#i talk a lot when im nervous

[hinamie]

色彩 [Shikisai]

[witness2caesar]

Working on it.... I unfortunately can't turn my brain off with the amount of ideas I have for them. My wallet is screaming at me, guys

[mr-urple]

phenomenon i've noticed about my speech

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[cerbreus]

I sent an email to the admissions dept for the school with the radiography program I'm interested in (despite it maybe not being feasible for me as the most competitive program in the state outside of MD programs) and they replied sooner than I expected to set up a call talking abt transcripts and I am so crazy nervous

[tittyinfinity]

contemplating deleting my blog soon I might make a new blog but idk

[fappellmoan]

so i just wanna say i think i fumbled with a bad bitch a little bit the other night but not just in a shy loser wuhluhwuh way i just have so many other problems. but going forward i am going to be brave 🙏

[harmonizewithechoes]

My five year old has his very first day of kindergarten tomorrow 🥺🥺🥺 I didn’t expect to be hit with such a huge wave of emotions but I’ve been a WRECK all day

[good-beanswrites]

Hello! So like I've been having that Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins AU rent free in my head for a while, and thought this up.

Since the prisoners weren't allowed to meet at first, they could hear the others practicing their singing nearby/next door. Some are awed by how passionate they put into their songs (eg: Haruka & Shidou), how into it (eg: Fuuta & Kotoko), how emotional (eg: Kazui), etc. This allowed the prisoners to imagine what the others are like.

...Then there's Mikoto with Red going all out with their MeMe song and it stunned everyone into silent fear until the prisoners meet him and go "YOU SANG THAT!?!"

I've been going so so crazy over this omg!!

No matter how big the facilities are, I'd imagine it would be difficult to keep ten people undergoing a full filming process completely separate from each other. Though they don't actually see each other, they overhear recording booth sessions while while walking down the hall. They spot unique outfits and props in the costume closet. They hear crew members giving Jackalope weird updates ("sir, where do you want the massive tarot cards when they're finished?" "the order of thousands of fake flowers has arrived" "we ran out of medieval outfits" etc.) They see teams lugging around massive set pieces from one stage to another. They hear a few hushed rehearsals from behind dressing room doors.

Mahiru totally tears up listening to Kazui. Meanwhile Kazui is blown away by Mahiru's enthusiasm and speed. Yuno thinks After Pain sounds really fun. Amane is awed at the other songs, (she's never even heard rock music before). Kotoko finds herself singing bits of Weakness. Muu is moved by Shidou. Fuuta is torn between being jealous of Mikoto's song and excited there's someone else with some yelling.

And so of course, the prisoners go crazy trying to piece together predictions about their upcoming cellmates. One the experiment begins, they subconsciously start matching up the voices they remembered hearing with their expectations. I think Shidou, Amane, and Kotoko would surprise people the most -- it seems hard hard to get a day-to-day read on them from their songs alone. Fuuta is simultaneously exactly what people were expecting and nothing like what they thought. Everyone's ideas of Mahiru were spot on. Haruka sang so confidently that the group is surprised to hear him stutter so often. Anyone who heard a bit of Meme is shocked when they meet Mikoto and make the connection. When asked about it, he just shrugs and laughs innocently, which only makes it harder to believe. Fuuta, excited to find someone else who did a rock song, is sorely disappointed at first.

[elftwink]

been learning to play ironsworn (gritty fantasy ttrpg which you can play with a gm but is mostly suited for solo or small group co-op gmless play) after having the rulebook pdf for several years (stars finally aligned to remove invisible thing blocking me from reading it idk) because i'm on another solo ttrpg kick & i don't know what took me so long to get around to this game because it genuinely is exactly what i was looking for. years ago when i was playing through solo 5e modules i should have just been playing ironsworn (believe it or not, 5e isn't very suited to solo play and is extremely clunky when you try lol).

also though i have dabbled in some other solo ttrpgs, a considerable amount of them are journaling games which is fun but imo considerably more work (usually by the time i'm a quarter of the way through the journal entry, i know how to entire scene played out and i want to move on to the next gameplay thing, so i get frustrated and bored quickly. it feels like when you solve a level in a video game but don't have the coordination to pull off the necessary move so you have to spend 20 extra minutes doing something you already figured out), so i really appreciate like not needing to write something for the game to progress (ive been taking notes for my own record since im playing solo and thus am not really out loud roleplaying the way you do in a group, but i definitely could do that instead and not take notes and the game would still function perfectly)

& ive been playing by myself but also in the past ive played a lot of ttrpgs in very small groups which has been other games but is mostly dnd and like. we also should have been playing ironsworn so that having a gm was not necessary. have definitely played games where we had to adapt the rules soooo much to do something that is just base game included in ironsworn. plus it's rules-light enough to do pretty complex moves that pose difficulties in bulkier games (ever introduced someone to dnd and they tell you they want to do a sick backflip and catch something and then attack and you have to tell them that will require several different consecutive rolls and some creative liberties with how the rules are 'supposed' to let you move? you can just Do That in ironsworn. use the strike move and describe it. done!)

the one thing is that although it's rules-light enough to theoretically play any setting or genre (some with more difficulty than others), ive found so far that like... the grittiness and sense of threat is very built into the mechanics so that would be sort of difficult to work around or change (but i think it's great from a game design perspective). what i mean is like, okay: you start with 5 max hp. there isn't really a way to raise this max hp, you just slowly gain abilities (assets) that make you less likely to have to lose the hp in the first place, or that make it easier to recover. when you encounter foes, you rank them on a scale of 1 -5, and enemies on the lowest side of this scale do one harm to you, while enemies on the highest side do five harm to you. so even though encountering an epic enemy won't always be deadly due to the assets you have, they are ALWAYS capable of taking you down to 0 hp with one good hit. so the feeling of threat is much more present compared to games where your character starts to be able to just tank and push through a failure or huge threat.

