#i need to work on my emotional dependence to this app

[annebrontefanclub]

In regards to Jeremiah Fisher:

I’ve been seeing a lot of people on social media in the past few days who are making excuses for Jeremiah and saying that what’s been happening to him this season is character assassination, which I certainly don’t agree with.

On the other hand, however, I’ve been seeing even more people completely writing him off and treating him like he’s the devil incarnate, and I get that impulse because I’ve wanted to punch him in the face since season 1.

But I want to be able to acknowledge, also, the parts of this that aren’t his fault. And for anyone who thinks I’m going to blame Belly, think again.

I truly believe that the root of Jeremiah’s issues is not Belly or Conrad, it’s 100% Adam. And people on this app have been able to unpack and explain that better and more eloquently than I could so I won’t dive too deep. But it’s significant that we are seeing so much more of him this season than any other time.

Adam has been a terrible father to BOTH brothers, and we see how it affects them from an early age and how they act with Belly. While Conrad’s response is to push people away, Jeremiah’s is to push closer to them. You can chalk it up to him being a people pleaser, or a youngest sibling, but he is constantly needing other people to affirm him, lest he spiral and make it everyone else’s fault. This isn’t a new development with season three, this has always been how he is.

His self worth is completely dependent on others, which is not a healthy place to be at all, and given how he was raised I don’t think this is his fault, but it IS his responsibility.

We see how no matter how he tries, he can’t seem to get the approval he so clearly desires from his dad, and that’s not his fault, but he lets that bleed into how he treats others, and THAT is his responsibility.

But he never takes responsibility. He blames Conrad for everything. He blames Conrad for how things are with his dad (which I know must be infuriating how Conrad is able to maintain Adams interest without trying, or even trying to separate himself completely, I get it), but it’s ultimately not Conrad’s job to facilitate their relationship. He resents Conrad deeply, and he always has. That’s why he so easily gets defensive when people bring up his short comings, because in his mind it’s all in contrast with Conrad. It can never be that he just made a mistake. He also blames Belly for the deterioration of their relationship in season 2 even though he was the one who facilitated it.

Every time something doesn’t go his way, he makes his stupid little face and flares his nostrils until something gives. Belly is on egg shells around him trying affirm his feelings instead of letting him working through them himself, even though is not her responsibility to regulate his emotions. That’s HIS responsibility.

The only time he seems genuinely apologetic about a mistake is when she found out that he cheated (not WHEN he cheated, when she FOUND OUT). And that was only because what he did was undeniably wrong. He couldn’t use his father or brother or girlfriend as a scapegoat. It was on him and he knew it, and even then he tried to make excuses for it (we were on a break my ass). He only admits his short comings when he at risk of losing her, and when she takes him back he proposes so she can’t leave him again.

Belly shouldn’t have kissed him when she had feelings for Conrad, Conrad probably could’ve handled several situations with more grace, and Adam has more to atone for than just about anyone. But even if some of Jeremiah’s reactions are justified, non of them are admirable. He doesn’t always go low, but he never rises above. That coupled with a rough-around-the-edges performance (and even a villain edit if you squint) it makes him less of a viable love interest and more of an antagonist.

In making this point I’m pulling examples from all three seasons. I think this post highlights it really plainly that this is just who he is.

I don’t think he is a bad person. I think he’s a really angry kid who’s built his whole personality around being easygoing. He has no boundaries, no guidance, and he needs to do a lot of self reflection before he is ready for a serious relationship. You can’t love someone properly is you don’t have self respect or dignity and he has none. He relies on others for it, which is immature and unfair. I don’t think he’s hopeless, but he has demons he needs to face.

[fitzrove]

Not only have several of my former classmates gotten married, just found out that now one is having a kid?? 😭😭 just reiterating: i cant believe some people my age are doing that dklsldls. Where do they find time to work/study AND develop intricate crown prince rudolf headcanons once they do that

[creekfiend]

I wanted to make a bonsai kitten recovery post that outlines some of the stuff that I've been doing. Because I don't think that you need to ✨see a therapist✨ to start dealing with a lot of this stuff and I get really frustrated when that is the answer that everyone is constantly giving. Firstly a disclaimer, because I know what website I am on: this is a guide for things that have worked for me! I am not everyone and if there are things on here that do not work for you or even that you think are stupid, that is fine, but please do not make it my problem. If you are reading it and you're like "that sounds like it would actually be detrimental to my specific mental health because of my specific issues" then please disregard it. Use your critical thinking skills and do what you think is right for you!

My second disclaimer is that I didn't make any of this up myself; most of these are collected from various places either in therapeutic guide books or various websites about emotional regulation etc. Some of it is stuff that I have extrapolated from those places based on experience with what works for me or does not work for me. A lot of the way that I treat myself when I need to get my body and brain into a place where I can think about stuff productively is actually directly from gentle parenting guides, because frankly cptsd recovery stuff is very often like parenting a toddler. And the toddler is you. ALL THAT SAID,

The first skill that I had to get good at, that many of the other skills depend on, is to learn how to understand when I am Reacting to something. If I am Reacting it is extremely likely that that's going to only escalate the situation and make it much worse. I HAVE to be able to tell if I am Reacting emotionally to something in a way that is coming from a place of fear and panic. This is important because it involves not being prescriptive about your emotions. You could be Reacting to something that you do not logically feel is at all justified in making you feel that way and that doesn't matter! You can't be doing math equations to try to come to the answer of how you SHOULD be feeling; you have to be observing your mind and body to see how you factually ARE feeling and then respond to THAT. This can be really hard to learn how to do especially if you were abused as a child. (If you cannot think of yourself as someone who is abused as a child perhaps it would help to think of yourself as someone who simply was not taught various emotional regulation skills for mysterious reasons that have nothing to do with your parents' inadequacies.) I need to be able to glance inward and see what the physiological reaction that I'm having is and identify whether or not I feel like this is the biggest emergency in the world that needs to be addressed right now immediately! That is a sure sign that Mr Fight and Mr Flight are in the building and it is bad to make declarative statements or important decisions when that is the case. So, I have to work on dismissing them first. That is literally the first step to any of this. One of my friends calls this "fire mittens," which is to say, if you are wearing mittens that are on fire and you try to touch stuff, the stuff will also become on fire. You have to put the fire out first before you can touch other things.

Once I have determined that I am indeed Reacting and in a physiological state of fear, I have a document in my notes app that is a "what to do when you are in fight or flight mode" guide and it has several helpful things that I will try to outline here.

Firstly, the really important thing for me for trying to get back into an emotional state where I'm capable of making decisions and being thoughtful is to feel safe and comfortable. So I actually have some stuff in my document that is straight up just like "go in the blankie nest. put on this specific music album. light this specific scented candle." etc. You might want to have a specific food or drink that is comforting to you or some other sort of stim toy that helps you regulate. If there's any calming medication or supplements for anxiety that you take as needed, now is also the time to do that. Physical sensory grounding is really important for this. This is probably especially true if, like me, you are neurodivergent, but I think it is also true for everyone because we are animals! And you can't just think about it, you have to actually do it. Which sounds obvious but is the thing that has often tripped me up in the past. Once you start getting into the habit of actually physically doing this it DOES become easier though.

One of my rules is that if I want to respond to something but I am in fight or flight mode, I don't get to respond to it for at least 24 hours. I'm only allowed to respond once I've gotten myself out of fear mode. If it is some kind of comment on Facebook that has set me off, often this means that 24 hours later I realize that I actually don't want to get into it to begin with, which is great. If it's something that is pretty serious and interpersonal with a friend, sometimes that means I have to communicate to them that I'm going to take a while to process it and then get back to them. IMPORTANT: You CANNOT do this passive aggressively or else it undermines the whole thing. You can't phrase it in a way that will make your friends think that you are guilt tripping them for "making" you feel a way. It is VERY tempting to do this when you are in the first stages of trying to form this habit and you simply need to resist the urge because it will render this step worthless. I know. It sucks.

If I am feeling fearful and insecure about friends or loved ones, I also usually try to spend some time thinking about the people that I love and care about. Because often this stuff manifest for me as insecurity that the people that I care about do not care about me, or that they think that I'm being annoying, or that they are secretly thinking mean things about me. It's obviously not good for me to constantly be imagining that the people in my life who I care about are actually avatars of my own insecurity who are here to tell me that I'm secretly fundamentally unlovable! But crucially also it's ALSO not fair to those people to imagine them as that. They are not that guy, they are their own complex human beings with their own lives and experiences and interiority. So sometimes I do thought exercises where I will imagine my friends or loved ones doing things in their everyday lives and I will think about them as people and I will think about the things that they like to do and the things that they say and the places that they go, and I will try to imagine them fondly in those circumstances. This helps to remind me that they are just people and that the scary puppet wearing their faces is not real. To this end I sometimes will have a document of screenshots of things that they have said to me that I can use to reality check myself. I personally find reality checks to be essential for a lot of this. Things can feel true when they are not true at all. Things can feel wrong when they are actually true. The point of most of these exercises is to gently remind myself that those feelings are normal for me to be having, but that I do not need to let them dictate my responses.

It is crucial throughout all of this that you are nice to yourself. You can't talk to yourself in a mean way while you're doing this, or you will not get to a point where you are feeling safe enough to react from a place of not-fear. You can't make yourself feel ashamed or defensive for your emotional reactions. This is the particular area where I find gentle parenting protocols helpful. You HAVE to be patient with yourself.

Ok that's all for now bc I ran out of steam but I will try to think of more to add on another day maybe. Godspeed everyone

[spideyson-stuff]

I know we all think Peter is Gen Z and because of that he has like every social network possible but I'm going to say no to this

Peter KNOWS how the internet works, how people hate you just for posting a picture of the ice cream you're eating one day and well, he already deals with enough stuff

All the Avengers have official verified Twitter accounts and Peter doesn't have one for either Spider-Man or Peter Parker, Tony once joked that for someone of his generation he spent very little time on the internet, and asked if he knew anything about the Instagram algorithm just as a joke, Peter answered the exact settings of the app, Tony is now a little afraid of his pupil's knowledge...

