#i love you d20. and im gone now.

[bougainvilea]

HELLO SHES HOT IS SHE SINGLE 💍 pls i love hearing abt dnd blorbos my dms and ask box are ALWAYS open i’ll even give u my discord if you have discord cause i love hearing abt dnd adventures!!!

god i have so so many characters but my main that i’ve played the longest:

aislinn is a non-binary fae bard/paladin, in a long-running multiverse campaign set in a distant galaxy that’s like star wars meets dnd meets percy jackson meets stranger things. they were the crown princess of their home planet and ran away when their betrothed was sent to a war-torn planet, became a bard on a pirate ship, then a bounty hunter, and then a general in the rebel army. now they’re the high general of the rebel army and the leader of the most expansive crime syndicate in the entire galaxy and they’re about to get married to the love of their life but we already know chaos is gonna hit at the wedding SO.

they’ve gone through a lot. they’re the eldest of 18 children and had a polyamorous triad for parents and (as far as we know) at the orders of one of their fathers, their ex-girlfriend tort*red and m*rdered the rest of their family except that one father and their middle brother. aislinn killed that father themselves and will also be trying to kill that brother for being an evil twat.

they also have insane stats tho like i rolled ridiculously well and they have a dex boost from some training they did:

art by my darling friend who doesn’t rly have socials, plus art by kallisdice on instagram of aislinn with their partner before they grew their hair out 💜 also yes that is a cybernetic arm powered by magic, they lost their arm fighting darth vader (told u, multiverse)

BROOOOOO THAT'S SO COOL

your stats are......... holy shit i thought ALAIRA was OP..... (i use paper and pen but here r her stats)

first of all very cool alternate setting. and MAZAL TOV ON THE WEDDING!!!! wishing u all a very beautiful ceremony w no hijinks hahaha! they sound rlly cool and omg their journey from princess to bard to bounty hunter to general of rebel army is a little bit slay !!!! also their family >:(((( my alaira has a single mum and she loves her smmm i was lying to her abt still being a wizard for ages and they recently had a heart to heart and alaira actually (almost) admitted she lied...... kinda crazy kinda heartfelt....... anyway i will happily rant abt her! i don't rlly use discord but we can chat here <333 do u watch d20 or critrole? im a big critter and less of a d20 enjoyer but still enjoying it!!!! and does aislinn have any cool magic items? i am obv dexxy but am looking into cool swords that i might want

ALSO YES SHE IS SINGLE ..... AND I THINK SHE'S BI........... (haven't decided hahaha) but we did just meet a hottie who is fighting the white dragon w them

[pechebeche]

been thinking a lot, again, about st judas and cleaning the slate. im finally at a point again where i can think abt it without having an immediate panic attack, which is nice. and much as the d20 fandom Pulled Some Shit on me - that fic was an important part of my life for so long.

much as accidentally losing everything on my blog was a nightmare, i am really enjoying the newfound fandom anonymity. part of me doesnt want to update the actual fic on ao3 to explain how it was planned to go, because it could mean those people finding me again. but i also want a record of it somewhere. i loved this story. all of the little plot twists and foreshadowing are going to be lost to time. accidentally deleting everything ive made since 2012 threw it back into perspective how important it is, to me, to archive my work.

so, in the interest of meeting in the middle, for anyone whos managed to stick around: here’s the final scene of st judas - in the spirit of this scene i posted a while back, because riz’s existential dread after dying and finding no afterlife was going to form the crux of the second- and third-act conflicts. and i’ll talk abt it, because i loved this fic, and i still think about it all the time. but im done working on it. im not touching it anymore. i have to let it go.

here’s to closure and happy endings, yall. <3

“What if when I die, it’s still like that?” Riz whispers. He’s sitting up in the darkness, his eyes doing that weird nightvision glint, eerie, catlike. His body is collapsed on itself, like he’s got no bones, or maybe like he’s all bones, just a pile stacked haphazardly imitating human form, fingers clenching in the blanket. “What if I stop existing?”

Fabian rolls over. “It won’t be.” 

“You don’t know that.” 

Fabian props himself up on one arm. When he tugs, Riz comes over easily, lets Fabian pull him over to lay down. “Then I’ll go to wherever you’re not-existing,” Fabian says, firm. He wants his voice to be all daring and adventure and I-can-do-anything-adventurer-naivety, but it’s coming out too soft to hit right. “And I’ll re-exist you.” 

Riz fuzzes out of his gloom, a little, fixing Fabian with a raised eyebrow, lips quirking – hesitant, half-making himself. “You might not be able to re-exist me,” he says, gentle and teasing and mourning at once. 

Fabian shrugs. “Then I’ll unexist myself so that we’re not-existing together.” 

