#i miss having like.. a window
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
can’t sleep for the second night in a row :)
#i miss having like.. a window#truly the 6ish months ive lived here i have gotten the worst sleep#because i have no concept of time until i open the door to leave#anyways i have to be up at 7:30 which is in 2 hours and 17 minutes#wooo i love it here#i think i’d rather be addicted to weed and at least be sleeping tbh#if i’m still not asleep by 6:30 imma just get up i think#justyn.txt#personal#vent
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
thinking about the way ghost doesn't hesitate to start killing shadows when graves betrays them but soap only takes one hostage
you can almost hear the voice in his head telling him it doesn't have to be this way; they can still talk it out
"i'm calling shepherd"
his first instinct when confronted with betrayal is to play it by the books: to go up the chain. that goes against everything we've seen him do. he bucks authority at every chance except for the one time he's confronted with the barrels of his allies' guns
he wants a peaceful resolution; for the first time we've ever seen, he doesn't want violence to be the answer. there has to be another fix, a solution that doesn't end with him killing the same men he's been working with; his friends
nothing's happened yet
it doesn't have to go this way
but ghost has been betrayed before. he knows the way this ends; either with him six feet under or his enemy
he doesn't hesitate
it's only when they knock alejandro out that soap shoots; when they spill the first blood and cross a line they can never come back from
only when ghost orders him to run and he has to cover his retreat
and somewhere along the line, between civilians’ screams and taunting voices, between his shaking breath and ghost steady in his ear, that naivety is stripped away; his trust turned to teeth that he uses to sink into throats of men he'd have given his life for
"be careful who you trust, sergeant; people you know can hurt you the most"
he's learned the price of trust
just like ghost did
but unlike ghost, he has someone to guide him through the aftermath
"good advice, It"
#im gonna add these to my notfics on ao3 i think i have a Lot of these floating around#a bit shorter than my other metas but i think its something that gets missed when people talk about alone#soap is a violent man#his career literally trains him to shoot first ask questions later#and yet he still tries his best to avoid blood when faced with betrayal#and you realise it actually does fit him#soap cares about the men he serves with#he wants to save the men at the crash site he checks on a downed soldier he asks about civilians about alejandros family#hes very tuned into the people around him#and he cant turn that off until hes forced to#until graves gives him a reason to hate him#and all of that previous care and consideration goes out the window#‘makes me want to commit a few war crimes of my own’#dont cross soap#you want like what happens if you do#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#talk meta to me#soap cod#john soap mactavish#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#ghoap#ghostsoap#soapghost#meta#phillip graves#graves cod#save post
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
Starting off the month strong let's see how long that lasts 🗣️‼️/silly
Was inspired by the way light sometimes shines thru windows in the Parable (◔‿◔)
#tsp#the stanley parable#tspud#tspud art#tsp stanley#ough i love glass stained windows#digital art#tsp fanart#praying i will finally have proper freetime soon i miss it so very much#i dont like typing long responses in paperwork someone get me out of here#i heart stained glass#i must return to the mines now (a kami document)
616 notes
·
View notes
Text
Prompt in Memes 6
Let's make it some in-world memes this time :)
#prompts#memes#meme#cryptid batman#cryptid batfam#cryptid batfamily#battinson#They somehow travel back in time & makes it everyone elses problem#They do not communicate with anyone else besides each other lol#give battinson a robin#but it's time travel and he has all of the robins at once#except Damian but they're going to grab him the moment he exists#Jason: wait does this mean I still have my all-blades#bruce is a good dad#but also so very done with his kids but in a of love and exasperation way#8 year old Dick & 5 year old Jason & 3 year old Tim showing up at the manor: B let us in it cold out here#3 year old Steph kicking down the door: Hope u missed my presence#5 year old Cass crawling in through the window: :) hello family#The kids: Wow Bruce u wear makeup that heavy that's funny lol#But can u imagine battinson with several tiny children following like ducklings#They're perfectly behaved in public but go back to being their lil shit selves when they get home#Gotham: aw the Waynes are like lil angels#Also Gotham: Oh my gosh did you SEE Robin Bite that poor person I hope they don't also turn into an undead cryptid
638 notes
·
View notes
Text
"And it just happened to be empty?" "Something like that."
