#i hope it was helpful

[onejellyfishplease]

Hello again!

I did this lil silly survey a long while ago :)

I wanted to ask if you would mind to answer a few of my questions :3

If not, that's totally fine! No pressure!

How many hours do you sleep per night?

How many hours are enough to get through the day and how many are a lot for your standard?

Is caffein (in any form) part of your morning routine or your 'last resort'?

How do you feel over the day before and after consuming caffein (if you consume any)?

For example: sluggish, foggy, awake, exhausted, grumpy, just tired, etc.

Thank you a lot for (maybe) participating!

If you want, I can add you when I post the results, but I can also leave you out :)

Hi hi!

i totally dont mind answering a few questions :)

- okay so hours of sleep... id say i get around 7 ish?? though that can decrease a lot when im stressed (once i went down to routinly getting like 4, that was a fun time /sar)

- i can work pretty well with 7 hours, and getting any more honestly doesnt seem to do much difference?

- and about the caffine questions, i dont actually drink any! yeah i never got into the taste, so it never managed to sneak into my routine

and i dont mind if you add me when you post the results, though im not sure how helpful ive been from your (coffee??) survey.

this was fun! i hope you have a nice day/night <3

[honeysuckle-venom]

Hi Lior 💜 could you talk a bit about how it feels/how you can tell when a part has fused vs. when they've gone dormant? I have a few parts who I thought had integrated, but now I'm questioning it, and I'm curious on what that distinction has felt like for you or how you were able to determine when parts had fused

Hi Blue!

Thank you so much for this fascinating question! Unfortunately I don't have a 100% clear answer for you, but I can do my best.

To a certain extent, I've also had trouble telling the difference, and there have been times when I've questioned whether alters have fused or just gone dormant. In fact, not being certain of that is why I tend to say we're "mostly fused" or "pretty much fused" because I think there's a good chance that we're fully fused, but also a chance that most of us have fused but some are just dormant, and we do have brief periods where we...unfuse briefly? It's a little bit fluid.

But! I do have a handle on some differences! The biggest way I have to tell is if I have access to the things that used to be held by a certain alter. That could mean memories, but more often for me that means certain emotions and/or aspects of identity. The biggest way I can tell that we've fused is having a much much fuller range of emotions and reactions than I used to. I feel whole and present and able to experience things fully in a way that wasn't possible in the past. And certain alters tend to contain specific abilities to experience things, and so when I can experience those things without switching I know it's come from fusion. I'll give an example. Probably one of the earliest alters I fused with was Cypher, who held the majority of our anger. Before fusing I was incapable of experiencing and admitting to anger, and as soon as I started to be angry I would switch with her and/or have a psychotic episode. Now that she has fused, I can and do become angry as myself. But it's not the overwhelming single-minded anger that Cypher experienced; just as she gave me access to anger by fusing, I gave her the ability to temper that anger somewhat and to feel other things alongside it. So now we can experience anger without dissociating or switching, I stay myself and hold onto everything that makes me "me", but I also have the ability to be angry and protective that she once held exclusively. If, instead, I never got angry about anything, I would suspect that she had gone dormant instead of fused.

That example was a pretty clear case, however. There are other alters where their role was less defined, and so it may be harder to tell if they've fused or just become very quiet. But still, even with other alters I can usually find something that they held that I didn't have access to, and if I do have access to it now that points me towards fusion instead of dormancy. It's not 100%, but that's the main way I have to tell the difference.

The other way I have to tell is much harder to describe and may not be at all applicable to anyone else, because it's just kind of...a feeling? There's this sense that I have now that my head is...full and bright and connected, but quiet at the same time? I don't entirely know how to describe it, but back before we fused I didn't ever realize this but it felt kind of like, both really loud and really empty inside at once? Like I was locked out of something, alone and lonely, but also surrounded by conflict and noise and other parts who were separate. And now it feels less lonely, even though there's not talking anymore. It feels warm and yellow and connected, and quiet but in a peaceful way. Like the quiet of a cozy library with lots of people reading silently together, instead of the quiet of being cut off and alone like when everyone else is dormant, or the feeling of being in one room alone with other people shouting from down the hall like before we fused. Again, that's just how it feels internally to me personally, so may not be applicable at all, but yeah. That's how fusion feels to us.