Unfortunately, against his will, Tony creates an account for Spider-Man and Peter Parker and follows both of them, and for the first time in his life Tony sees Peter yelling at him, REALLY yelling

Petet: YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU DID TONY? MY LIFE IS OVER NOW BECAUSE OF YOU!

Tony: O-oh calm down kidoy, what's the worst that could happen?

Account for a scene of Peter running away from paparazzi asks what his relationship with Tony is and Tony seeing all this on live TV

Tony: Ohhhhhhhh shiiiiiiiit...

And when Tony goes to apologize, Peter just starts crying so much that I can't say anything else, all the avengers are in shock because even though Peter is just a teenager and everyone knows he is emotionally vulnerable, they never saw him cry, not even when he was wounded in battle, Tony is such an emotional IDIOT that he doesn't just ask something like "You're ... crying?"

Peter just runs away from there and goes to his room in the tower that he almost never uses.

Everyone else gives Tony a death stare and starts arguing with him

Bucky: "You're crying"? ARE YOU AN IMBECILE BY ANY CHANCE TONY!?

Sam: Oh man, I knew you were an asshole but I didn't know it was THAS bad

Thor: I didn't expect this from you Tin Man

Clint: You're no good at being a father, man...

Steve: Seriously Tony? "you're crying?" that's the last thing you say when someone starts crying in front of you

Rhodes: Wow Tony, just, wow...

Bruce, Stark I... I don't even know what to say

Tony: ... OK Ok are you guys done? I need to find him to solve this-

Natacha: You really think he wants to see you now?

Tony:... I need to try

Then Tony finds Peter on the roof sobbing

Tony: Pete...

Peter:... sorry...

Tony:!? uh???

Peter: I overreacted I... I'm sorry it's just that... I HATE attention so much and this whole thing about Spider-Man becoming a famous hero was proof that I don't like being recognized at all...

Tony:...

Peter: so when you followed me I just freaked out because... I knew they would jump on it like their lives depended on it, and now I'm famous as "Peter Parker" and everyone is asking "Spider-Man" when he's going to create other social media accounts and make posts and I- I'm not ready ready for this- URGH

Tony: How did I never realize this before?...

Peter: Uh?...

Tony: This hatred you have for attention, god it must have been torture when I took you on that business trip, or when I introduced you to the interns, god you hated me for the conference in Italy!?

Peter just stares at Tony, honestly Tony is surprised how Peter managed to stop crying on his own, but it's more painful to know that he probably does this because he is already used to it

In Tony hugs Peter, he doesn't say that everything will be okay because... wow, he doesn't even know if everything will be okay

Tony: I'm sorry, I'm REALLY sorry...

[puppys-tiny-space]

🩹How to deal with unhealthy regression:🩹

🍼First of all what is unhealthy regression?

Ageregression or agedreaming is both a trauma response and a coping mechanism. As such it can also present in unhealthy ways. When that happens the usually beneficial behaviour can cause harm to the individual partaking in it. I will explain what that can look like in this post and which warning signs to look out for.

🐾How can unhealthy regression present?

If someone's regression is unhealthy it can show in a number of ways since regression itself is something very personal and is often very different from person to person. Unhealthy regression can show through tantrums, being easily frustrated, struggling with things like personal hygiene and maintaining a healthy routine, overspending, insomnia and nightmares or general issues around sleep, relapsing in addictive or other harmful behaviors and much more.

🍼What are some warning signs to watch out for?

Warning signs can differ from person to person but these are some I watch out for in my own coping/symptoms. Struggling to control your regression ie. slipping at work or in public without being able to regulate back to a mindset where you are capable of caring for yourself and performing necessary tasks. Experiencing mainly upsetting emotions while regressed. Falling back on unhealthy coping mechanisms due to stress occurring during regressive episodes. Struggling with properly taking care of yourself, (cleanliness, sleep, nutrition etc.). Basically any unusual amount of stress, symptom flare-ups, dissociation, mental distress or similar during or after regressive episodes is something to watch out for.

🐾What do I do if my regression is currently unhealthy?

First of all don't panic, it's okay to struggle and it does not make you a bad person to do so. If you can talk to a medical professional who might be able to advise you on an individual scale. On your own I would recommend a few different things depending on how much you are struggling. If it is currently not safe for you to regress try not to, don't do it voluntarily and if it happens involuntarily try your best to stay safe, be around people you feel safe with, let someone know what's going on, stay away from potential triggers or things that could cause harm towards you. If you can't stop regressing or don't feel it is necessary try addressing the issues you are experiencing. Journal about the feelings you are having, get them out in whichever way works for you whether it be talking, writing, drawing, singing, painting or anything else. I also recommend actively doing positive things like going to the zoo, having a playdate with a friend, playing a new video game or having a plushie spa day. Actively making good memories around regression can be very healing. The most important advice I have is don't force it, rather set aside regression for a while than risk harking yourself just because it is a coping mechanism that has served you in the past, sometimes we have to let go of things even if it hurts. Also don't be afraid to seek professional help, it does not make you weak to need assistance, stay safe.

🍼How can I help somebody else with unhealthy regression?

Ask them if they know any specific things that help them and act accordingly within your own boundaries. Try being there for them in any way you can safely do, offer an open ear if they want to talk about anything, send them cute animal pictures to cheer them up or just check in with them every now and then. Send them any resources you feel might be helpful, whether it be mental health apps, a recommendation for a great therapist or a self help group or just a cool colouring book. If you feel it necessary for their safety don't be scared to involve their family or friends for a wellness check. If your country has the proper means to execute a safe wellness check through police/EMTS or similar that is also an option worth considering but be mindful of their safety regarding such actions.

🐾How do I confront someone I am worried about?

There isn't one way to do this, if you are worried about a friend, partner, family member or even just a mutual the most important thing is to be kind. Don't accuse someone of something, throwing around big statements can be overwhelming. Indeed try addressing specific things you are worried about like "I've noticed that lately you have been isolating yourself." or "The posts you have been making on social media lately make it seem like you are struggling, I'm worried about you and would like to help if you'd let me." We can't make someone accept help especially not through the phone and someone else's wellbeing is not your responsibility (in most cases) but it is still important to check in with people who you think might be struggling. Explain your concerns as calm as you can, hear them out on their answers and do your best not to make any judgements on their struggle. If you feel overwhelmed with approaching them try contacting somebody close to them first.

🍼What if I can't access a therapist or afford to go to a hospital?

If you or someone you care about lives in a country without universal health care getting the right support can be hard. I personally do not so I can't give exact advice on this but I recommend calling things like mental health hotlines, reaching out to resources like the Trevor project and looking for things like local support groups and mental health charities. Getting help can be scary but you are worth it.

[elminx]

Magic for Recentering During Times of Conflict

Note: I am writing this immediately following the November 2024 election cycle, but this is not meant to be specific to this time. Nor am I inferring that magic can solve all of our problems. Please seek out help from a professional if you need it.

One of the deep truths that I have uncovered in my life is that when I am unbalanced (emotionally, physically, spiritually), I am of no use to myself or to others. When something rocks me to the core of my being as this election has, I need to feel all of the feels first and foremost. Then, I need to find a way to move on from the immediate (VERY VALID) emotional turmoil so that I don't get stuck in a pattern of rumination or pathological catastrophizing.

These are some of the ways that I do so. This list is not meant to be exhaustive and, of course, I do not expect every one of these to work for everyone. That is okay and expected. I'm also not including medical, psychological, or court-based interventions because I am not a doctor or a lawyer. Some of these tips are purely magical in nature and some are what I would call magic adjacent - they are mundane actions that are cleansing in nature.

Feel your feelings. I know I said AFTER, but I feel that I need to reiterate this. These steps are unlikely to work until you have worked your way through the first stages of rage, revolt, grief, name your emotion here. How long this takes will be different for everyone. Don't rush this.

Breathe. When I am really In It, I find meditation nearly impossible. I need to be reminded how to take deep breaths. This is when I get help—I use the Tide App for this. I set it to "Breathe," a fifteen-minute timer, and balanced breath. If you're new to breath work, start with five minutes. This is very simple: The app makes a sound for inhalation and one for exhalation. For many people, deep breathing helps to bring your nervous system into balance.

Change. This isn't a tip for everyone, but you know who you are. (I'm definitely guilty of this) If you've been wearing the same clothes for a week, stewing in your emotional turmoil, it's time to change them. Every single item you've been wearing. This may go to blankets or bedding, too. Put them all in the wash and give yourself a fresh set and a fresh start.

Wash. Take an intentional bath or shower. Wash every part of your body, focusing on removing the bad emotions with soap and washing them down the drain. You can add oomph to this by using soaps with cleansing scents (think lavender, citrus, lemongrass, sage, etc.).

Cut or Dye your hair. This is a deep take that will only work for some people, but if you're like me, cutting your hair can be a big release. It doesn't have to be a big change (though I find the bigger the cut, the bigger the release). Sometimes, making a visible change to your appearance can change how you feel. IYKYK

Small Cleansing Rituals. These will vary greatly depending on your practice and culture. If cleansing yourself with smoke or crystals really gets you, do it.

Clean Your House - stale energy is stale. Part of getting over an emotional episode, for me, is getting the energy in my environment flowing again. Open some windows. Wash your floors. Pick up the mess you created when you were too In It to do anything more than feel. This could be your bedroom, house, or space in which you spent the most time while you were down for the count. You can add oomph to this with Cleansing Vinegar.

Big Cleansing Rituals—When something is really stuck, we need the big guns. This could be cord-cutting or cleansing spells, whatever works well for you. I have a spell that works for this here.

Flush it out of you. (TW: alcohol) If you're the potion type, you can make a cleansing potion to move the emotions through your body until you eventually pee them out. This doesn't have to be alcoholic, though I like alcohol for its mild diuretic effects in this scenario. Think cleansing with citrus here, especially. My long-form lemonade will definitely work here, as would many types of tea. I have a seasoned cocktail specifically designed to do this here.

