#i should probably take my meds actually

[catsockpuppet]

fuck there’s another episode of that fuckass show (not spooky month)/neg

[r1poutmygvtz]

don't you just love going from being so angry you're breaking and punching things, to being so upset you genuinely consider killing yourself, to being so happy you're giggling and smiling uncontrollably at every little thing, just to end up becoming completely apathetic towards everything all within 30 minutes of each other?? /s 😻

[mamawasatesttube]

Hello! I was just curious, do you have liner notes for more of your playlists? I really enjoyed reading through your Kon playlist google doc.

Thanks!

omg i'm delighted to hear that!! :D i don't have any others annotated but i do have other playlists. i'd be happy to do a writeup for any of them if you want any in particular!! it might take me a little bit bc it takes a few hours but it's fun work!!

and my playlists, for reference: kon (and associated doc, for anyone else wondering!), bart, tim, and timkon. plus a couple of others that probably don't actually need annotating lol (tim's sexy car playlist, my "songs that feel like space" aka spacefic writing playlist, and the "fuck it UP!" playlist i mostly use for writing action scenes!)

[goldkirk]

If anyone remembers all the dental work I needed done uhhhhhhh three years ago and never went back and ran away forever…I’m finally going back to a dentist on Thursday to restart the process and face my deep and utter abiding terror. And I also scheduled my COVID and flu vaccines for a couple hours later. And my psych appointment to restart meds.

I figured get it all done in one day, have my miserable immune reaction on Friday that I seem to always get with Moderna COVID shots, and then flee directly into the weekend and never be a person again except when I’m on and off crying. It’s going to be so kind to future me to get these things done and I can do it no matter how much I feel like I am constantly about to Actually Physically Die.

[face-breaker]

the best thing this hell site ever implemented was post auto saving —

[medinaquirin]

I realize that as difficult as it is being a caregiver it's also extremely fucked being the one in need of that care which can bring on all kinds of fun Thoughts And Feelings and I shouldn't take it personally when my father lashes out or snaps at me when I try to help or remind him of something, but it sure doesn't stop me from wanting to just be like ".....Bitch."

[dogboy-dyke]

guhhh

[phagodyke]

looking up info on keloid scarring is so helpful. thanks man I didn't think of trying that one

[creature-from-unknown-orgins]

Zzzzzzz mimimimimi

[thethingything]

I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again

[terrorbirb]

This weekend started off fine but somehow I have ruined my life

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[ironmanstan]

the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)

[coffeeworldsasaki]

Once again chanting in my mind "graphic card" to avoid snapping at my mother saying dumb shit

[alagaisia]

This is something I learned at one of the pre-op visits for my breast reduction! My surgeon was basically I think an independent surgeon (as I guess I would imagine is common for “cosmetic”/plastic surgeons?) and she was telling us a little bit about what to do for talking to insurance about the surgery and stuff, and she mentioned that for us going through insurance it would be at a particular hospital, but she also often did surgeries where people didn’t use there insurance, and she did those at some other place, and the price she charged up front was much lower, because that was the actual cost of the surgery (and equipment and everyone’s salaries etc.) and she had to raise the ticket price significantly when people would go through insurance, because the insurance company would negotiate that price down, and then keep some of the money. (Obviously for us and many others it still worked out to be cheaper for us out of pocket to go through insurance, but the amount she made was roughly the same even though it would look like she charged thousands more for my breast reduction than for someone not using insurance)

So, when you get those bills from your insurance after a doctors visit, and there’s that little table that tells you, this is the cost of the visit, this is the discount we got you, this is how much we paid, this is how much you still have to pay?

That line about “we got you this discount” is misleading. They actually caused the provider to raise the initial cost of your care by that amount, or more, in anticipation of the insurance company refusing to pay the full amount so that they could tell you they got you a discount.

"Why does a 15-minute visit with a doctor cost 150 bucks in America???" you're gonna want to read Money-Driven Medicine, by Maggie Mahar, and probably also The Social Transformation of American Medicine, to answer that question. It is not because your doctor is a greedy bastard; your doctor does not see most of that money. It is because the system is broken to a level that is truly impressive in its dedication to making a shit ton of money for insurance company executives and shareholders.

[trans-leek-cookie]

comes out of the "googling things about the disorder you have and then googling a vague medical term and not getting a clear answer and complaining about the vagueness of the term to your friend who probably has more familiarity with the term and it's implications in context" session covered in blood and wailing and writing on the floor