#thats such a FUCKING HASSLE
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the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)
#JUST realized this and now i want to kill and explode and throw up#WHAT THE HELL WILL I DO . WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO ABOUT MY FISH ok i can probably take the fish with me#but MAN#thats such a FUCKING HASSLE#ill just stay here this is fine <- tormented by the horrors. ball and chained to familiarity#the gamer speaks uwu#guy who is terminally stressed and sick about change but desperately needs it to live a life#oooo i need to be in a hamster ball everything new can just be out of arms reach and i will be safe and contained forever#no more new experiences and life changes ill cry we should all just die actually so i never have to break out of my shell#sometimes im like im therapized i dont need to go to therapy i am sooo normal and then i say shit like all that n im like nvm#the desperately averse to change braincell is funny like is it the autism. is it the ptsd. probably both#bc i sure did like have a moment of like i should just drop out of school all of this is too much i cant do it anymore#wired in juuust the right way where i can live so much better than i ever have but itll stress me out enough where i still feel the urge#to throw it all away bc it is strange and weird. and then i have to resist that urge constantly bc ill be fully like cidal again if i do th#its so weird actually. oh u have friends? u take meds? u have irls now? strange and unfamiliar and scary get rid of it all <- the insanity#anyway sucks how there isnt a word i can use in place of men/women when im like 'women will x' but for being nonbinary#nonbinary mfs doesnt hit the same . enbies doesnt hit the same either#nonbinaries b like i am free from the horrors and then go down a whole spiral at the very thought of moving out of their nightmare house#vent#i guess oops what did this turn into
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the transandrophobia discourse is fucking stupid and bigoted and the same old exclusionary hat we've seen over and over again
but what really gets me about it is how STUPID it is?? i mean, no, i haven't experienced EXACTLY what any other trans person has experienced, but the idea that trans men and women don't have BASICALLY the same experiences is insane. the differences between me and a trans woman are imo about the same as, say, a non-op and a post-op trans person. or a trans person deep in a red state and a trans person that lives in new york. honestly i think either of those differences actually matters MORE for shared experiences. i've spoken to lots of trans people of various gender configurations and SOMEHOW we all know wtf is going on with the others.
also im not going to argue about this if you think trans men are significantly privileged then just block me now man. and also get off the internet and interact with real society, which hates all of us pretty equally.
#disk horse /#like. i know trans men and women who have been hassled in bathrooms. who are afraid to go out in public.#who have dealt with the same dysphoria#anyway this post brought to you by the hot take 'binary trans men dont know what its like to be a woman'#which is one of the more insane things ive ever seen#we've BOTH crossed over that line. we've seen whats on either side of it.#thats literally what trans MEANS.#a trans man may not know SPECIFICALLY what you feel as a woman#but dear god we arent aliens we can fucking figure it out
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listen. I feel like since it's an election year and there's like. a week between halloween and the election it should be 100% okay to just like... let halloween go on a little longer. let the halloween spirit bleed into the days ahead. watch that spooky movie. keep those plastic skeletons up til tomorrow. get that discount candy. let it be like those six days between Christmas and new years. it's one of the most nerve-wracking weeks of the decade and if keeping halloween around a little longer helps you keep it together then fuck it. that's what you do.
#(also i bought a halloween book thing & am trying to rationalize whether to return it (the Hassle) to get the holiday themed one)#(but thats tangential)#(also we had a snowstorm on halloween & i couldnt head to campus to show off my half-handmade bumblebee costume)#(with a felt autobot signal i cut out piece by piece and glued myself AND cut-out horns 😔 lil salty)#but really. its election time who the FUCK cares.#mine#halloween#us politics
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the issue is im trying to reduce how much weed i consume both dosage wise and rate of consumption wise but unfortunately my life is severely painfully boring so every afternoon im like "damn this sucks :/// know what could fix this tho? 🙏"
#im a little afraid i kinda Flowers for Algernon'd my dopamine receptors or shit#icarused or something#because like. i Used to be able to get thru fine and i get thats literally how addictions work but its still not a fun process#ive already decided im gonna use lent as an excuse to detox (hopefully fully) and then try to take it easier after instead of ramping up#my dosage again bc its uh .its Bad folks its like 250mg edibles for me to really feel it#i last indulged sunday and already my brain is like. 'its been A Day where is my treat!!'`#buddy your treat is EXPENSIVE and a hassle to even consume at this level fucking chill out#not that expenses are a major concern for me rn tbh but its the principle#anywayyyy. gonna probably look at the stores online again to appease myself#but no purchasing shit til its on sale. if im truly desperate later tonhight or whatever i have stock still at home#anywya. shoutout to adhd addictive personality UHHHHHHHH
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twitter is in an endless logout loop for me for some reason???