Banish it. There are too many ways to do a banishing spell for me to list them all here. But, since we are talking about explicitly banishing something from your own body - I suggest using food. Onions and black pepper are good banishing ingredients that taste great, too. I have a French Onion Soup banishing recipe here.

I want to reiterate here that if you are still dealing with your emotions stage of things right now, that is completely okay. This isn't meant to rush anyone through this process. We are all different people with different needs. It's also okay (and probably expected) that all of these things listed above won't work for all people - after all, they are things that work for me, specifically.

You need to find out what works for you. If don't know where to start right now, I hope this gave you some ideas. And, as always, if there's a method of getting through the hard shit that you'd like to add to this, please do! We could all use some new ideas for the hard road ahead.

[astarless-fights]

For those on tumblr not in the know, Mark Zuckerberg lobbied the United States Congress to ban Tiktok from the United States after proving difficulty to overcome the loss of users to Tiktok. Through gifts and stocks, the House Energy and Commerce Committee successfully banned Tiktok. It needs to be very clear to those who have not been able to pay attention: The Committee interviewed Tiktok's CEO with questions that did not relate to Tiktok but instead to META. This precedent is very alarming. What is fine for one, is not the other- even if the other isn't participating.

Some key points:

Tiktok stores (stored, depending on what day you see this) all United States data on US soil in Texas and gives backdoor entry to the NSA. - This is important for the United States to check for the bad people on all platforms.

Listed members on the committee asked questions of activities Tiktok does not participate in but all of META does. Giving us immediate confirmation our government is fine with domestic platforms selling our data without consent.

An incredibly concerning detail showed its face while this was going down. All META platforms have access to every device's data using the same WIFI you connect to and they use that data.

META has given me the urge to puke for several years but last year was a moment of true question of how I move forward in a world that already seemingly has my data, even if I did not consent to the passing around of it.

When META decided to include AI in their system after investors seemed to require everyone to do so, the question of safety crossed my mind. META had announced the platforms were using everything you produce and have produced (posts, videos, photos) to not just train their own AI system, but they were also sending your information to a 3rd party as well. This included a setting toggle for consent that was default ON.

When the masses found out and toggled it off, META redesigned the Settings page to make it harder for you to find the consent option. They also made it so it wasn't just a "toggle" but now you had to write to them.

When the masses found out again (because we don't want this) how to get there, they redesigned the settings page again, hid the consent deeper, and required you to write to them with proof they even used your information... So that you can consent or not to consent to use their information.

I have been on this app since 2008 and relied heavily on this website when I was 14 while trying to escape the all seeing eyes I was friends with on Facebook. During this, tumblr became an amazing news resource for bills about to pass that endangered every bit of what the internet is known for: free speech and free of choice.

Back then, this site was all I had. I worshipped Tumblr for giving me emotional outlets and outside opinions during a very rough and miserable transition as a teen. So when Tumblr shared Bills trying to regulate our internet that would prevent reaching sites like Tumblr, I campaigned to my 150 student school and the two 1000 student public schools near me to reach out to our representatives, especially those 18 year olds waiting for a new horizon. With this, our representative and our governor in South Carolina, reached out to us at the time, letting us know they didn't realize how loved these spaces were and that they needed protecting. Communicating knowledge is powerful.

Having sites like Tumblr and Reddit circulate incoming bills like this was required to know about it. No one on Facebook saw any of that coming and they definitely won’t find out now with Zuckerberg making sure of it.

I have always seen the importance of internet regulation but for whatever reason (propaganda pushing) the People who work for us (reps, congress, the house, the committees) always wanted to pass bills that prevented people from talking and accessing new information.

The Tiktok ban passed by our government is not a good sign for anyone who uses the internet. The total amount of Americans who use this app to create community, careers, businesses, market their art, is at 102.3 million. That's a shit ton of businesses and communities that just end on the 19th of January.

And you might think, well why wouldn't they backup to another platform and I am sure many will, but Tiktok has such a unique algorithm that actually pushes businesses into the limelight and because of that, there is a massive community there that uplifts businesses that are falling behind. Currently, there is no other algorithm on US soil that compares to just how much it uplifts accounts that don't do well starting out. We lost so many creators after Vine because no other app could translate the humor and creativity. It's going to be a bigger loss after Tiktok goes because of that same issue.

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If they are willing to ban a site that is very minimally connected to China, an incredibly huge resource for Americans for everything and anything and all for an increase in paycheck, what else will they be banning in the future when money is waved in their faces by one entity? They already went for one where the American people are heavily reliant on and one that is supposed to be protected under free speech and free of choice. If META wants something dead, give it a year, and it will die.

The Internet and social platforms have always been protected by free speech and freedom of choice. But these aspects have also been on the chopping block since the wild wild west of internet. I fear, this will not stop with just Tiktok.

[thestarssecrets]

Learn The Basics; Astrology Edition

I get a lot of questions about astrology in my daily life, especially on how to start reading personal charts. With so much information thrown at you, navigating astrology can seem daunting at first glance. In this post I’ll be going right back to the basics. It doesn’t matter if you’re just brushing up on your knowledge, or brand new; In this guide I’ll go over the 12 zodiac signs, the house it traditionally rules, its ruling planet, element, and key traits to make sure you’re set and ready. These essentials will lay out the foundation for you to get the ball rolling on reading your own chart!

to start I’ll state key vocabulary and tools that can help aid you for a deeper understanding of the content.

Vocabulary:

House/s: represent areas of life. It shows you where an energy is being expressed. this would be the 12 sectors of a birth chart you see at first glance. example: to better understand how astrology works I’ll be using a theater play production as examples. the houses would be the scene backdrop. where is this taking place?

Zodiac Sign: a type of energy expression. shows you how an energy is expressed through their unique archetype example: this would be the dialogue of a character in a play. How is this character expressing themselves? What type of personality do they have?

Planets: show you what is happening in the chart. They reveal to you the force that’s being activated, like a player or a chess piece. example: the planets in a play would be the actress/actor. the strengths of the actor would be the characteristics of the planet. ex: Venus: Love, Partnerships, Finance, Harmony, Affection

Aspects: Show the conflict between planets. Aspects in astrology is the degrees apart or close a planet is to another in a chart. If a planet makes a certain angle with another it creates a channel where they “speak” to another. there is an action going on between the two planets.

Trine: effortless, flows naturally without any work needing to be done

Sextile: easy, all the skills to work together are there, but there needs to be some action required to make the energy happen

Opposition: opposing, there needs to be balance required. one planet wants one thing while the other wants the opposite

Square: Tension, there needs to be patience and experience required to work through the conflict

example: this would be the characters’ relationships with other characters in a play.

Shapes: There are certain shapes aspect lines can make in the middle of a chart that shows an important theme in an individual's life depending on the planets involved and the shape it’s making. example: this would be a specific theme or reoccurring event happening in a play. i might do a separate post about shapes so watch out for that!

Tools:

Astrology App: Time Passages great for navigating a birth chart for the first time. It explains everything in the birth chart, as well as having a separate section to learn about terms!

Astrology App: The Pattern great for navigating big transits happening in your life. breaks down important parts of your chart into sections and narrates it in an easy to understand way. also gives a unique perspective on compatibility charts.

Website: Astroseek Great for diving deep into astrology. lots of different types of chart types to pull up.

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Aries

Planet ruler: Mars (aggression, motivation, sexuality)

House: 1st – self, identity, first impressions

Element: Fire

Mode: Cardinal

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Taurus

Planet ruler: Venus (values, sensuality, stability)

House: 2nd – self worth, possessions, security, body awareness

Element: Earth

Mode: Fixed

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Gemini

Planet ruler: Mercury (communication, curiosity, thought processes)

House: 3rd – language, learning, siblings, local environment, early schooling

Element: Air

Mode: Mutable

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Cancer

Planet ruler: Moon (emotions, intuition, inner world)

House: 4th – home, roots, family, emotional foundation

Element: Water

Mode: Cardinal

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Leo

Planet ruler: Sun (identity, confidence, creative expression,ego)

House: 5th – joy, play, romance, creative energy

Element: Fire

Mode: Fixed

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Virgo

Planet ruler: Mercury (analysis, organization, precision)

House: 6th – habits, service, health, daily life

Element: Earth

Mode: Mutable

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Libra

Planet ruler: Venus (aesthetics, relationships, harmony)

House: 7th – partnerships, balance, reflection through others

Element: Air

Mode: Cardinal

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Scorpio

Planet rulers: Pluto (transformation, power, depth), Traditional: Mars (willpower, intensity, survival)

House: 8th – intimacy, shared resources, death & rebirth

Element: Water

Mode: Fixed

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Sagittarius

Planet ruler: Jupiter (expansion, belief, exploration)

House: 9th – philosophy, travel, higher learning, truth-seeking,morals,inner compass

Element: Fire

Mode: Mutable

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Capricorn

Planet ruler: Saturn (discipline, structure, responsibility)

House: 10th – career, reputation, long-term goals, authority

Element: Earth

Mode: Cardinal

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Aquarius

Planet rulers: Uranus (innovation, disruption, freedom), Traditional: Saturn (systems, boundaries, long-term vision,blockage)

House: 11th – community, social progress, future thinking

Element: Air

Mode: Fixed

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Pisces

Planet rulers: Neptune (dreams, intuition, spirituality), Traditional: Jupiter (hope, faith, wisdom)

House: 12th – subconscious, surrender, healing, solitude

Element: Water

Mode: Mutable

these are just the basics to get you through the understanding of how a birth chart works. I highly recommend doing more research into signs, houses, planets, etc once the basics are learned! thank you for reading and happy learning! :)

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[lambstudies]

Is it ADHD, or is it my phone?

A personal reflection, research, and small steps toward reclaiming focus.

Introduction — Why I’m writing this?

This is a mix of personal reflection and research I did after a long time thinking about my relationship with my phone, my attention, and my ADHD.

I went looking for information through conversations, articles, and listening to professionals, because I’m entering a phase in life where, like most people, I need my phone. But at the same time, I’m beginning to question: what’s actually happening to me?

