#anyways I’m just rambling. but yeah I don’t like it.
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꩜ .ᐟ LITTLE THINGS 이희승
— ✮⋆˙ heeseung x reader ✮⋆˙ fluff, established relationship, non-idol au ✮⋆˙ 0.7k wc ✮⋆˙ grammar errors
WHEREIN heeseung finds himself falling more in love with you every time you do the smallest things.
every little thing you did made heeseung’s heart race in ways he never thought possible. he always told himself he wasn’t the type to get caught up in the small details—but then you came along
it was the way you’d smile at him, that quiet kind of smile, like you knew all his secrets and still loved him anyway. the way your eyes crinkled at the corners when you laughed, the way they softened when you looked at him.
heeseung could get lost in your eyes—he had, so many times.
heeseung was on his way home after you’d sent him out to buy a few things. as he walked past a small flower shop, the colorful display caught his eye. it instantly reminded him of you and the way you always lit up whenever you two visited one.
“did you know daisies symbolize purity and innocence?” you’d say, rambling random flower facts while pointing to your favorites.
he smiled to himself. it was one of the many reasons he fell for you—your curious mind and the way you turned even the simplest outings into something memorable.
on the bus ride home, he overheard a group of friends saying their goodbyes. it reminded him of how you always waved at your friends with the sweetest smile before rushing over to him.
heeseung couldn’t help but chuckle softly, looking down at his phone. your messages popped up on the screen.
lovelove ❤️
food’s almost cold!
stay safe, i love you!
oh yeah, i think i miss you already:(
he laughed at the cute sticker you’d sent along with it. snapping a quick picture of himself on the bus, he texted back:
my fav person ! 💞
on my way. don’t eat without me! :)
when heeseung finally arrived home, you greeted him at the door, practically throwing your arms around him. “woah, easy there,” he chuckled, wrapping an arm around your waist.
your face was glowing, your eyes sparkling with sincerity, warmth, and love—the kind of look that made him fall in love with you all over again.
“welcome home! oh, let me get these—thank you for buying them,” you said, pulling away to grab the bags from his hands. he watched you with a fond smile as you disappeared into the kitchen.
“oh, and dinner’s ready!” you called out. “i also bought your favorite drink yesterday.”
heeseung sat down at the dining table, resting his chin on his hand as he watched you move around the kitchen, chattering about your day. you pulled his drink from the fridge, placing it on the table with a proud smile.
“oh, and yeah—” you paused when you noticed his silence. “everything okay?”
heeseung blinked, his thoughts catching up. “yeah,” he said, smiling softly.
you squinted at him as you sat down across from him, serving portions of food onto both plates. “you’re giving me that look again, hee.”
“what look?”
“like you’re trying to manipulate me or something,” you joked, though your cheeks warmed under his gaze.
he laughed at your playful tone, leaning forward to brush a strand of hair away from your face. “you’re funny. but you know what? you do the same thing to me all the time. your eyes, your smile… even the little things about you make me forget everything else.”
your heart raced at his words, your cheeks now burning. “you’re being so dramatic,” you mumbled, suddenly shy.
“i’m not,” he said, his voice soft but firm. “everything i said is true.”
heeseung picked up his chopsticks and started eating like he hadn’t just turned your heart racing so fast it felt like it might burst.
as the night deepened, the two of you stayed like that—sharing food, laughter, and quiet moments where words weren’t necessary.
later, you both found yourselves curled up on the couch, a soft blanket draped over you as you rested your head on his chest. the sound of his heartbeat matched the rhythm of your own, steady and comforting.
later, as you lay curled up on the couch together, heeseung rested his chin on top of your head. “you know,” he murmured, “you’re everything i never knew i needed.”
you tilted your head to meet his gaze, his eyes full of love that left you breathless. “and you,” you whispered back, “are the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
heeseung smiled, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
and as you closed your eyes, you thought of the way he looked at you—like you were the only person in the world.
© lvzrii4 — do not copy, translate, and repost my work.
#⟡ 🗂️ ── ria files#enhypen#enha#enhypen x reader#enha x reader#enhypen oneshots#enhypen fluff#enha reactions#enha drabble#enhypen imagines#enhypen reactions#lee heeseung#lee heeseung x reader#heeseung x reader#heeseung fluff#lee heeseung one shot#park jay#sim jake#park sunghoon#kim sunoo#yang jungwon#nishimura riki#fluff#x reader#kpop#oneshot
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My shy boy- m.s
Pᴀɪʀɪɴɢ: shy!matt X Fem!reader
~-~-𐮙𒀮🥥𒀮𐮙~-~ -
🤎Sᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ: while exchanging storys about your days matt gets extremely distracted and nervous when it was your turn to talk
🤎Wᴀʀɴɪɴɢs: none i think. Pet names?