#mine.txt#i mean fuck man if you dont want me to use your site that badly you coulda just deleted my account#its still fine on my phone but man thats such a hassle
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[truly if anymore of the letters of my keyboard break (this includes several numbers and one of the parenthesis btw) im for real gonna run out of keybinds to replace them with </3]
#chemi chats#the ''e'' and ''3'' keys broke a long time ago which is already pretty shit considering how many <333's i write.#i remap the ''e'' key to my ''insert'' key and remap the 3 to the number pad so i can still make hashtags#then as if taking <3s wasnt enough my ! key broke. not the 1 key. shift+1 SPECIFICALLY. which is a hate crime against me im pretty sure??#so i remap that to the number pad too. at some point my d key stopped working which was annoying but also vaguely amusing#because typing ''i want to draw volition'' when the d key isn't working is /mortifying/ hkjghg#my o key stopped working too so i remapped it to the 0 key on the keypad.#today my h key stopped working too which SUCKSSS because thats what all my keysmashes start with???#my volume up and down keys are also broken? along with my screen brightness and 9 key. my delete key and backspace are also on the fritz#its a whole ship of theseus situation lmao anyone trying to type anything on this keyboard is just like ''what the fuck bro'' gjgfkjg#i my nam is vli. im 2 yars ld an my prnuns ar /im. LMAO thats so funny kjgdfkj#its literally such a hassle to replace each of these with a different keybind and readjust everytime jikjg#the whole laptop's breaking but replacing it would cost money and thats a whole other can of worms djkfdd#anyway i have to restart the laptop so that the new keybinds can start working (ive been copy-pasting every h in this post gfkjg)#i think i'll also take a nap? idk low energy as fuck recently </3 ok bye!!! <33
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please please please save this link somewhere you will see it every day to remind you to donate to Palestine with a FREE click
I dont have the disposable funds to donate directly myself but that link allows you to give at least a few cents to Palestinian aid through ad revenue and doing so Every Day can make a difference
#i been doing that almost every day since last october#along w contacting my local state reps#the post i have pinned to my vlog has a link thatll send messages to ur state reps so hassle free#like just put in ur name (can be fake) and address (can be fake) and it sends the message for h#everything i been seeing abt palestine since october has been sickening and awful but recently i been seeing so much crazy inhimane shit#like its both surface level bad and also like DARK dark as fuck#anybody with a brain should be on the side of tbe Palestinians#but israel has a chokehold on the whole world rn because theyre mostly white#its fucking insane#im an atheist but god help us really#shit is so horriffic#ill become a believer if some glowing mf come out the sky and stop this shit like please im begging any god thats real#talkin.555
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Man oni can't do this to me I'm supposed to be preparing for artfight but all I can think abt is Them™ from the second I wake up to the moment I go to bed how am I supposed to prepare in these circumstances 😔
#rat rambles#oni posting#and dude the beta is probably still going to be going during that time klei how could you do this to me#like I will still be participating in artfight but I fear Ill be on oni lockdown for the first week or smth dhskdhkdh#Ill try to at least sketch some stuff out but god if I can get my hands onto any amount of lore its so jover#now thats not a guarantee this is a beta after all but god man. fuck.#also I need to know the new dupes name right now its important#mostly because I want confirmation that I got z on the cypher right lol#chances are theyll just have another a name or smth#who knows maybe theyll have a w name and be the second ever contender for being sent to the constant#although for all we know there could be plenty more w names in the cast that are just hidden in the full names like with nails#I am in such agony rn with seemingly every place ppl post abt oni being dead silent still hello is anyone there#I thought Id at least see some more speculative stuff on the gameplay side of things but Ive seen like 2 things where ppl even bring it up#tbf some of the new stuff seems pretty obvious to deduce to me like there's no way the new fox deers dont produce lumber#and we already know the bunny guys (or the big one at least) provides reed fiber at least#the plants are mostly more mysterious tho#we have the obvious one being our new bestie the oxylite plant and the lil puffball tree thats probably the new decor plant#and the crystal grapes are probably going to be a new muckroot equivalent and at least one of the new plants probably produces smth edible#as for what recourses they need we know that at least 2 of them need watered in some way#Im currently betting theyll need ethanol but thats not based on a lot#honestly if any of them use plain ol water or even any water variants Ill be surprised#I wouldn't be surprised if most of them take ethanol or some liquid gas or smth#I still am holding out on a plant that consumed liquid carbon dioxide but Im not too hopeful#one thing Im very curious on is just everything abt how the oxylite plant grows I wanna know how good itll be so bad#because I am a proud member of the desperately wants more viable oxygen production option in oni gang and I wanna see this baby flourish#but based on how seemingly abundant it is Im afraid itll just join the squad of early game oxygen options that become too much of a hassle#to sustain late game so you're usually just going to switch to exlectroliszers each time#I hope Im wrong but I wont be surprised if Im not#they already took one oxygen plant out back and shot it dead so this guy might just be a corpse on arival if we're unlucky#well hey thats why there's a beta ig gotta make sure things are balanced or whatever