Riz laughs out loud at that, burying his face in Fabian’s shoulder as he snorts, embarrassing and weird-sounding and irredeemably charming. “That’s so morbid,” he giggles, “don’t do that, oh my god, that’s so sad sounding - “ 

“Nah, I’m gonna.” 

“Don’t - Fabian, what the fuck, absolutely not.” 

“Hmm, too bad.” Fabian throws an arm around Riz. Riz yelps, flails, but settles into the grip, still half-smiling, curled up against Fabian’s chest. Fabian thinks, I would follow you anywhere you go. He thinks, You asked me to stay. I want to stay. “If I can’t bring you to me, I’m coming to you. That’s just how it is.” 

Riz isn’t smiling, but his expression is still fond, soft, slack against the pain and fear that had dominated it only a moment ago. “Thought the whole point was to live forever,” he says. “You don’t have to do that.” 

“Maybe - maybe that was the wrong point.” Fabian hesitates. He focuses his gaze on his thumb, rubbing circles into Riz’s shoulder where the hand is resting, so that he doesn’t have to meet Riz’s eyes. “Maybe the point is...is not living forever. Maybe. Maybe living forever is not the whole thing.” 

Fabian can’t look at Riz’s face, but he can still tell, peripheral, and maybe instinctive, that Riz’s face has gone impossibly soft, that Riz is proud of whatever breakthrough he’s stumbling his way through right now. Somehow, he still doesn’t see Riz’s hand as it comes up to cover his, doesn’t realize until it’s there, running smooth over his knuckles, a grip on a grip. “Maybe it’s not about living forever,” Riz repeats, watching careful. 

“Maybe...” Fabian swallows. “Maybe it’s about – about living good. Or happy. Or – I don’t know. Maybe it’s about...something else. Not living forever.” 

“You don’t have to know,” Riz whispers. “Maybe it’s about finding out what it’s about.” 

Fabian’s mouth twitches, an instinctive huff of laugh. He meets Riz’s eyes again. “Maybe it is,” he says. “Maybe not. But – whatever it is. I want to do it with you.” 

Riz pulls Fabian’s hand off his shoulder, up to his mouth, kisses each finger. Fabian’s breath catches. “Fabian,” Riz says, sincere, from the gut, “that’s kinda gay.” 

[figsbass]

for dice asks!! 1 and 2 for naddpod, 5 for your favorite d20 season, 6 for fantasy high!

helloooo calico and your beautiful asks i can see now

1. best nat 20 - the nat 20 for finding werthers originals in nana kindleaf's pockets followed immediately by bev failing a perception check to his house about to get blown up is incredible

2. best nat 1 - this is another bev answer and i know his nat 1s don't even count cause he's a halfling but everytime caldwell rolls a nat 1 on something serious and says "im gonna reroll that cause im lucky" and murph goes "arguably lucky" it makes me laugh so much

5. roll you wish had gone any other way (freestyle answer) - my favourite season is of course a crown of candy so i do love the way the story went after jet died but i think there's a really interesting turn it takes if jets first death save is a nat 20 and she pops up and either her and ruby both go in the rope trick or just she goes and she leaves ruby behind

6. best use of portent - when adaine was scrying on kalina and was able to add a +5 cause she had a picture +5 cause she knew her and then added something else on top of that i think and THEN after all that bent fate and made kalina get a 5 on her save ??? *chefs kiss* adaine aberrant character of all time

[vethbrenatto]

character asks: Lapin (and if i can ask for several, literally any of Murph's d20 characters)

lapin

First impression: oh absolutely loved that asshole. zac oyama playing someone THAT stuck up? yes PLEASE. also loved how he was ~shrouded in mystery.

Impression now: my poor rabbit son was gone too soon; genuinely though he was my favorite crown of candy character and i am very sad we didn't get more of him.

Favorite moment: where is your bulb now? AND lapin/theo interactions + lapin calling theo a buffoon? a fool? something in that vein.

Idea for a story: i mean it's the obvious, but a crown of candy's trajectory if lapin had survived. he was their major intermediary to the bulbian faith. their only healer. he had so much to give the party.

Unpopular opinion: acoc was amazing regardless, but i think with lapin staying alive it could've been even more superior? i just never clicked with cumulous... like at all? he never really went to a place of depth for me whereas lapin was SUCH a layered character imo

Favorite relationship: ooh, tough call... either lapin & theo or lapin & the twins. i think lapin and theo is the obvious answer because their banter was fabulous and the way they met- two people who didn't care for each other- with a common goal. but i also loved the little glimpses of lapin and the girls. i would've loved to explore more of that, especially considering he was their main tutor. he was there for the girls growing up just as much as theo or amethar.

