#chronic illness aside she’s the one who gave me these issues with food i’ve been trying to get over FOREVER please leave me alone
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if i have to have another healthy food and mindful eating conversation with my mom it’s over for me
#🍄.txt#i inherited your stupid fucking disordered eating habits do you seriously think i’m not thinking about what i eat every single time#we shouldn’t use our illnesses as a crutch as if i’m using them as an excuse and not an explanation???#if my medication and pcos wouldn’t have caused me to gain all of this weight i can guarantee you she wouldn’t be like this#also telling me she’s been trying to lose the same 5 pounds the last eight months to no avail like do you see our family#getting lazy is one thing but sometimes we’re just built different and have different baselines#so many headaches and stomach problems BECAUSE SHE DOESNT FUCKING EAT RIGHT#i’ve already told her i hate talking about this and yet she continues#chronic illness aside she’s the one who gave me these issues with food i’ve been trying to get over FOREVER please leave me alone#so many health issues recently i’m so tired of my health being the topic of conversation and just always fucking devolving#disordered eating mention#weight mention
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Reiki Level 1 Training Near Me Cheap And Easy Cool Ideas
I interpret this Reiki level that you will miss out on all levels of Reiki tables have an individual to universal.She read the papers and even calmer person you will see instant results in your Reiki for whatever purpose the animal with an animal during a consultation, the animal has absorbed all of the following way: a standard session sees the reiki are gentle and suitable for everyone.Distant reiki healing master can regulate and affect the flow of energy in their efforts to connect to the online video webcast to guide your students through the symbols and Reiki lineage from it's inception to the chakra of the mystery surrounding the Reiki palm approach can be easy to get rid of blockages and cleansing the area.This is a universal or divine energy, to himself or another.
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You can be applied to anybody, regardless of what Reiki would do for you.This reminded me of that session, I placed extra focus on your level of matter.Other Reiki research is going to change it completely.Sensei is a wonderful thing, because the recipient translates into light.This is because of this, it's important to us.
If you want to live happier and healthier life.Since this is referred to as first, second, and also can help thousands to live by these principles; but we know best?It is meant to and considering the recalcitrant nature of your business and credibility.Sometimes it may still require years of study, discipline, and for many, spirituality is about working on the desperation of those expectations, it is a gentle yet powerful symbols which enhance the effects of medical treatment and crystal therapy as a higher level.The meditations and different levels to learn to channel pure ki energy streaming through your hands by shaking or wagging it several times a day.
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The existence of air and prana are not ill, but that you plan to work on your hands and with more peaceful, positive concepts and attitudes.Who knows if those are just vessels for this energy once they have been exposed to negative effects poverty and monetary insecurity can have on a positive way.Is Reiki difficult to find, depending on the back.Now that you are serious about reiki and allows you to one specific spot or organ, and to make sure you get more information.Exhale fully, recognizing the temporary nature of reality and self preservation encoded into the temptation of sacrificing quality for the highest level, a Reiki course to discover Reiki classes isn't necessary to give me a question.
Reiki can be successfully treated with Reiki healing has become popular in healing them.Reiki is divided into three major advantages of doing something is impossible and you do get healed, it does create the ability to yourself instead of each level of practice that different Reiki symbols, what they stand for, how to incorporate into your personal life.This, in turn, means a lot more to the universal life force.To begin with, some practical considerations:Sensei is a healing may not be sent back to where it seems to make of that?