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I still want to write a fic about Makoto set after 0 where she goes off the rails because she is a traumatized 21 year old with not a single living connection in the world and now she has 10 billion yen to her name which just spells trouble to me
#when I say she has no living connection I mean bc Majima isn't ever known by her#like I hope she gets comfort at the idea he is out there even if she can't find him#but essentially her brother and Lee and her mum and her grandfather are all dead#She's literally got no one#And I'm supposed to believe she just copes fine with that?#I always had this Makoto Everywhere Idea#where she doesn't leave Kamurocho and Majima keeps seeing her around#and she's driving him insane because shes actively looking for him and he's trying to escape her#he's threatened every yakuza in the city never to say a word unless they want him to go mad dog like he did on the dojima family#even Sera agrees#so Makoto's left smacking random dudes and wandering around doing her investigation#She hassles Nishiki and Kiryu about it- but they're all Oh Um we didn't know the guy#It's just Majima going to get ciggies in the poppo and oh fuck heres Makoto eating a fuckin pork bun#quickly turn around and run away#Oh he feels a bit snackish- why not go grab some takoyaki Oh fuck me it's Makoto Makimura at the takoyaki cart /again/#He wants to go have some fun- have a drink and a little karaoke#in an Okama bar- Jesus fucking christ Makoto's here and she'd singing HIS song and she's too drunk so now he's worried#But it's none of his buisness... Hmm maybe he can pay one of the nice young guys in there to keep an eye... No thats suspect#You get my vibe?#that's a different story to the one in the body of the post though.#Or Is It 🤨#Makoto looking for him but being destructive and its driving Majima insane#anyway :)
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HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT THAT CRITROLE EP WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! im SO glad we had the set up of the last one so we could have the big thrills of this!!!!!!!!! this had everything!! it had ira's bad (and good!) decisions! it had sam's out of pocket wacky can shenanigans!! it had deception and sneaking! it had badass plays and some.. eye-catching talents 👀 it had gross shit that's kinda actually sad if u think about it! it had walking (running) away from explosions (NOT a sunglasses moment this was a loserfail) it had .. terrifying parents. it had imodna momence !! :D it even had some unprecedented wins for our typically fighty/flighty adventurers!!! i will ABSOLUTELY be watching that again come monday!!!!!!!!!!
#lynx speaks#cr spoilers#now to expand upon these!!! i am THRILLED that there has been a more overt notice of orym's hex 😏#thats what i've been excited for for aaaaaaages i adore orym esp when he gets a little more fucked up#what can i say im a bit of an angst fan myself :D#fcg gave ira SUCH a bad time tho like CMON BBYYYYY 1 MINUTE ?!?!?!?!?!! yall r LUCKY yalls r cool af#also tho.... ira actually saving fearne like 👀 i see it!!! i think simply everyone likes fearne and everyone would save her 😎#and team infiltrate i loooved imogen's use of that damn .. what was it called ? the damn static bomb that was sick as hell!!!#and hey!! both teams got in and out without anyone catching on that it was bells hells helping!#is that a first for bh? cause it sure feels like it TBH like the feywild malleus key stunt did NAWT go this smoothly#even with the bumps they had they did terrific frfr#esp with imogen setting up oryms badass fighter play and launda and chet setting each other up for success#and it does FEEL like imogen is more powerful on ruidus just from the plays she makes like the static spell and how it set Everyone up#to protect them all and keep their enemies in bad positions so that bh had good positions#they barely got hits and orym and chet took the brunt of it#they got out everoa and themselves without too much hassle and i'd say team mcfuckin 'splosion did pretty fucken well too#more damage on their side but. thatssss not their fault thats mainly on ira (and fcg 😂)#gosh. goshhh. what a good fucking episode. and sorrowlord zathuda. and liliana. fuck bro.#zathuda is SCARY#and liliana i meaaaaaaan. hun what did u THINK 🧐 imogen meant when she told u to run?? ���� 'did she know' u know the answer to that.#i was definitely excited cause. we knew the volition were gonna fail in killing liliana. but i felt in my heart that she was gonna#feel betrayed by imogen. despite creating the scenario in which imogen must 'betray' her.#i LOVE fucked up mothers cant waaaaait to see what happens next !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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One minute Archie and Lilibet are just dolls and not real to the royalists, the next minute they having fantasies of Charles using old as fuck laws to take two children away from their parents in America because they really are on another level of holy shit.
