#why I pathetically make people up just so I can keep my own self company and have fun or comfort or whatever I need
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I hate everyone đ
#dora daily#I hate fatema#I hate how I never cry and I donât like talking abt my pain because it makes it feel like Iâm suffocating yet when I tell her sheâs like#what do you want me to do and she feels sorry for a girl with period back pain#when my issue is consistent and doesnât have a straightforward reason like that#and then I cried in class and she didnât even notice even tho I sat right next to her#and then dahlia#I tried so hard to be so mindful so tolerant and accepting that she needs more time but when is it my turn to feel validated#not that she doesnât validate me but I just feel so lonely a lot of the time#and I opened up to her abt how I maladaptively daydream most of my day away because I feel lonely and sad and that the only people who can#treat me the precise way I wish to be treated are the fake ppl I create in my head#itâs not fair#and she said she does the same but that makes me sad because Iâm always there I always check for her messages but theyâre never there#she has ME she doesnât need to do that#but who do I have#nobody. so thatâs why I maladaptivelt daydream#why I pathetically make people up just so I can keep my own self company and have fun or comfort or whatever I need#I feel like a freak.#and god my head feels so weird rn#ughhhh#I am not even kidding when I say every single human being that interacts with me in my day to day life makes me feel like to some extent#I am annoying to talk to or interact with#and thatâs just how I feel. so is it all that surprising I pull away so easily#fjoaakala
1 note
·
View note
Text
Mine â Kaz Brekker
(photo not mine)
Requests: â9 from the fluff prompts with Kaz brekker please? It could be where they're keeping it a secret and it slips out? Thanksâ
âCould you possibly do a kaz brekker and reader imagine where they are both like in their mid twenties. Number 9 from the fluff prompts âSo you're saying that girl is your girlfriend?" "No, that girl is my wifeâ, I could just imagine him with the smuggest grin saying it. Your a very good writer and thank you if you decide to write this.â
âCould I get a kaz brekker x reader secret relationship with fluff prompts 5, 7, 12, and 14 please?â
Fluff prompts:
5. âDonât smile at me like that. You know it drives me crazy.â
7. âI feel like i cant breathe when iâm around you.â
9. âSo you're saying that girl is your girlfriend?!" "No, that girl is my wife!â
12. âIâm not jealous! Its just...youâre mine!â
14. âI donât like to pretend weâre not together.â
Couple: Kaz Brekker/ Fem!Reader
Warnings: swearing, mention of fights, mention of post-traumatic stress, fluff too.
Word count: 2k.
A/N: Thank youđ I hope you guys like. I changed some details a little, hope you don't mind
Normal Rules. Smut Rules.
English is not my first language, so I so sorry if have a mistake.
Requests are open. Love youâ€ïž
â â â â
Fissure. That's what mercenaries, thieves, assassins and his enemies were looking for. A fissure to drive Kaz Brekker to ruin. Burn his empire, wood for wood, until there is nothing left but funeral ashes swept away by the winter wind. Even the most infinitesimal fissure would ensure that his enemies infiltrate, like hungry parasites, into the heart of the dungeon of his deepest secrets. Swallowing, absorbing, any hint of what could do the infamous the Bastard of the Barrel down to his own knees.
And Kaz Brekker feared that if they looked into the most secluded corner of his dungeons, where it was reserved to hide the greatest truths of his soul, they would find the one only thing to beg on his knees for would be something he would do without hesitation.
You.
You were like the last summer solstice in a world ruled by darkness, cold and empty. Which he kept in a chest locked with seven chains.
If he had to describe you with the five senses, Brekker would remind that, when he was in the bitter cold of the ocean, clutching the stiffness of dead and putrefying flesh like a lifeboat, a ray of sunshine, warm as the summer, it opened up through the thunderclouds and came down to his face, warming that spot of skin like a kiss from the sun.
And it would be with that memory that he would describe you.
Kaz Brekker shouldn't have fallen in love with you. He was the person who most understood the disastrous consequences if he let himself get carried away by the way his heart sped up whenever he saw you. If he allowed herself to taste the way all of your heat radiated into his body and made him feel alive. But he fell in love.
Everything was all too much. The feeling of life every time you said his name, like a devotion, something religious, lyrical. The sweetness in your eyes, the warm voice. Everything had been too much.
And what should he do? Tell you he missed you every time you went on a mission? Saying that he were jealous and envy of Jesper because the man managed to make you laugh with a silly joke and hug you tight, something Kaz still hadn't been able to do? Tell you it was almost religious the way he venerated your smile? Of course not. Because all these things would have been sensible, and Kaz couldn't do anything sensible around you.
Because when he saw life offering him, with such joy, the one thing that had been denied him all his life, and that he swore never to crave, his first impulse was anger. Stupid, irrational anger.
So, for the first few moments, his entire reaction to you had been cold, distant, almost avoidant. Because the way his whole body shook in hot spasms when, in that summery tone, you called his name, it was too much for Kaz to handle.
âKaz!â You call, one night.
He heard your voice from across the crow club, and had to close his eyes tightly at the way his heart leapt in his chest.
"Hey, hey." You appeared beside him, your cheeks chased away by coral red, the happy smile and the sparkle in your eyes as someone who have the path to true happiness. "Jessy said you were wanting to find a new way to invade that bank."
Oh perfect. In the same way his body exalted when he heard the sound of your name and your lips, hearing you call Jesper by that infernal nickname had a much more destabilizing effect. And fierce.
Kaz raised an eyebrow at you, in a nonchalant gesture but inviting you to keep talking.
âI happen to know of an underground path.â For an instant, the pride in your smile made Kaz want to smile too. âYou and I can put together a map today and we'll be right tomorrow to go.â
That was one of the times Kaz should have made some dry, disinterested, trivial comment, something that made you not want to spend time with him, something that made you turn around and walk away. He should have turned around and left. He had done this over a thousand times with other people and knew it to be one of the best outings.
Still, the acid comment didn't come and he couldn't turn his back on you.
So, like the idiot he became whenever it came to you, Kaz couldn't help but spend an hour in your company. Even if it resulted in him lying in bed at the end of the day, alone and feeling the guilt gnawing at him more and more.
So, before he even knew it, Kaz was already in his office with you, listening to you chatter about things he knew he should have been paying attention to. But the way the crackling of the fire flames in the fireplace flashed across your face was a distraction of unimaginable proportions.
âJessy and IâŠâ
âYou want to stop.â He found himself saying before he even realized it. âThat nickname is already exasperating me.â
âWhy? Jealousy?â You joked, oblivious to the truth.
Kaz looked at you like your comment was the most pathetic thing he'd ever heard. He wanted to screaming: âIâm not jealous! Its just...youâre mine!.â But he didn't. Instead, the words that came out were:
âNo. It's childish and immature, and it doesn't fit with...â
"What if I call you âDarlingâ?â You rested your chin on both palms of your hand, your elbows resting on his desk in his office.
Kaz's heart skipped a beat.
âThat way you won't be jealous of Jessy's nickname andâŠâ
âIt's not jealousy!â He countered, and too late realized that he didn't disagree in the first instance about the nickname, but about the green color that emanated from his body.
And you didn't let that go either.
Your eyes took on a caustic gleam that you quickly hid, turning to the map on the table and going back to drawing the paths. âOkay, Darling.â
After that night, Kaz's self-control began to crumble.
He gave you death glares whenever you called him that nickname, but he never dared contradict or scold you. Much less deny it. The truth was, the core of his soul wanted this. He wanted every part of your caress warm as summer. He wanted to appreciate how perfect you looked when you called him that way. As if that nickname was born just to be used between you.
Something unique.
Over time, his body's physical reactions began to be stronger, coercive and overwhelming. Kaz felt dry, burning, and you soothed and inflamed him at the same time. You were the breath of peace, and also a glass of hot brandy.
And everything that he once felt dead, frozen or putrefying, slowly began to blossom, reborn and shine.
"Darling." You said, going behind the chair Kaz was sitting in, submerged in the Krisha security system sheets in front of he. âYou've been there for hours.â
He ignored you, though his body was all too aware of yours behind him, the way your breath hit the top of his ear, how your heat hit his back like a high summer breeze. Kaz swallowed hard, ordering his eyes to stay on the pages.
âWhat are you reading?â
Your voice rang out from the top of his head, and Kaz felt his heart race into a cardiac arrhythmia the second your hands went to the back of the chair and your face tilted, chin hovering millimeters from his shoulder, your nose almost brushing his cheek.
Fucking Saints! You were hot! It was as if you had sun bathed, swam in the flames of fire, and been born into the summer.
Kaz lost his breath. His sanity. His soul.
âDo not do this.â His voice was no more than a whisper.
You looked at him, the furs not touching but breath hitting each other's cheeks. Kaz followed your gaze, and suddenly the world subtly turned hot. Pulsing and muffled.
âWhat?â You whispered, your heart so fast.
This was the time for Kaz to use the touche in a very valid argument. To make you move away as fast as you approached. To nip in the bud any path this interaction between you could take. He should have said about the touch. But he didn't remember. Kaz didn't remember his limitation, his traumas, his demons.
In that second, of insanity and magic, you couldn't do that just becauseâŠ
"I feel like I cant breathe when I'm around you." He said.
After that day, Kaz realized that life no longer made sense without having you by his side to share it. Money didn't have the same value anymore if you weren't there, the robberies didn't make sense anymore if he couldn't tell you how it was at the end of the day, or have you by his side to fight.
Very quickly, Kaz Brekker realized that he had lost the battle against his own feelings. Loving you was inevitable. And having you close to him was made as essential as breathing. That's when things between the two of you developed faster, more solid, more right. The weeks turned to months, the months to years, and your relationship fortified as gloriously as the hilt of a sword.
Kaz still had very difficult moments with touching, days when a single brush of fur was unbearable and the mention of a kiss was impossible. But you stayed there. Firm and unshakable. Giving your summer smiles,your warm winks, and his nickname that had the power to soothe every nerve in Kaz's body.
However, the more Kaz understand that he was need you to he still live, the deeper he hid any trace of public affection for you. Any clue that could sparked the theory in someone that you were the reason, for Brekker, for the sun rose every morning. He couldn't bear the thought of losing you. Never.
Kaz Brekker became very aware that his soul was harnessed to yours. And there was nothing in the world that would take you away from he. Not while he lived, and even seven feet from land, Kaz would still find a way to fight for you.
It was a logical decision when he said you two should get married. Kaz was still trying to maintain his serene posture as his soul burned in a fire too eager and excited to make official anything that said you were his. That he had finally managed to have that ray of sunshine in the midst of the atrocious ocean. You, unlike him, exhaled your happiness in excited squeals, little jumps of joy and a passionate, quick kiss on the man in front of you.
And Kaz understood, as perfectly as the sky are blue, that he would do anything, for the rest of his life, to be worthy of that overwhelming happiness that sparkled in yours smiles.
âDonât smile at me like that. You know it drives me crazy.â He said, feeling himself smile because your happiness for the wedding was exorbitant.
And you, like the little tease you were who loved to make him piss off, smiled even more and hugged him. He love you. Unconditionally.
But, just like the ocean waves, Kaz and you have had your ups and downs. He wasn't a man who had a lot of patience, and you weren't the most obedient, calm woman in the world. You found him exasperating and he found you as stubborn as a door.
"I already said you can't do that!" And there he was, once again, lecturing you because you showed too much affection, in his mind, for him in a public situation.
And, as Kaz fucking Brekker liked to point out, âall walls have eyes and earsâ.
"We've been together for six years, Kaz!" You tried to keep your blood calm, but you weren't a person to put up with sermons. âIs this going to be our life? Living as if we have the same connection as a boss and an employee?!â
âAnd what do you want, Y/n?!â He placed both hands on his office desk, looking at you from the other side âWant us to have a party and tell everyone?! Or do you prefer to hang a red target on your chest?!â
"I did not say that!" You were starting to get really angry. âI'm not asking for a billboard saying we're married and you know it! The only thing I'm saying is that you let me choose to sit next to you, take your hand, or tell you I love you when any of us go off on a dangerous mission!"
Kaz shook his head, impassable, his gaze flashing with anger. How did you not realize he was trying to save you?! Save everything you two built, your lives! And all this for what? Walking hand in hand on the street? It was ridiculous!
âThis is indisputable!â
âKazâŠâ
âI said no!â He slapped his hands on the table.
A less brave woman would have cringed. But not you.
âI donât like to pretend weâre not together!â
âAnd I don't like a fucking girl who complains all the fucking time about something I do to save her! But it feels like I've been put up with it for six years, doesn't it?!â
The words hit you like a slap. Crackling, burning and electrifying. You felt yourself holding your breath and your shoulders instinctively tightening back. The room was silent. Loaded with tension, as if lightning had just hit the ground.
You looked at Kaz in amazement. And he pursed his lips when he realized what he'd said.
âPut up with? And you call me âfucking girlâ ?â You repeated, your voice low, serious and in a mixture of hurt and outrage. âGood to know.â
You turned your back, walking out of the office and slamming the door behind you hard, making the thud reverberate through the corridors of Kaz's soul.
"Y/n!" He called you, striding to the door "Y/n!"
But when Kaz pulled the doorknob and took a few steps down the hall, it wasn't you he bumped into. It was Nina, trying to hide, in a very terrible way, her curious and shocked expression. In female hands she carried a small stack of documents, probably something important that Kaz needed to check.
He had to check that out. But his eyes, restless and quick, wandered the great hall of the crow club below, watching your figure pass between the bodies, advancing towards the exit.
"SoooâŠ" Nina started, even though the attention wasn't on her. "Couple fights, right?"
But Kaz didn't think before nodding, trying to get past Nina to catch up with you. But of course the girl wasn't going to let Brekker get away with it that quickly. She was betting with Inej how long you two would pretend to have nothing. And now she was going to get the truth!
"So you're saying that girl is your girlfriend?" The smile of shock and excitement was wide open on her face.
Kaz muttered a curse, gently pushing the girl aside and moving towards the stairs, aiming to catch up with you. But not before answering:
"No, that girl is my wife!"
