#i regret that decision sometimes
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Watching tiktoks of couples being all cute and thinking
"awwww I wanna do this with my s/o 🤭"
And then remembering that I scripted that 2 whole years pass from when I shift there till I meet them, and then one more till we get together 😐
#heartbreaking#why did i script a slowburn#i regret that decision sometimes#i just wanna kiss them so bad#reality shifting#shiftblr#shifting blog#shifting community#shifting#shifters#shifting motivation#shifter#desired reality#quantum jumping#significant other#shifting antis dni#shift#shifting thoughts#shifting realities#shifting to the mcu#scripting#shifting script
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Glad you’re still alive :P
How about some science trio shenanigans? >:)
Just something I've been thinking about ever since I noticed Percy had treads on the back of his legs ksdkf
Nautica needs a bit of time to adjust to the "in lab shenanigans"
#pretty sure its ooc Perceptor but oh well#sometimes they gotta swap who gets to be the biggest bother#they do a bit of trolling#I like to think post LL they end up sharing a lab together#Perceptor immediately regretting his decision day 1#also sorry Nautica's hard to draw :') I can't find good full body refs of her#transformers#mtmte#maccadam#maccadams#tf idw#transformers fanart#more than meets the eye#brainstorm#perceptor#nautica#mtmte nautica#lost light
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sometimes you need your elder siblings to be horrific influences
#took me like seven years but i have finished the wee baby boy doodle#posting before i regret any of the decisions i made in the making of this thing#daisy arts sometimes#rwrb#rwrb fanart#edit: just realised i forgot to remove the lineart behind bea lmao im a clown
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oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.
recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)
because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.
and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).
Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.
at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.
something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.
Cas never knew.
Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.
but Cas never knew.
the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.
so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.
this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?
nah.
true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.
#beautiful and poignant messages in the 2005 CW cult classic dark fantasy show supernatural that they did by accident#like they literally showed how wrong cas was to believe that happiness ISN'T in the having aaaand qed dean loved him back#spn meta#destiel meta#castiel meta#mine.txt#destiel#supernatural meta#spn#supernatural#meta#messy thoughts#lol sorry for the tmi but i needed the lead up okay#i'm fine i knew#i was very much cas in this situation no hope of any other outcome#only he was wrong lmao#I think the way Cas scrunches up his face after Dean's 'don't do this Cas' is almost like that bittersweet regret.#that 'oh. if only we had known this sooner. if only it wasn't too late now.'#AND IT'S A LOT YOU GUYS#i do wonder if cas wouldn't made a different plan with different information#personally i don't think he'd've gone out like that if he understood that dean loved him too#like he saw the love in his eyes. but part of me thinks it was relief that this didn't make dean hate him.#but sometimes it's just bad writing and we can't ascribe conscious thought to an out of character decision lol#but i think after everything cas would've fought for the thing he never thought he could have#which is why in my fix it fic wip that i'll finish someday cas is like okay well. gotta get outta here now and kiss my mute coconut lol#i love them so much
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most of the time i feel like it really just Is Not That Serious and really truly believe that everything just works out and sometimes i’ll be hit by a fear of the future so debilitating i actually wanna throw up
#and i always hyperfocus on some specific thing like this summer it was that my degree is uslesss and i’ll never get into grad school or be#able to pursue an academic future and be stuck working minimum wage jobs for the rest of my life with l thousands of dollars of debt that#i’ll never be able to pay . and now it’s just being in debt in general#like do you ever think about how scary is that you can decide at age EIGHTEEN to be in debt literally forever . and it’s just what you have#do if you want to go to school#so now my big worry is that even if things do work out i’ll still always have all this debt that like tbh i’ll likely never pay off even if#i do well . and that’s just something i have to live with ?????#and then i just regret things like my stupid ass really had to go out of state . and pursue a degree that has no financial assurance . like#fucking genius move there#and a degree that’s literally only usable if i go to grad school and get MORE debt#like HELLOOOOOOOO#but l i love where i am and i love what i’m doing . and sometimes that feels like enough#and other times i’m like oh you’re fr a dumbass . and you’re going to regret decisions that you made at age 18 for the rest of your life.
