#i miss feeling like i could trust ppl
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#no one sees this blog so i feel comfy talking more on here#i feel like i am disappointing everyone around me all of the time#and itâs always like#trust people to tell u#i cannot#bc no one tells me Until it reaches a breaking point#and i canât really talk about shit with people bc my feelings are 99% of the time#wrong#i dunno#le sigh#we cringe on#i miss feeling like i could trust ppl
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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wanted to go to the gym social tn but as I was getting my stuff together to go out, a friend said smth that rly pissed me off and now I'm too fucking angry to go out. fucks sake man
#fucking hate ppl commenting on my 'self control' for being sober bc I get it all the fucking time and its so patronising !!!!!!#even if its not intended that way. dont care didnt fucking ask. especially from someone im friends with#but whatever i should know better than to expect ppl to know me#maybe other ppl need discipline to stay sober but i dont bc the alternative is a non option and always has been. not that hard for me#and i have my own self control struggles w other shit man like im not pristine and perfect fuck off. you only dont know abt the#shit i actually fucking struggle with bc i dont know or trust u well enough for that.#and i HATE when ppl fucking imply im susceptible to peer pressure. im not. dont fucking overestimate your influence#ppl act like shit is a choice like actually i have a trauma rooted fear that comes from ppl in my family dying of substance abuse thanks đ#which i dont expect strangers to know. but my friends should fucking know that!!! but i guess its not worth remembering#whatever it doesnt matter im prolly upset for other reasons im going to go out for a walk to calm down i cant be at home right now#even more fucking annoyed that im missing the gym over this. i shouldve been there an hour ago.#i mean i could still go maybe the cycle ride would stop me feeling mad and blowing everyone up once im there. i doubt it tho#UGH. fucking whatever. whatever whatever whatever. sorry for ventposting i was typing out a longass reply#but its not gonna fucking do anything except come across needlessly aggressive and ruin the conversation#even if i really really want to be needlessly aggressive. and ruin the conversation. but i guess i have the self control to not. lmfao#what if i just killed myself. anyway i think im gonna go get some shitty fast food on this walk and watch a horror movie when im back#.vent
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ughh i wanna play a game but nothing is scratching the itch rn
#da2 is scratching the story itch but not the gameplay itch#datv is scratching the gameplay itch but not the story itch#cyberpunk is still too finnicky rn for me to feel confident enough about settling in for a good sesh#tomb raider is tricky bc i'm just in full anticipation mode for the next remaster release and i wanna play AOD SO BAD#but i'd rather just wait a month and enjoy the polished version#bg3 is... listen dont hate me yall but it's not really doing it for me#i think it's gonna end up like tw3 for me: i totally get why other ppl like it but it's missing a certain je ne sais quoi for me#i kinda wish i trusted my gut on the combat bc it is not my cup of tea#and i dont like the cc#i found some more presets but i just don't like using presets#they make me feel really disconnected from my character#i do like a lot of the other stuff tho#i like the interactions and dice rolling mechanic#and i like most of the companions#but every time i get to a battle im like nope dont wanna#i took a peak at the mods to make it less sluggish but nothing really looked like a solution to me#bc i just dont want to do it at all lmao#but i get why skipping it entirely would break too many things#anyway i dont know what i want!!!#maybe i'll try to get back into coral island#sim games are usually good for me when im in this wishy washy mood#and i could steam link it and play it on the couch#t: wench games#or not as the case may be lmao
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i will shut up abt this i promise but like. the concept of being in a stable safe mutually loving whatever relationship is INSANE . like how can you ever feel bad about yourself or wounded or whatever again. itâs like a superpower or somethi ng. <- doesnât know what sheâs taking abt bc sheâs never experienced it or the absence of it after having it merely the negative space of it and is filling in the gaps w logic or something. but itâs INSANE to me. like of course i feel like shit about myself i am catcrumb unloved.jpg!
#purrs#imbeing insane about it i know itâs not that simple / reductive and i will still feel like shit abt myself once im in a relationshp (if i#get to be âĽď¸) and there are lots of other legitimate reasons to feel shit agtbyiurself. but itâs like no ficking wonder i feel inadequate i#am a 24 year old who lives at home and has never held a hand or whatever next to two 50sometjinf year old married men with pets and phds. of#course i am going to feel inadequate and stupid and lonely. like i canttttt đđđđđđđđđđđđđđ and th w worst part is you canât just go out into#the world saying that and looking for that it has to find you so i will not join any dating apps or whatever but i donât fucking go anywhere#so im not going to meet anyone and i knowi am so young and stupid and just having a horrible day that is reminding me of horrors. but the#way i am mentally shoving my whole fist in my mouth. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT I DONT HAVE A LIFE PARTNER!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE THAT#SAFETY AND STABILITY AND TRUST AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!!!!! AND I NEVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#delete later#like this is what makes me crazy abt parents and kids too and whyi donât think ihave kids. bc i think (and i know this is wrong / unhealthy)#it is a primal human need to be mutually someone elseâs number 1 person and when you have kids itâs like youâre gonna love your partner more#than the kids and then the kids (read: me) watch that and get fucked up over it. but also that could just be me reacting to the UNSPEAKABLE#psychological damage of being a twin. which again is ridiculous bc itâs n out like abuse i just had to share something with someone else si#since before i was born and ofc there was more like actually kind of abusive stuff on top of it LOL but that aside. idk what im saying i#just feel so crazy. the amount of composure it takes me every day to not start SCREAMING with frustration and envy when i see ppl being#RIGHTFULLY DESERVEDLY visibly confident and loved. like ok valentines grinch go sit in the drainage pond forever please. but itâs so crazy#like how are you supposed to go through the world unaware of how much love youâre missing out on because youâre young and then you realize I#it and then somehow you miss the train and you are scared you are going to d*e alone âĽď¸ im normal
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npd + autism culture is literally refusing to engage in your special interest because now it's so so mainstream and you don't wanna be associated with all the fakes who are into it
i pretend to not really enjoy space/astronomy anymore because holy shit so many people in my life who like astrology conflates the two. i can't talk about astronomy without someone bringing up some spiritual shit. and i know everything they do say that's correct, they're viewing it from a VERY different lens than i am
i hate family who act like "we're all stardust" is a new revelation to them in their spiritual journey, which i have ALWAYS stated growing up, albeit with a more scientific lens. they also act like it's some special notable thing that means we can manifest anything when i just think it's a fact of life & people only view it as something astonishing because of how mysterious and disconnected the stars seem to your average person
i can never bring up my nuanced takes on life outside earth because someone always dumbs it down or tries to make it fit their own personal ideology on real time, or they'll think i'm lying once i say The Proven Alien Hoax Is, â¨Surprise Surpriseâ¨, A Hoax Againâ˘.