#kaz brekker fluff#kaz brekker imagine#kaz brekker fanfic#kaz x kruge#kaz brekker x you#kaz brekker x y/n#kaz brekker x reader#kaz brekker#kaz x jesper#shadow and bone imagine#shadow and bone#freddy carter x you#freddy carter imagines#freddy carter fluffy#freddy carter x reader#freddy carter
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Promotion
This is technically a part 2 of my fic Work for it but it can be enjoyed on its own!
pairing: supervisor !johnny x intern ! female reader x assistant !haechan
genre: smutty goodness (this will send me to hell vip)
word count: almost 14k
summary:Â âAfter you fuck the Salesâ department supervisor, Johnny Suh in your office during an overtime, youâre left to deal with the unavoidable lingering emotions that come with getting his dick on the regular. At the same time, his assistant and your best work buddy, Donghyuck, who initially helped you with getting with his boss, realises his growing crush on you that is too big to be ignored at this point. With their masterful skills in seduction, youâve ended up tangled in a sexual game with the both of them, all the while trying to move up from an intern to a permanent worker in the companyâ
warnings:Â threesome w/ two doms, alcohol consumption, mention of food (meat, lettuce, eggs), oral, overstimulation, thigh job, at some point- reader borrows a shirt from haechan and itâs mentioned that itâs âtoo big on the shouldersâ, thigh riding, office sex, pussy slapping, choking, fingering, sir kink thrown in there at some point, a little degradation bc this is my fic weâre talking about
a/n: omg itâs finally done! I really love this so I hope you guys like it as well :)
taglist:Â @rainodannaâ, @markresonatesâ, @unknown5tarâ, @yoongsiclesâ
For every other worker in the office, virtually nothing had changed.Â
They relive the same mundane routine, Monday after Monday, the same excruciating 8 hours and short cigarette breaks. The same trees, stuck in their ceramic imprisonment would greet them in the companyâs entrance. Rigid and dusty and reeking of cheap plastic. Itâs not like theyâd come alive, open their little mouths on their thylakoid membranes and tell everyone you fucked mr. Suh, the Sales Departmentâs supervisor, in your office during your overtime. No, thatâs not possible, you reminded yourself when you pass by them every morning, giving them a side eye for good measure, as if that would scare them off their zombie state.
And you were the same too, completing your tasks and meeting your deadlines. Blending in with the rest of the companyâs human resource, with the exception of the occasional double take of some tactless male worker here and there.
Donghyuck, however, said supervisorâs assistant and your best friend, wasnât your typical office worker. He noticed the extra layer of cherry lip gloss coating your lips. He noticed your new perfume, sweeter than the one you used to wear. He noticed the knowing smiles between you and his boss, the heat of your body when you were around him. And it wasnât just because he was sharp overall.
He was the one who practically got you together, planted the seed in Johnnyâs head about the cute new intern of the Financial Department. He was the one who convinced him to finally make a move on you, tired of seeing you trying over and over again to seduce the supervisor to your bed.Â
And when that seed finally sprouted, in the form of Johnny spitting in your mouth and taking you on your office chair like you were his last fuck on earth (according to the hair-raising description you gave Donghyuck the morning after), he shouldâve been happy, right?Â
It didnât really affect his life in the slightest.
You were just y/n. His friend, his work buddy. The person whom he was close enough to let you know you had a piece of lettuce stuck on your teeth from that sandwich you had on your break. The person who texted him funny gifs of pandas falling asleep during the most boring of meetings. With your nerdy glasses and that ugly brown suit you loved wearing so much. The person he dreamt of fucking every time he fell asleep.
When you told Donghyuck you had a crush on his boss he wasnât shocked, but the stinging buzz in his guts surprised him. He would see you waltz right past his office all perked up and pretty, to see the person you really came for, nervous as you hung from every word that left Johnnyâs mouth. Heâd put up with the sound of you giggling over every stupid joke that left the older manâs mouth patiently, just to wait until heâd smell your sweet perfume as youâd walk past him again. To tease you over something that would make you mad enough to notice him, glare at him, maybe even hit him.
And Donghyuck wanted to hate Johnny, he really did. His stupid boss who asked for his coffee specifically made, who was rude and cranky on Monday mornings and got the credit for all his hard work, yet Johnny was nothing of the sort. He was helpful, and kind and let him off early. He was funny and good looking and taller than him and had a six pack, damn it. If Donghyuck was being honest, he didnât just like his boss, he admired him. It was pathetic, he thought. Most days heâd live vicariously through him.Â
Sometimes he would lay on his bed at night, picturing himself to be the second lead of a romance drama that would sweep you off your feet. Everyone gets second lead fever, right? In his rem cycles, heâs handsome and hilarious and much more interesting than the main actor. He would imagine himself stretching out his rays, like the full, rising sun that he was, until they overcame the big mountain that was Johnny and reached your skin. So hot against it that youâd have to undress, remove the clothes sticking on your sweaty skin to embrace him.Â
He thought about your body a hundred times too many for it to be considered healthy. The curve of your ass in your pencil skirts, the little hairs on the nape of your neck that stuck out from your tight ponytails. The runs on your tights that he wished were caused by the sharpness of his fingernails. He listened to your voice carefully, all 90 Hz of it, and played it inside his head as if it was an instrument. Putting together chords and harmonies, composing a music piece of all the ways his name would sound like coming out of your lips.
Donghyuck, Donghyuck, Donghyuck
âEarth to Donghyuck? Are you listening to me?â
It was unlike him to be out of it, especially when he was around you. He blames it on skipping coffee this morning or the shade of red of your blouse that fits you so well. Either way, he had to respond, and keep the pink from flooding his cheeks further. Thereâs no way you couldâve known what was going on inside his head.
âUh, yeah, yeah. So, let me get this straight. Werenât you the one who didnât want a relationship?â
You were upset, he could tell. After the night of the overtime, you and Johnny had indulged in a few more nights of each otherâs presence, but had kept it at that. Sex. Delicious, mind blowing, porno worthy sex, but nothing more than that. And you were starting to itch for a little bit more.
Donghyuck was right, of course. You were the one who told Johnny that this wasnât the right time in your life for any sort of commitment, especially with someone in the workplace. This was your internship, and you were determined to get a permanent position soon, that should be your first priority. Get the bag and go. There were men everywhere. But why was your heart aching for that particular one with the long hair and the caramel eyes and the flower tattoos?Â
âI just donât want people at work to gossip about us, you know how they get. But seeing him so nonchalant about it gets on my nerves.â
Leaving his apartment at 2 am when he was sprawled out on his bed, in just pyjama pants and the light layer of sweat from the athletic sex you just had, hurt enough. It was a sight so beautifully hidden under his work attire that it soon became addictive, the withdrawal symptoms too intense for you to have your dose only once a week.Â
Donghyuck scowled when you first let out a frustrated sigh, your eyes pitifully following his bossâs silhouette around. He knew youâd never really complain about it, you were set on that promotion and you deserved it too, but it was hard not to get angry. Everything he ever wanted stood willing and ready for taking in front of Johnnyâs lap, how could he not claim you?
He hated seeing you sad.
âLetâs go for a drink. I think you need it.â
Even he surprised himself with the sudden proposition, blinking back at you to gauge your reaction. You were best work buddies, sure, but you never hung out after office hours alone. It would make sense for you to refuse, Donghyuck told himself, trying to soften the blow of a potential rejection. Youâre probably tired from working, or maybe youâd feel awkward to be alone with him for so long. Maybe you hated to drink, or maybe you hated him. Oh God, what if you hated him? What if you only spent time with him out of social obligat-
âSure, sounds good. Pick me up after youâre done? Since youâre on the top floor.â
Donghyuck nodded back at you, too eagerly for his liking, the gears in his brain already trying to figure out where he should take you. You excused yourself back to your office, the small pat you gave his shoulder making him grin like an idiot.
This is not a date, he reminded himself.Â
He had dreamt of this moment for months now. He thought about you every time he walked past that korean bbq place, promising himself that one day heâd muster the courage to finally ask you out. This wasnât exactly the case today, but it was as close to his imagination as possible. This is not a date.
He repeated that phrase over and over again, let it resonate inside his head. This is not a date because he is a coward and you like someone else. Was he a bad person for taking you out today? Was he taking advantage of your slight disappointment? Was that why you ever said yes in the first place? The self deprecating thoughts lit a fire in his belly and he tried to extinguish it with every shot of clear liquid that disappeared from between his full lips. Like he expected, you werenât far behind on the drinking either, enjoying the grilled pieces of meat blissfully, moaning in satisfaction with every delicious bite.
You looked pretty before, but now, through the pink coloured glasses of intoxication, you were stunning. There was a halo of bright light surrounding you, making you look so celestial chomping on that piece of lettuce. If it was anyone else, he would pull a face of repugnance at the sight, yet Dongyuck thought that you just looked so cute, so content in that little moment and he wished he could just lean in and leave a kiss over your filled cheeks.
No, that was a dangerous thought. This is not a date, pull it together.
Donghyuck desperately tried to focus his attention somewhere else, anywhere but you would suffice. His eyes finally landed on a bowl of marinated eggs on the table, and it reminded him of the three boiled eggs he makes for breakfast every morning. He was a man of habit, following the same routine until heâd see you and youâd colour between the lines of his life, making it interesting finally. Donghyuck would fill the pot with more water than needed, just enough so that it doesnât overflow. He liked to be closer to you than he could handle, close enough but never touching you.
Lost in his daydream, he doesnât realise that he hasnât talked in minutes. And when you touch his hand lightly with yours to bring him out of it, he almost feels the boiling water burning his skin.
âYouâre so quietâ, you say with a chuckle, and Donghyuck makes a mental note to add this harmony to his composition, âyou got drunk before I did? Are you really Lee Donghyuck?â
âWell see, I drank all this soju, so I wish I was someone else for the night.â
The statement saddened you, and you withered a little in your seat. Why did Donghyuck drink so much tonight? You came here for you to cheer up, didnât you? Or were you so caught up in your little personal drama - that you caused yourself - that you missed hearing about his cat dying? You must offer your condolences. Did he even have a cat?
You donât want to bring up his dead cat in case he did so you just lift your hand next to his head, and weave your fingers through his locks. He has been growing out his hair for months now, and the look might not be the most corporate-professional but it sure fit him. The ash blonde shade that he decided to colour it, brought out the tan of his skin nicely, and the hair itself though bleached was still soft to the touch.Â
You see him react to the work of your fingers instantly, his expression shocking you. His mouth is hanging open in a loose âOâ shape, small wrinkles forming on the space between his eyebrows. You pick out small pieces of hair, one by one, letting gravity do the rest by allowing the individual hairs to return to their previous state.Â
âWhat are you thinking about?â, you ask so softly itâs almost a whisper, and Donghyuck can only sigh.
YOU, he wants to scream, youâre in my mind all day long and I think Iâm going crazy! He is full on staring at you now and thereâs nothing in the world that can take his eyes off of you, off your worried eyes that seem to hold all the stars in the sky, or the soft skin of your neck that he wants to kiss and suck and break so badly. But he doesnât, and the soju calls him a coward for it, so he settles for the next best thing.
âYou are prettyâ
It was just three words but they sent your mind in a frenzy. Why did it matter so much to you that Donghyuck found you pleasing to look at? He has complimented you before, even flirted with you a lot of times, yet it was always said half-jokingly, followed by a diss. But this time he was serious, no signs of alcohol clouding his eyes. He was so solemn in fact, that those three words made the heat burn on the skin of your cheeks, rising up your throat and hindering you from responding with a human sound.Â
He takes one more shot, washing away the embarrassment of his sudden confession and offers to order one more fatty dish to sober up, then take a walk in the city.
The walk was relatively quiet, less awkward than it was 30 minutes ago but Donghyuck was still being uncharacteristically silent.
âI thought you said that alcohol doesnât make you redâ, you say teasingly, trying to spark conversation.Â
It doesnât actually. You were the culprit of the wash of burgundy all over his skin, accumulating even more pigmented around his ears and the freckles of his nose. You were walking side by side now, and Donghyuck thought that for the passersby you two must look like lovers. He let his brain entertain that fantasy, his hand itching to hold yours. Heâd intertwine your fingers together, give your palm a little rub with his thumb. Then heâd lift the bundle of fingers on his lips, kiss the thin skin of your wrist and make the aunties that are looking at you now coo in adoration.
âSays you. You look so fucked right now.â, he jokes and youâre relieved to see him go back to his teasing self. You donât know if itâs the chilly night, but youâre overly aware of the heat his body emits, and the smell of his cologne makes your head spin just a bit more. Youâve been sitting so close to him this entire time that you can list off most, if not all, the ingredients in his perfume. Rose, chilly pepper, orange blossom, lavender.Â
âDonghyuck, I will step on you.â
âMmm, temptingâ
You shove his arm playfully and he reciprocates, but his strength is not as controlled as he thinks. The heels of your boots, slippery against the wet floor that the drizzle caused earlier, make you trip on your steps, and Hyuck is luckily there. With his quick reflexes he catches your elbows first, pulling you up against his chest and you grab his left bicep to support your weight.Â
You take a deep breath, to register that you did not fall head first on the floor, and thatâs when you realise how close Donghyuck is to you. His bangs are tickling your forehead, your deep pants fanning them apart. You admire his glowing skin, the wrinkles of his lips, the two moles lined parallelly with the bridge of his nose. Youâre not sure what comes to you, but you raise your free hand and place it over his hot cheek, your thumb connecting those two moles with an invisible line. A raindrop, fresh out of the sky and signifying the start of a new drizzle, falls on his face and follows the trail that a tear would, his voice weak and breaking when he speaks again.
âIâm sorryâ
He dips down his head then, connecting your lips and letting the plumpness of his mouth reel you in. Youâre over the initial shock almost immediately and kiss him back in vigor, surprised with the heat his kiss has spread to your chest and belly. It was an ember at first, glowing in the very depth of your insides but it was soon starting to spark up uncontrollably, and you were scared of how rapidly it was fueling up. This was your friend you were kissing. So where did all this hunger for him come from?
You pull back when you realise youâre in a road full of people, and you canât bring yourself to look at him in the eyes. Donghyuck looks disheveled and anxious, and he apologizes again before he urges you to keep walking with him.
âItâs starting to rain. We should get home.â
You walk next to him in complete silence now, stealing quick glances of his reflexion at every surface that made it possible -Â the windows of the parked cars, the puddles of water on the sidewalk, a passersbyâs glasses. The look on his face is unreadable, pensive if anything else, and itâs rare for the expressive Donghyuck youâre used to dealing with. Your homes are towards the same direction, his a little closer than yours, and it doesnât take too long for you to reach the entrance of his building, your clothes not even half wet from walking without umbrellas.
Donghyuck fumbles to find his keys, his hands shaking from the adrenaline his body released from the kiss earlier, the feeling still too fresh against his lips. He stresses thinking of what to do next. Should he hug you goodnight? Apologize again for kissing you? Unlock the entrance without a word and never speak to you again?Â
âIâm hereâ, he states dumbly, as if youâd sit at the porch of a strange house and he avoids your eyes as if you were Medusa, âGoodnight.â
You smile back awkwardly at him, waving with a hand made of clay as you wish him the same. He has turned around to unlock the door, key already at the keyhole and you turn to leave too when his voice stills you in place.
âHeâs an idiot.â His back is still facing you, and when he turns to look at you his eyes finally lock with yours, as honest and earnest as ever. âJohnny. If it were me, hell, if you wanted me like that I would grab that opportunity- grab you in an instant, convince you to be mine any way I could.â
Youâre stuck looking at him like a fool, trying to comprehend what heâs saying and the complications of it. He puffs out through his nose, chuckling to himself and shaking his head.