N͟O͟T͟ p̲r͟o͟o͟f͟ r͟e͟a͟d͟!̲!̲
𝑀𝐴𝑇𝑇 𝑆𝐴𝑇 𝑂𝑁 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝐸𝐷𝐺𝐸 𝑂𝐹 𝑌𝑂𝑈𝑅 𝐵𝐸𝐷,awkwardly playing with his hands as he rambled on about something Nick and Chris did earlier that day that had angered him. His hands waved animatedly as he spoke, clearly upset, his voice a steady mix of confidence and amusement.
You were sitting cross-legged, leaning against the headboard, pillows pressed comfortably against your back, and a soft blanket draped over your legs. You nodded along to Matt’s words, letting him vent as the golden glow of the fairy lights wrapped around your room cast a warm light over both of you. He seemed perfectly at ease—until he looked up and caught you watching him.
“What?” he asked softly, his hands freezing mid-gesture as his voice faltered.
You shrugged, pulling your knees up to your chin and resting your head on them. “Nothing… Keep going, baby, I’m listening.”
Your words threw him off for a moment, but he quickly cleared his throat and recovered, picking up where he left off. “Oh, uh—right. So, then Nick thought it’d be a good idea to prank Chris by—”
He trailed off again, his confidence visibly crumbling when he caught you smiling. The slight twitch of your lips seemed way too sweet for his sanity.
“Why are you looking at me like that…?” he muttered, his voice shaky.
“Like what?” you asked, your soft smile fading slightly as you furrowed your brows and tilted your head.
“Like…” He waved his hands vaguely in the air, struggling to describe it before slumping back onto the bed with a defeated sigh. “Never mind.”
At his dramatic response, you giggled, clearly amused. “Okay, okay, Matt. Keep going.”
He nodded and tried his best (keyword: tried), but your giggles and the lingering smile on your face completely threw him off track. He stuttered and stumbled through the rest of his story, desperately avoiding eye contact. By the time he finished, he let out a relieved sigh, slumping back onto the bed.
“Wow, Matt,” you teased, raising your brows in surprise at his rant. “You really hate Nick sometimes, huh?”
Matt chuckled nervously, still not meeting your gaze. “No… I-I don’t hate him. I just…” He sighed. “He’s just Nick.”
You stifled a giggle. “Fair,” you replied with a smile. “Anyway, something funny happened to me today too—”
“Oh, yeah?” he asked quickly, his hands already fiddling with the sleeves of his “𝐹𝑅𝐸𝑆𝐻 𝐿𝑂𝑉𝐸” hoodie. “W-What happened?”
You launched into your story, your voice light and feminine, and Matt immediately knew he was in trouble.
He tried to listen—he really did—but every single word made his chest tighten. He was hyper-aware of everything about you: the way your voice softened ever so slightly, the way you glanced at him with those stunning eyes to gauge his reaction, the way your smile lingered just a little too long. It was all so overwhelming.
By the time you finished, Matt wasn’t even sure what you had been talking about. You raised a brow, leaning forward slightly as you waited for his response. “Well…? What do you think, Matt?”
His brain blanked entirely. “Uh—I—uhm…” He swallowed hard, his face heating up so fast he thought he might spontaneously combust. “Sorry—what was the question again?”
“Matt,” you said, amusement and disbelief mixing in your tone. “Babe, were you even listening?”
“What? Y-Yeah, totally!” he lied, his voice cracking painfully on the last word.
You laughed, rolling your eyes. “Jesus Christ, you’re such a bad liar.”
“I’m not lying!” he protested, his voice an octave higher than usual.
Your laughter filled the room, making his stomach flip. “You’re impossible,” you teased, watching as his face turned an even deeper shade of red.
You smiled, admiring him—the soft blush on his cheeks, the way his curly brown hair framed his face perfectly. He was so… majestic.
“Why are you so shy all of a sudden, huh?” you teased, your smile never faltering.
“I’m not shy,” he muttered defensively, though the way he avoided your gaze and tugged on his hoodie sleeve said otherwise.
“Matt, you’re literally blushing, baby,” you said, leaning in slightly.
“I’m not!” he blurted, but the redness creeping up his neck betrayed him.
You smiled again, reaching out to gently tug at the sleeve he was fidgeting with. “You’re so adorable… You know that?”
His breath hitched, and for a moment, he stared at you, completely frozen. Then, with a groan, he covered his face with his hands. “Stop. Please stop. I can’t do this.”
Your laughter filled the room, warm and carefree, as Matt sank further into himself, mumbling incoherently behind his hands.
“Matt,” you said softly, noticing the soft sniffles coming from him. Your smirk dropped, instantly replaced with concern. “Hey, Matt… What’s going on, baby?” you asked, grabbing his forearm and rubbing it comfortingly.
He whined softly into his hands before wiping his eyes. At your touch, he softened slightly, his voice breaking as he mumbled, “Jus’… This is so embarrassing. I look weak.”