don't get me started on all the alien theories rooted in Just Racism
there's also a lotta people who aren't necessarily spiritual or conspiratorial with it, but it's an aesthetic for them, which on its face is fine, but i hate the thought that i will be grouped in with people who just find kinship with the great unknown Like Y'all Don't Appreciate It Like Me!!!âźď¸ gatekeeping rn on god how is the special interest i was bullied for so mainstream in internal culture and aesthetics
so i just pretend i don't really care much about it & it's really diminished by love of space & that's a shame & all but idk what else to do
nevermind the fact that when i was like 7 years old i cleared out two whole libraries of their astronomy books by reading every single one regardless of reading level
nevermind the fact most things i own are based on space
nevermind the different space and aerodynamic museums ive been to
nevermind me being able to name certain events just based off photos
nevermind me still owning a lotta books
nevermind me opting to study physics so i could better appreciate space
how dare my special interest be stolen âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸
#rant#npd#narcissistic personality disorder#autism#special interest#feels highkey appropriated on god ...#i KNOW being gatekeepy is baad and i KNOW it isn't healthy to give up on things you have a passion for bcs of something so childish#but ohhh my god i enter so many irrational states of numerous different rapidly shifting emotion about myself and everyone else over this đ#how can a friend literally talk to me about how much they like space and I'm literally like âokâ even though i wanna talk abt it bcs#I Don't Trust Them#or someone will be surprised i'm super into space. it's really aggravating when it's someone i've known for years and years bcs how could u#miss this#busted SO much money on space#growing up i'd have fun by reading astronomy & space exploration ENCYCLOPEDIAS.#do you know how angry i was when there was no more space books in my Second Library âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸#sometimes i say something off-handed abt space & ppl will be surprised & interested bcs i forget that actually most people don't know that#& then i get happy and feel special and important#but that usually doesn't last long
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there are very specific people in my irl life who can say the most innocuous things on earth and still make me steaming mad
#ooough we love venting#especially tag venting#auden.txt#itâs my blog and iâll cry if i want to#these tags are not a place of honourâ#i got told off for making tea too late at night#and it turned into a spiral about how much worse iâve been doing since i started my job#and like. man. i. i resolve not to trust what i think about my life past 9pm bc it is not good up here rn#a toddlerâs Big Feelings in a 20 something body. i never outgrew the me who thought i could compel ppl into liking me by dint of being#so good and perfect that they had no choice#but now the more i do. work and study and hobbies and and and#the more is expected? and iâm just not learning to keep up#i miss my fucking mom i wish we got along like we used to when i was little but iâm just an asshole now and i hate being told what to do#i wish i didnât need so much fixing.#thereâs not even anything wrong just a creeping sense of dread. like heading jaws music in a sunny meadow#i wish people wouldnât bring up my mental health to imply iâm crazy#i wish it didnât scare me to seriously consider it#although i did once tell a friend that i felt like. there would be nothing to write in my obituary? bc i had lived such a disconnected life#like some fuck who died far away from home#jesus. iâm going insane. itâs fucking bedtime itâs been bedtime for ages.#things will be better when itâs light out
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i am gonna fall apart
#kitty talks#reading up more snd i think i know what i have and i just#god dude#i loved unprotected sex. but now i know. And im also never fucking anyone ever again unless i know them#like. iâm just. like duh this happened#i wish i wasnt so stupid while drunk. also wish i remembered stis existed and that a girl who flirts a lot and is a dom probably fucks a lot#idk i feel really weird rn. like i dont eant to be mad but god. god. i canât trust my judgement i guess#maybe instesd of finding the first opportunity to fuck bc ive been depraved for so long i should just. Takr my fucking time god#i fucking haye sex with ppl i dont know i hate it so much and i did it bc i was drunk and having fun but she is not how i thkught shed be#i woukdve been fine with fucking if like. i could tell we would continue hanging out and being friends#but i am so not into this texting and flaky shit and âserve goddessâ out of no where . I hate sex i Hate sex#i miss having sex with my best friend it was so fun and nice and comfortable#man. i should be shot
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Also since its 9am in going to have a baby moment.... I don't feel lonely and I'm not like forlorn or sad but I really. Wish. I. Had. Friends.
#Its been kinda rough lately#I have two friends I reached out to bc I was struggling#And its been a month since I talked to either of them#I dont usually reach out to ppl but I want to lean on them bc I trust them#And they're also going thru their own stuff right now#But im just feeling unprioritized#Which is also silly in a way bc no one is a priority over surviving yknow#But I wish it was me just once. I wish I was the first choice#I wish someone worried enough to text me like hey u good#Or even an I miss you bro#Nothing.... its me that does that#And on one hand its a two way street if I wanna talk I can message them#But at the same time... why bother if it isn't reciprocated?#But that feels petty#I know its not personal. Like I said they both got a lot going on#And are just in survival mode. I'm living in a similar situation.#I just wish I could feel like someone cared about me#Its really exhausting to know no one cares literally in reality
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His good girl âď¸
Zayne x fem reader smut
Warnings: PiV sex, some dirty talk, nipple play, praise, use of pet names (good girl, love, baby, angel), office sex, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it ppl), improper use of an evol (ice ice baby đ§), sex against a wall/door, light mentions of biting/marking, little bit of cervix fucking, tummy bulge (he's big, trust me đ), creampie
(lemme know if I missed anything)
You really weren't sure how you ended up like this, in fact you could barely remember your own name, all you could focus on was Zayne. His hot mouth leaving wet kisses on your shoulders, cool fingers pinching your sensitive nipples, and his thick cock pounding into your drenched cunt, his strong arms the only thing holding you up as his rough thrusts pin your body against his office door. What had started out as a simple lunch date with your boyfriend had now turned into something scandalous.
You'd never thought Zayne to be one to mix work and pleasure, but something about the way he was gripping the plush of your hips so tightly, sure to leave bruises for you to admire later on, pulling you back to meet every snap of his hips as he drove his deliciously thick cock into you over and over again, told you he was enjoying this as much as you were. With a particularly harsh thrust, Zayne's cock reaches even deeper inside you, hitting the spongey spot deep in your pussy that had you arching your back, cunt clenching tighter around his length as a high-pitched whine was forced from your throat.
"I thought I told you to be quiet love, what would all my colleagues think if they heard my little angel making such sinful noises?" Zayne whispered lowly into your ear, his voice was husky and soft but there was a quiet dominance to his words. "you need to be quiet for me, baby, you can do that can't you? You can be a good girl for me and keep that pretty mouth shut, right?"
You nod your head, desperately wanting to please him, wanting to be a good girl for your loving boyfriend who was fucking you so perfectly, biting your lip to stop any more sounds escaping as your cunt continued to flutter around his cock. Suddenly Zayne's movements slowed, pulling his cock out of your throbbing pussy until only the tip was left in, his icy fingers harshly pinching the nipple of your left breast.
"You know better than that, angel, come on, use your words. Or have I already fucked you dumb?"
