#i know i dont really talk to anyone here

[georgelore]

also im so sorry i know im a dteam blog and i know im very inactive and dont really comment on all the things happening but im always here!!! i am sadly chronically online so i see everything that happens i just dont have the energy to blog about it for some reason??? i know it kinda sounds ridiculous but yeah shrugs

[mipexch]

been thinking about something wicked a little too much lately. no harm in romanticizing the ominous dreadful unstoppable force

[spiralghoul]

Batfamily fans don’t mischaracterize arrow characters to prop up bats when you’ve very clearly never touched an arrow family comic in your life challenge IMPOSSIBLE EDITION!!!!!!

Like I so desperately don't want to come off as one of those asshole comic fans cause like I so genuinely want people to know these characters and this wonderful story telling device. This industry which has a lot of problems but is so fascinating and has such a rich history, like I really do want more people to get into comics. I literally keep a beginners list of comics that's digestible stories that aren't like a list of random issues which can be kinda intimidating to new fans. I try to keep it updated for characters and if I don"t have the character their looking for I'll go find a few ppl that do and like do a quick vet to see if they seem to know what they're talking abt and give that to them and if anyone is interested in that pls hit me up let me know I genuinely love introducing ppl to this world!!

Its just so frustrating watching your favorite characters get constantly mischaracterized to such an extreme extent by other people in the fandom and then have that be the general consistence of what they're like when its so far from how they act in the actual comics that are about them!! and then get told that I'm wrong even tho i can literally back up what I'm saying with panel proof from multiple runs! Its not even contained to the fandom IT HAPPENS IN BAT BOOKS TOO!! Bat book writers constantly change arrow characters to fit their story lines and make the bats look good and I get it that's how it works these are paper dolls that have been used for over 80 years and have had hundreds of people use them. They're meant to be molded to fit the current story the writer wants to tell but its frustrating cause then people will ignore all of the books that center them and just take batbooks as being word of god for all characters.

[evermorepeyton]

i love the video, i’ve already rewatched it three times Today what can i say

i’ve seen some people saying there was something “off” or “uncomfortable” about it. i can’t relate like im having a blast.

i honestly don’t know what people expect from them, sure dan’s complimented phil many times unprovoked and that’s lovely, but i understand how it can be a bit too much to just do it on camera so directly.

the camera’s on and it’s hard for them to not be a tiny bit like no homo. when that was all they did for years in front of the public. old habits die hard especially when it’s a habit that probably caused them so much anxiety for so long.

imagine being like this is my friend my buddy my roommate for years and trying to deny anything else but constantly being told that no one believes you, so it becomes even more frustrating, and then all of a sudden you both come out and it’s been a few years and it should be okay now, but it’s still a little bit weird (which if you’ve programmed yourself to act a certain way for years, formative ones too, and you’re now going against it, it should be). how is he supposed to look at this man and be like “phil you are the most beautiful man to have ever walked on planet earth”? or whatever you wanted from him.

and still, despite all of that, they’ve managed to make the gayest videos ever since post hiatus. so how is it uncomfortable if they aren’t like sitting on top of each other or something in front of the camera? (and also like they just might someday but not because a card says it)

like i made jokes about it myself because i found it funny that when people don’t ask it from him he will say something like “you looked lovely phil” or point his way when he hears the phrase “beautiful but dense” or whatever. so he’s not incapable of it, it was just a little uncomfortable because they were playing a couples game which they haven’t done before and he’s probably already hyper aware of everything he’s saying, on top of that he’s supposed to be like omg phil you have the most beautiful blue eyes or whatever???

let him post his little ocean blue eyes story and we can all freak out about it, like we do. it’s honestly more than enough. and this video is fantastic to me, what can i say

[okjii]

remembering my jeanee roots while making my way through TSC going auughh my beautiful little babies what could have been…WHAT COULD HAVE BEEENNNN

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Had to explain to a friend today that No Really I Swear Magneto And Professor X Are Friends And Like Each Other Thats Canon And Real

[smal5504]

so i didn't take pin's elimination very well

hi smalpin tumblr!!! its me again!!! thank you to everyone who waited for me!!!

to summarize, i had a whole breakdown.

