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Rocker Miguel and pbmj au when???
when i queue it you impatient lil greedy bug you~<3!
#precious anon#impatient anon#tho to be fair#i have been gone for decades#yes i know i am a shit#SOON#ish#lol#queuing sexy arts and other shit too#already hella late on finishing them spooky butchlander prompts!#i'm a slow bean!#still love you#thanks for the ask!#also obsessing over sterek<3#gawd i am a mess...
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there's few things i hate more than people watering down what it means to be antizionist. it's in the fucking name. if you believe there's any capacity to reconcile palestinian liberation with the existence of israel you're not an antizionist, you might as well take that watermelon emoji out of your bio.
it is not enough to be "pro-palestine," we're over a year into a live broadcasted genocide, recognizing and denouncing the genocide and siding with its victims is the bare minimum and should be the standard at this point. after 15 months of live streamed genocide, you'd think that would prompt people to investigate what led us to this point, how we all failed palestinians, and what it means to truly stand by them, but no not really. some dumb fucking cunts really think they're well and truly antizionist by advocating for a ceasefire and politely asking israel to pull their rabid, bloodthirsty settlers out of the westbank. as if the settler colonialism started in '67, and the ethnic cleansing that preceded is always either left not acknowledged or outright justified.
palestinian liberation means the abolition of the settler colonial, apartheid nation state that is israel, and giving the land back to its rightful owners, nothing less, not even an inch less.
#2 state solution believers kys#and before anyone asks i don't give a single fuck what happens to the nazi settlers once the state is gone#i'm not going to sit and speculate about the hypothetical comfort of settler colonists when their victims are dying by the thousands#right now. and they have been for years.#i don't care what happens to them and neither should you. whatever happens in their future is not enough to warrant#inaction in the face of what palestinians are and have been enduring for decades now#and it never will be. i don't understand how you cunts can conjure up more sympathy for fascists in hypothetical scenarios#as they're actively genociding their victims live on your phone and tv and whatever else
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Got Toya's Sanrio card and these interactions are so funny... VBS has been on the RW grind lately in Ensekai so kind of I forgot how fun their more light-hearted interactions were
#project sekai#akito shinonome#an shiraishi#toya aoyagi#kohane asuzawa#vivid bad squad#vbs#autumnal rambles#must be because he's a hamster....#i'm so charmed by that line for some reason#also. this is a tangent but for nearly two decades i've thought it was badtz-madu and not badtz-maru#like. i've been calling him the wrong thing for years#and like i grew up with hello kitty video games.... somehow i got it in my head that it was 'madu'#my dad and sibling also thought it was madu. idk what happened but#i think if not for this sanrio collab i probably would have gone forever without realizing i've been saying his name wrong all these years
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AU where Loki doesn’t interfere with Thor’s banishment at all and it takes Thor years to prove himself worthy and when he returns to Asgard everything is just. The same. Nothing seems to have changed at all and everyone greets him like his absence was a minor obstacle that didn’t fundamentally change Thor and the worst part is Loki stepped down from the place as regent without any delay and Thor can’t help but feel there’s something underlaying the way his brother looks at him now and won’t let him touch him and Thor doesn’t know what he could have missed because he doesn’t think he would have found anything wrong with the things around him and how everyone behaves if he hadn’t spent time on Earth reflecting.
