#i hate being afraid that im not trans 'enough' to be trans

[demonir]

dude now I'm just sitting here staring at a wall thinking abt how fucked up being lgbt is...

Don't get me wrong I'm happier knowing who I am and I shudder to think what would be of me if I had never found out, there's so many queer people out there that will welcome you with open arms and guide you through or just simply offer you a shoulder to cry on and that's wonderful I love that and we need more of that

But then there's the rest of the people, the assholes that want you dead just for existing, the ones that are less vocally hateful and might tolerate being in a room with you but should you need anything they'd rather let you starve than approach, the "I support you but" people that say are open minded and supportive but the moment you cross some invisible line of theirs you are no longer "one of the good ones" and must be dealt with.

We've all seen these people, they might be strangers, coworkers, acquaintances, friends, family and even our partners and their words and actions hurt like knives. But a lot of us have learned that we shouldn't waste our time with them if we can avoid it, turn around, block them, leave the room, move out of the house if you can, we can do these things

But what happens when the hatred is coming from inside the community itself? I cannot begin to tell you how soul breaking it is for me when I see discourse like "LGBT without the T!" or "Asexuality doesn't belong in the LGBT" or "If you're bi but in a straight relationship then you're a liar/traitor" or "If you don't pass as your gender then you're not truly trans" and these are just some off the top of my head, there are so many more and even if they don't personally affect me it still hurts me to see it so much.

You're not making the community nicer or safer by dictating how someone should exist, there are no "traitors" there are no "liars" there are no "pretenders" everyone is just trying to live their life while staying true to themselves but everyone around them is constantly telling them they are wrong for it, not gonna lie to you I'm sometimes afraid that I'll get someone telling me I'm not truly nonbinary because I'm not androgynous or use they/them and I'm easily perceived as a woman, I get afraid I'll be told that what I'm doing is just a phase by other queer people despite the fact that I've been trans since I was 14 and it took me all those years to be able to come to terms with the fact that yes I love dresses, yes I like makeup, yes I'm fine with she/her pronouns, yes I sometimes find it endearing to be called a girl, but no I am not a woman and I'll never be.

But guess what? being afab carries this weird notion that I am somehow harmless or at least less of an issue than lets see uhh oh yeah amab trans people! trans women get labeled predators, groomers and a danger to everyone around them so often and the punishment for not passing as their desired gender is far greater than anything I've ever personally received. People have let these notions about birth genders and sexualities carry on to their trans views in macabre and harmful ways. You want to be wary of men? sure, there's an extensive history of issues that make your fears rational and justified... but why are you pointing your finger at a trans woman? Because she has stubble or a beard? no long hair? doesn't like dresses? doesn't want hrt or surgeries of any kind? has a deep voice? because she has "male interests"? do you not realize how harmful that is?

That's not to say trans men don't get a similar treatment, but I don't see them being labeled as dangerous and violent even half as much as trans women do, it's this notion that being born with a penis somehow makes you vile or something???? unless you prove to us how innocent and righteous you are by looking exactly how I want you to, staying 5 meters away from me and never displaying any sort of sexual attraction towards anyone ever otherwise I am calling the police on you

That's bogus nonsense and I'm absolutely tired of it, stop carrying societies old and nasty views of gender and sexuality into this community that is about supporting and uplifting people no matter how they want to be, and while we're at it someone's presentation and physical appearance isn't indicative of their morality

I wish every trans woman on tumblr right now that feels afraid to speak up about the current situation or even just their life experiences as a trans person a very very happy rest of their lives, and I wish every trans woman who IS speaking up about stuff a very happy rest of their lives as well

Again just so we're clear, I'm nonbinary and afab she/he he/she whatever order so I should in theory not be the target to any uhh "mysterious" blog bans and stuff, however if my blog dies after this post know that I did not do it myself.

Stand up for trans women always and forever, we are all fighting together and there is no glory in hurting each other

[andragoras-in-vanity]

im sure ive alrwady said this but veilgaurd called me a bottom in evedy language, most strongly elvhen tho. i cannot stop thinking about elgar'nans lil spiel to the venatori saying 'all you must do is love me, and kneel' like bruh......if rook wasnt so spiteful they probably would have...just to see where he was going with that....

[zens-time]

ding dong I'm never posting finished art

[jackass-jones]

I love to imagine Rebecca as trans like it just has become so ingrained in my mind it feels weird it’s not canon. She realized at a young age and her parents were supportive and let her present how she wanted and they used her name and pronouns, but they weren’t around enough to go the extra mile for her and make sure she was being protected. She was the target of some pretty bad bullying at school, both from the students and the staff, and Ashton was the first person to defend her. Ashton is cishet (cuz I think it’s funny) and hes kinda ignorant at first but he tries his best and he just likes Rebecca and wants good things for her and he’s so emo he scares away the bullies lol. And this was definitely a big part in Rebecca gaining feelings for him he just showed her this special kinda care that no one else ever did, and it’s what makes her extra insecure as the years go by. Cuz she wonders if maybe the reason Ashton never seems to reciprocate her feelings is because she’s trans and he just never thought to see her as romance material as a result. Which is a line of thinking that gets out of control really bad and she never gets to have the closure she wants with it either