Favorite headcanon: im not sure i really have lapin headcanons?? can't think of one atm

and for murph's d20 characters, i'm gonna go with kugrash because i said so

First impression: w...why is murph playing a rat? literally every other person is a human or humanoid. mr murphy sir why are you a rat. why is he in the sewer yodeling at an mta worker. what is this.

Impression now: he's an angel, he's a saint, he's god himself. one of the d20 characters that makes me the most emotionally compromised and he is a grimy little rat man

Favorite moment: any moment with wally honestly. but secondarily hairy baby is fun

Idea for a story: i am simply begging for the prequel to the unsleeping city to get real fucking asshole bruce kugrich and the full details, nitty gritty deets of his story with esther's mom

Unpopular opinion: i don't usually subscribe to the mentality to the "great sacrifice" ending, because i think it can be cliche but for kugrash i think it was the perfect ending and GOD does it make me cry

Favorite relationship: wally & kugrash <3 wally was just so kind... and kugrash really needed that huh..............

Favorite headcanon: i mean i feel like we know that kugrash has spied on david and wally over the years, that's just canon but i think he's been nabbing pictures of them somehow and scrapbooking. he's got a scrapbook club with rats in the sewer and it's him just chronicling his sons' lives.

[workingonit-currently]

Two parts to the heart.

Krish, our DM, is doing two parts today. One with the group minus Courage and one with Courage as she rides away. (80 min of aleris, silas and im time!) Let’s see how this goes. (discussion of bard and dragons before session officially starts.)

Start of session we check back in with Im and Aleris, walking to the crone.

Silas and Drusten still not exactly having a romantic walk. 

Im and Aleris time!

passing fields

They eventually get to the crone. She’s drawn a rune circle. She has WAY too much energy

Might be a sacrifice

Don’t touch Link-Noted!

Crone calls Imogen old and I LIVE for it!

Calls Aleris ‘short lady’ (I am happy.)

What is it with short people calling Aleris short

Imogen places the special book in the middle of the circle. 

SHE MIGHT BE SUMMONING SOMETHING!?

She’s grabbing random stuff to put in the circle?

SHE IS SUMMONING SOMETHING!

“It’s time to finally do an Arcana check.”

“Sorry, my hands are a bit stinky” - Thanks for that image Aleris!

Aleris knows the crone’s summoning something from the past or future.

Aleris wants to see where this goes so doesn’t say anything

Crone starts chanting mysterious words

“Hi. What the fuck.” - Imogen

They have summoned a very old man. Long grey beard, Typical wizard’s hat and a giant staff with one gem?

HE IS HARVISH HAVERSHAM?!!!

He gives Im another copy of his book. Im might rage

Haversham and Im are not getting along. Great...

“I’m going back to my own time. You-You were so much more pleasant back then. Now you’re just skin folds.” -Haversham to the crone.

He goes back and now Im has a SIGNED copy of his book of healing. 

Aleris asks the real questions while Im is grumbling. “Why did you summon him if you hate him?”

Apparently she did not mean to summon him. She wanted to summon someone else.

Im’s book has cool spells now! NICE!

The Crone is done with Imogen and Aleris now

Imogen hears giggling at the back of her head and questions what it is. (Shows she’s not use to having a warlock pact.)

The fey silences as she ALSO is not use to having a warlock.

(hmm, too many ‘new’ gods I’d say. How to fix that...)

Imogen is RUDE! (that might come back to bite her.)

ALERIS IS ON HER WAY BACK TO THE TAVERN TO TELL COURAGE ABOUT THE EVENT! (Wee woo, wee wooo! ALERT! PANIC!)

Wow...the fey queen is so much nicer than the Raven Queen.

They head back to the tavern. (panic mode!-for me)

No one is there. 

Im sits and reads her book. Oooh, fancy.

ALERIS GOES TO HER ROOM! To talk to Courage...

(I am in panic!)

Aleris sees the note

She picks it up and it’s hastily written. It says (SOMETHING! I can’t remember it fully. okay. Panic! What we know is Courage has gone.)

Silas and Drusten time?

Silas and Drusten time.

They just sit, having lunch.

Silas checks if there’s a vet and apparently is getting a gift for Courage because their birthdays are both on April 1st. (what a LOVELY birthday present. Leaving after Silas’ birthday, just as he gets you a present.)

Silas and Drusten find a clinic to check Mat out. (Mat, Silas’ snake.)

Tortle receptionist.

Silas wants to check Mat in.

“My name is Silas Haruki.” -EXCUSE ME! That’s a cute last name Silas!

Tortle tells them to take a seat. They wait for 30min -an hour

They go in. (Drusten offers his hand to walk Silas in.)

