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laxi0v0 · 9 days
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You were seen under Ditty's post. Now you obliged to draw scriddler with Scarebeast...
if you want and have time ofc 💋
Yes, yes absolutely yes. I am on vacation rn so I can't. but I wanted to let you know you're not getting ignored, your request is very valid and I will try to remember when I'm back.
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yeah I'll have to remove 2nd & 3rd for the event since not much people joined
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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...
#not a shitpost#serious post#ask to tag#tw trauma#cptsd#c-ptsd#and if so we should TALK about it#because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays#like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc#bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times#and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd)#because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact#2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc#3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation#and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie#4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories#and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong#weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards#i got lucky there#also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons
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sisterdaniela · 12 days
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omg i just randomly remembered from the copenhagen show,,, ,, a confession was like "i've been in love with my bestfriend for so many years and she has no idea" or something like that, and dnp were literally like "pffft couldn't be us amiright" THAT WAS SO FOUL OF THEM?????
(edit: here is the audio guys (and another higher quality audio here), my memory may have worded it differently but still... dan says "here we are two bros sitting five feet apart in a confession box because that's not ussss")
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sweetpapercroissant · 2 years
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The thing about me is that I will learn the meaning of a new word and be like “oh nice :)” then forget about it 5 minutes later
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cruelplatonic · 3 months
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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firehose118 · 3 months
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thinking about how tommy is uniquely positioned to help eddie in s8
under the watchful eye of catholicism, eddie would have been raised to believe in the nuclear family. this is the schema of family eddie has been trying to impose on himself and chris, at least in part because he feels like it's his fault that chris doesn't have a mother. he feels like their family is incomplete without a mother
whether eddie is actually straight or not, it's clear that he's chafing within the confines of this unexamined, prescribed, idealistic kind of heterosexuality. ryan guzman has said as much: eddie is trying to force the kinds of relationships with women that he feels like he's supposed to have, rather than ones that would actually make him happy
tommy spent decades in the closet; hiding both from himself and from the outside world. he had to come to terms with the reality of his desires and with the fact that he was not sexually or romantically attracted to women, no matter how hard he tried to force himself to be
tommy had to accept that the life that he grew up believing he would have—the one that he was told over and over again was the only acceptable way for him to live—was not a life that could ever make him happy. he is not what he thought he was supposed to be, but there's nothing wrong with that
now it's eddie's turn to learn this. he is trying with increasingly disastrous results to recreate 1:1 what he and chris had with shannon without remembering that it fell apart the first time—without allowing himself to remember how miserable he and shannon both were. eddie thinks he can force these relationships to work because he's done it before and he was happy. but he didn't, and he wasn't
maybe eddie is gay. maybe he's bi, maybe he's ace. maybe he really is straight and he just has a lot more work to do to disentangle his ideas of romantic partner and mother of my child from each other—to see a relationship as a partnership for himself rather than as payment for a debt he feels he owes to his son
eddie needs to stop getting into relationships based on guilt—based on obligation and what he thinks is the right or even the only thing to do—and start figuring out what he actually wants out of a relationship for himself
regardless of what, exactly, the writers decide eddie's core denial is going to be, tommy is the most qualified person to help him through it right now. tommy has been there. tommy knows how hard it is to date a woman who is perfectly lovely on paper and to just not be able to love her the way she deserves—because of him
tommy knows what it's like to feel broken because of this. and tommy knows what it's like to fight his way to the understanding that he is not
there was nothing wrong with tommy: he was just trying to force himself to be someone he is not because that's what was expected of him
there is nothing wrong with eddie: he is just trying to force himself to be someone he is not because he thinks that's what is expected of him
tommy can help eddie get there
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pharlapcartoonist · 1 year
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My mom wanted to visit the city centre, so I was wondering what places I want to visit, since we don't get to go there often. And then I remembered there is this little bookshop inspired (or owned, I couldn't remember) by @neil-gaiman. I really like the place. I was wondering how exactly I went there, or what was the name. It took me ages to remember it was called Oblivion.
All this, only to find out on Google this place doesn't exist?! I would swear I was there like 3 times, and went by many more. I could tell you what is where.
Seems like Neil owns a little bookshop in my dreams. And I love it
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ef-1 · 10 months
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labour | female rage playlist, part 2
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disgracefulthings · 3 months
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Is it me or...
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Is Han Sooyoung from Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint very similar to our resident hamster?
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amourninghost · 9 months
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oh oops,
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sniffle . sob
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evie-doesnt-write · 3 months
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Revolutionary Girl Utena: Ep.22//Ep.34
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uncanny-tranny · 10 months
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If you ever come across somebody who has lost a child but who still has other children, I am begging you not to say, "you might have lost a child, but at least you have others!"
It isn't comforting to be told that children are interchangeable, insignificant, and replaceable. It's not comforting a grieving family to be told that their loved one's memory is worthless because it can be replaced; it doesn't help the surviving children or the parent/s.
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theophagie · 6 months
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I didn't watch stone ocean's anime when it came out because of the batches release so since jjba has rolled back around in my brain I was like ykw let me see what they did with the scenes between Pucci and Dio my good friend Dio. And now I'm out here losing my mind because girl. Girl. The music. THE CARESS???? Get out of here!!!!!!
And. Rip to the video (tfw tumblr limitations) but god. God. The scene on the bed...... look at diz............
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jamandjazz · 2 months
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I’ve read purly fics where they write Curly as this drug dealer, devil may care attitude type of guy, shoplifting and car stealing mf, and every time I see it I have to resist the urge to go “I have a ship I actually think you’d LOVE—“
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