#i think i want him to hold me

[no-vamos]

argh I’m so frustrated with myself

I hate being unable to tell how I’m feeling about people bc literally two weeks ago I thought I was in love with the drummer in our pit and then I came to the wack realization that maybe I liked the guy who was our stage manager and before the drummer I couldn’t tell if I liked my brother’s childhood best friend as a crush or as a sister and now now I’m sitting here confused bc maybe i like one of my friends

But I was literally obsessed with one of our mutual friends like a year ago and had a big falling out with our friend group over that bc it really fucking hurt me

and like my friend that I have a crush (?) on… like I think he’s cute but I can here my friends in the back of my head going bitch wtf he’s not cute but then every time he holds eye contact while I ramble about something my stomach does a little flip and every time he smiles I smile back bc I love seeing him full of joy and I love how he waits to walk out of environ sci with me and when we make eye contact during choir I make a funny face and smile when he silently laughs at me and I love talking about random shit and I love the way his voice sounds and I love hearing him be happy and play games with our friends

and he let me brush his hair the other day his hair is absolutely gorgeous and it makes me so happy he let me do that and

there’s this project I have to get done eventually that this other guy in my class is working on with me for some reason but he scares me so I’m dragging my friend/crush with me bc I’m like pls come with me (I don’t want to be alone with him bc I’d much rather be alone with you)

he makes me smile and he’s passionate about his hobbies and by god he’s a runner but is also really big on weight lifting and istg i think i would pass out if i ever saw him lift and i love just watching him and talking with him

and i can’t tell if i like him more than a friend

i don’t even know if he would see me as more than a friend

my cousin used to hypothesize that he was aroace like his older sibling and i don’t want to just straight out ask if he likes girls bc that’s rude, i think

and do i actually want to date him?

i want to hold his hand

i have to hold myself back from just interlocking my fingers with his

it would be so easy

but i don’t want to make him uncomfortable

i’m just happy he smiles at me and is my friend

but I would love to put my head on his shoulders and hold his hand

i want to want more but i don’t want to hurt myself any more than i already have in the past

maybe i just like the idea of it all

i’m lonely inside

i just want someone to want me

i would love it if he loved me

but i have a feeling that he would never see me like that

in the end we’re just friends

and if i acted on it i’d lose him

maybe i’ll tell him next year, if i still like him

if this crush lasts longer than a few weeks

maybe i just like him bc he gives me the attention none of our other friends give me

i care about him a lot more than i care about any of them

[hinamie]

happy gojoday to all who celebrate

[soldrawss]

Something something 16yo 2k12 Mikey gets sucked into a portal and sent into the RISE universe and ends up helping raise the RISE kiddos AU

[teddybeartoji]

you kiss the back of toji's hand one day very casually before intertwining your fingers with his and the man just kind of shuts down . bc what the hell did you just do????? kissed his hand?? you kissed his hand????? that's.. what?????? isn't he supposed to be kissing yours?????? and the fact that you're now just acting like nothing happened has him staring at you with widened eyes and slightly furrowed brows. you turn back to check on him because you realize that he's not following you anymore and just laugh lightheartedly when you see the faint blush on his cheeks and his burning ears. brining his hand to your mouth again, you press another kiss to his knuckles with a teasing smile glued to your lips and that makes him snap out of his daze. he tries to brush you off with a quiet click of his tongue but you know he liked it. you know he loved it.

[egophiliac]

was this anyone else's first thought, or

[choccy-milky]

sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

In the world of heavy metals, love is denser than hate!

[bagginshieldfamily]

Something I need the fix it AU writers who use Frodo as Bagginsgields child to focus more on:

Gimli meeting a hobbit that looks strangely like Thorin Oakenshield but has the last name Baggins before connecting the dots:

[lazylittledragon]

ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

[shitpostingkats]

Terra Kingdomhearts is literally the story about an oldest son born with something Wrong inside him and his whole family expects him to outgrow it, or ignore it, or defeat it, and then he gets bigger and he is still Wrong. Terra Kingdomhearts is the story of being isolated and sheltered from anyone willing to acknowledge the Wrongness inside you and so when he finally, finally meets someone who treats the Wrongness as no big deal, not a Wrongness at all, it's instantly a lifeline to this poor man and he will do anything to learn more about how he is not Wrong forever, actually. It's a story about how if you live your life with no community for the Wrongness that lives inside you that your very first lifeline can be used to strangle you. Do you understand what I'm saying

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Continuation of my other post here, the autobots have come close to figuring out that Optimus is the sire but Optimus is way too moral to spark up an subordinate so they don’t look into it more

Skywarp stole the evidence, Ratchet doesn’t notice cause he and Optimus are too busy with the baby for any fun private parties

[0bsequi0us]

Crybaby 🫵

[junocornkiwi]

🦊х🔮

- You're a jumpy one, aren't you? I may grant you comfort, if you wish.

- U-uh, no, thank you. There's no need. It's not that I don’t want you, uhm... It's just... Can you put me down already. Please.

my huge melancholic druid likes to carry gale in a bridal style 😌❤️✨(they both enjoy it) (astarion wants a turn too tho)

[saturnaous]

fucked up. I want to play pool but instead I’m drawing them playing pool. what the fuck.

[citrusai]

taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.

[egophiliac]

time for skeleman

with the lack of any other info yet, all I can focus on are those Charles Lloyd-looking sunglasses. they are absolutely sending me. I feel like we're gonna fall through a tree or whatever and this stitched-up boney gentleman is gonna pop out from behind a gravestone and start serenading us with some smooth jazz on the saxophone.

or should I say...the saxoBONE???????