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#i hate that my brain is broken and it makes me fight with my family....#i.wish i could jjst shut my mouth like thsy qant me to.....#it smells like human shit n piss in my room cus im too scared to ask my dad to change it :')✨️💕✌️#i wanna cut so that i get release and attention but last time my dad didnt even notice and my sister didnt take it seriously :(#i feel like cuttong is the only way to let out my Ick and show how not good im doing#mental illnesses are invisible and so fucking crippling......#my family thinks im lazy i just know they do#im such a fuvking failure at 25 i should be taking care of my dad like he did to his..#also my dad always says hes in catholic hell sooooo guess im not real then :')#he spefically says he died as a kid and this is his hell.....🥹✌️💔#i just....hate my life and already dont feel real#he basically vents and says whatever without thinking about the impact on ME the adult child with autism.#i think about my words affect on everybody all the time and it seems like barely anyone thinks the same#....maybe i can s-xually -buse myself instead of cutting#but cumming always brings a biiiiig wave of crying#i shpuldnt cut for the attebtion but FUCK i wanna get a hug or see someone have a soft voice n soft eyes for me#....all i do is annoy my dad#i should just kill myself so i dont annoy him anymore#but im too scared of failing#also im scared of Hell#i need a hug that doesnt start with me asking for a hug......#if i didnt do anything affectionate for a whole day i would go without it#i would trade every present in the world if my family could at least just UNDERSTAND my emotional brain#instead i get “i just dont understand” over n over n over n over again.....#im not trying to be an attention seeker when i say this: logically the only answer i can come up with is to k-ll myself.#its like 2 + 2 = su!cide#my family says that theyd kill themselves if i did....i dont believe that#theyre less broken than me so they would heal and move on.#for clarification#the most violent thing km gonna do is c-t myself im NOT attempting tonight
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uhm anyway this is my official script outline proposal for venom vs spiderfriend / spiderman 4 / venom 4 !
cockroach!venom is travelling to new york all by himself (the the barman is there too because it's just really funny) while we follow eddie having thee worst day he's ever had. he stubs his toe getting out of bed in the morning, his coffee order is wrong and spills on his shirt, he drops his laptop on the concrete, he loses every lead he had on an investigation, a bird shits on his shoulder, it starts to rain and he doesn't have an umbrella, he gets hit by a street puddle a cab drives through, a fling he's "trying" breaks everything off over text message (gender ambiguous), and then when he's crossing the street he gets fucking BODIED by a truck. he gets rushed to the hospital, barely alive, major trauma, broken bones, brain bleed, cardiac arrest, and before he goes he says, "see you soon, buddy," whilst clutching his lady liberty keychain in his hands
cut to spiderman, doing spideythings on earth 616, swinging through the city of new york,
meanwhile, cock!venom is vroaching it up on the other side of the city, going from alley to alley, dodging cars and pedestrians, barely evading death, looking into windows searching for something, making tiny, whiny little alien sounds. he finds a tasty little treat (rat brains) in between and as he's about to munch spiderman's ass squashes him from falling through a marvel sparkles universe hole. venom attaches himself to spiderman and they are an absolute hate at first sight. by GOD does venom hate peter and does peter try to get rid of venom any and all opportunities! "YOU" "what me?" "YOU ARE THE RED BLUE MAN FROM TV" "well... yeah? i'm spiderman? can you get out of my body please??" venom does not, in fact, get out of his body, but they fight some alley bad guys, one calls spiderman an "uptight fruity" and venom goes ballistic. they fight together, badly, because neither of them is strong enough to control the other and then they fight each other before realising it's pointless. venom ends saying "don't let guys like that get you down, bug, sing your own song, dance to your own beat, it's what we do" to peter when they're done fighting and peter just goes ???
eddie is still dying in the hospital, medically induced coma, anne arrives with dan, they mourn him, getting told there's no chance of survival anymore. they're keeping him alive for mrs chen to say her goodbyes, and unhooking his life support in two days. capcut dream montage where he's raising a family together with venom, eddie says, "this is a life i like better,". that's normal behaviour
spideyvenom is being followed by some woodchippers, venom explains NOTHING to the spider man because they doesn't like the spider man. they have a day where they try to find out whats going on, barely working together, but good enough to find out some information. they have an alleycat fight and venom reveals that he's looking for someone "special to us" after coming all the way from nevada, and peter goes "ah.. mr venom, she must be important to you for you to travel all this way, huh?" "yes, insect... he is important to us" and spiderman goes O.O and then tries to help but no one's heard of an "eddie brock". the city, in the meantime, becomes jittery and weird, and something big is coming. something big and wrong. they go on a venom bender and meet the barman in an underground (gay) club in nyc and have a fun (for venom. terrible for spidey and the barman) night out
eddie is dying, slowly, in the hospital, unresponsive to everyone and everything. mrs chen says a tearful goodbye, leaving a bar of chocolate on his bedside table, anne stays with eddie whilst dan goes with mrs chen to get some food. she holds his hand, cries, maybe. she says, through tears,"i wish he could've protected you longer"
spideyvenom are doing what they can to protect people (venom eats a few of them), swinging through the city when more marvel sparkles appear. by god. that's a lot of fucking marvel sparkles. that's. that's too many marvel sparkles. the sky opens up, there really isn't a lot of time left, the something big, something wrong is here.
swinging through new york, spideyman is listing off everything that's going very, very wrong, trying to evacuate as many people, when venom spots eddie, barely, through a top floor hospital window. in reality he actually spots anne, throwing everything on a hail mary, and decides to crash them into the hospital window. anne ducks to protect eddie, spiderman takes off his mask in anger, "mr venom what the hell??? we HAVE to go, NOW,". venom rejects himself from spiderman, launching him out of the window, and jumping onto eddie, trying to be absorbed, "eddie?... eddie... eddie.. eddie. eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie eddie!! eddie!!! eddie!!!! eddie!!!!! eddie!!!!!!! eddie!!!!!!!!!! eddie!!!!!!!!!!!!! EDDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!,"
venom goes to anne, looking at eddie, "why isn't our other waking up? what is wrong with our eddie, anne?". "venom, i'm so sorry."
so venom, without thinking, without any hold back, makes anne perform cpr, just enough to flow into eddie. just. barely. enough. and he brings eddie back again, slamming him back into life, waking up another codex in the process, but he doesn't care. because their eddie is back, and eddie is waking up.
eddie says, whilst reaching up to his chest, "hey buddy, i just had the-," "weirdest dream, eddie,"
silence, for a moment, the camera is only focused on them sitting in eddie's glass covered hospital bed before,
"am i dead? are we dead? is this it?" "no, eddie, we are alive," and eddie presses their foreheads together, gently, with no urgency. just relief. eddie gripping the back of venom's goop, entangling his fingers, wanting to feel venom engulf him again. the moment is cut short by spiderman jumping through ANOTHER window "what in the hell are you doing mr. venom??? we have to clear the city, now, we don't have any time for this"
freaked out, a little soggy, eddie says, "venom, that's th-the-the peter guy from tv from the the purple man universe" "yes eddie, we do not like him," "why is the peter guy from tv in here, why does he know who we are,"
spiderman goes ???, eddie braces himself for a fight, gripping venom tighter, he isn't going to lose him again so soon, "listen sweetie, we aren't going anywhere," whilst gesturing to him and venom, "what is going on here?"
something rumbles the ground, anne yelps, spiderman is up and out another window, "no time, gotta swing, we need to evacuate the city,"
eddie is up, getting anne to safety, she says "don't let him go, venom," before venom is filling him in on everything that happened and being shot into battle in his hospital gown. they full body, venom seeps into every part of eddie, impossibly further than any time before, and eddie lets him in
"we have a new tattoo, eddie?" "got it a while back, it's the," "codex?" "codex,"
they save a few people on their way down, venom eats a few bad guys, "you got a new tattoo, too, huh bud?" "it looks cool on us" they find spiderman and, despite their mutual dislike, team up and [epic battle here]. cool co-ops with veddie launching spiderman, spiderman webbing bad guys like a little burrito for venom to eat, eddie does a few kickflips and gets launched by spiderman to get some up-top threats. and the threat isn't clear, it's not knull, it's not more xenophages, it's something neither of them has seen before, and it just keeps coming... until the sky clears up in an instant. like it was snapped away, and spiderman is marvel sparkled back before any of them know what's happening, "mr venom??" "insect! see you never"
half of the city is destroyed (in true marvel hero style), venom and eddie have to get out of there quickly before anyone gets a too good look.
the final scene of venom and eddie is them sitting in central park, debris magically cleaned up, venom safely tucked in eddie's shirt saying some venom-y nonsense and alien purring, two new chickens who they named roan and gaga pecking away by their feet, looking off into the sunset. eddie whispers, "but i like any life with us best," and venom intertwines their hands
spiderman gets marvelsparkled back into the mcu, having the wildest story to tell, and having so so so many questions, with having none answered because it's Doom's Day.
#tom hardy/sony/marvel/disney i expect to have my writing contract on my doorstep by tuesday 1pm!#sjonnie.text#venom#venom 3#what i want to happen in venom 4.... 🥺 please?#symbrock#is this sooo self indulgent ? yes. do i caaare? no
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I know you don’t rewrite arcs until they’re done, but I love hearing about your early ideas while I brood over how badly this arc has let me down. Do you have any like super vague ideas about Splashtail’s motivations yet? He’s like a way worse Hawkfrost in my mind, because they’re both very young cats who Are Just Evil. But Hawkfrost had a genuinely interesting backstory that the Erin’s simply fumbled, meanwhile Splashtail is a cartoonishly evil atheist. I feel nothing towards him, he’s not intimidating or interesting or even funny. Save me Bonefall save me (if I got something wrong please ignore it, these books are so disappointing my brain is making me forget them to protect itself.)
If it helps at all, I'm staying sane with the observation that Hawkfrost is a high charisma character making critical failure rolls, while Splashtail is a cringefail loser with no stats rolling nat20s. He becomes 50% more sufferable when you imagine a long, pungent pause after anything he says, broken only by the sound of an offscreen player tossing some dice. When the silence is broken, it's whatever NPC has been charmed speaking in the beleaguered voice of the dungeon master.
SO my early thoughts are shaping up to be that I'd like to do a slightly more serious version of that.
BB!Splashtail is the Clan equivalent of a 19-year-old, desperate for more power and respect in his society. In terms of his stats, he's promising but not outstanding. A decent fighter, a competent leader. Even in terms of lineage; his father is Sneezecloud, a respected trader and negotiator, but his mother is Havenpelt. An ex-rogue who has sworn to live by the ways of RiverClan.
Curlfeather is the one with the plans. She's the one with vision. Daughter of Reedwhisker, grandchild of Mistystar, with grand leaders like Bluestar, Oakheart, and Crookedstar in her past, greatness runs in her blood. Scandal, too-- but for some reason it's acceptable that her great-grandparents were codebreaking traitors.
Splashtail hates Curlfeather, but he can't get anywhere unless he tries to be her. He steals HER plans. He acts like SHE does. Manages to snatch power from her paws, and then has no idea what to do with it.
I'm thinking that I want his reign to be going smoothly at first, actually, going from a bit of a bossy jerk, to trying to enact Curlfeather's ambitions by launching fights and doing it badly, to active tyranny as he tries to keep control over RiverClan. Depending on how Star goes, I might have Berryheart make some kind of move to seize power over him.
At the core of how I see him though, is that Splashtail has no plan. His ideology leans Thistle Law... in a sort of dumbass 4Channer kind of way. He talks a big game about the glory of battle, but folds fast when his enemy can punch back. The only person he could successfully manipulate was a traumatized child. He will bring back pureblooded glory to the Clan, except his personal family of course
As for the Evil Atheism stuff... lol. Lmao, even. Not needed. If I need to make him a more powerful and serious danger, it's not going to come from the fact he's godless. If being an atheist gave you super murder powers, Bill Nye would have used them to obliterate half of the US government by now.
Depending on how the last book of ASC goes,
The Harelight kill is probably going to get changed to Hallowflight. Harelight watches his dad die, and Splashstar is drenched in the blood of one of RiverClan's most famous heroes. No turning back after that.