A pathetic whimper left your throat as you tried to buck your hips back into his, your cunt aching to feel full again, but Zayne's firm grip kept you in place, small ice crystals forming, a warning to behave.
"You know the rules, angel, use your words. Are you going to be a good girl for me? Or do I need to stop right now, and it would be such a shame if I did because I've been aching to feel this pretty little cunt cum all over my cock.... But only good girls get to cum" his tone is as icy as his evol, sending shivers down your spine as you swallow down the desperate whine threatening to spill from your lips. Tears burn your eyes as you squeeze them shut, your brain struggling to form any coherent thoughts.
"I'll be g-good....please Zayne....'m gonna be good... please, need to cum" you hiccup out between sobs, your mind turning to mush as your cunt clenches around nothing.
"There we go, that wasn't so hard, now was it?" Zayne whispers softly, lips trailing kisses along your jaw and down your neck, your skin igniting under the feeling of his tongue and teeth marking you, branding you as his.
"Now keep that pretty mouth quiet for me, love"
With that he's slamming back into you, his cock burying itself deep in your pussy, hitting your cervix with every harsh thrust of his hips, forcing your body further into the door. You bit your bottom lip hard, the tangy taste of iron flooded your mouth as you fought to keep quiet as Zayne continued to pinch and pull your nipple with one hand, the other moving from your hip to press down on your stomach, feeling the outline of his cock as he roughly pounded into your gushing cunt.
"Ngh you feel that, Angel, feel how deep I am... You're taking me so well, always such a good girl for me, perfect girl with the perfect little pussy" Zayne's praises went straight to your cunt, working you closer to your orgasm, clenching harder around his cock that was taking you so well, forcing it's way inside you, making you feel every delicious ridge and vein as Zayne moulded your cunt to his shape. Feeling your high approaching rapidly, you try to warn Zayne, hands reaching out behind you blindly as your fucked-out brain is unable to form any words. Zayne, ever the observant physician, notices your struggle, hands grabbing hold of your wrists and pinning them to the door in front of you.
"Are you going to cum angel? I can feel you clenching around me... Ngh, it's okay.... You can cum, baby.... You've been such a good girl, go on and cum for me" Zayne urges you on, voice straining as he approaches his own release. With one hand he keeps your wrists pinned above your head as the other hand moves down to rub circles on your clit, working you closer to the edge.
"Come on, baby, want to feel you cum, need to feel my good girl squeezing my cock.... Please baby, cum for me, cum on my cock angel"
Zayne's skilled fingers on your clit and husky words of encouragement are all you need to push you over the edge, your back arching and cunt milking his cock as you're hurtled into an intense orgasm. Zayne isn't far behind, hips rutting into you erratically as he chases his own release, thrusting a few more times before his hips stutter and he burries his cock deep inside you, coating your cunt with his warm cum. Exhausted, your body slumps forward against the door, unable to hold yourself up you're grateful for Zayne's strong arms as they wrap around your waist, his forehead resting against your shoulder as you both come down from your highs. The room is quiet apart from your panting breaths and the hammering of your heart. After a few minutes, Zayne slides his softening cock from your spent pussy, taking a second to admire the way your cunt clenches around nothing with the aftershocks of your orgasm, and the mix of both your cum dripping down your thighs. Leaning forward to press a gentle kiss between your shoulder blades, Zayne speaks softly against your skin "I apologise if I was a little too rough with you, love, you did so well for me" another loving kiss is pressed to your forehead, your eyes closing as you begin to drift off in the safety of your boyfriends warm embrace.
"Rest now, Angel, don't worry, I'll be right here when you wake up"
This is my first time writing smut so feedback is appreciated đ
#love and deepspace#zayne#zayne love and deepspace#zayne x reader#zayne smut#love and deepspace smut
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ur gonna get sick of seeing me in ur inbox lol but t iâve been thinking a whole lot about sugar daddies and i need to know what the jjk men would be like as sugar daddies and what type of sugar baby theyâd go for and and and their favourite things to do with you, both inside and outside the bedroom đ and how likely they are to fall in love and make u their wifey
a/n: i am so normal about jjk men. this shit is so long i got carried away. itâs too long that iâll need to seperate and post nanamiâs and tojiâs part in a second post TT pt. 2 here
warnings: long piece, sugar daddy!au, discussions of kinks including daddy kink, creampies / breeding, public sex, exhibitionism, oral (f and m receiving), fingering, facials, cumshots, praise, degradation, dp, threesome, voyeurism, orgasm denial, overstimulation, lingerie, brat-taming, let me know if i missed anything. n*sfw under the cut
âś GOJO
most annoying sugar daddy eva but heâs one of the fun ones where he feels like your best friend and sponsor all in one
i honestly see gojo not having a preference for specific sugar babies, but he doesnât like babies who are ashamed of their relationship. like itâs one thing to be private of your relationship but another to introduce satoru as just your trust fund without alluding to your relationship
âheâs helping me with my university feesâ like yeah any rich FRIEND could do that but itâs different from hooking an arm around his to introduce you two as a couple
sure maybe he may have blurred the lines at first when touches became more personal and whatnot but at this point heâs basically your boyfriend â even if you donât want to explain the sugar daddy part, he still wants to be know as your partner and equal
you two âmetâ at an event where you were paid minimum wage for a waitress job, serving drinks to rich ppl and heâs so entranced with how you move. itâs not until later when he goes outside to accompany geto for a smoke that he sees you and your friends who worked the job together just talking and laughing in the parking lot while you rested your feetÂ
it was cute and refreshing seeing your laughter after experiencing your stoic expression in the stuffy event even he didnt want to go to. since it was once of the first few events he started attending as a new CEO
made an impression by approaching you when your friends went in and your back was turned but you took him as a creep and screamed and punched him and heâs groaning while you just apologise profusely
itâs his fault, he knows, approaching in such a dark area but he doesnt mind the dark bruise forming on his nose bridge even when his best friend was laughing from a distance and youre helping him off the ground. your hands are so soft and your voice so sweet he swears he wants to protect you from the get go
after that whole hooha, he finds out youre still a uni student trying to pay off fees and randomly asks if you want to be his sugar baby and realises he wants you to be his gf when youâre playing some digimon video game at his house, enjoying your winter break. youre triumphant in the round and he grabs your wrist mid celebratory pose and pulls you to him
are you going to punch me for payback? gojo pfts and laughs, and just says just wanted to tell you i like you and LEAVES dude is so afraid of your answer until youre wrapping your arms arnd him from behind muttering out a finally and hearing the vibration of his chuckle
gojo wants his baby to ask for help when you needs it, and doesnât mind being spoiled
LOVES to buy you flashy stuff. glittery, bright coloured things (that somehow still look classy) that scream expensive. gojo is very good at persuasion. he listens you dont like it however
i feel like the more he gets to know you, he understands your style more so while some of the things he buys are still fairly gaudy, youâre surprised every time he manages to purchase something that fits your preference. heâs gotten very good at it
gojo wires you money when he feels like it, whenever. he calls what he has a âsugar baby radarâ and itâs just him thinking youre panicking over not having money for a textbook or something and just types in a random amount to transfer to you lol
heâs just a chill guy though, who wants to be a good boyfriend as he is a sugar daddy. like yeah heâs had sugar babies before and he enjoys giving but youâve always hooked him in from day one and he realises he doesnât just want to give you money but love too
gojo wants a bit of balance in the relationship as well â so he accompanies you to fashion stores to try on clothes but he would also love it if you followed him to tailor stores or watch stores for normal CEO stuffÂ
you roll your eyes but actually you love every suit he changes into, and you always think of taking him right there
he LOVES his sunglasses thatâs one thing heâs always dragging you to look at
and then there is interests that involve the both of you: lingerie shopping lol, jewellery, etc
he gets you a little G.S. initial necklace for your second anni and it looks so cute on you
clingy and so annoying bout it. you love it tho, seeing such a rich guy babble out five more minutes with hair sticking out everywhere.