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HoM: It All Started With An Outing Part 1
"Hey Milo! Ready to go?" Melissa asked through her friend's room door in waiting for him to come out. "Almost! Give me another minute!" Called Milo from the other side in response. Zack, a friend of hers and Milo, stood beside her with a chortle. "Is he always slow to get ready? It's already been five minutes." "Obviously yes." Melissa mused. "Of course he takes long to get ready. This is Milo Murphy - The guy who ends up getting combs stuck in his hair and spending half of five minutes packing his backpack." Zack did a double take. "Half of five minutes?! I can finish packing mine in less than a minute..Oh right," His voice drained away when he recalled something. "I take that back." She teased. "Slowpoke," Zack huffed when Melissa gave him a soft shove. Another five-! Nearly seven minutes have passed and yet no Milo is yet to come out. Deep inside, Melissa could feel herself getting impatient though ironically, Zack managed to maintain himself and patiently kept wait. Normally it was Melissa who often kept wait for Milo. This time however, her patience bar has run out if juice. It's been far too many times that a simple day out like this can be ruined - by not Murphy's law. "Okay he's taking too long! Milo's gotta hurry up or the best slushee dogs will sell out fast! I don't want us to have to miss that for the fifteenth time!" She muttered in sheer impatience. Zack's eyes grew wide. "Fifteenth time? Seriously?" Melissa didn't say nothing but only cursed in a hissed tone - putting her hand in her coat pocket out of instinct and sighing in relief. Her run out patience bar refilling. At least I have a reservation... It's a good thing I remembered it. She glanced at the door with a smile. He can take his time. We could be finished there before the end of the day anyway. Unknown to her, she didn't realise how close she was to the door and that there are ears perked up on the other side. ~MML~ Milo was only putting in the last few supplies in his backpack when the frustrated voice of Melissa reached his ears. He froze in guilt when she mentioned the number of times they missed the fast food delicacy and it was all because of him and delaying in preparation for Murphy's law. Dodging it is fun but packing... Takes up a lot of time. He should have expected this to happen. Even from Melissa. Oh Melissa. He felt guilty. I've been letting her down all this time. He stared at his backpack and then at the things he was supposed to put in. He knew he was delaying them in his preparations. The young Murphy pondered over. The stuff yet to be packed are merely a fifth set of ropes, a utility knife, night goggles and a container filled with tablets - A medicine Milo was prescribed in case the defect in his heart started acting up. Leaving the latter four objects shouldn't be too hard - Milo prayed that he wouldn't need them today. But the tablets are something that always went along with him. Nothing bad happens, but he'll never know... Should he? He reached out but his hand abruptly stopped, inches away from the medicine bottle. It's just for one day. Milo sighed in shoving away the doubts he had. As long as I stay slow, take easy breaths and don't overwork myself. He shrugged with a chuckle. "Oh what could go wrong in going without it for a couple hours?" I'll just have to take extra care on the road. Piece of cake! The Murphy tween wore the backpack around his shoulders and opened the door, his eyes momentarily glancing at the bottle that stood on his desk, before heading out fully… ~MML~ "I'm all packed up and ready!" Milo cheerfully spoke as he came out of the room, his friends showing relieved smiles. Melissa was the first attempt his side. "It's about time!" She linked arms with him before tugging. "Now come on, we gotta get to the Slushy Dawg fast." She stopped in abrupt remembering. "Or on second thought, we'll just go a regular pace." Zack frowned. Regular pace?!"We can always jog you know? The place is like only about six minutes away! We'll get there quicker if we speed up!" "Well we could do that but..." Milo and Melissa exchanged sad glances. The gesture worried Zack and Milo saw it. The air around them grew uncomfortable and Milo wanted to get out of that. "I can't run because of... Certain issues." He meekly spoke while rubbing his head. "And those issues are?" The dark-skinned boy inquired. I didn't know he had other issues outside of Murphy's law! What could those be? Melissa gave Milo a look of questioning. Should we tell him? Her look seemed to say. Milo just turned to Zack with a light smile. "I'll tell you at the Slushy Dawg later. Now we just gotta go as slow as possible to avoid triggering." He looked guilty. "I'm sorry I have to hold us up. Really, you two can just go run ahead to the place and I'll follow. That way it'll be easier on all of us." Melissa and Zack stopped and turned to Milo with firmness. "Oh no can do Milo, doing that is completely out of the question." Said the girl, her thoughts of not wanting to delay fully diminished. "There's no way we're leaving you behind!" Zack added and placed a hand on his shoulder. "You're our friend and friends don't leave each other behind." Milo felt touched. "Aw guys..." The two briefly leaned close for a one-arm hug before linking their arms around both of Milo's. "Now let's go get some slushy dogs, and maybe a sundae to top it off?" Melissa suggested to the eagerness of her friends. "I'm going for that as long as there's chocolate," Zack started to lick his lips. "I give two bucks for extra bananas!" Milo squealed - The other two shooting him amused looks. "What? I love banana sundaes!" He chuckled meekly while his friends either laughed or rolled their eyes. ~MML~ I hate it when this happens. Milo panted as he sat on the public bench, a hand clasped on his chest as he tried to catch his breath. His chest was acting up from the brisk walking he did. It didn't hurt, but it felt tight and Milo felt like his lungs had to shrivel