You pouted, your heart breaking a little at his confession. “Matt,” you said gently, leaning in closer. “You don’t look weak. You’re amazing, okay? And you never have to try so hard with me. I love you just the way you are.”
He peeked at you through his fingers, his eyes glossy and cheeks still burning. “You mean it?” he asked quietly.
“Of course,” you said firmly, smiling as you placed your hand on his arm. “And I’m not going anywhere. Ever.”
For a moment, he stared at you, his mouth slightly open as if searching for words. Then, with a soft groan, he rolled onto his side, burying his face in your shoulder
“Thanks,” he mumbled, his voice muffled.
You smiled, wrapping your arms around him. “Anytime.”
ᴀ/ɴ: i have a love hate relatuonship with this fic lol. Lmk what uguys think🤎
#chris sturniolo#chris sturniolo x reader#christopher sturniolo#matt sturniolo#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo triplets#sturniolo x reader#spotify#chris sturiolo fanfic#christopher owen sturniolo#matt stuniolo fanfic#matthew sturniolo#matthew bernard sturniolo
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#kind of hate when students come back and they’re like ‘sorry I was sooooooooooooo bad in your class’#obviously I hate it if it’s just sort of a chance for them to just yap about how bad they were/glorify their bad behavior#but sometimes I hate it even when they’re sincere sksskjsjsjsj#like I know it’s a good thing and I should be glad but I’m not glad#I’m just like ‘fuck off’ (I do not say that. EVER)#but it’s just. ughhhhhhh#so much of the job is ignoring their bad behavior as much as you can#not like. not having good classroom management but just. in your own mind!!!! don’t give it all this power!!!!!!#I hate those posts that are like ‘why did my grown ass teacher have beef with a 12 year old’ because my loyalty is to the teacher#and it’s like. well middle school classrooms are war zones sometimes so give the teacher a break. but there’s a certain truth to that!!!!!#you can’t take the behavior seriously in your own mind. I think that’s it#so when they come back and they’re like ‘I was terrible for you I regret my immaturity’#I know it’s a good thing for them and probably inevitable for most of them (the being teenagers of it all) and I’m sure ultimately#that it’s a testimony to my class. but it makes me wince so much. because I set the tone so decisively and part of how you do it is just by#like. believing everyone’s having a great time. and kids being like ‘I was a monster from#the deeps of hell’ seems to contradict that#and always drives me to question myself even though I probably shouldn’t and i need to just chill#some of it is just my own vulnerability or insecurity#I’m hoping it lessens with time? because my first couple of classes of course that’s what was happening#because they WERE bad. and they were worse than they usually were cause they wanted to see if they could get away with it#and did they? I mean yeah probably a lot more than they should have bc I was brand new!#anyways I’m just rambling. but yeah I don’t like it.#like please just leave me alone.#(I hate most kinds of intake tbh. because I always have to do something with all of it—intellectually emotionally)#(I can never just rest. the mind is sorting and processing) it’s like when it comes to teaching#the more things I can shut my eyes to the better#I’ve come a long way with knowing what of the things my students say to ignore than I used to#bc actually they’re innocent babies who are just yapping! Cause they don’t know what else to do yet.
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*Holds up Félix and Chloé* It’s not obvious because it’s all WIPs and very little has been posted but I care them so much. I love putting them in a room together and locking the door to see what happens. They’re two somewhat territorial cats who are fighting one minute, then totally chill the next. They’re judging each other. They like to hang out and judge other people. They’re mocking each other one minute and then planning each other’s parents’ (Andre and Audrey’s/Colt’s) murders. Amélie invites Chloé over and treats her like a daughter. Chloé is breaking down crying in Amélie’s arms because she feels loved one moment, then smirking at Félix because she’s stealing his mom five minutes later. Sabrina knows Félix by his full government name due to Chloé’s ranting but has never formally met him. They both love Adrien so much but they’re not the greatest at remembering to tell him. They both have so many issues. They complain about each other. They have blackmail material for days. They would kill for one another if it came down to it. Do you feel me. Do you get me. Did any of that make sense. I know I’m taking a five second interaction and allusions to what their relationship was before and blowing it up out of proportion but they interest me so MUCH and I WILL make headcanons about it.