âIt doesnât matter. Goodnight y/n.â
Donghyuck is half inside the entrance now and your body suddenly exits its frozen state, blocking the door from closing with your boot. Heâs shocked with the sudden movement and he opens up the door further for you. You get inside the little hall without thinking, sitting firmly in front of him, a puzzled look on his face.Â
âWhat if I told you he hasnât even crossed my mind this whole time we were out? What if I told you I havenât stopped thinking about you since you kissed me? Would it matter then?â
He opens his mouth momentarily, as if to speak but decides to stay silent. He already said everything he needed. Itâs up to you now.
And you arenât ready to leave yet.
You take a step forward to close the distance between you, your chests touching and you pick up the distinct smell of soju in his breath. Youâre not sure if itâs that smell or the proximity but you feel drunk all over again, the yellow light of the hall shining disturbingly bright down at you and urging you to do something.
You plant a kiss over his neck, leaving a trace of the remnants of the pink lipstick you applied at the start of the workday. It was tentative, but you could still feel his raging pulse from under your lips. You could feel it get faster too, the rhythm going higher along with his body temperature and you decide on a path. A path of kisses starting from the same spot youâve turned glittery pink, up his jawline and all the way to his earlobe.
Donghyuck clenches his jawline, you feel that too, and something snaps inside him. He just canât take it anymore, having you so close to him, your lips on his neck and doing nothing about it. The boiling water finally spilled over the pot, hot and overflowing, and he doesnât care if he gets burned.
You feel the cool wood against your back before you taste his tongue a second after. He has pushed you up against the entrance door, you realize, but itâs hard to comprehend anything around you when he kisses you like that. Itâs the steamy, purposeful continuation of the kiss you shared earlier, and with the lack of prying eyes Donghyuck has a good idea of where he wants it to lead.
He shows you too, pushing his knee between your thighs and he feels your heat almost melt the rough fabric of his jeans. There are so many things he wants to do, so many lines he wants to cross but there is one thing he must ensure.
âTell me you want this.â
You glide your hands upwards from his pecks to the slope of his neck and wrap them around his neck. Your body seems to act up on its own, and you feel yourself grinding down his leg that is still positioned against the wall. It feels dirty, the desperation of it all, and you connect your chest with his again before answering him.
âLee Donghyuck. I want you to make me cumâÂ
You grab his hand before he gets to respond, the cool silver of his watch digging against your fingers, and you drag him to the elevator door. As if the universe had sensed your urgency, you find it waiting for you at the bottom floor, and you pull him inside with a tug of his tie.
In no time you find yourself pushed up against the wall again, and you canât see much beyond Donghyuckâs lips, but you do catch him clumsily pressing the button to his floor with your peripheral vision. Once the elevator is in motion you feel like you can finally submerge yourself in his lips and the way his kisses take your breath away, not sure if the funny feeling in your stomach is from the sudden change in altitude or the arousal. Youâre already taking his clothes off, removing the jacket of his suit off his shoulders and working the top buttons of his shirt open.
Itâs him that drags you to his apartment this time, urging you out of the elevator as soon as the robotic declaim of his floor number rips through the wet sounds of you kissing. His keys are already easily accessible in his front pocket from your conversation earlier, and when he manages to unlock the entrance with trembling hands you walk inside as if you own the place.
Itâs small and cozy, decorated minimally. The first thing you notice is that it smells like Donghyuck, something that should be obvious but it still overwhelms you. Itâs maybe a bit stuffy from the hours he was gone yet this is the smell still lingering in your nose from his skin you were sucking just moments ago, trying to distract him from the easy task of opening the door. Itâs addictive and you want it stuck on yours.
And Donghyuck does stick on your skin, discarding his tie on the floor with a strong pull and finishing the task of unbuttoning his shirt that you started in the elevator. His movements are impatient and soon heâs half naked, and you barely have time to admire his caramel skin before his hands are all over you. They start safely at the dimples of your waist, then sliding upwards to your ribcage and copping a feel of the underside of your boobs by sneaking his thumbs under the wire of your bra. You want to feel more, encourage his probing fingers so you reach to the clasp on your back, unfastening the garment and removing it through the hem of your blouse.Â
Donghyuck canât take his eyes off your chest, nipples hardened from your arousal and poking through the thin fabric. He takes his thumbs, the same thumbs that lit a fire in your belly earlier and flips the bud, toying it around and rubbing circles around it. The response from you is immediate, moans that start off soft and build up to a crescendo bouncing off the walls of his apartment.
It drives you crazy, a little bit, that smirk he has on his face now. Itâs so familiar in between his features, youâve seen it countless of times, especially during his typical teasings of you, yet is carries so much newfound weight now, so much sex appeal. Heâs already giving you what you need but the climaxing is too slow for your liking, you want more and you want it now. You want what you asked him for in the lobby of this building.
Donghyuck can either read your mind or read through the increased frequency of your moans because he undresses down to his boxers, forming a trail of clothes from his living room to his bedroom, where he has led you. He doesnât even bother to open the lights, relying on the moonlight from his window for lighting and pushing you down on his bedsheets.Â
He climbs up with you, hovering over you and you move back a bit so that your head rests comfortably over his pillows. If the smile he gave you earlier had affected you, then the hungry look on his face right now almost makes you come untouched, his eyes raking up and down your body as if he doesnât know where to start.
He decides on your calves, kissing them and moving upwards slowly and sensually, not missing the sensitive skin on the side of your knees and paying extra attention to your inner thighs. Heâs still at it a minute and a half later, and you canât tell in the dark but youâre sure they must be decorated by bite marks by now, his close proximity to the source of your pleasure making you squirm in his hold. Â
It feels like ages since you last felt his fingers when he grips the soft meat of your thighs and spreads them apart. They soon move up to the hem of your skirt, rolling the fabric upwards and over your ass. You feel his breath against your pussy, making it tingle and twitch even more than it already has, and the wait feels like a new level of hell in Danteâs Inferno.Â
A single finger pets you over your underwear, drawing lines over the damp fabric from your clit down to your entrance and then up again. You whimper and whine at the sensation that is half a step from what you consider satisfactory and he hooks a finger on the black lace, moving it to the side and letting you experience the cool air of the room all over again. The full exposure brings heat to your face and you breathe through the embarrassment that arouses you even more.
âHey, Donghyuck?â
âYes?â
âIs your cat still alive?â
âWhat the fuck are you talking about?â
He licks one long stripe over your entrance, and you feel the goosebumps spreading all over your arms and legs. Nimble fingers spread your folds apart, and you hold your breath as he lets his cool spit drip from his lips and land onto your lower ones, then starts sucking over your clit. His tongue is wet and his breath is hot, the combination driving you insane. You grip the comforter, digging into it with your nails to keep yourself grounded.
âOh my god, yes, right thereâ
The praise motivates him to keep trying hard, not that it will take a lot of effort to make you come undone. Donghyuckâs unprecedented touches and the newfound sexual tension they have ignited had already worked you up, his skill in oral accelerating the build up to your climax even more. And just when you thought it couldnât get better than this he starts a series of kitten licks right over your clit, each one sending a wave of pleasure stronger than the one before.
âFuck, Iâm gonna cumâ
Youâre grinding on his face, trying to find the right pace when you finally come undone, thighs shaking and desperately trying to push his hands away to cover up your sensitivity again. His hold is steady and he continues to lick you keenly, the lewd sound of him slurping your wetness filling the room. Your eyes open wide and you can only stare at his white ceiling during your overstimulation, the cracks and crumbling plaster caused from humidity looking like constellations in your orgasm-drunk mind. The second climax hits you suddenly but forcefully, unable to control the volume of your voice, not that you can hear yourself clearly in your daze. Itâs an array of moans and screams and tiny whimpers of Donghyuckâs name, his beautiful symphony coming to life.
His appetite for you is finally satiated, and he decides to take mercy on you and remove his lips from your pulsating heat. You look so beautiful right now, he thinks, skin illuminated by the pale moonlight that is reflected on the wetness dripping from your pussy. He hovers over you again, pulling you into another kiss and you lazily reciprocate. His member is painfully hard, sliding over your slickness. You squirm and yelp everytime the fabric of his underwear grazes against your clit, your nerve endings screaming in sensitivity.
âI donât have a condom on meâ, you whisper against his lips, the taste of yourself on his tongue engaging you in the kiss again.
âIâm too tired to fuck you like you deserve anywaysâ
It would be criminal from you to leave him untouched like that. He looks so hot over you, messy hair and chin glistening in your juices. You absentmindedly place your nails on his collarbones, then scratch your way down over his navel. Donghyuck hisses at the numb stinging of pain, hips buckling against your pussy in the pursuit of some sort of friction.Â
You move your hand even lower, slipping your fingers past the waistband of his boxers. You move past the bristles you find and grasp his member, that is not too long but an impressive girth. You manage to free it from his underwear, and you canât really tell in the dim lighting but you bet it must have turned a purple-ish red colour. Itâs leaking.
âBut we donât have a condomâ
You take one of his hands in yours, giving it a kiss to calm him down, then place it over your left boob. He toys with the mound of your chest, squeezing the softness. You had other plans for him.
Connecting your knees together, you let the softness of your thighs connect, with only maybe a slither of space between them. Your hands are still on Donghyuckâs cock and you reach to hold his balls, massaging them slightly and pulling him towards you.
He takes your cue and leans forward, sliding himself between your thighs. The moan he lets out is guttural and elongated, laced with the beautiful metallic tone of his voice. He lets go of your breasts and wraps his arms around your knees, putting your calves on each of his shoulders and continues to rut his hips against you.Â
âFuck. This feels so goodâ
You look up to see Donghyuckâs face, contorted in a frown that can only be described as desperate, his lips puffy and red from all the licking and kissing and sucking.Â
He looks painfully sexy, and you momentarily imagine all the things you would do to him if the serotonin of your double orgasm and the alcohol in your belly werenât weighing you down. Youâd gladly stay up all night for him, tugging on his long hair as youâd let him bend you in any position he wanted. You bet that thickness would feel amazing stretching you out and you moan at the thought, your thighs flexing involuntarily and making him moan even more.Â
Soon he has picked up his pace, the tip of his cock reappearing between your thighs more frequently and you can feel his thrusts getting sloppier by the second.
âFuck fuck, Iâm comingâ
He suddenly pushes forward, almost collapsing on top of you as a string of satisfactory groans leave his lips. His hips still with a stagger and you entrancingly watch the ropes of white dripping from his cock and landing on your blouse. It was a mess, but you can worry about it in the morning.
Donghyuck fucks your thighs slowly for a little longer, elongating his pleasure for as long as he can and soothing the crescent moons his nails formed on your skin with his fingertips. He reaches one hand to his bedroom floor where he finds a -what you hope is- clean t-shirt, and pats his cum off your blouse as best as he could.
It has gotten late and youâre both exhausted, Donghyuckâs comfortable weight on top of you lulling you to sleep. Heâs hugging your hips now, head resting on your stomach and occasionally kissing your hip bones tenderly. Youâre not sure when you slip out of consciousness but you do hear Donghyuck mumble something against your skin, something the kiss of Morpheus doesnât allow you to make out.
You wake up to a white ceiling. Not just any white ceiling- a cracked, full of moisture pockets ceiling and you wonder when you let the humidity mess up your apartment this much. The culprit of your awakening, the morning sun rays that shine right on your eyes; way too bright than what youâre used to, force your eyelids to open, and it takes you a moment to adjust to the abundant light. This isnât your apartment.
The sight of a man that greets your barely recovered rentinas shocks you, and you rub your eyes just in case youâre stuck in a lucid dream or something. You see the mess of ash blonde hair and the pile of work clothes discarded on the floor and your mind soon is flooded with last nightâs events, buzzed out in your foggy memory. You sense another buzz as well, a physical one this time and you wiggle in place when you feel something hard and metallic digging in your butt. You prod a little with your fingers, trying not to wake up Donghyuck too abruptly and you realise that yes, youâve been sitting on a phone all night.
Shouldnât it be a Tuesday today? Itâs very bright for it to be that early but surely Donghyuck must have set an alarm for the both of you last night. You yawn involuntarily, deciding to play with your phone until he wakes up as well when the bright white display pulls all the blood from your face.
8:40. You have to be at work in 20 minutes.
âDonghyuck! Hyuck!â
You didnât care to make your touches light. They were shoves, really, pushing at his shoulders frantically to get him off of you and pull him out of his slumber. He wakes up with a gasp, trying desperately to keep his balance and failing, to then fall unceremoniously on the floor.
âWhat the hell?â, he groans out with a hoarse, groggy version of his voice, âMy head is poundingâ
âIt will hurt even more once Iâm done with you! You didnât set an alarm last night? Todayâs a work day!â
With his eyes bulging, he launches himself forward, grabbing the phone from your hands.Â
âShit, shit, shitâ. Heâs fully awake now, hands rubbing his face to come up with the next logical steps to take, in order to have you both at work on time and looking presentable. âI have a mouthwash and hairbrush in my bathroom, Iâll get ready hereâ
âAnd what the fuck am I supposed to wear?â
âYesterdayâs clothes? Are you really that concerned about recycling an outfit right now?â
You roll your eyes, pushing your blouse down and dragging his comforter off your body.Â
âDid you forget about this?â
You straighten out the fabric for him to see, and the big, grossly dried out cum stains arenât hard to notice. His face looks worried, but not necessarily apologetic, and you can almost see the scenes from the sex you shared last night play through his eyes like a porn film.Â
âYour skirt is fine, right? Iâll find a shirt that fits youâ
Youâre spitting out the fluorescent blue liquid when he timorously walks in the bathroom to leave the piece of clothing he promised. It smells heavily of those moth-repellent sachets and looks slightly wrinkled, like something he pulled out from the depths of his closet but you donât really have the privilege of playing Suzy Menkes right now. You pull and tuck the fabric in creative ways, in order to style the garment into something you might walk into work wearing one day, yet itâs painfully obvious to you how misfitted it is; too big around the shoulders as one would expect from a manâs shirt.
You exit the bathroom after giving up, pressed by the limited time and the sound of Donghyuckâs uneasy steps through the door. You let him freshen up as well and use the time to collect your things that are scattered all over his place - he was kind enough to bring you your bra that was discarded in his living room floor along with his shirt - and soon you were rushing out of his house and into separate cabs so as not to raise suspicion.
The rest of the day was normal, well- according to this new definition of normalcy for you. Where everything and everyone seems to follow this movie script of what a typical company must look like, while you worry that someone will probe uninvitedly into your thoughts. God knows what they would fish out. A broken record player of Donghyuckâs moans when he cums, the burn of his thick sex rubbing against your thighs, the paths of his neck veins you memorized by heart.Â
You shake your head to clear it from the intrusive thoughts, and click the refresh button of your emails. The sound of keys being tapped and printers being put to use lands you back to reality, and you calmly click on the new incoming message from the Sales Department.
It was Johnny.
