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kavehayati · 5 months ago

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I hate everyone 😭

#dora daily #I hate fatema #I hate how I never cry and I don’t like talking abt my pain because it makes it feel like I��m suffocating yet when I tell her she’s like #what do you want me to do and she feels sorry for a girl with period back pain #when my issue is consistent and doesn’t have a straightforward reason like that #and then I cried in class and she didn’t even notice even tho I sat right next to her #and then dahlia #I tried so hard to be so mindful so tolerant and accepting that she needs more time but when is it my turn to feel validated #not that she doesn’t validate me but I just feel so lonely a lot of the time #and I opened up to her abt how I maladaptively daydream most of my day away because I feel lonely and sad and that the only people who can #treat me the precise way I wish to be treated are the fake ppl I create in my head #it’s not fair #and she said she does the same but that makes me sad because I’m always there I always check for her messages but they’re never there #she has ME she doesn’t need to do that #but who do I have #nobody. so that’s why I maladaptivelt daydream #why I pathetically make people up just so I can keep my own self company and have fun or comfort or whatever I need #I feel like a freak.#and god my head feels so weird rn #ughhhh #I am not even kidding when I say every single human being that interacts with me in my day to day life makes me feel like to some extent #I am annoying to talk to or interact with #and that’s just how I feel. so is it all that surprising I pull away so easily #fjoaakala

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delatorius · 5 months ago

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Venting in tags.

#aiko tag #why am i even still here? im so suicidal ots not even funny.#the girl i crushed on isnt even there anymore. i hot to spend a total of a fucking week with her.#she said she would stay this time. she promised she would be back.#my heart cant keep fucking breaking like this.#and i feel like nobody will tell me the truth.#they all just keep aparing my feelings.#im babysitting a newbie and hes cool and all but my heart isnt in it and Im sure he can tell but wjat so i do??#i dont want to be here anymore.#i feel like a freak.

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hinamie · 2 months ago

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make it vicious, take a stab

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jujutsu gojo #jjk gojo #jjk satoru #blood/#jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #just in case idk #i believe in night moves fv supremacy #i feel like i say this every time but im dead deceased on the floor in the ground etc etc #maximum effort fr gojo as usual sighhhhhhhhhhhh #3 days on this mf who let me draw another mirror who didnt talk me down #i got so frustrated after i finished his reflection only to realize i had a whole other half gojo to draw #do not look too closely ik its not perfectly mirrored ik ik ik i wanted to die the whole time pls b kind #especially the hair gjhdfkdgk the last mirrored char i drew was megumi and at least with him his hair is dark #with which i can Conceal my mistakes #none of tht here sighs . this freak and his florescent hair #anyway even tho i died and perished and expired etc i am . SO happy w this u have no idea #blood sweat and tears went into this one #and easter eggs! so many easter eggs #pls take it and enjoy im tired of staring at him and his god awful lipstick job . make yourself decent smh

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me-beef · 5 months ago

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@strangeravatar made a great point

i was gonna focus on the spike-hotboxing-celestia aspect but i got distracted somewhere along the way and i think i forgot what joke i was trying to make

but dont you think its interesting how many guards of the exact same color/body type she's managed to accrue?? i do

ooohh you want to go look at our stickers so bad

#conclusion: if one of them smokes weed they BOTH get high #but it's a baby's metabolism vs a sun god's so if CELESTIA is zooted spike is DEAD #i also like to imagine rainbow dash becomes quite the philosopher while under the influence #and yes their bong IS zecoras potion bottle from season 4 episode 1/2 thanks for asking #anyways #this is a long ass comic with. minimal payoff. but we're POSTING IT ANYWAY BABES #i couldnt decide if it would be funnier to have zephyr breeze at the end or one of those regular white blue-haired blue-eyed stock guards #i left it as zephyr. the real ones get it #i guess the real ones are everybody who saw season 9 episode 4 #but cmon why ELSE do you think celestia would hire that guy #it's cause she's a freak and im calling her out on my tumblr dot com #mlp #mlp fim #mlp friendship is magic #mlp g4 #mlp fanart #princess celestia #princess luna #rainbow dash #fluttershy #spike the dragon #zephyr breeze #horse comic #me art #also that font is one i made based off my own handwriting!! im so happy about it #though it does look. exactly like comic sans #idk how to feel about that tbh #wow you can just talk to yourself in the tags forever and no one will even know huh