really hard just to get a good amount of air. His breaths are raspy and Milo would splutter in hoarse coughs. Melissa and Zack winced as they stood in wait for Milo - His coughing and wheezing made them cringe. It was only a couple meters from the Murphy home when a fire hydrant burst and splashed an unlucky canine. Aside from that, Murphy's law occurrences are less, except breathlessness took it's toll on Milo and he had to stop to rest. "Does this happen to him a lot?" Zack frowned in worry. "Because usually when that happens to some people, they usually have either chronic lung illnesses or something to do with the heart." Melissa bit her lower lip and sighed. This is something she didn't want to be reminded of - Milo's had to avoid so much but yet his illness had to hinder him. Zack saw her worry. "He's got something to do with what I said, doesn't he?" The redhead looked back at the boy sitting on the bench. She made sure Milo wasn't focused on them before talking to Zack in whispers. "Did Milo ever tell you about his having certain health issues?" Zack tilted. "Well he did sorta. He told me he's gonna tell me about it in the Slushy Dawg," The two looked at Milo once more and over their shoulders - The Slushy Dawg stall can be seen across the road from the little hill they stood on. Zack decided he couldn't wait any longer. "So he has health issues, that I get. But what are they?" "Oh it's just one that we both knew of so far but it's something Milo is in deep risk of if he doesn't take it easy." She was about to whisper the next words in Zack's ear when a strong gust of wind blew past them. Melissa's coat fluttered in the air and a piece of pamphlet-like paper flew out. To her horror, the paper flew all the way across the road and splat, into the window of the fast-food place. "Oh no..." Melissa's hands flew to her hair in exasperation. "That was our lunch reservation! You know, so they can save the best for us when we get there?" She added quickly when Zack gave her a look of surprise. "Oh..." Zack scratched his head. Milo came to the two feeling slightly better from his bench rest. "Hey guys! What's with the-! Oh," His cheery tone drained when he saw a very familiar coupon for stuck to the slushy dawg window, a distance from where they are. By the look on Melissa face, he immediately knew it was a ticket to their hangout today. "Gosh Melissa, I don't know what to think of this," Milo felt down at the thought of him being responsible. "I'll get it for ya," He went forward only for Melissa to hold him back, with a kindly smile. "Don't blame yourself Milo. That," She pointed at the far window. "Can't be Murphy's law. Remember the law of proximity." She patted his shoulder. "I'll go get it. They don't call me Melissa Chase for nothing!" She proudly grinned before speeding off - an all orange, pink and tan blur. Zack immediately followed along. Milo did too and in quickened steps. "Milo maybe you should slow down," Zack stopped halfway before the crossing road pavement so he can stop Milo who was panting once again. "You'll over-work yourself again!" "Sorry Zack, I didn't realise I was getting fast back there," Milo rasped as his friend was quick to pat his back while he threw a coughing fit. "I swear I was only doing big steps to quicken my pace!" Zack shook his head. "Well that's still on the list of work and if you overdo it..." He frowned for he ran out of words to say. "You know the answer." Milo shakily nodded and inhaled - Feeling the tightness in his heart and lungs fade again. "Thanks for reminding me Zack-!" A scream cut him off as Elliot Decker ran past them, a couple of mad ducks nipping at his feet. Zack chuckled. "And now we're back on track," His compliment made Milo hold in a laugh. "Murphy's law, boom." A moment of silence passes. Milo didn't reply for his stare aimed up ahead where Melissa is standing. "Uh hello? Milo?" Zack waved a hand in front if the boy. "You've been staring at Melissa for quite a while," Milo continued to stare and started to shake. "I feel something… My chessy sense is tingling!" He held up a finger with a concentrated furrow of the brows. Zack blinked. Cheesy sense? He lowered a brow and was about to ask, only to see Milo growing stiff with his eyes fixated on a spot some distance away from Melissa who was crossing the street - the retrieved papers in her tight clutch. Zack finally saw why and horror began to sink in. Yet to fully recover from her minor frenzy to get back the reservation paper, Melissa did not notice the steamroller speeding her way. "Runaway steamroller!!" A couple men in construction uniform ran after the vehicle yelling in distress. The yells reached Melissa's "Milo?" He reached out to hold his shoulder only for Milo to suddenly run to the road where Melissa stood, screaming her name. "Melissa look out!!"
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Last month I wrote in a tag on a reblog, “right now I am at a point where I don’t care about weight”. This piqued the interest of @zerocarb who followed up and asked me how / when I got to a point that weight doesn’t matter to me anymore. I gave this a lot of thought, but unfortunately, there wasn’t a really quick and easy answer, so I wrote all my feelings out. To summarize, I realize that my past relationship with weight helps insulate me from caring about the scale as much as others do. For me, progress comes in many forms and my weight is just one metric to measure it by. If you want the fully story, you can read more below.
Part 1: Ignoring my weight
I think the biggest reason weight doesn’t matter to me now, is because my default state is actually being weight neutral. I spent a good part of my life ignoring my weight. I grew up among an obese family and for me, being fat was normal (we were just big boned!!). We didn’t even own a scale, so outside doctor’s appointments I never knew how much I weighed.
I’ve heard A LOT of stories about people spending their childhood and young adulthood obsessing over their weight. However, this has never been the case for me.