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My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes
#the fear tho lmao#what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue#this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone?#in an existential spiral at the moment#but honestly why do they always ask for my number#like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me#but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it#and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young#young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it#maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain#anyone younger than that#but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore#but I just needed to talk about this somewhere#because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to#customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it#idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it#anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow#and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by
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i don't think anyone should be shamed for not coming out or not transitioning (medical or otherwise) bc its ultimately your choice i just think its really easy to make up excuses after excuses to avoid doing something that would make you a lot happier and its worth taking the time to really question what you want and why you've avoided it. from time to time
#it was extremely easy for me to not start hrt in college when it would have been easy because i 'made the decision' to wait for my 'safety'.#when in reality i was just letting my anxiety talk me out of it and i regret not making moves sooner.#and then i spent years afterwards regretting it because i now convinced myself i couldn't start bc of work#it took years before i was finally ready to do that and then when it happened it wasn't even an issue i just spent years in anxiety.#situations are different too. for some people the danger i was afraid of is very real. plus some people just need time to consider options#or a million other things that might make you wait i just think its good to encourage like#the idea of just letting Go and doing it because for a lot of people its easy to trap yourself into not doing something that you want. yk.#avpost#sometimes you have to face the wall of something scary to get what you want and its just. idk.#its one thing to genuinely not want it or to genuinely be unable and that's not something to be embarrassed or shamed for#but it's another to just be avoiding it because its scary which is only going to hurt you in the long run .#it's never not going to be at least a little scary
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what if I started calling myself a cis woman again for shits and gigs
#again I say as if I've ever called myself that#the gender sure is fluid#sometimes the gender is just ftmtftmtftmtftmtf and I just have to be okay with that#probably easier to continue calling myself a dykefag or a fagdyke#calling myself a cis woman would not mean that I regretted anything and I would of course continue to take testosterone#and I am thoroughly happy with my decision to get both top and bottom surgery#I am just having my oops it's time for a gender crisis again#faer.txt
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On one hand... I feel a lil silly taking a chicken to a vet. Especially a vet that's 45 minutes away from me but that's also the distance to the (only) horse vet so.
On the other hand, as a co-owner of chickens, I am just as responsible for their health and well-being as I am for the horses (and dogs and cat) and I know she's uncomfortable and I'd rather not just wait for her to die cause I don't know what's going on or how to help her so. Taking a chicken to the vet it is.
#I had to low-key argue to take her in. Mom thought it was silly.#But she's an animal who's health we are in charge of. We took her home.#Every other hen we've lost (bar one) has been to coyotes#The one... No idea what happened to her. She was fine in the afternoon and dead in the evening.#And I still feel such guilt over Willy- if I'd known there was a vet to take him to I'd have done it.#Even if it was just to put him to sleep. Even if that's all tomorrow's visit will be.#Sometimes you make better choices because of the guilt you feel over choices and decisions you made in the past#Decisions made even when you didn't know you had other options can still lead to regret#As long as it leads you to making better choices in the future... That's what matters right?
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The time for regrets has long passed (Patreon)
#Doodles#Law Abiding Citizen#LAC#Doug Peterson#LAC Russ#Roug#Mixed set! Auxiliary thoughts! Always haha#My size difference between these two is always ridiculous lol ♪ Sometimes they're close to the same size sometimes Doug is tiny and then#If it's fun why shouldn't they get a bit of size difference! Lol#Snuggling into a very large Doug's hug sounds nice he deserves it#Couple'a Demon!Russes except I forgot what his horns looked like lol#Let's just say they're still growing in by that point ♪ Don't mind that they disappear completely at Doug kissing him - they're growing in!#I do love a mopey Demon!Russ after having been human for a long while haha <3 Poor lad#But he gets to live with Doug now! So that's nice#Doug is certainly happy about it :)#Tiny little bit more of the Solitary idea - the Regret™ sets in as soon as Doug is gone haha#Immediately starts second-guessing himself and then he comes back and he's like ''No this was a good decision'' and then he leaves again#Repeat infinitum lol#Demon!Russ but from the beginning! Didn't give him a human!Doug tho aw poor lonely guy#That AU is fun there are elements to it that still intrigue me hmm ♪ Maybe at some point - the next go around perhaps haha#And dress Russ :D He deserves a dress! He needs one!#The original design was quite silly haha#All the more reason to give him some more! Fill out his closet with lovely clothes
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I feel so bad for this guy considering some hermits have a history of blowing up his server (looking at you doc)
#traditional art#artists on tumblr#hermitaday#hermitcraft#xisuma fanart#did i start this day without a clue of what to draw? yes#did i end up drawing 9 hermits instead of the one i needed to?#also yes#do i regret this decision?#yes#am i going to keep drawing on this one sometime when i have more time?#y e s#he is like a babysitter#except he babysits grown adults so he doesn't actually guard them#like at all
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Do you ever regret it all?