Suits 4x8 "Exposure" Mike returns to Pearson Specter and gets Harvey's old office.
#marvey#mike ross#harvey specter#suits#suits usa#suits tv#just! going a bit mad about this specific point in time. because. there's a window here where they actually could have become something.#the investment banking era (my beloved) put them as equals. and had such open flirtatiousness. and love and respect.#and then rachel completely fucked up and mike! was done with the relationship! and rightly so!#and then here mike is. playful flirty starry heart eyes to harvey. and harvey's besotted /of course/. can't help but say something genuine.#and mike's basking in it! not a word to say. just smiling up at him. eyes flick over him.#they feel the same!!! boys you have butterflies for each other.#god what could have developed from this perfect moment in time if mike hadn't taken rachel back#(no donna that was not ''FoR MiKe'')#... gonna make these tags messier now bc I kept watching with this sat in drafts lmao BUT#especially feeling this now since on 4x10. thee Iconic ''he's twice the man that I am'' AND it's not even JUST that in this ep. like.#harvey is full-on No.1 mike ross cheerleader. defender. lover. he's chest-burstingly in love with this man. and mike is seeing it!#and he doesn't even see the half of it! but he's already taken back rachel and they're missing their perfect window in time </3#still going on DATES though. where they flirt and play and disguise their compliments and admiration of each other through teasing. ok!#mike baby the love between you will only get stronger. till you can't ignore it. and run from it. and run back to it.#coulda had him!!!! coulda had him in season 4!
170 notes
·
View notes
Text
Old sketch I decided to give line art and color. Will definitely NOT finish this but if I do thennnn iunno congrats on me finally finishing an abandoned sketch 😭
#God this looks goofy 😭#it was an old sketch give me credit i tried to fix it 😭😭🙏🙏#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel charlie#hazbin#hazbin hotel vaggie#vaggie#charlie morningstar#chaggie#varlie#rainbowmoth#art#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#hazbin hotel chaggie#vaggie x charlie#charlie x vaggie#these two genuinely have taken over my life#like i have hyperfixated on 100's of wlw ships but. this. UGH#LIKE ITS NOT EVEN WRITTEN GREAT IN THE SHOW (atleast not compared to h*sker*ust 😭)#AND STILL IT CHOKES ME MORE THAN ANY SHIP EVER BEFORE??!#maybe its because theres so much missed potential that i just do the work myself yknow?#like demon form charlie iykyk 😍#ughh... maybe ill just restart and do a better pose than whatever this was ☹️#also look at the windows 💜#suggestive???#struggling to post this but i have nothing else to post 😔#I THINK IM HITTING ART BLOCK??? IS THAT. IS THAT A THING FOR ME??
378 notes
·
View notes
Text
I hope this isn't weird but I've been reading this by @batmanisagatewaydrug and I had like the sudden, strongest urge to make art properly for the first time in ages, so uhhhh have some Jessie (or Jess? Can I call her Jess because I love her?) who is a terrible wet cat of a woman!