Youâd think that after having his dick down your throat for about half a minute, getting butterflies in your stomach from the mere sight of his email address would stop being a recurring event for you. But alas, here they were, tapping their little wings in a flutter that turns into a hurricane of anxiety, and you sarcastically thank the universe for having to deal with Johnny while looking like an 80âs librarian.
You walk up the stairs like your ankleâs dragging a ball and a chain, the piece of paper in your hands getting slightly ripped from the abuse of your nervous fingers. It was a stupid document, barely half filled with any valuable information and you think it canât be worth the calories you burned with that trip. It certainly wasnât worth entering hell, aka mr. Suhâs office, and just the thought of him waiting for you in his fitted suit and gelled back hair is making you light headed. If Johnny was Hades then Donghyuck definitely was Cerberus, guarding his boss with his three heads and his big dick.
You leave a breath out when you realise he isnât there, making your way onto Johnnyâs office with lighter feet. He smiles brightly when he sees you, handsome as ever, and you carefully leave the document on his messy desk.
âWell, isnât it my favourite internâ
You laugh at his sing-song tone, enjoying how warm he was being today.
âYou used to avoid me like the plague and now Iâm your favourite?â
âYou always were my favouriteâ, he winks, and pushes back his hair like he knows the effect it has on you, âIf someone is avoiding anyone like the plague thatâs Donghyuck. I would have sent him to you but I canât find him anywhere.â
You gulp dryly at his words, an invisible awl pinching your chest. You could feel Donghyuck slipping away from every place that you might share, in a very subtle way, but still noticeable from you. He left the kitchen hastily when you walked in to make your coffee, excused himself out of the lunch break through which you always kept him company, and now he was gone as well. Was last night such a big mistake in his point of view?
âIâm kidding, I just wanted to see you.â
He motions you to come closer and you timidly oblige, serenaded by the sound of his voice but not missing the hunger his eyes hold. Heâs still seated in his big leather office chair, thighs spread out in a way that turned you on embarrassingly much, and you fit yourself in the space between his long legs.Â
âHe is very jumpy though, Donghyuck. Do you know what happened to him?â
Your whole body tenses up, muscles hardening defensively. âWhy would I know?â
âI donât know. Itâs just that you guys are so close.â
Close. Close as in having his knee between your thighs, close as in being pushed up against his chest and the elevator mirror. Close as in knowing how his tongue feels massaging your clit.Â
âHave I seen you in that before?â
Youâre confused with the sudden question and when you search for the context you realise heâs talking about your- Donghyuckâs shirt. Did he smell the sex on you? The overwhelming scent of pheromones and Donghyuckâs cologne that your nose just couldnât ignore?
âI donât think soâ, you try to answer as nonchalantly as possible, âitâs new.â
âNoâ, Johnny insists, and pinches the fabric with his fingers. Heâs very knowledgeable about fashion, always complimenting you on your outfit choices and you know he wouldnât let this one go so easily. âIâm sure Iâve seen this before.â
You follow his line of sight towards the ivory fabric too, as if you expected there to be written âYOUR ASSISTANT GAVE ME THE BEST HEAD OF MY LIFE LAST NIGHTâ, in a bright red marker. It was a prison, in the form of 99% cotton and 1% pure anxiety, and you know you had to distract Johnny out of this subject one way or the other.
âYou like it?â, you ask seductively, tucking a stray piece of hair behind his ear.
âIâd like you better without it.â
With just one strong, yet calculated pull he has you sat over the length of his thigh. Your hands land on his chest for stability, right over his pecks that fill your palms easily. Thereâs nothing you want more than to suck on those perfectly sculpted lips of his, but youâre not too faithful on Donghyuckâs mouthwash so you settle for the earlobe that isnât pierced instead.
He loves the feeling, the activation of his erogenous area and the suction of your lips that resembles one of your favourite activities together.
âI like this shirtâ, he starts, unbuttoning your chest into plain view, âand I love this skirtâ
He runs his big hands over the plumpless of your ass, squeezing it then retracting his fingers back on your thighs. Theyâre cold against your burning skin and the contrast causes goosebumps to erupt in the shape of his handprint.
âYou love all my skirts Johnnyâ
âI do. Because I can do thisâ
His fingers roll the hem of your skirt up your thigh, the only thing separating your heat with the smooth fabric of his slacks being your skimpy underwear. Youâre pretty sure the wetness must be transferring to it already, your thoughts of Donghyuck and all the things he could do with you having you desperate for a release. Johnny pets your clit over your panties then, just a light graze of his finger that elicits a moan from you.
Your hips move on their own, slowly humping his thigh that flexes from under you. You grab his tie to help your movement when your pace picks up, enjoying his body heat that coated you.Â
âSomeone might see us.â
His desk chair was large, sure, but so was Johnny, and even though his back was facing the door of his office, no one could mistake the sight of you riding him as anything else.Â
âI told you, Donghyuck keeps disappearing. And it seems like it wonât take you too long to cum with the way you moan like that, right babe?â
âJohnnyâŠâ
You were a whiny mess at this point, humping his leg to reach your high. He was nice enough to help you, his hands guiding you as you mess up all over him, lips stuck on the patch of skin right under your ear.
âYou know, I kind of miss you calling me Mr. Suh.â he whispers as heâs sucking on your neck, and you shiver at the tone of his voice, âWhat do I have to do next time you come over to have you call me like that?â
You canât contain your whimpers anymore, the stinging tears of arousal threatening to roll down your face, so you close your eyes to keep the moisture in. Everything is just too much, the pleasure of your clit rubbing on him, his nails that dig in the flesh of your hips, the heavy suggestions in his words; your orgasm was hanging by a thread and it was a matter of seconds for it to snap. And it did snap, with a bite on your neck, and along with it your eyes snapped open as well.
Donghyuck was staring right back at you.
Your eyes crossed in pleasure, blurry vision making it hard to focus on him. You were falling apart over Johnnyâs body, legs shaking and insides melting with his praise. Donghyuck took the sight in from the opened door, eyes studying your face of pleasure and bare chest decorated with Johnnyâs kisses peeking from his own shirt. Youâd be lying had you dismissed the fact that his presence intensified your orgasm times a hundred. The exposure of your act, the naughtiness of getting caught and by him of all people. You watched as he retreated outside from the office with silent steps, to give you privacy or recover from the embarrassment or both.
And Donghyuck would be lying too, had he said he didnât like the sight. The mere memory of your face all fucked out flushed his own in crimson red. He remembered it all clearly, from your plush lips to Johnnyâs mess of a hair, to the tremble of your body. It refused to leave his mind, the scene of you getting satisfaction from another man, but not because he wanted to erase it. He thought he fit right in, right in that scene between you and his boss. Â
You texted him later that day, apologizing for what he had to witness and promising him you would return the shirt as soon as you washed it. He politely allowed you to keep it, not at all acknowledging the incident from earlier, nor the night you spent together. You didnât have the guts to ask, for you didnât know that Donghyuck didnât regard last night as a mistake, like you thought. He was tired of boiling in the guilt of his feelings, selfishly admitting to himself that he did not regret a single thing. He was into you, he meant every word that came out of his mouth, so why was he avoiding you all day yesterday? He was still the fucking coward.
The next day came rolling along, and with it came a long list of things you wanted to avoid. The first one was arguably dealing with your best friend, the lengthy paperwork you had to fill out being a close second. Â
Your mind was occupied with a plethora of thoughts, with Johnny holding the main spot. Youâd seen him in your sleep last night, starring in the extremely detailed wet dream your brain fabricated for you, hot breaths and deep thrusts forcing you into the disappointing consciousness of todayâs morning.
And the pictures he had sent you right after you decided to get up werenât helping either. His tall, half naked build occupied most of the shot, skin glistening in the after-shower steam. His toothbrush was hanging from his foamy mouth, in an attempt to make the picture look nonchalant, yet you knew his motives. You let your eyes drink up the sight of his defined abdomen, then moved downwards along the dark happy trail that peeked from the towel, loosely hanging from his waist. Hip bones teasing you and all. Just drop the fucking towel Johnny.
Needless to say, you were a mess when you arrived at the office. The cats in heat outside of your window, the phallic shaped baguette your baker generously treated you with this morning; everything seemed to remind you of the heat between your legs that you couldnât bring yourself to ignore. You tried rubbing your thighs, drowning in the paperwork, even locking your phone in one of your drawers so as not to be tempted to look at Johnnyâs thirst trap again. But he had won.
You grab a bunch of documents that seemed important enough, shove them in your favourite binder, and make your way to Johnnyâs office upstairs.Â
You knew you had to deal with Donghyuck. It was the unavoidable repercussion of messing up your life like that, getting men that were too good looking for this boring ass company tangled up in what seemed to be a simple internship. Taking a deep breath, then two more for good measure, you start to strut confidently in a straight line that led to Johnnyâs office door.
âHeâs on call, come back later.â
Your head instinctively turns to the source of the sound, to find Donghyuck staring at the display of his laptop that seemed to be much more interesting than you. The matter-of-fact way he formed his sentences was not unlike him, yet something in you begged for a little bit of attention. Blame it on how horny youâve been all morning, or the fact that now that youâve seen him naked, the strict tone affects you much more than it should.
Bothered by your thoughts and thinking about having to sit back at your office for the rest of the work day, you let the binder slip from your hands and drop on the wooden floor. You lean down to collect the scattered pieces of paper, your heels making it hard for you to keep your balance easily, and soon enough you sense a movement from behind you.
âNo panties huh?â
It was supposed to be a surprise. Payback for the dirty thoughts Johnny planted in your head this morning. Youâd walk in all innocently, sit right across his desk and give him a little Basic Instinct Sharon Stone moment. Then leave him high and dry again, while mentally keeping a note to clear out all your plans for the weekend. But see, he couldnât give you what you wanted after all, and your resolve started to break. Whatever it was you wanted, you wanted it now.
You get up, unfolding your body slowly and refusing to look at Donghyuck, much like he did when you walked inside. The smirk playing on your lips couldnât be concealed through your voice.
âLike what you see?â
You gasp as he presses up against you, the only contact you have with one another being his hard-on that nudges your ass. Following your bodyâs orders, you push back against him too, and you can tell the breath he lets out is ragged and full of tension.
He reaches for your binder with an arm around you, flipping through the pages as he sucks his teeth in disapproval.
âThese are last weekâs reports. Are you really here for these or are you looking for another quickie with Johnny?â A moan escapes you then, and the little thrust that Donghyuck allows himself drives you both crazy. âThought so. How insatiable are you? I made you cum two nights ago, Johnny helped you out yesterday. If you really are that desperate you couldâve just come to me for help, dollâ
His soft palm rests on the front of your thigh, slowly sliding his way under your skirt. You squirm in his hold in anticipation, and you have to bite your tongue to hold in the noises that threaten to leave you.Â
âDonghyuck, Johnny is sitting right through that door. He could come out any minute now and see usâ
âAnd?â
âYour boss is sitting right through that door. You could get firedâ
âI could die after thisâ
His thumb ficks your clit swiftly, and Donghyuck takes this opportunity to slip his other one inside your gaping mouth.
âBut-â
âShh. Donât talk with your mouth full, babyâ
Youâre melting in his hold at this point, your back still resting against his chest, lips sucking his digit. The scent of his cologne that youâve grown so familiar with overwhelms you, painting all your surroundings in a red tint of lust.
âSpread your legs for meâ. You oblige with his orders immediately, your arousal not allowing you to keep him waiting. âWiderâ.
You take a quick look behind your shoulder to check that the door is still, indeed, closed, only to be met face to face with Donghyuck. His breath is hot against your face, eyes locked on his thumb toying with your lower lip and you completely forget what you initially turned around for. The kiss was natural, your lips melding easily with his ones. The need for him washes over you like a heatwave and you lift your skirt to urge him to continue before you go insane.Â
He gets the hint and moves his hand lower, middle finger tracing your opening ever so slightly. It makes you shiver and you realise how quiet the room has fallen, the only source of sound coming muffled through the closed door to Johnnyâs office. It excites you and it must show through the wetness between your lower lips, and Donghyuck patiently collects it all. He transfers the moisture over the bud of your clit, his finger smoothly massaging the sensitive skin. It feels divine and thereâs no way youâd ask him to stop yet you know thereâs something else Donghyuck is after, the sweet tightness that he didnât get to experience that night at his apartment.
It was a bit much to fuck you out there like that, even for his exhibitionistic tendencies, but nothing could stop him from feeling the next best thing.Â
His first finger enters you unhurriedly, careful of your reactions. You moan out his name and he moans at how tight you are, soft pussy practically sucking his finger in. He soon enters his ring finger as well, slowly moving them inside you until you feel every stretch and curl. Your wetness starts to drip at this point, coating his fingers with your juices.
âSuch a dirty girl, making all this mess at my officeâ
The leisure pace ruins you, your eyes shut close in search of patience. You feel his other palm move from under your skirt as well, resting flat against your lower abdomen. He wants to feel himself inside you.
âDonghyuck, please. Moreâ
A chuckle is heard from your left ear, and you can vividly imagine how his face must look like now. The cocky smirk, the tongue poking the inside of his cheek. The next pump has you muffling your whimpers with the back of your fist, his fingers curling just right and fucking straight into your g-spot.Â
âMore? Look at you. Pretty slut.âÂ
Heâs full on finger fucking you now, and swallowing your moans is gradually becoming more and more difficult. The world crumbles from under your feet and you let yourself get carried away in the intense pleasure, the fast pumping making your legs shake.
âYouâre gonna cum?â, he whispers again, and you can only respond with a nod, âThatâs my fucking girlâ
The orgasmâs intense, shaking you as you bite your hand and hold onto Donghyuck for extra support. He continues to move his fingers afterwards, drawing out your euphoria for as long as he can, then finally leaves you empty once your moans have died down. You immediately cover yourself up again once you sober up from your high, suddenly embarrassed by Donghyuckâs intense stare. Heâs moving his eyes through all the features of your face, only for them to fall frozen on your lips, and lifts his hand up to rest his two fingers over them. You get his initiative and put them in your mouth, tasting yourself on your tongue.
âUnless you want us both to get fired I think you should go back to your office. I donât think I can contain myself around youâ
You release his digits with a pop, your eyes full of seduction. Â
âWhat would you do to me?â
Donghyuck growls at your question, turning you around so that youâre fully face to face and chest to chest.Â
âYouâd look so pretty on your knees, mouth full of cockâ. He grabs a handful of your ass, bringing you flush against him and proceeds to grind his painfully hard dick between your thighs. Your noses touch and you feel dizzy at the proximity; the words he mutters against your cum coated lips. âIâd peel those clothes off of you, find the nearest mirror. Stretch you out against the glass so that you see how good you take it.â
You shiver as a response, then force yourself to put some distance between you before you do something stupid. He kindly helps you collect your things in silence, those useless documents that were laying scattered on the floor, and in a moment of weakness you let him pin you against the wall right before you go.There was something so addictive about him and your chemistry, and your lips burn at the memory of his kisses. Youâre not sure how much longer you can contain that hunger anymore.