#the warriors 4 not being interested in anything Thor ‘learnt’ at all#and making it clear that Thor was punished unfairly and the AllFather’s decision had been harsh#Loki saying he’s happy for Thor and Thor sees the way the smiles are forced and he sees the way Loki avoids any touch#Thor hating the way Frigga talks about Loki’s short regency and Thor’s absence like it wasn’t two whole decades or something#like she’s so grateful to have her other son back without ever addressing why he was gone#Thor just. growing during his time on earth and being much more aware of the behaviour around him#he learns to be critical and assess why people around him may act a certain way#once he realises that it’s possible for him or anyone else to be fallible and make mistakes it’s over for Asgard for him I think#Thor returns and Loki gives him the throne and everyone expects him to obviously have the throne#and Odin is sleeping and Thor isn’t comfortable with the way everyone accepts him as king regent after the banishment#Loki who either never lashed out against Jotunheim or did and it was brushed away and no one thinks about it as anything#but Loki is still deeply affected and acts the way he always would have but Thor can feel it’s not the same#he knows something is wrong and Loki won’t say anything about it and Thor doesn’t know how to bring it up#Thor sees Loki metaphorically receding into the shadows to become a nonpresence so loud Thor hears it even after returning from decades away#Thor goes to Earth and gets his priorities in order gets a new worldview learns not to take what he has for granted#and finds out he actually despised Asgard#he’s been back a week and he can’t stand it
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I was chronically online in the early 2010s - Of course I have a Supernatural OC
#Dude#I have had this bitch for like over a decade now?#she's gone through many forms but has defo been ginger since at least 2016#She's had at least 4 names as well but I'm just calling her Boots for now#my art#True Sight AU#spn oc#supernatural oc#spn fc#supernatural fan character#supernatural fc#supernatural#supernatural fandom#hunter oc#supernatural fanart#supernatural hunters#spn fanart
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Officially 23 ig
#idk how I feel about it#it’s officially been a decade since I got out of the weird culty homeschool farm#and thus about a decade since I started to realize and process all the fucked up shit that happened to me#so. hm.#also six years since hs so that’s also. hm.#many years since many bad things#but also I feel like I’m not doing much better and haven’t actually gone anywhere or have found good people I’m happy with#but I’m not dead so that’s something?#and I am gonna try and do things to be better this year so#idk#feel weird and still kinda low key really upset#that my last birthday I felt so happy and content cuz I was with my ex and ex best friend#and now neither of them are in my life anymore…….#ugh#kaz rambles
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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed
#not art#nsbu spoilers#kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase#also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick#and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here#(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and#becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone#I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did#and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity#(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction#and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping#we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that#and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along#while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People#like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded#like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders#not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything#I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender#and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up#deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u#dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here#the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect
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hi hi hi :3c i'm aaaaaaalmost caught up on my dash after a couple of weeks of spotty appearances and a couple of weeks of being Straight Up Offline, and then i'll catch up on peoples' art and fics!! i miss being on here!! hi hi hi hi hi!!!!! 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻
(also i have been Pondering over a ren sentient a.i desktop buddy AU while i've been gone bc. i'm a sucker for that shit. dunno if it'll go anywhere but for now i'm playing touys and it's fun hehehe if you see a new tag at some point then that means i'm keeping him sjndfkn)
#tldr things are happening irl that are Theoretically Positive but carry a decade of baggage + are very stressful bc i'm being rushed#and health insurance bullshit has been stressing me out further. so any free time not related to the stuff above#has gone into like. crocheting a blanket. logging off. spending time off of social media. yeah!!!#i'm gonna be so so happy for everything to be done so i can sit down and Draw Things again!!! aaaaaaa!!!#need to finish my new ren ref sheet! need to draw smth for oushirou's upcoming bday!!#i missed r!ren's anniversary so i want to maybe doodle a little something for him!!!#and i want to draw little like. shimeji / ukagaka ren. is he malware gone rogue? did he just spontaneously gain sentience?? man idk lol#but in... middle school i think? i saw miyavi's 'girls be ambitious' MV and made a sentient a.i. oc based on his chara in that video#and ever since then. every time i selfship w someone. At Some Point i think about a desktop buddy au. :') it altered my brain sjkdn#ogey! i'm gonna try to finish catching up now!! i might not have the energy to say as much as i normally do on ppls art and fics#esp because there's SO much of it in my drafts ;;;;;;;;; but!!! i want to share everything i can!!! bc what i've seen is Sick As Hell!!!!#but yeah i'm hopefully gonna finish the last remaining Big Things next week 🙏🏻🙏🏻 and will maybe be on here more. (pls pls pls)#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]
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wish i could read latin........