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randomloserlover · 5 months ago

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cobs destroys mephone's objectsonas

#inanimate insanity #mephone ii #ii mephone #steve cobs #mephonex #not gonna tag anyone else #I haven't slept in 24 hours the episode sent me into a frenzy #still feel like I'm freaking out now but I'm too physically tired to keep losing it over the show lol #this stupid doodle thing took me six hours to draw I don't even know why. I draw so slow it's not even funny #ii spoilers #inanimate insanity spoilers #ii 16 spoilers #oh my gosh I just realized I forgot the spoiler tags I'm so sorry

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idontmindifuforgetme · 2 months ago

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Once I was listening to a podcast and one of the hosts was like “the key to confidence isn’t never making mistakes and knowing everything, but making mistakes and being totally okay w the fact because everyone makes mistakes and it’s not a statement about your worth” and oh my god okay. My trauma bond w shame is dying a slow death.

#I feel like until my prefrontal cortex is developed I’ll just be prone to freaking out #So I’ll artificially stimulate whatever 30 something year old brains effuse naturally by meditating #And continuing the hunt for a therapist who is much older than me 🩷#My current therapist is cute I think I just need older ppl to dissect my ill diseased mind too

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bluegiragi · 8 months ago

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don't keep him waiting!!! (full vers on patreon)

#trans soap mactavish save me #save me trans soap mactavish #i shouldve outlined them better but also peep top surgery scars #i feel like i should draw ghost in the azrael skin more #missing out on opportunities to freak a fully clothed man #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #ghostsoap #giragi art

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obsmiechujek · 9 months ago

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anyway hows your day been

#im not complaining btw like godspeed to you freaks im just jelous #i will now proceed to tag the fandoms that inspired this post so feel free to hate me #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #the walking dead #twd #literally opened the twd tag (my mistake)#and the first thing i saw was something about a daryl dick-son busting a nut deep inside y/n and i was like alright man ig #in front of my oatmeal???#doods

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sleepis4theweak · 11 months ago

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Inspired by my mom pulling the emergency call cord in the hospital because I got the hiccups when I was like a day old.

#I feel like leo would be one to freak out if anything slightly bad happened #and jump to the most severe of conclusions... (he's me)#tmnt #tmnt 2012 #but... idk age gaps au?#tmnt au #leo 2012 #mikey 2012 #mikey tmnt #leo tmnt #posted this on the wrong blog first whoops :|#Only Mike saw tho.... (hi Mike)#sleepy art

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vaguely-concerned · 12 days ago

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the strength it must have taken for illario to not immediately go full 'lmao since when have you even had a kiss hello lucanis' sibling violence mode during the café talk. inspirational. rook and lucanis really were doing all that right in front of his salad huh

#lucanis is being SO cringe with that line right out there in public and I would die for him. it's just such a weird thing to say #tbf if anyone in the world is used to the insane things lucanis says and would go 'yes yes lucanis waxing poetic about coffee #in ways normal people reserve for trying to get in someone's pants (the roast won't fuck you lucanis)#we've all heard it' like it's all normal I suppose it would be illario. and also he's too busy with the 'shit fuck shit he's not dead #he's not dead of the family members 'supposed' to be dead we're at two definite failures out of two and woe me if the twain should meet #if that IS a demon in there it sure talks exactly in the same bizarre way only my cousin does #does that mean anything what the fuck do I do who do I kill about this' internal monologue I guess #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #illario dellamorte #lucanis dellamorte #rook x lucanis #rookanis #I mean he does very much say that to a non-romancing rook too which only makes it all the more delightfully odd #is it a very lucaniscore way of testing the waters. is it just how he always talks about coffee. many plausible approaches here #no one forced him to bring up kisses and 'you should try it' out of the blue like that is all I'm saying. he could have acted normal #(theoretically)#i feel there are reasons to read some stuff into it lol #lucanis when rye says he prefers tea: it's so over cautious overture I don't quite understand myself yet gently rebuffed #lucanis when rye takes him up on the 'so what should a first kiss be' theme: oh we're so back!!!! wait. what. what do I do now #what is this #it's kind of really sweet that rook answers with their own playfully florid beverage based barely hidden metaphor at the end too #matching freaks and having fun with it #as far as lucanis is concerned rye's only true flaws are 1) prefers tea to coffee (oh well. no one can be perfect. cross-cultural love #can conquer all even in this) and 2) weird taste in interior design (did we really HAVE to bring your 15 foot tall corpse statues #with us home rook. I can understand a tasteful skull here and there but this seems excessive. well if it makes you happy I guess)