The end of a shift and the beginning of another overtime. It felt like deja vu at this point, after all the countless extra hours youâve put into the internship, seeing people grab their briefcases and their car keys as they empty the space around you. You take a moment to appreciate the view of the setting sun from the small window of your office, inhaling deeply as you wrap the hair thatâs been bothering you in a ponytail. Your neck hurts and the tension of your body is translating into a dull pain, so you stretch it a little, bobbing your head from side to side.
You jump a little in your seat when you feel a set of hands on your shoulder blades. They massage the sore spots, treating the muscle knots and helping your blood flow freely. It was obvious Donghyuck didnât have enough of you earlier, and you pout at having to turn down another visit to his apartment because of your overtime duties.Â
You were ready to scold him off, tell him youâre busy and that you promise to make it up for him another time, when you feel his soft lips kissing the most sensitive spot on the slope of your neck. You let out a long sigh, subconsciously exposing your neck more for him, and a high pitched whine rumbles in your chest. Itâs released as a moan of Donghyuckâs name.
âDonghyuck?!â
You freeze in the uncomfortable arch, your ears confused by the deepness of the voice belonging to the man behind you. Not even the confusion laced in it can cover up the lack of airiness and clarity youâre used to when it comes to Donghyuckâs tone. Itâs Johnny.
âI⊠We-â
Youâre left speechless, clueless as to what to say next. You know you donât have to explain yourself, itâs not like you and Johnny are exclusive. Yet his shocked face at the sound of his assistantâs name coming so lewdly off your lips has your brain scrambling to find some sort of explanation. Thankfully, heâd interrupt your panic in a second.
âThe big boss wants you upstairs. I offered to come get you.â
He doesnât sound angry or upset, nor disappointed. Itâs a fresh air of relief before you realize that this is not what you should worry about right now. What the hell does the CEO of the company want to talk to you about? Are you getting the boot? It must be it, but why? Your numbers have been great, youâre always on time - except that one morning, but technically it was Donghyuckâs fault - and youâve been praised by your supervisor numerous times during your internship.
Unless- What if thereâs cameras in the office?Â
You start to panic at the thought of an involuntary sex tape become the cause of your dismissal, so caught up in your thoughts that youâre completely unaware youâve spent the entire trip up the stairs with Johnny in silence. When you enter the CEOâs office, heartbeat echoing loudly in your ears, you notice that all of the departmentâs supervisors are present in the impromptu meeting as well. You sit next to Johnny, in an attempt to calm yourself down, and you see the head of your department send you an encouraging smile.
âShall we start?â
A briefing of your work in the company ensued, numbers and graphs that wouldnât make sense to anyone other than the people in the room. Thirty minutes have passed and no surveillance tape has been whipped out, turning you more confused than ever. The numbers were good, the words from your supervisor are complimentary, so why would they fire you?Â
âThat is all for the briefing. After seeing your progress and the contribution youâve made to the company, weâve decided to offer you a permanent position, if youâd be interested of courseâ
Oh my god. You canât believe this day finally came. Your face was glowing, and you tried to convince yourself to stay calm while you talked about your new position and the raise in salary that came with it. With shaky hands you sign the documents, and your boss congratulates you once again, dismissing you off your overtime.Â
You waited for everyone to leave the hallway before jumping in Johnnyâs arms. He caught you easily, strong build supporting you and lifting your feet off the ground before landing you safely again.
âGood job intern, Iâm so proud of youâ
âHey, Iâm not an intern anymore!â, you complain by bumping his chest with your fist and he pats your head lovingly in return.
âWhy did you have to be in the room as well? Did you know about my promotion?â
âNo, actually, they just told me an hour ago. It was hard to keep myself from telling you everything right away.â
The excitement coursed through you, and a sudden urge to kiss him until your lips were numb overwhelmed you. You were ready to turn your thoughts into reality, when you saw Donghyuck from the corner of your eye, instinctively smiling at your obvious happiness.
âWhatâs the occasion?â
âI got promoted!â
Donghyuck gasped, a huge smile spreading across his face. Your excitementâs contentious so he tackles you without a second thought, his embrace so tight that you can barely breathe. You can see that heâs trying his best to contain a kiss, his glance moving back and forth between you and Johnny. He still kept a possessive hand around your waist once he let you down however, a gesture that could seem innocent yet you knew better.
Johnny smirks at the sight of you two, confidence dripping off his body and making you shiver. You get dizzy at the thought of Donghyuck not knowing that Johnny knows about you, yet Donghyuck knowing about Johnny but not giving a fuck.
âSo how do we celebrate?â, the older man asks, with a playful tone that might as well be your active imagination.
âWanna go for a drink?â, Donghyuck suggests, boldly keeping his eyes at you only while he does so.
You pout in thought, humming pensively when an idea pops into your head.Â
âHow about you come over my place for one?â
You should have thought this through more thoroughly, is all you can think about as youâre trapped between Johnny and Hyuck on your couch. Well, not really- there is a sizable distance between you three, yet the atmosphere in the room is so dense itâs nearly palpable. Three glasses, half-full of the alcohol of their choice are sitting on the coffee table in front of you, and you awkwardly stare at the sweat that falls from your glass and forms rings on the wooden surface.Â
Your body has loosened up from your drink yet your heart canât stop racing, not when Donghyuck is looking at you like that. He looks like a man starved for days while youâre the meal presented deliciously in his armâs reach, and he canât wait to have you alone and curve his growing appetite. And you ignore Johnnyâs cheeky smiles and flirtatious winks as well, carrying on a conversation that doesnât belong in the inescapable tone of the room but flows easily, until it ends and youâre met with heavy silence and the ticking analog clock on your wall again.
You ask them if they would like some water, getting up before you receive an answer, and you yelp a little when you feel a strong arm halting your trip to the kitchen before it even started. You lose your balance and wobble a little in your spot before unceremoniously landing on Johnnyâs lap.
He doesnât help you up, but loops and arm around your waist instead, holding you in place. In circumstances other than the ones that have already made their mark on your sexual history, staying in this position with his assistant still in the room would be highly inappropriate.
âYouâre all we needâ, he reassures you with a voice made of silk, then repositions you with a jerk of his knee, your heat grinding right against his half hard member.
âWhen were you gonna tell me?â
You open and close your mouth sequentially like a fish out of water, choking out a reply after the insistent tick-tock that resonates through the room and gives a tempo to your anxiety.
âIâm sorry?â
âYou know what Iâm talking about. A little birdy told me Iâm not the only one enjoying this perfect little body. Is that right Donghyuck?â
Donghyuckâs eyes bulged out of his skull, almost choking in the sip of the drink he was enjoying when the unexpected question hit him. Sizzling heat floods your face as he stares at you sternly, and you shake your head defensively.
âI didnât tell him-â
âWell no, not exactlyâ, Johnny interrupts and places his big hands over your thighs, âI was just kissing her neck, trying to get her to relax, and lo and behold, she starts moaning your name like its a fucking reflex. Youâve really gotten into her head, apparentlyâ
Donghyuck swells up in pride, that much is evident, yet heâs way too distracted to say anything in response, too busy staring at Johnnyâs fingers spreading your thighs apart to expose your damp underwear. Johnnyâs lips are planted on your neck, teeth nibbling on your earlobe and you wince when you feel the sharp sting of a slap on your inner thigh.
âYou arenât being a good hostess, baby. Open up your legs more, let Hyuck see your pretty pussy. You remember what word to say when you want me to stop, right?â You whimper the designated safe word while opening your thighs further, digging the heels of your feet in the couchâs pillows. âGood girlâ
He dips a hand through the band of your underwear, busying his fingers under the fabric. You moan as they slide through the wetness and he smiles a cocky smile when he sees Donghyuck palming himself through his slacks. He removes the skimpy thong with the help of your hips moving to assist him, to then push the fabric inside your mouth with little to no resistance from you.
âIsnât this pussy divine? I swear when I bottomed out inside of her the first time I thought I lost my damn mindâ
He toys with your opening, only dipping half a finger in to challenge Donghyuck to pay attention.
âWe havenât actuallyâŠâ
âShe only let you play with her?â, Johnny teases him, then pushes his point and middle finger all the way inside you, making his assistantâs imagination run wild at what your pussy must feel like sucking him in. âYouâre missing out manâ
âIâve made her cum probably twice as many times as youâve ever haveâ
You chuckle at his smart remark and Johnny glares at you, softly slapping your pussy to keep you at bay.
âNo one addressed you. Youâll get to make all the noise you want in a sec, babyâ
You squirm in place, letting out a muffled apology through your gag and Donghyuck looks seriously affected by the sight.
âIsnât she obedient?â, Johnny asks while grazing your g-spot, and you moan from both the praise and the stimulation.
Hyuck unbuttons his pants at the lewd sound, pulling his dick from the slit of his boxers and you admire his impressive girth. He lets his body decline comfortably on the pillows behind him, spreading his own legs at shoulder-length. The mouth-watering sight of him jerking himself slowly with the aid of his precum clouds your vision; youâre just as needy for him as he is for you.
âSheâs a little bratâ
âI guess I know how to make her listenâ. Johnny lifts your dress over your hips, then helps you off of it through the hem. With a rehearsed flick of his fingers he discards your bra as well, leaving you completely naked for Donghyuckâs eyes to feast on. His hands immediately grope your breasts, playing with the mounds and putting on a show. âI could undress you over and over and over againâ
You feel his fingers retract from inside your pussy to form a âVâ over your lower lips, making your hole even more visible along with the wetness thatâs dripping out of it.
âWill you let Donghyuck use your pussy baby? I feel a little greedy using it all on my ownâ
You groan in the anticipation and let your head fall back on Johnnyâs shoulder, nodding pathetically and mumbling through your thong.
âOh god, yes, yes, yesâ
Donghyuck has heard enough, and with Johnny urging him on heâs standing half naked in front of you in seconds. His boxers are discarded next to his trousers on the floor, tie hanging loosely from the collar. He still has a hand wrapped around his angry sex, red tip and veiny details making you swoon.
âGo onâ, Johnny encourages him, âsheâs more than wet enoughâ
Donghyuck rests his left knee on the cushion of the couch, right between your foot and Johnnyâs thigh. A little foiled square is getting ripped by his nimble fingers and you bewitchedly watch him wrap up his cock. He slaps it over your entrance a couple times, coming in contact with the other manâs fingers that are still keeping you fully exposed, then finally thrusts himself inside you. A conglomerate of what seems like three different curses leave his lips, eyebrows furrowed in a pleasureful expression.
âFuckâ
âTight, isnât she?â
âSo fucking tight baby, damnâ
Johnny may have a cock so lengthy that most men are envious of, yet Donghyuckâs girth is really something else. It stretches you out more than you've had in months, dull pain getting numb with every release of serotonin from your brain. You almost cry when he removes the entire thing out of you.
âI have to feel that againâ
And indeed he does, submerging himself in the tightness of your walls only his fingers had the privilege of experiencing thus far. You feel amazing wrapped up around him, pussy hot and burning in desire as he dips himself further inside you, pushing you up against Johnnyâs chest. You hiss in the sting and whimper softly, prompting the man behind you to ungag you finally.
âWhat is it baby? Hyuckieâs dick is too big for your tight little hole?â
You nod affirmatively while keeping eye contact with the man mentioned, big glossy eyes awakening something dark inside him. He wants to ruin you.
âMaybe you donât fuck her hard enoughâ
You canât see Johnny from the way youâre seated but you know he must have a smile on his face, well aware of the confidence he possesses for his own abilities in the bedroom. His big hands leave your labia and make their way over to your calves, bending you in a way that is almost painful.
âHow about you show me how itâs done, then?â
Donghyuck is always up for a challenge, so he wraps a hand loosely around your throat so as to gain leverage. He pulls his hips backwards, gaining momentum, then slaps them forcefully against your own. You moan loudly at the depth, hands scrambling to find something to hold on to as heâs nailing you against the couch. Johnnyâs there to catch your sounds with his lips, eating them up eagerly as he slips his tongue inside you and continues to play with your nipples.Â
âIs that hard enough for you?â
Continuing his brutal pace restlessly, Donghyuck tightens his grasp around your neck, enough to hamper your blood flow and drool around the other manâs mouth. Youâre so out of it at this point, dirty sound after another leaving your lips and you gasp at Johnnyâs fingers that are suddenly circling around your clit.
âIâm close, pleaseâ, you manage to whimper from between them, Hyuckâs pace only fastening in the sound of your plea. The tip of his cock, thick like the rest of him, grazes against your sensitive spot again and again, not missing a single thrust. He digs a thumb in the softness of your cheek, pulling you away from Johnny and connecting his forehead with yours. By the sounds of his grunts it wonât take long until he comes as well.
âMade just for meâ, he whispers against your lips, and you gasp when you feel the heat overflowing in your sex area, vision blurry as you let go and scream in complete pleasure. Donghyuck basks in the confirmation of how good heâs made you feel, hips stuttering as he empties his cum in you and inside the condom. His thigh muscles may be contracting in tiredness yet he doesnât halt his movements, milking your orgasm for all its worth. Youâre basically putty in Johnnyâs lap at this point, sex drunk and high from your release. Â
âNot badâ, he admits, even though he had some credit to claim with the fast fingerwork he showed earlier. He holds your thighs again, closing them up to help you relax and you wince at the pain in your haunch, the result of staying in a flexibility-demanding position for so long.
You wait until your heartbeat slows down, turning around to face Johnny as Donghyuck ties up and discards the used condom. He sends you a warm smile, petting the messy hair out of your line of sight and you relax in the feeling of safety, batting your eyes up at him cutely.
âWhat about you?â, you practically meow, moaning softly as you feel his boner twitching from beneath his trousers.
âWhat about me? Didnât you have enough?âÂ
He knows your appetite, knows thereâs no way youâd be satisfied by one round only. And how could you, when he sits so deliciously from under you, his big body reeling you in. You know what he wants to hear.
âPlease, Johnnyâ, you plead, playing with the thin tie still neatly keeping his shirt in place. âI need youâ
âYou need what?â, he growls against your lips, trying to coax as much desperation out of you as possible.
âI need your big cock inside me, pleaseâ
âAss upâ
You get up from your seat, complying with his commands and getting on your knees before your tired legs betray you and leave you a mess on the floor. His hands cup your ass in admiration, giving it a little spank before he slides them over your dorsals. A careful push forces you to arch your back even more, and your cheeks burn at the eager position he has bent you in. You shiver when his cock enters you halfway.
âYouâre still not used to me babe?â
âItâs not my fault that youâre so fucking big, Johnnyâ
âThen maybe I should stay still? Since you canât take it?â
âNo!â, you oppose, tears of frustration threatening to spill out of their ducts, âI can take it, just move!â
You howl as he bottoms out, his long length making you lose your mind. Itâs been a while since youâve had anything more than his fingers and youâve missed the way he fits inside of you. You hear shuffling from behind you and soon heâs bending over you, wrapping his tie around your neck. With a pull youâre flush against his chest again, and the buttons of his shirt are already leaving little indentations on your skin. You wish it bruises.
