#i never know how ppl perceive me!

[tiffanyachings]

the thing about being my friend is that i WILL spend five hours writing you an anonymous nomination for an award. get appreciated mf

[spocks-kaathyra]

really I wonder if my historical inability to care abt people was bc I was masking so hard I couldn't connect with anyone. now that I'm more open I find myself loving people left and right. not in the immaterial, parasocial way I used to admire people, but in a tangible, grounded way. it all used to be proxy relationships, two masks struggling to make conversation that ends up forgotten as soon as the other is out of sight. now I show myself whole and human and I find myself in love with the humanity I see in others. I know what it means to miss people now.

[echo-s-land]

It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

[vanweezer]

very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out

"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"

thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms

[phagodyke]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[icewindandboringhorror]

Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

[burningcomputerpersona]

ugh can i please walk into the woods and never have to worry about obligations ever again

[tkbrokkoli]

ive had now 2 ppl ask me if im transitioning bc i like women. ????? like. wtf are you talking abt??????

a) the mere thought that you'd want to be a man bc you like women makes my brain short circuit

and b) im bi. i do not only like women.

also c) why do you assume that id change myself so someone else would like me. like. what???? that's not how attraction and being in a good relationship full of mutual respect works

[skypiea]

if u were fat as a kid u spend so much time being fat as an adult unraveling the absolute mess of behaviors u had beaten into u by society and media and maybe even people you love. Learning to accept seconds when you’re hungry, learning to eat around other people in general, to wear clothes you like instead of ones that “flatter your body type” (ie obscure as much of your silhouette as possible). telling urself its fine to become visibly winded after doing a strenuous activity in public and u dont need to hide away in a corner or side room until youve recovered. letting yourself eat food you like. existing in public without shame. these things creep up on you growing up without u even realizing it and suddenly theyre a part of you. and it sucks so bad. but it feels so liberating to be free of them

[basiltonpitch]

sometimes i wonder how u guys rlly perceive me and if it's like at all accurate to how i am irl

[isildheir]

Remember when my abuser and their cult of followers proved with their whole ass they keep tabs on me cuz the moment I change the URL for my roleplay blog, they went in to take the old one and put 'get yoinked' in the bio like some haha gotcha

Never forget

[cosmojjong]

gloomy thoughts :(

[earthytzipi]

I mean, yes, this is an experience a lot of autistic people have (myself included, speaking solely about the tags in the reblog above) but can we stop saying that "autism in real life" is supposedly being able to analyze social cues better than allistics? or that "autism in real life" is being hyperverbal or high empathy or deeply in touch with your emotions?

listen. I'm not saying that those aren't really autistic experiences, but I am saying that your experience is not universal, especially if your masking is so highly developed that nobody ever knows until you tell them and then they don't believe you at first. it's not fair for you to erase the autistics for whom none of the above is true.

(as an aside, i also don't *love* the implication in this post that if you are confident in yourself -read: if you don't mask or if your mask is imperfect- you aren't *realistically* autistic... like. hello? some of us don't mask or don't mask well! even at my most insecure, I've gotten the comment from people who don't know me well that I'm "so confident and so willing to be different" when I literally could not be any other way. please don't try to minimize us in our own community.)

[robotspock]

how the hell do i flirt how am i supposed to have my slut autumn when i can barely speak to people. and this guy is a friend of a friend who i literally have only met once how do i approach him and Why is this so HARD

[no-way-hes-vagueposting]

ALWAYS A DYKE NEVER A WOMAN -> ALWAYS A FAGGOT NEVER A MAN PIPELINE

[ame-to-ame]

Ackk