On that note I'd also make the fight longer and bloodier. A butchery of an execution showcasing Splashtail fighting like a beast and Hallowflight like a trained warrior.
I REAALLY want to make Splashtail's death a drowning. Curlfeather, demon she is now, finishes him off by dragging him under. To protect her daughter. They will have to do something VERY satisfying for me to not do this.
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He Doesn't Deserve You | A Jeon Jungkook Series | Chapter One
Summary: Life didn't turn out the way you wanted. You got the guy, and the job but everything else you had ever wanted has been crumbling around you. Pairing: Noona reader x Jeon Jungkook (She's 28 and he's 22) Word Count: 2.1k~ Warnings: yändere, manipulation, domestic violence, self harm, cheating, explicit language, hints at smut, angst, idk what else lol a/n: Ahh thank you so much for all of the love so far on the intro and even all the notes on the masterlist hehe. I'm really loving the direction this story is going in so I hope you guys will too! And thanks again to @kkusadmirer for the request!
Opening my laptop I pull up the most recent edit I had done on the next chapter I was working on.
I'm a writer, not an incredibly famous one but a writer nonetheless. I make enough to get by and I'm able to work from home so that's all I ever really wanted. Just a silly girl, writing her silly stories, living her silly life.
But unfortunately things don't always turn out the way you want them to.
I thought I had it all, perfect grades and a perfect boyfriend with a loving family and a bright bright future. Now looking back at it all and seeing all of the stuff in the background that I somehow missed just makes me feel foolish.
How could I not notice Taehyung wondering eye? Why did I not listen to what my friends used to say about him? Why did I leave all of my friends behind for him?
Being so wrapped up and so in love with him I didn't even notice the fact that my family was falling apart. My mom cheated on my dad and I never knew until they told me they were getting a divorce.
While my brother was struggling in high school while being around all of their screaming and fighting and finally got committed to a mental institution when he had a psychotic break.
I never knew anything about that. It's not like I didn't care, but I just never really reached out or gave them enough time to reach out to me.
I was always like 'Oh Tae just got home I have to go' or 'Tae is expecting me so I need to get going'. My world has revolved around him for so long that my family and friends feel like strangers.
How could I have been so stupid and neglected them, all for one guy?
The one that I wanted to build a future with and promised to do the same with me. Now here I am, 24 with student loans up to my neck and a sorry excuse for a marriage with a husband that is never home.
I don't know what I managed to do in my past life that ended up royally fucking me up in this one but I'm sorry. Why couldn't I have done better so I would be saved from having my spirit broken and my heart ripped to shreds.
The only positive thing is that this has given me is the inspiration to come up with an even more fucked up series of books that has been my only source of income for the past few years.
Years, wow.
Thinking about how much time has passed and how things went to shit so quickly helped me continue down this downward spiral and I don't know how to make it stop. Although the sound of keys jingling outside the front door is my rude awakening, my brain knowing I need to be conscious of what may happen next.
I quickly wipe off the tears that I didn't even realized had started to fall and clear my throat. Moments later I'm met with the sight of Taehyung walking in wearing the same shirt I had seen him in yesterday but sports a brand new hickey near the collar, just barely noticeable but he makes no effort to hide it.
"Y/n" I hear him call out, breaking me out of my train of thought. "Yes?" I question, hating that I've been caught off guard even though I was staring right at him. "I asked if we have anything to eat" he says, making his way over to the refrigerator, now going to see if he can answer his own question before I'm even given another second to speak up.
"Um yeah I think there's some left over pizza from last night" I say and get up to walk towards him. "So how was work yesterday?" I ask tentatively, still not sure what kind of mood he's in. "Exhausting but it is what it is I guess" he says while stuffing his face full of a cold slice of pepperoni pizza.
I turn to walk away while nodding my head, not bothering to ask anything else since it seems from his vague answers that he's not in the mood to talk.
"Hey" he says, gently grabbing my wrist with the hand that wasn't occupied with the pizza, leaving me frozen in place. I know better than to walk away from him. Even if he's not mad at the moment doesn't mean that he won't be in the next.
"Where are you running off to?" he asks pulling me close by that same wrist. Still doing so carefully but pressing on the bruises that he had left there from the last fight we had.
He sees my slight look of discomfort and how my vision is trained on the wrist he's still holding and rolls up my sleeve, taking a quick look and seeing the evidence of his past transgressions.
"It left a mark huh?" he says examining the spot further and then bringing it up to his face where he places a few featherlight kisses on it, making a flash of heat run through my system when he looks back up at me with those eyes.
Those bedroom eyes that never fail to put me in a trance. He lifts his hand up towards my face and I flinch not knowing what to expect and see him stopping for a second, surprised by my reaction.
"Don't be afraid baby, it's just me" he says and keeps going, hooking his finger on the collar of my turtleneck to pull it to the side, no doubt searching for other marks.
"There's marks here too. I guess it's a good thing you stay home. Don't want to have to make up excuses for those now would you?" he says tapping under my chin twice, a slight lilt in his tone, enjoying my clear discomfort in showing them to someone, even if it's the person that's caused them.
"What did you do today baby?" he asks, letting go of me and going back to grab a few other things out of the fridge to complete his meal. "Oh you know, just some writing" I say, trailing off and giving him the same answer that I've given him time and time again.
"You almost done with it?" he questions, only really asking so he knows when my next big payday will be.
I shake my head "No, not yet. I think I'm only about halfway though" I say, giving simple answers to his simple questions. "Well you better get it out soon. I bet your readers are dying to know what happens next" he says giving me a quick wink before taking everything he has in his hands and carrying it over to the couch.
"Do you think you could grab me a beer?" he asks, but I know it's more of a courtesy than anything phrasing it like I actually had an option. I respond with a quiet yeah and bring it over to him, placing it on the coffee table.
"Thanks babe" he says and grabs a ahold of my hand and angles his head up, clearly asking for a kiss to which I oblige. Again something I don't really have an option in doing. "I missed you" he says and rubs his nose against mine cutely, or at least it used to be cute. Now it just makes me sad thinking of all of those times when we were happy.
"Are you gonna watch the game with me?" this time giving me something that I actually have a choice in. "I think I've got some more writing I'd like to do" I say and he nods his head not even bothering to look at me or give me a verbal sign of acknowledgment before turning on said game and slumping back into the couch to watch.
I walk over to my desk that happens to unfortunately be in the living room so I'm forced to grab my headphones to drown out the sound so I can hopefully get another chapter or two in before I call it a night.
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"Baby" I hear him call for me through my headphones after some time, that's something that I've had to fine tune. Making sure I can hear him when he talks to me no matter what so it's one less thing I have to worry about him getting upset about.
I pull out my headphones and turn my attention towards him, half expecting him to ask me to get him a beer. "Yes?" I reply, waiting to see what he needs. "Come here" he says holding his hand out to me and spreading his legs, showing me where he wants me.
I get up and walk towards him, straddling him once I get close enough and putting my arms around his neck. "Hi" he says in a deep voice sending a shockwave through my nervous system. "Hi" I respond quietly, intimidated at the thought of what he might do next. "How was the game?" I ask tentatively, hoping for my own sake that there was a favorable result.
"We won" he says, mindlessly tracing his hands up and down my curves. "How's your book?" he asks leaning into my neck, placing kisses over the bruises he had noticed from before. "
It's going" I whisper, starting to feel breathless from his warm breath fanning the sensitive parts of my skin. "Ready for a break?" he asks, question laced with a mischievous tone. I hum in acknowledgment, tilting my head to the side so he can have his fun.
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"I'm gonna head out but I'll be back later" Taehyung says while getting dressed with me still laying there with only a sheet to cover my body. "You're leaving?" I question, knowing he just said that but hoping he'll give me some sort of explanation.
"The guys wanted to meet up for a couple of drinks to talk about the game. Get some rest okay? I'll be back in a few hours" he says planting a soft kiss on my lips and one on my forehead.
I nod as he pulls the comforter over me as well, starting to already to drift off to sleep. "Stay safe" I mumble and flip over to the other side to try and get more comfortable.
He looks down at me for a second and chuckles at my fucked out and sleepy state before walking out of our bedroom and soon I'm left with the sound of him closing and locking the door behind him.
Although this night was bittersweet I'm thankful that it ended up like this. He's not a selfish lover when it comes to sex so I'm always left sleepy and satisfied except for the times that he's more rough, rough is putting it lightly so I guess I should say when he's more violent.
I hate thinking about those nights and I refuse to let those dark thoughts cloud this physical euphoric feeling I have but I can't help but worry about what he might actually be going out to do.
Would having a drink with the guys really make him want to leave his naked and freshly fucked wife alone in his bed? I just don't get it. If he's already been with me tonight could there be a possibility that he would wake up in another woman's bed and leave me waking up alone again tomorrow?
There's no use worrying about it though. It's not like it hasn't happened before, but why do I always let it get to me? Yes he's my husband but our marriage isn't like other ones in anyway shape or form. I'm here when he wants or needs me and that's it. I'm not allowed to want or need him because I'm just left disappointed every single time.
He doesn't love me, he just loves what I can give him and I need to come to terms with that. But it's nights like these where he's gentle and whispers sweet nothings in my ear that make me second guess things.
Maybe he's changed? Maybe he's realized what actually matters? And maybe I'm just getting my hopes up. I can't keep lying to myself but I don't know what else to do. I feel alone most days but these little glimmers of hope are what keep me holding on and unfortunately that's all I have left.
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Bad idea - girl in red. (E.W)
content: You cant get your on & off ex, Ellie Williams, out of your head. So you decide to call her over.
song link: https://open.spotify.com/track/57j65yC2HggQfmYNc6rdOK?si=2416f86b42e84be8
warnings: nsfw, hate sex, angst, smut, mean!ellie, degration, reader is a hot shit mess. (me!) if i missed anything lemme know!
a/n: Im still sick asf and my phone is broken so ive kinda just been writing the past few days. this is not my best work, like at all. (its so bad) but the storyline is kinda interesting. (based on "bad idea"- girl in red)
proofread?: none of my work is ever proofread lmao.
You and Ellie had been broken up for a couple months now. But of course you had not been able to get her slick ass smile out of your head. She plagued your thoughts, being the only thing you could think of. She was the worst partner you could ever have. But, god was she ethereal.
So when you sat at the edge of your bed with her image glued to the inside of your eyelids you picked up your phone. Was this a bad idea? Probably. Did you care? Nope. You sat there staring at the past messages. The fights, then the make up texts. Then more fucking fights.
You squeezed your eyes shut. Contemplating the mistake you were about to make. Its like she was a fucking drug you were addicted too. You couldn't get enough of her, even If you tried. Which you really did this time. Really hard. This had been the longest you and Ellie had stayed apart. Ever. You always somehow ended up back with her. Ignoring the pleas of your family and friends to dump her ass for good this time. It was a bad idea, to think you could stop. Because now here you were, your phone up to your ear with Ellie on the other line.
“Hey, ellie?” You stumble over your words.
“Hey.” Fuck. fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Her voice.
“Uh- um. What are you doing right now?”
“Nothing.”
“Wanna come over? Like, for a smoke.” bad idea, bad idea, bad idea.
What you can only assume is an amused chuckle muffles the phone line. “Sure.”
“Kay, cool! Uh, see you soon?”
“Mhm.”
The line ends abruptly. Oh fuck. Ellies coming over. Again. Fuck why did you do that? Your totally fucked now. You spend the following minutes pacing around your house. One little horny butt dial can turn into a series of bad decisions. You knew this. Yet Ellie is sitting across from u on your coach. Blunt in mouth, eyes on u.
“You know, ive missed us.” she admits while passing the weed to you. You take a drag of the blunt, ignoring her blatant attempt to ‘win you back’ (it was working)
“Why did you call me over..?”
“You want the truth?”
She just stares back at you with those droopy red eyes of hers. Those gorgeous fucking eyes that got you into this mess in the first place.
“Im horny. and i missed you.” Smoking always makes the whole truth come out of you. Even if you didn't want it to.
“Yeah?” There it is. That cocky lopsided smirk.
