooooooool and I don't need anybody to make me feel good. How interesting.

Well that was a weirdly wholesome exercise/rant. Glad we did this lmao @ my multiple personalities. Catch y'all on the flip side.

[missdollytheog]

But don't you think they are all the same block? Like you could see other models that look similar to Arabella.. Claire and Diba has almost identical hairstyle 🤣

custom made girls for footballers tbh it’s what they all should do🤣 I love guys like declan or some other players who went for naturals and in & out beauty they are nice guys. Others can do whatever they like🤣

Yeah I think Lauren is gorgeous! Kai's gf is as well. Ben White's wife is also stunning.. I think the low key ones and not fame hunger as those I appreciate 🥰