#so many very important botanical writings are in latin...... girl help#hopefully i can find a translation somewhere#if only id gone to school a few decades earlier and then i would have been taught it#or at least given the option#whihc i did want btw but i went to a state school so it was not an option#its the purview of private school kids here#and even then it depends
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The weight of the world is a heavy burden
Especially for a child
(Or, in slightly less dramatic terms – I imagine that the first of her past lives that Avatar Suiren [who is the Avatar after Aang instead of Korra in my AU, and also Ghazan and Ming-Hua’s daughter] gets to talk to is Yangchen, because she is too plagued by memories not her own [including Jetsun’s death, fun fact]. And Yangchen wouldn’t want another child to go through what she did on their own)
(Or maybe someone just needed an excuse to draw @katkastrofa’s latest obsession in a context that interests them as well, just in time to maybe cheer her up a little? You can’t prove anything)
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#Avatar Suiren AU#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#yangchen#original character#sotrl suiren#if you’re wondering what the context is. Suiren is around 8 or 9 here. already having revealed herself as the Avatar to her parents#and it has been Hard. because as much as they try to maintain a sense of normalcy for her. it’s clear that things have changed#they never accounted for their daughter turning out to be the Avatar. they hoped Aang dying on the night she was born to be a coincidence#all of their plans now have to be rethought and put on hold because her safety is more important than anything else#she is never blamed for anything. she is still just as loved. yet there’s now a heaviness in their gazes whenever they look at her#the Avatar as a concept should not exist. it is too much power and responsibility for one being who is ultimately human#that’s what Suiren was taught. so what do those teachings mean if she’s the Avatar?#basically.. a whole lot of cognitive dissonance and she hasn’t even been alive for a decade yet#and all her life her head was filled by strange memories and dreams. fragments of lives not her own. sometimes nightmares#and usually her mama would comfort her through it but tonight… she just wants to be alone#so she wanders off. not too far. but enough that she wouldn’t be heard. and just softly cries#because it’s too much. because she doesn’t want to be the Avatar. why her? why not anyone else?#and as she whispers that she wishes she wasn’t the Avatar. her mind is assaulted by memories of previous Avatars saying the same thing#it really is a never ending cycle of too much burden being placed on a single person. but that realisation is anything but comforting#she begs for it to stop because that grief of life over life spent pushing a boulder uphill is just Too Much#and before she knows it. it ceases. only to be replaced by a blue glow visible even through closed eyelids#and a feather light touch of hands on her face. it doesn’t feel exactly like human hands by virtue of belonging to a spirit#that helps her relax a little. reminding her of mama’s touch. she looks at the person who appeared before her. her mind supplies the name#‘Avatar Yangchen?’. she whispers. but the woman is nowhere near as stoic and peaceful as she’s shown to be in every depiction of her#she looks.. sad. concerned. as burdened by grief as Suiren herself is. she’s not just a legendary figure from a time long gone#not yet another past life Suiren would never measure up to. she’s… human. capable of human emotion. just like Suiren is#I’m not sure how their conversation goes and have no inspiration to come up with anything. but I just wanted to draw them interacting
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drew this earlier to distract myself from the filling i had to get
#i've been having a dental battle for an entire year now btw please help#getting out of college was just ''okay time to get my life together!'' and turns out that's really hard#when you havent been to a general dentist in 5+ years and havent seen a doctor in over a decade#doctor has gone okay but i still cant sleep and my sleep medicine hurts my chest which is a ''STOP TAKING IMMEDIATELY'' symptom :/#dentist tho... get me out of here. im so tired. so many appointments...#but anyways funny piggie. chat i am so tired i need positive enrichment#online environment is miserable and offline environment is exhausting#chat#awa
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PSA |
Yes this is a Jason Peter Todd centric blog, but it's also 100% supportive of Talia al Ghul. There will be no slander here. No perpetuating of the racist, misogynistic bullshit that drove the narrative divebomb of her character.