he surrenders to you easily in the way he lets you crash his place whenever youâre cramming for an exam, or just needs some comfort. his things becomes yours very easily and he smiles when he finds himself wanting to learn how to cook properly when youâre sleeping in
likes to buy lingerie that matches his eyes, but ofc also picking your preferred colour. but seeing the fabric that matches the blue of his eyes drives him crazy, but also he gets to say âmy eyes are always on youâ and itâs just a reference to how thereâs baby blue lingerie on you
HES SO LAME . i swear to god.
also a little bit of a boomer when it comes to younger slang and whatnot and itâs endearing to see when heâs supposed to be a CEO but you canât help but laugh when he asks you for help on what fomo meant
very open on topics that touchy subjects or sensitive things. he may appear loud and annoying but heâs got depth to him due to his hardships since he was young. like yeah sure a guy who already was in line to take over his father couldnât have hardships when he was young but heâs always despised this line of work. satoru is still finding a way to break off from his toxic family business to create his own, something that wont come without blackmail and scandals
the first time you heard this you were surprised because you had never seen gojo so serious before. he mentions itâs not obligatory for you to open up as well, but you mumble along about always struggling with money and working jobs to make ends meet. itâs not detrimental, but sometimes you wish there was someone treating you to a small meal or drink
this vulnerable state was early on in your relationship as well, and as you two go along, gojo is so grateful to be able to take care of you. it strengthens your relationship as well, because while you have your funny, hysterical moments, being vulnerable with your sugar daddy turned boyfriend is everything you could ask for
gojo realises the first time he might put a ring on you was when you guys had sex that was intense and broke the headboard LMFAO you two laughed about it during it, but during aftercare youâre patting his chest, telling him how youâll end work early to meet him at IKEA to get a new one tomorrow â that simple act of going with someone to find furniture like ohhhh my god he was so whipped
like itâs one thing to buy clothes and material things but when you said that, flashes of your possible married life flashed before his eyes and he wants to say i love you but finds youâre already asleep. he canât wait to actually move out of his family sponsored home into an apartment with you. gojo doesnât care if itâs smaller than mansions and penthouses. if youâre happy, he is.
n*sfw hcâs below
gojo is open to a lot of things regarding your sex life. he didnât want to scare you when you first started out but when he found out youâre just as much of a freak as he is heâs going to pound town baby!
not big on the daddy kink ngl (and he also because heâs too pathetic to be called a daddy), but loves using it in the context of cumming in you and breeding you and the prospect of you being pregnant with his child.Â
even if itâs not on his checklist right now, he just loves the filthiness and saying things like that
loves to fuck in bathrooms of important events, the cold marble against your skin making you freeze up as your eyes can hardly focus on your reflection. youâre just thankful you were able to find the âcleaningâ sign to prevent anyone from entering
loves to tease you and threaten to take away his black card and youre whining. hes annoying, asking you to use your words and youre begging to cum on his fingers.
very playful in the bedroom but heâs always calling you his dumb baby who loves getting fucked stupid by him until theres only money and him on your mind
loves it when you wear the extensions to the G.S. initial necklace, buying four more initials: two for your wrist, two for your ankles so he can hear it jingle when you stroke his cock while your flick your tongue at his tip
r hear it next to his ear when your legs are on his shoulder as he rails into you
on a funnier note he would totally fuck you on a bed of money. just for shits and giggles
loves to film you especially in his office, whether youâre playing with yourself or sucking him off or getting fucked he loves it so much bc of the fact heâs so unprofessional in a professional setting
gojo likes it when you initiate sex, especially in places that are risky and pretty public. his office is a starter, coming in dressed in a tight pencil skirt to mirror his insufferable PA who kept making advances on him. she was demoted the very next day LMFAO
but yeah you wore the skirt to provoke him, pulling his tie over the table while a stocking clad knee rests on his wooden desk. thereâs a confidence in you heâs never seen before and he just cant resist flicking his eyes down to the suffocating button up shirt youâve got on
satoru doesnât care that his whole office can hear you moan out his name or the slaps of his balls on your ass. or doesnât really care about the construction workers looking at you two go at it like rabbits from the opposite building
the heat of the glass paired with your body that feels on fire is enough to make you lightheaded but the eyes and ears peeking in on your intercourse is so thrilling to you bc you know gojo can just pay them off to shut the fuck up
loves you on your knees giving him head when heâs in an important meeting, the swirl of your tongue feeling so good on his length
but whatâs more he loves giving you head even more. doesnt matter where. office table, washing machine, bed, heâs so in love with your cum and cunt and has to eat you out at least once a day
gojo loves to cum in you but also on your face, especially if you wear glasses. seeing his white hot cum splattered on your lenses and your face while your tongue darts out to lick some of it off he swear thereâs a few more blobs of cum that seeps out from his tip
warnings for drabble: reader has glasses, pet names, oral (m receiving), deepthroating, face-fucking, praise, facial, cum eating, semi-public sexÂ
âbabyâ sweetness, oh my g-godâŚâ gojo whines out, once the board members are out of the meeting room, rolling his chair back slowly while you follow on your knees, cock still in your mouth. heâs glancing down at you with such need youâd think youâre the one leading the relationship, the hands in your hair tightening when you lick down his shaft before taking one of his balls in his mouth, sucking at the sack while pumping him.
the long acrylic nails that he paid for are on display along with your G.S. bracelet as you pump his dick, slick, wet noises fill the spacious meeting room. gojo almost wants to say something but your head descends on his large cock again, taking him right to the back of your mouth when his tip hits your throat and you struggle to keep your eyes open as you breathe through your nose.
âfuuckk⌠thatâs it. take me sâwell,â satoru moans at the tears forming at your waterline, pulling your head off for a moment for you to catch your breath and you know what he wants to do, because his hips cannot resist one bit whenever youâve got his dick in your mouth. slowly, he starts to move his body off the office chair, thrusting up into your waiting, obedient mouth and he moans so loud he isnât surprised someone hasnât come in already.