admittedly also i'm playing solo, im still learning how to balance combat, and also i built a character who has NO combat talents and iron (the close quarters fighting stat) is one of my lowest stats so i personally am under much more threat than if you built a character who knew how to fight or who could do deadly harm. but also the other thing about combat is it's extremely difficult to maintain control of the fight; you have to score a strong hit to do it on basically all moves, and there's a really limited pool of moves available when you don't have the initiative, and obviously none of them really favour you. i don't know that this makes combat genuinely more difficult, but it does make you feel like the fight is always about to spiral out of your control. every second you let it drag without decisive action feels like it brings you closer to dying. like i said, this is a feature of the game design and not a problem in any way. just thinking about it because when i was initially learning i was going to try to supplant it into a homebrew fantasy world of my own but the tone just wouldn't be right. and that it is somewhat difficult to replicate the kind of worlds that i typically play or run for dnd, which tend to lean somewhat sillier and definitely much higher fantasy

but i like to try new things and tbh especially in dnd i find that i very rarely feel that sense of threat and when i do feel it, it has nothing at all to do with the actual mechanics and reality of the combat and everything to do with how well the dm sells it to me and makes it sound and feel scary and dangerous. which is a testament to what a good gm can do for you but i do appreciate the threat feeling more built-in and also being actually real.

[thetriggeredhappy]

im reading ur blinded scout fic rn and i keep bursting into tears... soft sniper... spy tryna look out for scout.... im going to cry ... thank you

first of all, excellent username, second of all - thank you!

i got a comment the other day on one of my older fics (almost a decade old now i think?) and it’s been on my mind that the stuff i make can be good for people even after it’s been so long that i’ve basically forgotten about it. for obvious reasons i’m reminded about RB a lot more but it’s a good feeling knowing that the stuff i make is still like. making people happy? i hope it keeps doing that!

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

[tenrose]

Remember when I could barely read anything for years?

Well, at that time the very few books I could read were Brandon Sanderson's ones. Until I couldn't. I tried to read rhythm of war and I just couldn't. Not because I got bored of it, had lost my obsession or whatever. But I was just physically unable to read it... Tbh Kaladin mental state being close to mine at that time was probably a reason. Anyway, after that I stopped reading completely. It broke something in me to not be able to enjoy something I know I normally love. And I knew it wasn't cause I grew out of it like I usually do And I felt guilty not reading, etc. So I basically stopped reading completely for what feel like ages.

When I started reading back I was scared picking up any of his books, so I didn't try, I then you know I slowly came back to my original self, found a part of my soul that was dead, or so I thought. But yes basically I'm now my normal reading self with my imagination functioning, as normally as it is possible when you're an adult working 40hrs a week, dealing with a dysfunctional brain, you know the drill. Last year was a good year in terms of books.

So what I'm telling you is that I'm finally confident and able to read a Sanderson book. And also it means I'm like 10 books late 💀 I haven't decided to read ROW because I've decided to be reasonable and test water first. And I've started Tress of the Emerald Sea so I can have a nice one shot at first. And god does it feels good to dive into something love. And to instantly recognise the narrator despite the years, to know you're gonna have a good world building and a magic system. I'm very early in the book, because as usual my reading pace during weeks is like very very slow cause I'm on low battery brain and sleepy but now that I've accepted that I don't feel guilt anymore. I think I picked the right book cause it's light, it low-key have the kind of British humour style I love so I can relax in peace. Can't wait to finally be able to come back to the stormlight archive and cry, cry cry.

Also generally speaking I have the urge to come back to big ass fantasy book series so it means I'm good.

[comvi]

my guesses for your oc's They're ALL teddybear looking i can already see it. DEF dragon features or dragon related i alr know CUTE!!

YJEA!! I havent updated my toyhouse properly in a long time & a lot of guys are missing here but….

https://toyhou.se/galacticake/characters/folder:5745546 <- some pf my fellas if you’d like to observe them.. 👈

some of my personal favourite things to add in characters are dragon features/traits, or those of similar looking creatures (been getting interested in kobolds recently), obviously, but i also LOVE making them really colourful and giving them lots of fun accessories or outfits. Im not too good at actually designing or getting ideas for that kinda stuff though, so it can be a bit hard to *display* that i do like that lol

i have a few more ocs that aren’t here yet, because i want to be sure i like their designs before posting about ‘em. But ive been getting into a lot more alien/extraterrestrial, sci-fi, robot etc-like content and media so… lots of thoughts going on about that. MAYBE EXPECT TO SEE EM POP UP HERE AT SOME TIME!!! :3

[scootatwoni]

Luv how I'm an sdv shane fan but I do not give a single darn abt coral island mark

[red-dyed-sarumane]

all the vocap loved the fan art that was such a good idea omg. i was so nervous to talk to gomeie since hes the first person i was talking to so it was. a little awkward but it went okay!! i told vuvuzela ive been a fan since 2020 & he was like oh my god thats insane. zensen said my art was cute. shu was like this is amazing the colors are so bright this might be the best thing a fans given me. & fuyuu was also like oh my god u drew me something????? & was showing it to the person next to him im like yeah i love ur rime songs. naisho no pierce isnt here but i wrote a letter & put the shikishi in with it & put it in his box