The vet inspects Mat and is concerned with his quietness

We still might consume the rich

The doctor/Vet says to give him more time outside the bag and Mat should be fine.

Silas argues that his ‘friends’ wouldn’t like that. (So now, apparently, we’re his FRIENDS!)

Vet hands them a note for a place in Mernin Isle for them to go to, secretly...

“Mat won’t die in the next two days.” -How reassuring Doc!

They might want to go visit the other Vets on the Isle

Silas goes out to search for stores to buy a birthday gift for Courage’s birthday. 

Silas has strong opinions on Gifts and Gift Shops

Silas doesn’t know what Courage would want...he’s growing more distant from her.

Silas mentions the highland cow and the plush highland cow. (Aleris has that.)

Drusten offers to pitch in for the gift but..awkward...Silas refuses and stuff...

“She could start a highland cow plushy collection.” -Yes, thank you Drusten. Spitting some facts!

Apparently Aleris ave the cow to Courage at some point?!

Drusten advises him to get her chocolates

Silas thinks it’s shoddy and rubbish so Drusten says, ‘please let me pitch in to repay you.’

Silas casually talking about killing Aleris’ fiancé.

So they go to a blacksmith to get a weapon. 

THE BLACKSMITH IS IRISH! (I love her!)

And the accent is gone. But it was there!

Shows off her wares. 

Silas looks at the sickles and greataxes. 

Silas picks a greataxe, which is tragic really. As Courage’s player...I KNOW something Silas does not..

(Panic. Panicccc.)

AND HE’S GETTING AN ENGRAVING!

‘A shoeid’ (but with an accent I can not type.)

Drusten and Silas get a fish and chips.

(also: Where is Silas storing this axe? It heavy..)

They head back to the tavern. Surprised by Im’s reading! (Silas didn’t know she could even READ!)

“Our room now?” -EXCUSE ME DRUSTEN!? Oooh, moving fast I see.

Silas just wraps the greataxe and sees where the others are. 

Silas is SOMEHOW not a rogue.

Knocks on Courage’s door and then knocks on Aleris’ door

Aleris is not answering...

Goes to Courage: The P.O.V that is

no on the temple

Courage sees this weird chain tree walking..

veers away from tree and leaves them go, walk to the town

a caravan people ask if she wants to join them, she says no, ‘she’s done with people’. They think she might kill them, she will not. they part ways.

get in the tavern and order a drink, ask around for clues to find the cult/marina reviving people

frighten a few people out of the tavern

Brown cloaked man finally tells Courage goo information.

HE’S cool!

he’s a necromancer

“Come with me-Actually sit down.”

Sits and he explains.

Raven Queen symbol sets him off, pulling Courage over the table.

Courage rolls to intimidate and it fails, he sits back.

Courage is deluded. 

“A very advanced wizard?”

Courage communes with the raven queen to get her out of the man’s head

“Roll me a d20.” -Words all players want to hear

Courage in her mind: ‘I am going to get in trouble for this. Pain is coming.’

Courage walks him out of the bar and sets him down next to his house, old alley talking

Takes any obvious weapons off him. 

“He has a bag that could be used as a bludgeoning weapon given how full of books it is.”

He heads in and Courage follows. (darn. Should have locked him away.)

He gives Courage some books to look through on the table.

They won’t help and he just explains. IS SUPER NERVOUS.

He says “The Raven Queen is looking to resummon a pretty powerful person. It’s not uncommon. ”

Pulls out a poster with maddened scribbles.

“They’re trying to remake the world.”

The Raven Queen’s been insisting this man to find Courage, caused him pain. 

Wants to destabilize everything. So gods can summon what they want.

(oh god I might be making Courage evil...)

“The raven queen isn’t the only god in the world.”

He refused to help properly so as she leaves Courage cuts his arm and dislocates it, it’s barely hanging on.

(Me and the DM talk about aura of Courage. Also, may I just say: AHHH! Intimidation, being broody, all that junk...AHH! I am not ready for it but Courage has been brainwashed over the years so...Slightly evil Courage.)

[bunnyblooms]

OKAY FUCKER ALL THE QUESTIONS FROM THAT ASK MEME THE LGBT ONE

1. Identity and pronouns.

I'm agenderfluid and they/them pronouns. My sexuality is aroflux and asexual.

2. How did you discover your sexuality?

Pretty much at 14 was like "idk i don't relate to everyone else i don't find celebrities hot or sex remotely something i want. If i could reproduce without sex i would. Oh. I'll just call myself asexual, like a sponge!" (Which asexual is incidentally what the creators of Spongebob were going for, fun facts. Spongebob is ace rights.)