âso wet and warm, princessâ s-shit, canât wait to fuck your cute little pussy,â he has a foul mouth, and you moan around his length at the words, hands tensing around his thighs as he continued to fuck your face. gojo is so rough that your glasses are messed up, tilting to one side but you continue to feel up his body. you would get fired like this, sucking the cock of someone who has their pants pulled down halfway while wet, gurgling noises fill the space. but you knew the CEO, the man whoâs now whining out your name as his hips start to stutter, eyes scrunched up in pure pleasure before forcing you off his cock, hands stroking his leaking cock in quick movements. you adjust your glasses like a good girl, sticking out your tongue as you admire the sight before you. want my cum all over your face, angelface?
satoru whimpers out that heâs gonna cum! with his heavy, beautiful cock out, pumping harshly before he shoots his load all over you, spilling his white, viscous liquid all over your face and glasses and you swallow whatever thatâs close to your mouth and tongue, darting out to lick up the heavy ball of cum still leaking from his sensitive tip, and he jolts on your tongue.
you giggle, hand closing around his length once more and gojo just groans at its warmth. he loves it, he loves everything âbout you and he canât wait to turn over the tables later when he hears you say, âagain.â
âśGETO
doting sugar daddy!!! out of sex life heâs the most âgivingâ, but he has his moments of depriving you of things because you being a brat but yes heâs the softest in the normal context of a relationship
similarly, not much preference for sugar babies but he wouldnât like babies who ask for too much? idk if that makes sense but itâs more of being given so many options of a type of clothing or bag but still whining to want something more expensive
like the money doesnât bother him but itâs more of your attitude regarding material things. canât stand babies who are rotten to the core and are actually spoiled that it ruins the act of him giving you things and of you asking for things because no matter what he buys youâre not satisfied
it also pisses him off if it carries into your way of treating people, dragging him away from his co-workers to only want him for yourself, that sort of thing
yea⌠that. unfortunately heâs had his fair share of babies like that, bc heâs so generous they end up so spoiled and terrible that even now heâs still getting texts from them. poor guy
he likes if youâre able to bite back with your own sort of fire, he doesnt expect you to if you dont like to but it turns him on seeing you shout at a co-worker for gossiping about your relationship perhaps
he met you through your intern position at his company, and itâs been a few weeks before youâre confused at why the CEO wanted to see youÂ
hes not one to rush into relationships but he was so interested in seeing you react to being asked to be his sugar baby that he blurts it out and slaps his hand on his mouth. âwrong thing. my badâ
when youâve been under his care for a few months, he sees how hard you work while completing other assignments at lunch, he wants you to surrender to him when you need the comfort. lets you sleep in his office and reluctantly stroked your hair, shaking when you lean into the affection. ends up sleeping on the floor watching you and gets massive back pain and suffocates when you fall onto your boss at 7am in the morning
unfortunately the two of you were not exactly on the same page that day. you thought it was a one off thing. geto thinks youre already dating. this goes on for a few weeks ;;;
geto NEEVERR asked you out so you were surprised to find that geto wanted to be like, an actual boyfriend and an actual date when he showed you a piece of paper and it was like a new pottery studio that opened down the road
and he just says âi thought we already were dating?????â
yeah like he wasnt giving you more things than usual and being more touchy with you. you didnt want to read into it too much okay!!!!
but itâs fine, because geto was one of the best boyfriend you ever had. youre convinced he would be a great bf even if you werent in this sugar daddy / baby arrangement
geto likes to show you off quietly, a hand on your back and your thigh, or a whisper to your ears that it has the other workers talking, but you donât mind when the things he says are sometimes the sweetest things. theyâre also filthy.
it isnt bc he doesnât want to show you off, but he likes the attention and gossip when you enter his office for the nth time that day and the eyes on him like heâs committing a crime. he likes the eyes that follow you knowing they can't have you. but he pays them, so they canât say much
suguru loves to buy things that are for his eyes, going back to the âshowing you off quietlyâ part, like paying for a tattoo on your lower back, an anklet thatâs sometimes hidden in your shoe, a belly button piercing, lingerie, he loves it
ofc he loves buying you clothes and dresses too, but he sometimes gets a bit jealous of everyoneâs eyes on you so theyâre sometimes a little less revealing than you would like
ok i should clarify too: he LIKES everyoneâs eyes on you only when he knows he can show and tell them that youre his. but how tf is he supposed to do that with a mere dress??? u get what i mean
heâs not going to be an asshole and not let you wear a revealing piece of apparel that you like tho! but just know what youâll be getting later at night lol
geto is very on trend as an older person, sometimes sending you tiktok trends you can do or updating you on conventions or events that you are interested in
he likes routine, so everyday heâll be transferring a set amount of money to you for your daily allowance but sometimes you dont even use it all so it just piles up in your account lol
and he is observant, always wiring you more money than usual if youâre going out with your friends or meeting a friend for a bday, sacrificing his time to learn about your major so he can help you in whatever way he can !!! heâs that sort of bf
gives you handmade gifts sometimes!! itâs soooo endearing when he makes time for it and gives you something that isnt bought w/ money. likes to do those photo ones bc theyre ones that mean more to him, but he also rlly likes writing letters under them and giving you like a seven page letter talking bout why youre a blessing to him
is pretty stylish when heâs not in his suits. likes to wear baggy clothes like heâs nineteen again and he looks young enough to pull it off so you two always look cool when you two go out
weirdly his personality at work and on dates is vastly different from each other. you think that maybe he wants to keep work, work. but later on in the relationship you both realise itâs how youâre so easy-going to be around that he doesnât have to be dominating with you??? like heâs so okay with you putting bunny ears on him or having his arm hooked around yours instead. basically heâs very comfortable in his masculinity and he wishes he could be like that at work too, but the finance bros would be questioning why this guy was even their CEO
geto listens to you easily. and like i said hes observant, bringing you a glass of water when youâre coughing or opening the blinds of his office when youâre reading. the smile you give him after every favour he does is enough reward for him, and he really doesnât mind doing all those things for you either.
basically worships you, so when youâre suggesting that his company start having courses for men to learn how to be proper human beings (following your question of why heâs so diff at work vs with you), heâs immediately setting up a meeting to achieve that. the guys who are borderline misogynists obviously leave immediately and hes just like. why didnt i think of that b4????
is always always thinking of you. heâs become so distracted in meetings and conversations sometimes and your spell on him is hypnotising.
the first time he realises he properly loves you (and also wants to marry you) is when you two make love. like yes youâve fucked and shit but it happens inside a shower where you offered to wash his hair. itâs cute seeing you stand on a small stool to reach his height, but the feel of your fingers massaging the shampoo into his scalp is soooo good. and from there he lets you wash his body with the loofah too, scrubbing down every inch until ofc one thing leads to another
he thinks it was your hands that held so much love, washing his body that the sex was slow and had a lot of feelings laced with it.