Killing your father. Joining Team Rocket. Getting pregnant.
Do you ever think about what you could've been if you just held on a little longer?
You could've been happy, maybe.
A nice house. A boyfriend. A mother. Financially stable.
You could've been happy.
..What?
I-
No. No, I don't- I don't regret it. Not. Not most of it. My father deserved to die. He was going to get himself killed somehow anyways, and if I hadn't- Fuck. I would be- It would be me- You don't get it, you don't know what happened-
I had nowhere. They were the safest place I could go.
I wouldn't have a mother. She died anyways. It wasn't my fault. It was his. It's all his.
I am not someone who gets to be happy.
#sharp answer#executive decision to start over#pokemon irl#pokeblog rp#pokeblogging#// OUTTA LEFT FIELD WITH A BANGER ASK#// EXPLODING YOU RN /POS#// Btw he's absolutely ignoring the do you regret getting prenant part on purpose#// Slowblinks at Normal Proton AU. Silly Milas I miss you sometimes. You are all of the above. You have all of the above.
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aw man people cant call me tumblr user technoplane anymore 😔 tumblr user risingsunresistance doesnt have the same ring to it
#to be fair not many ppl do that now#but being called technoplane in notes is just a bit silly#oh well i am Just Goat now#or a few names if you know me well enough >:)#i should add a new name to here just for the thrill of it. idk#i only really like being called goat but you gotta spice it up sometimes#or maybe i'm just going through like 5 crises at once KFJSHDG#extreme high after an extreme low is always so weird like. is this all Normal Happy or Concerning Happy#am i gonna regret every decision i made today like 3 days from now? maybe!#who cares tho it was enough good energy to get my homework done so maybe it's normal#chat
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gloomy thoughts :(
#debating whether i should retire myself in a bubble for the next two days and cry abt how much i hate time passing#or whether i should be around ppl and talk to friends and not isolate myself#it's been so long and i still have not found a healthy way for myself to wander over this grief#i just don't think i have ever dealt with it healthily and i tend to beat myself up for it too#i've been doing and i do my very best to comfort the friends around me and somehow it is helps even just a little#but i can't do the same for myself#i miss jonghyun a lot every single day and i wonder to which extent it's okay for me to feel this way#sometimes i wonder if i seriously need help and if this is acceptable#i don't know there are many thoughts in my head and i get the feeling that when i managed to get an idea of how big this grief is#it just starts expanding again#it feels like it's never-ending#for the most part i try to make the best out of each day and i am extremely grateful for jonghyun#i'm thankful for everything he did that i can resonate with and for the sensations and feelings i'm able to perceive#i'm thankful that he has been such a big part of my life sometimes even in making wise decisions for my path#i think one of the things that stings most is that i always carry a bit of regret with me#it follows me like a shadow#i have regrets for things i couldn't even control#it makes me quite upset that i sometimes cannot compromise between the good past things and the sad cruel reality of things#and sometimes i'm afraid i may actually never get over this#and it's not that it's unhealthy as in 'this is everything my life is about'#i still try to move forward with my life but there's so much on my plate#and then i think of how i'll never see his face or hear his voice again and it makes me so upset in ways i can't explain#there is so much weight you have to carry in order to move forward when you feel like you can't#it all just isn't fair no matter how much time passes#i'll always feel very conflicted and overwhelmed about it#and this is what i want to work on#but it is not easy#ik i sound literally delusional rn or maybe i do not#who knows
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Person incapable of watching anything horror resembling watches something resembling horror. A plan that surely will not backfire in the slightest.
(Keeping back against the wall)
#in my defence I didn’t know alright I thought I was gonna have a fun supernatural mystery#sometimes I make decisions I regret#stardust talks
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before i dive back into the abyss of college for the rest of this week i wanted to say that i hope everyone is doing ok and if not that's ok too!! pls be gentle w urself!!!
also happy gyu day ♡
#might put a drabble out sometime this week but that depends on if i get my research paper proposal done#which is a terribly difficult task when i haven't even started it LMAO#guys don't be an engineering major u will regret all of ur life decisions#anyways yeah soob drabble maybe this week and if not then definitely next week#also will be working on the roommates!choi line fic but that will likely be posted sometime in may#bc it's gonna be a long one 😭#anyways#take care of urselves everyone#see you in a bit :)
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