#i fucking hate being chronically ill

[firefirevampire]

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[girlthativealwaysbeen]

mann im going to get my blood reports tomorrow and im lwk scared

[ravenquingvax]

might right a fic where one or both of the twins are diabetic like myself because im angry at being diabetic once again

im type 2 and its fucking sucks;

absolutely FUCK metformin

absolutely FUCK no alcohol

absolutely FUCK "healthy" snack and meals

absolutely FUCK pricking my finger to test my glucose levels

absolutely FUCK going for tests and visiting the hospital

absolutely FUCK my mental health for spiralling everytime I see blood because omfg

im so fucking tired rn, but maybe thats from sleeping on and off since 3am to 3pm and not fucking eating anything yet

i fucking hate being sick

i fucking hate having asthma

i fucking hate having diabetes

AND I FUCKING HATE WHEN ALL 3 CONSPIRE AGAINST ME LIKE THIS WTF

my throat and ribs hury whenever i cough or laugh now

im always exhausted

and now THIS

so yeah, torturing the twins sometime soon 😇🥰🤭

love you, Vax and Vex! 💕

[gloomydiary]

I wanna die but i love my life

[flashbackonyourbehalf]

I am so full of rage as red as my blood

[spookietrex]

Man I just love when my body riots for my reason. Like who DOESN'T love waking up and immediately throwing up for what seems like no reason and severe stomach pain for hours afterwards? Who doesn't love lying on the couch/in bed for days because you're in so much pain and so fatigued you literally can't move. Like it's literally the best.

[mars-ipan]

god i cannot wait to be off these steroids…

[ophanim-vesper]

Personally always hated the 'mouthbreather' insult. Having a cleft lip and palate meant my upper respiratory system makes it harder to breathe through my nose. My nasal passage is literally distorted and sometimes I can't even breathe at night while lying down, because my mouth instinctively closes while my nose is completely blocked. So, I had to resort to mouthbreathing, and that has been belittled and ridiculed and associated with being 'retarded' or generally stupid. Being born with a physical defect that literally makes it harder to breathe through your nose shouldn't be an insult. Having a chronic illness that makes it harder to breathe shouldn't be an insult. Needing to have a less socially accepted adaptation in order to LIVE shouldn't be an insult. Thank you for coming to my TEDTalk.

[schizomilitant]

yuore actuallyf so epic . hikkineet AND anti censorship whatf a combo

as a history buff the whole censorship movement thing on the internet thats been going on recently lowkey gives me major nazi book burning vibes. i think all content good or bad has a right to exist and be archived on the internet and on paper.

of course sometimes theres gonna be consequences for doing that especially if its like—actually illegal or some shit. (anime drawings and fanfiction arent illegal btw. you look stupid if you say they are.) but its a small price to pay for historical and fandom archives. salute the troops.

if the middle aged white women can read books about abusive hot billionaires who wanna make out with the young self insert women main character and have that be perfectly acceptable and welcome on library shelves. then i can read about whatever the hell i want to too.

it also goes hand in hand with my love of history. if people start censoring the fiction then theyre gonna start censoring the factual shit too. and that would actually be fucking world ending and im not even kidding. its important that everything has a place to exist or were all fucked.

and hell yeah man im epic! the hikkineet combo goes hard as fuck. im awesome as shit. fuck yeah!

[heartual]

if i have to have another healthy food and mindful eating conversation with my mom it’s over for me

[rosesandthorns44]

My toxic trait is only doing things that are *bad* for me when no one else is looking.

Like, if no one sees it, it didn't count, and I'm perfectly fine. No problems to be seen here, folks.

Mental illness? We don't know her.

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

Haha time flies when you're a chronically ill adult and have a job and don't sleep enough, and at least half of your friends are also Having A Bad Time at the moment, and the days stack on top of each other like junk mail you can't sort through too closely

[crystallized-crow]

i’ve made an aesthetic blog ! @/uraniumglasscrow

i’ll be posting stuff i may have already posted on here to that acc

[sophiethewitch1]

me and what we want are going through a lovers spat rn because i desperately want to write more for it but i constantly feel like shit so its really getting in the way of our relationship. also if youve sent me any asks that i havent responded to i am geniunely so sorry about it i am in the trenches right now

[here-there-were-dragons]

i have to wonder what super hardcore militant vegans think should be done about obligate carnivore animals, because in all my painfully-rapidly-approaching-30-years i've literally never actually seen anyone give a clear consistent much less halfway feasible answer on that

[spookietrex]

Let's start a "here's what my abuser did to make it look like I don't have symptoms." I'll start.

I would be in my room having meltdowns, feeling completely unsafe because my house was not a safe place (wowee, my intuition was correct!) and my mom didn't like that I was self-harming and journaling so she made me start having to report all my symptoms (ie FLASHBACKS) to her...just so she could dismiss them and deny that they ever happened. Oh, and now I talk my way through flashbacks because I've learned that they're conversation pieces so doctors don't believe my autism or PTSD diagnosis and often tell me I'm making things up (and/or make my medical records make me look like a liar by straight up misdocumenting what I said or just not documenting my symptoms, OR when I'm not having symptoms they choose that moment to test me and clear me despite me telling them I'm not having symptoms).

Not being believed is a trigger, you fucks.