“Yeah.” Blowing the smoke out of your mouth you lean closer to her. And she does the same. The tension makes the air thick and foggy. A competition to see who will break first. (that she always wins) and surly this time was no different. You close the gap between you two. Pressing your lips onto hers. She cups your face with her hands, desperately pulling you farther into her. She put her hands under your shirt. Undid your bra and said these words. “Darlin you're so pretty it hurts” breaking the kiss she pulls your shirt over your head. And threw your clothes down on the floor. Your brain goes numb. Allowing Ellie to take complete control. All you can think about is her lips on yours. Too busy thinking about the wet kisses trailing down your neck to worry about the consequence to this pleasure.
She said “darling are you ready for more?” Her hands found your tits rubbing the fatty flesh in her hands while she kissed your collarbones. Her lips pecked kisses down your body. Her tattooed hand slipped down and into your painties, feeling your heat. her finger explored your slippery folds. You throw your head back while whimpers leave your mouth. She plunges a finger into your sopping cunt. “F- Fuck els”
“Yeah? You like that pretty girl? You missed my fingers, yeah?”
You just nod repeatedly. Another finger finds its way into your cunt. Her digits curl into you relentlessly.
“Words baby.”
“Fuck els. Yes. y- yes.” You moan
“Fucking slut.” she chuckles before returning her mouth onto your tit. Her tongue swirling around your pebbled bud and her fingers pumping in and out of your pussy makes your back arch. But you can't help but be pissed at yourself for letting her bring you this pleasure after the pain she caused you. This is wrong. You shouldn't be doing this. “Fuck, fuck, fuck, ellie. Ellie stop.” you push her head away.
“What's wrong? I thought you wanted this.”
“I do, I mean. At least I thought I did.” You quickly throw your shirt back on.
“I don't get it?”
“It was a bad idea, calling you up. I shouldn't have said anything. We are bad together ellie. I fucked up.” guilt rushes over you. You shouldn't have said anything. And that was the truth. You told yourself that you would never get back with Ellie again. Ever. You told yourself that you would never let ellie fuck you again. You told yourself that you wouldn't let Ellie get in your head again. “I need to be alone. Just, go? Please.”
“Yeah alright. Call me when u wanna finish this, kay? Cause u always do” She says bluntly before rolling her eyes and leaving. A tear breaks free from your glossy eyes. Thats fucking problem. She thinks that you will call her again. Because ‘you always do.’ And she's not wrong. You always end up calling her again, Whenever u get lonely, or horny, or miss her. Who the fuck would miss Ellie, fucking, Williams? You. You miss her. Because you can't get enough.
a/n: I apologize for this. :D
#tlou2#tlou fanfiction#tlou#ellie tlou#bad idea#girl in red#ellie williams#ellie x fem reader#ellie x reader#the last of us 2
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Tommy Miller. Please hit me with all the psychoanalyzing/breaking his ass down you've got because you're the queen of writing him imo. I'm ready 🍿
(thank you! 💖)
tommy miller thoughts & musings
note: the queen???? you're so fucking sweet my darling raven. i have been saving this for when the brain rot returns, but i have to be honest - the brain rot for this man never leaves. so here we go!
There's never been a man more devoted to the concept of love - even if it's muddled in his mind. He treasures his family. He'd die for them. That fact remained true the day he turned sixteen and realized how Joel stepped in.
How he helped in making sure the little brother who followed him around everywhere (both in awe and to be a constant annoyance) become the man he was today. Joel Miller. The legend he one day hoped to make proud.
The fact of death - of family and love - hardened in his mind in time with his heart. Something broke the night Sarah died. Fractured his soul at the sight of his big brother - his hero - lying in the blood of his niece, begging for her to live.
The imaginary concept of dying for his family...now suddenly a reality.
Tommy Miller is a man who uses humor to hide the dying light in his brown eyes. He's the first to offer a smile, a helping hand, the promise of hope. Because what little remained in his mind was barely enough for him. Yet he gave it away without question.
The lessons of his big brother live in his mind - a tether to the life he once had. This is his commandment; the rules he's set for himself to keep a piece of the old Tommy alive. Though the world may have gone to shit, he refused to go down with it. Even as Joel and him committed atrocities - destroyed the humanity in their souls - he fought to keep himself in tact.
Tommy Miller is a man who is scared of so much yet keeps it to himself. What's the fucking point of making a spectacle of his fears? Who would care to listen? He'd been on this shattered road for so long he forgot that he was human. That he deserved light and love and a chance to redeem the sins of his past.
He's afraid of dying.
He's reminded of it every day he opens his eyes.
But he won't reveal the real horror that is buried in the depths of his heart. The darkness he hates with a bitterness on his tongue. Oh how he wished he could spit it out like tobacco. Cleanse himself in the River Styx and resurface anew.
Tommy Miller is a man who is is afraid of dying.
Tommy Miller is a man who wants to die.
Tommy Miller...is a man who wants to love and be loved in the horrendous tumultuous landscape of hell he's found himself in.
He cares with his entire body. Loves with every part of his heart and soul. He gives and gives and gives, hoping that it would be enough to suffice for the broken parts of a hollow man. If you look close - inspect the makeup of who he is - you'd see the pain.
You'd catch a glimpse of the mania behind the curtain.
So he offers himself up on a silver platter (everything he believes you want) to deter you from pushing down the wall holding him together. He begs for more, silently fighting against the ache of need that sprouts deep. Yet assures you that he's fine. He's okay.
He's alive.
That's what he wants.
And that would have to be enough; knowing that to ask for more in this world, was to dip himself in the greed he knew couldn't be appeased.
Tommy Miller.
A man who gave the world too much. Yet managed to smile in spite of his grief.
#in this essay i will-#tommy miller x reader#tommy miller#tommy miller x you#please know i could absolutely write a ten page paper about this man#my writing
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Can say me which OC is Which? I know which is Veronica, but I wanna know other names xD
Okay! Forgive the old pictures I'm at work. When I made my oc's they were in college so I'll be going off that.
I ADDED VERONICA CAUSE TURNS OUT I WENT OFF LOL
Samantha Ronson
She's about 5'6" and her father is the head of Irish Mafia in South park! And her mum is a trophy wife that's had a LOT of work done. She's an only child with a lot of money, so she it actually quite close with Tolkien! Her daddy paid for her college. LEGALLY! (Samantha knows what her dad does for a living, she doesn't condone it but it's gotten her out of a lot of trouble so she don't contest it) she's studying business
Sophia Wright
Another 5'6"er! Her Father and Mother own a restaurant! She is the youngest of 4, but is also a twin! Her older brother died of a brain tumour... She was the top of her classes and got a full scholarship to college. Her family are very supportive and are all good willed. They don't have much money due to still having to pay off her deceased brother's medical bills. She's studying to become a doctor! (Neuroscience!)
Luci (Lucifer) Helios
She's a tall babe at 5'10". She is very low contact with her family. Her parents never had a stable job and they lived in a bus. Her parents were young, they had her older brother when they were 15/16. Luci hates her name :) she got a partial scholarship for college and is working part time at a biker bar to help pay bills. Her parents didn't want her to go to college and were disappointed she left and still try and get her to drop out. She lost her finger from a accident with her brother. She's studying Phycology.
Ellie Jason
Ellie is 5'9"! Her family is very.... Broken and merged? Her mother is a hair dresser. her father WFH doing free lance IT work. Her step father owns a private car hire. Her mother left her father after her younger sister was born to be with her stepdad and had her youngest sister. Her younger sister didn't not forgive her mother for that and is LC. Ellie is close to her mother and likes her step father though! Her bio dad lives in her mum's garage. Ellie's mum paid for her college education but didn't pay for her younger sisters because of the LC which then strained Ellie's and her sisters relationship. She's studying veterinary science.
Veronica Harris
She's 5'3" (yes I made her shorter, fight me) Her father works as a site manager for a private industrial company. Her brother flunked out of college and works part time at tweek bros. She only has her Father and Brother after her mother ended her life. She doesn't really have a close relationship with either which makes Veronica long for friendships and approval! She got a partial scholarship for college and her Dad paid for the other half. She's studying Law!
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saw a cherik edit with silver springs by fleetwood mac yesterday and it feels like it has opened a hole inside my brain because yes!!!! time WILL cast a spell on you erik!!!! and you won't forget charles!!! i always think its hilarious how they call each other "my friend" "old friend" left and right and then proceed to have the least platonic relationship EVER but their friendship is so essential!!! like charles is the first person outside of his family that erik learns to know and care about (at least in the movies) charles was there, not just his first friend but his first MUTAN friend!!!! the amount of respect he holds for him even tho he doesn't agree with his opinions and world's views, how charles probably has a special place alongside his mom in erik's memories because he loves him so much. that scene in days of future past where erik is like "all those years fighting against each other, charles. to have a precious of them back." charles was ALWAYS there in the back of his mind, the only person he loves that's still alive, that nothing or no one could make him stop loving him even tho erik himself doesn't believe he has the ability to love or at least to love something or someone without breaking and ruining them because he thinks he's inherently bad. he's full of anger because he's full of grief and charles is this constant reminder of how he CAN, in fact, still love even after everything that happened to him, and it probably terrifies him down to his bones. idk im just having an erik brainrot thinking about how in the movies cherik has spent more time away from each other than together. how they're so silly and were always trying to force the other in their own way instead of meeting each other in the middle, because at the end of the day they're just two different (and extreme) sides of the same coin, they do want The Same Thing!!!! but are too proud and stubborn to admit the other might have a point. and in the middle of all of this, the frustration erik feels because no matter how much he tries to pull charles away, to hurt him with his words and actions, charles is STILL THERE for him. he hates the way erik does things and feels so angry and frustrated all the time they're in the same place but there's nothing erik can do that would ever question charles' love for him. its just there. unshakeable and unbreakable. timeless. and erik doesn't understand how someone so broken and flawed like himself can be loved like this. that whole thing about him having to use his helmet so he wouldn't feel the unconditional love charles has for him makes me SICK to my stomach. they love each other so much and wasted so much time fighting with each other instead of fighting together side by side for their people.
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the unraveling (poison and wine blurb)
detective loki x reader
tw: blood, vomit, gore, angst, suicide ideation.
POISON AND WINE MASTERLIST
The air was still stinging with gunpowder, the buzz still in your ears. You watched the man drop above you, watched as blood began to pool. The sudden disappearance of his weight on top of you sent air crashing into your lungs, too soon it hurt.
You hauled yourself to your feel, snot and blood dribbling down your face, your brain buzzing as you targeted Loki, who had just now lowered his gun, eyes blown. Your throat was raw before you even began screaming, "You motherfucker! Why did you shoot? Huh? We had him! I had him! You fucking shot him!"
Your finger jabbed into Loki's chest like a knife, your face hot and angry, veins threatening to burst, "We had him! He was talking! He was telling me where she was. I had her. I had her! You motherfucker!"
Loki took your words silently, unmoving and stoic. He let you scream at him, poke him, demean him. He could see the suspect over your shoulder laying on the floor, the pool of blood getting larger and darker. It's when you started babbling and choking on your words that he stopped you. You weren't an angry detective anymore, you were spiraling into chaos, a broken mother.
Loki took your shoulders into his hands, leaning to meet your eyes, bring you back down to earth, "Hey, Hey. Stop. Stop. You need to stop. I know, okay. I know. Stop."
Pained sobs ripped through you, heaving and fighting for purchase in your bones, "No. She's gone now. Gone! You fucking shot the only guy that knew where she was! I had him. I had him and you didn't trust me. You don't trust me anymore."
"I do trust you. He was on top of you, with a gun pointed at your head. Do you not remember that?" Loki hardened his grip around your arms, blunt nails digging into the back of your blood soaked arms.
You shook your head wildly, "You don't trust me. You don't. You watch my every move, you never let me do my job. You're breathing down my fucking neck! Ever since Mag- ever since her, you don't fucking trust me. I was gone for a second. A second. I hate myself. Loki. I hate myself. I could have found her, if you had let me go. We can find this little girl."
He was going to kill you! I do fucking trust you, don't you ever say that I don't again! I don't blame you for what happened, I never have and I never will. You're the only one that thinks that. You blame yourself. But he was going to kill you today"
"You should have let him."
"What?" Your words felt like a punch to the gut for Loki. You were the ratty girl he met at the fence line of the Huntington Boy's Home, the one who stole menthol cigarettes for him. You, who held him when it all go to be too much, the debilitating panic attacks that had him on his knees as he prayed, begged and pleaded to a God he didn't believe in. You were his salvation. You were the mother of his child.
