#i might be mersault

[cxndiedvi0lets]

Maybe I never fell I love with you.

Maybe it was just the weather, and my heart kept me warm thinking about you

[mirokuna-hime]

I'm convinced one of the main reasons that Mersault happened is to get Chuuya out of Yokohama so this SSKK plot can happen, whatever it's going to be.

[cheusburger]

W corp charm designs / wips !! (finishing rn)

These are for myself however if enough people are interested i can try to sell... lemme know ! :o

[neo-shitty]

“this gifted intruder…manipulates gravity!” 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦

[outism-had-a-purpose]

I have nothing substancial that I've done today except design some sinner dragons on Flight Rising. Do you guys want to see them or naw

[bleuflowerfields]

damn it's a .5 chapter this month? it's so over 😭😭😭

[alliseaisfandom]

(I wrote this for one of my best friends and she approved so here yall go)

Mersault.

Mersault is a failure. Dazai's speech falls flat. Whatever he hoped would awaken in Chuuya stays dormant.

The man can't help to watch as all his hopes thrash away into silence, sinking with the redhead. A very human death, he tries not to notice.

As shock sets in, neatly covered in empty remarks about success, he quickly evades the half of the Decay of the Angel that became his travel companions. Of everything he did that day, it's laughable that jailbreak was the easy part.

Dazai finds the apartment easily. He'd never been to it in all these years, but he had memorised the address the first time he'd managed to find it.

The lock is an easy pick, Dazai's almost offended. The house is stark, minimal, barely lived in. Dazai can't help to feel relief at that.

When the keys jingle on the other side of the door a few hours later, Dazai stays motionless as he's been since he arrived, slumped over the kitchen table, his rumpled uniform a disturbing contrast against the warm toned furniture.

The lights come on, and the man finally notices him.

Ango halts all his movements. No real emotion, simply…. Waiting.

Dazai considers putting his show back on. It makes his stomach turn. So he allows his voice to come out whichever way it wants to.

“What do you do?”

Turns out what his voice wants is barely more than a whisper. It's a knot in his throat and foggy eyes.

Ango blinks.

“When you're out of schemes. When there's no more back up plans. When everything went wrong and you can't fix it. When they're gone and you're to blame. What do you do. “

Ango finally moves. He leaves the room and Dazai, for once, has no idea what's about to happen, but the hours in the dark put the world in focus, and Dazai finds he doesn't care to guess, to think, he just doesn't care.

When Ango returns he isn't carrying a gun. Or any way to chase Dazai away from his home. He brings a bottle of whisky and two glasses.

He pours the drinks and takes the seat across from Dazai.

Dazai picks up his glass, barely raises it, but the intention is there. Kind of.

“To the stray dogs?”

Ango has never been the most expressive person. But all Dazai can read in his face now is compassion, as if its pouring out of his every pore. Not pity. But full and absolute understanding.

“And to double black.”

Dazai's surprise makes him smile carefully. That's what you do.

[chuuyaa-nakaharaa]

It wasn't that bad. You were just slurring a lot of words.

What do you mean? What're you planning?

*rolling on the floor, groaning.*

— @dazaii-osamuu

Not again.. Get up you idiot!

[popopretty]

BSD Chapter 105.5

"In the Narrow Room - the Later Part"

I love this chapter so much I have no words T_T Dazai is so precious I would trade the world for him!!

Please note that I typed it out very quickly while being hyped with neither English nor Japanese as my native language, so I might make mistakes here and there. Please forgive me I can't think really straight right now ;v;

SPOILERS AHEAD

Sigma tells Dazai that he cannot believe that Dazai is a normal person because he just single-handedly took down Fyodor, and asks Dazai why he chose him in the beginning instead of all the other usable tools (;v;). Dazai tells him there are 2 reasons, first is Sigma can act as Kunikida's replacement, because it would be very boring if there is no one there to be in awe and admire what Dazai did there. Sigma gets mad at Dazai and assumes that Dazai thinks he is not worthy enough to share the truth. Dazai corrects him saying that is not true, and that Dazai doesn't share anything with him because it's hard for him to understand, especially after he has been used by Tenningosui and others this whole time.