âDo you remember what I wanted you to call me the other day?â, he whispers next to the shell of your ear, dark tone sending shivers down your spine.
âMr. Suhâ
âExactly. Now will you let me fuck you the way I want?â
âYes sirâ
âWhat a good girlâ
Johnny slams into you fully, every pull of his hips resulting in the restriction of your airflow. A game of wanting more of him and sacrificing your oxygen for it begins, and it doesnât take long for you to turn completely into a submissive mess for him. Heâs whispering filth in your ears, hips keeping their inhuman tempo until youâre all out of energy and fall nonvocal. Donghyuck gets hard again at the sight.
It doesnât go unnoticed by Johnny, who is more than willing to share your body for the pleasure heâs after- at least part of it. He waits until the younger manâs dick is fully solid in his grasp, standing tall and red right in front of you and he lets go of the constraint of your neck without notice.
You fall face first on Donghyuckâs thick thighs, his quick reflexes catching you from a harder impact. His member is twitching right next to your face, tip grazing against your left temple and he helps your head up by wrapping your hair in a makeshift ponytail that his fingers hold together. You wrap your lips around his tip obediently, twirling your tongue around his member until you reach his hairy base. He tastes a bit rubbery from the condom earlier but you choose to ignore it, focusing on hollowing your cheeks around him instead.
Every hard thrust of Johnnyâs propels you forward onto Donghyuckâs cock, the bobbing motion natural yet you struggle to take them both inside you. Donghyuck enjoys the vibrations of the moans you make when the other man hits a deep spot in your pussy, Johnny groans when you clench around him as Donghyuck abuses your throat. Itâs a give and take of intense pleasure and you know you canât take much more, the menâs moans growing louder with every thrust.Â
âDo you like Hyuckâs cock needy baby? Have you finally had enough?â
He punctuates each word with a slam, one harder than the other, and the rope inside your belly snaps with the arrival of your second orgasm. You try your hardest to stay in place, beg your thighs not to let you collapse as you let Johnny drive you into overstimuation.
âYes, sir. I love itâ
Johnny grunts at the sound of his title, so dirty coming muffled by another manâs dick that itâs enough to send him over the edge. You feel the hot cum filling up the condom inside you, and his spurts take so long that the little tweaks coax another orgasm from you.
Donghyuck drinks up the scene unveiling in front of him, a steady hand forcing your jaw open as he starts to jerk off quickly over your face.
âI want to see your tongue covered in my cumâ
You lick your lips seductively in response, opening your mouth up to welcome his ropes of white liquid that leave his slit a second after. They fill your mouth little by little, painting the inside of it and you hold your tongue out to show him his creation, a couple of drops dripping from the corners before you swallow as much as you can. He collects whateverâs left on your jaw, pushing it in and letting you suckle on his thumb dumbly before letting go.
You collapse on the couch, exhausted after giving all that your body could handle after a work day, and you sit in silence as Johnny massages your feet and Donghyuck kisses your neck to calm you down. Your head hurts from the sex and the possibilities that this new combination can bring to your love life, belly tingling in excitement at the same time. You donât know where this will lead, or when will be the next time youâll indulge in the company of the both of them stuck on your body. All that you know is that this promotion, at least the celebration of it, tastes really, really sweet.Â
thank you for reading †feedback is much appreciated! If you liked Promotion you can check out Work for it to see where it all started! :)Â
#neosmutcollective#neowritingsnet#johnny suh#johnny suh smut#lee haechan#haechan smut#donghyuck smut#johnny suh x reader#haechan x reader#nct smut#nct#nct 127#nct dream#johnny seo smut#johnny seo#johnny nct smut#haechan nct smut#nct dream smut
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
â made to be together.
PAIRING: adopted father! sakusa x adopted daughter! reader; sakusa x mentioned wife (beginning)
GENRE: smut, dark content
WORD COUNT: 5.3k
SUMMARY: after trying so hard to get his wife pregnant so many times, sakusa is done and coming to the conclusion that his wife would never give him children. already fed up with trying and getting his hopes up, the two decided to adopt a child to avoid getting disappointed again. in the midst of searching for a daughter, he didnât expect to find a sweet little thing he wonât be able to resist.
WARNING: pseudo-incest, age-gap (10+), smut, dark themes, unhealthy relationships, daddy kink, manipulative tendencies, implied miscarriages, creepy and asshole! sakusa, cheating, unprotected.sex, .dubcon, virginity loss, delusional! reader, narcissistic! sakusa, 17-18 years old! reader at the beginning but then turns 18+ when smut is happening
AUTHORâS NOTE: MERRY CHRISTMAS HOES! tis a present from me~ first dark content fic and my first long fic after 2-3 months of hiatus! but iâm still excited! if you donât like content like this just ignore this then. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE A MINOR OR UNCOMFORTABLE WITH DARK THEMES. if you donât like content like this, just block the tag tw.darkcontent,, READ WITH CAUTION!
REMINDER: this is not love and i do not condone this type of behavior. be smart on the internet. if you donât like it just click away, no need to hate. you are responsible for your time on the internet.
âshitâ sakusa cursed as he sat on the bed, hands running up and down his face in stress and anger. his wife bit her lip at the sight of her husband getting angry. she called out with her small voice, trying to lighten up the mood and chirped. âw-we can try again, yoomi.. we have all the time in the world-âÂ
sakusa stood up, his beautiful wifeâs words trailing off. he looked at her with a scowl, âand how many times more do we need to keep trying? itâs your fault, for fucks sake. always fucking it up and losing the damn child.â the glare on his dark eyes was enough to shut the timid woman up. sakusa saw how she was trying to make herself small in the large king size bed and scoffed.Â
he then exited to go to the connected bathroom in their bedroom, leaving his wife with her self-destructive thoughts as she blamed herself for always stressing her husband out. it was her fault that the man was angry and sakusa makes sure she knows that. it was her fault that she canât get pregnant. all of those time trying and money spent for vacations wasted because she canât even do what normal women do.Â
quickly wiping the pesky tears that run down her soft cheeks not wanting her husband to see it because she knows how sakusa doesnât like it when she plays the victim.Â
sakusa washed his hands on the sink, gritting his teeth in irritation. shutting the running water off and quickly wiping his hands on a clean towel he puts on the sink, he stared at his reflection. dark eyes trailed down his features.Â
it wasnât his fault. it was his wifeâs. he is a capable man. he can do anything. he is not at fault here. how can he be? heâs perfect. heâs handsome. heâs rich. athletic. at his prime and can do anything his mind tells him to.Â
âw-we can try other things...â sakusa heard his wifeâs timid voice call out. his wife, such a delicate woman. a pathetic one too at that.Â
the man rolled his eyes and moved to enter their shared room again. âwhat other things, misa?âÂ
the woman tried to smile, but her lips were too wobbly and shaky. âwe can always a-adopt, right?âÂ
sakusa scowled at the suggestion. adopt? raise another manâs child? what kind of bullshit was that. that was the stupidest thing his wife ever came up with and thatâs saying something.Â
âi-i know what youâre t-thinking.. but uhm.. we can always just look around and see if you like them?â misa trailed off, her voice scared and small when sakusa only continued to stare down at her.Â
âfine.âÂ
this is stupid and a waste of time. why is he even here? in this place filled with vermin and shitty things? oh thatâs right. because of his wife, whoâs stupid enough to suggest they go to an orphanage.Â
dark eyes glared at the children playing on the courtyard. hate and shame filled sakusaâs being. why canât he just have children of his own. tsk, of course the woman he chose to be with has to be utterly useless. sakusa scoffed at his thoughts and followed his wife. she was quite excited if he guessed correctly. her soft eyes observed the dirty children around them.Â
âhello, welcome! welcome! come inâ an old woman greeted them by the door, her smile wide and happy. the couple entered the large building much to sakusaâs dismay.Â
âthank you so much for having usâ sakusa heard misa said softly in front of him as he looked around the place and grunted in disgust when he saw the dusty windows. it was a good thing that he always wears a mask, other people are too inadequate to be trusted and they canât even clean the damn place right.Â
the headmistress smiled at the lovely woman in front of her then turned her gaze to the tall stoic man behind her. the two were in their separate world while the man ignored them.Â
the older woman chuckled wearily making misa copy her in nervousness. the woman then toured them around the building, introducing little kids that might capture their attention but sakusa couldnât care less. they wonât be adopting. he wonât take a little vermin into his house only for them to disturb his safe place.
sakusa grunted in boredom, making his wifeâs attention snap to him. wide nervous and questioning eyes stared up at him.Â
âiâm going to stay in the car.â he grumbled and walked away, leaving misa with the headmistress, not even waiting for her response.Â
he left the building, the noise inside now was a muffled sound making him sigh in relief and irritation. sakusa climbed down the stairs of the porch, rolling his shoulders and groaned when his joints cracked satisfyingly. when he reached the bottom, he looked around and realized that it wasnât where he parked his car.Â
âfor fuckâs sake.â cursing under his breath, he was about to go back inside when he noticed something or someone at the corner of his eye.Â
he stood there in awe, looking at the most beautiful creature he has ever saw. you sat on the bench in the garden while flowers and trees accompanied you. you looked so picturesque and ethereal with your long (h/c) hair down in a braid on your shoulder and your white prim and immaculate dress.Â
sakusa continued to look at you, loving the contrasting moment with you and the building where he hears the muffled noises inside. with you, it was quiet, peaceful.Â
the man snapped out of it, scolding himself for ogling at a young girl. that was a new low and sakusa kiyoomi does not do low. he wasnât the type of guy whoâs creepy and fucking disgusting. he was above that.Â
sakusa scowled and moved to enter the building again but then the door opened and in came into view was his wife and the headmistress. his wife stared at him in shock but quickly replaced it with a soft smile.
âyoomi... good timing, the headmistress was just going to introduce me to someoneâ his wife said, sliding down a hand to grasped his making him cringe in disgust but his wife was already used to that.Â
the headmistress cleared her throat, seeing the awkward interaction, and smiled at the couple then to the garden where you were sitting at as you read.Â
â(y/n) dear? where are you? i would like you to meet someoneâ the older woman called out and sakusa saw you perk up from your seat and smile at the headmistress.Â
when you smiled, it felt like you just knocked the air out of his lungs and all he could think of is how to make you smile again, this time directed at him.Â
you walked ever so gracefully and stopped when you were just merely a couple of feet away from him. from this distance, sakusa could smell the fresh scent of flowers that followed you.Â
âdear, this is mr. and mrs. sakusa, theyâre here to look for a childâ the headmistress cooed at you while you smiled at her then turned to the couple, greeting them like the good girl you are.Â
âhello, mr. and mrs. sakusa. i hope youâve been successful in your searchâ your voice was a melodic chime, a sweet and alluring call like a siren, pulling him closer and closer.Â
your big doe eyes then locked with dark ones. sakusa didnât realize how beautiful the color (e/c) was until he saw it in your eyes. he just found his new favorite color.Â
âthe headmistress told me so much about you, (y/n). and i do hope it is successful as wellâ his wife giggled softly, looking at you.Â
the older woman smiled at the couple and then turned to you, âgo on, dear. go to your roomâÂ
you raised a brow at that when you heard the line the headmistress uses when the children are about to get adopted. confused but also happy, you nodded and bid the couple goodbye.Â
when you were out of sight, the headmistress then asked, âwhat do you think of (y/n)? sheâs very smart. sheâs a well-mannered girl and she helps the churchâÂ
sakusa furrowed his brows in confusion then looked to his smiling wife who was quick to explain, âi suggested to the headmistress that it would be nicer to have an older childâÂ
âan older child...âÂ
the headmistress then cut in, seeing the tension that was rising between the couple, âan older child might be better, sir. mrs. sakusa told me that you and her have a very busy scheduleâÂ
his wife nodded and smiled at the headmistress, âsheâs perfect...â the older woman nodded as well, smiling brightly and bid them a small farewell to relay the news to you.Â
âwhat the hell are you thinking, misa? have you gone crazyâ sakusa glowered at his wife making her flinch.Â
ïżœïżœïżœi-... i want her yoomi! sheâs perfect, isnât she? and with o-our busy schedule, she can fit right inâ misa argued, she really needed the company.Â
sakusa always leaves her alone and when he does get home, all he does is belittle her. reminding her of her shortcomings as a wife, as a person... she needed someone... someone who can be her safe haven.
you sat inside the car, looking out of the window, happy that you were finally adopted. in the midst of your happy thoughts, you didnât notice the constant shifting gaze to you by your new dad on the rear view mirror.Â
misa turned to you from the passenger seat with a smile, âiâm so happy that youâre here, (y/n).âÂ
you smiled back at your new mom and nodded, âiâm very happy as wellâÂ
the beautiful woman grinned at you and nodded back then sat normally again, humming a cheery tune under her breath. sakusa shifted his eyes again on the mirror to look at you. suppressing the shiver that ran down his spine when you caught him staring as you smiled at him, he ignored you and looked back to the road again.Â
you let your smile fall when you saw the cold reaction the man gave you but quickly shrugged it off and looked back again to the window to watch the buildings go by.Â
when you finally arrived at your new home, you gaped at the huge house. clearly, your new parents are rich. filthy rich at that. misa giggled at your expression making you snap out of your thoughts as you looked away in embarrassment at being caught while sakusa scoffed and exited the car, leaving you and misa alone.Â
misa frowned at her husband but quickly smiled back at you, reassuringly, âdonât worry, (y/n)... your new daddy... heâs just a bit reserved and quiet...âÂ
you knew for sure that the man hated you or something. well, maybe hate is a strong word but youâre sure that he doesnât like you. you nodded at misa with a small smile.Â
âletâs go, sweetie?â misa exited the car as well making you follow her. you gaped at the sheer size of the house as some people went out of the house, greeting your new dad that ignored them and went to the car to get your things.Â
you were about to help them but your mom quickly held your hand. misa smiled at you and led you inside, âitâs okay, sweetie. letâs just get you settled in, okay?âÂ
still a little awkward, you nodded and followed misa. your new home was stunning. it was spectacular! you knew you were lucky enough to get adopted at your age but adopted by a family thatâs rich? it was amazing!
