#so she landed me first book (divided in two again 😤)

[tenrose]

Remember when I could barely read anything for years?

Well, at that time the very few books I could read were Brandon Sanderson's ones. Until I couldn't. I tried to read rhythm of war and I just couldn't. Not because I got bored of it, had lost my obsession or whatever. But I was just physically unable to read it... Tbh Kaladin mental state being close to mine at that time was probably a reason. Anyway, after that I stopped reading completely. It broke something in me to not be able to enjoy something I know I normally love. And I knew it wasn't cause I grew out of it like I usually do And I felt guilty not reading, etc. So I basically stopped reading completely for what feel like ages.

When I started reading back I was scared picking up any of his books, so I didn't try, I then you know I slowly came back to my original self, found a part of my soul that was dead, or so I thought. But yes basically I'm now my normal reading self with my imagination functioning, as normally as it is possible when you're an adult working 40hrs a week, dealing with a dysfunctional brain, you know the drill. Last year was a good year in terms of books.

So what I'm telling you is that I'm finally confident and able to read a Sanderson book. And also it means I'm like 10 books late 💀 I haven't decided to read ROW because I've decided to be reasonable and test water first. And I've started Tress of the Emerald Sea so I can have a nice one shot at first. And god does it feels good to dive into something love. And to instantly recognise the narrator despite the years, to know you're gonna have a good world building and a magic system. I'm very early in the book, because as usual my reading pace during weeks is like very very slow cause I'm on low battery brain and sleepy but now that I've accepted that I don't feel guilt anymore. I think I picked the right book cause it's light, it low-key have the kind of British humour style I love so I can relax in peace. Can't wait to finally be able to come back to the stormlight archive and cry, cry cry.

Also generally speaking I have the urge to come back to big ass fantasy book series so it means I'm good.