Because while it’s not fair to immediately say “I have ADHD” when maybe the real issue is too much screen time, it’s also true that people who are diagnosed with ADHD (like me) can still suffer because of the phone.

This post is for everyone. It’s something we should all think about.

Because even if your phone helps you, you need to give yourself permission to pause. You can’t be attached to it 24/7. You need time to rest and figure out what’s going on in your brain. And if you’re going to use your phone, you need to learn how to use it in a way that feels fair, intentional, and not addictive.

Part 1 — The personal reflection: What I’ve been feeling

Lately, I’ve been struggling a lot with focus.

And not just “oh, I got distracted for a second” kind of struggle, I’m talking about those moments when your brain just freezes mid-task, and all you can do is stare blankly into the void, not knowing what you were doing, or why.

I keep wondering: is this ADHD?

Or is it my phone? Or both?

I’ve been reading about ADHD, and a lot of what I feel seems to fit. The scattered thoughts. The impulsiveness. The feeling that time is either rushing or dragging. The guilt of “wasting” a whole day without even realizing it. But then I look at my phone, the endless scrolling, the quick dopamine hits, the way apps are literally designed to keep us addicted and I can’t help but wonder if maybe I’m not broken. Maybe I’m just overstimulated.

Sometimes I’ll open my phone to check the time and end up doing five completely unrelated things before I even remember why I picked it up in the first place. Hours vanish into screens. My brain feels tired, overstretched, but also restless.

It’s like I’m always searching for something the next notification, the next video, the next distraction.

I know it’s hurting me.

It’s affecting how I study. It’s affecting my work. It’s making it harder for me to focus on things that actually matter, things I care about. I start tasks and abandon them halfway. I reread the same sentence five times and still don’t know what it said. I’m falling behind in ways that people don’t always see from the outside.

I feel ashamed sometimes. Ashamed of how dependent I’ve become on constant stimulation.

Ashamed of how I struggle with things that seem “easy” for other people.

Ashamed that I can’t always tell whether my brain is just wired differently or if I’ve simply trained it to crave distraction 24/7.

This isn’t just about attention. It’s about the emotional weight that comes with feeling like you’re constantly underperforming. Like you’re never quite “on top of things.”

It’s exhausting.

Phones aren’t inherently evil, and ADHD isn’t some excuse.

But when you mix a neurodivergent brain with a device that’s designed to hijack your attention… things get complicated. You don’t always know what’s real and what’s induced. What’s you and what’s your screen.

I guess I’m writing this because I need to let it out. I need to say: I’m struggling.

And I know I’m not the only one.

I want to get better at protecting my focus, not because productivity is everything, but because I miss my own mind. I miss being able to sit with a thought and follow it all the way through. I miss silence. I miss being fully present.

So whether this is ADHD or just the side effect of living in a world that profits off distraction… I don’t know.

But I’m trying to figure it out. I’m trying to be gentle with myself, to observe what helps and what hurts. I’m trying to reclaim my attention — piece by piece — and come back to myself.

Part 2 — What I found when I started researching

After noticing how much my attention was slipping, I started researching, not just random posts, but actual articles, studies, and things written by professionals. I wanted to understand: is my phone really making my ADHD worse? Or am I just blaming the obvious thing?

What I found was… validating. But also a little alarming.

According to the CHADD organization (Children and Adults with Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder), people with ADHD are more vulnerable to screen addiction. It’s not just about liking our phones — it’s that our brains are literally wired to seek stimulation, novelty, and quick dopamine hits. And smartphones give us that on demand, non-stop.

The National Institute of Mental Health also talks about how ADHD brains have less dopamine activity, especially in areas responsible for motivation and focus. So when we scroll, or switch apps constantly, we’re actually feeding that craving — even if it makes things worse long term.

One article I read on Psychology Today said that excessive screen time doesn’t cause ADHD, but it can intensify symptoms like inattention, impulsivity, and emotional dysregulation. It’s like pouring fuel on an already flickering fire.

There was also a study published in JAMA (Journal of the American Medical Association) that followed teens with high screen use, and those with ADHD symptoms saw those symptoms worsen over time compared to those with limited screen exposure.

I have ADHD, I’ve been diagnosed since I was 14. But I’ve also been unknowingly feeding a cycle. The more distracted I feel, the more I reach for my phone. The more I use it, the more overstimulated I get. And then it’s even harder to focus, and I feel worse.

It’s not about willpower. It’s a loop.

Something else that stood out to me was how this constant stimulation affects executive function, which is already a struggle for people with ADHD. When you’re always switching tasks, or checking your phone in the middle of everything, your brain doesn’t get the chance to fully engage in anything. That’s why things feel half-done. That’s why you read a paragraph and retain nothing. That’s why even fun things can feel like chores.

So yes — the answer is: it’s both.

It’s ADHD and the phone. And the phone can definitely make ADHD worse.

But I also found hope in this research.

Because if I know that, then I can start doing something about it. Even small things. Like turning off notifications. Giving myself “phone breaks.” Using tools that actually help my ADHD instead of feeding it (like timers, noise blockers, or focused playlists).

I’m not aiming for perfection. I’m aiming for awareness.

And this research reminded me that my brain isn’t broken, it’s just wired differently. And it needs a different kind of care.

So if you’re reading this and relating: maybe go gently on yourself. This stuff is real. It’s chemical, emotional, behavioral, all at once. You’re not weak for struggling with it.

You’re just living in a world that constantly overstimulates us, with a brain that already does that on its own.

And you deserve peace in your mind, too.

Part 3 — Practical steps I’m starting to try

Here are some small, realistic steps I’m beginning to take, not as strict rules, but as experiments. If you relate to any of this, maybe one or two of these could help you too:

1. Phone-free mornings

I try to spend the first hour of my day without looking at my phone. It’s helped me feel calmer and more centered.

2. “Do Not Disturb” mode during tasks

When I need to study or write, I silence my phone or leave it in another room.

3. Time limits on distracting apps

I’ve set daily time limits for apps like Instagram and TikTok, and I try to respect them, even if they feel small at first.

4. Daily screen-free breaks

Whether it’s a walk, stretching, or just sitting outside, I give myself time away from screens every day.

5. Noticing why I’m reaching for my phone

Sometimes I write down how I’m feeling when I catch myself reaching for it. Am I bored? Anxious? Tired? That small act of noticing helps me feel more in control.

This might sound simple — even silly — but be honest with yourself: can you actually do it?

Pause and really think about how much time you spend on your phone, how often it’s in your hand, how quickly you reach for it without even noticing.

These may seem like small, harmless habits. But when you try to break them — even just a little — you start to realize just how deeply attached you’ve become.

What sounds easy in theory suddenly feels uncomfortable in practice.

And that says a lot.

Final words

If you’re feeling like your attention is disappearing, or like your brain isn’t working the way it used to, I see you.

Whether it’s ADHD, screen addiction, or a mix of both, it doesn’t make you broken. It makes you human in a very complicated, noisy world.

Be kind with yourself. Start small. And trust that your focus, your creativity, and your inner calm can come back.

One step at a time.

[centrally-unplanned]

I might be a bit of a weirdo in this regard so I am a bit biased, but I think a fundamental problem AI Companion Apps like lets say Friend.com are going to have in "replacing socializing" is that socialization is instrumental and that instrumentality lies in the real. The ad copy for this product and so many of its various clones is a normal-looking everyman just chatting with their companion, making comments about the weather or how their hiking is going, etc. Treating it like a friend and talking to it like a friend does.

The rub there is that not many people do those behaviors for the reasons presented. They are treated as somehow "inherently" enjoyable, that you just love talking to ~something~ about the weather and anything that can pantomime the right responses is going to do it for you. That isn't how it works for most people; the point is the other person. The words themselves, divorced from the speaker being a breathing human you have a relationship with, are not very interesting. Instead it is about building rapport, signalling care, a human-connected daily ritual. Sometimes it is positive, but it is negative sometimes too! You put up with Kyle's 18th story about his dog's health woes because, look, it's boring as shit, but Kyle needs to rant about it and if this is the price of admission to his amazing saturday brunch parties you are going to pay up.

Even interesting-in-their-own-right convos are normally not like wow, you taught me some amazing new fact; it is hearing your friend's interesting take or experiences. There is this whole structural undercurrent here, this person is admirable or kind or you have a lot of history with them or they are really hot and so their words are contextualized into an emotional experience of connection or curiosity or wanting to impress them and a million other things around that structure.

When you shed all of that, when it is an AI that you know is just programmed to listen, that you can turn off at will, that you can just override and ask it for directions or to switch over to spotify or to sext you catgirl pics, there isn't anything left. These conversations are useless - what is the point? Why would I tell my phone how tired I am? Those are empty words, I am immediately bored and will flip over to YouTube instead.

Obviously there are niche applications. Porn and its adjacencies of course, where the fiction is the point. Specifics like a daily journal that interacts with you a bit? Sure, that would work for some. One-offs and curiosities of course, "Siri+" because that is a functional tool. But none of these are the same thing.

Now there are already, and have been for years, successful apps like Replika or Character.AI. The people on those clearly seem to enjoy talking to a digital friend, right? And I agree with you, humans are diverse, for some people this stuff works. Now for many, even possibly the majority depending on how you count it, these things are just the above categories though; a porn bot, a curiosity, a "man look how far AI has come" exploration. But I agree there are users who truly treat these tools as their friend or partner

And I have looked at the conversations those people have with their friend or partner. And...look. These tools suck. They do not, in any way, believably mimic a human conversation. By design they do not, endlessly accommodating and affirming, with shallow personalities and infinite flexibility. They are not friends, they are boxes to stuff inputs into and get validations out of, no human conversation works this way. Some people want that, no worries. Some people need that, maybe, I get it. But most people don't. These conversations would, if treated as an actual companion to most people, be incredibly cringe. They are not a sign that AI friends for everyone are right around the corner, if only we boost the specs. They are a niche product for a certain kind of person that does not mass scale at all.