he also didnât want to fall, though. but you slipped a little after coming the first time and geto was able to catch you in time. you shared giggles and a little kiss and he thinks that maybe this life forever with you would be one of the best things to happen to him
his resolve solidifies later when heâs calling his usual tiler to retile the showering part of the bathroom and when he ends the call he just goes would i do this for anyone else?
yeah probably not â and so geto buys a ring the very next day
n*sfw hcâs below
very comfortable with letting you take the lead if you want to, but usually likes to be the one running the show
like gojo he is very open to things but only if youâre okay with it. like you have to be the one to bring it up or heâs afraid heâll scare you lol
gets turned on easily, but heâs very good at hiding it. like the day you wore a revealing dress to his office. it was so difficult not to moan out when he sees you walk through the door. he wanted to stand up and kiss you SO bad but he was in a zoom meeting with potential clients lmfao
but he made sure you knew you wouldnt be teasing him and getting off so easily that day after he asks you to stay where you were and he ended up making up some lame excuse of having another meeting anyway before he leaves the call and locks the door and slams you against it and he hikes up your dress as he places a leg on his shoulder
geto eats you out right then and there
also rmb how i said he gets jealous of ppl staring at you? well suguru loves it if it were to happen in a sexual context and he gets to fuck you in front of everybody. he just cant show them you belong to him at a normal event in a dress he bought, but heâs totally fine with pounding you from behind and letting them watch as you get ruined with tears and mascara running down your face
can be really mean behind doors if heâs not sweet with you. you like to tease him!!!! Sometimes youâre punished for it!!!! geto loves both ends of the spectrum: denying you your high and overstimulating you. he only ever denies you if youre being a brat but usually he likes to make you cum on his tongue multiple times before heâs fucking you
he enjoys your face of want and need, either grinding against him to cum (denial) or pushing him away despite your body wanting it (overstim)
sometimes makes you work for your allowance and tells you to tell him whoâs fucking you so good just for some money in your pocket. your pussy is too good so he was going to give it to you anywayÂ
is not opposed to voyeurism. usually he brings his best friend over to fuck you and bc heâs a whiny bitch, geto gets off to both of you fucking like dogs in heat with a slow pace to his hand. often initiates threesomes with gojo and makes him the middle man, fucking him while gojo fucks you and he loves it every time. sometimes he makes gojo watch the two of you too
but he also loves it when you take two cocks in you, him up your pussy bc youre his, first and foremost, while satoru takes your ass.Â
regarding sex, suguru likes it when you take the reins to pleasure yourself. he gets off seeing you use him as ive mentioned in the previous drabble, and just like the denial / overstim part, loves to see your mouth contort into an âoâ along with your rolled back eyes. bounce on his dick, ride his face, slobber over his cock while you rub your clit, he fuckin loves it
not big on the daddy thing either, but it depends on his mood tbh. im not sure how that works but he likes when you use it when youre deep in subspace and just going limp as he fucks you and all can manage is moaning out small âdaddyâsâ helplessly
warnings for drabble: gojo watches, sub!gojo, voyeurism, insinuation of stsg, exhibitionism, m! masturbation, overstimulation, semi-public sex, oral (f and slight m receiving) / cunnilingus, clit stimulation, pet names, praise, cum eating, implied threesome + 2nd round
âsuguruâ no, f-fuck, theyâre gonna hear!â you muffle your moans with your mouth, hand clasped tight onto your lips while youâre pressed up against the door. youâve been like this for three orgasms already, legs shaking while you struggle to keep your knees from buckling under you. itâs like geto doesnât even care how the office door is so thin, occasional thumps occurring from how geto pushes you against the wood. the workers outside obviously know whatâs going on, but they donât dare say a word.
âlet me enjoy this, princess,â he manages to say quickly before going back to slurping up your juices, but while you think your situation is bad, youâre glancing over to gojo in getoâs office chair, hand stroking his cock languidly, but every so often you can see how satoru thrusts his hips into the air, needing anything but his own hand right now. âand keep eye contact with satoru.â
geto purrs out his best friendâs name, pulling your hips towards his relentless mouth as your arousal drips down your inner thighs and legs. across you, thereâs gojo who looks like he wants to touch the both of you so terribly, but is only subjected to tearful eyes and his warm hand that doesnât compare to suguruâs or your mouth, little pants leaving his mouth. he watches as you grind your hips into his best friendâs mouth, the obscene noises of your sopping wet cunt makes him twitch in his hand.
âbabygirl⌠suguruâŚâ he whines out, sweat dripping down his body at the stuffiness of the office while the slick noises of him stroking his length reverberates throughout the room. geto hums at his begging voice, but only sucks on your clit harder and it makes you moan out, hands getting lost in his long black hair while your eyes are threatening to roll to the back of your head. the only ground you have now is satoruâs bright blue ones, a shiver going through you when he whimpers out your name
âyouâre doing so well, s-satoru⌠shit,â youâre calling out to the white-haired male who locks eyes with you, both turned on at such a sight: the sweaty hair stuck to your face and your beautiful sounds, the flush on gojoâs cheeks and his angry tip thatâs leaking pre-cum. âsuguruu⌠oh my godââ
âyeah?â he speaks in between slobbering all over your pussy, âso fuckinâ wet for me, baby,â flicking and playing with your puffy, sensitive clit with his tongue until you hunch over him on a particular lick, the leg over his shoulder squeezing him so much that it cramps and youâre cumming suddenly and youâre forgetting about satoru and everyone outside. your head slams so hard against the door that you get a little lightheaded, but the crashing of your fourth orgasm is all you can fixate on as your body shudders and incessant whines escape your mouth.
âmy favourite meal of the day,â geto smiles from below you and grins when you mumble out how itâs more of his fourth meal of the day, taking a hand from his hair before he places a kiss on the back of it and spares a glance towards gojo whoâs close to crying.
with a nod from suguru, youâre walking on shaky legs before kneeling before satoru, wrapping your lips âround his tip and thatâs all it takes for him to cum, shooting ropes upon ropes of hot semen down your throat as you stroke his base. the other is bucking his hips into your mouth at the sensitivity, moaning out both your name and suguruâs.
âattagirl.â you slyly smile at the praise that befalls on your ears before showing both of them the cum thatâs left on your tongue, already excited for the next round.
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aouuugh my uterus......
#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain#and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it#like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works#so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time#i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone#just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all#but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want#but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability#which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need#but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a#break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man#sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that đŤ #ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things#and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable#factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most#and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset#man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower#and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore#maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work#all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think#.diaries#oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr đ
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Heyyy i was wondering if you could write some Gun and Goo x reader fluff together? Your writing is absolutely amazing! đ
Also, I was wondering if, in the future, you would ever consider writing for olly wang?
sharking
â gun park & goo kim x reader
details: fluff, the relationship between you and them is all up to you!