Dazai then decides to share one thing with Sigma and asks him if his ability to switch information works on dead people. Sigma confirms he can, as long as they have not been dead for a very long time. Dazai explains that he wants Sigma to use that ability on Fyodor (who is assumed dead at that point) to read his plan after that and save the ADA at the airport. Sigma is surprised Dazai did everything that he did only to save the ADA, and the words from people who used him in the past starts echoing in his head.

Dazai and Sigma get on an elevator to get to the room where Fyodor is supposed to be drown. While they are waiting, Sigma asks Dazai what is the second reason for Dazai to choose him, to which Dazai nonchalantly answers that if he didnt choose Sigma, Sigma would be silenced by Fyodor or Gogol later. Sigma is shocked, trying to confirm Dazai's intention to save him but Dazai doesn't say no more. Sigma starts to wonder what kind of place is the ADA. He thought Dazai was the same as those guys who used him, but he feels something different now. He thinks about how he wants a home, where he is not used by anyone, and he realizes that, the ADA is not using Dazai, and Dazai is not using the ADA either.

Dazai notices something is strange because the elevator is taking too long. Suddenly the evelator stop and they hear the voice of the time freezing skill user on the radio, begging for her life. Fyodor is seen alive with Chuuya, shooting her dead. Fyodor then tells Dazai over the radio that he is surprised, not by the flooding, but by the fact that Dazai and his 7-year partner's bond was so shallow that Dazai think Chuuya's ability cannot deal with that flood. He reveals that he has had Chuuya break and distort the track/rail of each partition wall when they entered. That way, it will prevent the doors to close properly, letting the water leak outside and allowing them to easily escape. He then says that if one cannot even think of that, they do not have enough qualification to use the gravity manipulation.

Sigma does not get why Fyodor could do that, Dazai then explains to him that Fyodor must have put one of his vampire among the guards, and when he couldn't contact with that vampire anymore, he was able to guess that the control room has been taken. It also means that Fyodor has already been in control of Mersault way before Dazai took his action.

Fyodor admits he was caught by surprirse with the attack though, and even though it is seemingly a suitable trial for a servant of God like him, he is weak and cannot stand it if he catches a cold, so he wants to return the favor by making Dazai and Sigma go through the same trial. After he says so, the elevator starts to be filled with water. The two of them try to get out as the door being locked and Fyodor praying for them to be held in the hands of God.

The chapter ends here. Next issue will be released on March 3 (Japan time). Thanks for reading till the end <3

[ahli-stuff]

so im a sucker for tropes that humanize larger than life characters . Sue me!!

I know that the final showdown is about 99% almost completely canonically going to be between Atsushi and Akutagawa vs Fyodor but imagine . If u will:

Dazai and Fyodor having a Fucking Fist Fight

In this scenario:

Amenogozen is dead or occupied

Dazai is more injured and exhausted than Fyodor is.

Its destruction all around, smoke in the air, craters of stone in the ground—two men standing amongst a ruined battlefield. Dazai and Fyodor, face to face amongst the blood, sweat, and ruin that Fyodor had said he would always be above in mersault.

There’s a gun in between them, nestled in the dirt. There are no more pawns on the table, only two kings staring each other down on a wasteland checkboard. Dazai’s leg is broken. Fyodor is breathing hard.

Dazai lunges for the gun at the same time Fyodor does—in a mad scramble, he kicks out Dazai’s bad leg—Dazai screams in agony as Fyodor pins him down. The gun is kicked several feet out of reach.

But Fyodor is physically weak. The only reason why Dazai hasn’t already knocked him out cold is because of his broken leg.

Dazai elbows Fyodor in the chest so hard he breaks a rib. Fyodor chokes, his chest knocked free of air and ringing with pain as he tries to see Dazai through his rapidly blurring eyes.

He was flipped over in the scuffle, but Fyodor reaches down and grabs Dazai’s leg and digs his fingers to where he thinks the bones separate and presses. Dazai is so blinded by pain, he briefly lets go as Fyodor punches him in the face.

Dazai’s nose is bleeding, but Fyodor doesn’t have time to appreciate it as he pushes Dazai off—flips them over again—he is straddling Dazai with his weight on the former’s broken leg. His hands seize Dazai’s neck and grips with all his might.