You can sell people the "illusion" of a friend, even a nearly perfect one, and it might sell - as the stage show it is. Like a video game, something you explore, experience, and discard. Because it's not a person; I can just drop it if I want and it won't feel anything. That is what makes it an illusion and not magic; it is a trick that I see through over time. And making whatever implementation of Claude your little bluetooth-on-a-necklace runs have 10% higher fidelity or "able to pass the Turing Test" isn't going to change that. Maybe it will work as a product - video games sell after all. But it won't be a social revolution.

Then again these Friend.com guys apparently spent 2/3rds of their seed money on buying the web domain for Friend so they might have other problems to worry about.

[theanonymousdash]

I guess?? This is something for Stobotnik week? It fits day 2: alternate universe. A/B/O No title, I blacked out and when I came to this was written in my notes app. No real warnings, other than like, mentions of sexism I guess? But towards omegas? And there’s a mention of Robotnik drugging someone but that’s just Robotnik being himself. Also brief mention of needles. It’s a first meeting between Omega Stone and Omega Robotnik. Hope y’all enjoy?

Stone sits in Commander Walters’ office, slowly taking in the information in the case file that was handed to him.

Dr. Ivo Robotnik:

Beta

Head of electronics

[REDACTED]

[REDACTED]

[REDACTED]

It’s a high profile mission, then.

“And what is needed of me in regards to this assignment, Sir?” He asks, the perfect mask of Beta in place in an attempt make the man squirm. It was so amusing to watch anyone-Alpha, Omega or even the particularly sexist Beta, occasionally-who knew his true designation go through the confusion of the conflicting information. Of course the context for the confusion was different depending, but all of it was amusing nonetheless.

To the Commanders credit, the only sign of discomfort that he could see was a slight furrow to his brow.

“You will be assigned to Dr. Robotnik under the guise of playing his assistant. You will be going in as your presented designation.”

Stones eyebrows raise slightly in surprise. The only thing rarer than being sent on a mission as a an Omega was being sent on one as an Alpha. It would be a relief to allow his pheromones to come back up to base level, at least.

Still he had to wonder…

“Is this a honey trap, Sir?” It would be a little unusual if it was, but he knew well enough that some betas had a thing for hooking up with omegas.

Walters’ lips thinned , “In a sense,” he hedged.

Stone wasn’t about to let him get away so easy, “Sir?”

He gave a deep sigh, “All the betas we have sent so far have often come back worse for wear, you see, and with the way Robotnik acts any alpha we send his way would surely tear him apart. Which…” here he thinks his words over, ”let’s just say that would not be in GUNs best interest, currently.”

Translation: Robotnik was important but dangerous. A double-edged sword that needed close supervision.

Stone was to play the innocent, wouldn’t-hurt-a-fly omega, while in reality he was really keeping track of anything and everything that could remotely be used against GUN and also simultaneously assuring he got sanctioned projects done on time. They wanted him to be a glorified babysitter.

Stone dropped the act of beta and tilted his head and gave a small smile “What does that mean, exactly?” He questioned sweetly.

He wanted the Commander to say it. Just because he understood it didn’t mean he had to like it. In fact, he hated when missions so obviously needed to play into the sexism that omegas were so often subject to.

The older man didn’t squirm as such, but it pleased Stone to see his mouth tighten in an attempt at a reassuring smile even if the rest of his face relaxed at the sight of an omega actually behaving like an omega, “We’re sure he wouldn’t treat an omega so…” again, he hesitates over his words, “…Brazenly. Between that and your mission record, you’re the perfect candidate for the job.”

Not that they would really care if the man sent him home crying and traumatized. Oh sure, they’d give him his benefits and a nice vacation home that’s bugged to hell and back and a nice therapist that will report back everything he ever says to the higher ups, but really they’d be glad to not have an “emotional omega” on the field anymore. Be glad to have one less person they had to waste money for scent blockers and suppressants on.

Stone suppresses a sigh, he knows better than to push it. There was no refusing a mission when you worked for GUN.

“Of course I accept the mission, Commander. When will I be starting?” It would take a few days to purge the overdose of blockers from his system to get him back to base, he would need to plan his comedown differently depending on how much time he had.

It would do him no favors to not be producing a normal amount pheromones if Robotniks nose was sensitive enough to pick up on them, as was sometimes the case for betas.

“Today.”

Well, shit. Stone hopes this mission hasn’t just been fucked over before it can even start.

—-

They have another agent drive him to the doctors lab under the guise of wanting him to familiarize himself with the labs layout, “Just so you can recognize if anything is amiss, you understand.” But really, that’s just an excuse so they can make him look like the helpless little omega they want him to be for this mission.

He can practically here the speech now, Doctor, he can’t even drive, how could he be anything but an assistant we sent to make life a little more convenient for you?

He memorizes the blueprints within the first ten minutes of the drive, and gets a combination of worried and pitying glances from his assigned driver for the next fifteen before he snaps.

“What?” He barks, with the tone and inflection of an Alpha. Even without the pheromones to back it up, it makes the agent-an actual beta-snap to, an ingrained response from her trainee days.

“Apologies, sir.” She starts, “it’s just.. well we’ve all heard the horror stories, right..?” She trails off, giving a nervous laugh.

Stone blinks at her, he hasn’t heard the “horror stories” actually, he was over seas for a few years before he was assigned this mission. Not that he’ll tell her that, of course, “Pretend like I haven’t.” Still backing up his words with an Alphas voice.

“Well, Agent Jefferies-the one that was assigned to this post just before you-he told us that the doctor made him test out the new functions of his machines by.. turning them on him, for example. And that’s just one story about the Mad Doctor that’s floating around. It’s not even the worst.”

“What would be the worst?”

She gives him another worried side eye, “The worst that we know for sure is true, or the worst that’s probably just a rumor?”

“Humor me.”

She takes a breath, “Agent Davis had to be put on leave for a few months after he got out. And I do mean Got Out, sir. Rumor has it he only lasted the longest-which was only two weeks-because at the beginning of the second Robotnik injected him something and locked him in a room.”

Stone feels his brow furrow, “Injected him with what?”

“Well, the smart money is on some type of hallucinogen or psychedelics.”

“And the fools money?”

Another deep breath, preparing for what she’s about to say, ”Rumor has it that Davis experienced the classic symptoms of a heat.”

“And Davis is a Beta?”

“Yes Sir, as beta as you or I, all of the agents posted to this assignment have been.”

As beta as you or I, she says, but I’m not a beta, maybe Davis wasn’t either.

The anger must show on his face, because the driver very wisely keeps quite the rest of the way.

———

The driver only speaks again as he’s about to close the car door, “Don’t knock on the door! It’s electrified!” And with that she’s speeding off, like she can’t get away fast enough.

Just what has GUN gotten me into, now? He pushes the question away and straightens up, takes a deep breath. He was sent here to do a job and he’ll do it. And if the doctor even looks at me funny..

No, calm down, he can’t put too much stock into a rumor. No matter how pissed it makes him to think about.

He walks up to the door and, as told, does not knock. After a few seconds of looking around his eyes settle on the red dot of a camera lens. Deep breath, here goes nothing.

“Excuse me, Doctor Robotnik?” He begins, voice soft and body language submissive, “I’m Agent Stone, I’ve been sent from-“ he’s cut off as the door slides open, a white drone flying out to meet him. Huh. Ok then.

He keeps up the sweet omega shtick, “Well hello there! Are you here to take me to the doctor?” If he weren’t a professional he would be rolling his own eyes at himself. He’d never act like this, if he had any actual say.

The drone gives a beep! In response and starts heading inside, so he figures that’s as good as anything and starts to follow it.

There’s something.. off, about walking through the lab. There’s the typical lab scents like metal, motor oil and ozone but underneath that, just barely, nothing more than a hint is something sweet, and earthy. Like sugar and petrichor.

This lab smells like all his temporary places of residences have, over the years. All the scents of mundane life, with his barely-there hint of pheromones the only sign he had ever occupied them, something that no one else-not even an Alpha with the keenest of noses-would ever think to look for. If he didn’t know any better he’d say that-

“So they finally switched it up on me, eh?!”

-he was in an Omegas nest. And oh, what a striking omega he is. Tall and lithe, with a well tailored suit and an impressive mustache-

“Honestly, I don’t know why they didn’t think of it sooner! Trying to send in a nice little.. Omega..” his rant trails off, and he freezes. Looks like he’s recognized Stone, as well.

Stone can’t help it, he’s smiling. It could probably rival the sun. Pack, his omega brain purrs, and damn if his regular brain doesn’t agree.

The Doctor does not smile. No, the doctor snarls, and abruptly turns around to sweep various items off what Stone assumes is his work desk. He’ll be embarrassed later that he flinches at the sound. Right now though, all that he can do is flinch and whine and think, What’s wrong?

He abruptly tunes into the Doctors rambling, “ALL THESE YEARS!” He roars, hitting what looks like a pipe against various bits of metal now, ”EVERYONE COULD TELL ALL THIS TIME?!”

Oh, says his omega brain, he’s scared, help him, tell him it’s ok.

“No, Doctor! They couldn’t I promise!” He rushes to say, “I’ve also been overdosing myself on scent blockers for years and-!”

Suddenly, all of the doctors attention is on him, “YOU’VE BEEN WHAT?! DO YOU KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS?!”

Stone whines again, disturbed that he’s only upset him more,”Yes Doctor! But it’s the only way-“ Oh, he feels… bad? Why does it hurt so much, all of a sudden? “When-when I have to- undercover..” he stutters out, trying to explain, trying to help, calm him down.

“What wrong with you?”

The doctor is suddenly very close, hand gripping his jaw to tilt it so he can sniff at his scent gland. When had that happened?

“I-feels like… withdrawal?” Stone manages to answer, dazedly. But that doesn’t make any sense it hasn’t been long enough for any symptoms to start.

“Your stupid body is trying to break through the blockers in a misguided attempt at releasing comforting pheromones.” The for me goes unsaid.

“I’m sorry..?” Stone wheezes, still trying to calm the Doctor down, despite the pain.

