#i know i am screaming into the void rn

[mostlyvoid-partiallyflowers]

WHY CANT THIS MOTHERFUCKING REPUBLICAN LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE it’s literally the same four ads on loop every six posts good fucking god

[charliespringverse]

i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .

[whatthefuckisasweep]

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

[hellsbellssinclub]

So,

I got the graduate nurse position I wanted.

So down in Australia (in most states I think?) we have a computer match system for Healthcare professionals to apply for public health networks to hopefully get a graduate position when they graduate.

(A graduate nurse position is for first year Registered Nurses, which I will be at the end of the year)

So, I did what everyone else did. I applied. I did the interviews. I made my resume pretty. I got my hair done. I brought nice new clothes. I did my damnest to stand out and be the best possible me I could be.

And I got my first choice. And I accepted the match.

Guys, I am so happy right now. In the next coming weeks I will have a contract and my rotations sorted. I will be starting off the new year as a registered nurse and starting my 30s off with a new job in a new hospital and I am just so

[junos-cacophony]

Why the fuck do I exist? Did God create me just to ruin others? I’m the cause of so much problems. If I didn’t fucking exist maybe things WOULD be better. Why the actual fuck did I do this. I’m a terrible fucking person. I wish I could just go to sleep & never wake up. Everything I fucking do ruins others. I ruin everything. Literally. How the fuck did I even get here? How am I still alive? Fear of death? Spite? I’m not sure. But I don’t want to be here anymore. I wish I could jump from the school rooftop & never look back. It’s so tempting. One day, I’ll try. Maybe by then I’ll have fixed all my mistakes.

[hazlelnoot]

Guys I genuinely don’t know how much more I can take

[semiotomatics]

im so miserable idk why any of you follow me lol

[nojaloart]

got high and sent sonic (rouge the cat) fanart to my partner as a joke for 10+ minutes straight and then drew fanart of my own the next day (again. as a joke)

now my partner’s telling me i should become a furry artist so do i drop the rouge the cat gijinka and hope that brings in the big bucks or what

[littlepurplewakiya]

I'm rewatching the Shogun Steel lost episodes and I just... The more I think about how much and how agressively Kira is constantly preaching about "the absolute power" and how he is "the strongest blader in history " (my God I cringe even typing this), the more it feels like he doesn't even actually believe that and is, in a way, just trying to convince himself of it(?)

I mean sure, there's the thing with the generic over-confident arrogant villain trope, but after a while it just kinda comes across as so...i don't know, forced i guess(?), and there's only so many times he can say it before it all starts reading as him being incredibly insecure.

And I noticed that he (mostly) only started doing that after he gets his ass kicked by Zero - which was likely the first time he's lost a battle in years. It was quite a drop from the top, so naturally he would be shaken after that. Better get myself a stronger toy and start rambling about what a poggchamp I am, amirite~? Right?

Like, this especially shines through during the last battle; yes, while he's having the upper hand he's acting high and mighty again (while still parotting about power) but the second the battle isn't in his favour anymore he kinda starts losing it emoionally. And in the end he seems downright desperate because this already fragile idea, along with confidence (and probably a large amount of self-worth) is falling appart the further he keeps pushing it...

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

You know this time next year, when I haven't spoken to mum in months and I'm not coming home for xmas, I hope she thinks back on days like today and is like "yeah that's probably the reason he went no contact"

[brainticklr69]

no because my stomach hurt so bad i not only had to get naked but i had to get on my hands and knees on the bathroom floor and bow and just hope to god whatever is out there had mercy or pity on me. like the most desperate “hey god it’s me-“ i’m shaken to my core. knowing the human body can feel like this has changed my perception of the human experience. what’s the point of going on when Chinese food can make you hurt so bad. i don’t know how i’ll ever return to the life of the normal people after this. how will i relate to them. it hasn’t left me yet- this battle still has to be fought but the great enemy that is stomach cramping has given me this opportunity to seek comfort. i must return.

[ghost-fish-artnblurbs]

NEW FIXATION

Uuuuhhhhh

New fixation...

The Stanley Parable has my brain grappled by the neck... I'm already drawing art for it... it's been 4 days straight now help <//3

[thedreamparadox]

Jackle's bio done! HUGE shoutout to @spyroid101 for the picture of Jackle's bio from the PS2 remake manual.

Disclaimer that I do not actually know Japanese and am putting these translations together through a mix of jisho.org and two different translation software (google translate and deepl) and referencing various websites about the meanings of words.

Original Japanese:

ジャックル

大きなマントで身を包む、　最もクレイジーなセカンドレベル。奇想天外な手段を使って、何が何でもビヅターを恐がらせようとする。彼まとう大きなマント には、どんな攻撃もはね返す無敵の力が宿っている。ウワサでは、ワイズマンがファーストレベルを創り出し際失敗作だとか...?

My translation:

[Jackle]

The most chaotic Second Level, shrouded in a huge cloak (mantle).  He uses bizarre ways to frighten Visitors by any means necessary. The huge mantle he wears holds an invincible force that repels any attack. Rumor has it that he was a failed attempt by Wizeman to create a First Level...?

Translation notes:

Interestingly, unlike NiGHTS and Reala, Jackle is actually referred to by a gendered pronoun! Kare (彼) meaning he/him. This is only used once, but I elected to use the gendered pronoun thing throughout for consistency.

The katakana for 'crazy' once again shows up like it did in NiGHTS' bio, so I kept with the consistent use of it meaning 'chaotic' as I found on a website while working on that bio.

Jackle being a failed First level is 100% canon! That's so neat.

[wilberave]

STILL NO JAINA MURPH IM GONNA KILL YOU

[smarterthantheaverageloser]

How to lose 20 pounds in 3.5 weeks!

Have an autoimmune disorder

[marshmellowtea]

honestly confession, both my dhmis and markiplier extended universe hyperfixations are being lovingly edged out in intensity by who's lila, i just haven't been posting about that game because 1) there's less fan content to reblog in general (though i have been meaning to go through the tag), 2) i don't. think many or any of you have really heard of it and i kinda dread posting things that i know won't really get a response of any kind and 3) i am deeply petrified of being kicked out by the like. three still active people in this fandom by being too weird so idk really ajdgkljdsklg