misa led you to your room as you looked at the large room in awe, admiring it. the beautiful woman giggled at you. you were like a breath of fresh air to her. it was always so silent, filled with tense atmosphere in the house but with you and your innocent energy, it was like she was in a different world now.Â
âi guess you like it, sweetie?âÂ
you turned back to her and nodded with a huge smile, âitâs beautiful, miss. thank youâ
misa pouted at your words making you think you have said something offensive, âmiss? you can call me mom! iâm your mommy now after all!â her tone was youthful and happy.Â
you nodded, âthank you, mommyâÂ
misa glowed at your words, eyes getting teary. you tried to go closer to her, worried but the beautiful woman only smiled at you and held the door, âiâll let you settle in, sweetie. call me if you need something, okay? kiyoomiâs and my room is just around the cornerâ and then she shut the door.Â
you smiled at the door, remembering your new mom. she mustâve been lonely. her eyes showed so much emotions.Â
the couple was very busy, now you know why they didnât adopt a younger child. also your mom was an absolute sweetheart. she was busy with her job but she always tried to make time for you. you two always bonded when she gets home. even though you can see that she was very tired, she always talked to you before going to bed.Â
your mom was lonely. your daddy wasnât home at all. you barely even see him and when you do see him, he never really acknowledges you. like that one time you greeted him on the way to the kitchen.Â
you were going down the stairs and saw your daddy going up, to clean up you guessed. you smiled at him when he noticed you and chirped happily at him, âgood morning, daddy!âÂ
the only response you got was a sharp inhale and then he was out of sight. you frowned at his cold response but you didnât mind. your mommy said that it was quite normal and it takes time for your daddy to warm up to someone.Â
but it has already been years since then and the only real conversation you had with him was when you asked if he could drive you to school because your usual driver was sick.Â
you tried everything to make him like you. it was weird. you didnât know why you want to be closer to him. you want him to look at you. his dark eyes locked with yours. you want to feel him. and it was making you feel sick with how desperate you are for the older man. it wasnât right but you just couldnât help it. the way he looked at you made you felt needed.
for the past years, sakusa was being tortured by his own mind. the sound of your voice follows him wherever he goes. your scent stuck on his skin when you hug him goodbye. your presence was like a ghost, haunting him. taunting him.Â
heâs really trying to keep these feelings at bay but as years go by, you are starting to grow into a fine young woman. more curves appearing in your body, an alluring slope as your hips grew that sakusa desperately wanted to grip. thick thighs that was usually covered by thigh highs. lips so plump and red.Â
everything about you was so perfect that it made sakusa want you more than ever. he wants you to want him too. he wants you to depend on him. call him with that soft teasing voice as you cry out the fucking name that makes him tick every time, âdaddy~âÂ
sakusa groaned at his thoughts and held his head in his hands as he sat on the bed. you two were alone in this huge ass house. misa was out for a week because of her job and the thought of being alone with you makes him jumpy and his emotions in a messy whirlpool of madness.Â
thoughts of how he can just fuck you right now makes his cock twitch in his sweats.Â
he sighed in irritation, trying to think of something else because if he keeps this up heâll only make himself horny and bothered and that doesnât sound very enjoyable.Â
a knock caught his attention. he looked at the door with a frown and answered, âwho is it?âÂ
âitâs me, daddyâÂ
for fuckâs sake. why canât you just leave him alone? if you keep this up, sakusa wonât be able to keep his emotions at bay and might do something thatâs frowned upon by society.Â
âwhat is itâÂ
the door opened and you stood by the door, your glossed red lips curled into a shy smile. sakusaâs dark eyes trailed down to your body, youâre just so beautiful he canât help himself. a thin singlet and short shorts hugged your gorgeous figure.
you are a goddess incarnate in his eyes. so immaculate. you were calling out to him like the snake in the garden of eden, tempting him to just bite the forbidden fruit already.
â-dy? daddy? are you okay?â sakusaâs eyes snapped back to your face. you looked worried. he sighed tiredly and nodded.
âdo you need something?âÂ
you bit your lips in nervousness, his eyes watching the action. you hugged your figure, not knowing how to say what you had in mind.Â
âu-uhm... i just thought that maybe we can eat together...--â you trailed off, looking at him, anticipating his reaction.Â
the man made you nervous that was a fact but you would be lying if you said he wasnât attractive. and that small little fact made you guilty and confused about why you felt like that for him. he was your dad for fuckâs sakes! yes, not really biologically but still your âdadâ
you were ashamed that you thought of him that way. you canât even consider him as your father. and every time you call him âdaddyâ it makes you shy. staring at him, you bite your lip as you wait for his response.Â
sakusa grunted and nodded, standing up as he walked towards you. the unwavering gaze he had upon you made a shiver run down your spine. you looked up at him through your lashes, fluttering those pretty eyes up at him.Â
that was the final straw! sakusa canât keep this up! he has to have you and what better time to have you than now. you two were alone and you look so fuckable as always.
he gluped when he stopped right in front of you, so close. you two were just a breath away. your eyes drifted to his lips for a moment but quickly returned to his eyes, feeling the shame rise inside you when you realized what you did.
the older man wanted to coo at you when he saw the embarrassment that crossed your face. he wanted to tell you that it was okay. you can need him. you can want him all you want. hell, he preferred it. now that he saw the small action, he canât help himself now. he canât pass this opportunity.
âwhatâs wrong, sweetie?â he whispered, you shivered when you felt his minty and warm breath hit your lips. you stuttered at the nickname and guilt rise in you as you heard the same name your mommy calls you.Â
ân-nothing, daddy...â
âyou can tell me, (y/n). itâll be just between us, donât worry. i wonât tell a soulâ the low seductive voice of your daddy made you clenched at nothing as heat spread across your cheeks.Â
âi-.. i uhm..â you continued to stutter. sakusa hummed in amusement at your obvious awkwardness, a small smirk growing in his pink lips.
âdo you want daddy?â he whispered, leaning closer to you as your noses touched and your lips barely grazed each other but it was enough to get you excited. sakusa could feel your breath hitching as he does so.Â
your eyes turned half-lidded and you pouted in embarrassment, lips curled in such an alluring way.Â
âc-can i have daddy?âÂ
sakusaâs heart started beating rapidly inside his ribcage, this was so new for him. he never felt like this before, not even with his wife. you have such an effect on him, it was scary.Â
âyou can have daddy anytime, sweetheartâ he grunted, tongue swiping against his bottom lip to wet it as he watched you lean closer, slowly standing on your tippy toes.
sakusa groaned at your slow movements and quickly leaned closer, kissing you with ferocity. his large hands gripped your hips, maneuvering you inside the bedroom as he slammed you against the wooden door. you gasped at the pain but it quickly faded into pleasure.Â
he groaned into your lips, taking advantage of your open mouth to slither in his tongue into your mouth. you moaned when he started licking and playing with your wet muscle. you unconsciously grinded against him, searching for friction. sakusa moaned into the messy kiss when your clothed heat grazed against his hard cock.Â
his hands drifted down to your thighs, squeezing and kneading it. the heat of his palms was so distinct. he then gripped your thighs, carrying you up. you squealed at the sudden movement and quickly wrapped your arms and legs around him. in that new position, your clothed pussy was directly against his member.Â
you gasped at the feeling of sakusaâs dick twitching against you. the male groaned and started kissing down your neck, your arms tightening around his neck. the overwhelming feeling of his lips trailing hot wet kisses against your sensitive neck and his constant grinding of his cock against you was too much.Â
your moans spilling out your pretty red lips as you tried to match your daddyâs grinding. sakusaâs breath heavy against you, it was all too much for him. you were finally in his arms, moaning like the pretty slut that you are. sakusa could feel your wetness sipping through the thin cloth of your shorts.Â
he removed you from the door and carried you to the bed as his body covered yours. leaning against one of his arm while one hand groped your chest, his large hand slowly slithered down and in your singlet and caressed your stomach, savoring every skin until he reached your bra.Â
he continued to litter your pretty and sensitive neck with his marks, humming in satisfaction when he sees your neck covered with bite marks. you whined when his hips stopped moving against you for a moment. sakusa leaned back a bit to look at you. his breath hitched when he saw you. you were such a sight to see.Â
your eyes heavy and dark with lust, chest heaving with every pant. your singlet was raised up to expose your smooth stomach. your lips were red and a little swollen as your red gloss was smeared across your chin and lips.Â
âyouâre such a sight, sweetheart,â sakusa praised, making you whine as your hips bucked
âmy pretty babyâ he muttered then he captured your lips again, biting your bottom lip and quickly soothed it with his tongue.Â
âd-daddy, i need you...â you whimpered through the kiss, your words muffled with sakusaâs lips against yours.Â
âdonât worry your pretty little head... daddy will take care of youâÂ
his hand then trailed down, leaving your boobs. he tipped down to your shorts and in your panties, grazing your mound as you gasped against his lips.Â
âso wet... is that all for daddy?âÂ
you cried out at the unfamiliar feeling when sakusa massaged your clit. the older manâs hissed at the wetness, his self-control slowly threatening to snap.Â
âhave you touched yourself before, princess?âÂ
your eyes widened at his question but shook your head no, embarrassed by it. your hands gripped sakusaâs shoulder when he started massaging your clit faster, gasping at the pleasure coursing through you.Â
âyouâre so cute, (y/n)â he muttered, watching your virgin body already shaking at such light actions.Â
sakusaâs hand left your shorts making you whine at the loss of pleasure but was quickly followed by a welp when the man removed your shorts, your body getting tugged along at his aggressive action.Â
you lowered your gaze and clenched your thighs together, trying to hide from your daddyâs intense gaze. sakusa clicked his tongue and gripped your thigh, âlet daddy see you, pretty girlâÂ
you slowly let your legs open, your embarrassment worsening when you felt the air nipping at your skin. sakusa admired your wet pussy out in display just for him. his fingers touched your wetness ever so slightly but even that makes you gasp.Â
âso beautiful...â you heard your daddy whisper making your heart full that he finds you attractive. sakusa wet his fingers with your arousal, caressing the clenching hole but never really prodding inside.Â
you watched sakusa between your legs, biting your lips when you saw the prominent tent on his grey sweats. you let your head hit back against the pillows, trying to control your breathing as your nervousness slowly got to you.Â
âthatâs good, baby. relax for daddy. my pretty girl is so smartâÂ
sakusa groaned when he finally sunk one finger inside you as he watched you whimper while your hips buckled against him. âso wet and tight...âÂ
he watched you get lost at the feeling of his finger pumping in and out of you. his gaze then went back to your cunt and his finger, seeing the thin string on his finger that connected him and your pussy. sakusa groaned and leaned down, capturing your neglected clit in his mouth.Â
you cried at that, looking down at sakusa. your eyes locked as he fingered you and his tongue flicking against your clit. you moaned, your eyes rolling back into your skull as you threw your head back when he hit the spongy spot inside of you. he hummed in satisfaction making you shiver at the vibration as he added another finger.Â
the older male watched your body writhe because of his ministration, finding it so alluring and seductive when you arched your back so prettily when he kept hitting your g-spot. he sucked on your clit, his tongue massaging it. the rising of pleasure was too much for you and the feeling of something threatening to snap in your stomach made you teary. you cried, hips moving frantically chasing the pleasure given to you. the clenching of your pussy against sakusaâs fingers was the sign that you were close. so deliciously close. his movements quickened at that, wanting you to cum for him. the sound of your wetness was embarrassingly loud and sakusaâs constant smacking as he ate you out messily was getting you closer than you want to admit.Â
the unfamiliar feeling of the intense pleasure made you close your eyes, loud moans escaping you. the constant flicking of his tongue finally pushing you to the edge as you cum. loud whimpers and whines escaped you as sakusa rode your orgasm for you, moaning against you when he felt your cum sticking to his fingers, trailing down to your ass.Â
he released your sensitive clit, swiping a last lick on to it, and his fingers moved away from you, the wetness made his fingers glossy. you panted on the bed, the sensitivity of coming for the first time still in your system. sakusa smiled down at you and kissed you. you whined when his hard cock nudged your sensitive pussy.Â
âwill you let daddy fuck you, princess?âÂ
you moaned softly at his dirty words and nodded tiredly, opening your legs like the good girl you are. sakusaâs eyes turned dark and removed his hard cock out of his sweats. you gaped at the size and closed your eyes with a hiss when he grinded against your still sensitive cunt. you looked up at him with a pout and grasped his tight t-shirt.Â
âw-wanna see daddy tooâ you muttered with a pout, tugging at his clothes. sakusa smirked and nodded, removing every piece of cloth in his body until he was nude. your eyes trailed up and down his body, trying to memorize every feature. hands going to his body, caressing his skin.Â
âyouâre p-pretty too, daddyâ you whispered shyly, smiling at him. sakusa didnât reply but only moved closer to you, letting his nose graze your cheek, nuzzling into you. you giggled softly at his affection. you guessed that this was his way of showing his love.
âready for me, baby?â he asked as you nod, grasping unto his shoulders. sakusa lined his hard cock against your wet cunt, slowly nudging forward. he hissed at the feeling of your tight and wet pussy clenching around him.Â
you felt divine. so good. so wet and warm. and youâre all his.Â
you gasped at the feeling, it was so much larger than his fingers but the stretch was addicting enough. you moaned when your daddy kept going in. you panted, tongue lolling out when he finally bottomed out. you felt so full.Â
sakusa grabbed your hips, moaning beside your ear. he waited for you to adjust to the feeling of his cock and when you grinded back, he knew you were ready.Â
he started slowly, savoring the feeling of your walls dragging against his thick cock, your wetness sticking on him. sakusa then groaned when the pleasure started getting intense, chasing the high of it.Â
your nails made crescent marks on his skin, moaning loudly at the feeling of the constant pumping of his large cock inside of you. the tip of his cock nudging your cervix, so deep inside of you.Â
you choked on a moan when he hit your g-spot again, the sensitivity was making you tear up whilst sakusa leaned back, watching your body tremble at his mercy. he watched your pussy suck him back in every time, your cum decorating his cock with strings.Â
he fucks you with intent, loving the way your boobs bounce to the way he fucks you hard. your pretty mouth open, letting strings of loud moans out, whilst a thin line of drool escaped to your chin. eyes almost getting crossed eye with how good heâs fucking you.Â
âyou like that, baby? you like the way daddy fucks you dumb?â you could only cry out, incoherent mutters and cries was the only thing sakusa heard from you.Â
the man groaned when he felt his release coming way sooner than he expected. the way you were clenching around him was almost enough to send him over but he doesnât wanna cum before you cum again.Â
sneaking his hand on your pussy, he started rubbing your clit with rough circles. you sobbed at the intensity. your legs shaking around sakusaâs hips as he grinded against you harder.Â
âfuck, youâre g-gonna make me cum...â he cursed, his rhythm getting sloppier as he chased his high.Â
your moans gotten louder at that as sakusa smirked when he felt your pussy clenching around his cock, âyou like that? you want daddyâs cum inside you?
fucked out from your daddyâs thrusts, you could only arch so beautifully for him. your position making it easier for sakusa to hit deeper inside you.
