#i have to stop the spiral somehow

[akhuna01]

Yay, Manic Depression combined with Anxiety and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is SUCH a great combination

My mind is SCREAMING that I *have* to craft, create, bake, draw, sew, ANYTHING.

My fatigue is putting a blanket over me and whispers that I was at the barn this morning and at chour practise, so I'm titally exhaudted and spent all my spoons for today (and my polyneuropathy is fucking up my typing abilities, i'm not gonna correct them because it's fitting here)

My anxiety is running rampant in my head muttering 'but if I don't craft/sew/draw RIGHT NOW, what is my value as a huma being. I am a burden to society. I can never adk for anything because I give nothing in return.

It's... great. Really.

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

[imtheiliad]

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[king-ludwig-ii]

T shirt that says I still have social issues and trauma from things that happened over a decade ago

[abstractlesbian]

I think the routine my new job is giving me has been really good for my mental health but it's funnier to say Ive been too tired to be mentally ill

[lunar-fey]

oh yeah not sure where we're at w money btw. we might be able to get some of it back but we wont know anything concrete until friday

[thecooler]

I wish my brain wasn't so sucks

[hellfireeddiemunson]

sick of making plans with a specific friend only for her to not reach out abt actually hanging out until the afternoon after i’ve waited all day to hear back from her or for her to just cancel last minute entirely after i’ve again waited all day to hear back from her

[ashennightingale]

did u know being raised in an abusive household and then finally getting some semblance of control over ur life only to be sent back into that situation again but worse this time bc u had cancer and still feel completely broken and ruined bc of it . Isn't Great For Your Mental Health

[sophaeros]

super fucking pissed off at how incredibly Neat a metaphor is "when the heat starts growing horns / she's thunderstorms"

[cherrysnax]

a few years ago I lowkey wanted to start an askblog based off of our OCs and that hankering comes back sometimes. it’s weird how different of a headspace I am in compared to then

[joevo]

i think ill just go to bed early and maybe ill wake up with enough time to comfortably eat breakfast before work for once

[beastblade69]

I love brown eyes, my grandfather had brown eyes and had the softest look in his eyes. I wish I had brown eyes too

[jackass-jones]

People in the notes have said physical therapist Akihiko and ohohoho you fools you fucking clowns you don’t even know. Imagine Shinji getting out of the coma and all the rehabilitation shit he’s gotta do all the physical therapy like you just know Akihiko is so fucking over the moon he’s done so much research he’s so excited to see Shinji have a “training regime” he infodumps about what’s happening with the muscle recovery process and what stretches work best hes just way too invested he talks over doctors and Shinji is just like “good god if you know so much why don’t you just be a physical therapist” and Akihiko’s like 😈

Akihiko becoming a cop is something that simply doesn’t happen in the coma route cuz Shinji would see that shit and be like Aki what the actual hell is wrong with you

[eastofedean]

Definitely didn't mean to make you feel bad about wanting that! As I think you realize, but just making sure. And yeah again, I worry too quickly. Just wanted to send you some encouragement in case you needed it. I'll leave you to it, keep destieling destie! (Let me make up words okay 😅)

it's all good, anon! I am just glad we talked about it! thank you for being patient like that, that's nothing I take for granted :)

and I will try! I don't know if you are a big spn fan yourself, but if so, I hope you'll do the same! have a good day!

[celestialmancer]

⛈️ ❌ ❌ ❌ // 2:09 am, tbd ;