3. Have you experienced being misgendered? How do you overcome it?

Mmmm I am constantly misgendered bc I'm nonbinary and live in a binary society and the way I compartmentalize it is basically just dressing how I want and not making an attempt to pass as anything tbh. The only time I feel misgendered is when someone knows my pronouns and doesn't use them anymore tbh. So basically. Letting go of how I want to be perceived helped. I will say tho, I refuse to come out to my dad bc he won't respect it and it'll be more painful hearing him misgender me knowing how I identify, but. That's certainly a privilege I have since I'm not transitioning. (ATM at least.)

4. Who was the first person you told? How did they react?

I technically didn't come out as ace. My ex-best friend knew bc I talked about it, but neither of us knew it was an identity. So the transition upon finding the label was virtually nonexistent and all of my friends were LGBTQ as well so it wasn't stressful or shocking. It helps that around the time I discovered the label I'd met two friends who were ace and felt the same way I did. My experience with my asexuality is definitely the model that should be the norm with the community and what we as a society should aim for.

As for my gender I'd made comments in the past that I wished I could just be genderless and it really kind of sat with me when my ex-best friend came out as trans bc I was like "Oh? You don't have to be the gender you are at birth?" Belial from Angel Sanctuary was a character that resonated with me at the time, and this was right around the time I made my ace friends. It wasn't until a year later that I discovered the nb community and one friend who was genderfluid that I decided to start trying different pronouns. And basically I came out as questioning and transitioned to nb without a formal declaration, which I also feel should be the goal for society.

I was at a con with my best friend at the time who was trans and he'd come out with my now ex-best friend while they were dating. And I was really anxious bc I felt like ppl would assume I was a transtrender and shit, and my friend said something about gender and I kind of awkwadly implied I might not identify as female and he was really great about it! He was like "If you wanna talk about it or try different pronouns you can." :D

5. Describe what it was like coming out.

I pretty much did this im question 4 hehehe.

6. If you're out, how did ppl react?

I'm not out to family, that I know of. They found my facebook which has my identity listed in my about, so I'm in limbo with them where none of us talk about it so idk if they register it as an LGBTQ thing or not.

My friends were all supportive! It helps that I have like no cishet friends lmao.

I also came out to my class on TDOV two years ago for a project where we step outside our comfort zone. I'm luckily in the social work program which has social justive built into the tenants of the profession so it was pretty positive! People still misgendered me after and were more concerned with "but i'm scared of ppl getting angry at me what should i do to talk about this with them" which. 9__9 Not surprising. But there was a mom whose kid and her kid's partner are both genderfluid and bigender so it was a good experience and I had an ally which made me comfortable in sharing it in the first place.

7. What is one question you hate ppl asking about your sexuality?

Inevitably when I say I'm ace, non-aces assume I have no interest in dating which. Way to conflate being aroace with ace and ignore that there are aros and aces who want relationships. That's my biggest pet peeve.

8. Describe the style of clothing you often wear.

I wear flannels and ripped jeans or shorts mainly. I basically dress like a butch lesbian. I'll wear dresses and stuff but I do not like dressing femme and prefer to offset softer things with hard things. Like. When I wear dresses I have to wear clunky combat boots with them or have short hair or something.

9. Who are your favorite LGBTQ+ ships?

Hmmm. Depends if you mean canon or not. Canon, it's probably FigAyda from D20 and Catradora from She-ra. Shion/Nezumi from No.6 is also one of my faves. There's also Chie and Ai from Virgin's Empire. Blupjeans from The Adventure Zone and JonMartin from The Magnus Archives.

As for Not Confirmed ships, I like Flick/CJ from Animal Crossing, Tsuna/Enma from Katekyo Hitman Reborn, uhhh. Reigisa from Free!, Kanji/Naoto from Persona and Chihiro/whatever the fuck his name is Mondo? Or the other guy I forget, from Danganronpa. Also RenLaw, RenStrade, and VinceLaw+VinceFarz from BTD.

(I am including straight relationships involving trans ppl obv.)

10. What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?

I hate how I look with make up it makes me dysphoric. But to me makeup is a good expressive outlet and bomb as hell, so when I do wanna wear makeup, I prefer wearing eyeliner and lipstick (esp in black or blue or green or purple) and glitter.

11. Do you experience dysphoria? How does it affect you?

I experience what I refer to as Silhouette Dysphoria a lot. I experience chest dysphoria but a lot of times it's less about me having them at all and me not liking how I look with them. The same goes for my hips and overall shape. Hence silhouette. I also experience genital dysphoria to a lesser degree, and when I do it's less hating my genitals bc they should be different but more just having any at all. Luckily I was born with internal genitalia so I don't have to think about it as much. Social dysphoria I also experience, but I've talked about that already.

