#i love them yet they hurt me also
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something to believe in for even a night one night may be forever, but that's alright, that's alright
#i love them yet they hurt me also#grrrrrr#disventure camp#dcas#tomjake#disventure camp jake#disventure camp tom#artsy mooko
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itll be alright
#it actually wont#💔#but hes just a baby. and she is his everything#the 3rd ep hurt me.....#but also thinking about how during the earlier times on the ark when he was much much younger#maria would be the only solace he would have#between the scientists treating him like a test and subjecting him to painful experiments just because he cant die#and the scorn of anyone else#the only place he can find warmth and love is in her light#shadow confused and lost not knowing his purpose well yet as hes forced to face all of it. like a scared animal#i know gerald would be decent to him but its never going to be more than firm kindness that wont ever take priority over his responsibility#they gave him his rings but in the early days they probably wouldnt be bothered to dress him and just let him go from the lab as is#hes doing it all for her but hes just small#god#im feeling a lot#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#my art#shadria#not romantic in this case. just his most important person. taisetsuna hito. etc. they need to make a tag for them pls
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Requirements to be in the coven of Agatha Harkness, most infamous witch in the world:
gay
#THESE BITCHES GAY! GOOD FOR THEM! GOOD FOR THEM!!!!!#OH my god this was the best episode yet. i had chills!!! literal chills!!!!!#ok so I guess agatha also thought teen was her son. which makes sense from what we know. her reaction to seeing him hurt......#oh kathryn hahn you're SICK#i rly hope their relationship won't change after this they're my fav duo#also. did i mention they're all gay. marvel is genuinely shocking me i can't believe we almost got a sapphic kiss i'm weeping#lilia with her little percussions :') god i love her sm she's so wonky#and jennifer managed a miracle cure!!! and alice destroyed the generational curse!!! oh im really sold on these gays i love them all!!!!!#also can we talk about the latin please lmao. i love that they're literally saying the most basic stuff in latin#'we need to summon a green witch' -> 'i call a green witch'#SO much in this episode holy shit. absolutely incredible. im actually speechless i really really loved it#so pumped for next week!!!!!#agatha all along
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as much as i enjoy the more wholesome fantasy high parents like jawbone and sklonda and the thistlesprings there’s something so compelling and achingly real about bill seacaster that makes him my favorite. he and fabian have a relationship that is so deeply unhealthy and entrenched in distorted ways of viewing other people and parenthood and the world, and yet is so fiercely and undeniably loving. like, is bill seacaster a good dad? what does being a good dad even mean for someone like bill? bill seacaster has such unrealistic and toxic expectations of fabian and a myopic, entirely self-centered way of relating to him for most of his life, and yet, you truly get the sense that even if fabian disappoints him again and again and never steps out of his shadow and never becomes the man bill wants him to be, bill will never love him any less than completely and unconditionally. bill seacaster is a man who has built his entire life and sense of identity around doing whatever he wants and never facing consequences and never thinking about anyone else. bill seacaster becomes disappointed in his son. and he finds the idea of that so unacceptable that, instead of demanding that fabian meet his expectations, bill loves him so much that he reconsiders his entire concept of himself and the purpose of his life, and he grows. a man whose legacy and identity was based around selfishness and narcissism and unwillingness to bend, and fabian makes him change.