Dazai’s hands claw at his face animalistically, scrabbling for purchase on Fyodor’s hair, eyes, anything. His eyes meet Fyodor’s—both of their swirling pairs of darkness are finally awake, alive, burning—and oh, this is what Dazai had meant, hadn’t he? In the silence of Dazai’s strangled wheezes and his nails dragging up dust, Fyodor realizes: this is what it means to be alive.

Dazai spits into Fyodor’s face. He lets go reflexively, yelping with disgust as blood-spit blinds him, while Dazai is gasping as he crawls for the gun; he’s halfway there before Fyodor blindly grabs one of Dazai’s legs. But it’s not the broken one—Dazai pivots his ankle and stomps with all of his might as Fyodor screams because several of his fingers as broken.

Dazai’s hand finds the gun.

[lotus-pear]

kunizai nation is SILENT because they’re all suffering from the intense emotional wounds from this last chapter THEY CANT THINK ABOUT DAZAI USING A GUN OWNED BY KUNIKIDA TO END IT ALL AFTER HE FINDS OUT, BC THEYRE ALL TRAUMATIZED FROM KUNIKIDA BEING SLURPED UP BY THE GOD SWORD but honestly imagine a one shot where dazai finds out kunikida is dead after finally getting out of mersault, then using one of the ada’s guns (that had might as well be kunikida’s bc no one else uses them) to end it all while he’s holding kunikida’s ideals notebook, the only thing left of his beloved’s existence

i don’t think he’d ever kill himself over someone’s death (even if it IS kunikida who resembled oda so fervently in his mind, probably devastating him because he’s failed to save someone from their self sacrificial heart twice now) but what would be delicious to see is him finally carrying his own weapon, his own gun.

dazai always uses someone else’s weapon, makes someone else deliver the killing blow, never getting his own hands dirty—it makes me think of that time kunikida says that dazai never says directly what hes feeling, but rather makes others say it for him.

but kunikida’s death, his sacrifice, perhaps that will finally be what pushes dazai to realize that action is necessary to prevent tragedy. perhaps he will finally take a headstrong approach instead of scheming quietly in the shadows.

[curtwilde]

Henry vs Julian

I have been thinking about this a lot. While Henry clearly admires and models his scholar self on Julian, their essential difference is in how they perceive the Ancient Greeks.

Julian's interest in the Ancient Greeks is true interest, he admires their high and exalted values. For him, the Greeks were the highest point of human civilization, and the closer he comes to his own time the more his disdain increases - the Roman Catholic Church he holds in contempt but it's still a 'worthy enemy' not as bad as the Presbyterian Church. It isn't mentioned but he must hold modernism and it's philosophy with disdain - modernist moral vacousness being a direct contradiction of the idealist values loyalty, honor, chastity etc. that were so exalted by the Greeks. Which is why he is always cherry picks, sees only what he wants to see, and invents what he can't - both for himself (his ambiguous involvement with the Isrami government) or for his students (encouraging Richard to lie about his life in California). Since he can't time travel back to Greece himself, he must try to live that life as much as he can and believe himself a character in a Greek play. But it comes, not from a place of wanting to escape his current reality, but true admiration of the ancient Greek way of seeing and doing things.

Henry is a true modernist. The monologue about feeling dead is central to his understanding his character:

Maybe it stems from his near death experience but he sees the world as inherently meaningless, God is dead and heaven and hell have been revealed to be man-made constructs, there is no punishment for evil and since there is no moral line. I think he subconsciously realised all of this before coming to Hampden, but to truly accept it would have been soul-crushing. So he tries to escape it by immersing himself in the Greeks, I imagine the absolutist values, vague representational ideas pertaining to each god might have interested him but really, it could have been anything else, the Medieval Age or the Victorians, anything. He just needed something to be obsessed with, to give meaning to his existence which he subconsciously knew to be meaningless. So is his adoration of Julian, he admired and wanted Julian's ability to almost half-live in another time when, in his view, things mattered more (we have divinity in our midst). It also explains the Bacchanal which is otherwise so out of character for him. The appeal was to escape the soul crushing knowledge of meaninglessness - even if for a while. To worship and call on Dinosiyus with the blind belief of the Ancient Greeks, a kind of belief that simply cannot exist anymore in the postmodern, post-Neitzche world. His harebrained plans also came from the same impulse, including the poison plan, and the one way ticket to Argentina.