She tells Isabella that’s shes trans just cuz they’re best friends and it sorta comes up eventually. Isabella was a tomboy growing up so she can definitely relate to the bullying shit pretty well and they are very protective of each other and vow to beat up anyone who talks shit about the other. They also just open each other’s minds a bit, Isabella helps Rebecca feel more comfortable in knowing there’s many different ways to be a woman, Rebecca helps Isabella maybe explore her feelings about her own gender and whether or not she’s really attached to womanhood. Zach finds out in a more casual way, it’s just something he learns cuz it felt weird that he was the only one who didn’t know and well. He’s a good guy, he wouldn’t mind. It’s not something the two of them ever talk about really, aside from bonding over a few shared experiences with having to deal with assholes. And really, being trans just isn’t something Rebecca wants to talk about too much, just because she’s gotten to a point where’s she’s experienced being stealth and she knows how quickly people can turn on you when they know, and she understandably doesn’t wanna deal with that shit. But because her friends are so supportive, she doesn’t exhale and let herself just exist naturally around them and it does help her feel less insecure about who she is

Sexuality wise I think she’s "straight" I think she’s spent most of her life looking at Ashton and just assuming she’d be with a man but once she finally gets to give up on him she has Moments with Isabella or like a certain fondness for Marianne and their shared love of history and other nerd shit and shes just like. Uh Oh 😟

[evergreen-femme]

i honestly hate the trans girl narrative that we were all always women no questions full stop. i get why it needs to exist and like i won't break the orthodoxy right now but to be honest that isn't really my experience. i was a boy who really desperately wanted to be a "girl" growing up, whatever that meant to me. now, i am a woman but i'm still that boy inside - he's my inner child. it may not be the nicest truth but it's my reality. it's immensely sad. but i need to acknowledge him if im ever going to have a sense of continuity in my life. so yea that's what the femboy stuff has been all about and why it feels so completely healing for me. its hot too yeah i know but i feel like i need to explain that it has a much deeper meaning to me than that as a "fetish." it's literally the narrative of my life, and me being happy enough with the results of my transition on a more or less every day basis to try and acknowledge and embrace the part of me i've always been the most ashamed of.

and also im really afraid of people saying shit because of this like "you aren't really a woman and you definitely aren't a lesbian!" bc i am still a woman. my adult self is a woman. acknowledging my womanhood meant acknowledging the 17 years of my life i spent fully dissociated from my body or any real sense of self, which was a terrifying thing to do that i think a lot of people would lack the courage for. and my lesbian and especially femme identity (to me, i'm a femme first, and a lesbian second) is incredibly important to my sense of womanhood. i had to embrace my womanhood to grow up, basically, and i delayed that for way too long. WAY too long. but i was still existing during that waiting time and i'm not going to just throw away 17 years of my life because it doesn't make sense to dumbass queer discoursers. i'm a boy who grew up into a woman. ppl like me do exist.

[honklord420]

Hello Hello !!! I figured that maybe I should do a little introduction post since there's actually a chance I may post stuff on here lol

My name is Olliver and I'm a 16yo trans man along with being nonhuman and bisexual with a preference for masc leaning folks. I am also taken by my wonderful mate @stupidfatfish !!!

Im still exploring my non-humanity currently but so far I know for a fact that I’m a wolf of some variety

My interests tend to bounce around a lot however here are a few specific ones: Shameless, Class of ‘09, Moral Orel, Bojack horseman, Creepypasta, Sally face, red dead redemption 2, Homestuck, Salad fingers, stardew valley, and any and all things that include CLOWNS !!!! I've also been in and out of the furry fandom for at least a few yrs by now and I'm super super into music !!! (Some of my top music artists include: Harley Poe, get scared, say anything, brokencyde, ohemgee, insane clown posse, Ozzy Osbourne, Dadaroma, JILUKA, pierce the veil, my chemical romance, weird al yankovic, colter wall, and Dolly Parton :DDD)

I have undiagnosed autism and it’s pretty much 100% confirmed that I have adhd too (I also have depression and an anxiety disorder but we don't talk about that lmao)

Fun facts about me: I have six siblings (four of which I didn't know existed until early 2024), I used to be in chorus for like half a year in fourth grade (even tho Ive always sucked at singing), my favorite color varies a lot however my two main ones r pink and like a dark forest green, and lastly my special interest for the past 11yrs has been horses !!!

I consider myself to be an anarcho-communist and I FIRMLY believe in acab along with blm, trans lives matter, and free Palestine.

DNI: republicans, homophobes, transphobes, zoophiles, racists, sexists, anyone anti acab, anti blm, anti Palestine, anti therian, anti furry, anti agere, anti petre, dsmp fans, hazbin hotel fans, helluva boss fans, anyone who actively supports/gives money to problematic creators (I'm completely fine with watching/listening to stuff indirectly but if ur actively supporting the creator themself then plz leave!!), and anyone that uses religion as an excuse to spread hate !!!!