The Doctor just let’s out another snarl turning away and pacing in a line, not unlike a big cat getting ready to pounce, “Did those idiots really not look into making better scent blockers for their long term undercover agents?!”

Not for the Omegas, Stone thinks, but he knows better than to say that, “Well-“

“DON’T ANSWER THAT! OF COURSE THEY DIDN’T!” The doctor yells, turning back towards Stone to grab his wrist and drag him deeper into the lab.

For all Stone knows the Doctor is dragging him out back to be put down like a dog, but he would honestly prefer that to the pain he’s currently in so he doesn’t put up any kind of a fight.

Even with the state he’s in his brain is clocking information, the lay out of the lab is the same as the blueprints he had been studying on the way here. That is, until the Doctor reveals a hidden keypad and-subsequently-a hidden door, in the wall.

GUN was actually onto something with that. He thinks distantly. Well, even a broken clock is right twice a day.

He’s dragged down a thankfully short set of stairs and shoved unceremoniously into a chair, “Stay,” the doctor hisses and then is gone in a flash, and seemingly back in the same amount of time. Is my sense of time being affected too, or is he just that fast?

Stone thinks he here’s him mutter, “Nows as good a time as any to test this,” before a watch is slapped onto his wrist. The weight of it settles against his skin, band fitting perfectly, like it was made for him.

His attention is drawn to a screen that Robotnik has turned on and toward, information splayed out on it. Pulse, blood pressure, hormone levels… “Are those my bio-signs? Incredible.” He manages in an awed little murmur.

“Of course it is, I made it!” The doctor huffs, “Now tell me, what was the time you took your last set of blockers, and the dosage?”

He must be taking too long to reply because the doctor snaps, “That’s an order, Agent!” At him.

“Three times the amount of the blockers that are available to the public at 0600, Sir.” He snaps to and states, as if talking to a CO.

The doctor tilts his head back, eyes fluttering rapidly under his eyelids before he looks at the screen again and gives a little nod, “Good, the watch is accurate.”

Did he just do math in his head to determine if a machine was accurate or not? Stone gets stuck on the thought, for a minute. Or two. What is time again?

“Agent,” he comes to with Robotnik snapping in his face, “Did you hear me?”

“No, sir.”

The doctor makes a face, as if he very much does not want to repeat what he just said. “This,” he says holding up a syringe of mystery liquid, ”Will flush those nasty scent blockers from your system. I can stick your arm and it’ll work in a few minutes, or I can stick it in your scent gland directly and it’ll work near instantaneously.” He’s saying it with the air of a man who is not used to giving other people choices.

Right now it could be cyanide-or even that mysterious concoction that supposedly sent a “Beta” into a heat-for all Stone cares, just as long as the pain stops.

“Scent gland,” he forces out, baring his neck, “Please.”

There are a few agonizing seconds where Stone thinks the doctor might have been lying, and has simply left him to ride this out on his own, when he feels a presence standing over him again.

“Cold,” Robotnik mutters in warning of what Stone can only assume is an alcohol wipe sweeping over his neck to sterilize the area, “Pinch,” he mutters again, before Stone feels the sweet sting of a needle.

As the doctor said, the affect is near instantaneous. Whatever comforting pheromones he had been trying to give off at the start of this were long ago replaced by ones of pain and fear. The bitter scent of it fills the room briefly before being replaced by one of pure relief.

“Oh, thank you.” He breathes out, melting into the chair, muscles relaxing. He doesn’t get to relax long, though.

Fingertips dig into his jaw again, forcing him to look into an intense pair of eyes. “Now you listen here,” he hisses around a low rumble of a sound- one could say that it sounds like an omegas comforting purr being forced into a growl, “you are to never use those backwater products people call scent blockers ever again! And that’s an order, understand me?!“ The Doctor shakes Stones head a bit as he says this, so he can’t really nod.

“Yes Sir, understood,” he promises instead.

“Good,” the doctor sniffs and finally releases him.

“But sir?”

“What now?!” He snaps, turning back towards him from a work desk he has settled himself over.

“I do need some type of-“

“What are you, blind?! This is obviously where I make my own scent blockers you imbecile!” As he yells he throws his arms out and gestures around the room they’re in.

Oh, he’s right. Stone hadn’t noticed before, but all the equipment in here, right down to the fridge, could be used for synthesizing and storing chemicals. That’s probably why he brought him here, because he knew there would be something to help him with his sudden crash or, at the least, he could have probably made something if he had needed to.

He feels himself smile again, “I would be honored to use scent blockers that you’ve made, Doctor, but I’m afraid they can’t be as strong as the ones you’re currently using.”

He scoffs, “And why not? Surely you don’t actually like being an omega?”

That’s… ok, that’s a lot to unpack. Stone will save the truth for another day, for now it will have to settle for being omitted.

“I was sent here to be an omegan assistant for you,” he says.

“If that was the case why on earth did you come in so hopped up on,” he shudders,”those things.”

“I was working as a beta long term on a mission right before I was assigned to you.” He explains,lAnd GUN usually likes to keep me that way. I would have weened myself back down to a normal dose but they gave me no time for it.”

This gets the Doctor to unleash a growl again, ”Idiots! The lot of them! I swear Stone when I-“ his gaze snaps back to Stone, not unlike how it did not even an hour ago, “Stop that.”

“Stop what, Doctor?” Stone ask innocently.

“That,” He gestures vaguely around Stones person, “the pheromone emitting thing. It’s distracting me from my ranting.”

Stone smirks, “Maybe you should get to working on my scent blockers then, Doctor.”

“Why you little-!” But he’s interrupted by Stones contented purring, this time. “Ugh, omegas, I swear!” But he dutifully gets to work, presumably going through the motions of making a blocker that’s the same strength as-but safer than-the normal ones.

There’s just one more thing, “Doctor?”

“Hm?”

“That agent that you locked up here for a week, was he an omega too?”

“What?!“ that has the Doctor once again turning towards him.

“You heard me.” Stone very deliberately makes sure that butter wouldn’t melt. He can’t stand by anyone who forces a fellow omega into a heat, even if said someone was also an omega. That makes it worse, actually.

“Why on earth- ugh Omegas!” The Doctor once again laments, as if he’s not one of them, “No, Stone, he was a beta. That one was the result of a truth serum gone wrong, what he hallucinated while he was on it is not my fault! Now can I get some quite so I can concentrate?!“

Yes, he can. Stone settles back into his chair, freely giving off comforting pheromones, letting the Doctor know he’s not angry. He relishes in it, if only because he has not been able to do something like this in a long, long time.

Perhaps-if he’s persistent and gentle enough-he could get the doctor to do this with him, one day. He could smell him whole and unfiltered, turn that faint barely-there tinge of sugar and petrichor into a flood of it.

For now though he’s merely content to sit here, vowing to make sure that GUN never gets a hand on a single one of his Doctors secrets.

[theangelsheardyou]

Bakugou headcanons bc if I don't have an mha audience on this godforsaken app then I will forge one out of my own blood and sweat

He likes lizards. Something about him just makes me think he was a lizard kid

Like he def would catch them and just watch them do their little lizard things as a kid

He probably owns one or two as an adult

I saw someone say this before but he was the type of kid to collect cool looking sticks and keep em in his bag, then forget about them until his mom finds them and yells at him

"KATSUKI WHATS WITH ALL THIS GARBAGE IN YOUR BACKPACK I TOLD YOU TO CLEAN THIS UP" *waving arms angrily* "I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH MY COOL STICKS!!!!"

Trans bakugou truthers I have one saved especially for u🫶

When he was a kid and was just starting to bind he wanted to feel like Mulan so he used bandages (very bad idea) and went to school like that (also a bad idea) and went to PE in that (an even worse idea)

He ended up passing out since he couldn't breathe and his teacher thought he was faking to get out of work, but ended up having to call an Ambulance

He has the energy of a kid with ADHD but who just forced himself to learn how to function properly

Like maybe as a kid he had trouble with it but it was his own decision to work hard to get better and now he is

That doesn't mean he doesn't have any other symptoms tho

He has a habit of letting his mind wander. If he's ever quiet with a calm expression and staring at nothing in particular, you know it's just The Voices putting his brain on autopilot for a while and not to bother him

I headcanon he would have 2 cats in high school, a beautiful black one he adores named Empress and a scrawny stupid looking calico named Spoingus who he found in a dumpster and just followed him home

OH ALSO ALSO

remember that black haired kid he was friends with back in middle school all the way from episode 1? (If u need a refresher just search "bakugou middle school friends")

Yea. They're exes btw. So.

They broke up mostly since black haired smoking dude (idk his name) was emotionally immature and distant, he wasn't able to be there for Katsuki the way he needed him to be.

This also ties in with my other headcanon that Katsuki is the more dependent one in the relationship, the more emotional

He definitely has a lot going on emotionally on his own, so he would want someone who can share that burden with.