I suspect that what subconsciously drove him to murder bunny, aside from the obvious fear of getting caught - is the same thing that drove Mersault to murder the Arab - it's the old existentialist question, if good and bad are relative and there is no punishment for evil, how far can one go? Bunny's murder was Henry's existentialist experiment with himself. And, I think in a way it confirmed for him what he already knew, they escaped unscathed and he didn't feel any of the fear or remorse he expected to feel. While it did give him the momentary sense of power, the feeling that he could now do whatever he wanted if he can be clever enough to not get caught, since he won't be punished for it otherwise. While it gave him enough courage to go get the girl he always wanted - it did confirm for him the inherent meaninglessness of the world. Also, conversely, Camilla could have been another experiment - something must matter, was it love? Camilla was the only girl he knew and he was fond of her - he may not even have thought of her romantically before considering he never cared to act on it in all the time he had known her. But either way, Julian's abandonment broke him.

Coming back to Julian, Julian's abandonment omakes perfect sense to me - he was disgusted by the modernist moral vacousness in his students. He himself was a moral man, but his morals operated on his own standards. He based it on the Greek sense of Honour, not the more modern sense of Justice. His basic instinct was the preservation of his own purity - he couldn't possibly keep on as their teacher. But also, to turn them in would be against his sense of honour - he must have very little respect for the police and law enforcement as institutions being the kind of person he is. Not to mention it would mean his having to be in frequent contact with the police and court. From his point of view atleast, leaving is the only thing he could have done, really.

For Henry however, he sees that his obsession with the Greeks as well as his admiration for Julian as the sham that it really was, is disillusioned with the world, shattered. Except for his fondness for Camilla he didn't really have anyone he loved, he saw his friends as pawns, wasn't close to his family, didn't have any goals in life with everything in his reach with his father's money - the only person he had really loved was Julian, and there he was betrayed. His obsession with the ancient Greeks was also thus tainted with Julian's betrayal - since it wasn't true interest at all, only a disguised attempt at escapism - it wavered and fell apart, and he didn't have a reason to live anymore.

.

Side note : Richard falls between the two. Like Julian, he had a real interest in the ancient Greeks, but he didn't put them on a pedestal like Julian did. He realised that like his own time, and like all other times in history the Greek civilization too had its own good and bad aspects, and he wanted to learn about it for its own sake. But he doesn't make it his life, or use it to escape his own reality - outside of his classes he was very much rooted in his own time.

[ideasnstuff]

Theory (?)

Well here I am as promised.

He is going back to Mersault.

And why?

Because of time.

He was buying time in a way.

Let's see why.

(Among other small observations and hypotheses)

When this happened, Fyodor was in Mersault and it was obviously night according to the difference between the time.

Just like I mentioned before.

So let's see.

Fyodor wants to arrive by the time the sun sets in.

When he arrived to take Bram's body, it was already night, so he was not able to do what he wanted.

But he will be able to if he went to Mersault again.

"It's a long trip!"

That's okay, he has a lot of time to waste until then.

The trip to France takes around 9-10 hours, that's not even a day. If it's night in Japan, it's almost morning in Mersault.

Fyodor has to arrive on the next day to see the sunset and the Earth's shadow.

So, Fukuzawa joining this helped Fyodor a lot.

He has a lot of time to waste after all.

So, this means that he was expecting to buy time with this singularity and maybe take Atsushi with him.

Dazai and Chuuya will have yet to face another challenge.

Now...

I have reasons to believe that Chuuya is weakened, because of the poison he might have been injected through a blood test.

Like it happened in Stormbringer.

Since he was a vampire and all, and as much as strong he is he couldn't enter Mersault without help.

Mersault was compromised, the way they let that game happen was strange.

Chuuya entered the prison, because someone let him in.

And that means that they knew Chuuya was going to come.

However, not everyone knew that as Chuuya, when he entered the prison, started beating people up.

So it's reasonable to think that the outside guards were aware of this intruder (Chuuya) and the inside guards were not; it works perfectly.

The latter were eliminated by Chuuya right away.

