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tangledinink · 2 years ago

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Can we see what's at the bottom of the lake if there is anything?

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witchqueen · 7 months ago

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Does anyone have any tips to help stop yourself from comparing your artwork to others, or equating your value as an artist with likes and reblogs?

I've struggled with this for a while and it's getting old, I don't know how to just shrug it off. Any genuine advice would be nice

#its just bygging me bc i know rationally they dont matter i knoe they dont #but i still feel it in my bones that im not good enough because my work doesnt circulate on platforms #i paint for fun and then i post and i get these feelings and theyre so goddamn annoying #i know to just keep posting anyway and try to enjoy the ride but my Depression Brain is such an asshole #i wish it would be quiet #i never used to feel this way either until likes and reposts/reblogs became so integral to social media #on top of needing commissions to get by while looking for work and attending school soon #idk maybe this is just a vent and ik no one can Fix it that simply #i guess im just speaking 2 the void rn and maybe others feel the same #*bugging #and i really am so grateful just to know anyone likes it or comments on it and reading feedback really really means so much #but i feel like unless im pumping out specific fandom stuff that doesnt really happen #but the negative thoughts and feelings can b rly strong sometimes and im just tired #im sure this is a depression thing too #hoping i can get into therapy thru school but it depends on finances as everything else in this world does 🫠#ill keep going tho #and please if you are someone who does comment or reblog and say something about the work please do not ever stop #it means so much to me and others im positive it does #i see you and i appreciate you so so much #thank you and thank you to anyone who reads or comments some ideas

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justanotherjaydrawing · 1 month ago

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OK here is my Promotion art for the most recent fic I wrote. Another short one where Sakusa works through some of his childhood memories and grows more comfortable with himself as an individual.

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 6 months ago

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trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1

wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)

bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:

#my art lol #synth v yuma #yuma synthv #synth v #synthv fanart #synthesizer v #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #YES I KNOW ITS DIFFERENT but at this rate its the umbrella tag. all vsynth shit goes under there just like on main 😔#sorry for the annoyign watermarks i just dont want this to get stolennn/traced it'll b my joker arc. is2g #like thats never happened to me before as far as i know but now that my art is getting 'better' i begin to get scared that it will happen #if my fanart got stolen i'd def sting a little yeah but not hurt AS bad as if someone stole my original shit. THAT would hurt #one of many reasons why i post less personal oc stuffs. although as mentioned above i AM in an oc mood so i wanna draw em maybe...#and stuff like this is a step to develop a PROPER FUCKING REF STYLE bc i SUCKKKK AT MAKING REFS LOL 😭 BUT I SHOULD GIT GUD #i have a few other refs planned for vocaloid au (i guess???) related shit but they're not done yet. this one was also a wip that i just??#impulsively decided to redo & finish bc i wanted to draw but nothing else i was trying to draw came out right. advantages of many wips #i have SOOO many things i could say abt some of the things that went into this redesign but i dont wanna come off as pretentious 😔💔#obviously it was primarily inspired by the vimalion yuma design but. there's moreeee that i can't explain here bc tag limits and im shy #i do think i want to try and be more intentional with my character designs now so i'm seeing how that goes as i redesign some old ocs #man though this kind of stuff makes me remember i used to LOVEE doing this stuff. and now its even crazierr given art improvement #uaurhghh my head is buzzing w/. so many thoughts. THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPENS I GET SO MANY IDEAS WHEN IM BUSY GFD #this is actually from today though unlike some other things i might eventually post. that'll make more sense soon #and fuckkk i forgot the chain necklace thing on the chibi yeah but i couldnt get it to look good. whatever

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ratatatastic · 3 months ago

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do you write fic on ao3?

unfortunately for everyone involved i do!

#ask #and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash #anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know #its not like im trying to hide it like eh #but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either #the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt #and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on #haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box #and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3 #SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one #ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky #because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically #and it really is ekky going 🥺 at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress #because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october #that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros #rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from #“it really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl #and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibility“#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane #slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic #anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority #anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon #because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3

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chiropteracupola · 2 years ago

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historically accurate trip to clifton's cafeteria!!!

