#it’s so good and so so painful
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I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.
And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.
#i saw the tv glow#I saw the tv glow spoilers#it is SUCH a queer story#the disassociation. the hiding in fiction to feel alive.#the horror of watching time tick by and knowing you’re not who you’re meant to be#the unique paralysis of staying put in hell because it’s safer than what might be over the horizon#the tragedy of trying to help someone who isn’t ready to be helped#god it’s so much. god. rarely do I walk out of a film and just stare soundlessly into space#anyway. please see this movie. although I sort of hope if you’re reading this post it’s cuz you already have#eta: I used he because the main character never quite vocalizes another pronoun#but this is SUCH a trans story. suuuuch a trans story. it is not even a little subtle#it’s so good and so so painful
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Remember that this is not the proof that they love each other
That was a last-ditch attempt from Crowley to get Aziraphale to stay
This is the proof that they love each other
Their love wasn't just made real because they kissed
It always existed
#i will argue this point til my dying breath#they always loved each other#if you think the kiss was the only proof#then i adviae you to reexamine the relationship#the kiss wasn't romantic anyway#it was desperate and painful#it was a last ditch effort from crowley because he loves aziraphale so much#but it was not the confession#he'd already confessed his feelings#the kiss was never necessary to do that#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#crowley#aziraphale#good omens spoilers#go2 spoilers
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I found an extremely dope disability survival guide for those who are homebound, bedbound, in need of disability accommodations, or would otherwise like resources for how to manage your life as a disabled person. (Link is safe)
It has some great articles and resources and while written by people with ME/CFS, it keeps all disabilities in mind. A lot of it is specific to the USA but even if you're from somewhere else, there are many guides that can still help you. Some really good ones are:
How to live a great disabled life- A guide full of resources to make your life easier and probably the best place to start (including links to some of the below resources). Everything from applying for good quality affordable housing to getting free transportation, affordable medication, how to get enough food stamps, how to get a free phone that doesn't suck, how to find housemates and caregivers, how to be homebound, support groups and Facebook pages (including for specific illnesses), how to help with social change from home, and so many more.
Turning a "no" into a "yes"- A guide on what to say when denied for disability aid/accommodations of many types, particularly over the phone. "Never take no for an answer over the phone. If you have not been turned down in writing, you have not been turned down. Period."
How to be poor in America- A very expansive and helpful guide including things from a directory to find your nearest food bank to resources for getting free home modifications, how to get cheap or free eye and dental care, extremely cheap internet, and financial assistance with vet bills
How to be homebound- This is pretty helpful even if you're not homebound. It includes guides on how to save spoons, getting free and low cost transportation, disability resources in your area, home meals, how to have fun/keep busy while in bed, and a severe bedbound activity master list which includes a link to an audio version of the list on Soundcloud
Master List of Disability Accommodation Letters For Housing- Guides on how to request accommodations and housing as well as your rights, laws, and prewritten sample letters to help you get whatever you need. Includes information on how to request additional bedrooms, stop evictions, request meetings via phone, mail, and email if you can't in person, what you can do if a request is denied, and many other helpful guides
Special Laws to Help Domestic Violence Survivors (Vouchers & Low Income Housing)- Protections, laws, and housing rights for survivors of DV (any gender), and how to get support and protection under the VAWA laws to help you and/or loved ones receive housing and assistance
Dealing With Debt & Disability- Information to assist with debt including student loans, medical debt, how to deal with debt collectors as well as an article with a step by step guide that helped the author cut her overwhelming medical bills by 80%!
There are so many more articles, guides, and tools here that have helped a lot of people. And there are a lot of rights, resources, and protections that people don't know they have and guides that can help you manage your life as a disabled person regardless of income, energy levels, and other factors.
Please boost!
#signal boost#please reblog#I'm so so glad this has gotten the traction that it has!#chronic pain#chronic illness#disability#fibromyalgia#cfs#chronic fаtiguе ѕуndrоmе#actually disabled#spoonie#me/cfs#cfs/me#long covid#important#invisible disability#ehlers danlos syndrome#lyme disease#chronically ill#cpunk#cripplepunk#it's a bummer that it's so US centric but if you're outside of the US you can look into similar programs#I hope that other countries have options like these#the US seems so behind when it comes to medical care and disability resources. and i mean it is#but it's good to know all of your rights as a disabled person or if you ever become disabled
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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Aziraphale portrait study - I finally finished coloring it!