I've never made a post anything like this before and I've never rlly posted anything at all until recently so I hope everything is organized enough and isn't complete shit 😭😭😭 (things on this list will most definitely be changed and updated overtime so don’t be afraid to check in now and then :3c)

[tea-and-secrets]

"im so smart and not gender essentialist" says the idiot who reblogs that shitty ass i love the way men love poem every time they see it. oh my god im so sick of this guy they keep telling me i see shit that doesnt exist in the most innocent places but it's not my fault you can't read the meaning of a text, let alone the subtext, bias or inferences. there's a reason you have no trans women or black friends and no trans woman or black person stays around you long, but im afraid you're just not self aware enough to notice and think being told to block terfs is too much of an effort that no one should have to do. but i should already know how much you hate exerting effort since i know you cut off a friend in crisis because putting in the same amount of effort to your friendship that they did was too much for you. i went and found them behind your back because what you said didn't sit right. you constantly talk about people in the worst terms possible when they can't see it, and that's such a red flag i had to go check. guess what? they tell a very different story. and it's starting to make the pieces click. you go silent when you think people are too aggressive, and every time i try to solve a problem with you you ghost me and your other friend starts talking to me. almost like you view trans women and black women as inherently more aggressive, huh? why are all your long-lasting friends white, half white or suburban asian cis women and trans mascs? why can't you solve problems without getting your friend to white knight for you? it's funny that you call the person who's life you participated in ruining "childish" and "immature", because you sure as hell don't look in the mirror

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[velvetvexations]

"can you describe a binary trans woman in a way which isn't transphobic as hell? 🧐" yes, easily: she's any trans woman who wants to identify as a binary woman, it's as simple as that. The fact that people are pretending they weren't or don't identify as women as some kind of 'gotcha' is fucking embarrassing for them

It's truly not that complicated lmao. People are so terrified of having "boring" genders that they've completely invented a t***f*b menace terrorizing trans women for not being as kweer as them. The simple fact of the matter is that this non-binary strawman does not exist.

It honestly drives me so crazy how people will use the fact trans men are men as plausible deniability for blatant misogyny, calling trans men whiny and annoying is truly the "I'm not touching you!" Of misogyny

and then go "why are you misgendering yourself" when you call it out lol

the whole thing is blisteringly colonialist i wonder if these people view themselves as anti-racist progressives 🤨

they sure do!

It's funny, bc I've seen terfs claim that other cultures having third genders is just otherizing gay people. Its legit the exact same argument. Radfems are radfems are radfems.

as always

"trans men are always bitching and whining" is also a different sentence from "men are always bitching and whining", so, like trans men already heard that shit enough growing up do u (op, not you velvet) not maybe think there might be slightly different implications to saying that if he's trans

what even is critical thinking anymore

between tankies and radfems i straight up think we need to retire materialism. no one knows what that word means anymore

they should reread theory till they actually understand it but if the results are anything like the first time they'll just find new genocides to stan

Another anon reminded me that it was even a thing where like. if you were white and you tried to bring up roles in history considered now to be non-binary you would get told you were appropriating. like white people only get two genders??? which I swear is a thing I think I heard verbatim once (I'm pretty sure as self-loathing satire to be clear I don't think anyone was that mask off or direct)

Native Americans have a patent on extra genders

all im ever told to do is shut up about my problems. i'm transmasc, white, skinny, well off, high-functioning, able bodied, decent parents. i still suffered so much and i still suffer every day but it feels like i can never talk about it. 99% because of people like me ranting about THEIR trauma for the purpose of talking over people on the other side, who are actually oppressed for it, and it means i will never not be afraid to talk about my issues with them and because of that i feel i can never truly and deeply connect with them. bigotry from "my side" affects the oppressed most of all, but it affects me too. i wonder if you feel the same, being a transfem defending transmascs amidst the apocalypse of t(e)rfs. if so, i hope you're okay. i hope you can find other transfems with similar views who you can talk to about it, because that's what helps me <3

I know some cool transfems. One has been showing me her writing lately and oh my God it's so good and cool.

just realized that transfems all being non-binary is extra wild when one remembers the like. discourse when hating transtrenders and non-binary people generally was in vogue. does no one remember how awful using they/them for everyone you don't know is??? nd how that turned into a weird nb v transfem thing??? contrapoints did a whole thing??? part of her cancellation???

some people are happy to switch to whatever argument lets them be the biggest cunt in the room at any given point in time

I like the “my gender is whatever has the shortest line to the bathroom” joke, but truth be told, I’ve only actually done it once, with single stall bathrooms, and I did get caught. I live in a state without bathroom bills, so arrest wasn’t a threat, but it was still really fucking scary, and I don’t think I’m going to do it again. I usually dislike using any gendered bathroom for the exact same reasons. They all feel unsafe. I try not to use public bathrooms at all, because usually there isn’t a gender neutral restroom. When there is, I actually will wait for it. But just once, I thought to myself, “I really have to pee, there are two single stall gendered bathrooms, one is in use, it’ll be fine, no one will see me,” and it backfired. The “shortest line” jokes are wish fulfillment, ok? It’s a tumblr post, it’s not that serious.

nooooo it's transmisogyny!!!!! wahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Refreshing your blog over and over again to see if you’ve gotten to my anon yet <3 Getting parasocial with it

<3

i think it's really important to note that like. The other side of the "all trans women are nonbinary" coin is "all amab nonbinary people are women" to these people, and they do consistently misgender people they perceive as amab nonbinary, both by calling them men if they're not fem enough, women if they perform any kind of femininity, and just deciding they are actually afab if they look a certain way. One of the consequences of TMA as a descriptor is that it just flattens all amab trans experience into Transfem experience. And it can be okay for coalition labels to exist (trans as a term obviously describes a wide variety of experiences) but it often feels like it intentionally erases the existence of people who DO live their lives as Nonbinary, vs maybe having some gender fuckery they keep to theirselves to avoid actually having to deal with exorsexism. They will unintentionally acknowledge this with posts such as "I round to the nearest 'cisnifigant digit ' when talking to cis people about my gender", but they'll never call it that. Conveniently, it's actually transmisogyny now.