I wanted to get this done fast and human anatomy is not my forte so I traced a picture of Natalie in the City, who's a fashion blogger and has some cute fits, though no supervillain ones as far as I'm aware :3
#ham art#i think jessie lies wetly fixed my art block?#after i started this it motivated me to finish off a little comic that's been in my drafts forever and post it and i've got anime fanart#rotating in my mind now! :D maybe i'll even finish off my valentine's unburied art from last year#also i know the tiny underboob window's wrong because she wears a bra that would render that salacious little bit of skin invisible#but i just could not resist#i hope i've done her justice!#jessie is the coolest and awfulest and i love her she's so fun to read thank u op#also i've come to the realization that if i'm just having fun drawing i don't actually have to do the parts that aren't fun i can skip that#if i find drawing human proportions and perspective in general stressful and just wanted to do the fun outfits and face/makeup and hair#i can do that! this is like. a hobby. so i don't need to laboriously force myself to get better at anatomy if i don't wanna#also also i was so pleased that i guessed ricochet's colouring correctly on the first try! (except i missed the freckles)
110 notes
·
View notes
Text
arthur trying to order coffee when he knows nothing about coffee and thinks it’s gross but there’s a cute barista
#drawing#art#digital art#arthur pendragon#fanart#arwen#gwen pendragon fanart#gwen pendragon#arthur pendragon fanart#merlin bbc#arthur doesn’t even like coffee but merlin dragged him and suddenly he’s seen the most gorgeous women to grace this earth#he has half a mind to bow already just in case gwen’s actually aphrodite standing in front of him#he’s already planning a stained glass window commission bc obv the church is missing one of thier angels on their walls and he thinks#they’d appreciate him correcting that mistake#she asks what he wants and he’s like uh coffee. and she’s like what coffee? and he’s like oh yknow the Normal coffee#and she’s like uh i meant like roast we have these and he looks in her eyes and is like Dark Pls#and then she’s like so creamer and sugar#crazy guess on my end but i have a feeling u want the normal standard typical coffee drinker amount#to poke fun at him a little#but arthur has no idea he’s like yes!! that is exactly what i want#and then gwen’s pov she’s like that man has never been in a 50mile radius of a coffee shop a day in his goddamn life#and arthur’s like skipping and jumping and clicking his heels
112 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think as a result of their indecision, general dithering on every possible decision and inability to provide a single sliver of rationale behind the actions they have taken, I personally don't think we can judge Bell's Hells on whether or not their decisions are moral or not. Have they wishy-washily and passively avoided every hard question that could have been asked of them? Yes; but that speaks to a lack of interesting ideas and a lack of curiosity on their collective behalf in dealing with the scenarios set before them. I think if we judge them on anything it is the consequences of their actions (or inaction). Realistically, I reckon (depending on how releasing Predathos goes) they will be treated in a similar way to how someone like Vespin Chloras was treated by history - a damned fool whose actions lead to the annihilation of civilisations, the destruction of millions of lives and as such has been (rightfully!) condemned by Exandrian history as one of its greatest villains. Our softening of our view as a fandom on Vespin comes from his editing of Zerxus' pact to save the world from the rage of the Primordials. I think his actions, typical of the Age of Arcanum, echo Ludinus' fatal ideological folly in assuming that they would lead to prosperity due to a change in the divine structures of Exandria; Bell's Hells, having followed Ludinus' plan to the letter, now risk becoming as big of villains as Vespin Chloras for even worse reasons - a total lack of imagination and a deep unwillingness to engage with any hard question that would force them to face their lack of interiority as a party.
#cr meta#critical role#i'm writing this while a little hangry so excuse the pessimism#but this campaign has been nothing but missed opportunity after missed opportunity#i do hope that critical role take a while to regroup and ask why this campaign has fallen as flat as it did#i'm aware that each member of bell's hells have their own interiority and their own reasoning for/against releasing predathos#i'm especially aware that orym has never once said that ludinus had a point and should be stopped in his tracks and that the rest of the#party vaguely agreed with him (or at least didn't push back on it). it has been deeply frustrating to see this campaign turn out as it has#because of a total lack of imagination on bell's hells parts as a collective entity and a lack of leadership from the few who actually#seemed to have any idea of what they personally would like to have done. i understand why laura and ashley blinked when they did and why#they don't want to make the “wrong” decision (because of the now-decade of misogynistic vitriol that has been thrown at them)#but it's as much of a failure on the rest of the party's behalf to avoid stepping up as well#and i can understand why they didn't want to! travis and marisha make a lot of decisions as ceo and creative director and had arcs which#involved a lot of focus; the same goes for liam with the focus on caleb so i totally understand why they all wanted to take a step back her#i think regardless of how bell's hells justify their actions they effectively have the moral decision making skills of bored 8-year olds#no forethought whatsoever as to the consequences of their actions and are always surprised when an adult walks in to castigate them for#breaking the window they were told not to go near. i also think that if this starts a new calamity they should be vilified by history for#that exact reason: they knew better than to release predathos and did it anyways because what else were they supposed to do?
