#i hope it was helpful

[onejellyfishplease]

Hello again!

I did this lil silly survey a long while ago :)

I wanted to ask if you would mind to answer a few of my questions :3

If not, that's totally fine! No pressure!

How many hours do you sleep per night?

How many hours are enough to get through the day and how many are a lot for your standard?

Is caffein (in any form) part of your morning routine or your 'last resort'?

How do you feel over the day before and after consuming caffein (if you consume any)?

For example: sluggish, foggy, awake, exhausted, grumpy, just tired, etc.

Thank you a lot for (maybe) participating!

If you want, I can add you when I post the results, but I can also leave you out :)

Hi hi!

i totally dont mind answering a few questions :)

- okay so hours of sleep... id say i get around 7 ish?? though that can decrease a lot when im stressed (once i went down to routinly getting like 4, that was a fun time /sar)

- i can work pretty well with 7 hours, and getting any more honestly doesnt seem to do much difference?

- and about the caffine questions, i dont actually drink any! yeah i never got into the taste, so it never managed to sneak into my routine

and i dont mind if you add me when you post the results, though im not sure how helpful ive been from your (coffee??) survey.

this was fun! i hope you have a nice day/night <3

[honeysuckle-venom]

Hi Lior 💜 could you talk a bit about how it feels/how you can tell when a part has fused vs. when they've gone dormant? I have a few parts who I thought had integrated, but now I'm questioning it, and I'm curious on what that distinction has felt like for you or how you were able to determine when parts had fused

Hi Blue!

Thank you so much for this fascinating question! Unfortunately I don't have a 100% clear answer for you, but I can do my best.

To a certain extent, I've also had trouble telling the difference, and there have been times when I've questioned whether alters have fused or just gone dormant. In fact, not being certain of that is why I tend to say we're "mostly fused" or "pretty much fused" because I think there's a good chance that we're fully fused, but also a chance that most of us have fused but some are just dormant, and we do have brief periods where we...unfuse briefly? It's a little bit fluid.

But! I do have a handle on some differences! The biggest way I have to tell is if I have access to the things that used to be held by a certain alter. That could mean memories, but more often for me that means certain emotions and/or aspects of identity. The biggest way I can tell that we've fused is having a much much fuller range of emotions and reactions than I used to. I feel whole and present and able to experience things fully in a way that wasn't possible in the past. And certain alters tend to contain specific abilities to experience things, and so when I can experience those things without switching I know it's come from fusion. I'll give an example. Probably one of the earliest alters I fused with was Cypher, who held the majority of our anger. Before fusing I was incapable of experiencing and admitting to anger, and as soon as I started to be angry I would switch with her and/or have a psychotic episode. Now that she has fused, I can and do become angry as myself. But it's not the overwhelming single-minded anger that Cypher experienced; just as she gave me access to anger by fusing, I gave her the ability to temper that anger somewhat and to feel other things alongside it. So now we can experience anger without dissociating or switching, I stay myself and hold onto everything that makes me "me", but I also have the ability to be angry and protective that she once held exclusively. If, instead, I never got angry about anything, I would suspect that she had gone dormant instead of fused.

That example was a pretty clear case, however. There are other alters where their role was less defined, and so it may be harder to tell if they've fused or just become very quiet. But still, even with other alters I can usually find something that they held that I didn't have access to, and if I do have access to it now that points me towards fusion instead of dormancy. It's not 100%, but that's the main way I have to tell the difference.

The other way I have to tell is much harder to describe and may not be at all applicable to anyone else, because it's just kind of...a feeling? There's this sense that I have now that my head is...full and bright and connected, but quiet at the same time? I don't entirely know how to describe it, but back before we fused I didn't ever realize this but it felt kind of like, both really loud and really empty inside at once? Like I was locked out of something, alone and lonely, but also surrounded by conflict and noise and other parts who were separate. And now it feels less lonely, even though there's not talking anymore. It feels warm and yellow and connected, and quiet but in a peaceful way. Like the quiet of a cozy library with lots of people reading silently together, instead of the quiet of being cut off and alone like when everyone else is dormant, or the feeling of being in one room alone with other people shouting from down the hall like before we fused. Again, that's just how it feels internally to me personally, so may not be applicable at all, but yeah. That's how fusion feels to us.

[badolmen]

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[hansoeii]

look at you, you're gorgeous!

[ikuzeminna]

I need your help with a hypothesis!

For context: My linguistics professor and I got into a discussion after a test she did with us, and I was of the opinion that the reason for the results was different from the one she offered, so she encouraged me to test my theory.

What I need

All you need to do is draw a coffee cup (with a handle, not the disposable stuff) and then answer three questions.

I don't need to see the coffee cup. You can draw it wherever you like; on a piece of paper, digitally, in the sand, on a foggy window. Anything works. It does not have to be good. A doodle is fine.

You have to draw the coffee cup before you see the questions. This is very important. If you decide to help me with this, please doodle the coffee cup before you keep reading.

Assuming you have drawn the coffee cup, I now need you to answer these three questions:

On which side did you draw the handle?

Are you right-handed or left-handed?

Do you primarily write using the Latin alphabet or a different one? (please specify which)

More context

Most people will draw the handle on the right side. My professor says it's because most people are right-handed, so they draw the handle in the direction that would be comfortable for them to pick up.