You swallowed hard, a sudden calm, "You should have let him kill me. Let me go. Let me with her. I deserve to be with her. I'm her mother."
Police deputies flooded the scene, a paramedic turning you away from Loki to examine you. Harsh reality returned as you were escorted to an ambulance, passing Loki who was giving his statement on what had just occurred. The kidnapped girl was found that evening, returned safe to her family before you were even discharged from the hospital.
You were on administrative leave for two weeks. Loki was on sick leave for eight days, watching you sleep, making you food and unraveling every gnarled, knotted thread in your head that threatened to take you from him. He held you as you screamed and cried into his shirt, held back your hair when the guilt became too much, your stomach rolling in waves of vomit and nasuea. You shook in your sleep, Loki always having a steady hand on your back and you tossed and turned.
You were Loki's salvation and he was your prayer.
#jake gyllenhaal#detective loki#prisoners#detective loki imagine#detective loki x female reader#detective loki fanfiction#jake gyllenhaal imagine#jake gyllenhaal x reader#detective loki x reader
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tw/cw: slight bickering, it was cute TO ME, coping with humor word count: 4.7k An extension of the previous chapter: “But I promise you, after this mission, I’m done. I’ll come home. I won’t miss a single night next to you. I’ll cook breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. I’ll tuck Ellie in every night. I’ll even help her with the stupid homework you give her–,” Simon and Kamara settle on a deal.
Chapter Two Point Five
The more Simon spoke, the more he felt the once sobbing woman start to relax, her shoulders less tense and her breathing steadier, the tightness she caused around his waist becoming looser. Kamara knew his added cheeky comments meant he wasn’t too mad about the argument, at least not anymore, so she figured she shouldn’t be either. “Hey! I have to give her the most realistic school experience I can. Plus, I gotta know she understands the lessons.”
Her languid response put Simon at more ease, though he wondered if he could hold up his end of the deal. Nobody knew what was on the flash drive. What he would assume would only be a few weeks may turn into months, even years, but he kept his hopes high. He wanted nothing more than to be home with his family, able to enjoy a life that not many people in his field were able to experience. “Yea, yea. I always hated that stuff. I’m sure she likes it no more than you did.”
“Well, my homework was usually an assassination or making sure I knew how to put a bullet in someone’s brain without crying. Most of the time I failed.” She released herself from Simon’s embrace after she felt his chest moving and a quiet, but audible snort. He was laughing—well, chuckling.
The bottom half of her face beamed, her lips quirked up, while the rest of her face crinkled, unable to find the source of Simon’s laughter. “It’s not funny.”
It seemed almost uncontrollable, Simon’s laughter becoming louder as the moments went by. After so long, Kamara thought this was the part where he lost it. He would tell her how pathetic she was for wanting him back. That he never actually loved her or Ellie and that he would never come back. Her smile dropped, her heart racing in her chest. “I think I’ve missed the part where a joke was told.”
He was finally able to gather the breath to respond, “No, no. There’s no joke. It’s you, love.” There it is. It was coming. This is the part where she gets her heart broken again, except this time it would be shattered into a million pieces that could never be put together again. She would be left alone with Ellie, having to explain why her father left them. She would have to tell her how it wasn’t her fault, but her own, taking the blame just like she did everything else.
“I’m a joke to you?” Simon could hear the shakiness of his love’s voice, it lowering into a subtle tone, fighting the tears that threatened to break past her eyes. He halted his laughter to the best of his ability, his hand on his chest to try to steady himself. “No, no. That’s not what I said. You love putting words in my mouth.” Hopefully, she didn’t take what he said to heart.
“Shut up,” she quipped, immediately crossing her arms over her chest. Simon could do nothing but smile, leaning his body against the desk and crossing his legs, using his arms to hold his weight. “It’s just…you were brought up and taught to kill people. Have no remorse. No thought before taking a life, and yet here you are and all you want in life is for me to come home.”
All the tension that built in Kamara’s chest had gone away, fading into nothing and being replaced with that familiar warmth she felt whenever Simon was around. “Well, that’s not the only thing I want in life. I also want–.”
“To have a farm out in the country, far away that folk won’t be botherin’ you, but close enough that you all still know each other and can buy from each other’s farms.” Country life had only come up a handful of times in their conversations, but it made her heart flutter that Simon seemed to remember the details she had shared, most of which she said in a joking manner, but deep down it was what she longed for.
“You wanna live in a farmhouse, not a cottage, ‘cause the cottage roofs are too low and you don't want me banging my head. You don’t wanna kill the animals, but you know you’ll have to at some point. Only, I’ll handle that bit, so the animals don’t think you’ve betrayed ‘em, and they’ll believe you still love ‘em. If they die thinking you still love ‘em, the meat’ll taste better, and folk’ll buy more of it.” He was quoting her, almost word for word, every detail she had said about her dream life. Most of the time, they laughed about it, so she thought he would have received it as a joke about how ridiculous her dream and beliefs may sound. Soldiers don’t get to live a peaceful country life.
Kamara opened her mouth to speak, but she wasn’t fast enough to spit out any words, so Simon spoke instead, “Oh, and let’s not forget there has to be a gigantic tree so you can climb up and read your books. And, of course, we can’t forget the beekeeping business for that free honey. And last but not least, the house needs two big dogs to protect the kids from any lurkers on the farm, even though I reckon the Special Forces dad and the mum, who’s ex-Red Room but ‘not a Widow’, would do the job just fine.” The intense look he gave her sent butterflies fluttering in her stomach. It was the same look he had given her the first day they had a conversation. His brown eyes were full of endearment, making his love known without having to say the famous three words.
“Yeah…they would…but unfortunately, some people will run away from a dog before they will run from people. Dogs also can sense danger from further away…they run faster…they can play with the kids when we’re busy…they–,
“Alright, I got it.” There was that roll of his eyes, again, except this time it was playful, no ill intent behind the action. “I didn’t even get to tell you about what kind of dogs I want.”
“Malinois and Rottweiler. But sometimes you reckon a Doberman or Pitbull instead of the Rottweiler, which then turns into "we should get all four”. Observant and a listener, that’s what Simon was. If he could spend his days listening to his wife talk about what she loved and what she wanted all day, he would, and he wouldn’t hesitate to get her anything her heart desired. Sometimes, she wished her quiet husband would speak more because she felt like she spoke too much. Simon was a man of few words, but each of his words held meaning. When he did speak more than usual, it was something that meant a lot to him or something that had sat heavily on his mind. There were times he would speak until she fell asleep, knowing she was already tired, because he wanted her to hear his voice in her dreams, and she loved every minute of it. After their failed mission, he did it because he wanted her to hear his voice in her nightmares, guiding her back to safety. He never found out if his theory was proven correct.
“Wouldn’t hurt to have more protection.” The one part of the dream that was never consistent was the kind of dog Kamara wanted. Simon found her indecisiveness on the matter hilarious since he felt they didn’t need dogs for protection. He’d be the protection dog all day if that’s what his missus wanted.
“That’s more shit to clean up.” It was one reason that Simon didn’t want the dogs: he would be responsible for the large piles of shit. There was no way he would let his wife or daughter clean it up. It almost seemed disrespectful to him.
“I’m sure you wouldn’t mind.” He could hear her soft chuckle under her smile, the first real one he had seen in a long time. “You know what—,” he said, pulling Kamara into a playful embrace, making sure he didn’t touch anywhere on her body that seemed too intimate so he wouldn’t startle her. He loosely wrapped his arm around the back of her neck, which brought her closer to his chest. She played along, holding onto his large arm and attempting to find her way out, but it turned into an actual struggle when her laughing hindered her limbs’ ability to use even half of her strength.
The two fumbled around, their laughter filling the small enclosure of the room. When Simon decided Kamara had had enough of the roughhousing, he loosened his grip more, allowing her to fully stand up straight. “I wouldn’t mind any of it as long as you and Ellie are there. I’d clean up a thousand pounds of shit if that means you two are happy,” he briefly paused and got closer to her ear, and facetiously said, “As long as you know you're cleaning the other animal shit.”
“Hey!” She released herself from his hold and playfully pushed him, it having no effect on his balance. “Hey,” he mocked, earning him a stern but gentle smack to the chest, which he ignored and returned with a kiss to the top of Kamara’s head. “Part of love is keeping the animals clean. If I do it, then they’ll know someone who knows them betrayed them and not a random stranger from four farms down. We won’t sell any meat.” He was continuing with the narrative, using it as an excuse to not have to be responsible for the mounds of dung that would come with owning a farm.
“Fine, but you clean the horse stables, shit included,” she said, her smile never leaving her face. Simon eased his weight back on the table, back to the same cross-legged position he was in before, returning his gaze full of admiration onto Kamara, sending jolts through her body, the only electrifying feeling she enjoyed.
“Deal,” Simon said, extending his arm to show all his fingers balled up, except for his pinky. “Simon Riley…a pinky promise? Really?”
“You do them all the time.” It was a quirk of hers that Simon both loved and hated. Pinky promises were for children, not for adults. “Because I know I won’t break them.”
“When have I ever broken a pinky promise?” What he was implying was simple: he may have broken verbal promises—unintentionally, of course—but a pinky promise? Never, no matter how much he hated them.
“Alright,” she said, extending her pinky out, but she quickly drew it back, taking Simon by surprise. The fuck? That was new. His head cocked to the side just as fast as Kamara drew her hand back. She wasn’t one to turn down a pinky promise, treating them like a signed contract. “But you also have to add that you promise this will be your last mission. You’ll resign. You will come home, and you won’t come back here.” Ah. There it is. If there was one thing about his wife, she was going to ensure that the contract covered every detail, making sure that each term was understood and agreed upon.
It was a big commitment and a huge promise to make, but his family was more important, so it didn’t take much thought to make his decision. “Fine.” He extended his pinky finger back out, confident of his choice, also making a conscious promise to himself that he would do everything he could to keep it, but he doubted his decision once Kamara drew her hand back, again, just as fast as she did the first time.
“Aht. Uncross your legs and hold your other hand out in front of you, fully spread! And you better not be crossing any toes! Swear it!” Girl. Pinky promises had many requirements, including making sure there were no crossed body parts, and all unrevealed parts had to be sworn to not be crossed. If the rules were broken, all trust would be lost, though that’s in the fine print of the contract, the part that is there but is not read over. It’s more for you to read between the lines and on your own, choosing to follow them if you want to, the undiscussed rules and consequences.
He did as he was told, uncrossing his legs into a rest stance, and putting his other hand out, but instead of holding it in the air as instructed, he placed it on Kamara’s chest who was, technically, in front of him—the rules were not specific, able to be bent if you worked them right. Her body lightly shuddered, and she closed her eyes, trying to chase away the thoughts that ran through her mind.
“Sorry,” he said, swiftly moving his hand away, settling for the space beside her to extend his hand instead, but she grabbed his hand back to move it to its original position. “No, it’s fine. Gotta start somewhere, right?” She held her hand on top of his and wrapped it around as much of his hand as she could, keeping it from moving, a burst of warmth shooting through his body, his heart a million beats an hour like it was the first time he had felt her touch. Since they escaped their captors, Kamara had been the one to initiate most of their physical contact, only allowing him to initiate any touch when she needed comfort.
Never had Simon been the one to initiate a pinky promise. He thought it was silly, but pinky promises were very important to the woman, so he made sure he never broke them. He had made a few verbal promises in the past, usually saying he’d come home when he was supposed to, but he learned to just promise he’d do everything he could to make it home. That was a promise he knew he could keep, so even in death, his family knew he tried his hardest to get back to them.
“I swear it.” They locked pinkies, sealing the deal, Simon placing his habitual and mandatory—to him, at least—kiss on Kamara’s forehead. This was an action he added to the pinky promises, believing them to make the promise more concrete. It also made the agreement more intimate, and one was less likely to break the contract if there was intimacy involved.
The deal was finally sealed and locked in place forever, giving both parties some satisfaction. “Give me a few hours to do the decryption.” She was shaky, the confidence in her words trying to mask how afraid she was.