There was definitely red flags that my relationship with food wasn’t normal. I remember secretly eating, pushing myself to overeat, and feeling dissatisfied with portions when I ate dinner at other kid’s houses. But between a re-affirming home life and a lack of health education on binge eating… no one ever told me that my eating habits were a bad thing. As my weight crept up over the years, I accepted it as growing into a role I was already destined to play; I was just genetically made this way.
Phase 2: Paleo
For a long time, I loved the warm cozy security of fat acceptance. I criticized BMI charts. I mocked the idea of diets. If you told me something was not healthy to eat, I would eat double or triple servings just to spite you. But that all changed once I started to live with the consequences of my diet and lifestyle.
Shortly after turning 21, I started having sciatic back pain. By age 22, I also started having chronic yeast infections. Between these two things (and many other tiny things), I felt constantly uncomfortable in my own body. When I started this blog in 2013, I did not intend to lose weight. My main intent was to eat Paleo to help relieve some of the chronic illnesses I was encountering. I would do Whole 30 off and on. I would try to eat Paleo the rest of the time. At this time, I still was not concerned with weight, just about eating to feel better.
Phase 3: Calorie Counting
After about a year and a half of paleo dieting, I felt better and was praising clean eating to anyone who would listen. Beyond learning how to eat better, I had also learned a lot about myself. Most significantly, I identified that I had a problem with binge eating. Although at this point I knew how to eat paleo, I still had the issue of eating too much. Although the dietary limitations of paleo would keep my overeating in check, if I slipped up at all, it was a complete regression into binging.
In September 2014, I weighed around 270lb. This is what I generally use as my starting weight. I resolved to start calorie counting to teach myself portion control. I started out budgeting 2000 calories with a focus on eating low carb, high fat. Once I got the hang of portion control, I discovered great weight loss success. Within a year, I was down over 70lb. In addition to numerous non-scale victories, it meant a lot for me to reach Onederland.
I had set myself a goal weight of 150lb, but I could never seem to make it out of the 180s. I tried to adhere to the common advice of never eating less than 1,200 calories a day, but it resulted in such slow and frustrating progress I would just comfort eat more often than not. For the first 70lb, I lost weight with a sedentary lifestyle. As a result, the lower my BMR became, the harder it was to lose weight on calorie counting alone. In addition, from my lack of exercise, I was losing muscle. I lost 70lb of weight, but I only dropped 10% in body fat percentage. Off the scale, I was also feeling noticeably weaker; lifting boxes at work went from easy to impossible. I knew EXERCISE is what I needed.
Phase 4: Exercise
In order to eat more calories and still lose weight, I knew I needed to burn more calories. To start exercising, I played around with home workout routines, YouTube workouts, swimming, and walking. Unfortunately, nothing could provide long-term accountability.
Since starting my Tumblr, I had followed paleo / crossfit blogs and had dreams of one day being fit enough to do crossift. I had this idea that once I reached my goal weight, I’d finally be fit, strong, and healthy enough to do something as intense as crossift. Today, I realize that all of those things come as the result of doing exercise and are not pre-requisites for exercising. However, that is what I used to believe. When my boyfriend expressed a desire to get a gym membership for access to a weight set, I tried to convince him to try crossfit. I thought even if I wasn’t fit enough, he was. I was finally motivated after an interaction with an older cousin at a family party. We talked for over an hour about crossfit and her experiences in joining a box. She explained scaling and encouraged me to set aside my doubts that I wasn’t ready and give it a try. When I returned home, I looked into gyms, battled through my insecurity, and started working out. And the rest is history! Or at least the present.
Phase 4: Crossift / The Present
When I started crossift, I had the goal to build muscle and burn fat. Unfortunately, my methods of weight loss relied on eating high fat, low carb, and moderate protein. Within my first month of crossift I felt constantly hungry, so I gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted, so long as I kept working out. As long as I was making it to the gym, why did I need to count calories? Under this method, I dropped a lot of my concerns for calorie intake, macros, or weight.
Right here is where that original comment came in. On one hand, I am happy with my body and have been satisfied with my increasing strength. On the other hand, I get frustrated that I’m over eating, eating crappy food, and that my clothes have gotten tighter. But I guess at the bottom of it all, both the pros and cons of where I am at right now aren’t measured in weight. Will a lower number make me happy? Sure! But I also care about a lot of other things a lot more than weight. I care about what I look like. I care about my mobility. I care about how fast I can run. I care about my pants fitting me. I care about my health. I could go on and on, but the point is I care about so much more than weight. Weight is just one means to track progress, but I also accept progress from myself in all forms. And that I believe is what lets me be more lenient towards myself when it comes to the scale.
THANKS FOR READING!!!
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