#bill seacaster death scene will always make me lose my mind frankly#i thought you were just going to be me; a way for me to live forever. but its better than that. the story’s going to get better#mine#fantasy high#bill seacaster#fabian seacaster#like bill wants nothing more than for fabian to be better than him and so no matter what fabian becomes he WILL be better than him#he will always be proud of his darling boy no matter what because he’ll change the very definition of pride#like he’s kind of a terrible dad who’s absolutely fucked up his son and given fabian so many issues#and yet he loves him more than anything else including himself and his sense of self and everything he’s ever valued#idk i just love that. i love the way the show says you dont have to forgive your parents when they hurt you. you can hate them and thats ok#but it also says sometimes your dad hurts you and he loves you enough to realize he was wrong and change for the better#and you can still love him even when you know he hurt you. that’s okay too
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i think dinostar is such an interesting ship right now even if i've kind of turned away from it after this season. the problem is that it's complicated, and fandoms historically don't like nuanced situations or takes. i don't think it's fair to say darius is putting brooklynn on a pedestal, since from his perspective, she hasn't done anything wrong, and kenji has been framed as this unfair partner to her. it does feel like his feelings are very immature and more of an infatuation right now ("if he loved you half as much.."/"unless?"), especially when you compare them to kenji's own feelings for brooklynn - his girlfriend who he's loved for 6 years - but that isn't a horrible thing, it's just different. i do completely understand if people dislike the ship right now, and even criticize darius' way of handling the accidental confession, but i just think people have been way too harsh on all three of them without being willing to see that all of their perspectives are different
#like darius' whole thing this season was his tendency to say or do the wrong thing and make things awkward by complete accident#he's a very awkward person as it is and considering he's also never dealt with romantic feelings before and he didn't even mean to tell her#about them it makes sense that he once again said and did the wrong things while trying to fix it#i'm not going to judge his characterization just yet until we see how he handles his own feelings vs kenji's next season after finding out#she's alive#he was still respectful of her and i doubt after learning more of kenji's side and realizing this man genuinely does still love and miss he#that he would prioritize pursuing her romantically(especially since she already yk.. rejected him and also literally just left them all)#if anything i think the finale putting his feelings about her survival to the side and focusing on how it hurt kenji to see her alive and#leave him kind of indicates that brooklynn's not really going to be much of a love interest for darius after this#which imo as a dinostar enjoyer and professional darius lover i'm actually okay with#slightly off topic but season 2 has made me really appreciate kenlynn on its own because of how tragic and nuanced it is#so i think focusing on them instead is not only a better decision in terms of consistency and storytelling but it's just the more realistic#and satisfying choice right now#and that's not to say i think they'll be perfectly fine or even together again once they're reunited properly#in fact i very much hope she ends up alone and they all get closure from this#and there's always the possibility that later on the show might actually revisit dinostar again#which would be better than them trying to do so now in my opinion#idk this is probably a mess but i've been trying to think about how i felt about this love triangle for awhile and since s2 handled it#completely differently than i thought they would. i feel like it's not going to be that simple#and i just wish fans of all sides would kind of chill out on the characters lmao#jwct#chaos theory#jwct s2 spoilers#brooklynn jwct#jwct season 2 spoilers#dinostar#kenlynn#kenji kon#darius bowman#jurassic world
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would you tell us more about riptide? pretty please?
it’s my gravity falls fic and it’s about codependence. and also how people need to stop separating my BABIES !!!!!!!!!!!!
#ofmermaidstories-asks#insert game tag here#STOP SEPARATING THEM!!!!!#IT HURTS MY FEELINGS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it’s me im the codependant one LOL#no one i love is ever allowed to leave me ever 👁️#it might also get weird i haven’t decided yet
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is this where u take the requests? if not, apologies lol still learning tumblr, I WAS WONDERING IF MY VARGAS RELATED REQUESTOBER REQUEST COULD BE JAKE/NNY? i feel like jake/nny is SO looked past like its actually so cute, they could be doing anything THANK U IF THIS WAS THE WRONG PLACE SORRY MWAH MWAH X
Day 12 - Once you had one hole in your skin, you've had 'em all