A/N: billiards is so cool, I applaud ppl who can play itđ ..me personally i suck ass at billiards and yes! i'll consider writing for olly wang :DD
Gun and Goo were already mid-argument when you joined them at the pool table, both of them dramatically chalking up their cues. You couldnât help but laugh as Goo pointed his cue at Gun with a grin that was equal parts competitive and smug.
âJust because you look serious doesnât mean youâre actually good,â Goo taunted, lining up his shot.
Gun raised an eyebrow, giving him that trademark glare. âAnd you think youâll hit anything?â His voice was cold but had that familiar dry humor youâd come to expect from him.
Goo gasped in mock offense. Spotting you, he turned to you, âBet youâd want to be on my team, huh?â a grin on his face.
âMaybe Iâll just stay neutral and watch you two bicker like an old married couple.â You chuckled, eyeing the table.
Gun actually cracked a small, amused smirk. âSee? Even they donât trust you.â
With a wink, Goo pouted, feigning hurt. âFine, watch and be amazed!â He dramatically aimed his cue, only to completely miss the shot. You burst into laughter as he froze, trying to save face. âThat wasâŚintentional. Strategy, see?â
Gun rolled his eyes, then effortlessly sank a ball in the corner pocket with his usual precision. He didnât gloat, but the smug glance he shot Goo said it all. âThatâs how itâs done,â he remarked dryly.
You clapped, teasing, âLooks like youâre on your own, Goo.â
Goo shook his head with an exaggerated sigh, waving his cue. âOne day, youâll see my true talent,â he grumbled.Â
As the game went on, you watched the back-and-forth intensify. Goo kept trying to redeem himself, taking increasingly wild shotsâsome going in and some not, while Gun played with infuriating precision, each shot calculated and clean. You could feel Gooâs frustration building every time Gun effortlessly sank another ball.
Goo nudged you, whispering, âYouâre my lucky charm, right? Just⌠distract him or something.â His eyes sparkled with mischief, and you rolled your eyes.
âDistract Gun? Are you kidding? Heâs like a robot,â you whispered back, shooting a glance at Gun, who caught your look and raised an eyebrow, clearly sensing something.
âI can hear you, you know,â Gun said dryly, leaning down to line up his next shot. He didnât even need to look up to know Goo was scheming.
âOh, come on, donât be so uptight,â Goo groaned, crossing his arms. âLet me have just one lucky shot. Iâm doing this for us!â He winked at you, clearly pushing you to be his path to winning.
âYouâd need more than luck to beat me, Goo,â Gun shot back, actually cracking a small smirk, which was almost as rare as a total eclipse.
Feeling playful, you moved closer to Gun just as he was lining up a shot. âWhat if I do distract you, though?â you teased softly.
Gun paused, eyes narrowing when he momentarily glanced at you. âYou think you could?â his voice steady, but the corner of his mouth hinting at a smile.
You leaned back, grinning, and just as Gun missed his shot, Goo seized the opportunity, taking a shamelessly quick shot. The ball actually went in, and Goo threw his hands up in exaggerated victory. âSee! Thatâs skill!â he declared, beaming at you as if heâd just won a championship.
Gun straightened, giving him a blank stare. âLucky,â he muttered, but there was an undeniable trace of amusement in his eyes.
You found yourself caught in the middle of their banter, realizing just how much you loved these moments with the two of them, where even Gunâs serious edges softened.
#goo kim x reader#gun x reader#lookism#lookism imagines#lookism x reader#lookism manhwa#lookism webtoon#gun park#park jonggun#lookism jonggun#lookism gun#lookism goo#goo kim#lookism junggoo#lookism kim jungoo#kim jungoo#kim junggoo#gun park x reader#fanfic#fanfiction#fluff#goo x reader
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Sequel to the thanos x namgyusgf!reader? đđ
hmmmm alot of ppl asked for pt. 2 of that one fic so heree, love u all anons!!
pt. 1 here <3
thanos (choi su-bong) x namgyusgf!reader pt. 2 warnings: 18+, cheating
already â nsfw below!!-> (â  â ââ âżâ ââ  â )â âĄ
ă¤â ・â â ..after what felt like the most awakening time of your life, realizing how much you'd miss dick. you're thankful for your amazing friend, su-bong, there to make you feel full again. "you're so pathetic." su-bong blurted out, after hours of only sitting in his lap, escaping reality, that's what he chose to break the silence. "fuck off.." he chuckles, "mmm, of course i wouldn't call you that. your boyfriend did." you'd freeze for a moment, excuse me? he'd play the video he sent to nam-gyu a few hours ago, hearing your muffled moans against his cock, how you were gagging against him, it was only now you'd hear in the video:
"nam-gyu, this bitch is actually so fine, why are you ..fuck.. neglecting her, huhh?" why is it only now that you're hearing this? "i toldcha' bros before hoes, but never hoes who give good head." you could even see him pull on your hair harder as you cry from choking against his cock.
within your view was nam-gyu's reply,,
"that bitch is so fucking pathetic."
you were literally about to cry, they're both fucking jerks, "you sent that shit to him??" you've been caught, not even caught to be honest, he fucking outed you!! what are you gonna do now? you swear you were an angel ! "don't worry, i was just bragging about you, trust me, i'm sure he's learnt his lesson." you'd get off his lap immediately, slapping him across the face, and he immediately wraps his hand around your neck. "whatcha tryna do? learn your place, slut. you're the one who wanted it." "that's fuck- i -" you can't even defend or explain yourself. "you did that shit sober too." his stupid giggles were filling the private room, but you can't help but tear up, :(, he would sigh, patting your messy hair, "shhh, atleast it's with me, angel."
su-bong wipes your tears, "you're too fine to cry 'bout this.." leaning in to kiss you sweetly on the lips. "he deserves it remember? shiit if i was him i'd treat you so much better." you know that's not true. but the words were still nice to hear. he'd lean in to whisper in your ear, "if i was him i'd fuck you so much better. you already got the free trial, babe. c'mon tell me, am i better?" you'd calm down, quickly forgetting what he had done, "b.. better." he smiles, that was a good voice message to send to his bestfriend, your confirmation, your whiny voice. "you deserve the best, my bro can't handle 'allat." he kisses you again, "i love you, so much." was that true? it's not, obviously. "you deserve me." you slowly nodded, you were so dumb, but he was dumb aswell, so maybe two minds do think alike, the two of you deserve eachother !