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
(x)
Oh my gosh, okay okay okay, anon, I've had a few wines after a friend popped by unexpectedly, sorry in advance, but she's gone now so hear me out, haha. I'm putting my crime scene investigations hat on and I can tell you after watching the scene *mumbles indecipherably* times, Lestat has at least two visible bites in the scene on his throat, not one. We all tend to look at the one on the left, but he actually has one lower on the right too.
I feel like I'm presenting evidence in a court of law right now, haha, but I've lightened the cap a bit, so hopefully you can see the one we're all normally talking about on the left here, but then, on the right, you get a hint of blood? (And you can actuall see it in that gifset too)
And when he tilts his head towards Claudia, oh! There it is! Second bite:
Which brings me back to the scene itself, and I hear you, I think maybe it was meant to be the upper left bite scarring there, BUT I'll also counter with the very fun (to me, haha) argument that the first bite we saw through the window was actually a different bite entirely given Louis seemed to go for the join of Lestat's neck and shoulder, which in the aftermath scene, would be covered by his shirt.
In other words, I think Louis bit him more than once, and I want to have been a fly on the wall in the make up team's meeting as they decided when and where to place the bites / bruises / wounding.
But anyway, YES, I love on soooo many levels that the show broadcasts that they have insane sex in Lestat's lover's house, probably break her bed, given the bruising, only for Louis to immediately take Lestat home and declare it's time, after five years, for a family meeting? Deranged behaviour! And he's there smelling at the very least like the Mississippi River and clearly glowed up from vampire / soulmate blood after years recovering on a strict animal diet, and Lestat's there looking well fucked and fed on, and their daughter is forced to just sit there and act like this is Completely Fine. A resentment probably aggravated by the fact that we know Louis threw Lestat's coffin out the window, so presumably they're sharing one tonight! She deserved to murder them both so many times over, but honestly never more so than this night!
#(i hope this works anon my tumblr weirdly ate your ask as i was replying?#luckily i had it open in another window to screenshot)#more to the point lowkey you could classify this as evidence of louis being terrible at aftercare too haha#like imagine fucking your abusive ex after five years apart only to be like#yeah okay now immediately come and talk to our daughter who you're estranged from#(to say nothing about the mmm not forced but perhaps strongarmed reveal of trauma too)#it's fucked i love it louis your mind is.....so many things#i hope this is legible i was NOT expecting my friend to show up with booze tonight lmao#and also it's my last day in the office for the year tomororow (!!)#and have the day is a work excursion with my work wife which is very cute#so i'm feeling ?? relaxed ??#very foreign feeling for me in the year 2024 to be honest haha#but more to the point i hear you anon#it cold be just a little blink-and-you-miss-it continuity error#but gosh isn't it more fun if it's not?#lestat de lioncourt#iwtv 1.06#logistics
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
something was in the air in that brisbane hotel room bc ur telling me we got the today show interview, the junkee interview, and the incoherent video all filmed in front of that same stupid lounge… unprecedented levels of chaos coming from a location that isn’t the phouse
#dan and phil#dnp#all that and then that arvo they got onstage and we got a setless show and sister daniel in docs#must be the heat or something in the water#i just don’t understand how so many lore drops could come from one place like that room heard some shit#long lasting professional relationship?? phil can’t have chocolate?? phil loves rawdogging?? whos the koala and who’s the tree???#telling us we’ll get the windows put back on the house if we’re good?? sharing custody with chappell roan?? fog mi hard???#hey buddy you in brisbane?? 2024 ladydoor mention?? and then the ‘phil’s mummy’ at the brisbane qna likeeeee#we’re the person that made them a boy??? the dullet??? im nervous it’s big???#unprecedented amount of unhinged content to come out of brisbane of all places#i miss them !!!!!!!!!!!!! they havent gone anywhere i just miss them
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
One last dance :)
OOOHHH MY GOOD I FUCKING FINALLY FINISH THIS IT TOOK ME 5 HOURS WHAT THE FUCK AM I THAT SLOW?? Slow artist moment.