#My art#Requestober#Vargas#Jake#Nny#*looks at your comment of NnyGaster being cursed* *looks at this* Well I mean at least you're consistent#Of all the crackships I haven't considered I possibly haven't considered this one the most#I mean considering I Just got into Nny/Scriabin lol#I have extreme Edgar/Scriabin blinders lol this is known#Is this a thing and I just don't know? I can't even snark I just - it Literally Never Occurred to me lol#Edgar got all the shipping charts and diagrams and graphs he's special that way <3#I love Jake dearly and don't want him to be hurt! Unlike the Vargases lol ♥ I love them dearly and Do want them be hurt#Precarious position anyone who gets paired up with Johnny haha#I suppose if Johnny's still in Sweet Mode that's one thing but!! the rest of him!!!#Their dynamic over something like piercings Is interesting tho - Jake hangs out with artsy types and Nny is definitely that lol#And Johnny's y'know - weird about stuff lol - I could see him getting into a pierced partner! No pun intended#And obviously Jake is very good on boundaries <3 He's not actually touching him here just gesturing at his ear#It also occurs to me that I can't think of a time I've seen Johnny with tattoos :0 Body modification+art! (+bodily weirdness)#Might be something there to look at sometime hmmm#Anyhow - continuing my trend of drawing Nny on the hood of the car over the cliff haha#I didn't think I had leveled up all that much from last year but comparing the two??? I'm Way more pleased with this one#Still struggling with the bottom of the shoe but better! Practicing!!!#Maybe there Is something to drawing just a bit bigger lol#Nny also looks significantly less anemic from not having died yet lol#Really pleased with the harder edges of the unlined shapes ♪ I used that grass brush on everything and it's dope#Do I like backgrounds???? First lining now this so much to consider
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binge-watched the final season last night and honestly it was a great journey and i'm satisfied by how it ended...i'm glad the writers gave my favorite characters the conclusions to their stories that felt fitting. i already miss the show </3
#wtf i already need them back :((((#temporarily making my URL earlgodwin for now because i'm saying goodbye to him </3#vikings valhalla spoilers#(spoiler incoming don't read the tags if you haven't watched yet!!)#anyway i'm so sad about canute dying he really grew on me </3#emma loved him so much it hurts#also his last speech to godwin as well :/#emma canute godwin best trio ever#vikings valhalla#vikings valhalla season 3#vikings valhalla s3#emma of normandy#godwin of wessex#earl godwin#text post
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i love the bingge extra because it's like
the horror of realizing you're the dark universe version of yourself. the injustice of seeing this other version of yourself be happy and loved, seeing him be treated with such gentle tenderness from a person who only ever treated you with cruelty
bad sex.
#svsss#julianno#the little glimpses into bingge's perspective when he's watching them are so rough!!#the sqq he knew was cruel and cold and abused him#and so he got his revenge and became powerful and should have everything he wanted#and then he goes into this other universe#and he sees himself being fussed over by an sqq that is gentle and kind and worries about his wellbeing#an sqq that drains himself of his spiritual energy just to tend his wounds#an sqq that brushes his hair and answers with an indulgent hm? whenever he calls out to him#and how unfair is that? he has everything#but this other version of him is loved#and maybe that's all he wanted this whole time#augh.#and then binghe coming back from pidw's universe and saying he looked everywhere but couldn't find shizun#he had so many people at his side but he didn't have the person who mattered most#GOD. anyway. I have so many thoughts on this extra and I haven't even gotten into the bad sex!#i love how sqq is like FUCK HE'S HUGE. NO WAY I'M TAKING THAT.#and binghe is like maybe shizun should top 🥺 <- definitely something he has fantasized for a long time#and sqq is like wait no what if i hurt him i wouldn't be able to bear it. so he ends up bottoming anyway#also the fact that he's so tired by the end lskdjflksd old man.#he claims it was awful and yet he came twice. you are a liar ❤#reading these books after reading mdzs is very funny#going from wangxian fucking like rabbits and having very enthusiastic kinky sex#to binghe crying in the middle of sex and sqq being like If He Puts That Thing In Me I Think I'll Die.
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It's hard being someone who does genuinely get infuriated with Ford's actions and acknowledges a lot of his flaws and the people he hurt, while also liking (and relating) to his character enough that I would like him to have nice things sometimes and don't believe he's satan