You'll know he loves you when he's able to be vulnerable around you, otherwise you're just another friend or extra

He's bisexual, idc I'm calling it

I know the manga ended idgaf

He likes men who are emotionally stable, kind, and friendly, and he likes his women the exact opposite

Hc he has a thing for dominant women

Bro wants to be stepped on so badddddd😫😫😫

[capricores]

Taurus moon culture post please 🩷🦋🫶🏻

holding grudges so strongly it probably carries over to another life

feeling an extreme connection to nature, probably owns a significant amount of plants (or dreams about having a huge garden/house full of plants) and/or spends a lot of time outdoors

animals tend to love them instantly, and they have a very strong connection to them (especially to cats)

struggles immensely with vulnerability and opening up

takes 8-10 business years to get over things, especially heartbreak

emotional relief likely comes the most through immersion in nature (hiking, kayaking, meditating outdoors, etc), physical activity (yoga, hiking) and/or retail therapy

probably very into things such as aromatherapy, incense, crystals

uses purchases of little treats as a coping method. cannot survive without making frequent lil purchases

despite this ^ i find they're often (depending on other placements, especially venus, though) extremely good with money and even their "emotional/impulse" purchases tend to be budgeted

CEO of repressing emotions, often really struggles with opening up, even to themselves (ie: struggles with accepting their emotions/just feeling them)

tendency to fixate on people, things: they'll have a comfort movie they rewatch at least 2x a month for their entire life, a comfort meal that's eaten weekly for years, etc

when they crush on someone, it's slow to develop, and lasts a long time. the type of crush on the same person for years and years but never say anything (it takes them sooo many years to admit their feelings, and they're virtually never the first one to say it)

they're often guilty of falling in love with friends as they're attracted to comfort/familiarity. definitely not the app dating/speed date type, they need to know someone for a significant period of time before developing actual feelings

tends to be very possessive: over their lover, their friends, their resources

they are so, so loyal and i find (depending on other placements) are rarely gossipy, you don't have to worry about them talking behind your back

stubborn, of course. my way or the highway mindset. can struggle with god complexes and can be a bit close-minded at times (not as bad as taurus sun/mercury/ascendant though)

generally have very laidback, easy-going energy. even when stressed, going through emotional turmoil, they always come off as calm and collected. they tend to be a rock for other people

people tend to naturally look to them for guidance, mentorship, advice; they're often taken very seriously even from a younger age

has extremely high standards for themselves and struggles with perfectionism

undeveloped they have problems with resource-hoarding. very much "what's mine is MINE but what's yours is also mine" lol; can be selfish when undeveloped (but completely opposite when developed!)

napping queens these moons often deal with problems by taking a big sleep

this is a through thick and thin placement: they do not give up on people or things easily. they're amazing friends and partners as they really stay committed and do everything they can to make things work (sometimes to a fault, they can stay in bad situations/with bad people for a long time due to not letting go/not wanting to "give up")

very nurturing and caring personalities, they're always ensuring their loved ones have their needs met; even when their own needs aren't met

i find they often have the most beautiful, aesthetically pleasing and cozy home/room environments! they often get shaken up/can't function if their space is messy and not decorated + organized

love languages? gifts. physical touch. acts of service.

their emotions tend to be very stable, not super prone to mood swings (dependent on rest of chart). in general are just very consistent people

struggles a lot with stepping outside of their comfort zones and can miss out on opportunities due to fear

disclaimer: your entire chart will shape who you are, not to mention your current transits, progressions, solar return, etc. you may not relate to all points despite having this placement due to other astrological factors.

[crow-quilll]

Hello :) i really like ur writing style and wanted to know your writing tips!

Like, how do you get a clean and nice pace? Or how to write intense scenes? Or what words to choose? Etc

I thank you graciously for sharing your works 🙏🙏

HELLO SLEEPY!! I meant to respond to this way earlier but stuff got in the way -- however I have arrived!!

Let's dig in:

In terms of pacing, it is always helpful to have a clear outline of every event that will happen - I write all of mine in a notes app, write down each key event and how the chapter will progress. I think that way I get a good idea of what sections should be longer, which are more important and need more detail, and which should be intentionally fast to amp up pressure. Ofc it depends on what you're writing! I've always written these sorts of angsty hurt/comfort fics, so I've just had a lot of practice with them. I can assure you that I'd struggle with a slow pace slice-of-life au in any fandom.

Writing intense scenes mostly comes with practice, I've had 10 long years of experience haha! But there are some things that I've learned to do for those scenes:

Positioning is important, set it up early. You want your readers to know exactly where your characters are so they aren't confused which will slow down how they read the scene. You want them following the speed of the scene you've set.

Shortening your sentences and descriptions will make your scene more intense because your reader feels like they are struggling to keep up with it. It also makes them predict a breaking point - a point in the sentence structure where it reaches a limit and either stops completely or slows back down. So they hang on to every word, waiting for that drop.

Metaphors and imagery are great for describing emotional or physical pain - but I try not to overdo it, especially in "Nobody's Soldier" when those scenes are pretty lengthy. I try to keep those scenes feeling intense and quick because the stakes are supposed to feel high for Gi-hun - and by extension, for the readers.

As for word choice, that really depends on your style and where you find your inspiration from! Like I said, I've primarily written hurt/comfort and whump fics, so my style developed to be very physical: I always think about the facial expressions of the characters, the way their body reacts to stimuli, where they are standing and how they stand, etc. That comes from working on how to describe reactions to pain, and they always tell you to show it instead of telling it: "he winced/he flinched" rather than "it hurt him".

A lot of my style just comes from the things I take inspiration from. Funnily enough, I don't read fics or books for fun because I read so much for university in my history/english program. So I find my inspiration in the historical sources and literature I read. I think a good example I can give is from a poem by Wilfred Owen, an English poet who fought in WWI, called Dulce et Decorum est, which uses very visceral language (ie. "His hanging face, like a devil’s sick of sin;/ If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood/ Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs..."). I'm sure you can some similarity between his descriptions and my own -- albeit, mine are far less sophisticated than his. But I still try to emulate how grotesquely he describes the human body, as well as the sharp rhythm of certain lines like "sick of sin." ANYWAYS thats enough university talk that i'm sure sounds boring haha. I also find inspiration in video games, in TV shows, in everything. The world around us is composed of sentences waiting to be written, you just have to look for them and put pen to paper :))

One last tip I can give is to just write what you enjoy! I know ao3 can be disheartening if your work doesn't get a lot of love, but honestly as long as you are having fun, it is well worth it. I have written for dead fandoms in the past - and in fact, I have more often written for dead fandoms than for popular ones. I'm somehow always late to the party, except this time ofc with Squid Game.

Anyways, I think that is all I have for now!! If you have any further questions, please ask away. I'm so flattered to have been asked about something like this, thank you to coming for me and reading what I write <3 <3

[sapphicmsmarvel]

modern au! competition

notes: in elains part i talk shit about The Exorcist. i’m sorry guys that movie is so so bad. Some of these are really short because i didn’t know how to elaborate LOL but yall will get the point. 

Azriel: 

This cranky bitch has beef with your kindle paperwhite. 

You took it everywhere, always made sure it was fully charged and loaded with books. You even used the app on your phone until one day you decided you would always carry your actual kindle with you everywhere. 

When he wanted snuggles and you were reading? You had pushed him away. Until one day, he’d had enough. 

It was a rough day at work, he wanted his girlfriend. He saw you on the couch, with your emotional support water bottle, his hoodie, fuzzy sock-clad feet and a blanket. And you were holding your kindle. 

He knew he wanted to join you in that cuddle pile, so he did. 

He took away your blanket which caused you to yell an indignant, “hey!” Then he spread your legs which had you saying “oh?” 

He rolled his eyes at your dirty mind and laid down on top of you. Your kindle was in the air, he laid his head between your boobs and snuggled in. 

Breathing in your scent, he hummed contentedly. 

He felt you shake with suppressed giggles, “you comfy?”

“Mhm.” He hummed, his eyes closing. 

“My big baby.” You said softly, kissing his head and running your nails through his hair. 

He didn’t need to look up to know you were still reading, just multitasking now. After all, that’s what the pop socket is for. Multitasking while reading. 

(get your heads out of the gutter) 

He loved how happy it made you, though. He also loved the sex that came from the books that you’d want to reenact. 

Cassian: 

don't get him wrong, he loves that you wear makeup because you love it. 

however that damn plumping gloss is gonna kill him. 

“It’s spicy!” 

“You’re being a baby, it’s minty.” 

“it’s fucking spicy!” 

It’s not his fault that your gloss is out to make him croak. He can’t help kissing you though, your lips look so plump and juicy, just perfectly kissable. And the gloss tastes like vanilla cupcakes until the spice kicks in. 

Rhysand: 

He's got beef with the sims. You’ll go missing for hours in your “cozy room” as you call it, and 9 times out of 10, he’ll walk in and see you hunched over like a cave creature playing the sims. It kind of scares the shit out of him because sometimes he’ll walk in on you like that, with a murder podcast playing on your TV. 

Eventually, he loves the game. Because he discovers that you can make your own families. You two have five kids in the sims, because even Sim-Rhysand is horny. 

Eventually he gets his own PC, he’s very excited. Owns and buys you all of the sims packs. 

Feyre: 

Your IPad. You do everything on that thing. Work, planning, reading; writing, even. It’s with you all day, sometimes all night depending on the activity you’re doing. You can’t stop playing candy crush or some other game. She’s fully pulled the IPad out of your grip before to cuddle.

She didn’t get it until you got her her own with procreate installed. And now you’re the one who has to pry her away. She, like Rhysand, has learned the naughty things she can do with her new hobby. AKA, lots of drawings of you. 

Naked, clothed. You two together being naughty. 

She’s learned to love the wonders of an IPad. 

Morrigan: 

fucking theme parks. In the beginning of your relationship she didn’t know how to feel, eventually she fell in love with them. She used to be against them because she hated being sweaty (who doesn’t) but with your help she was able to be comfortable and enjoy a nice theme park day with her girlfriend. 

You two are out of state disney pass holders. Taking random flights on random days for a day at disney. Flying in that morning and leaving that night. Or driving for a long weekend. 

Amren: 

her competition is concerts. you’ll go to any show at any time. Your friends favorite indie band is having a show with 20 dollar tickets? sold you’ll be there. 

She’s not a fan of intense crowds, mosh pits aren’t her scene. But if there’s an artist you wanna go see and your friends can't go? She’s buying you the tickets as an early birthday or christmas gift. She’s even used mother’s day as an excuse to buy you tickets. Or Veterans Day. 

And she calls you dramatic. 

Nesta: 

she genuinely doesn’t understand how you can play video games for hours. She does love it though because you’ll leave her alone to read while you play. 

You rarely play intense games, if you do you’re playing with friends and not some random lobby (because being a woman, a queer woman no less is not fun in random online lobbies). And that’s when you go into a different room because your friends and you are quite loud. 

But when you’re playing stardew valley or any zelda, mario game, or nintendo in general; you’re sitting by her. 

Your usual set up is you both on the couch next to each other, some asmr room video in the background and a few candles lit. 

She can even admit that your video games have awesome soundtracks. 