“The others gave it a go for at least a week. They couldn’t manage it.” Everyone the 141 contacted walked away with nothing but tears, the encryption too complex for even the brightest of the military cyber operations. There was only one that made any progress, but even she bypassed less than twenty percent of the encryption, stating it was the hardest one she had ever encountered. “I thought you brought me here because I wasn’t like the others.”
Kamara wasn’t like the others. She was his wife and one of the best operators in the forces, no matter how many write-ups she received. “You’re completely right. And you’re not. You’re way better…and hotter.”
“Eugh, Simon, you know I hate that word.” There was a strain of words that Kamara hated when used in a certain context. A stove can be hot. It can be hot outside. But a person cannot be hot unless they mean temperature.
“You Americans say it.” Simon had worked with many nationalities during his time in the military, Americans being one of the major ones. In Special Forces, there were commonly joint tasks with different operators nationwide, so Simon had picked up a few slang words during his time around his differing comrades.
“Which Americans are you hanging around? ‘Cause you definitely didn’t hear it from me. My people don’t say that.” Nowadays, Kamara and Ellie were one of the few Americans Simon was around, but Ellie picked up on the language dialect Kamara had, only using Simon’s when she was poking fun at him. Second in line was Laswell, the Station Chief, who supervised and organized all their missions.
“Your people? I’ve heard loads of Americans say it.”
“Not what I meant by ‘my people’, but alright,” she said as she sat at the computer that was earlier abandoned once she saw what was on it. Kamara and Simon always knew their cultural differences, their relationship being a learning curve in the beginning. Neither of them minded it, but it sometimes struck a nerve in some passing civilians or even some soldiers on base, but they looked past it, making sure what others thought didn’t hinder their relationship, especially considering it was their life not others’.
Kamara, though, was always one to poke fun, using her humor to hide the discomfort and dehumanization she sometimes felt from the outside world. When she first did it, Simon was taken aback, unsure of what to say, but over the years he had grown accustomed to it, finding himself chuckling at some of her jokes which she often replied with, “What are you laughin’ for? It’s not funny.”
From the corner of her eye, she could see an object come flying in her direction, so she leaned back in her seat, watching it whip past her face and back, smelling a stench that it left behind. Her body faced Simon to find the culprit gripped in his hand: the infamous hand towel.
“Ew, I don’t want your sweat on me.” Soldiers were given hand towels as part of their sanitary bags, but some kept one on them for makeshift tourniquets, wiping off sweat when they were working in severely heated areas, sometimes having to ration their water supply and drinking their sweat that accumulated onto the towels. Kamara found it disgusting, but she understood the instincts of survival while on a mission..
“Why not? Is it ‘cause you hate me?” It was evident that no matter how many laughs that Simon let out, Kamara’s previous comments still affected him, even if he knew she didn’t mean it and was only speaking out of pure rage.
“I didn’t mean it.” She really didn’t. Her words slipped out of her mouth faster than she could process them. Being with Simon brought about so many differing emotions within her and she was still learning how to control them, especially since she used to get away with almost anything on previous teams, but Simon wasn’t a team, he was her husband, her lover, and her best friend.
“Prove it.”
“Huh?” Usually, Simon pushed for an apology, but any forced apology that came out of Kamara’s mouth sounded like a sarcastic way to get the other person to shut up, even if she didn’t mean for it to sound like that. Kamara didn’t do well with authority, any given directions she commonly disobeyed or followed, but in her own way. If she was told to complete a task, she would complete it, but not how her superiors wanted, and she knew that, but that didn’t stop her from pushing any buttons, even when she didn’t intend to.
Now, Simon learned that to get her to follow directions, she had to go about it on her own accord and to her own will, but he wouldn’t dare share that information with anyone who oversaw her. It would make her interactions with superiors less comical, which meant he would be less entertained. Everyone needed a source of entertainment, especially in war.
“Prove it. Come and touch the cloth.”
“Simon, there’s an ungodly amount of sweat and dirt on that thing and lord knows you probably haven’t washed it in years. It’s got holes in it.” It didn’t matter how many times Kamara had advised Simon to use one of the newer towel cloths they were given, Simon was insistent that he wouldn’t change his cloth until it was a speck of dust and no longer useful; he was sticking to his word.
“Not true.” Kamara gave him that look, the one that communicated everything he needed to know without exchanging words. You sure about that?
“Only been a few months.”
“Simon, ew. Don’t you dare touch me with that thing!”
“Just say you’re sorry for saying you hate me!” Angry was an overstatement of how Simon was feeling. In reality, he actually just wanted to play around with Kamara, but he still felt slighted, even if it was just a bit, so he did what worked best for Kamara: making a serious situation unserious.
“I did!”
“You didn’t! You said you didn’t mean it. That’s not a proper apology.” While his voice was not stern enough to be taken seriously, he still got his point across. Though he was lighthearted, he was addressing the serious matter in an attempt to get Kamara to understand the weight of her actions.
Simon went closer to Kamara, sending her further back into the chair as she held his wrist to keep him from putting the towel any closer to her, let alone her face. “Okay! I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”
“For what?”
“You didn’t say I had to say allat!”
He tried to swat it at her again, but she dodged it, falling out of the chair. She thought Simon would help her up, but instead, he swatted the cloth at her again, and she managed to maneuver out of the way, getting up and running to the other end of the room.
“All this just ‘cause you don’t wanna touch the towel? It’s not that bad.”
“To you! Si, that thing is so gross! It’s practically a science experiment.”
“You had one just like it!”
“That I cleaned on a weekly basis…biweekly if it was a busy month. And mine didn’t have holes and didn’t smell like the entire unit wiped their sweaty balls with it.”
“All you need to do is elaborate to give a proper apology and it won’t bother you. It’s as simple as that.”
“I have already apologized!” Forcing apologies out of Kamara was no good, but in getting her to understand she needed to apologize was a step closer to an actual apology, even if the first one wasn’t as meaningful.
“I said ‘elaborate’!” He didn’t have to run after Kamara, his large gait was enough to send her running in another direction, but the room wasn’t big enough for her to go far. Five steps and the man would already be able to touch her.
“Say it!”
“I,” she looked around the room before meeting his eyes, and she smiled mischievously, letting Simon know the elaboration was not coming anytime soon, “will think about it.” He took a step, and she ran again, though this time she didn’t see that there was a stack of filled boxes blocking her ability to get any further, so she would be forced to go toward the rancid cloth.
“Alright! I surrender!” She put her hands up, slowly moving towards the man, but he knew her antics. She wasn’t actually surrendering. He let her take a few steps forward, knowing she would try to run again. As soon as she did, he grabbed her, putting her in another headlock, though this time she really couldn’t get out, but he wasn’t hurting her. He held the towel in front of her face, and she held his hand, using all of her strength to keep the towel from touching her.
“I want a proper apology!”
“I did!” Her laughter did not make holding the man’s arm any easier. She was struggling, and he knew it.“Kamara!” The towel was closer to her face, enough for her to smell it, the rancidness making her nearly gag.
“Okay! Okay! I’m sorry I said I hated you. I didn’t mean it! I was just very upset, and I love you very much!” He eased up on his hold on her and put the towel back in his gear pocket.
“Thank you. And’m sorry for lying to you to get you here. I shouldn’t have done that and should’ve just told you the truth and let you decide.” It was a genuine apology. He did regret his decision. The only thing he could do now was apologize and try to atone for his actions later.
“Thank you.” She lifted herself on her toes to get closer to Simon, kissing him, making him feel like a little kid whose crush just kissed him because this was the first time Kamara had kissed him since he’d been back from deployment.
She looked up at him, her eyes softening and her lips no longer the mischievous smile he saw earlier. “I really am sorry. I know I hurt your feelings, and I apologize for that. I’m still working on the whole anger management thing, and I will do my best to do better in the future.” Her voice was calmer and warm. Simon could practically see the gears shifting in her brain as she reflected on her actions. This was the apology he was waiting to hear.
“Now, if you don’t mind, I have some coding to do.” She tapped his chest twice before practically skipping to the chair in front of the computer. A part of her wanted to do the code, but that was the same part that scared her to death because she couldn’t make the same grave mistake she made before. Her hands trembled, but she entwined them together, trying to keep herself grounded before she touched anything.
“I wouldn’t ask you to do it if I didn’t think you could.” She was the only person he believed could complete the encryption and the only person he trusted to do it correctly without losing any data. It didn’t matter what happened before because Simon didn’t blame her and it hurt like hell to know that she blamed herself, but he continued to encourage her anyway.
Kamara turned the chair to look at him before speaking, “I know.” She was seated in the chair, looking at him and waving her eyes towards the door. Sometimes, their communication consisted of actions instead of words, a common way they would communicate on the field. “Eh? You want me to go?”
“It’s more nerve-wracking to code when someone is looking over your shoulder.”
“I thought you wanted some company.” Simon just wanted to be in Kamara’s presence. If she were anyone else, he would have left without hesitation. “Fine. But you gotta sit over there.” She pointed to the last computer that sat at the end of the row in front of her, outside of her peripheral vision. He moved to the other side, but instead of moving to where Kamara was pointing, he sat at the computer right in front of her.
“Uhnt Uh. That’s not where I said. Over there.” She pointed again, clearer to where she wanted him, even though the first time she did it couldn’t have been clearer.
“I can’t even look at you?” Simon admired his wife and loved watching her work, especially when it was something she had to use more brain power for. Watching her fight was cool but watching her use her intelligence for something other than killing sent blood rushing below his waist.
“You can look,” she pointed to the same position she did before, “from over there where I can’t see you. If you take a picture, it’ll last longer.” As he made his way to his appointed seat, he put up his middle finger—his thumb extended with it—and scoffed. Kamara could see it from the corner of her eye and let out a chuckle. “I love you,” she said while she began to type onto the computer, a smile forming on her face as she attempted to suppress her laugh.
“Fuck you,” he said in a cheeky tone, his arms crossed in the chair as he did his best to get a clear view of Kamara. Simon wasn’t serious and she knew that which is what sent her laughing and covering her mouth with the inside of her arm. He was saying, “I love you, too”, but was a little too upset to say it at the moment.
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Kotlc theory: spoilers for Stellarlune
I'm probably gonna slap this on discord cause I like rambling to my friends but it felt like a fun theory to drop here anyway
It's a very very VERY long plot point that I honestly kinda maybe somewhat thought about the first time it popped up but the missing star stone Gisela had commissioned into a hair thingy
Biana mentions her dad taking her to buy a comb once when she was young and that was that up until Stellarlune when the star stone is essential now for Elysian and Biana, brilliant girl that she is, has a theory about the stones and as per use, she's right. Whenever Biana has a theory there is like a 90% chance she's right or she was still right but just slightly missed the target. So it turns out Biana has had the star stone this whole damn time sitting in a box because little baby Biana didn't think it was pretty/it wasn't the one she wanted
But Cyrrah purposefully gave the star stone to Biana and yeah it could just be because no one would think twice about some little kid having what is essentially the government's biggest secret in a jewelry box for who knows how many years but could Biana have been essential to Elysian in some other way besides being the keeper of the place?
Had Alvar ever been ordered to snoop through his family's jewelry because Gisela heard they bought something from Cyrrah but everyone just shrugged her off because she's crazy and paranoid and none of Della's jewelry was special but womp womp Gisela uses her brain for something other than kicking kids and she right
I know Biana is Shannon's favorite plot device for moving things along and Dex is her favorite when she remembers he exists and needs to set a kid on fire (I really hope Dex doesn't die in the final battle because if anyone is going down to an exploding glittery rock it would be Dex but knowing him and fire Dex might survive this) but I genuinely think Biana might still have a foot in the door with this whole Elysian thing
And yeah, big shocker I'm talking about Stina again, but where the fuck did this kid get a book on BATTLE STRATEGY??? How did this 'cowardly' character who has only been in ONE FIGHT THAT WASNT EVEN GIVEN TO US IT WAS JUST SPARK NOTES NEVER TO BE TOUCHED UPON AGAIN( Shannon when I catch you Shannon) HOW DID SHE OF ALL THE CHARACTERS WHO HAVE NEARLY LOST THEIR LIVES USE THAT THING INSIDE HER SKULL CALLED A BRAIN AFTER ONE BATTLE AND THINK "hey i should learn battle strategy" WHEN NO ONE ELSE DID
Shannon hates me, it's true, she stuck a sticky note to my door that says 'I hate you Doodle-xoxo go piss girl (Shannon)' and I saw her in a Mazda waiting for me to read the note and then dramatically burn tires as she drove off, so I know this blonde woman will do SOMETHING that will make me wanna throw book 10 into the ocean. It will probably be the page count of the book for the number of 'last time on Shameless' filler paragraphs. But she'll do SOMETHING to piss me and only me straight off and it's gonna have something to do with Stina I feel it in me bones.