If you're non-binary and AMAB you're just pretending to not be a woman because transmisogyny has made you scared to be your true fymynyne self.

I need to complain about this to someone else before I bore my friends to death and flood culture blogs with it cuz like what the fuck is with all the anti endo cluster Bs like I'm actually going insane. it's always just.

sees relatable post look closer anti endo and it's always the pretentious type of anti endo too, like the ones that put the word 'endo' in fifty quotation marks because how else would we be able to tell that they don't think endos exist. it's hard being one of the few intelligent entities with a cluster b disorder. I'm sure you understand as someone who's also among the few.

cluster B disorders like you and I have make one inclined to drama lmao so it's not really surprising to me that a lot of them are loudly anti-endo

English does have a generic you, it's "one". As is: "As one knows, the generic you in English is one." "When one makes a statement it causes some kind of effect on another" "I can do many things to such a one."

Yeah, but that doesn't always sound as good.

Re clarifying generic you not you in particular, I sent an ask recently and clarified general you because Im aware Im writing a message to your account which feels like Im talking directly to you, which I am, but then it feels like any general use of 'you' would sound like its aimed at you in particular because its your account. So it felt important and polite to clarify that while I am talking to you, when I use general you it is general you, Im not being rude to you to your face Im being rude to the hypothetical people in the room. Im aware these are now very long sentences and I hope this makes sense. Basically its making sure you know the rudeness is not aimed at you even though I am talking to you in your inbox and using the same word you.

NW I know <3 It's just strange to me since it's clarified a lot and I don't remember it being this way when I was on Tumblr several years ago, so it's a new development in how people talk from my perspective.

Trfs are very quick to accuse transmascs (regardless of whether or not they pass) of having "male privilege" but if someone so much as implies that a boymoding trans woman has any access to male privilege at all theyre committing a Hate Crime and are Awful and Terrible. Very consistent logic.

the idea is that having to be stealth or misgendering yourself is Still A Bad Time but they can't extrapolate this to being the same for trans people AFAB too

there’s something so funny about the blog with an estrogen pun username getting on a high horse to say that making an extremely common trans joke is a sign of privilege. like i don’t even have anything witty to say in return, we love a lack of self awareness ig 😐

radical feminism is brain poison unfortunately

"you are not counter culture for saying Let Men Be Unapologetically Masculine" tell me you've never been to a bear bar without telling me you've never been to a bear bar oml @ OP of that post (feel free to post this when it is not the weekend)

lmao right though

transradfems absolutely self identify as radical feminists. eight years ago, when i was on this hellsite talking about anti-binary gender philosophy as a nonbinary person, i had swarms of people tell me i was actually being transmisogynistic by saying radical feminist was inherently transphobic because didn't I know there were trans women out there "reforming" it and some of them were even not white? I couldn't possibly remember what blog manifesto I was linked to, but my point remains. eight years ago i was told that trans women were gonna "reform" radical feminism, so i didn't have to bother talking about my experiences as a nonbinary "tme." and now look at where we are.

they should focus their efforts on reforming whatever educational system led to them being the people they are now

[sacrificialacid]

Hello angels 💕 Im Kat, Im 25, and Im a very recently converted radfem (i guess lol) lesbian. I hate men but I will always love women more and want only for us to be free from moid harrasment. Im a yapper and want to talk about my background in probably way too much detail, please bear with me lol. I have nowhere else I can really express any of this.

I have always known Im a lesbian but spent YEARS feeling ashamed and afraid to admit it, especially after being swept up in TRA rhetoric as a teen and spending several years thinking I was trans. I love butch and gnc women, was gnc at one point, and of course gendies made me think I was trans for it. I truthfully have no real problem with trans people, my best friend in the whole world is trans, I'm just... disturbed by TRA rhetoric and the way they conduct themselves especially in response to lesbian women not wanting to fuck males and how eager they are to recruit children into doing risky medical treatments and procedures. I spent so long with blinders on to what these people were saying, to what feminism actually meant, I feel like I've just walked out of a cave and into the sun for the first time in my life.

anyways this is like my fifth try at a pinned post LOL hopefully I like this enough to keep it.

Thank you for reading 💕

[this-is-exorsexism]

i usually hate the agab terms but so people can better understand what i mean i'll use it here. sorry for the rant in advance, i just have no real place to drop this, as i will mention in the text, so i'm turning to this account:

i'm an afab agender transmasc guy (i mostly have no gender but also feel strongly connected to trans guys- sometimes little, sometimes strongly) who loves presenting & being 'feminine' (mostly clothes & make-up) and i do not feel like i belong anywhere in trans spaces because of that. i do not really have body dysphoria unless people INISIST i am a woman/girl for having wide hips, breasts and a uterus, etc. i love my body the way it is and don't want to medically transition at all, except maybe microdosing T- and thus i feel unwelcome in a lot of transmasc spaces- esp trans men spaces. a lot of transmasc blogs are just for trans men or for people who want to escape femininity at all costs and i feel like im just a "pretender" in these spaces because of all this (missing body dysphoria, not wanting to really transition, loving femininity, etc) and im always afraid of sharing my experiences on said blogs because of potential backlash- i feel like i have no real place to ask for advice or vent since of all of these factors. same for falling under the non-binary umbrella. since i am afab and dress feminine and dont want to really transition or be androgynous, and because i am fat i feel like i dont belong here either. people will tell me "im basically just a girl" , im not trying hard enough, im appropriating labels/experiences or the infamous theyf** slur because of that. agender spaces are the ones im most comfy in since not having a gender means no requirements in the community- but for being transmasc/partially a trans guy & being enby theres always requirements and ""rules"" and it sucks hard. im having a constant gender crisis because of this because im afraid i am just a pretender. i am also gay (if i experience attraction) and i feel like im infiltrating "mlm" spaces because of this. gay is the ONLY label that fits me, and i would go lenghts to be able to use it. i would undergo top & bottom surgery to be seen as "a proper guy" to use it- but i really dont want to at all. that would be forcing myself to conform to other people's expectations. when you're not the "right kind" of trans and/or enby you feel like an alien in spaces that were meant for people like you and it's frustrating to say the least. i feel like i am what transphobes call "transtre*nders" at this point. sorry again for this. feel free to ignore if this doesn't fit here or the accounts purpose- im not sure if this counts as exorsexism.