#One of these days I’ll get to write something proper and my rambling will make more sense#there’s a few moments in CTS that I really wanna get to bc they mean so much to me#I wanna see them interact more. I think it’ll be funny/interesting/heartbreaking. I’ll take anything#I haven’t written anything for it but I do think it would be interesting to have them talk post season 5#Where Chloé is at her lowest and thinks she can’t get better. and then Félix rocks up like ‘Been there#‘C’mon let’s get you some self reflection and view changing experiences. Or don’t I can’t make you’#and she’s like ‘What you’re suddenly perfect now??’ and he’s like ‘HA. no. but I’m getting better. trying to anyways. and you can too’#‘But you have to WANT to.’#and. yeah. I just think about them a lot okay#miraculous ladybug#felix graham de vanily#felix fathom#chloe bourgeois#SB Speaks#SB Rambles#oh boy I did a lot of rambling
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So basically ATLA brain rot has hit me like a truck
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#toph beifong#what happened was I was forced to watch the live action#which is actually pretty good if you get past the first few episodes#and if you don’t have someone in your ear telling you it’s awful the whole time#first episode is definitely the weakest and that’s 50% gran gran’s fault#aang and katara are also pretty flat but whatever#sokka’s good and zuko’s fantastic actually#they did goof on a few things but overall I think it’s a fun time#just don’t expect it to be as good as the cartoon and you’ll be okay#ANYWAY it got me missing toph#so i rewatched the blind bandit episode#and then wound up watching the entirety of books 2 & 3 in a few days#and now I’m brain rotted#which is especially weird considering when I first watched it I was like#yeah that was good! and then never thought about it again#i dunno what changed but i need help it’s taking over my life#wanted to draw Sokka too but he looks hard to draw#and i had enough trouble with these two#maybe someday#sorry for rambling in the tags goodbye
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I’ve accidentally started saying “brills” unironically in my everyday conversations… and let me tell you- that is not slang that is used here, ever.
Charles Rowland the power you have 🥲
#Sam rambles#dbda#charles rowland#dead boy detectives#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#I honestly wouldn’t mind except that no one ever says that - so it feel like I’m just waving a huge pride flag every time I say it#And alas I don’t think I’m quite ready for that yet#who knows- I could meet another fan irl tho!!!#anyway yeah catch me using old timey british slang because of a fictional dead bisexual detective 🥲🫶✨
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Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.
Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.
Long-winded interpretation under the cut!
Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.
You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)
The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.
Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.
And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.
For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.
“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)
So, where does this leave us?
It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!
Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.
To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.
And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.
Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rise don suave#rottmnt don suave#I lied I’m back to ramble because I’m just#so bad at keeping my mouth shut#or uh#not typing word vomit#anyway- yeah this is my personal interpretation#I believe Leo was legitimately mesmerized by Don Suave’s powers…in the beginning#but even the series’ creator says it was ‘at least PART of what was going on with Leo’ so#idk it’s something that’s been on my mind and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same??#may delete this later who knowssss#pleaaaase feel free to disagree I just like to talk lol#but yeah sometimes I look around at how much media has LGBTQ+ rep in it now and it honestly makes me emotional??#(we always always ALWAYS could use more but)#we did not have even a crumb of this as kids#but also like most of that rep is new properties#and I just was thinking about what that could mean#idk man idk#once again please don’t take this as facts it is VERY MUCH NOT#man I was looking around for good images to use and found jack all#anyway tho did you know Donnie often has bi colors around him and Leo is often dressed in the colors of the trans flag-#okay anyway back to the caves I go this comic won’t draw itself#I gotta spray myself with water any time I go to type long winded essays because they’re not great for the mental health fr
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perhaps interesting take during this fine holiday but… i really like when people write in first person for selfship stuff and things like that lol
#rambles.#i know a lot of people don’t like that pov but i do. at least in this context#because i can see the beauty of it from your perspective instead of pseudo-pretending like it’s ‘me’ ykwim#i know it’s a complicated topic tho since many people write for themselves to go back and read#so yeah ‘you’ makes sense in that regard. i get it#i guess it’s just a preference thing#because even tho i’m not a person who goes back and reads my own stuff very often (and who doesn’t write heavy selfship things in general)#i think i would still prefer to read stuff like that back in a first person pov?? because that’s how my brain works personally#and it’s easier for me when reading someone else’s stuff in that pov to separate myself from it and enjoy it from their perspective#rather than struggle with the cognitive dissonance stemming from ‘you’#anyways. many thoughts many possibilities i love the creative world#i will cease my rambling now
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see I can’t accept charles’ comic background and socioeconomic status as canon for the show because if I did that would mean the whole group would be a bunch of rich kids and that’s a horrifying concept