[badolmen]

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[hansoeii]

look at you, you're gorgeous!

[bug-s0da]

blehhh...

i made an aa/lawyersona of @snapscube :3 we all know and love the lawyer+silly girl duos of ace attorney but it's about time the silly girl became the lawyer

[martyrbat]

the memes and jokes about biden dropping out are all great but PLEASE dont turn away and forget the victims of him directly funding a genocide. these are real people that are still being impacted by his cruelty, their tragedies are still ongoing and they need our support more than ever.

if I can suggest a Palestinian family to support, I'll highly recommend Yusuf and his family—who has been vetted for [here]. The GoFundMe breaks down the costs, including the urgent need for an eight year old child to have a kidney replacement, but only €8,404 is currently needed for his family to pay crossing and coordination fees!!

[callisteios]

i made a character uquiz. i 100% promise you that you will get a character you know AND like

[thundersbugs]

rich boy get your ass up and FIGHT!!!

[1st year au]

[brucie-baby]

the fact that alfred was the one to put up jason's memorial is so important to me

[aluminumneedles]

I'm knitting in the corner at a party

and guys my age stop by to tell me I remind them of their aunt, of their grandmother. This is a compliment and I take it as such. They confess to having tried crochet once, and I smile. They get back in line for the bathroom.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and a queer woman sits on the floor next to me, arranges her skirt, and smiles up at me. (I try not to blush.) She asks me all the questions on her mind about my craft and I answer them, hands still moving. We swap yarn sources. She doesn't stay, but she knows where to find me.

I'm knitting in the corner at a party and everyone knows where to find me when they need a minute, when socializing is too much and the music is too loud and they need to catch their breath. They pretend to be checking in on me, which is sweet, but I can see the relief in their eyes the moment they stop performing for a house full of people. They sit down and tell me things and all the while they never take their eyes off my hands.

The party has wound down and I'm still knitting and the hosts, two guys in their twenties, thank me for "helping to curate the vibe." I had no idea that's what I was doing. I leave the party having forgotten to drink anything and without that woman's number but with many rows added to my top-down raglan sweater. I call it a night, and a good one.

[novelconcepts]

I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.

And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.

[miraofhearts2point0]

Isha following Jinx to protect her during a suicide mission where Jinx to tries to get her away for "ruining" her plan.....where have i seen this before?

[tizzymcwizzy]

this is a poster i made for my call to action assignment in humanities! it's a bunch of basic and easy stretches for people who sit and work at a desk all day (me)

the idea is that you'd put the poster up above ur desk and do the stretches every 30 minutes or so,, the whole routine won't take more than about 6 minutes to complete and when done regularly it can prevent wrist, shoulder, neck and back pain! :)

all these stretches can be done while sitting (although i HIGHLY recommend you stand up and move around while taking a break from working)

you can get a free digital copy of this poster here on my gumroad!

and you can order a print/poster here from my inprnt!

[rhinestonesox]

When Senshi was young in the dungeon the majority of the adults he were with ostracized him. All except Gillin, who died to make sure Senshi had something to eat: unseasoned boiled meat that may or may not have been one of their comrades.

It really puts into perspective why he was so nurturing towards Chilchuck. When Chil reveals he’s 28 to the party, Senshi responds by telling him that he thought he was older. Senshi was in his 30s when he and his comrades got trapped in the dungeon, so it’s safe to assume that he thought Chil was at a similar age.

He met a young boy who was, from his perspective, forced to do dangerous work in the dungeon just like he was, and so, Senshi made an effort to look after Chilchuck in the same way Gillin looked after him.

Mind you, when Senshi was young in the dungeon he had to starve for weeks, eat the horse he loved, and finish it off spending the next i don’t know how many years wondering if he committed cannibalism.

Senshi understands first hand the value of nutrition and proper eating, so when he’s with the party he makes an effort to make sure they’re all eating a full and balanced diet. Not only that, but Senshi INVOLVES them in the process of getting food to eat, always preparing it in front of them and narrating every ingredient in the process so that there’s no doubt about what they’re eating.

[hansoeii]

[birdy-babe]

Oh my god they’re going to be best friends one day aren’t they