[progress shots under the readmore]

#em draws stuff #SEND HIS ASS TO THE CLIFTON’S CAFETERIA!#I have been working on this image for More Than A Week and I feel like it has taken years off my life :]#look sometimes you get possessed by enthusiasm about fun comics you read and also nostalgia for bizarre novelty restaurants #due to the fact that clifton's no longer exists I cannot go there. but I can send the blorbos there by force if I so choose.#there's just something about old southern california restaurants with strange gimmicks and themes. take me away to there.#since I am very proud of this I will be using the full proper tags just this one single time [lying through my teeth]#swapping my usual format so there’s not just an absolute deluge of organizational stuff right off the bat #I think I said that the madness would probably go away soon but as you see that has not been the case (it's only gotten worse)#this is the most people I’ve put in a picture since I don’t know when #actually after a quick look-see through my files this might very well be the most people I’ve put in a picture Ever #the madness will do that to ya I guess. also the sheer raw clifton’s energy.#(altho' I got so tired in the end that about half the background is a very crunchy photo of The Real Clifton's...)#this is why my header is what it currently is and also why I posted that horrid 70s jello drink a week ago #many thanks are owed to jon dxppercxdxver for chatting with me about outfits and drink orders and such!#this is fanart for the weirder forefather of a rainforest cafe just as much as it is fanart for a videojame #I do not know what the typical tagging etiquette for this is but by golly I'm going to guess #clifton's cafeteria #team fortress 2 #spy tf2 #engineer tf2 #soldier tf2 #sniper tf2 #demoman tf2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #pyro tf2 #miss pauling #scout tf2 #why yes I am tagging clifton's Like It Is The Piece of Media. what of it.

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e77y · 6 months ago

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Glad I’m starting therapy so soon after moving out ☝️ I am already feeling the helplessness and loneliness

#vent #<- slightly? not that strongly? this is a pretty chill post like. I feel pretty chill #but also :( sad #I miss my family and friends at home #I haven’t really talked to my roommates #including the one who’s been my friend since high school bc she’s been sick (?) for the past few days #and this semester is definitely going to be A Lot #I got accepted into another choir but I’m most likely not joining bc my schedule is so packed #but the main thing is #I FEEL LIKE A BABY #my parents never really made me cook or clean and I just feel kinda useless #I’m just gonna have to force myself to learn which is fine #and my parents have offered to walk me through stuff over the phone when they can #but idk I just feel really immature bc like. damn I am 20 and don’t know how to cook Anything #I’m gonna go grocery shopping either tonight or tomorrow and get some sandwich supplies and other non-cooking stuff #so we are not completely doomed lol #also I need to do laundry tomorrow.. which. I can do and have done before. but I’m still gonna call my mom for guidance 😅#idk I think the main thing that’s stressing me out is spending money on food vs. groceries #and trying to eat at least some protein and fruits/vegetables etc. while also not spending exorbitantly #bc I am SOOOO irrationally anxious about money. I hate hate hate spending money #so the whole idea of grocery shopping is just kind of filling me with dread 🥲#but I will do it bc I need to Adult at some point #I just. idk I guess most students do this and I’m being whiny about it bc I’m not used to it??#but it just feels like So Much to be taking five classes and doing a bunch of extracurriculars and living on my own for the first time!#like! ahhh! too much at once!#😰😰😰#and I need to get an internship soon 😀 and if I don’t get one this semester I need to at least get a job so I can stress less about money 😀#but I always stress about money regardless 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀 even though I have scholarships savings etc 😀😀 ocd things! 😁 (🥲)#thank god for my meds and the thought that I’ll be starting therapy in the next week or two #and also my mom for being like the sweetest wver

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imthatwannabeauthor · 3 months ago

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#been feeling very. idk. lonely tonight #theres truly no reason for me to #my friends are. pretty much a text away #as is my lovely partner #normally id worry about him reading this post but the last few weeks he hasnt been looking at my posts much #so im 75% confident they wont see this. and hey. maybe if he does then i'll. like. garner the attention ive been hoping for #but hoping for that make me feel not only like a dick but an abusive manipulator so my hope is he actually wont see this #hes doing stuff with family anyhow so. im hoping he'll just have a nice evening #idk i dont wanna like. drag anyone down into the pits of despair i keep finding myself in despite trying to distract myself pretty constant #idk i think im really only posting cause i feel like im all alone #and i just burned my arm on a candle flame bad enough it singed off my arm hair in a noticeable patch #and im watching the skin the area turn this soft brown color and splinter off like its head dandruff and i just. dont wanna bother anybody #ive run it under cold water btw dont worry im not like. gonna slip into hurting myself again im already so angry that i broke my fuckin #almost a year and a half clean streak back in January and kept at it until like fuckin March #but im gonna stay clean . i am GOING to stay good and clean because im already so fucking angry at myself about a lot right now #and i fuckin. do not need to add broke the stupid fucking clean streak fo hurting myself again to the list i just DONT need that on my plat #idk. im just lonely i guess. im just lonely and feeling horrifically amounts of unlovable #idk. i havent been telling people stuff recently #ive been working on trying to lose weight again recently. didnt eat nothing for 36 hours and had a hypoglycemic attack at school #and scared my fuckin friend doing it #and i havent actually told no one #cause im being GOOD #im being so good with it #im losing the weight im looking better slowly.#and that means that i should be loved again soon that means that that idk #idk #i hope no one fuckin sees this post #i just. dont know where else togo to rant about this stuff.#i wish i wasnt clean at all #i wish i didnt have time built up at all because i want to feel the faux good