I said drawing it on the right side just felt more comfortable to my hand and argued it's probably because we write a bunch of letters like that. B, b, D, P, p, R all look like a tiny "handle on the right side" and are all a straight line followed by a round one (so "cup first, handle second," like most people draw cups). The Latin alphabet doesn't have letters like that that face the other way, except maybe d, depending on how you write it, so it makes sense to me that people writing mostly Latin letters would go with the handle on the right side.

Which means that I need to know what Asians, Arabs and Greeks do and if the distribution of left and right sides of handles differs from the Latin alphabet group. Cyrillic seems to favor right, too, though it'd be interesting to see if there are differences.

If there are, my theory is right. Doubly so if there is a sizeable increase in a group whose alphabet has letters that benefit the left side choice.

So feel free to spread this to as many people as you like and put the answers in the comments or the tags of a reblog. The more answers I get, the better I can assess whose theory is better.

Thank you for your help!

[bug-s0da]

blehhh...

i made an aa/lawyersona of @snapscube :3 we all know and love the lawyer+silly girl duos of ace attorney but it's about time the silly girl became the lawyer

[martyrbat]

the memes and jokes about biden dropping out are all great but PLEASE dont turn away and forget the victims of him directly funding a genocide. these are real people that are still being impacted by his cruelty, their tragedies are still ongoing and they need our support more than ever.

if I can suggest a Palestinian family to support, I'll highly recommend Yusuf and his family—who has been vetted for [here]. The GoFundMe breaks down the costs, including the urgent need for an eight year old child to have a kidney replacement, but only €8,404 is currently needed for his family to pay crossing and coordination fees!!

[callisteios]

i made a character uquiz. i 100% promise you that you will get a character you know AND like

[thundersbugs]

rich boy get your ass up and FIGHT!!!

[1st year au]

[bluegiragi]

december night.

early access + nsfw on patreon

[novelconcepts]

I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.

And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.

[inkskinned]

okay is she being actually immature or is it just a woman over 30 expressing a human experience you find to be immature.

like yeah. at certain ages... let shit go. im not defending the real immature shit. im not defending the karen you're picturing. i worked in retail i hate those people too. (once somebody got mad at me because she didn't like how our winter window decor was a snowman smoking a pipe. i wish i was joking).

but men at 57 will write books about how 17 year old girls are soooo sexy. they will invent worlds where women have to be naked for "armor reasons." they will write songs that treat women as objects. people rush to defend them. meanwhile a woman at 35 will be like "heartbreak is hard, actually" or "i feel betrayed by a friend" or "i am struggling with something emotionally." immediately people will say stuff like this woman is 35 by the way. by the way this woman is SO OLD to be experiencing this. BY THE WAY.

im 31, almost 32. the other day a poet was blasted online because at her "big age", she had written a poem about feeling unloved. top comment was "this woman is 29 by the way." this woman is too old to still be useful, by the way. she has to behave better . maybe if she was a good wife and mother she could stop existing loudly, and the story could continue on without her. this woman has served her purpose, by the way. she's so cringe, by the way. at 29 - so old! - she still hasn't figured out that her existence should be one of shame.

[aluminumneedles]

I'm knitting in the corner at a party

and guys my age stop by to tell me I remind them of their aunt, of their grandmother. This is a compliment and I take it as such. They confess to having tried crochet once, and I smile. They get back in line for the bathroom.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and a queer woman sits on the floor next to me, arranges her skirt, and smiles up at me. (I try not to blush.) She asks me all the questions on her mind about my craft and I answer them, hands still moving. We swap yarn sources. She doesn't stay, but she knows where to find me.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and everyone knows where to find me when they need a minute, when socializing is too much and the music is too loud and they need to catch their breath. They pretend to be checking in on me, which is sweet, but I can see the relief in their eyes the moment they stop performing for a house full of people. They sit down and tell me things and all the while they never take their eyes off my hands.

The party has wound down and I'm still knitting and the hosts, two guys in their twenties, thank me for "helping to curate the vibe." I had no idea that's what I was doing. I leave the party having forgotten to drink anything and without that woman's number but with many rows added to my top-down raglan sweater. I call it a night, and a good one.

[graysbullshit]

I have been vacinated about 30-45 times in my life. Do you know how much I paid for it? Not a dime.

My great-aunt had a tumor and had to treat it with radiotherapy and chemotherapy. She was fully recovered. Do you know how much she paid for it? Not a dime.

One of Brazil's most famous tv show hosts who has been in show business for over 40 years with over 30 milion views had a kidney transplant this year. Do you know how much he paid for the transplant? Not a dime.

When my mother is bored she walks a block up to the public health center and gets a check up. Do you know how much she pays for this? Not a dime.

My mother has been going to the psychologist. Do you know much she has paid? Not a dime.

Does this enrage you? It should. When Luigi said "this" was a insult to the American people's intelligence he probably meant the mediatic circus around his person, but if we're to be honest you could say the same about USA's healthcare politics. Do not let them tell you it "has to be this way" and "there is no other way." There is. You CAN have better healthcare. You DON'T have to sell your house to pay your medical debt. They are MAKING you do this ON PURPOSE. Don't forget that.

I don't usually have any kindness to spare USAians, but we are with you in this one. The world is watching. You CAN turn this around! Don't let them desincourage you.

[hansoeii]