So, from the beginning, it was never about Chuuya being a vampire or not.

Fyodor was always going to win.

The poison weakened Chuuya, so if Dazai and Chuuya happened to be attacked by some people, it would leave them trapped.

There was no escape.

Fyodor had this planned out from the begining.

I dare to say that his main goal was Fukuzawa's One Order.

So then, he could force it to be used to control the Mersault prisoners, and considering Chuuya's state and Dazai's desperation-

I think they are trapped.

And this would buy Fyodor a lot of time.

On the other hand, Fukuzawa could use his power to weaken Fyodor's ability and, therefore, the singularity's.

Maybe strength Atsushi's power.

As for Akutagawa's death... he is dead because Fyodor says so.

It seems to lie on Fyodor's judgment whether the person will live or die.

He is above the third dimension, he is like a writer that can erase its characters.

So, for now, I'll assume that Akutagawa and everybody else is dead.

Fyodor wants to create a world conflict.

And considering how he brought Chuuya, he could very well use him as a source for this conflict.

Arahabaki, the vessel of Arahabaki is a mass destruction weapon.

This is more about Stormbringer and some things N said, so I won't talk about this this time.

So, for now, let's just assume that Fyodor's plan is to use Chuuya as the source of conflict.

Until next time!

[ilistentogirlinred]

i have a feeling that dazai and chuuya will die together at some point. like if either of them is gonna die they're gonna go down together yk?

like that's what i thought would've happened in mersault. dazai is dead then chuuya goes corruption and everything is over. obviously that didn't happen but i feel like skk romeo and juliet bullshit is something that might happen.

maybe with the clocktower arc cause maybe shakespeare will be there and he'll be like "wow i wrote about you" or his ability would have something to do with killing fated pairs or smth idk

yeah so tragic soukoku soulmatism

[dazaiosamusbandages]

Asagiri once said that Dazai is like donut, that no one knows what's in the middle of him. Or to put it another way, nobody knows what truly lays at his core. What do you think about this?

donutzai…. donutzai… that’s something to draw later

but answering your question—i think it’s a stretch to say that nobody knows the “true” dazai. atsushi is our main protagonist, thus we mostly see the story through his point of view. so, we see the version of dazai that he does. an unreliable narrator, per se. i’m trying to think of an example to show what i’m getting at, but it’s kind of hard www

i guess the best example would be cloud in the original ff7, where we view the story through his perspective. we see the version of cloud that he wants to be, some edgy, cool, powerful SOLDIER. there are some cracks showing, sure, but we only really see the actual cloud when tifa delves into his memories in the lifestream.

the same thing could be said about dazai, that we’re only seeing him through the lense that were given and told to trust. however, this only works if we have atsushi as our only focal point. but we do see things through dazai’s perspective as well. think age 15, dark era, or mersault. while he doesn’t really seem like a different person, we do get glimpses of what atsushi doesn’t see (imo, atsushi sort of idolizes dazai because of how they met).

i would also say that fyodor knows what dazai is actually like, except he’s still surprised and intrigued by some of the things that dazai does, so i don’t think that would be an accurate statement.

chuuya would probably be closest to understanding dazai the best, because of his closeness to dazai and their partnership in the pm. they also still get along, as seen during the guild arc and even now in mersault. however, we don’t get really a chuuya pov anywhere (that i’m aware of, anyway? i also haven’t read stormbringer BUT IVE BEEN INTENDING TO I PROMISE ITS JSUT THAT P3 THE ANSWE CAME OUT RIGHT WHEN I WAS ABT TO READ IT). this lack of a pov from chuuya could be deliberate on asagiri’s part, as chuuya could potentially have the most accurate perception of dazai’s true nature.

also, if we want to loop back to the donut analogy, DONUT HOLES EXIST. they’re just completely separate from the donut. might have to go out of your way to get them, but they’re somewhere. i’d say the same thing goes for dazai, that if you don’t put the energy into learning about him as an actual person, then you’re never going to understand him. i think to really see dazai’s core, you’d need to put together all of these different views of him from different characters to see the overlaps in how he acts, and pick out what if a facade and his true beliefs.

also i have no clue how much sense any of this makes but ykyk i love talking so i love you for sending in this ask <3