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cattyanon · 10 months ago

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Oh. Oh I just had a thought.

Sonic Prime AU where Sonic loses a leg and gets a prosthetic made by Nine (or something) but like. What happens after the day is saved and Green Hills is eventually restored...? o.o

I'll find ways to make it worse too. You can count on it. Thinking battle scars... and I'm sure there's some other things.

OOOOOO WHAT IF HE GOES DEAF TOO? >:D

His friends are asking all these questions about the sudden prosthetic and scars and stuff but he can't hear shit and he's already stressed and his hands are shaking so he can't quite sign and I'm just- OUGH.

#trauma exploration~#sonic #sonic prime #sonic au #now how can i include blindness in a way that makes sense to make it even more angsty/give Sonic more problems...?#side effect of him fading away and Shadow barely getting him back in time maybe??#That way he's even more disoriented and confused #and if we're going that route he probably also feels a little numb at first #which then also means he probably thinks they didn't make it in time for a minute #yes- YES #the angst is coming together

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mooshymooshroom · 3 months ago

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Im getting so tired of either feeling waaayyy too much or nothing at all.

#feeling overwhelmed #feeling alone #feeling too much #thinking too much #emotions #emotional #i can't feel anything #feeling numb #emotionless #confused #trying to figure it out #figuring it out #so tired #im lost #lost

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vibescornerr · 2 months ago

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I strive to simultaneously be Satou Matsuzaka’s #1 Hater and #1 Apologist

#happy sugar life #tw happy sugar life #satou matsuzaka #tw satou matsuzaka #half joke #lmao #she is my favorite character #and 5th favorite character of all time #i hate her sm but feel for her sm #i want the best for her #i hate her actions and her person but i also understand that she was pure intentioned and a victim of her own circumstances #she a child too #i imagine a world where things could of been better #i hate her but i relate to her. her numbness her confusion her disconnect from others her hate for adults her feeling of dirty #satou is a complex character #she is not a hero but she is not evil. she is a cry for help and cautionary tale of those abused traumatized and abandoned by the world #if she just had one hand reach out to her.#one adult that held out their hand to help her. not to abuse her or use her for their own desires #one true friend #things may have been different #if shouko didnt start character development so late like BRO GIRL ILY BUT COME ONNNNNN

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starbuck · 1 month ago

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updated my ‘movies watched’ list for the first time in months and spent several minutes trying unsuccessfully to remember “that other film i saw where everyone was shooting each other” … it was The Godfather

#apparently the two categories of films i’ve seen over the past few months are films where everyone is shooting each other #and films where they are not #in my defense i watched two extremely violent films in a short span of time because i was extremely depressed and wanted to feel something #so it’s reasonable to get confused #i was also possibly high when i watched it - though i didn’t feel SHIT #i’m saving all the edibles for when i watch the second one #to make sure i set the mood properly #i should also mention that i didn’t watch the films BECAUSE they were violent but bc certain signs and symbols compelled me to #(which is why i watch everything i watch)#i just allowed it to happen bc i was really numb #and i knew i could take it #and shit… i guess it pulled me out!#thank you violent movies <33

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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 year ago

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it's so over

#i am. speechless.#im numb #dumbfounded #again #and i thought i already was after the last episode #but i'm just........#fyodor's hand........ the hand wound......... asagiri really retconned that in...........#it wasn't there before........ it was such a big deal in the anime but it WASN'T THERE IN THE MANGA #SO HE RETCONNED IT IN TO HAVE THE SAME ENDING..............#im just #i cant #there are no words #there are no words to describe how i'm feeling #/i/ dont even know how i'm feeling #ashamed. disgusted. insulted. heartbroken. devastated. confused. dumbfounded. everything #that is not my asagiri #he would never write this conclusion #i said that after the finale and it applies even MORE here #i can't even enjoy all the cute fyolai moments bc i just want to throw up #and the absolutely fucking worst part is that people are gonna say 'oh you care too much' or 'bsd has always had a bad plot'#'you were stupid for even coping about it being different from the anime in the first place'#NO. IT WAS NOT JUST COPIUM. THERE WAS LEGITIMATE EVIDENCE.#THE ANIME /RETCONNED/ SO MANY THINGS TO MAKE THAT ENDING HAPPEN AND THAT'S WHY IT FELT SO OOC AND CONTRADICTORY #AND NOW THE MANGA IS RETCONNING THINGS AS WELL TO MAKE IT GO THE SAME WAY #FORGIVE ME FOR IT NEVER EVEN OCCURRING TO ME THAT ASAGIRI WOULD STOOP SO LOW AS TO DO THIS KIND OF SHIT #he's always been a great fucking writer in so many ways even WITH his flaws. he has never been this bad. i'm sorry he just /hasn't/#maybe the Book will undo everything after everything looks all fine and good and happy. that's all i can delude myself into hoping for now #but it's not looking good #it's bungover..........