#hes not my favorite guy#but i keep having to defend him because every time people talk about him its like “YEAH HES A SHITBAG WHO WANTS TO WATCH HIS BROTHER DIE”#“HED PROBABLY LAUGH IN HIS FACE WHILE HE GETS MAULED BY TIGERS”#when i was reading the fanfic O Brother I too thought he was being overly cruel to poor Stanley (in a way that made sense not an ooc way)#but then he like found out the deity that was his entire life was lying to him and that he hurt people#and that he no longer can SLEEP because hell hurt people again#and he has to figure out the impossible answer of what to do while everyone is upset and untrusting of him#and his best and only friend barely can LOOK at him#and all the comments are like “YEAH THIS IS WHAT HE DESERVES!!! FUCK YOU STANFORD”#meanwhile im over here like “oh my god thats so fucking awful!!! i feel so bad!!!”#like he genuinely has NO ONE right then thats fucking awful#its Jonathan Sims all over again except even the AUDIENCE hates him and like?????? please hes just misguided he does NOT deserve this#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#again let me clarify HES NOT EVEN MY FAVORITE GUY#i obsess over him occasionally but im a Stanley defender through and through AND YET#i keep having to say “guys. hes not as bad as you guys think. and Stan isn't as GOOD as you guys think. GUYS. PLEASE.”#it truly is interesting how different focuses on characters influence the audiences perspective of them SO MUCH#because ngl remember how i mentioned J Sims?#i really feel like Jon and Ford are similar#meddled with deities they didn’t understand. had paranoid tendencies. isolated themselves often. had selfish tendencies.#often rude and abrasive but also had a heart#and again the audience LOVES Jon and hates characters for disliking him#but this audience (which probably is the same people too lol) hate Ford and feel vindicated when characters dislike him
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look at the way i ride ~
#lyss.vent#been feeling very much on the edge lately#of what? i’m not really sure#a classic Meltdown ™ maybe#i have a therapist i talk to weekly now and that’s been a huge help fs#but it’s still like#my boat has a hole#too many to count actually#i’m constantly dumping out the water but it doesn’t matter yk?#i’m still sinking#there are so many things i should be thankful for#friends and family that care about me#i have hobbies that i enjoy#a good consistent job that pays well#i’m working 40 hrs a week and making enough to save monthly#this is what it means to be successful right ?#i should be happy…i have everything i need…#yet i feel rundown and empty#i’ve also realized that there are horrible ugly things that still live deep inside my bones#why do i blame myself for them when i was just there? when i was the victim?#i’m the only one who can save myself from it all so why can’t i?#what’s even worse is that i have to watch from the sidelines while life single-handedly fucks up my loved ones too#i’m so powerless in all aspects of my life#everything’s out of my control#and it hurts so much :(((#tbh old me would’ve given up by now but that dumb bitch isn’t in the driver’s seat anymore#she’s just along for the ride now but she won’t give me the aux#tho new me is stubborn and has something to prove so i’ll keep driving :3 vroom vroommm#i’ll play my own music soon#i love queue ☆〜(ゝ。∂)
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the implication some version of animated teen tita.ns vaguely like ttg exists in comic canon.... i desperately need to know who in dick's life is a die hard show fan and how many times he rants he's 'not like that'
#the titan.s: is this fucking play about us??? like do they ever watch it did they sign off rights so many questions.#especially tt/g rob.in. i find him very amusing. silly little man. i want ten of them.#titans spoilers#tuesday spoilers#comic spoilers#interesting they'd make dick infected so quickly either that was (monologue incoming) apart of his plan all along#or babs is gonna lead the plan#i hate titan.s fighting titan.s but man do i love a good 'this isnt you' plot#like having to fight but you cant hurt the other because youre trying to save them UGH okay fine youve caught my interest current tita.n ru#also i know this art style has never missed but dick and gar.th are too handsome. like im not fighting you two whatever you say handsome#also also MOST IMPORTANT MERRY KORY CONTENT TUESDAY#very upset she yet again has to relive trauma but the panel of kory and donna hugging in the explosion will help me last the winter <3#* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.
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I feel like the only person in the fandom that isn't interested in chil/shi and is more interested in Chilchuck's family and whatever drama is going on with him and his wife
#this isnt to say i dislike chil/shi lmao it just doesnt do anything for me#dungeon meshi spoilers#since we havent hit the wife drama reveal yet#anyway i love exes finding each other again and healing old hurts#im also fine with them just becoming friends again lol ftr#edit: i realize now this is gonna end up the main dungeon meshi tag oops sorry about that guys!!#unfortunately bc of chilwife i do need to tag it with the spoilers tag digjsirgjser
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Q: If, like Kiss did, The Strokes released simultaneous solo albums, what would they be like? Julian: “I’d like to collaborate on them, but they probably wouldn’t let me near them. Fab’s would be kinda gothic, a lot of classical-type instrumentation – like low-pitched choirs in the background, keyboards, and his voice would have a lot of reverb on it. Albert would have the most Strokes-style solo record, with lots of funny disjointed riffs, and the theme would be love and relationships. Nick would have a Motley Crew-meets-Blur record with high-pitched [imitates Bruce Dickenson yowl] ‘Waaaaaah’ vocals. Nikolai would have an indie, chilled out, [laughs] bass-driven album.”