Cause where did she get a battle strategy book????? Who did Stina go up to and say 'hey does my library card work for goblin writings on battle strategy?'. Elves don't have those types on books they're allegedly peaceful but I mean if they made themselves forget about Nightfall and Elysian the elves might have a super secret dark history of battle strategy.
Biana, Fitz, Tam, Linh, Wylie, Stina, Dex, (I don't even remember if Keefe was there I just recall the Horse Girls and Sophie punching stained glass while Marella shows her support for the LGBT) and the rest of the adults who have so far been nerfed beyond nerffing
Unless Shannon decides she needs a book 11 book 10 is about to be the longest book I've ever had the misfortune of laying my eyes on or worse, broken into two book parts
Shannon can't drop cookie crumbs no more she can only drop the full fucking box of cookies so that battle strategy better come in clutch like the deus ex machina I know it's going to be but I also think it's hilarious that Sophie and the gang leave Stina to her own devices for maybe less than 24 hours and Stina managed to set up a full armada in that time.
Shannon had Stina do far too many things in Stellarlune that are never touched upon/mentioned after they're said and once again, she can't drop crumbs she can only drop the whole cookie. Stina in Stellarlune volunteered to 1) talk to a psychopath 2) search through Kenric's library for a crystal that still wasn't found and 3) read battle strategy while calling herself their strongest asset
Stina has to have something up her sleeves and it better be something big or I'm fighting Shannon in the park lot again. Stina could have gotten the book on battle strategy from Kenric's library tbh and asked to check it out or she was only allowed to read it in Kenric's library. Who knows. I think it's hilarious that Oralie might've had to report back to the council that Stina Heks is reading battle strategy books. Lord only knows how Timkin handled telling the Collective his daughter is reading those books.
Can't believe Stina might be a deus ex machina in book 10, I will go crazy if book 10 is too long and has to be broken up into two parts. I still feel like Biana plays a bigger part because she always does. And this has gone from theory to nonsensical rambling but that's just how this blog rolls
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Loved your yandere Enmu headcanons!
Is it ok I could ask for yandere Enmu headcanons again but this time with a willing female darling?
Basically darling's father died, her brother stole all their family's leftover savings and consequently ruined all of darling's chances at a decent life, and her sisters refuse to help her out.
So when Enmu wants her to be his rather than fighting him she accepts his "proposal". How would their dynamic go? Thank you so much for answering! 🩷
Oh my gosh, you're an evil genius. I wanna eat your brain and absorb its power. I also had another request a lot like this, so I guess I can kill two birds with one stone on this one.
WARNING: Yandere Enmu, death, I do not condone any actions that Enmu does in this post, if you are in a situation like this, please seek help.
YANDERE ENMU x FEMALE WILLING READER
+ Enmu had been watching you for a long time.
+ Months, or maybe even years has gone by since he first laid his eyes on you. He's seen your life in vivid detail from the shadows, or outside your window. He's watched your best moments and your worst moments. Enmu closely waits for the best time to take you, the perfect time to snatch you away from those unworthy fools you call your family, and make you his for all eternity.
+ Enmu had never hated anything more than your family, he felt a sickening twist of jealousy and rage in the pit of his stomach whenever he saw you smile at anyone who wasn't him. He especially hated your brother, he saw something awful and untrustworthy in him, making the jealous feeling in the pit of his stomach morph into a strong urge to protect you from the bad vibes of your sibling.
+ In any case, Enmu had already decided when he was going to take you away. Your father had been ill for a long time, three years to be precise. Everyone knew it wouldn't be long before time caught up to him. Despite this truth, it didn't stop Enmu from speeding up the process by giving your father disturbing dreams that kept him up at night, further weakening him.
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+ The morning was duller than normal, you had prepared breakfast and was heading down to your fathers room to serve him his meal. When you arrived you saw your father dead in his bed, he had died in his sleep.
+ It wasn't a shock by any means, he would've been gone any day now, but yet it was so much more painful and... real than you thought it would be.
+ The next day after the funeral, you had gotten the news from your brother that he had inherited all of your fathers riches and was now moving away to start a new life in another town. That was it, you had been abandoned for good. Being a woman in the tashio era was impossible if you had no parents or husband to take care of you.
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+ That night Enmu emerged from the shadows to watch you once again. You were crying to yourself in the garden, an eviction note gripped in your right hand. Enmu, seeing your disheveled state, knew what had inevitably happened, and approached you.
"Why hello there darling!! Why so blue?"
+ You jumped suddenly as the strange man sat next to you, he sat closer than how a stranger would, thighs squished together on the bench, his warm breath warming your neck.
+ You had seen this man before, he was no stranger, as he had introduced himself to you at the market a number of times. But you never would have thought to see that same man sitting next to you on your property. Despite these obvious anomalies you croak out a response.
"My father died a few days ago, and my brother has left me with nothing, I'm being evicted, and *hic* I have no husband or family to take care of me."
+ You couldn't believe you were spilling your heart out to a man you hardly knew. But you were so torn down and broken you couldn't care less.
+ The strange man next to you did not seem as surprised as you thought he would be. Enmu looked at you with such warmth in his eyes you would've thought that he had known you for years. He put his hand on your thigh out of comfort and pity, and started to speak again.
"Sounds awful, I can't possibly imagine what you're going through dear... However..."
+ He took your face in his hand. His muscular form towering over you with a sparkle in his eyes.
+ You wouldn't deny that you felt a bit uncomfortable with his hand on your upper thigh, but you were in no position to deny kindness from a stranger right now.
+ You look up at him with your big eyes, mouth parted ever so slightly to show a sliver of your pearly white teeth and plump lips.
"You are clearly in distress, and have nowhere else to go."
+ Enmu couldn't believe how perfectly this was going. You would finally be his, and he didn't even have to kidnap you!
"Even though we only know each other in passing, I had fallen in love with you the first moment I laid my eyes on you. I will marry you (y/n), and treat you well. You won't have to worry about anything dear, I'll be the perfect husband for you."
+ Enmu brushed his thumb on your cheekbone to encourage you to choose the right choice. You were shocked, placing your hand on your mouth and closing your eyes as you sunk into your thoughts. A man you hardly knew was professing his love for you. You didn't know him, you didn't know his intentions for you, and you certainly didn't know what kind of man he was. However what could you do? You had no one, to say no to him was foolish. This was the best outcome for you. (Really it was the only outcome for you, however much to your oblivious nature, you didn't know that.)
+ So you excepted.
"You are a kind man Enmu, but I hope you are not marrying me out of pity.
+ He chuckled.
"I wouldn't dream of it darling."
+ He squeezed his hand around your thigh.
" Then I think... I shall except your proposal."
"Oh perfect!~"
+ Enmu leaned in and kissed your cheek, then placing a peck on your lips. He really wanted to do more, but he didn't want to scare off the little bunny he just caught.
+ You let him do as he pleased. If it meant getting out of the situation you were in, you would let him do anything. And oh how he relished in that wonderful knowledge. He would test that truth, soon. But for now he would enjoy just being able to touch you while you were awake.
Thank you so much for requesting!!! Please request anytime, my inbox is always open. I'll post a part two on what their dynamic would be like soon.
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Better in the Morning // Ch. 15.1
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CHAPTER WARNINGS: mentions of hospitalizations; injuries including but not limited to a broken leg, head trauma; medications; headaches; nosebleeds; nightmares; slight mentions of suicide/overdose; arguments; angst (but I promise there's some fluff, just bear with me!) Again, I am not a medical professional and have no formal medical training.
word count: 2600+
DANIEL'S POV
Sam stayed in the hospital for another week and a half after he woke up. He was out of the woods, but they wanted to monitor him in case there were any lasting effects of his head trauma. No matter how many times we were reassured that he would be okay, I couldn’t rid myself of the fear that I had when I thought I might lose him.
Our fight was still fresh in my mind, and I’d beat myself up over it and all the things I said to him for a long time. I don’t know if he remembered any of it, though. Granted, we didn’t have any time alone while surrounded by the Kiszka family at the hospital. But he didn’t seem angry at me. Not once did he show any signs of resentment towards me. That almost made me feel worse. He should’ve been angry. He should’ve been blaming me. But he held my hand and shared soft smiles with me, and it gave me some hope that everything would be alright.
He was finally discharged from the hospital and was more than ready to be out of there. His parents and sister had gotten a hotel to be close by, but made a point to not crowd him. I assumed Josh or Jake would want to stay with him, but when he asked me to, my heart swelled. He still wanted me there.
Sam was trying so hard to feel normal again, but it seemed like an uphill battle. He was frustrated about the difficulty he had moving around, wanting so badly to do things on his own and hating to ask for the help he desperately needed. I didn’t mind, of course. I wanted to take care of him, for as long as he’d let me.
He was struggling with brain fog and drowsiness, but he’d been assured that was normal during his recovery. He slept a lot and wasn’t eating as much as I would’ve liked; he was constantly nauseous as a result of the cocktail of meds he was on. He was resistant to the pills, refusing to take them until he couldn’t bear the physical pain anymore. I always offered them on the allowed schedule, though, just in case. The headaches were the worst. They were often accompanied by nosebleeds, and the pain he felt was so excruciating he could do nothing but lay down and cry. And I could do nothing but lay there and hold him.
He'd have nightmares about the accident sometimes. He’d wake up drenched in sweat and out of breath. At first, he never wanted to talk about them, but he eventually caved. He dreamt about what he remembered, which wasn’t much – the oncoming headlights, the smell of gasoline, and the feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach when he thought he might not make it out alive. I didn’t tell him I was having nightmares, too.
I couldn’t bring myself to ask, but I didn’t think he remembered calling me. On some nights after Sam was asleep, I’d listen to the voicemail again. I don’t know why I insisted on doing it to myself, but I couldn’t stop, much less make myself delete it. The message is fuzzy, broken apart by static and peppered with the pinging of whichever of the car’s warning notifications were going off. Some kind of hissing can be heard, like the sound of a busted hose, intermingled with Sam’s heavy breaths. His voice follows, cracked and fearful. He coughs in between words, and it’s clear that it’s getting harder and harder to breathe.
Hey, Danny boy. I think… I messed up a little… I don’t know what’s… gonna happen. So just know… I’m not mad anymore. I’m scared, Daniel, I’m really scared. I wish I was home with you, sn- snuggled up watching some dumb movie. I love you. I love you. I love you so fucking much, since forever, for always. I love you. Don’t forget about me. Take care of Rose, take care of everyone. Promise…
I think he lost consciousness then. His voice trailed off and all I could hear was static and the incessant dinging. Hearing his voice like that, imagining how terrified he must have been, made my heart feel like it was being ripped into a thousand little pieces. It made me want to vomit. But still, I couldn’t stop listening to it.
He sat on the floor of the living room, leaned against the front of the couch. It was a mystery to me why he kept doing it, as getting back up with a broken leg and a sprained hand was difficult to say the least. But no matter how comfortable I tried to make the couch for him, he always ended up moving himself down to the floor. “Don’t like the altitude,” he joked.
I tried to remind him when he asked me to hand him a guitar that his hand needed time to heal. He would have none of it. But when he tried to play, everything started barreling downhill again. First, he couldn’t get comfortable, and the joints in his hand complained with every movement. Next came the fumbling when switching strings or frets, and the frequent dead notes that reached my ears. He cursed and muttered under his breath but refused to stop trying. He swapped the acoustic for his seafoam bass; maybe he thought it’d be more reliable. He started strumming the first few notes of ‘Caravel,’ then abruptly stopped. He furrowed his brows and tried again with the same result. After a few more attempts, he squeezed his eyes shut and groaned loudly, bowing his head over the instrument, his messy hair hiding his face. “Fuck!”