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catbirthdays · 1 year ago

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still fucked up about that jjk chapter. and now we have THAT episode today.

gege Give Me A Break Please

#these wounds they will not heal fear is how i fall confusing confusing what is real there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfa #ce #jjk #jjk spoilers #IV E BECOME SO NUMB I CANT FEEL YOU THERE BECOME SO TIRED SO MUCH MORE AWARE BY BECOMING THIS ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE MORE LIKE ME AND BE LE #S LIKE YOU

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hummingbirdswords · 8 months ago

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#most days I feel like my emotions are broken and missing #and I wish I felt things with enough intensity for me to notice the differences between my different emotions #but then those days (like today) where I get hit with The Sads I am glad for the days when I'm mostly numb bc this is TOO MUCH #every minor thing is making me feel awful #my chest feels tight and I can't stop crying -- and I'm not used to crying bc of my feelings #like i need to watch sad things and listen to sad music for eye maintenance basically 😂 just to make sure they don't dry out #but today I've cried so many times that my eyes must be so confused

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lovsome · 10 months ago

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i think im gonna ask my therapist to get me an appointment with the private psychiatrist she suggested

#yesterday was kind of the wake up call #for a few days ive been feeling very little… still feeling bad but like sort of numb and i keep questioning wheter i actually need meds or #not which .. in any case i will not decide but a specialist will but anyways #and i was looking through book fairs and how to get appointments with publishers to show ur portfolio and just generally feeling like the #most incompetent person ever and also like i will never get anywhere because my style isn’t exactly what u see in most illustrated books #95% of which are childrens books…… and those styles are just different #anyway i digress #my grandma called and she was like what are u doing and i told her how stressed i was and i just started crying mid-sentence and i told her #i dont know where to bang my head anymore its too difficult and confusing and i feel like im just not good enough and im tired of trying to #keep it together.. she knows im not well mentally #like i was SOBBING #and she was like u shouldnt think like that u have to be patient keep trying and contact those publishers and whatever #and i get that she was trying to motivate me but i just told her flat out i. am. unwell. i dont know what to do anymore with this brain #and i asked her to please not tell me how i should think because i cant #and i know my grandad was there with her because he always is and he heard and like an hour later he came to my house to pick something up #and he was like ‘earlier i heard things i dont like’ aka me being depressed out of my mind #and then he said ‘we should talk about it sometime’ and proceeded to completely change the subject to his gums problem because he was going #to the dentist….ok #and the funny thing is things like this where people acknowledge that im struggling but proceed to say nothing about it keep happening #like i have a friend that i talk to very often and we say p much everything to each other but now shes working so she takes weeks to reply #and i told her i was doing VERY bad and of course she has her problems too… and she hasn’t replied to me in like three weeks or so #and she sent a text basically saying im dorry i havent replied yet i want to have time to do it well and hear how youre doing but hear this!#and proceeded to tell me stuff about her work and whatever… which is fine but dont tell me u care about how i am if u cant even check in #when u do have time because clearly u can send texts…#anyways im rambling good morning i already cried and its not even 9 great !!

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lemememeringue · 10 months ago

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being racialized is not a common experience for me so I'm not rly sure what to do when it happens

#mine #I recognise the privilege of being able to say I'm black 👍 without being Told you're black 🫵#I feel a bit numb? I've been around racialized black folks my whole life. I knew what to expect the minute I no longer passed as white #so I'm not surprised exactly #but it feels like the wind gets knocked out. just.. the audacity? the confusion.#for those tracking my life story this isn't abt roomie calling me broccoli. no this is about some of roomie's ex friends #being accused of antiblack racism. roomie thinks some of the comments they said about me suddenly turned a lot more sinister.#it's weird. I didn't rly know those ppl.#I knew they were assholes for how they treated roomie but now roomie's furious for how they treated me #I didn't even notice. just thought they had a stick up their asses yanno?

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ghost4ghosts · 1 year ago

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every time i think i'm over being salty, i think about the finale and get angry all over again. non sequitur shift but i watched a production of king lear and cried harder to a story whose ending i already knew than when my fave character died in the show about kindness or healing or whatever

#my point is i was so numb watching the finale i couldn't even feel sad watching my guy die #the last 10 minutes were so DEVOID of emotion or reason or logic #like i am still so confused why any of that happened

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sick-as-a-dog · 1 year ago

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