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#bc im still a losercore at heart im still the little kid ppl would ask out as a joke im not supposed to look hot in the mirror
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#time to admit that other than being lazy and out of shape and trauma another reason i don't work out is bc i Do Not want to be hot
#bc i was trained under a tiger mom i went through a lot of. sports as a kid. and it's kinda the only thing keeping my body still in shape
#but it also gave me a lot of problems and pain and we don't talk abt that that's not the point. the point is that i have. a base there.
#whenever i lose weight whenever i slim down whenever im not as flabby the muscle tone comes out the abs start to look like abs
#and aside from how im scared of muscles and etc. i do not want to have that muscular twink build.
#like i think back and arm muscles can look good and hot and. i have the ability to have that build. but i really. ack.
#seeing how i look in a cropped sleeveless thing. i. ack. ack. ack. yes i like how it looks but only through a screen
#yes objectively i look hot yes smash but the thought of that actually being my body makes me feel a bit sick to the stomach!!
#i do not know whether it's my dysphoria or my inherent fear of. associations of physical violence. and it's so silly. it's just a build.
#it's just having a little bit of muscle tone I don't even have much it's mostly bc ive lost so much weight. but idk i just. i feel sick.
#im scared of men im scared of being underneath someone bigger than me im scared of not being able to escape when someone is on top of me
#bc it's really scary. you can spar a red belt and manage to hold your ground but the moment someone is on top of you you're stuck.
#I've felt the fear and genuine terror of not being able to get someone off me. and idk. it's going to take a long while to get over it
#but yeah! body image issues!!! i don't like how i look when i gain weight i don't like how i look when i lose weight
#i think i just need to take down every single mirror there is in the bathroom i do not want to perceive myself.
#maybe the plan is just to get. so hot im more distracted from my dysphoria lmao if i can dissociate from how i look
#bc im still a losercore at heart im still the little kid ppl would ask out as a joke im not supposed to look hot in the mirror
#having ppl regard me as attractive is so weird bc im not used to it i never was the person ppl crushed on in middle school due to the racism
#so sometimes when i see myself idk i feel like im seeing videos or pics of some other. person. who belongs somewhere else. not here. not me.
#but that's enough for body image issues today lmao we get it u don't recognize yourself in the mirror but at least in the mirror u look hot
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