“Sam? Is it your head? Maybe you should take a break-“
“I can’t remember,” he said, his voice cracking. He looked up at me, his eyes filling with tears. “I can’t remember how to play.”
Fuck. A million and one thoughts raced through my head. What would that mean for Sam? Would he have to relearn everything? Would he even try? And what would that mean for the band? I couldn’t imagine continuing it without him, and I knew his brothers wouldn’t just replace him. But even though it crossed my mind, Greta wasn’t my first priority. Greta Van Fleet didn’t matter without Sam in it. I worried that he wouldn’t be able to cope if he couldn’t play; he worked so hard to get as far as he did. He gave up college and astronomy to play music. If he couldn’t play… what happens next?
I tried to comfort him as he cried and as he hyperventilated through a panic attack. Rose nudged him, laying her head in his lap. I held him as close to me as I physically could and smoothed down his hair. “Sammy, baby, it’ll be okay. You’re still healing from a traumatic brain injury, and I’m sure all the meds are making you feel a little off. There’s probably a lot you won’t be able to do right away, but you’ll get there. You need time to heal, so focus on that for now, and let the music come after.”
“What if it doesn’t come?”
“Then we’ll figure it out. But it will, and you’ll be back to feeling like yourself again before you know it.”
He cried so much that night, which triggered another headache. After some convincing, he took a dose of pain pills. Right before he fell asleep, he mumbled something, so low that it was almost inaudible. But I heard him. “Will you still love me if I’m broken forever?”
My breath caught in my throat and my eyes filled to the brim with tears. I tightened my arms around him as much as I could without hurting him. “I’ll always love you, Sammy. No matter what. I promise.” He didn’t say anything else, and when I heard a light snore, I knew he was asleep.
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Sam’s slow, clumsy movements as he tried to get up out of bed woke me up. “You okay?”
“Gotta pee.”
I started to sit up and rubbed my eyes. “Here, let me help-“
“No,” he cut me off. “I can do it on my own, I need to.” I could hear the plea in his voice to let him try. He needed to feel some semblance of independence where he could get it.
I nodded and laid back down, watching him closely for any sign he might fall as he grabbed the crutches and hoisted himself up. I relaxed when he made it to the bathroom okay, although I listened out in case he needed any help. I heard the toilet flush, but while waiting for him to finish up, I must have fallen back asleep. I don’t know how long I was out before I woke back up. The room was still dark, but Sam wasn’t in bed, and everything was quiet. I could see light seeping from under the bathroom door, and Rose lying in front of it. “Sammy, you okay?” My heart started pounding with anxiety when he didn’t answer. I slowly pushed the door open and called his name again. It felt like a punch in the gut when I saw him on the floor, eyes closed, leaned up against the bathtub.
I rushed to him, probably bruising my own knees as I hit the cold tile and placed my hands on his cheeks. “Sam? What happened? Are you hurt?”
His eyes fluttered open and he smiled. “I’m okay, Danny boy. Just tired.”
A sense of relief washed over me, and I adjusted myself to sit with him, just until he was ready to go back to bed. But the relief was quickly replaced with dread when my knee touched something on the ground. An empty pill bottle. I snatched it up, now noticing a second one. “Sam, what the fuck… please tell me you didn’t.” He was slow to respond; my blood ran cold, and my breathing quickened. “Sam?! Fuck!” Call 911. I scrambled off the floor and rushed back to the bedroom to find my phone. I grabbed it off the charger but fumbled and dropped it. Sam called my name as I finally had it back in my hand and was running back to him. My hands shook as I started to dial the numbers, and he called my name again.
“Daniel, it’s okay! I flushed ‘em.”
My movements halted and I stared at him for a moment, trying to register his words. “You… you didn’t take them?”
He shook his head. “I don’t wanna take ‘em anymore. They make my brain fuzzy and I don’t feel like me. So I flushed them.”
“Jesus, Sammy.” I scrubbed my hand over my face and lowered myself back to the floor. I willed my heart rate to even out. This was fixable; we could get refills for the pain meds. If he would even take them. I’m sure it seemed like a good idea to him in the moment, but he might regret it next time he got a severe migraine. I didn’t see the point in giving him shit about it at this point. It was already done and there wasn’t anything that could be done about it right now. “Do you want to go back to bed?”
“Not yet.” He leaned his head back carefully on the edge of the tub. “S’ cold. Feels nice.” We sat in silence for a while until he said, “I’m sorry.”
I thought he was apologizing for tonight, for making me think he overdosed. “It’s okay, you just scared me is all.”
“No. Well… that, too. But I meant for what happened before… before I left.”
It took me a second to realize what he was talking about, and I couldn’t hide my surprise when I did. “Oh. I didn’t know if you remembered that.” I kept my eyes trained on the ground as I thought about what I said to him that night, afraid of what I might find in his. If he remembered the fight, he might resent me for it.
“Are you still mad about it?”
“No,” I answered immediately.
“Would you be if all this shit didn’t happen?” He gestured to the cast on his leg. “It’s okay if you’re still mad at me. I deserve it.”
“No, you don’t, Sam. It was stupid and I acted like an asshole. I’m the one that overreacted-“
“Uh uh.” He lifted and shook his head. “I just wanted attention. And I was mad ‘cause I wanted it from you. I wasn’t flirting with that guy because I actually liked him or anything. I didn’t wanna hurt you, I just wanted to make you jealous.”
I stared at him in disbelief. I probably should have been pissed at his confession. Seeing him fawn over some tool at the bar and follow him around like a lovesick puppy had me livid. If all he wanted to do was make me jealous, it certainly worked. When I confronted him after the fact, it escalated into a full-blown screaming match. We both said so many awful things to each other that I know neither of us meant. But his honesty tonight was refreshing. So instead of being angry, I just laughed, earning a confused look from him.
“You know,” I started, “I love you, but you are such a fucking brat.”
It wasn’t long before he joined in, falling into a fit of giggles. “At least I’m your brat.”
Later on, once we were back in bed, snuggled up under the covers, he grabbed my hand that was wrapped around him and held it tightly to his chest. “Daniel?”
“Hm?” I fought to stay awake, tiredness threatening to take me under.
“I wanna tell them about us.”
I opened my eyes and stared towards him in the dark. We’d kept our relationship a secret for so long, and I couldn’t even remember why. I’m sure we had our reasons, but it all seemed so stupid now. A part of me sort of liked having it to myself, like what we had was just for us and wasn’t anyone else’s business. But the other part of me wanted to take this super important piece of my life and share it with the people closest to us. “Okay. Let’s do it.”
“Really?” He sounded genuinely surprised, as if he expected me to say no.
“I don’t want to hide it anymore.”
“Okay, good.” I could hear the smile in his voice. “Do you think they’re really gonna be surprised?”
“Nah. If I had to guess, they probably already know and made bets against each other.”
“Hmph. Fuckers,” he snorted.
I chuckled, and I was so happy that he seemed to be getting back to his old self already.
~
It took three more days before he was willing to pick up an instrument again. He was anxious to even try, but with the right amount of encouragement from me and his brothers, he was back in the saddle. It wasn’t perfect, as he was still working on getting full range of motion in his hand back, but it was promising. After successfully hitting most of the notes in ‘Caravel’ and a few others, he was beaming.
“I told you it would come back to you.”
I was wrong to assume that the twins would have any inkling of my relationship with their younger brother. With eyes wide and jaws dropped, they bombarded us with questions. They were mostly baffled how we had managed to keep it a secret for so long, and right under their noses. I did notice that Kya didn’t seem shocked in the slightest; Sam would tell me later that Kya probably knew before we did. When the initial shock wore off, we received nothing but happy sentiments.
“If there’s anyone I trust to take care of my baby brother, it’s you,” Josh said as he hugged me tightly, and I was so grateful to be lucky enough to be a part of this family.
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James also acts very poorly when he was a teen, what would you say the differences and similarities are between him and Draco? (I do feel like jkr was definitely drawing parallels with him, Draco and Dudley. Especially when we see 11 yr old James on the train, the way he talks about sorting is very similar to how Draco did, just they fall on different sides, but the arrogance is still there. Also I feel Dudley’s gang in the beginning of ootp is another parallel to the marauders behavior in swm) (I also find it interesting that James bullying is more extreme/cruel/violent than Draco’s even though Draco has more of a reason to be prone to violence than James (he seems to actually be adverse to it, like in HBP)
'as a teen' - honestly I think James acts poorly as a bloody adult lol
Dudleys gang = Marauders is so big brain, you've blown my mind, that's actually awesome And pulls Harry right in to being comparable to Severus
I think the biggest difference in the upbringing of Draco and James, both raised bullying, rich, spoiled Purebloods - is James was raised with the idea that it's what you DO that gives you worth. While the Malfoys just believe they have worth, for WHAT they are.
James goes around and fights the bad guys. Sirius chooses to ditch his 'bad-guy' family. Remus chooses to 'be a good werewolf'. I don't even know what Peter did to be fair - they were just mean to him. Lily is a talented Muggleborn in a time where that's dangerous.
Severus? No matter how much they beat him down he keeps doing more bad stuff, he digs his heels in and becomes 'worse'. Which means he is choosing to knowingly be a 'bad-guy' Because James, as a kid, seems to see the world in B&W. He can say hurtful things to his friends because he proves himself as good. He can hurt Severus because Severus is bad. He has never had to understand context and differing viewpoints. Maybe that changed a little from the prank: His friend doing something quite bad to Severus, Remus and Dumbledore... but was still a good guy. Draco just... IS good. BORN good. He can sit on his high horse and sneer at people because he was born one of the 'good guys'. It's annoying to him when someone born a 'bad guy' gets so much attention... and for what? A stupid scar? (thats something he and Harry would agree with: Harry hates the attention he gets for his stupid scar, too.)
Draco doesn't need to prove anything. The idea of getting his hands dirtied is grotesque - he is too good for that! Draco can whinge and complain about a broken arm because that dangerous dirty half-giant is a menace to good society! Thats all I feel about it right now, uh... cool ask :) makes me brain brr
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LET'S BURN aka Morning Star thoughts
YOU KNOW HOW WE DO
SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT lets GOOoOooooOooooooOOO
Trigg was a gay icon "Stay close. Nut to butts here, dont be shy."
RAGNARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
I cried UGLY TEARS on my drive home from work. The only time I cried during the book. Ragnar talking about how he will build him a house next to his but don't come to the Veil too quickly because it will take him a while to build it. Telling his sister to live for more. Smiling even at the end.
PB, why bro. You have damaged me by doing the following.
1.) Killing Pax (THE ENDING DONT TOUCH ME, WELL GET TO IT)
2.) Killing Pax's archetype replacement
You make me like Pax, you take him away. You make me LOVE Ragnar and you take him away. Ragnar UNDERSTOOD, he understood the Rising and what it all meant more than most and you TOOK HIM AWAYYYYYYY. *Slams fist on table*
Ok ok ok ok also small side note when they crashed and encountered Cassius and Aja (i love to hate this bitch) and Mustang has her bow drawn on Cassius and is like
I WILL PUT YOU DOWN
and in my brain I'm like "nah she wouldn't"
and then she FIRES the shot into Cassius' neck
((the plot armor on this man is actually crazy))
And I had this amazing moment when listening to the audiobook that I got goosies...I imagined the snow around her and her hair blowing around her face and DETERMINATION in her eyes as she fires the shot
I was so PROUD of her
I was like
Sevro and Darrow's fight was awesome. Sweet, even. Talking about how he can see the protectiveness in Darrow's eyes when he was looking at the refugees on Tinos. His head on Darrow's knee. Talking about Eo & Sevro talking about how all he wanted was to cause wrath in the wake of his father's murder. He questions his leadership abilities and doesn't want it. I understand because he was the one that was still looking for Darrow. Saved him from torment and torture. He came back different, broken and defeated. Sad. ANGRY. Then how quickly leadership fell back to Darrow when he was the one that worked during that year that the Rising wavered when everyone thought The Reaper had been killed.