,.,..,but im ready to begin AGAIN!!! still not over it BUT IM COPING!!!

here is a small list of what happened during my absence:

☆ i frew uop

☆ i didnt watch tpot 16 past tree's being declared safe. i dont even know how pin reacted i just know that i personally didnt take it well at all the the the do you know how impotant she is to me

☆ i didnt watch the new bfdia but im 97,104% sure shes up for elimination again. AGAIN

☆ yes i was completely offline everywhere. i guess you could say i was chronically OFFLINE [cue laugh track]

☆ there were some not horrific things though like my irl friends and ramadan (yes im muslim) and spring break but thats about it gang im sorgy

☆ also i might have watched alphablocks

FOR THE RECORDDD i decided to cope by forming together THIS two hour tracklist for pin. its some of my best work yet genuinely its going to be its own post soon just you wait. im calling it some of my best work yet because i made a drawing for each and every individual song AND THATS NOT ALL BECAUSE SOME HAVE ANIMATED CARDS!!! I MADE ANIMATED CARDS!!! FOR MOST OF THE SONGS!!! AND MANY ARE MORE THAN JUST GIFS TOO EUEUEUEIWUSHD ITS SO GOOD ITS SO

and for my non bfdi tumblrs who dont want to hear me vaguely explain my breakdown over a pushpin. im still heavily learningeeked and ill get back to that as soon as im reade. in fact i recently hit my nine month "anniversarry" for how long ive been numbergeeked chat!!! ive been normal for nine months and counting!!! please pray for me. please

and with that, although i like totally sobbed over her elimination for over two weeks i believe im able to go on with my leftover silly ^^ not without her obviously i dont mean that, i am still going to draw and geek and yap and scream and project about pin from the hit web series battle for dream island By jacknjellify on youtube and you all can do NOTHING BUT WATCH!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAGAHSGSHZHSJSSHHSHA

[backpackingspace]

Headcanon that most demon royalty goes to some fancy private/finishing school. But that Stolas was homeschooled with a private tutor. It was one of the very very few requests his dad granted him and for years it was a tressure memory, one of the few times he /got to choose/ one of the few times his dad /listened/ to him. Only to realize when he enters society that it was another isolation tactic. That everybody had already spent years forming social alliances and building their reputations and social credit. And that there was no room for him to break into those circles, that he /did not know/ the proper unspoken social rules. That his wife has spent years building her clout and that he is once again. Alone.

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

Signal of me with a sappy post after being gone for a long while, don't read it if you don't want to feel depressed

It's been a while since I've written something here honestly. I've been thinking more and more about Atsushi lately. The more time passes, the harder it is to accept that he has passed.

I've been wishing for him to come back. Anywhere I go, whatever I see, it reminds me of him. I know he spoke so much about mortality, despite him being afraid of death, he made sure we wouldn't be so scared.

I know he is Immortal, he is never truly gone. But I want to see him more. I want to see the world being kinder to him. He has suffered so much, I wish he could have had the rest he needed before his final sleep.

I can't stop crying. Ever since march hit I can not stop crying every single day. It's got to a point when I cry during work, in school, from seemingly out of nowhere. I tried not listening to BT to not trigger these emotions, but I feel even worse. Acchan's voice makes me so so so sad, but so so so comfortable. I cannot stop listening to BT because their music is the only reason I'm still here. No matter how much it hurts, I can't stop. But the more time passes, the more it hurts.

Reminding myself of seeing Hizumi more, his grey hairs, his smile, wrinkles. Seeing more of his beautiful lyrics, his charming voice, shy demeanor. The more I think about it, the more I despise how cruel this world is. But I know it's also so so beautiful.

I would not trade a single second of my life since the time I've found their music. It has been the fucking happiest I've ever felt, and I would never, ever, ever, ever wish for anything more. I keep thinking I wish I'd found them sooner. It's so so selfish of me, but I know, had I found them sooner, I wouldn't have suffered so much. I could have made more happy memories with the band, and maybe they could've been more overpowering than the immense feelings of grief I feel with every passing day.

I just don't want to accept this reality. And I have no idea what to do with it. This feeling, has absolutely no place to go. I try to express it in art, in my words, but it does not ease.

I've never met a person in my life I've admired so much. And not just for his physical appearance, or talent. But for the fact that he was so ridiculously human yet alien at the same time, no matter what happened to him. He was so vulnerable yet so otherworldy still. He made me see what humanity really is.