#Talia al Ghul#Talia al Ghul Appreciation#Blog PSA#Not a Brutalia stan but I support the shippers.#Fuck Grant Morrison#They were the catalyst for her being mischaracterized for near 20 years now.#I don't know if I believe them when they say they “remembered that scene wrong.”#Like... what?#Literally nothing in Talia's character or writing should have ever led you to think that of her.#And you're not a fucking fanfic author writing for tens to maybe a couple hundred readers Grant.#You were writing for an official canon work that thousands upon hundreds of thousands of people have read.#You had a duty to double check your facts before tarnishing the legacy of a character#that has been so incredibly important to the Batman history and story.#I'm of the belief that it was done at least in part to make Bruce the good parent#which is a bit of a hard thing to do after decades of him being a C- dad 90% of the time to the boys and pretty shitty to Stephanie.#Have also considered it was something done to make Damian more... Tragic? Sympathetic? Potentially.#But I'm not as confident in that as I am that it was motivated by the desire to make Bruce the good parent of the two.#Even if we dismiss those possibilities and the prejudices involved#Grant could have just gone through those issues again and went with the storyline where Brutalia gets it on#then Talia either never informs Bruce of the pregnancy or fakes a miscarriage like I think she did in the original pre Crisis plot.#After that she hides the pregnancy from Ra's and gives birth in secret. Maybe she has him trained in much the same fashion as Jason was.#Like there was definitely better options for Grant to live out their power fantasies through Damian in ways that didn't spit on Talia.#Anyway rant over.#Back to the regularly scheduled Jason reblogs lol.#Ξ Queued
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The older I get the more I hate seeing Grantaire depicted as a twink
#HES AN OTTER!!!!!! HAIRY AND SOFT#bear is sometimes acceptable but it has to be bear as in feral muddy beast not perfect manscaped physique#i am paying for the crimes of my youth#I dreamed a dream of twinks gone by#grantaire#noah fence#forgive me father for i have sinned its been a decade but i cant take the twink grantaires i manifested back
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living in the US is like I will exist in public spaces but if anyone raises their voice above a polite indoor voice I am always ready willing and able to slip into a panic attack
#there was a little mini festival going on so we were sitting by the road and this group of dumbass teenage boys were playing something that#required them to scream and start running in different directions every five minutes#set off my fight or flight so bad my hands were shaking sipping my sangria it was embarrassing bro#i dont even think it was necessarily the trauma from the shooting back in december i would've been just as bad before then#just on the principle of having gone to american public schools for a decade
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The last couple hundred years have seen society, especially wealthy, western societies, increasingly distancing themselves from the visceral, immediate experience of death. Death is to be hidden and shunned, grief to be pushed aside and made brief. This has been made possibly by improvements in health care, but also by the ever-growing emphasis on the nuclear family and the greater space between people and the sources of their food.
On a smaller scale, as we've had more space to store belongings - as homes have grown and the number of people living within them have decreased - it has been easier for people to acquire and retain belongings over long periods of time. This has led to phenomenon where people buy things they absolutely adore...and then do not use them, as they have the space to store them and they've grown afraid of the damage that will be done to their things if they use them.
Though the second is of course on a smaller scale, the lose of a beloved object still involves a grieving process, and therefore is a less severe analogy for the loss of a loved one.
I posit that the two phenomena are in fact that same phenomenon: that a fear of loss of all kinds, the limiting of space for experiencing loss in our lives, and a dissipation of the skills that enable one to grieve loss in a healthy way, have resulted in our current culture where it is safer to ignore death, and safer to preserve our favorite objects unused, than it is to risk loss.
In this essay, I will...
#unforth rambles#idk my wife's favorite pair of slippers died this morning#and i mentioned i was still mourning my favorite pair of boots that i wore out about a decade ago#and my son was like ??? so I explained and he was like oh that's sad#and I thought about katherine who died earlier this month and how weird grieving for her has been#and how little experience i truly have with grieving#and idk i just ended up here because i'd rather use a thing then grieve when it's gone#then just not use it#but i know a lot of people struggle with that#and it got me thinking that in a way those small grievings help me better know how to process#the bigger grievings from the loss of a loved one#idk maybe this will help someone#more likely it'll get five notes and then disappear into my blog past lmao
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sometimes I’m having the kind of night that I feel gratitude for my current mental state and my thought process goes “i ❤️ drinking” → “god what a toxic anti recovery thought SHUT UP you stupid alcoholic” → “not MY fault im having a good dopamine day. Nyeeeeeh [sticks my tongue out to be childishly taunting and not to be cute]” and really there’s gotta be a better way. In unrelated news i think Dalinar needs to fuck Sadeas raw in a wind and truth vision or else Roshar will explode
#luke.txt#drunkposting#purple dragon jungle juice#kowt spoilers#wind and truth spoilers#the real challenge will be getting Approximation Of Sadeas In The Spiritual Realm to bottom#but depending on the hole dalinar can either go ‘it’s a vision you won’t need lube’#or ‘it’s a vision you won’t get pregnant’#assuming that it’s not at a point in time where sadeas will have already gone through menopause#I don’t actually know how menopause works when you’ve been on T for 35 years#and you haven’t gotten a regular period in multiple decades#mysteries that Honor himself will not be able to solve
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