#btw that old as fuck law would do nothing but cause an international scandal if charles even cared to try#since the two are in america#and therefore trying to remove them from another country like that would just cause alot of hassle the royal family dont need right now#some of that hassle including looking like child nappers basically#and thats if charles even cares about those kids#because hes the reason they dont have security if they ever visit the UK and also dont have a home in the UK anymore#because apparently prince nonce needed frogmore cottage more#(btw if anyone curious what old as fuck law this is#its basically the monarch can take custody of their grandkids#even when the parents are alive and fine and shit#like royalists generally are being confusing with wanting this law back)
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every time i remember i look exactly how my mother did as a child i lose 1 day off of my lifespan
#sometimes im like 'idk if i wanna start hrt it seems like too much of a hassle' but then i remember i have a Big Fucking Chance of looking#like my mother when im older and Absolutely Not. i will die.#(i feel like i should specify its not that shes ugly or anything. its the fact Thats My Mother. and i hate her.)
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extremely unfair that braids come in so many pretty and fun and creative combinations but also require long hair to accomplish
#long hair when in braided hairstyle: yes! good!#long hair when just down and loose: I Am Experiencing Dysphoria And Having A Terrible Time#also a fucking hassle to detangle and wash bc of how thick it is but thats a tangent ive mentioned before
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i figured this week was gonna cause a meltdown, i just hoped i’d make it til friday :/
#my job officially sucks now bc we’ve hit the 3 month mark and thats when all jobs suck#and now i’m apparently working 28 hour weeks#and the store is closing so i’m gonna have to transfer to a new store 20 min away#and i haven’t eaten today yet#and all my nails are broken from work bc the stupid shelves needed to be moved and shit#and the grocery store was a hassle and i onyl got a few things but it was still expensive#and everything EVERYTHING is just so frustrating to do and can’t just be done quickly#i keep fucking up and needing to redo it multiple times#i just#and i keep telling myself i don’t care but no one at work uses they/them for me even tho its on my nametag#even most of my coworkers#and it’s not like im gonna correct them#im juat too tired#im too tired#and i want to cut my hair and make soup and do stuff but im so tired and there’s no time#i don’t know what to do#i’m really sorry i try not to post vents very much#it doesn’t make me feel good#im sorry
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Honestly I’d say the main reason I haven’t been making much art for a while is cuz the actual process to start the task of making art is too overwhelming like why do it need so much preparation
#the klock keeps ticking#its kinda fucked cuz like traditional art has always been much more of a struggle for me to do cuz my big thing is i love colors#and painting has always been my specialty ive done it for half my life#but its such a hassle to set that up its messy and requires sitting in a specific way and all these supplies#and its such a commitment like what if i waste my paint on something that sucks ass#so like digital art has been easier to do since all the tools are in one place and theres more room for error#but thats become difficult cuz idk just the position id be in to do digital art has changed and i cant seem to get it back#the best i can do rn is traditional doodles with pen but they arent very high effort#nothing im proud of nothing i felt anything about#im structureless and trying to remedy this feels like sticking a knife in a pencil sharpener
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doing things because you're "supposed" to do them is fine and swell and makes sense when you're a kid. but then suddenly you're an adult and have to form a bigger better reason for doing things. and everyone seems to have an impossibly deep and personal reason and i am unable to find mine.
#truly that note from my therapist fucked me up dude#i have meaning and purpose in my life#and it's to enjoy myself? i don't have any extreme expectations out of life dude#im not getting married im never having kids#im fine with my dead end job it pays good#i just want to get through without much hassle and idk make myself better along the way?#but again thats not a deep enough reason for doing good things#purely to avoid discomfort#and im like okaaaaaay then what the fuck do i do it for#and it makes me paranoid that my streak of doing good will fail because i dont have some deep reason to keep doing good#its like fuck dude why does everything have to be this deep#why cant i just say hey i dont feel like dying. i want to live. and that be enough to not do bad things#why do i need some deep life meaning to encourage me? cause i sure aint got it#like writing? sure thats fine and it helps me alot#but it's never gonna be like a purpose?#i dont have a purpose bro i am literally here for a good time#and to make my mom smile and eat fancy cheese
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