The ridiculous amount of love his spirit possessed and delivered to us through his music, his stories, characters, made me appreciate that I was alive.

Instead of hiding his humanity, including the dirty, nasty, vulnerable parts of it, he exposed it to the whole world to see, to feel seen.

It's as if for us, the regular people, to understand life more clearly, he sacrificed himself over and over on that stage. He lived a thousand lives at once. And by that, he helped thousands to live just one.

What I really want to say with this, I don't know. I just hate this world without you. You are probably able to rest now, but I wish it wouldn't have been so soon. I don't think I'll ever find anyone in my life half as beautiful as you.

I wish the whole world to see your beauty. But I want to see it too. It's just hard. I wish you'd still be here dear. I cried at least 4 times today. The flowers, that I included as the first picture, represent you and the way you shone light to many people's dark world.

By seeing you bloom, the small, insignificant, nameless flowers around you are beginning to slowly find their footing as well.

I just so, so wish we wouldn't have to do that without you. It feels like losing a parent, coming from someone who has lost a parent. How does one guide through life without the help of a guardian?

Of course, his guidance is still present. I know. But I can't help it. I feel like the hole in my soul grows deeper and darker. I don't want to ever forget you. I wish sometimes life would've taken me instead.

I love you dear Acchan. Lately, I feel incapable of promising you to continue living.

I just really, really don't know how to fill in this space you left here. The world is as dark and cruel as it ever was. Maybe you are lucky you don't have to witness all of this. But still...

I miss you so so so so much. I don't want to live my life without you. I wish I could've found you sooner. I'm repeating myself. But our time together was far too short. I don't feel unlucky, because I still got to meet you.

I just did not want to let you go. Buck-Tick as a whole finally felt like something I can hold onto. Something I can call "mine". I'll do that as long as I can. But your absence is felt really strongly. I wish you'd come back.

Love you

[nqmonarch]

Despite the very little I know about Boothill (hot robot) I am very much reminded of this one fanfic I read.

In which one of the characters was an engineer that made robots and the love interest was like a robot. And the robot liked it when the engineer like tinkered with their circuits and went into the inner wiring and changed thing like it felt nice to them.

And that with Boothill please.

A reader that's an engineer trying to repair one of Boothill's fingers for whatever reason and Boothill likes it and he's like wait... Maybe I should get injured more often :) Poor reader that gets more work.

Not gonna write anymore on this because I genuinely know nothing about this man other than he's a hot cyborg dude but honestly that's enough. He has a really cute smile :)

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Pet store clerk gives Charles a bag of free treats for his ""dog"" all while Charles can feel Erik Looming in the BG

the real mortifying day is after months of getting small bags of dog treats one day the bag of dog treats has like. perfectly normal human candies/pastries or something inside

Of Course charles is confused and impulsively asks what it is/how it's different from the usual only for the clerk to reply theyre Whatever Erik's Favorite Treat Is and its that day forward erik is adamant they just do their shopping online

[freejanee]

lazy drawings but I just wanted spotify playlist covers quickly…

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

also here's two terrible photos of what ive been knitting this week:

there's too many stitches so i cant stretch it out properly, and the construction makes it hard to really show it off. also im in bed so it's the best i can do right now.

anyhow this is clue 1 of Stephen West's Go Go Dynamo MKAL, which im two weeks behind on but it's fine. it's been fun so far, minus the 'bubbles', which are the bane of my existence.

[eruukat]

hi i got home from the er at like 3am.. i am okay, mostly just really disoriented and tired. im not sure what to do next because they didnt really know how to help, so i have some numbers to call tomorrow when the phone lines open back up. im not all too sure what to say but thank you for checking in on me ;_; it means a lot

[irl]

oh yeah

not gonna go into super great detail here but

50501 is an astroturf organization, im sure of it

they are pushing liberal/democratic/2-party ideals and stamping out ‘radical’ ideas

there is heightened police presence at their registered protests

oh yeah, they have a google form protest registry

april 20th is they day the insurrection act is supposedly going live if remained unopposed

which will grant access to our military to be used on home ground in our civilian neighborhoods

it’s been known of the government to incite violence to feed a narrative in the past

50501 is pushing another national protest on the 19th

we just saw how big these 50501 “organized” protests can get

please dont go on the 19th

dont trust 50501