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evermorepeyton · 4 months ago

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horrifying email to get at 2 am btw

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karoochui · 1 year ago

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I am admittedly not the most massive fan of human DCA cuz i think some characters aren't human for good reason BUT. i had ideas. So

#i feel lile them as people doesnt really capture their energy #But they're cute or whatever #they are FREAKS to me #they get to be awkward and clammy and kinda creepy if you look too hard #Suns ass looks like hes abt to go search for atlantis or whatever #spreading my brown eyed sun agenda sorry #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf security breach #fnaf sun #sundrop #fnaf moon #moondrop #moon x reader #sun x reader #dca x reader #mikas stuff #human au

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babyprime · 5 months ago

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I feel like Martin gets the short end of the cuddling stick

#jmart #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #tma #cloth bf and wire bf #i feel like that little freak is THE WORST cuddler. cold bony unmoisturized etc.

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rosarrie · 1 year ago

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just realised i never posted the original sketch of this guy

#myart #my art #characters #original character #idk how freaking original this thing is its a spikey thing with ears....#but hes very fun to draw #I GET EMBARRASSED AT HOW MUCH I LIKE DRAWING CUTE THINGS #IT MAKES ME FEEL.... childish..#but...#i love it...

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mueritos · 7 months ago

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happy pride to all queer children of immigrants

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#muertodraws #queer art #queer comic #lgbtq #pride #trans artist #qtpoc #trans art #transgender #transmasc #mlm #if youre a queer child of immigrants you deserve free lifelong therapy #this comic was originally going to be a “i feel like a freak” cuz im trans and people dont know what to do with me #and then it turned into like. oh god this experience is compounded by your complicted relationship to uhh well #being mexican and a child of immigrants #i was originally going to add a quote from a jose marti poem but idk i didnt want this to get too long #i think if i did that i would prolly attract the attention of latine purists and nationalists lmfaooo #i already have people who dont even believe im mexican much less a child of immigrants much less a man #the most common hate i get now is that im a confused white woman gringa who isnt latin american #besides the transphobia im just like. have you ever heard of a diaspora #anyway #hope someone enjoys this

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the-mpreg-guy · 3 months ago

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the hill that i will die on is that cas would have never said he loved dean if he had to deal with the consequences of it afterwards, meanwhile dean (who was SUPPOSED to tell cas he loved him in the original crypt scene script) would have eventually worked up to saying it without external pressure

#listen #LISTEN #i know there's a bunch of takes out there that basically amount to dean being too emotionally stunted to know what he's feeling #but dean's problem has always been being TOO connected to his emotions and being unable to process that #meanwhile cas our sexy avoidant king and chronic ghoster would rather die than acknowledge something that big #like are we forgetting that cas's big move after fucking everything up was to go insane and basically not deal with the problem #meanwhile dean is trying to have a heart to heart with every family member love interest and pseudo adopted daughter every six seconds #ANYWAY yeah #if cas hadn't have made a deal with the empty and if that deal didn't ultimately conveniently correlate with saving dean's life?#cas wouldn't have said shit #FREAK <3 #mean while dean winchester (WHO HAD MORE TO SAY IN PURGATORY!) would have eventually worked his way up to it #and im not saying he'd handle it well bc he'd probably drop it and then be weird about it forever #but he's more likely to be the first to acknowledge it if they weren't being pressured by outside forces #dean studies #cas studies #im so fucking normal about them #dean winchester #castiel

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