this is exorsexism.

[mybodymylifemyidentity]

My blog does not promote harm to others! I value the tumblr guidelines and follow them, if you do not, please go away -_-

I cant give you transition tips. I am not a doctor or a therapist or any of that! That is not what this blog is for.

My stance on controversial topics is dictated by who follows or reblogs from me. thats a crazy thing to assume? anyone can reblog my stuff, that doesnt mean i agree with them or disagree with them.

This blog is not the place for sexual things, sorry. and no discourse in general either. i mean it.

I have no "Do not interact", please just be kind. If you are unkind, i will block you. I will not engage with you. I wouldnt publish any askbox hate. I only ask that if you are bigoted against someone's trans identity, you ask yourself if you are repeating the exact same transphobia you dislike in other places, and if you are just disgusted/afraid of new things, VS actually effected.

this blog is not under the radqueer label, not because of "agreeing or disagreeing" but because that is just not the subject of the blog. i am not pro radqueer or anti radqueer. that is not the subject of this blog.

it's not my fault or responsibility if other people do things. insane the kind of things you have to say these days. effing obviously!

(i post on queue)

The art on this blog is ok to use if you use it nicely. Just be a kind person. You dont have to credit it if youre just using as a reaction image and that kind of thing. I would prefer if you dont use my artwork in a hateful way, but i cant control you, but if you see people edit my artwork to be hateful, please do not engage. many of the people who may edit my stuff to be hateful or upsetting to you are going to be trolls, so just dont interact with them? dont feed the trolls -_-. if they edit hateful flags and stuff on my art, being bigoted is already enough punishment, they live a sad enough life already, so dont try to punish them "for" me. i dont want anyone to be rude anyways, and if you attack others "for" me, you make me mad at you. every time you see hate, try to make a positive post! every time you see bigotry, make a kind post towards that group. if someone uses my artwork to be transphobic and you see it, spread more kindness in those spaces / in your community. uplifting eachother is so much more important than "counter attacking" random internet strangers. If someone makes you mad, block them.

This blog focuses mostly on wide label general transids. i wont do microlabel drawings, sorry. I /might/ do general but specific identity flag things. (EX: transgender -> transmasc -> transmasc gender flag that is microlabel.) this isnt because i "dont like microlabels" or something, but because it would be exhausting.

Due to this, I do not do sexuality or paraphile content either. This is a trans blog, sorry. (SO no "can you do this with the gay flag?" or "can you do this with the objectophile flag?" sorry, i wont do it. you can of course be inspired by me and do it yourself though!)

"Can i trace or edit your artwork?" sure, whatever. i prefer a @ or at least my url mentioned somewhere if youre too shy to @ but i dont really care.

"Can we be friends?" probably not. i mean this in the nicest way possible! i love everyone on earth, but we dont know eachother. i love seeing people share kindness and love and i want to share kindness and love with you, but unless you naturally meet me in a server somewhere (im not really in any) im not really going to have a talk with you or anything, im not a big talker anyways. we can be kind to eachother and whatever but... idk you and im not here to make friends as much as i am to make our communities share the love.

"may i draw characters you design on here? " of course! they belong to the community! you can headcanon them, ship them, ect all whatever!

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I take request!

I do:

reaction gifs/pics /emojis

design a wolf for a identity and flag

reaction images / gifs based off other images (old deviantart PLZ and thinsg like it, and rage meme faces are my favorite.)

Art of the designs i make on this blog (if you ship them, want reaction images specifically, etc. basically the above ^ but with those designs instead of blank wolves.)

maybe more later :3 idk

I only draw canines or MAYBE felines. Soz thats just how it is. i am a certified wolfaboo

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I do the following flags automatically / as default:

transid

transgender

transracial

transpecies

transabled

transage

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List of existing character designs:

None yet!

[biohazard2017]

feel free to ignore but I'm actually interested in the transfem naoto headcanon if you wanna share your thoughts on it. it sounds like it would make the storyline a lot more sweet if Naoto struggled with wanting to be a girl but scared of the consequences and being immediately accepted by their new friends like Rise. In a transfem way rather than a strangely terfy way. lol

hi this is very sweet thank you anon. sorry you have unleashed the beast

transfem naoto really speaks to me specifically bc to me, it manages to ACTUALLY tie together the intended theme of her storyline with the trans coding. like, no hate to transmasc naoto enjoyers, but ive alw felt ppl were way too quick to 1. ignore the actual story (bc i do think its genuinely compelling!!! just tied down by the baggage of how they coded it. will elaborate later on!) 2. assume naoto would ""prefer"" to be a guy instead of a girl despite canon evidence to the contrary (though ofc as a hc, canon isnt really the priority) and 3. Genuinely. people wanting her and kanji to get together while kanji is gay (which is a WHOLE other can of worms, bc i may be the only person alive who enjoys kanjis storyline and wouldnt change it at ALL on his end like im of the camp that kanjis sexuality was not the point, its all about masculinity and taking all of that to just say kanjis gay does detract from the whole point of the story. though i digress).