#ranging from vaguely upper class (niko and charles via comic logic) to presumably quite wealthy (edwin) to straight up ultrarich (crystal)#well off but doesn’t own a mansion -> owns a mansion -> owns several mansions in several countries#but yeah that aside. I don’t like the idea of him being raised upper class or even upper middle and yes I know he went to a private catholic#school that presumably costs a decent amount of money but for one we don’t Know how much exactly by that point in time (I’m assuming it was#more prestigious and expensive back in edwin’s day) and it’s not like middle class or even working class people can never afford#to send their one (1) kid to catholic school. like that’s really not too unusual. I know this is an american example but im thinking about#lady bird and her catholic school situation- her family was financially unstable and still paid for Catholic school because it was (in their#opinion) the best offering for an education in the neighborhood (and as someone who lives in the same city in the same Area of the same#city I can tell you that that choice does make sense even for a non-catholic. the public schools round here can be uhhhhhh rough)#so im seeing charles’ situation sorta like that#his dad seems like the type to want him ‘kept in line’ and ‘whipped into shape’ and I think he’d pay for that if he could manage it#idk something about charles is just……he has an appeal by being the Normal Kid amongst them. not raised as anything special. not having all#his needs met. never expecting to do anything super grand with his life. just a city kid yknow#anyway SOMEONES gotta know how to cook. I don’t think crystal or edwin have ever had to cook for themselves in their lives and niko seems to#live on instant ramen and i mean I bet she can cook very basic japanese meals but that’s about it#please for the love of god tell me charles learned some stuff from his mom and can cook an adequate meal#I know ghosts don’t eat but shut up#rambling#charles#dead boy detectives spoilers
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#yeah I’m very sure this is depression all over again.#fuckkkkkkkkkk this suckkkks I’ve seriously just had a relapse from like a year ago I’ve been tired and had no motivation for like a month#now and I’m also starting to lose my appetite. just crap I don’t want to deal with this bullshit all over again. I haven’t even eaten once#today and I’m still not hungry either. but anyway how’s life for you guys? probably better then mine lol#sleepy randomly rambles
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I wrote a whole infodump on Herakles headcanons on a priv acc (yk for human version since I prefer to view the guys that way) so I’ll paste it all here cuz fun. It’s gonna be super disorganized and may not carry All of my ideas cuz it’s just me writing whatever came to mind in the moment but I’ll try to organize it the best I can from what I wrote. Also plz take into consideration that I’m not entirely following canon here and a load of it is headcanons with some of canon sprinkled in. Also this is a wip ig
I doubt anybody would read my word vomit cuz I didn’t bother to clean any of this up and my sentence structure is def abysmal as fuck but ig u could say I’m putting this here for my own sake but anyone else is free to read if u would like!!
cw talk of parental loss tho
Okay so I’m gonna ramble about names here cuz it interests me a lot. Obv I’m not Greek or in Greece I just have a deep interest in other cultures and like to research a lot and stalk forums and videos on experiences etc. My ideas may change over time as I learn more about the culture. He feels a bit more old-fashioned to me but anyways yeah nah if I happen to say anything innacurate plz lmk @ anyone who actually reads my word vomit haha
So anyways I def don’t see it as my place to bash on him being given the name "Herakles" cuz I Do know that in Greece they would seem to occasionally give Greek mythological names to ppl (ex: singer who's birth name is Artemios); but I noticed they most often use Christian names tho (also fun fact my irl name is the fem version of an old Greek saint and seems common there along with Hispanic countries that would often do the same lololol)
But at the same time I’d wanna assume that being named Herakles would kinda fuck u over since it would be a huge name to live up to. But that’s just me. Plus to me that adds to his overall life theme
Also I’ve mentioned this before but ppl for years would dunk on his surname claiming that it's "not a real Greek surname" when ... it actually IS, it's just super rare based on what I’ve collected. Admittedly ngly I’ve even been a part of this when I was a kid smh (See: Greek actress with the birth name Evgenia Karpouzi, the fandom would always use the spelling "Karpusi" but that's not language accurate to the more commonly taught Greek language romanization based on what I’ve learned.....
Anywho now onto headcanons and stories I like to apply to him lol
He seems the type whose mom is very huge in the historical arts and preservation field and might've been a Greek history professor and took a huge role in curating and preserving Ancient Greek ruins and artifacts...arranged heritage festivals and exhibitions etc.. Taught culture... Maybe pushed him to be very talented and knowledgeable as a kid and would actively pass down her own knowledge onto him and set pretty high standards for him while also spoiling tf out of him and also being caring yet not as present as a mother due to her career. He grew up very involved in the arts both creative-based and performance-wise but probably mostly the latter. He seems like the type who would be quiet and a bit of a loner at times but was also a lot more enthusiastic and expressive at times.
So anyways yeah not only does he suffer under the curse of living in the shadow of his mothers legacy and not meeting the public expectations in following in her footsteps but a lot of his life is basically formed around her and he wasn’t left with much room to actually form his own personal style due to how heavily influenced he was by her own interest and life path and her passing when he was idk 14 made it even harder for him to even try to let go of any of this cuz besides all of her leftover belongings and the collective community memory of her, it was all he had left of her from within himself so letting go of any of it to make more room for developing his own personal sense of style outside of her existence felt like betraying her or going against her wishes.
He feels deeply guilty for not taking on her legacy after her passing and following in her footsteps but he still does what he can to contribute here and there and still holds a load of pride in what he learns from her + what comes from his roots and besides hanging out with and feeding street cats he still has a lingering fascination and interest in philosophy and observing and maintaining historical sites not only cuz it’s great but also cuz it reminds him of her. It Would also make sense given how canonically he’s portrayed having a home that’s cluttered with his mom’s old things and artifacts that he never wants to get rid of since she passed while he was young.