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just-spacetrash · 5 months ago

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#u already know what time it isssss~#love the episodes where jim doesn't even really use his sentinel senses at all at any point #theres not enough women in this series to get any real lesbait but theyre trying their best in this ep #with megan and a woman security guard who reads a womens gun magazine #i appreciate it i guess..#oh fuck off they made a reference to the season finale two parter/cliff hanger/cancellation stuff #real funny stuff guys #the sound quality is so bad idk what this is recorded on #that plus the lack of subtitles rly makes half of any episodes plot kind of a mystery #thats alright i guess.. im just here for the stupid sound effects and blairs body hair anyway #my post #dw guys i only have like 2 episodes left so soon youll get a bit of a break on these #the mandatory car chase at the last 10 minutes? thank god i was beginning to think we had a single episode without a car chase #mann what am i gonna do when i run out..

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plantenjoyer · 7 months ago

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I SWEAR I KEEP TRYING TO DO ART BUT THEN SOMETHING GETS IN THE WAY AND THEN I PROCRASTINATE AND THEN SIX MONTHS PASS

#this has been happening for like TWO YEARS BUT I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TRYING.#my usual art motivation (my webcomic idea) has been put on hold for a bit and because of that i forgort... everything #my will to draw specifically #but in my defense i have been writing k*arlach / oc indulgences and i've been VERY focused on finishing it #i also got a marketing manager (my friend <3) to help with advertising my comms and stuff so uh... look forward 2 that #i might need to start posting all of my art on a sideblog so she doesn't have to log into my main though #so there might be some changes #but i promise i want to do art!!!! but there's always something to do first and then months pass :(#or i get the urge to draw and then life is like ''have a cancer scare'' lmao...#(ended up being cancerous actually </3 but because it's skin stuff it was easy to remove)#(but that really took the piss out of me for most of july... not to mention that ffxiv released a new expansion and i have been...#having a good time with my new friends doing content and stuff!) i also made a friend irl after like 3-4 years of total isolation #we feed ants and watch them move around together and comment on their behaviour patterns...#but like when i say this takes literal hours.#we just sit out there and talk about random shit and watch ants walk across the floor. both of us hate ants btw.#like we don't like having them ON us so it's a bit like playing with fire.#but anyways yeah i've also been really low energy recently too bc of the heat and burnout from college...#but the good news is that i'm transferring in fall to a much more relaxing college & courseload!#i'm hoping it'll stop me from feeling so... awful ?? i guess ??#like i was taking classes i didn't need to that were really difficult & punishing #not to mention extremely boring & hard to pay attention to when dealing with literally anything. i did not want to be there.#my next college is much more interest-oriented so i will finally be able to take classes i want to and learn from them...!#and then maybe i will feel a bit more in control of my life / more encouraged to draw #anyways thank u for reading my ramble. hoping it all comes together soon.#i need to do a lot of work but most of it is so i can sell commissions again #but once the karlach fic is done we're so back on the webcomic train !!!!!!!!

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lpsotd · 2 years ago

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i just finished up some commissions and i wanted 2 ask if i could get some pets to draw!! u always show off really cool pets i dont recognize and thatsss swag ^_^

another ask that i am uh [flips through notepad] over a month late to !! very sorry about that. anyhoo, if you're still here and are waiting for those pets to draw, i am giving you husky #2297, peacock #869, and skunk #253 !!

#yall gonna have to bare with me on how late i am to these asks #stuff is crazy these days and i am quite busy #when i do have time to myself i am doing everything else but posting here #not that i dont want to #im just always doing something else and dont think about this blog til it's super late in the day/night #i love my little blog and i have no plans of stopping it any time soon #im gonna be on your feeds for quite a while!#did not mean to flood these tags i just. needed to say this i guess #maybe i should've made a separate post for this?#ah well its here now #[ 🎨 ]

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axemetaphor · 2 years ago

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loving the most annoying man you know aint easy but its honest work

#um. i have many of these now #this is just going to be a doodle blog for now ig KJHGFDS #am i manic? actually i dont know. but i do know ive been nonstop drawing runnin around doin stuff etc etc #i have about 5? projects ongoing right now #guess ill be posting about those more soon. most are OC projects tho. theyll go on my other blog #jdate #john dies at the end #cheesewong #johndave #my art #doodles #anyway. happy midnight! i should go sleep. .....i probably will not lkjhgfd