Ah and yes, they wear matching pins :]
Crediting @jell-o101 for the star brush bc they asked to be credited when using it :]
#digital art hits me different#i am quick in traditional but digital has something that makes me turn into a fucking slug#at least I finished it on time#(3 days have passed since the mexican thing but whatever)#qsmp#art#pissa#qsmp art#philza#missa#missasinfonia#pissa nation#digital art#artists on tumblr#qsmp philza#qsmp missa#Btw while trying to post this I had to re edit the drawing like 5 times bc something was missing#if there is something missing in this definite version I am going to throw myself out the window.
321 notes
·
View notes
Note
Heeyyy Fiishhhh
So I decided to make a list of how Nu Carnival boys would react to unsolicited dick pics in their mail!
(yes those have to be what, photographs or portraits teehee)
Yakumo: loses his mind thinking that someone could have seen him hold the picture, drops it on the ground as if burnt, quickly snatches it back... (It stays in his panties drawer, (un)safely hidden because he can't make himself destroy it
Olivine: takes it quickly and hides it, looks at it in detail in his room after sermon, does a few *offerings*, jerks off to the memory every now and again (destroys the thing)
Garu: woofs! And goes show it to Eiden
Blade: it takes him a millisecond to determine it's not Darling on the portrait, he sends it in the trash
Kuya: sneers and burns it with his magic
Quincy: leaves it in his mailbox. Does he have one? Idk idk
Edmond: is very much scandalised, destroys the shtick immediately!!!!!🔥🔥🔥 Then thinks about it during lonely nights on patrol (would it be good enough? Too small? Too thin?)😅
Aster: sends out Morvay to find the owner and PUNISH HIM, no one dares messing with the great vampire tycoon!!!!!!
Morvay: his alone time is interrupted by a mad Aster who makes him do the unimaginable and actually go find that dick he's just gotten in the mail?! How come???? (The dick owner is going to come more times than is healthy ☺️ Morvay will make sure of that)
Rei: while he is trying to decide whether the person who sent him the tasteless thing is good enough to use as experiment material, the dick owner gets ambushed by Morvay AND TOTALLY BECOMES WORTH EXPERIMENTING ON yay
Dante: seethes (it's been days, the portrait is long burnt to dust and ashes)
Eiden: laughs and starts reminiscing about the olden days on twitter and such
the DEDICATION of someone sending and delivering a dick pic in kleinverse is ... something to be admired you gotta PAINT that shiet no instant snaps someone gotta DRAW THAT PEEN OUT in METICULOUS DETAIL wrap it up. maybe in a nice lil envelope with ribbons so it gets past the messengers wait for it to physically arrive at someone's doorstep and hope that no one other than the addressee opens the mail
#feesh answer#alternatives: majestic framed portraits. commissioned with the most celebrated painters at the time#or: a napkin with a crude cartoon dick drawn on it#folded up like origami. maybe in the shape of a bird. and sent directly thru someone's window#i'm imagining dante receiving the napkin dick caricature and getting angrier than he ever would receiving a fully rendered painting#if he got the painting he would be like. does someone think the idiot grand sorceror lives here. must have gotten the wrong address#but a lowly dick doodle?! wasting dante's time?! DO BETTER#plot twist: it's rei sending everyone's dicks out like secret santa and seeing how they all react to each other's junk#it's like mix and match!!!! oh the drama you could start#sending a pic of kuya's dick to [randomly assigned recipient]. how will they react#blade busting into the grand hall like DARLING DARLING SOMEONE SENT ME A CUTE DRAWING OF LIL EDDIE'S PP#eiden going ?!?! how do you know what edmond's dick looks like-- wait- who? wahat? A DRAWING?#tbh don't be surprised. i bet blade and rei know what EVERYONE'S dicks look like#blade has xray and pants-ray vision and rei has his ways#or maybe rei has proprietary photocopying technology that he built into blade#and blade was actually in eco-mode while rei was making the copies of all the dick pix#so blade hasn't quite realised that it was indeed rei making copies of everyone's private photos to send out as some sorta psych experiment#everyone gathering in the grand hall trying to return the photo to its rightful owner#photographic memory Blade drawing out the dicks like a full 3D model LOLOLOLOLOL#actually. blade SCULPTING all the dicks like TRUE 3D models#garu will join in and put some cute personal touches on the sculptures#for example. why not put a cute pink bow on aster's? it fits quite well. adds a bit of personality#would rei be able to solve the mystery of aster's missing dick#would he know what it looks like. if it exists#or does he just draw out a mythical dick creature and everyone believes it's aster's because it's the only one without a true Sighting
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
long!!! distance!!!! sucks!!!!!!