As for his beef with Sadiq I see it as a ‘obnoxious goofy uncle and petty nephew’ sort of conflict lol. But I like to see it as like. Sadiq was a younger college student of his mom’s who would also do volunteer assistant work for her, so naturally he’d meet Herakles thru that. And with him being that type of guy would screw around with Herakles and poke fun at him yk like how those older guys would treat young kids sometimes and purposely provoke them in a joking yet annoying manner (I have lots of experience of this) and Sadiq himself never saw it as a big deal but yk Herakles Hated that shit and he’s the type to take that kind of stuff to heart. Also Herakles would envy the time he spends with his mom cuz here he is able to get involved with her work life and meanwhile Hera is being some kid at home who sometimes gets to go to his moms work sometimes.
And ooomfg when his mom passes u know damn well that envy turned into pure vitriol cuz Sadiq was able to spend more time around his mom before her sudden death. But Sadiq (still unaware of how deep this shit goes for Herakles) takes Herakles under his wing cuz he feels super bad to say the least.
Now Herakles has one of those large Greek families but he’s autistic* as shit so while he can be loud with them he’s also quiet and a bit of a loner at times so he’d be super reliant on his mother for initiating his interactions with others and she’d take a big part in involving him in family gatherings so u know damn well the second she was gone he didn’t know wtf to do anymore or how to connect with others on his own without her being an extra support lol yk like that one social person that helps interactions go smoother.
* yes I am aware that autism may present differently depending on culture but I’m autistic myself and am basing this on observations I’ve made thru autistic ppl I’ve known in different countries and who also have a similar familial dynamic culturally. Even tho I’m in the US I also have this experience myself with my Viet family members. No duh it’s not ‘just an autism thing’ but yk headcanons
Not to mention him being depressed as fuck over her passing and beginning to self isolate. And being so pitied by family members 24/7 SUCKED Ass so idk ig eventually (after many years and moments of Herakles mostly blowing people off) ppl began to avoid him and stopped inviting him to things like yk that sad thing that often happens whenever someone’s going thru a loss and ppl don’t know what to do about it. He’d ignore their invitations often for years. Of course they’d still try to call or send something or visit every now and then but only very occasionally. It’s like an ‘idk what to do’ sort of thing.
So yeah he’s an only child and was raised by a single mother with a busy and active life where he was always expected to become her shadow whether intended or not. Wow. But despite his family inching away from him, bro still has that younger Cypriot cousin who vibes with him and relates with his quietness and occasional loner behavior so he’d often hang around him cuz the rest of the family would overwhelm him sometimes, therefore even during this time he was the last to stick around for the most part and they’d often hang out in silence. He is a bit more chatty than Herakles tho at times. Idk his name yet. That one Cypriot cousin has a younger brother I think, who’d hang around Sadiq but Herakles’s a #hater and doesn’t really like him for that. He’s the type to threaten to cut ppl off from association and he gets petty and stubborn as hell and holds grudges like u cannot believe. Obviously despite his spite he does still care for Sadiq deep down. He says what he wants but he doesn’t actually wish the guy any real harm and would get super bothered and upset if anybody were to attempt to do so.
Oh yeah and I also mentioned before that I see him being narcoleptic lol *maybe* he occasionally dealt with cataplectic symptoms and it would make sense given how rarely he seems to express strong emotions but I still don’t know. I’m not as knowledgeable in cataplexy I admit. But he’s def on the narcolepsy spectrum and lacks a load of motivation and drive in his life overall. Some of it comes from his mildly nihilistic view on life and some of it is depressiveness and the inability to help himself more on his own accord. It probably took a lot for him to get on a stricter medication routine for it. He tries to take care of himself at the bare minimum but he still doesn’t quite cultivate the best or healthiest of habits. He’s often got others around him trying to help him out and check up on him. Think also of the comic strips of Ludwig trying to help him organize and clean his house and get his finances into check.
Idk how his mom died. Maybe it’s one of those things never spoken about but it was sudden and he was at home when it happened and just remembers it getting super late and dark and him wondering where tf she is each time he’d wake up and him attempting to call her work and go to voicemail each time.
Also back on the topic of his tendencies but Herakles can for sure be the sore loser and jealous type but only depending on whether or not the matter involves Sadiq. Otherwise he’s like eh whatever it’s fine I’ll get it next time) and as I said above he’s also got a somewhat nihilist mindset and wishes to just spend his time doing as he pleases lolll his philosophical info dumps would get mind breaking at times and he just drones onnnn and onnnn and on about it it’s like the kind of stuff that’d make u lie on ur back with ur hands behind ur head staring up at the sky like “yeah……..wow…😕” and would prob put u to sleep cuz he speaks in a slower and softer tone. And you’d prob experience a strange yet vivid dream in the moment. He’s got an ambient and nostalgic feel to his presence that’s hard to explain and melancholy yet oddly calming.