naotos canon storyline is all about how she feels that as a girl, and later on as she accepts the crux of it (how the story portrays it) as a teenager, she would never get recognition for her work, so she chooses to present as a guy to work past the misogyny of her field and ignore the reality that she really is still a child and thats ok. she starts to become more comfortable presenting as a girl publicly obviously as it progresses through to the epilogue - and this is explained by how she "realises" that atp in her career, its not even her gender that will restrict her, its her age, so she doesnt feel the need to hide a separate part of herself just for something she'll eventually outgrow.

and i like this! i think its pretty nuanced in how people will blame one part of themselves for something else they cant control, and watching naoto become more confident in her femininity is a very sweet parallel to kanji growing into masculinity on his own terms, since the 2 are supposed to be foils anyway

like i said, having naoto be transmasc, on some level to me, feels like a step back. shes clearly immersed herself in being the Ideal Guy Detective, bc she thinks its the only way she'll be recognised for her efforts. so just by comparing the narrative of

> "naoto being ftm, so the idea of hiding himself and not accepting who he is is only really relevant to the age part, thus removing the impact of his gender on the story since he publicly transitioned at a young enough age no one even knew he was afab" vs

> "naoto being mtf, feeling afraid / hesitant to transition for fear of the backlash of being a transfem detective, compounded with her young age already affecting how she's perceived, and then accepting with the support of her friends who she is and making that step" like. im sorry but!! which is more compelling!!! (also please lmk if im not being very fair to the transmasc naoto hc, bc this is just how i see it and i may be missing something that makes it a little bit more compelling)

and yes, like you mentioned, in general i think it really supports her interactions in the group! the story feels much better thinking of it as everyone immediately affirming her femininity and helping her bridge the confidence gap. honestly it also helps that this way means the story doesnt constantly misgender her after her dungeon, as opposed to a different gender hc HAHA

so yes this is my thesis on transfem naoto ❤️ love and light ❤️

[poopscooplala]

(psa this is mostly referring to the movies)

ive seen a few posts that have bothered me. i searched "remadora bad" on google to see what people were saying and it came up eith tumblrs and reddits etc and they were all really weird.

i recently got into the marauders fandom after reading atyd and being a fan of harry potter since i was a child, this fandom made me really happy because of the escapism it provided. many of us have loved hp and then realised its problematic aspects and seen jkr being the worst and no longer can escape with hp.. and marauders fandom is a much more inclusive and feels safe space. i do ship wolfstar and i want to get this straight because one post mentioned wolfstar shippers and it was definitely a weird take.

the post was about how women who ship two men together hate women because if theres a woman in the picture its always a crime against her i guess? they also touched on fetishisation of gay men in a way that seemed to be encapsulating all of these people into that message.

1. not everyone who ships two men hates women. i mean this is absurd 😭 it seemed much more like this poster was more anti fanon, which is odd. anyone who defends jkr instantly puts me off, i understand if someone is confused by not following canon when talking abt media.. but it shouldnt go so far as to licking jkrs ass saying "shes the author she knows best🤓🤓" we know shes the author, thats half the problem. anyway, i understand this point but it didnt work in the context they were using it for (remadora/wolfstar). the marauders fandom has been criticised for misogyny, but the generalisation of shippers all having that belief is just untrue.

2. fetishisation of gay men is most definitely prevelant in shipping spaces but it goes eithout saying that an entire community of people wont all have the same views and opinions. from personal experience, i have always been wary of fetishising gay men and recently realised that my special interests being shipping different gay relationships has been involved in my gender identity. im not really sure of anything yet but i am exploring being actually a man or gener fluid or non binary.. as i said i dont know yet but i have realised that i have always put myself in these ships, wanting to be one of the men in them (of course this hasnt been the sole reason im questioning my gender). generally, i think shipping is very fun and just a great way of exploring romance in your favourite medias that represent you - which is what many people in the marauders fandom express. i do understand this concern though - fetishisation is a real thing and these ships shouldnt be objectified to be apart of that. i just dont think we should automstically assume every shipper is fetishising gay ppl.

nothing ive talked abt has rlly been abt marauders so far but i just wanted to set up some context and rant abt that post tbh.

as ive grown, ive realised how forced remadora was in the movies. i always felt like it came out of nowhere but i was a kid and i didnt care enough to think abt it like i just wanted to see harry running through the grass and shit. anyway, ive watched a few viedos abt the marauders fandom and about jk rowlings problematic writing and i have a few points to make about remadora and tonks' and remus' characters respectively.

in ootp, tonks is introduced as a fun, independent, and rebellious person. they arent afraid to speak out abt their name to someone more experienced in the field (mad-eye) and they have bright purple hair so obviously they r cool and awesome. they are a metamorphagus(?) meaning they can change some parts of how they look. i, and many others, see this as a symbol of trans teens. correcting the feminine "nymphadora" to a more unisex "tonks", the fact they can literally change how they look (perhaps showing their desire to change themselves ehich many trans people relate to), and their overrall childlike attitude. i think rowling makes tonks young and fun to show immaturity, therefore the transcoded character is sort of displayed as an immature teen that doesnt know any better (insert jkrs transphobic tweets here).