Elain: 

horror movies. you were a fanatic. On your first date you brought this up to her, nervous she’d be against it. She was all for watching them. She had never seen them, growing up her mother forbid her daughters from watching them. It didn’t stop Feyre and Nesta, however she was a bit of a rule follower. 

She thought it couldn’t be that bad. After all, they're fictional and the effects can be very cheesy. 

However, she hid that she was scared pretty well in the beginning and then when you two saw Jigsaw that killed her “street cred” with you. (her words, not yours) 

So after the intensity of Jigsaw, you had her watch The Exorcist, a movie you thought was ass but was a good movie to introduce her to horror with. 

She ended up thinking the movie was shit, too. But, it gave her a bit of a baseline to go off of.  

After that was The Conjuring universe, then The Paranormal Activity franchise ended up freaking her out in a good way. 

She liked watching supernatural, ghost hunters, and american horror story with you though! And she did enjoy the scream franchise as well as the scary movie franchise! 

She began to love them, and loved the adrenaline. 

She liked the idea of going to a haunted house during halloween, but it scared her a bit more. It was different with a screen in between her and the scare. 

Lucien: 

Your stuffed animal collection. You personified almost everything you owned (which made it a bitch to declutter when you knew you needed to; but you couldn’t stop imagining objects with personalities). 

He loved how passionate you were, how cuddly you always looked however: 

You’re supposed to be cuddling him!! Not a damned stuffed animal! 

Then one time, he came home after a long work trip and found you asleep on the couch, you were waiting for him. 

He found you hugging a fox build-a-bear with one of his shirts on it.  

How can he hate that? 

Eris: 

His own dog is his competition. 

The fucker will cuddle with you then give him a smug ass look like “haha she chose me, she dont want you.” 

He loved the immediate love you had for his (son) pet. And he reacted to you the same way. You two formed a bond, the dog would follow you everywhere around the house. 

His dog was supposed to be a hunting dog, then when you (mom) came into the picture, that’s when you began babying him and forbidding Eris from taking him hunting. 

“My son will not go through the mud! He’s a baby!”

“My love, his whole life’s purpose is hunting. He’s a hunting dog.” 

“His life purpose is being the cute snuggly idiot he is!” Said snuggly idiot was wagging at your feet with an expression on his face that Eris could only describe as a “you go, mom!” look. 

“What if he gets hurt?” Your bottom lip wobbled and he knew he couldn’t say no to you. 

You were sensitive when it came to animals. It was pretty easy to make you cry, you just had to look at the dog being cute and you’d start bawling. 

But, he loved waking up in the morning to you snuggled into him with his beloved (but an asshole) dog with you two. 

Even when the dog pushes in between the two of you in the middle of the night. 

Tarquin: 

Surfing. He can’t believe he’s competing with his own hobby. 

He introduced you to it, but you cannot stop. You spend hours out in the ocean, and he wishes he could be out there with you all the time. But he’s always working with the city's ocean conservation teams and is the leading man in marine biology in your city.  So he can’t leave the office a lot, but when he can, he does join you in the surf. 

You two began a surfing contest to raise money for ocean conservation too. 

[zoniteillusion-pyritedreams]

OK look I was going to take a break today but then I saw here on Tumblr and also on twitter/X or whatever the fuck you want to call it people freaking out about HYBE vs NJZ. So I kind of want to share a reading that I did last month. Whenever I do heavy readings like this I normally save them in like my notes apps so I'm going to just copy and paste it on here and then also add more commentary at the end because again this was just supposed to be a very in-depth reading for myself and one of my friends. But I kind of feel like people need to understand the energy behind this company and the two men who are currently primarily in charge. This company is not being ran the way it should be everything is in absolute fucking shit show and it's all about to blow up in their faces and sadly it's going to affect all of the artists under them.

If not NJZ it would have been another group regardless. Matter of fact I did a reading I think three years ago that basically stated that if shit kept going the way that it was for this company that either a new artist or their biggest artist which would be BTS was going to sit there and basically turn against the company and sue them or try to take legal action for all their worth. Clearly it fucking happened again tarot cards are tools to possibly see the outcome of the future but neither one of these two men have ever changed in terms of their rhetoric or their personality so it's very unsurprising that so far readings that I've done on them and readings that other people I know have done on them have been very fucking accurate. I feel like if either one of them was smart because again a lot of people in the West in Hollywood have personal astrologers and Tarot readers and a lot of high-end business people and men in Asia have their own personal Shaman they would be seeing those motherfuckers and getting good advice so that they would stop sitting there and fucking everything up for themselves and of course the people underneath them which is more important their artists their employees the people who rely on them for work. Anyway this is a PART ONE because I definitely feel like this is going to end up turning into a fucking series. As I just kind of break down the energies of this company the issues that seem to be happening and also why I personally have beef with both of these men even though I don't know them because I can't stand people like them.

THE VIBE CHECK ON HYBE RIGHT NOW: A Spiritual Deep Dive

I asked the Universe and the gods of the underworld [Pluto & Nyx] for answers and what they gave me was a story of control, illusion, imbalance, karma, and a coming reckoning.

Let’s break it down in a way that makes sense for anyone watching HYBE’s recent mess unfold.

1. “Others will depend on your choices.”

This phrase from the Book of Answers is the thesis statement.

HYBE is at a crossroads. The people in charge especially Scooter and Bang PD—are making decisions that will ripple outward. The public, artists, and industry at large are watching... and waiting.

2. THE CORE ENERGY: Decay behind the polish

Two of Wands: HYBE has a global vision, but they’re torn. Big ambitions, but no moral compass guiding it.

Page of Cups Reversed: There's emotional immaturity in leadership. Decisions are being made from EGO, not empathy.

Six of Pentacles Reversed: Power and money are NOT BEING SHARED FAIRLY. There’s imbalance, favoritism, and possibly exploitation.

Ten of Swords: Something is ending—painfully. Betrayal is here or soon will be. A fall from grace is inevitable if course isn't corrected.

THE LEADERSHIP AT HYBE HAS OVEREXTENDED, EMOTIONALLY DETACHED, AND IS SOWING INSTABILITY THAT WILL SOON BLOW BACK HARD.

3. Scooter Braun: The Master of False Promises

Scooter’s energy is manipulative, performative, and transactional. Cards like The Word Lord (dishonesty) and Desert Prince (false promises) speak volumes.

He’s about survival, not service.

The “GENEROSITY” he presents is conditional and strategic (Lady of the Gift).

His choices have created a karmic imbalance that will not be ignored (Keeper of the Scales).

His energy is charismatic but corrosive. He gives with one hand and takes with the other, and people—especially artists—are catching on.

4. Bang PD: A Creator Lost in the Machine

Bang PD started off with vision, but now? His energy is spiritually depleted and disconnected.

High Lord of Service Reversed = He’s no longer acting out of genuine love for music or the artists. It's now about LEGACY, EGO, MAYBE EVEN SURVIVAL.

He’s emotionally burnt out. There’s a feeling of weariness in his soul like he’s lost the original purpose that once fueled him.

That’s dangerous, because it leaves a power vacuum that people like Scooter can exploit.

5. HYBE’s Public Perception: The Illusion is Cracking

Hybe Wants To Be Seen As Futuristic, Global, Innovative. But The Reading Shows A Different Story.

Shadow Queen: People are starting to see through the glam and PR spin. Insecurity and manipulation are being exposed.

Strangely Lonely & Sewer Mermaid Reversed: There’s a toxic clinging to power and control, and it’s starting to smell. People sense the rot.

Storm Angel: Expect COLLISIONS between artists, fans, and executives. Conflict is brewing, and it will be loud.

The illusion is breaking. More people are noticing the cracks and trust is eroding fast.

6. How it’s affecting the artists

This Is The Heartbreaking Part.

Many Hands of the Goddess Reversed = Artists feel unsupported and isolated. They’re being pulled in too many directions.

Mend a Broken Heart Fairy Reversed = There’s emotional burnout and pain behind the scenes that isn’t being acknowledged or healed.

Fairy of the Divine Hand = Some artists are drowning in overwork, fame, and toxic environments. There’s overindulgence in appearances and not enough grounding in care or protection.

Reversed Isis and Skadi = Healing and atonement are being delayed. The artists are left to suffer in silence.

7. The Company’s Spiritual Landscape: A Tower Moment Incoming

HYBE is entering a FATED TRANSFORMATION they like it or not.

Kali (Destruction) and The Phoenix: This is a BURN-IT-ALL-DOWN moment. False structures, relationships, and illusions will crumble.

Ma’at (Judgment): Justice is not only coming—it’s DIVINE. Karma is circling like a hawk.

The Three Witchy Sisters: This is a “power of three” moment—POSSIBLY THREE GROUPS/ARTIST UNITS will play a major role in calling out or exposing the truth.

The Universe and Underworld agree: what has been hidden or denied will Rise To The Surface.

8. What comes next: Surrender or be swept away

Radiant Moon of Compassion + Gates of Heaven = There is still a chance for redemption. If leadership softens, listens, and acts from heart and integrity, renewal is possible.

But if they stay on this current path of control, manipulation, and emotional detachment, the DESTRUCTION WILL BE TOTAL.

THE MESSAGE IS: EVOLVE OR FALL. THE CHOICE IS STILL THEIRS—BUT NOT FOR MUCH LONGER.

Overall Summary:

HYBE IS STANDING ON A CRUMBLING EMPIRE. SCOOTER BRAUN’S PRESENCE IS ACCELERATING PUBLIC DISTRUST. BANG PD HAS LOST HIS GROUNDING. THE ARTISTS ARE TIRED, OVERWORKED, AND BEGINNING TO CRACK UNDER PRESSURE. THE DIVINE FORCES SEE ALL—AND THEY’RE STEPPING IN.

Miracles and rebirth are possible, but only if truth is faced and power is rebalanced.

The world is watching. So are the gods goddesses universe and source, if this company keeps on the path that they're at they are all willing and ready to get their energies back from these people. Karma and Justice will be served but in doing so it would be the thing to completely destroy this company.