Oh also he still practices Orthodox Christianity besides being an atheist on the most part and not even following any religion or religious rules or moral code bc it’s what he was raised doing with his mom and he feels like it’s what she would’ve wanted lmfaooo I guess it’s for nostalgia’s sake and paying respects to her. Maybe he’s an atheist. Idk. Perhaps his philosophical ideals and stuff he’s learned influences his view on general spirituality and religion so in a way he feels like in the end all gods are all to reach a similar point and intention and are an outer extension/projection of our own subconscious beings and are vessels of hope and focal points for moral code and explanations for the world around us. Or maybe he just views them as beings created to give people’s lives purpose. Or he believes all things at once. Who knows what goes on in his mind.
As for his narcolepsy, his mom may have assumed at first that he was the type of child to nap a lot or that he was lazy, but over time she’d realize something is probably up and would recognize that he wouldn’t be able to help it most of the time and that he actually isn’t the lazy type and works hard when he can. She’d get called by teachers often yelling about his tendency of zoning out and sleeping in class and she’d just respond with “Oh yeah? Well maybe your class isn’t interesting enough if he’s always falling asleep in it!”
So yeah. A load of his life was built around her from the start, and he relied on her for a lot, I mean she’s his mom and all too and the only closer(?) family member in his life given that he’s an only child and has no father. The sudden change of her leaving completely threw his life off course so for years he’s been in some sort of endless state of limbo where he’s both apathetic both saddened yet he might not make it so obvious when around others. He just appears quiet, apathetic and carefree for the most part.
#honestly I don’t really expect anyone to see or engage with anything on this blog lol I mostly put everything here for myself hence why I#don’t put a lot of effort in presentation#hetalia#aph Greece#heracles karpouzi#heracles karpusi#aph turkey#aph Ancient Greece#sadiq adnan#aph cyprus#hetalia headcanons#talk tag#this is all subject to change in the future#bits and pieces I mean#also mb if I ever made any part not make sense or appear innacurate in any way#or if I worded anything bad#I put this up for myself really and don’t expect ppl to read it#hws hetalia#hws greece#human au#I guess? yeah#technically I know my ‘proper Romanisation’ mention is a bit dodgy since I’m still spelling it Heracles but I see that as kinda like a#Iynn minmay situation lol I know it’s wrong and it hurts me lowkey but also that’s what everyone knows it as on a very popular scale even#outside of the series. ling mingmei…. also I’m just ridiculous like that cuz karpouzi is spelled like that in irl cases anyways#rambling
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one of my favorite things about getting older is that I’m just more sure and more confident in taking control in social situations and making other people feel at ease. I really love it!
#have always wanted to be good at it but it takes time#at least for me#my mom was describing one of her college friends to me the other day#and she goes ‘yeah she was kind of like you. personable and direct and kind.#‘and she was always going to deal with you (positive) instead of ignoring you’#honestly compliment of all time! because it does not come totally naturally to me#and there’s a lot that gets in my way—shyness anxiety a certain stiffness#but I love when i can feel it sort of giving way#anyway just rambling#also once again teaching has helped with this so much#because kids HAVE to be guided through a social situation. they don’t know what to do#and if I let them run it it’s always stupid#so just taking control asking the questions kind of —situating them so we can have a moment and then I can dismiss them#not that I do the same with adults lol. but works more often than you think#just having some direction and taking charge of a social interaction#I remember this comedian once saying he loved when someone took control in a social situation re: greetings/handshakes/hugs#like ‘oh thank goodness someone is figuring this out’ it’s so true and so funny skskdkdjd#I hope there is nothing peremptory about it! but I often find I’m so much ruder by doing nothing#than by being proactively kind and (hopefully) appropriate to the occasion#you know I’ve spoken on it before but my life really changed#when I made myself go back and say goodbye to my students after graduation my second year teaching#like. I literally ran away because I was so shy and it felt so awkward and no one was taking charge of how to do it#and the students wouldn’t (can’t) so it felt like they didn’t want to#and then I realized no—if someone is going to take the lead here it has to be me#and then I did! and there was in fact so much love waiting for me#people just don’t know how to show it#so you have to give them an opportunity#this is so many thoughts but I feel this sooooo much and I care about it so much
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#But like fr#you know when you have your regular family#And then there’s the distant “wealthy” side of the family#and they’re literally all weirdos and assholes#one of my older cousins had a baby shower#and they’re from that side of the family (she’s ok though) so of course they invited them#And after being stared down by one of my second(?) aunts bc recently word got out that I have a girlfriend (wow holy shit I’m a butch!)#I was talking to one of my normal cousins about my car and how I plan on getting new seats for it#It has really old leather-y seats and I wanna get the cushy fabric kind#and she just pops into the conversation and says “why don’t you just get a new car? The one you have is so ugly <3”#like what#i have a vw beetle and I actually love it so fuck you (also I don’t have that kind of money to get a new car but shh)#my cousin and I exchanged that “uhhmmm😬” look with each other lol#awkward#But I just say “oh yeah I’ll think about it :)”#While I internally try to explode her with my mind#But anyway#rey rambles#meme#dumb shit#memes#funny#relatable memes#funny memes#lol#best memes#lmao#tumblr memes#twitter memes#dank memes