bonus for the nam-gyu lovers..<3: you'd wake up alone, and mascara would already mess up your pretty face again, you'd shamefully walk back to your shared apartment with nam-gyu (though he wasn't home most of the time), but to your surprise, he'd be there, obviously.. he still lives there, fuck. he'd walk over to you, you could tell he was angry, at the peak of your relationship, he'd give that same look whenever you talk to other guys, you'd already press your hands together, "i'm. i'm sorry, i swear, i'm sorry, nam-gyu.." he tilts his head. "if you're gonna beg, fucking kneel." "i'm reallly sorry, nam-gyu..!" you didn't want to, it was so embarassing. "you're being shy now? you were having the time of your life sucking another guys dick, suddenly now you've got some shame?" obviously what other choice do you have? you'd already swallowed all your pride and ego by apologizing, and he'd happily do what su-bong did to you just a few hours ago, everytime su-bong would send a video he's pissed, so it's his turn now! "you can't fuck this bitch better than i do. got that, bro?" and the video contains you moaning out how nam-gyu's the only one who could make you feel that way! their text conversation is now filled with only your videos. đŤśđť
i chose choi seunghyun pic bcuz um, there arent enough pre-squidgames scenes of thanos. like . they needa show them outside dem games cuz damn. i couldnt put a pic of jaewon bcuz like all of his pics are so wholesome and cute omfg đ . also, thanos is on namgyus team so sorry ure on ur own kid . hehe OH if u guys noticed im changing my layout now damnđđ
#squid game#squid game 2#player 124#nam-gyu#squid game x reader#squid game smut#squid game season 2#thanos#thanos smut#thanos x reader#choi su bong#choi su bong x reader#player 230
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Agatha All Along deep dive: episode 4 part 1
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It's episode 4 If I Can't Reach You / Let My Song Teach You, time for two of my favorite things: glam rock and homosexuals. which are basically the same thing if you think about it.
she's like damn, billy, that was ruthless. honestly this is going to make her care about billy even more, not only he's powerful, not only he reminds her of nicky. now he's a murderer too?? perfect son is perfect. I love how she's studying sharon's body with her detective Agnes face, her mind is going a million miles a minute
her third-wall-break winks destroy me. and that poor hairdo. all gone expect for the giant turd on top.
alice being truly and genuinely sorry about sharon. lilia and jen being gossiping hags
agatha honey you're so dainty and feminine, look at you. and that's an interesting and not at all painful tree shape you picked. (I would have never noticed any of this without brightening the scene, it's outrageous. everyone involved in this show is amazing except the lighting department. shame on you lighting department)
whatever alice does openly and sincerely, agatha does secretly or as a joke. parallels, parallels
jen is like, can you believe this bitch
without being asked, alice goes to help digging the grave
that is the idiot I fell in love with and I'm way past regretting my choices at this point!! I know how rio feels now
"coven two" is one of those lines that make you laugh on first view and shreds your heart in a million tiny pieces at every following rewatch. this show HAS to be watched at least twice, don't ever trust reviews or complaints by ppl who didn't, because they missed at least half of what makes it great.
a clown running from the tragic truth that her son wrote the Ballad, making sad clown noises all over the Road
when alice is called to referee as the Resident Ballad Expert and agatha looks at her expectantly hands in pockets, somehow extremely obnoxious, extremely gay and extremely sad at the same time
alice is SO above bickering. jen is being a baby because she's mad at agatha, lilia is being a baby cause she's grumpy and a contrarian, billy is sixteen, agatha is, well, agatha. alice is the only adult in the building
just one, huh? that's fine. that's fine. who needs a heart anyway.
the common gypsophila or baby's breath symbolizes sincerity, purity, innocence. does it symbolizes sharon? or is billy leaving it on her grave a metaphor for his naivety and good intentions gone wrong?
billy's romantic ideals of what it means to be in a coven have just been shattered. he set out, consciously or not, to teach something to these witches and of course it didn't work. he is the one who needs guidance, he is the one who's making a mess of things. he's just a kid.
agatha going !! when billy says he wishes he could go home. agatha covertly pointing out that he has a replacement body and she would really like to know how. she's observing him so closely, trying to puzzle out the mystery. exactly like she did with wanda inside the Hex. not revealing her cards just yet, testing and manipulating him. when that strategy blew up in her face so spectacularly the first time! she's so smart and so reckless it makes her practically an idiot
case in point: she's making up stupid rules trying to manipulate billy into shaping the Road the way she wants. that's right, agatha. let's summon another poor victim you can siphon, wonder who's gonna show up! (and she KNEW sharon was laying dead ten feet away and SOMEONE was bound to be in the neighborhood. dumbass.)
aww he's so proud of himself for having brought the spellbook. he's being helpful! he's made his four moms happy!
check, debatable, check
debatable and debatable
I'm gonna give that one a BIG check
yes I know advil spells "vidal", thank you tumblr for letting me know that one. also same, alice.
'esse viridis non es facile' IT'S NOT EASY BEING GREEN?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! oh I knew my high school latin was bound to come in handy at least once in my life
(by the way the set + costumes combo is giving me such hocus pocus vibes, but you could never tell because the SCENE IS SO FUCKING DARK) (NO I WON'T SHUT UP ABOUT IT)
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH
I mean girls, you chose to follow the head clown, you have to travel in the clown car. that's on you.
WHY IS THE PRINT SO SMALL???? I LOVE YOU PATTI LUPONE
admit it we all wished it was sharon for a moment
oh?? is that mayhaps someone you know, agatha???
and that's a wrap, see you guys tomorrow!
no, I'm kidding, I'm kidding. I'm doing another one tonight. I need to shove all the rio scenes in my eyeballs NOW
go to episode 4 part 2
#agatha all along#agatha deep dive#agatha harkness#alice wu gulliver#billy maximoff#lilia calderu#jennifer kale#character study
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for real tho, the thing that i feel like ppl arent realizing/talking abt, at least the thing for me, is that it was never about the website. like, do i like tumblr? sure, it mostly does what i want in a familiar, vaguely-easy-to-use way. but thats only bc ive been here 13 years and have the internet version of toxoplasmosis keeping me docile and trusting of capitalist corporations. tumblr could Site Of Theseus itself into a completely different beast and id still be coming back day after day.
its not the site that keeps me coming back, its the people. and i dont just mean my friends, or my Beloved Mutualsâ˘, or my favourite blogs i follow. i mean the whole community. every person who posts in a tag i follow, or makes a poll i vote in, or shares their beautiful artwork. every random user who makes a post that ends up going viral. everyone who makes and reblogs Destiel News Alerts. everyone who logs on and agrees to Commit To The Bit until the bitter end. thats why i love this hellsite so much.
thats also why, when ppl ask "where are you going next?", i really dont have an answer for them. i want to say "wherever my friends go", but theres no telling where thatll be. i might be able to find some, or most of, or maybe even all of my mutuals/friends on some other site, but theres no guarantee that im going to find this community. that's what im going to miss when this site dies. not the UI, or the branding, or the crabs. not tumblr.com. im going to miss us.
#this has been an original post#personal spewage#tumblr#tumblr culture#like. theres a reason i have that tag#i just adore the culture here#i adore this weird little home weve made for ourselves#not because of the walls or the furniture#bc its *ours*
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