How I deal with it is binding and stuff.

12. What is the stupidest thing you've heard said about the LGBTQ+ community?

Hmm. The ppl who genuinely argue that accepting the community means you'll be forced to accept pedophilia or beastiality. Like. Lmao no?

13. Favorite thing about the community?

I just love how great it feels to be in it tbh. It can be so positive and loving and just genuinely make you feel good about yourself.

14. Least favorite thing about the community?

Exclusionists.

15. Have you ever been to your city's pride event?

No, but I went to Pride in Des Moines!!! IT WAS GREAT!

16. Favorite LGBTQ+ celebrity?

I don't really follow celebrities, but probably Ian McEllen and Tim Gunn.

17. Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?

I was in a relationship for a while with a friend of mine and it was wonderful tbh. We met in a server and started talkng more, and started out as qpps then became partners and like we broke up, but I still enjoyed the experience and wouldn't go back in time and stop it from happening. My other qpp tho. That's something I would do lmao.

I also have a bf but that's a secret~

18. Favorite LGBTQ+ book.

I haven't read a lot of books, so I guess I have to say The Raven Cycle bc that's the only one I remember reading.

19. Have you ever faced discrimination?

Mmmm the only time I have experienced direct discrimination I was giving a friend valentines chocolate in high school and some kid called me a d*ke when i walked past him.

The other stuff is like. My therapist telling me to check for a hormone imbalance when I said I was asexual.

20. Favorite LGBTQ+ movie/show?

She-ra, "To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything", The Runaways (the movie not the show), No. 6.

21. Favorite LGBTQ+ bloggers?

I don't have any lmao.

22. Which slur do you want to reclaim?

Queer, bc it's already been reclaimed and it fits me.

23. Have you ever gone to a gay bar or drag show? How was it?

Nope. Never, but it'd be fun!!

24. How do you idrntify your gender?

Already answered this lol.

25. Interested in having kids?

Nope. I'd be too scared of screwing them up.

26. What identity service would you give your younger self?

I wish I'd known there was an ace community before I was older tbh. So that, probably.

27. What do you think of gender roles in relationships?

I personally like playing a feminine role, but I also think gender roles are unecessary, so like. As long as I'm an equal I don't care what role I play lmao. If you wanna treat me like the handmaiden, as long as you're not doing it bc you see me as a woman I don't care.

28. Anything else you wanna share about your gender?

Nah. Just. I don't bother trying to pin it down anymore bc the more I analyze it the less I understand it.

29. Something you wish ppl knew about being LGBTQ+?

Hmmmm not really. It's fun outside of the systemic oppression?

30. Why are you proud to be LGBTQ+?

For me it's less about pride in being LGBTQ+ and more being proud to express myself authentically. 🤷

[nochiquinn]

campaign 2 episode 78: don’t beau yourself

bf made me a nest for cr watching tonight, I'm love him

samuel

marisha: lentitiiaitia

"get the pliers"

you know what sam was in theatre long enough to be able to change his clothes in the space of the intro

"we can see my dad" jes

OR TURN INTO THE GENTLEMAN IN FRONT OF YOUR MOM

"just a dyeam mess"

"one of your rings is in the flask" sAM

TWIGGY! visit twiggy

"jester's gone, I'm a new character now"

ghost ur mom

immediately blows it all on pastries

"take care of her or I'll fight you"

I still want to see marion's army of johns

"don't go near the water, it's a murderer"

nerthwerd

cad: an iboop

their attempt to get guidance in before they roll is gonna end in someone getting slapped

pls destress ur weasel

that sounds a lot worse than it is

cobalt secretary squad

fast but casual. fastual.

jostled by the thrust

well, fuck

oops

caleb sounding kinda vax

"I've been rping as nicole ritchie this whole time"

thoreauregard

jester what is that voice

wow I hate him

"diiiiiiicks!"

baumbach closure!

🎶cause and effect🎶

do you spice

"last time we were here you were a cowboy!"

SAY HI TO BRYCE

shakastaaaaa

rip marisha's coffee

jest er

JESTER

he forgot to carry madame zeroni up the mountain

the horses D8

that music

(did he do that on purpose)

A Working Face

"the cadaver of my choice"

TERRIFYING CHUCKLES

the mage was HUMAN??? I thought it was a goblin mage????

(astrid????)

if the name of the episode isn't To Zadash what are we even doing here

caleb wear the dress

sad hobo man

pumat!!

oh thank god sam changed clothes

report ur local weirdo

"you've been used as an example"

ganache

nein :(

this is fine. I'm fine. it's fine.