#I have no idea how long distance couples survive#I'm losing my mind over my squish being so far away#wdym I can't hug them :(#wdym there's a whole ass month left until they come back????#and like. I wanna text and call them so often but I'm scared of being too much yk#but equally it's been a week since I last heard their voice and I'm going insane#I also hate the time difference!!!!!! there's like a three hour window in which we both MIGHT be free but it's hard to coordinate :(#I just. I've never missed someone this much before#I imagine being reunited almost every day#sigh#also kinda scared about the fact that we're going to go from not having seen each other for 3 months to LIVING TOGETHER#I'm really hyped don't get me wrong#but also. aaaaaaa#(post inspired by the fact that they haven't messaged me back yet despite it being only 9am for them lol)#me? clingy? haha whaaaaaat nooooo#comso rambles#queerplatonic yearning hours#qpr yearning#queerplatonic#aroace#long distance love
45 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hi look at this cute Sun in a pretty outfit
In other news, i had a really really bad week with so many bad things happening at the same time. Cat got diagnosed with kidney problems, i got very bad migraines, we flooded our flat and all flats below and probably have to pay for all damages and one of my favourite coworker got diagnosed with cancer.
So it has been a week. I might take some more time off but i just wanted to sound off and tell you that im okay and ill come back when i can. Atleast i can actually draw again.
#my art#sun fnaf#sundrop#dca#daycare attendant#dcamv#tw cancer#cw cancer#well i like this sun actually#anyways i hope things get better soon but i have much to do#i have to sew curtains bc we have wierdly formed windows and its easyer just doing it myself#thank you for all the well wishes by the way it means a lot to me#i really love you guys#and im still deffinetly going to come back soonish#when i can#because i miss you#but its a lot of stress even if i have fun because of my social anxiety
295 notes
·
View notes
Note
"am i too late?"
I gotta be so honest I forgot about the prompt list and was very confused for a second 😭😭 but I remembered! and had an idea so I thought I would just write it now
speak now - jegulus - microfic - 1k
Regulus wasn’t even going to go. He was invited, of course, James said he really wanted him there, but he didn’t beg when Regulus said he’d be busy. He wasn’t busy. In fact, his only plans for the day were to sit in his apartment rotting away in bed while constantly refreshing his Instagram to see all the pictures of the party streaming in. He’d see her in her perfect dress and perfect hair. He’d see James lovingly gazing into her eyes, beautiful with the ocean behind him. It had to be a beach wedding. Of course, it had to be. James always had his thing with the ocean. He’d drag Regulus there every single summer to his family's place. Well, every single year until she came along and then Regulus wasn’t as inclined to go.
Regulus was still James’ best friend, but Lily Evans was… well his everything else. His girlfriend, his fiancé, the love of his life. Now she can add bride and wife to that list of terms.
Regulus isn’t at all upset over this. James chose his life. He had his choices and Regulus wasn’t even an option, and that’s fine. He’ll still be apart of his life. He’ll watch his home from the outside, peering into windows and occasionally being invited in for family dinners in a family he’ll never truly be apart of. He’ll be uncle Regulus and nothing more. The guy who comes around occasionally. So no, he wasn’t going to go to the wedding of all things. He doesn’t think he could handle it. He can’t watch the life he wanted go up in flames because he was too stupid to say something. He didn’t say a word and now James is going to be happily married, or well… he wasn’t going to go.