THEN in hbp the newly called "dora" is married. not only is tonks feminised by heteronormativity (a big aspect of stereotypical femininity is marriage) but their general appearance and attitude has changed. her hair is now like a light brown, and this natural colour i feel may allude to the natural order of womanhood is to maybe go through a rebellious gender non conformity teenhood, but eventually we all "mature" into our "natural" womanhood.. may be a reach buut?? anyway, their dialogue in this movie is very small - i assume its different in the book, but i feel like either way their dialogue would be similarly all focusing on remus (way to fail the bechdel test) which ironically is more represantative of jkr hating woman soo the ship they r saying is the anti "gay shippers who hate women" is one of the many symbols of misogyny in jkrs books.. i mean idk if i need to say this but a woman isnt defined by being married/with a man and i feel like jkr is trying to present it that way.

jkr seems to have unintentionally presented her transphobic views in the character of tonks. many people related to tonks because of their gender fluidity and hbp disappointed many with this character development.

now, the age gap between remus and tonks is 13 years which is gross. especially when you think about the more childish representation of tonks in ootp, like theyve been matured in hbp for the purpose of making the relationship less weird? idk but this is a point that really irks me because many ppl ignore this and always conclude that ppl who dont like remadora are just wolfstar shippers and also hate tonks because they r a woman. even if i hated wolfstar id still hate remadora because of this gross age gap😭😭

another post was from like 10 yrs ago so, perhaps the opinions are just outdated considering jkrs problematic behaviour has become more of general knowledge in recent years but they basically were the common "he not gay jkr mad ehim be with woman he cant be gay 🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓" .. jkr has made lots of promises she couldnt keep.. like the whole can of worms that is the time turners (no cedric diggory would not become a death eater please go back to bed omg) so it really isnt unheard of that she could make a gay character and then just.. ruin it?

she definitely didnt intentionally make anyone gay, because she ahtes gay ppl, but remus and sirius are very commonly interpreted to be queer coded. loads of ppl mention this, but even david thewlis (remus lupin actor) read the characters as lovers. many people saw them as lovers so thought remus was gay, then saw him marry tonks and felt confused. of course he could just be bi but jkr wasnt writing that i dont think lolz EVEN if that was the case, remus is meant to be a good character so why is he getting with tonks who is so much younger than him, to me it makes no sense. which is why many people think remadora doesnt make sense, why many marauders fans, including myself, dont see remadora as what would happen. like im not saying that sirius would be a live and blah blah because im referring to a still canon compliant story, it just would not include remadora and its weird energy.

also, jkr said once that lycanthropy was a symbol for rhe aids crisis (thats not a gay allusion at all 🤗). and hootsyoutube makes a great point about how this is problematic. remus lupin is not the only werewolf in the series, greyback is another one that is apart of the wizard nazis and was the one who bit little 5 yr old baby remus lupin. so.. this is very predatory behaviour, i mean he sliterally biting people (like a lion eating a gazelle or sumn idk r u getting what im putting down 😭😭). now, what is a harmful and highly perpetuated stereotype against gay people.. you got it - predatory behaviour. jkr connects the aids crisis to werewolves who are (except remus) presented as predators who prey on little children 😝😝 amazing!!! SO jkr does allude to gay/bi remus buuut its also in a very evil very malevolent light because shes a witch cackling in the night

i hate canon dick riders because not only is the canon problemstic and jkr is evil BUT its literally a made up story... why do you care abt whats canon and ehats not? some may not get it but i love the feeling of being in the marauders fandom, where everything is just made up by us like its so whimsy so fun.

another post that rlly grinded my gears was saying "yall will complain abt remadora age gap but then ship snarry and snermione" which if ur referring to only ppl who ship this then yes you ate down very demure very mindful.. but it wasnt. why ar eppl generalising so hard like i know for a fact I do not ship that... thats pedofilia guys!! and i know most in marauders fandom dont either because most marauders fans i see rnt disgusting monster people? but they also used this to undermine the age gap in remadora, like no they r both bad both weird and the fact that one is by the author of hp is very telling

okay thats the end of my rant uhhh 🥸

[chenyuvale]

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[im going to use he/him pronouns for furina (and focalors by extension]

furina genshin impact. you know him, the guy who acted a part in a play that wasnt his own play for like 500 years the guy who yes, can be annoying but is honestly just a silly little guy!! thats all he is!! thats all hes ever wanted to be; himself

furina genshin impact is in canon, a she/her, i heavily disagree with this because of his design, and his overal character being made 1) from someone else and 2) "[he] was made to be the perfect human" that focalors created for himself, focalors is also trans but more genderfuckery because his gender is Divinity and also dead. anyways.

focalors design is a mirror image of furina's "archon" outfit the light one, pneuma version i believe, and in focalors top part of the dress, its quite revealing! theres a lot of chest skin showing there and the most important thing about this; flat. literally no tiddy there at all in the slightest.

now because focalors made furina based on himself, they have the exact same body, just duplicated, meaning! furina also has literally no tiddy!! nothing!! zip zilch na da!!! he has a very rectangular torso (adding evidence to my transmasc idea), even if he did have canon tits (which he does not this is proven) he is purposefully covering them up with the french ass ruffles hes got going on up there, /purposefully/ covering.