"we don't memorize these tomes" why not

jester going "she was crying" is the saddest thing I've ever heard

caleb quietly slips off to study dunamancy

library arc

google is ur dm

"where is the farrealm" "past the nearrealm" tal

"I want to go there now"

quest to find the crack

"book that centers on the worst people" caleb's yearbook

did I hear a hadestown reference

"you now have an hour of intelligence"

spamming all ur buffs right before the raid starts

scientology

I heard toriel

that's a callback

AND I'M KANYE WEST

"there are no more d20s" "bullshit"

yasha is hacked???

no one will get this reference but the traveler gives me edda-earth!loki vibes

(it's a good thing)

edubation

liches??? we talking liches?????

potentia ad poplum

(no one gets your edda-earth references nochi)

gainax

"fuck 'im up, as the kids say these days"

laura's face

you can't fast travel until you've unlocked the area on the map

bamf out BAMF OUT

OPEN DOOR WITH FACE

marisha has forgotten how to chair

what the Fuck

"MY PAN CREEAS"

"did I offer another name?"

nott thbrv

caleb

there goes the other kidney

CROSSBOW BOLTS ACROSS EXANDRIA

BANNED FROM ZADASH

bootleg teleportation

AVANTIKA

congratulations on your dog pumat

NOTT

don't beau yourself

[isaacathom]

i had a weird dream that both of my parents were monsters

i believe my mother was a demon, and my father was a sort of law enforcement angel. neither knew the others identity, as they had disguised themselves as human andhad fallen in love. both fully believed the other was human.

this changed when my mother gave me a necklace for my birthday. in real life, that necklace is something my sister bought from scotland that has ogham on it, something about holly trees. but in the dream, it was a sign of my mothers demonic heritage, and she likely gifted it to me due to her needing to do something, and wanting me to have something to remember her by.

and thats fine. but my dad saw the necklace. and as a demon hunter angel, he recognized it instantly, and asked if he could have a look at it. ‘to find its history’, he said. and i said sure, because im the sort of kid who would love to know the history behind family heirlooms. so i gave him the necklace to look over,and i went off to school for the day.

while i was out, a demon appeared nearby, a creature with a texture like potato skin and a shape similar to a hexagon? or a d20, that might describe it better. a big potato beast with the facets of a d20. who then split in half to explore. my mother saw this, and promptly left the house and shed her human form. she was sort of vampiric looking, with large horns and glowing eyes.

my father didnt see her leave, but noticed she was gone, and he then went into his secret study behind the bookcase, which could be opened by manipulating the fantasy books he had on his top shelf. he then left by a secret entrance.

at this point i arrive home, having been held up due to heavy books and bus times. im walking part of the way home, coming down the bike track next to the dog park, which was wear the potato demon was. but i see no sign of any of them. what i do see is the backyard of the house directly on the corner of where the bike path diverts into a small sandy path that connects back to the streets. its a wide backyard, lush and green, and a brand new pale grey stone sort of courtyard has been built. two people stand there, a parent and a child, and as i walk past they turn to look at me. being awkward, i just avert gaze and keep walking.

in their renovations, theyve extended their backyard to the left, meaning the sandy path is only big enough for one person, if even that. but since im small, i get through without much issue, and head on home (which is far closer to the bike path in the dream)

i find noone home, but i do find the necklace i gave my father on the top shelf of his bookcase. when i grab it, i accidentally trigger the mechanism, with two ‘layers’ of books falling forward and then pushing back in, and the bookcase swings open to reveal my fathers secret study.

the dream seemed to end there, but i imagine once inside i found a bunch of stuff about demons, and perhaps sign of a scuffle (between my father and potato demon, perhaps?) and so i would assume my parents had been kidnapped by demons. especially as their cars were in the driveway/garage. so then, yknow, go hunt for my parents.

there was a very weird tangent about my mum wanting to fuck the potato demon?? who i believe was called Kayli. that or my mum was kayli. there was some fucking weird shit going on there. it was possible a trick or trap? because Kayli had split in half, and my mum ended up getting deeply distracted by one half. which might mean the other half had time to go and attack my dad? who even knows. i dont. it was weird.

but yea! my parents were starcrossed lovers but they didnt even know it and wont find out until probably one of them dies at the end, or my dad goes to capture/kill my mother and suddenly goes ‘oH FUCK’. possibly both, if it was kill, and he didnt realise until too late. because, and heres the thing, both were in disguise. their demon/angel forms do have similarities, but if you werent looking for it, you wouldnt see it. my dad has no reason to look for my mothers face in a demon, and she no reason to look for his face in an angel. meanwhile i, who have probably been on some deep journey involving the bike path slipstream between dimensions and the wooded paths ‘out back’, ive learnt a lot about both. for instance, ive probably found out that my mum is a demon, just because i have her necklace and have been attacked/treated nicely by demons because of it. they look at it and go ‘oh, [mums name in the dreams] kid! how is she doing?’ ‘w-what?’ ‘? thats her necklace, isnt it? and you look ust like her, except more human. hows she been doing? havent seen her in decades!’ ‘??????????????????????????’