That was before Sirius called him drunk the night before. It’s a destination wedding, and they all went out the night before as a pre-celebration or whatever you’d call it. It was clear that Sirius had too much to drink, especially when he kept spouting on about how this was Regulus’ last chance. Apparently he had enough of Regulus’ pining and his inability to actually talk about his feelings. He kept going on and on about how Regulus was obsessed with James since he was small. From the moment James walked up to him grabbed his hand and said they’d be best friends forever he’s had Regulus. Even if they were young. Even if Regulus knew nothing of what love meant, he was spoken for. James was it. There was no other light. No other love. He handed over his heart that day and he’s never even asked for it back. Sirius never mentioned it, or at least not since Lily came into the picture. Regulus isn’t sure what made him last night. He’s also not sure what made him buy a last minute plane ticket to Greece of all places.
He’s late by the time he gets there, and when he’s in the first car he could get traffic is blocked up too far, like an idiot he runs all the way to the venue. He’s sweaty and out of breath by the time he makes it there. He’s definitely not dressed for a wedding he looks awful and his clothes are all wrinkled from the flight but none of it matters. He makes it to the beach. He finds the arch just in front of the beautiful waves, but there’s not a single guest to be seen. It’s vacant. Nothing but the sand and ocean water.
“Am I too late?” He mumbles, more to himself more than to anyone. After all this time of running behind it really shouldn’t a surprise that when he finally got it together he was too late. He’s always too late but the ache in his heart is the same, like a slice through his liver, and cracks in his ribs.
“Depends on what you’re here for.”
Regulus eyes widen as he turns around, to find James behind him on the stairs. Still in his suit, beautiful coated with the colors of the setting sun. “You’re still here.”
James shrugs, “Had no where else to go,” he says, walking passed him to the sea to stand under the arch. He picks off flowers from the sides of it, watching as the petals fall to the sand, “I couldn’t go through with it.”
“Oh?”
James smiles sadly, looking down to the ground as he says, “I thought…” he shakes his head, “When you said you couldn’t make it for a second I was relived, you know,” he says, “I thought I could actually go through with it as long as you weren’t here too. As long as I didn’t see you.” He looks up finding Regulus’ eyes through the aisle, “Without you though it was just so much clearer what I was missing I couldn’t—I couldn’t go through with it.”
“James…”
“I understand,” James says quickly, “If you don’t feel the same way. If this is completely out the blue I just—I didn’t love her like I should and it has to be right. It has to be right and I tried to make myself believe that it was but I—“
Before James can finish rambling Regulus is already down the aisle and grabbing the front of his shirt bringing him down. Regulus really hates the cliche but deep down it feels like he’s a teenager kissing James now, back when they should’ve figured this out. They were so fucking stupid, and while kissing James, Regulus swears he can feel sparks fly against them; it’s a firework show.
James pulls away, a smile tugging at his lips, “Oh.”
“Oh,” Regulus giggles, he fucking giggles, like he’s thirteen or something. He’d be embarrassed if it was anyone but James. Hell, James is giggling too.
That is until James takes a pause and questions slowly, “Wait, did you come here to break up my wedding?”
Regulus opens his mouth but no words come out, truly there’s nothing to be said. No defense he can take. So he rolls his eyes instead, tugging James down again, “Shut up.”
#i was thinking on it for a second#like how could i make this sad james#i wanted to write sad james#and then i thought oh! wedding!#and threw the sad james idea out the window#i haven't written sad james in far too long i'm missing him#but yes childhood best friends to lovers jeg#my babies i love them#sorry to lily evans my girl didn't deserve that#but she's probably off making out with her maid of honor aka marlene her best friend who's she's been in love with since they were kids#so it all works out at the end of the day#i don't even like hate jily and i don't think james can't marry lily and be in love with her#i just think... when you have reg as your best friend like... that's pretty hard competition#jegulus#regulus black#james potter#i also didn't read this over#it is almost midnight#i do not care lmao
22 notes
·
View notes