I loved his posture, the colors and the lighting in this scene. There are some in-progress snapshots over here.
#good omens#good omens fanart#aziraphale#michael sheen#michael sheen's aesthetically pleasing side profile#it has cast a spell on me#I stared at it for so many hours#I regret nothing#sunshine angel#rendering the hair was extremely painful though#I gave up a little ngl#digital art#procreate#awakesfanart#awakesfanart:go
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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x03 - “Finally Got The Name Right” ↳ "Move! She's not getting away again."
#this scene.... so good.... so painful................... gah#arcane#piltover's finest#caitvi#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcaneedit#arcane league of legends#vi#vi arcane#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn#caitlyn arcane#arcane vi#league of legends arcane#media: arcane#type: gif#league of legends#s2 ep3
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Death by a thousand clones, unless you behave. Don't be a transphobe!
#my art#celeste#celeste game#badeline#do yourself a favor and PLAY THIS GAME it's so hard and painful but so sooo good
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I know we like writing fics where Jason is all "I'm not the kid you lost" and "he died and I'm all the worst parts of him that came back" and whatever. but lately I've been thinking about a Jason that's angry bc everyone thinks he came back wrong, because to him, he's the same as he's always been. sure, he's more upset and angry and traumatized, but he's still Jason.
I've been thinking about a Jason that spent most of the time since his death underground and then catatonic. to him, hardly any time has passed at all. to his family, three years have gone by. and Jason knows he looks different than he did, and he knows he's sharper around the edges, now, but he's still Jason. he's the same kid that died and now he's back and why doesn't anyone see that?
they're the ones that changed, not him
#anyway#I just think it'd be neat#bc I love a good 'Jason has no self worth and everyone needs to convince him he's worthy still'#but the angst of trying to convince you're family you're still in there#under layers of trauma and pain and anger#that you're still YOU despite it all#and I want him to recon w the fact that Dick and Bruce and Alfred are different now#that part of that is his fault (for dying)#that the rest is their fault (for coping so poorly)#(batman used to smile is the thing)#jason todd#batman#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson
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because at the end of the day it’s about how love and hate will destroy you equally. it’s about the fact that merlin and morgana both lost themselves because they became so consumed by their love and hate respectively that it made everything else not matter. because merlin loved arthur so much he hollowed himself out for the sake of it and morgana hated uther so much it ate her alive and became all she was
#bbc merlin#sorry not really a good post or one that’s very coherent but idccccc.#merlin saving uther from death so many times. because of multiple reasons but also explicitly because he wanted to spare arthur the pain of#losing him and it being THE WRONG CHOICE!!!#versus morgana hating him and that being right but losing sight of it all and becoming consumed by her desire for revenge.#morgana#morgana pendragon#merlin#mergana#idk i guess?#e.txt
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I'm just imagining Sevika charging into battle not knowing where her girls are. she hears whispers from the battlefield that Isha is dead and that Jinx is gone. taken. captured. surrendered. she doesn't want to accept either. she almost refuses. and it's in the back of her mind that she has to live so she can find her girls, and at the very least, remember them.
and she almost dies. she thinks that there might not be anyone to remember them. to find them.
and then she doesn't. she doesn't die. and one thing leads to another, and she's on the council. and....
she still doesn't know what happened to them.
and then Vi, the girl who, justifiably, hates her guts, comes back. and the look on her face all She needs to know Jinx is gone. but she can't accept it. she can't.
she demands to know what happened, in a clipped, gruff manner, not displaying much care, but her eyes are teary and her gut is churning.... and Vi just says they're gone.
and all Sevika can do is whisper "... both?"
and she doesn't wait for an answer. the face is enough. "how?".
the answer kills her.
she walks away. murmurs an apology over her shoulder.
she doesn't know what to do with the feeling in her chest. her fingers trace over the carving in her arm.