so i dramatically bust in to find my parents locked in mortal fucking combat and i go ‘Mom????!’ and shes like ‘wHAT’ and dads like ‘WHAT’ and its very confusing and conflicting for everyone involved.

alternatively, if my father has the necklace, then my mother recognizes it (no shit, its hers) and demands to know why he has her necklace. which is instantly confusing because, well, he got this from his child??? who got it from their mother??? so who the - oh fuck me. thatd be just sort of how it goes.

though surely if my dad is a demon hunter and recognized that the necklace was demonic, he’d be looking out for her in demons? unless he thinks that she’s maybe been possessed or something, hence going on a big ol battle fight trying to find his Definitely-Human Wife, who he would believe was captured and replaced by a demon. coincide it with external drama (and the fact my mum had been planning to leave for a little while, thus changing her attitude) and he’d think the necklace was some sort of signal for demons to come kick our ass. which, well, it SORT of was, considering like a day after i get it, Kayli the Potato Fucker appears to kick our asses.

idk. its all dramatic and shit. and naturally im half demon half angel and look like a human kid. which is good fun. depending on showdown circumstances i probably haveto fight off both of them at once. maybe its like, as i travel through the ~spirit realms~ i shed my human form a little bit as well which means i ALSO look different. got like, angel wings and devil horns. shits whack. and because they arent expecting me to be there, they dont recognize me either. dad would think im a devil pretending to be an angel to fucking trick him, and mum would think im an angel pretending to be a devil to fucking trick her. suddenly im fighting my parents. who, idk. whether i recognize them depends on adrendaline and whether I have the necklace. assume i do. then it would be fun if i didnt, and i fought them both for a bit, and when i get my ass beat my mum swoops in for the kill and then goes ‘wHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GET THAT’ and grabs the necklace and then, yknow, ~revelations~. because id say i got it from my mum, and she’d be confused, and then my dad would recognize it as the one he took from me and HED be confused. the entire final showdown part after the necklace comes into play is just OOF, my guy.

admittedly at that point im probably aware that both my parents are non-human. my mum is the obvious one, since i have her demon necklace, but i probably find out my dads an angel because he’s been rampaging through the spirit realms after getting briefly captured by Kayli. depending on how that layed it, its possible id actually seen him before and possibly even freed him FROM the half of Kayli Potato that caught him. and he probably played dumb, pretending he didnt know me (for my safety, naturally) and just told me to go home. spirit realm is no place for a human. probably says something that makes it way too obvious he know where i live. maybe he mentioned the bike path slipstream? which, assuming there are multiple ‘slip streams’ like it, implies he knows exactly which one i used to get in and that i live close to it. hence, oops thats my dad, yknow. and plus he’s going on a rampage after that, and if i meet any friendly demons or angels, they likely mention it. an angel would actually be really good for that, and fighting an angel before i fight my dad makes sense as a build up thing. maybe in the middle of a friendly conversation they suddenly spot my demon necklace and go ‘oh no. ohhhhno. where did you get that.’ ‘from my mum?’ ‘your mOTHER?’ ‘yea?’ ‘..... give it to me’ ‘no? its mine?’ ‘i dont think you understand whats at stake her. your mortal soul is in peril’ ‘what the fuck are you talking about’ and then, yknow, some grown ass angel asshole starts trying to beat up a kid for a demon necklace and WHOOPS thats my demonic heritage exposed because oops i just blasted an angel in the facewith demon magic before fucking bolting. and i dont know what i look like, so i cant see the horns, though i likely suddenly become aware of them when i try and find somewhere to sleep and fail to. or when i get out of the spirit realm to sleep and look in a mirror and fuckin shit myself.

the revelations of my parents heritage are a bit awkward because once i know one, the other one gets REAL weird, as a thing to reveal. revealing my dads heritage incidentally is probably the easiest one to do, since angels are probably friendlier to humans. probably. and when i freed my dad, i didnt know about his heritage, and so didnt recognize him (its a place-faces thing). but then, yknow, talk to another angel who tells me to go home because ‘his good buddy is going wild and its not a good time to be here. its never a good time to be here, but especially not now, kid’ ‘why is he going crazy?’ ‘something about his wife? i havent seen him in two decades but i think he married some human woman who has gone missing.’ ‘huh.’

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway that was the dream i had?????? oops