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seventh-district · 11 months ago

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i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t.#it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

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hollowflight-propaganda · 1 year ago

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Me: has my sixth sudden crying spell of the week

Also me: "yeah but I'm probably not ACTUALLY depressed"

#gonna be honest boys. I have been feeling like dogshit #started with me having a good ol' existential spiral at 4 am a week ago and now I don't even know what's bothering me #and then there's all of the bad stuff going on making me anxious for myself and everybody on top of everything #all the abhorrent transphobia has been making me feel worried for the future #(as if the passing of time doesn't already horribly scare me but I digress)#idk man. I already feel like I'm unequipped for the future because I've realized I never thought I'd still be alive right now #majority of my childhood was filled with adults preaching at me to think about where I'd be going in the afterlife so I did just that #that plus they were the type to believe that the rapture is soon cause “the signs are all coming true”#so I always thought that either that would happen or I'd die before now #well. I'm still here and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.#and I'm lonely. really fucking lonely and I'm going mad cause of it #never had actual friends besides the kids I was with at my old private school. now they're all raging conservatives who mock minorities #I was able to get away but moving on isn't as easy as I hoped #it'd be so much easier to betray all my beliefs and act ignorant again so I can have my friends back #but of course I can't do that. I can't throw out who I am and all of the wonderful people I know who would be “sinful” in their eyes #idk man. I think I've finally reached the breakdown I've been feeling coming for the past two years #fuck. sorry for this trauma dump of a post. I've just felt numb for months and now everything's catching up to me #needed to yell about it I guess #vent #phoenix prattles

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leaderofthetransfembobagenda · 1 year ago

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What I’ve been meaning to finish writing for months now: Peter/Finnley One Shot, Justus/Bob One Shot, the sequel to the Ballet One Shot, Justus Death One Shot, the PB&J playing monopoly One Shot, Selkie and/or Siren Justus AU one shots, Justus/Gus Angst One Shot, my multi chapter project including a 40s Justus/Skinny AU, Ghost-House AU and a J & P are supposedly not real and Bob is stressed AU all meshed into one and of course my Alex Rider + D3F crossover.

What I started and finished writing in the past month(s) instead: a nearly 8 k long Justus/Dylan One Shot (+ a sequel, but that’s not done yet)

⬆️ This also gave me another 3 one shots I want to finish. The Justus/Dylan type. Okay one is the Peter/Dylan type. Cause that also happened. Somehow. Yes, Dylan Parks has taken over a lot of my thoughts. Why are you asking?

#the one shot still needs to be beta read #but I’m hopefully going to be able to post it tomorrow #i mean i’m not complaining #but I also am complaining about myself #the Justus/Gus and Selkie Justus AU has been waiting for the longest now #they deserve to be finished soon 😭#it´s not like I didn´t continue writing these things #they just fell extremly short in comparison #oh and the fics listed here are just the ones I’ve started writing #that’s not even talking about the ones that I simply have planned #meme-ing about myself I guess XD #my stuff silly shenanigans

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sanchoyo · 2 years ago

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you know what. I planned out my entire nanowrimo novel in a month then wrote double the length last november bc i had an outline to work off of. so like. theres absolutely no reason i couldnt just blitz a script for the comic in like, a month? I KNOW i can write fast jkdhjkad i could def do that...less excuses not to finish it if its already p much entirely planned in detail, right? 🤔

#like. going double over the length was a happy accident #altho being employed MIGHT slow things down a bit. i could write on my phone on my lunch break? i did that a lot with warm healer actually #probably 60-70% of that fic was written on my phone!#and if i hard limit myself to 30 pages max per chapter #and writing comics out is WAY FASTER just dialogue + like. stage direction ig would be the word #lil snippet descriptions + maybe thumbnails #....like...id wanna have a script to follow before starting but theres NO reason i couldnt do it quickish #i HAVE chapter plans/outlines in my notebook already! and just concepts floating around #perhaps i made the theme for it already. perhaps i am planning as i type this. who really knows #.......LIKE IT JUST /WORKS BETTER AS A COMIC/ IDK WHAT TO SAY. I GUESS. IN THEORY ITS HAPPENING. MAYBE. NO PROMISES BUT. MAYBE REALLY #TwT #i want to have 3 chapters done before i start posting so not done anytime SOON. btw. just..in the works....maybe....#sanchoyorambles #also id like to wait until tmmn is finished so i can see if i wanna incorperate anything from it into it but.#what if it DOES get a s3 lol #i use a lot of stuff from la mode too!! what if we got new lore!!#id scream

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