the most exposed furinas design is, is his legs, he has rather short shorts (akin to hu tao who Also has no titty but there is room to see a curve there because hu tao doesnt have. the chest ruffles) ((this could lead to how hu taos design is also quite tmasc coded but sadly enough im not a hu tao insaner)) so i could Maybe sort of if i squint real hard i can see why people would want to exaggerate the legs a little

But when people ( the horny + uninformed.. usually..) give him the most hourglass shape figure?? or even Big Boobs im like??????? first off did yall play the archon quest and second ????????? of all genshin characters you think furina deserves boobs??? Flawed logic he is not who you think he is, like even ignoring my headcanons In Canon he is very much jus living his best life being a theater director !!!!!!! hes not an actor anymore !!!!!! furina genshin impact is the wrong character to put your horny beams on !!!!

and for the people in the back

Furina Genshin Impact Is The Wrong Character to Put Your Horny Beam On

does any of this make much sense? probably not,, do i care not rlly i jus hate how the fandom treats him so so so so much its why i cant really consume fancontent of him anymore that isnt made by a trusted mutual of mine, we are saving him from fanons grabby dirty hands and putting him in our own grabby dirty hands :3

what makes it worse is neuvifuri. there are people who believe that neuvifuri are either 1) father/daughter (this is the same crowd who think zhongxiao are also father/son) 2) siblings or 3) a cishet married couple with furina as the UwU Wifey and neuvi as the gigachad husband.

These are All Wrong

pushing most of my headcanons aside, literally in canon neuvi is the one constantly down bad for furi, Constantly!!!! he had a moment of realisation in the archon quest, realising he appreciates furina a lot more than he first thought he did (see furina story quest AND neuvi birthday letter)

and also in canon furina is Terrified of losing him, so he distanced himself (see his about neuvillette line)

now headcanon territory kinda ; neuvi watched focalors fucking Die in front of him, whilst givhim the original dragon power back, that shit was still traumatising as all hell , i think neuvi is just as equally afraid of losing furi as furi is of losing him

,, if i keep going i wont stop about how much i adore their specific dynamic but ANYWAYS. back to the point;

Fanon is Wrong

(have an old doodle as thanks for reading,,,)

thank you for reading all this, it sounded more composed in my head i swear i jus uwauwuuawu biting fandom so hard

[fishsouper]

some of my modern jack headcanons

-ftm, very openly gay and trans. he’s the “you didnt give me what i want? that’s homophobic” kid

-fascinated by psychology

-likes watching horror movies but is still easily terrified by them

-had so much romantic tension with ralph for years!! everyone would jokingly be like “ugh when are you two gonna kiss already” and then eventually did begin dating and just. didnt tell anyone?? they just assumed everyone knew

-theatre kid through and through. his friends mom could die and he’d be like “damn that’s such a lydia from beetlejuice thing to happen.”

-wears the same black denim jacket every fucking day?? has tons of pins and jewelry

-has a decent relationship with both of his parents, older sibling with one little sister

-opinionated dog person

-likes to write music, lead singer of his band “the hunt” (roger is on drums, simon on guitar, maurice on bass)

-is super sweet and lovey-dovey with ralph and yet often also bickers with him and makes fun of him. (“i hate that stupid son of a bitch. he’s so pathetic. i love him so much i want to just stare into his beautiful eyes forever. he’s got the intelligence of a brick”)

-his best friends are roger and simon. inseparable trio of insane (jack), insane but quiet (roger), and barely sane (simon)

-suuuuuper adhd

-very empathetic person and always feels bad for being an asshole but also never changes his behavior

-started transition as a tween. passes decently but is very open about transness

-really popular in certain circles (he’s popular to the queers and the artsy kids the way ralph is popular with the straight girls and the football jocks)

-piggy didn’t know jack was trans and gay and heard him say “fag” and got so mad- he went up to jack and accused him of being a homophobic little shit and jack was like “…im literally queer”

-little shit. got lots of attention for mental health shit and just overall needs but didn’t get enough attention for his singing or music or art and now has self worth issues

-so afraid to loose those that he cares about that he drives them away

-hates swifties (his boyfriend is a swiftie)

-like,,,if leo valdez and draco malfoy had a ginger son??

-curses so much

[transenbyconfessions]

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im so fucking tired of living like that. my dysphoria morphed in a restrictive ed which started with me being hella insecure about my feminine curves, big hips and chest. i used to be a binge eater stuffing my face for comfort but now im so fucking afraid of food. my bones are sticking out and yet i still think my legs are "too feminine", that my shape is still "very girly". every day is a struggle but i just cant stop. and the most idiotic thing about it is when my dysphoria makes me feel "not enough masc" bc i have ana and thats a stereotypical female problem. i gave up any hope to recover i just want to be able to stop thinking about ending everything bc how much i want to rip my skin off from a mix of dysmorphia and dysphoria.

if only i wasnt trans more than half of my mental and life problems would be gone. i hate it im not proud of being transgender ik it sounds awful but i cant help it.

Submitted June 10, 2023

As always, I encourage anyone in crisis, or who otherwise needs support, to reach out to those who are qualified.

Trans Lifeline is a hotline available in the US and Canada.  The Trevor Project has a hotline, textline, and chatline available, and which is also for the US and Canada. If you’re not in a country where it is available, Befrienders has hotlines for different countries. 

Eating Disorder Hope is a US-based organization that offers information, resources, and help with finding a treatment provider. Their website uses gender-neutral language, and they have a list of international programs that they endorse for those outside the US.