OH OH OH
one of my favorite parts of this book was The Reaper's speech. Because he wasn't Darrow, he was REAPER. He's also dramatic as fuck and I love him. He was standing up there in front of Refugees and I got GOOOOOOSIIESSS bitch when the people were like, reaching out to touch him, I was like THIS SHIT IS CRAZY. He has no branding and he's like
"I STAND BEFORE YOU A MAN UNBOUND" and people are gasping in shit cause he's like the first person in hundreds of years to bear no sigils of color.
"I speak now to Golds, to the Aureate who rule. I have walked your halls, broken your schools, eaten at your tables and suffered your gallows. You tried to kill me. You could not. I know your power. I know your pride. And I have seen how you will fall. For 700 years you have ruled over the dominion of man, and this is all you have given us. It is not enough."
I could see why people wanted to follow him. That speech was fucking EPIC.
Other thoughts. Romulus us gunna be a problem. I also think Lysander is going to have a big role. Idk what but my spidey sense is tingling. After all that trauma he was just TOTALLY OK to talk to the Ash Lord and help get the plan moving...?
Pls dont tell this little boi is about to be Jackal 2.0
OMFG THE JACKAL
BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII this man is inSANE!
Nuclear warfare because he wasn't getting his way??? Wanting Darrow to kill himself LIVE? DARROWS HAND GETTIGN CHOPPED OFF
BRO I THOUGHT CASSIUS BETRAYED THEM I WAS SO FCKING PISSED. I was like YO CASSIUS IT IS ON FUCKING SITE THE NEXT TIME WE SEE YOU BRO COUNT ON IT COUNT YOUR DAYS
Then I was like oh ok nevermind
All because of that little fucking holocube, the GOAT of GOATS. Showing Cassius' family being disposed of.
I have a few GOATs of this book.
(secret GOAT is Sophocles. i want to give him a jellybean)
1.) Mustang. Firing that arrow and in the discussion with Romulus she was KEY.
2.) The defiant Pink that opened the bay on the Moonbreaker. Shaking but defiant, angry at her overlords. Amazing moment.
3.) Victra. Her moment when she saw Darrow having to make a hard decision and blowing the stuff on Ganymede to cripple Romulus and The Rim. "Share some of the load, darling. This is on me." What a fucking GOAT.
4.) Sevro. CRUCIAL to taking Aja down. That shit was 3 v 1 and they would NOT have won without him. Him low to the ground moving like an animal smirking like "YOURE GUNNA DIEEE TODAY BITCH" im like
Because Aja was such a THREAT bro. I was so NERVOUS someone was going to die and they almost did!
OH OH OH (im so sorry i was up all night until like 9am finishing the audiobook so Im kind of delirious) Darrow rushing Octavia on LIVE TV and going like *shink shink shink shink shink shink shink* in her stomach with his teeth bared and I'm like YAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS BITCCHHHHHH
Finally, I was oddly, ODDLY uderstanding of why Mustand kept baby Pax a secret. For a split second I was like "WOAH WAIT WTF-" But then I was like ".....Yeah, no that makes sense." She understood what Darrow wanted but wasn't sure if the Rising would be like the genecide of Golds, her people. So she wasn't sure she couldt rust him. I get it. Nodding in understanding. Valid. She wanted to see if he was capable of BUILDING. She knows he can destroy. But can he follow up the revolution by actually building a better future.
Now she knows he can, and he has a BABBBBYYYY
I do know there is a massive time jump in the next book and multiple POVs. I'm nervous but ready.
*Random side side note
Sevro and Victra came out of nowhere for me and was something I didn't get at all
*side side side note
The Telemanus' are also GOATs
Kavax and Daxo are babies
*side side side side note, one of my other favorite moments was before they drilled with their clawdrills intot he Moonbreaker and Darrow says
"Drills hot. Helmets up. LET'S BURN." GOOOOSSSIESS
audiobook narrator performance was FANTASTIC
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OKAY RAMBLE TIME!! APOCALYPSE SISTERS THEMED RAMBLE TO BE CLEAR
@jadetheblueartist JADE LOOK APOCALYPSE SISTERS.
I invite and encourage y’all to bounce your own ideas off of mine because currently nothing is concrete and I’d love more ideas for the story! Or about y’all’s Aus I just wanna hear ideas in general and my brain is spinning rn
Anyway ON WITH THE RAMBLE!! (I warn you it’s is quite long)
Okay so y’know good ol Frida Hamato— wait y’all don’t know… yikes I don’t have an info dump on her yet. Okay during the post movie timeline (the one the story takes place in) she is quite cold to her brothers for a while. She had known of their existence her whole life but never made a move to connect to them for two reasons, 1, she wouldn’t waste her time with these brothers that she’d never met. All she knows about them is that they are enemies of Big Mama and a hindrance in her work. She is unknown to them and she’d rather keep it that way. 2, after Vita’s disappearance she doesn’t want another close relationship. Her sister, he only family she had known, was gone. She wasn’t going to replace her sister and she wasn’t ready for more siblings when she couldn’t protect her first one. Her family is Big Mama and she wants to focus on that. She wants to protect her mother without distractions.
BUT! When she sees Vita and realizes she is alive everything changes. She wants to be with Vita, she wants to be have her sister back. And by that point vita has already formed a bond with the others, so being close with Vita means being close with her brothers. Through Vita she becomes close with the others and, after a long time with many struggles, she joins the Hamato Clan and leaves Big Mama to be with her family. She still loves Big Mama and will not take and back talk of her mother but she grows extremely close with her brothers and finally feels loved.
Now the rest of her story joining the Hamato clan is a different ramble that’s just the necessary info. And in case that makes absolutely no since here’s a bullet point
Frida became close with her Brothers through Vita.
But in the apocalyptic timeline (where Casey is from) she doesn’t have Vita. (Going to refer to Bad future timeline as FT and the present timeline as PT)
Yep. She never reunites with Vita in the FT. Now let me explain why.
Vita was in the prison dimension until Mikey (PT) opened a portal to save Leo. In the FT Leo never sacrificed himself and the Krang were never locked away. (FT) Vita escaped the prison dimension during the early apocalypse. She wandered with the only goal being to murder the Krang. After years more of no interaction she went completely mad. The only thing she knew was she hated the Krang with all her being. She never joined the resistance, she never reunited with her sister, she never met her brothers, she never truly became a Hamato.
In the resistance there was a myth, a rumor, that there was someone, or something, out there fighting off the Krang. They called her Yūrei, the Japanese word for Ghost, or Specter. Yūrei was someone even the Krang supposedly feared. It was rumored her eyes were those of Krang, some even believed Yūrei was a beast sent by the Krang, but according to many stories it seemed her wrath was directed to the Krang alone. No one had heard her voice but her broken, manic, howling laughter haunted anyone who heard.
Yūrei is Vita. She would rarely stumble upon members of the resistance in her hunt for the Krang, and she saved them from the Krang’s attacks. Vita’s mind was too broken to realize she was helping someone she simply hunted anything of Krang kind. She acted almost beast like in the way she hunted, focused and intent on ending her prey. She dressed in the attire similar to 12!Mikey’s dimension X outfit. She also wore bits and pieces of Krang mechs, sometimes using the head of one as a mask.
Casey never grew up with an aunt Vee, but he grew up hearing the horrifying tales of Yūrei.
Oh and perhaps Leo had a moment where he met Yūrei on a mission. I’m unaware of the details but it’s an idea I’d like to develop further!
So! Bullet point for Vita!
Vita’s mind shattered in the FT, she became almost animal like, she lived to hunt the Krang. She became known as Yūrei, meaning Ghost or Specter by the resistance.
Now, back to Frida. Because she never had Vita to connect her with the brothers she stayed glued to her Mother’s side. She became much more serious throughout the apocalypse as well. Big Mama, even in the middle of a war, kept her business booming. Her Nexus Hotel stayed in business under a cloaking spell during the early years of the FT. Eventually, the Krang found it and destroyed it. Big Mama was left wounded and under the care of Frida. Frida sought out a shelter for her and her injured Mother and eventually stumbled upon the resistance. She pleaded with the head of the resistance, which at the time was Hamato Yoshi and the EPF. They accepted after some time, but splinter was not expecting to see Big Mama when Frida came back. Big Mama and Splinter became close again and Frida felt like she was being left behind. But through joining the resistance she met her brothers. Draxum explained that she was their sister and they were (mostly) ecstatic, although suspicious that she was raised by Big Mama. Frida stayed glued to her mother’s side and never truly became close to her brothers. She acknowledged them as siblings and would participate in conversation with them. Mikey tried really really hard to get her to open up but she never warmed up to them to the point of PT Frida. But they were all family and it was good. She was distant but did like her new brothers. She grew closest to Raph, and Mikey, who made the most effort to welcome her and also grew to be close friends with Cassandra.
The first to die was splinter. It grieved Big Mama immensely and she, only a few years later, died in battle to serve the Hamato Clan. Frida was a wreck for a long time after her mother’s death, but with her mother dying for the clan Frida felt more of a familial connection with the Hamatos.
And, with her mother gone, the Nexus Employees looked for guidance. They looked to Frida for guidance. They didn’t know what to do without Big Mama’s orders and Frida was next in line. she felt like it was her duty to follow in her mother’s footsteps. She left the Resistance with the remainder of the original hotel staff, and any others who tagged along, and went back to the nexus hotel. She rebuilt it from its ruins and created a haven for any wanderers stranded in New York. They used cloaking spells to hide the sound and lights inside.
To any passersby it just looked like a crumpled ruined building, but once they step in it revealed itself as warm and welcoming haven for the weary and tired. To anyone who had known of the Grand Nexus Hotel before its destruction it would look like a pathetic mockery of its previous elegance, but it was a remarkable transformation from its ruined state. And the head of it all was none other than Frida. Frida managed everything, from security and comfort to food regulation. Her employees served her loyally every step of the way. The Battle Nexus arena was used as a storage wing and barracks when the hotel was full.
Y’all it’s your favorite time, Bullet Points!
Frida never became very close with her Brothers, more like they were just good friends. She became closest with Mikey, Raph, and Cassandra.
After Big Mama’s death Frida rebuilt the Nexus Hotel and it became known as a sort of dystopian rest stop for survivors of the apocalypse.
Also the song that inspired most of these thoughts was the first 45 seconds of “come let us adore you” (from Steven universe) in the perspective of the hotel staff singing it to Frida.
Casey never became close with Frida but knew that she was his aunt. She is the only person he has ever known as the owner of the Nexus Hotel. Frida never tried to connect with Casey; she is not a fan of kids.
Frida dresses in a dystopian/apocalyptic business style outfit.
There’s 2 main options on how she reunites with them:
1. At one point either Mikey or Leo accidentally enter the Hotel to hide from the Krang and are shocked at what they see. Then they see Frida, giving orders left and right with a cold expression across her face. She doesn’t notice him until he runs up to her to greet her after not seeing each other for years. Her expression warms when she sees him but she stays formal, like addressing a coworker. She missed the Hamatos while she was away but got along fine without them.
2. Disaster strikes at the Hotel when the Krang discover the cloaking spell and Frida seeks out refuge with the resistance. She then learns of the passing of Raph and Cassandra and meets Casey for the first time. After that she stays with them the rest of her days, helping as commander.
Or 3… she doesn’t reunite and dies before she sees them again.
There are many more options I’m considering but those are the main ones!
And now, How this affects the PT!!!
After the events of chapter 1, Casey is so confused. He has no clue who Vita is and it seriously itches his brain because he’s from the future and has never seen this mutant turtle. Then.. he hears her laugh. And he’s horrified. He is genuinely scared of Vita and avoids her at all costs because he knows her a Yūrei. The vicious beast that he thought was just a myth.
And when he meets Frida it’s like whiplash. His aunt Frida, the distant, serious, stone faced commander, was so different. After only week of being with the hamatos she was acting competitive and overconfident. It’s a side he never saw of his aunt. (Also it was a facade but that’s for the Frida ramble)
With everything that happened in the PT vita and Frida are DRASTICALLY different people. Vita’s mind stayed as intact as it could get, and Frida finally found people that really love her, with time, discovering her real personality and showing her real smile instead of the one plastered to her face for the cameras.
SOOOOOOOOO UHHHHHH YEAH. APOCALYPSE STUFF.
Any ideas? Thoughts? Scenarios you wanna see? Questions? Apocalyptic versions of your au you wanna share? Send me an ask!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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