— the strokes for q magazine, april 2002 / wr. danny eccleston (x)
fab: knots - machinegum (2019)
albert: caught by my shadow - ahj (2015)
nick: walls - crx (2016)
nikolai: burnin_up - summer moon (2023)
#bands#the strokes#julian casablancas#iti era#q magazine#interviews#it's the fact that he's fucking right#clawing at the walls oh god he always knew them they always knew each other no matter what happened and how they changed they really#did love and know one another down to their bones#so much time's passed since he gave that interview and yet.#i picked ones that werent from the 2000s on purpose just bc it kinda hurt more to know that even tho theyve diverged so much some things#still hold true#maybe the descriptions dont fit to a t but i feel like the vibes are there#or maybe im just insane. let me know!#also but they probably wouldnt let me near them. hahahaha. stake through my heart.#smth smth angles and phrazes era interviews talking abt how everyone was reluctant to bring ideas to the table for some reason until after#theyd done their solo shit#man#doomed polyamory.
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OKAY OKAY OKAY YOU GUYS BUT WHAT IF!!
What if, in the last few minutes of 7x10, we cut to Frank in his office. The camera is focused on him so we don’t know who’s on the couch across from him.
He’s mentioning the last time the person was there, that they were talking about intimacy & their partner and worries about the future (throwback to Athena on the first episode & Bobby in the cruise ship arc), and Frank asks the person how it’s going…
AND THEN IT PANS TO EDDIE IN THE ROOM LOOKING UNCOMFORTABLE AND UPSET AND KIND OF A MESS AND HE SAYS SOMETHING ALONG THE LINES OF: “I realized I couldn’t commit to Ana or Marisol in the way I thought I should because they’re not what I wanted. I don’t think I like women.” A pause. A breath. “And I think that’s because I’m in love with my best friend.”
END SEASON ROLL CREDITS YOU’LL HAVE TO COME BACK IN S8 TO SEE HOW IT PLAYS OUT.
#911 abc#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buddie#oliver stark#ryan guzman#tim minear#Tim if you use this I will love you FOREVER#I think it would be so funny to start & end the season in Frank’s office#with characters trying to get to the nitty gritty of why they’re feeling things & what they’re ACTUALLY struggling with#idk what would lead to Eddie’s revelation in the last episode maybe another NDE#I’ve always thought that Chris was going to be the one to get them together so maybe something happens to him/he gets hurt#& whether Buck’s with Tommy or not he still comes when Chris needs him because he’s a PARENT & a PARTNER#and he already has a family and Eddie realizes then that he doesn’t need a mother figure for Chris when they already have a Buck#goddamn it i think i just had another fic idea#911#911 s7#911 s7 e10 spec#they haven’t even written it yet so it coULD TOTALLY HAPPEN#bisexual evan buckley#also GIVE ME EDDIE LEARNING WHAT DEMISEXUALITY IS IN THERAPY#demisexual eddie diaz#gay eddie diaz#they are in love#& I need them to realize it#the buckley diaz family#I saw someone say that Buck needed to understand his sexuality to realize his feelings for Eddie#and Eddie needed to realize his feelings for Buck to understand his sexuality & that feels VERY true to me
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#hot take that doesnt feel that 'hot' if ur kid is going thru one of the most traumatic experiences of their lives#and having to do it TOTALLY alone despite it not at all being a one person job#but thats just circumstance and how the cookie crumbled#and then you offer to come pick them up and drive them home for a week of help and relaxation once the experience is over since that's#all you can offer at the time#its. kinda a fucked up move to then back out when the time comes for said promised r&r#esp when u dont seem to understand [or maybe worse yet you Do but don't care] that ur child CLUNG to and FANTASIZED abt the relief that was#on the horizon for WEEKS of HELL. like 'just a little longer and then I will finally have some help.'#'just a little longer and then I can rest'#'just a few more days and then I can lay low and recoup some expenses and have meals I don't have to solely cook whilst also rehabbing a#sick dog and trying to maintain a home whilst also working full time'#only to get to 'the day' and get a 'its not going to work out after all sorry....we are just so Busy prepping for our travel abroad next#month you know? it would be too Stressful to have a third person in the house'#YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABT STRESS RIGHT NOW????? BE SO FOR REAL----#like if u werent free fine. u dont owe me shit im grown. BUT2 PROMISE IT AND REAFFIRM IT TIME AFTER TIME AND THEN BACK OUT IN THE 11TH HOUR#SERIOUSLY???#I love them but this. fucking Hurts. and I had to pretend it Didnt so as to not make a scene
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