#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#sevika#jinx#isha#sevika arcane#jinx arcane#isha arcane#the were a family and now Sevika's alone#and I think the bittersweet of Vi and Sev. not so kuch getting along. but having that moment.#Sevika knew Jinx longer than Vi did. she filled part of that role in Jinx's life. even if she did so poorly for a majority of the time.#but she didn't get to say goodbye. didn't get to have the closure of being there.#and Vi did. not that that is a good thing. it was horrific. but I think the two of them have experienced enough loss to know that the pain-#makes it easier to understand. seeing it makes it final.#and the two bridging that navey gap for those mere moments eats#snd then they part ways and they grieve#but Vi should deliver that news
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#ineffable idiots
#i am not choosing sides they're both idiots who need to communicate better#and i love them so much#its for the character development ok#good omens#good omens 2#go2 spoilers#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#aziraphale#crowley#goodomensedit#dailygoodomens#ineffable partners#it was not funny just gotta laugh through the pain#myedits*#10k
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People do not talk enough about how amazing Lae'zels voice acting is. Devora Wilde put her whole ass pussy into some of those lines but nobody pays attention and calls laezel one note and angry. But have you listened? Have you heard her voice shake as she cries "what good - this heart of stone - for it to be shattered?" Have you heard the conviction where she declares that Vlaketh has sinned against her? Have you listened to the fear in her voice, the slight tremble when she is talking of becoming a mindflayer and the way that she has utter awe in her tones when she experiences something that is truly spiritual to her? Like. It's such a subtle and great performance.
#bg3#lae'zel#the other voice actors are also incredible#wylls voice actor creates the charming prince so easily#but still manages the tough moments#karlachs act 3 gortash dead speech and the pain in that???#astarion gets all the praise anyway i dont gotta mention him#and gale and SHADOWHEART#god#such good performances in this game
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genuinely i think it's important for adults, especially in the plague times, to play pretend in our day-to-day lives. when i rub my back down with tiger balm so i can sleep without pain, i imagine i am a valiant knight tending to an old injury i received from a dragon. when i go to the store to pick up eggs and milk, i am a lone cowboy riding into town on a mission. when i turn my collar up against the wind i am a femme fatale who's killed 4 husbands and is scoping out a 5th. when i stomp around in the snow i am a doomed polar explorer. if being a little bit silly about my walk to the pharmacy helps me remember that life can be full of joy and whimsy, then so be it.
#this is a pointless text post#my most embarrassing version of this is that whenever it was foggy at the lighthouse i imagined i was emily bronte#or that i was taking a walk in the fog with my good friend emily bronte :^)#so much of this is also tied into the fact that my body hurts all the goddamn time#i am trying to make my pain something i can live with#is this gonna be how i learn that normal people don't daydream about being In The Past#anyway do u guys imagine these sort of scenarios too or am i just a freak#greatest (s)hits
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#genshin impact#genshinedit#genshinimpactedit#genshinet#genshin otter#leisurely otter#otter#mine.gif#theyre soooooo cute#getting the footage for this was so painful tho...#trying to find good angles#the fact that my ping is terrible and makes my game stutter if my graphics are anything higher than low LMFAO#but i did it for them... my sweetums...
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bw sketch practice before i leave on holiday !!
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#gojo satoru#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#jujutsu gojo#jujutsu kaisen art#jjk satoru#im not gna have access to my tablet until i get back so any drawing i Do manage to do will b good ol pen and paper babeyyyy#(pained voice)#but i figured might as well get myself used to the monochrome and make sure im not samefacing my most common subjects#i think we're good gdfhj#ill miss my cintiq ill miss painting n drawing in colour tho cries foreverrrr#i do have a few things drafted to post During my trip but it wont b as frequent unfortunately#itll b fine i hope pls bear with me and the quality drop#for now i leave u with this <3
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this is the first time back at my computer since my back injury 3 months ago and i had a hankering for some isabela 💙🗡
#girl. im in so much pain#i hope this gets better with time. these last few months have taken such a mental and physical toll on me#honestly been not feeling good about my art too but im trying sooo hard to stay positive OTL#isabela my lovely save me!!!!!!#isabela#dragon age 2#dragon age#da2#my art#art
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