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i think taking a break from writing smut for like almost a year has been rly refreshing bc i think it made me stop questioning if my writing is interesting without sex and just write it how i want. and then tbh a part of me has realized i like writing without the sex half the time. it’s nice. it’s fun to explore intimacy in as many non sexual ways as you can
#not that i don’t like writing smut#bc tbh sometimes u just have to write gojo cumming#to feel fulfilled#but#yeah idk#dipping my toes back into sm.ut has been a journey#bc on one hand i actually didn’t like it at all when i started writing it again#i was like bro how did i write this so often#this sucks ass i will go back to sfw fluff cuteness#but then i slowly got back into the swing of things#and now it’s like#ok yeah i did miss this a bit#but i think if anything#the break was good for me it made me#overall more confident in my writing and it’s ability to compel / draw in an audience without sex appeal#but also just have more plot based development#which is why i’m so happy w that post canon geto fic#bc me of a year ago#could never fathom writing 10k words of no smut#yeah anyway ramble over#but that being said#ima till write pure filth for october LMAO
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Do you guys think Holt and Storch Sieben ever hatefucked
#I think they have a complicated relationship I’ve been pondering it#bc Holt very much does hate her before the events of the Koliblunt force trauma incident#her initial dislike of Sieben comes from a bad first impression when Sieben was fresh meat on sierpinski (Holt is olddd)#she was petty about it but willing to deal with it to a certain point#but as her higher up sieben pushed her buttons one too many times early on#which is bad you WANT the senior medical EULR on your side in case of emergency!!!#i do think they’ve spent a lot of time together for work related reasons#they become not quite friends not quite enemies?? but a secret weird cold thing full of regret maybe#this partially has to do with how I characterize present day sieben bc yeah she’s a Storch and they are prone to temper tantrums especially#if not trained correctly#but Sieben’s basically one of the highest ranking units at sierpinski if I remember correctly#and you don’t get there without some degree of level headedness + when talking to her she’s not necessarily warm and fuzzy#but she also didn’t seem like a young volatile Storch to me#at least not anymore#I think about sieben a lot but anyways#roundabout way of saying that when Holt did fall ill with the infection it wasn’t ignored by sieben#Holt was visited by her once alone when her vision started fading and they had a moment.#a reconciliation? an attempt on sieben’s part to make things right before the inevitable?? or just wanting to check on her? who knows#I certainly don’t#holt#thanks for listening to the ramble I’m attempting to blorbo post more#and this has been rotating in my head for weeks#figured I’d get it out#blorbo tag
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how do u say hi without being super awkward... anyways hi!! hru!! I literally had to force myself to click the ask button from how high I am, haha :D
Half jokes aside, just wanted to check up on you. Kinda worried i guess?? Idk my older brother instincts were SCREAMING at me to send an ask. So um... Here I am. Just wanted to say, I care abt you a lot and i love you sm /p despite not interacting much. I know you already have people you trust more than me but, I'm always here if you ever wanna vent/rant.
Thought I'd let you know because, idk I consider you a close moot, as weird as that is
Hi um wow this is kind of impeccable timing because my parents are being my parents and not trusting me to handle my life again and they got mad at me for taking a “two hour” break (I was working on my hw throughout that said break) and calling my friends when I literally am stuck in school for nine hours all day and like. Idk sometimes I don’t think they understand how much I’m trying to not ruin my life!! Because if it were completely up to me I’d just do whatever the fuck I want and then end it once I’m like 18 or something but I’m trying my best not to go that path and I don’t. I don’t think they realize that!!! So!! 😬
#I told my mom I’m stuck at school for nine hours and she went “well I’m stuck at work for over ten”#Okay. Cool. So what does that have to do with ME feeling tired??#Yeah!! You’re also tired!!!!! I get that!!!!!!! But??? Your exhaustion doesn’t negate or dismiss mine??????#I’m just so done with their parenting#My dad is always like “we’re trying our best”#Okay yeah I’m also trying MY best but for whatever reason you guys aren’t satisfied with that??#Why do I have to deal with your shitty ass parenting and be okay with it when you people aren’t okay with me “ruining my life”#I just. God they make me want to give everything up so bad#They trap a wild bird inside a bird cage and berate it’s singing when it’s doing the best it can in it’s conditions#And then they get mad when it stops singing#Sorry I didn’t mean to ramble um anyways yeah thanks for checking in big bro we don’t chat much but like#You’re a really comforting figure in my life#We don’t have to talk often to be close dw#purple.txt [👾]
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