âcum for me, princess. cum for daddyâ sakusa groaned, hand frantically rubbing your clit pushing you to another orgasm. you sobbed when you felt your second orgasm rushing into your system, eyes rolling back to your head while your pussy milked sakusaâs cock, making him paint your insides with thick ropes of white. your body jerking violently against his at the feeling of the intense climax.
the man growled and it trailed into harsh moans, his hips rolling against you as he rode yours and his climax.Â
the room was filled with harsh and loud pants as you two climbed down from your highs. you gulped, throat dry and sore from all the screaming you did. your thighs trembled around sakusaâs hips. he slowly let your legs down and lay down beside you, wrapping an arm around you and pulling you closer to him. his strong chest against your slender back.
you moaned when you felt the soreness kicking in but cuddled back to him, touching and caressing his arm that was thrown over you. you hummed, satisfied, when you felt his cum dribbled out of you. it was his love inside of you.
sakusaâs heart was full. you were finally his. finally in his arms and heâll be a fool to let you go. heâll get rid of the older hag after this, he has no need for her anymore now that you were beside him..
he wonât share you with anyone. you are his. only his. and anyone who gets between you two will suffer the consequences. sakusa guarantees it. his dark eyes trailed down to your body, admiring your bruised skin.Â
âare you okay, sweetheart?â you heard him asked quietly behind you. you smiled and nodded, leaning your head back.Â
âi am...âÂ
sakusa hummed, sleepiness coming over him. his hand touching your stomach where his cock was bulging out earlier.
âw-will daddy be here with me when i wake up?âÂ
âiâll always be with you, princess. i love you... now sleepâÂ
you bit down a huge grin on your lips, listening to sakusaâs breaths that started to get even signaling that he has fallen asleep. your daddy loves you. no one ever said that. no one ever treated you like him. it was a nice change from all the times you were alone in the orphanage.Â
the moment felt warm and gentle like it was a moment shared by a couple who loves each other deeply. you hummed a soft sleepy tune, your hand caressing his arm to his hand.Â
your warm and soft moment came crashing down when your hand touched a cold metal on his finger. your (e/c) eyes trailed down and stared down at the ring that was glistening as the light hit it, heart thumping in shame and guilt when reality hit you like a wave.Â
thatâs right. heâs married and heâs your âdaddyâ.Â
#tw.darkcontent#tw.dubcon#tw.pseudoincest#tw.agegaps#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu smut#haikyuu x reader smut#haikyuu imagines#haikyuu fics#haikyuu scenario#haikyuu scenarios#yandere haikyuu#sakusa kiyoomi#sakusa x reader#sakusa smut#yandere sakusa kiyoomi#sakusa kiyoomi smut#yandere!sakusa#yandere sakusa x reader#yandere sakusa#sakusa kiyoomi x reader
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
FREE JIMIN
Don't know who this woman is and i don't care to know.
Jimin is a full grown adult who has the autonomy to do with his will and weenie whatever he wants and pleases.
He owes no one an explanation for whom he chooses to love. If this person is his girlfriend IT'S FINE! Why do you make it sound like dating and falling in love with someone is a crime? How old are you?
It's 2021 not 2012.
With all the power and privilege he has, the wealth he has and the brand reputation he's built and accumulated over the years, he really has no reason to be afraid to let people know he is in a relationship with whomever and the only reason he may choose to keep his relationship private is to protect the sanctity of his relationship and partner from creeps like you running around acting like it's unheard of for a man to date a woman.
Personally, I'm flattered that you think he is straight. I'm flattered on his behalf.
If he is keeping his relationship private it's only because he is dating a man or perhaps a girl he wants to protect. It's not because he is afraid that a broke 13yr old prepubescent nim com poop with premature braincells will unstan him if they knew he's dating.
If he's keeping his relationship private it's because he has a contract with a company he needs to honor.
And please respect this lady, how can one of the richest idols in the industry not pay for a first class ticket for his girlfriend. You out here screaming he flew business to be with her when it's like but sis deserves the best thođ
Why y'all keep coming up with theories that humiliates the women you claim these men are dating? Are yall misogynistic or what? Yall have a poverty kink? Jungkook out here sending his gf to a cheap motel is just pathetic. There's nothing romantic about that struggle life to think he makes all this money and for WHAT? can't even level up his hoes booooooođđŸand if I were his girl I'd be mad he keeps hiding in 5 star hotel rooms with a man he claims and protects so publicly but keeps my ass hidden and unclaimed in rat infested motel rooms.
Y'all quit playing.
You didn't see Jimin with the girls in Paris??
You think he scared???
Y'all tripping
And if he is hiding his girlfriend then his girlfriend is equally hiding him so go harrass her and leave Jimin alone.
Better yet just leave both these people alone. How about that??
And if the Mickey mouse and a blob in the sky at sunset is all the evidence you need to prove Jimin in a relationship with this person then HERE
No. Actually lets just throw all the tannies in the mix cos they've all spotted a Mickey mouse outfit in a span of 8yrs.
Lets add all the kpop idols both men and women who own these souvenirs too. Boy does Jimin have stamina servicing all these people!
And I love how all these images produced by JK are edited the same way as the pictures they took on the beach
You can't see JK gcf written all over it?
How come the pictures Tae uploaded have the same filter and edits as the one JM uploaded?
If JM has a girlfriend she needs to love herself cos no self respecting woman would put up with her man doing the things Jm does with JK and vice versa.
She must be his beard then.
Let me leave you with something Suga said: army are a diverse group and may have issues with BTS dating others like myself and many others COULD GIVE A FUCK.
Please someone sweep this roach into the trash bag and let's carry on with our business like nobody's business.
GOLDY
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
shudder; part 6/6 [agent mobius x reader]
Series Summary: Pre-Loki series. You are one of the most dangerous variants the TVA has ever recovered, but Mobius knows what makes you tick. Five times he made you shudder, and the one time you returned the favor.
Words: 4.4k
Chapter Warnings/Tags: smut, language, soft daddy kink, sex in otherwise unsanitary conditions, writer's horribly pathetic attempt at dirty talk
A/N: Here it is guys. I struggled with this chapter a lot, also mad respect for gn!writers. I don't think I succeeded in keeping it neutral (welcoming feedback on how I can improve) so I removed that tag.
You watched a small fire crackle in the darkness of an elevator shaft, being used as a chimney. Rain spilled down the walls, running over old steel and concrete, but at least you were no longer in it.
Once you had had the strength to move off the beach, you found a footpath scaling up the face of the cliff which led to an abandoned mining post.
The population of Olympus-V had steady decline for decades, either by migration, poverty, or famine. The planet had been practically barren for years, save for some mining operations to squeeze the last of the planetâs natural resources.
It was in one of those posts where you were now taking refuge with Mobius. You sat on the ground near the elevator shaft, your clothes still soaked, while Mobius fiddled around with building a fire. You wrapped your arms tightly around yourself and tried to keep your teeth from chattering.
âYou know how many centuries it took early man on Earth to figure out fire?â Mobius mused as he tended to the flames. âI mean, itâs not a competition or anything, but other civilizations had it down in like a few decades, max.â
You rolled your eyes miserably. âI got him killed, you know,â you replied, not having the energy to follow Mobius into another one of his âfun-facts-about-historyâ rabbit holes. Youâd been quiet for a while, with Mobius having to hold both ends of the conversation. The grim tone in your voice gave him pause.
âThe new guy,â you clarified, your tone flat as you spoke of your deceased partner. The last time you and Mobius had spoken, he had sang his praises. âIt was only our fourth mission together and heâs dead. Because of me.â
Mobius sighed and turned away from you, âThatâs one interpretation.â He dropped another piece of coal into the flame and came to a stand. âOr,â he added, âyou could say he was a great analyst who made rational, competent choices and was working with the best data he had. The fact that he trusted you doesnât make him any less responsible for the outcome.â
He idly wiped his hands on his pants, carrying on and providing no harbor for your self-pity, âI probably wouldâve done the same thing.â
âNo. You wouldnât.â Your tone was icy. âBecause you werenât there.â You glared at him from across the smallish room you were huddled in, bitterness souring your voice. âYou sent me away, remember?â
He let out an exasperated sigh, rolling his head slightly. âI had no other choice,â he parroted the same old response.
That wasnât an answer that satisfied you. At all.
âWhy?â you bit back with a mocking tone, coming to a quick stand. You pulled no punches. âBecause the TVA told you to? Because if the Time Lordsââ
ââTime Keepersââ
ââTime Fascists,â you hissed, âthink that I have a crush on you, they'll zap me out of my useless existence?â
He glanced over at you, smirking with his head tilted slightly. He replied with a voice as sweet as caramel, âAre you saying you have a crush on me?â
Your shoulders dropped. âYouâre insufferable.â You turned away, wishing you could find a different mine.
âHey, considering my recent valiant and heroic efforts to rescue you,â he replied, âyouâd think youâd be a little nicer to me.â You let out an exhausted sigh, but he kept going - cool as a cucumber. âI thought we had a thing going there. I mean - first, you kiss meââ
You spun on your heel. âKiss you!?â you scoffed.
âYeah,â he drawled. âOn the beach.â
âI was resuscitating you!â you argued. âYou call that a kiss?â
He shrugged innocently, a sparkle in his eyes. âWell, I wasnât going to say anything,â he responded matter-of-factly. âBut, uh, yeah - it was a little underwhelming.â
He grinned slyly. You wanted to simultaneously melt into him and burn him alive. You scoffed, shaking your head incredulously.
âWhat was the point?â you exclaimed. âWhatâs the point of rescuing me if Iâm nothing but a - a tool? A blunt hammer for the TVA to snuff out anyone that steps out of line?â
The pain in your voice was unmistakable, and Mobius dropped his playful banter.
âYou think Iâve enjoyed spending the last - however long it's been - hopping around the timeline hunting people who are no different than me?â Your heart ached with every word, âYou think I enjoy killing?â
âNo,â he answered, weighed with guilt, âI donât.â
Your rage flared. âThen why wonât you just let me go!?â
âI canât,â he quietly explained, eyes cast down. He wouldnât even look at you.
Fuck this infuriatingly charming, cowardly little TVA sheep-whore.
You felt the venom pooling on your tongue. âGod! Youâre such a company man, arenât yââ
âI canât!â he raised his voice in a way that youâd never heard before, stunning you into silence. He lifted his gaze and looked at you solemnly, his expression filled with regret. His words were weak, broken - barely above a whisper. â...Let you go.â
You stared blankly at him, reading the tragedy written on his features. With his defenses down, you could clearly see every word: I donât want to let you go. I need you, forever. You are mine and I am yours and nothing else makes sense beyond that. Iâd do anything to keep you safe.
Were those his thoughts, or yours? You didnât know anymore.
Mobius reached up quickly and loosened his tie, before deftly undoing the buttons of his shirt.
You were staring like a deer in the headlights. âWha-Wai-what are you doing?â you blurted uncomfortably with a furrowed brow.
He rolled his eyes. âNot catching hypothermia, if thatâs alright with you,â he snarkily said as he pulled off his jacket and shirt, revealing a soaked white undershirt beneath. You remembered that you both were freezing and wet. âIâm drying my clothes by the fire. We still have 10 hours and 23 minutes until we hit the radiation peak.â
Ah yes, you had almost forgotten.
Ten hours until the end of the world, or at least of Olympus-V. And because Mobiusâ TempPad was unbelievably conveniently out of juice, and unable to open another Time Door, you were pretty sure you had about the same amount of time left to exist.
Mobius confidently felt otherwise. He rattled on some jargon about needing a massive source of energy to power the TempPad - something about electromagnetic waves, solar bursts, radiation of a dying star, the âsweet spotâ between a steady charge and a gruesome death. You honestly stopped listening back at the beach.
You were too busy questioning his motives and your own. Were you happy that Mobius was trapped with you, about to be swallowed by the sun? Or were you furious that he idiotically ran right into an apocalypse and now you both were going to die.
He quipped that at least that technically made him a hero; maybe heâd get a plaque in the TVA cafeteria. You wouldâve made some kind of cheeky comeback, but you were already dying inside at that devastating thought.
âNot to be too forward, but you should probably do the same,â Mobius added, bringing you back to the present situation where he was undressing in front of you. âYouâre shaking like a chihuahua right now.â
You were about to question the puzzling thought of him being in a place in time to observe a chihuahua, but then he pulled his wet t-shirt over his head. You turned your gaze away reflexively as soon as you spotted human flesh.
Here you were - former soldier, mercenary, and spy, and fearsome hunter of the Time Variance Authority - blushing like a shrinking violet. Itâs not that he didnât have a point, it was just--fuck, heâs undoing his beltâ is this real life right now?
âDonât worry,â he scoffed flippantly. âIâll even turn my back to preserve your innocence and sanctity.â
He was being facetious but it made you wonder if he had any idea how un-sanctified you were. Your eyes widened at the thought: Did he watch that on the highlight reel too?
Now he was pulling his slacks off, and you were tracking in real time again. He kept his promise and had his back to you, allowing you the privacy to undress. And you did.
You peaked over your shoulder to see him lay his clothes out in front of the flames. He dragged over an old canvas tarp heâd found - pieces of which heâd stripped off for kindling - and moved it to a safe proximity from the fire. He sat down in the middle of the tarp, pulling his knees up and wrapping his arms around him.
And he kept his underwear on - boxer briefs, youâd called it - not that you were trying to look below his waist or anything.
Once he was at rest, he rubbed his hands over his bare arms to create friction. You mirrored his steps one-by-one, until you were also sitting in your underwear on the canvas with your bare backs inches apart.
You both were quiet for a long time, facing opposite directions, surrounded by the cold darkness, and the sound of trickling water. You could still hear the waves thrashing and the rain bartering on the rocks outside. The crackle of the fire - the way the flame danced and dimly lit your surroundings, brought you a sense of peace. It was almost... romantic. Even if it was the end of the world.
âI know this is my fault,â Mobius declared, breaking the silence. You could hear struggle in his voice. âI know I was supposed to stay within my lane. My purpose is to preserve and protect the timeline, and thatâs it, itâs just....â He sighed, and you listened carefully, hanging on his words. Was this doubt?
It sounded like he was trying to understand himself. âSomethingâs different now,â he explained, with a little bit of wonder and fear. âWhen weâre together, I feel⊠like Iâm someone else. And Iâm not who I was before. Before you.â
You quietly listened, thinking about how much you identified with what he was saying.
âMy head is telling me itâs all wrong,â he said, âthat Iâm making a mistake. That Iâm playing with fire.â His next thoughts brought the tiniest grin to his otherwise grim voice. âWhen Iâm with you⊠I feel like a dope⊠Reckless.â The smile faded as his thoughts sobered him. âDangerous.â
In the silence that followed, you wondered again whose thoughts you were hearing - his or yours.
âHow can something that feels so right be wrong?â he mused openly - for you, the Time Keepers, and all the Sacred Timeline - to hear.
The question that hung heavy in the air had such a clear answer, of which you were certain. Your mind raced trying to think of how to respond, how to explain. You simply couldnât find the words.
So you turned your body towards him. You reached over Mobiusâ shoulder gently to cup the side of his face, and pulled him into a kiss.
It was slow and chaste, projecting every intention and emotion that you lacked the words to describe. Each time you moved your lips, you took another breath; you wrote another line of your love letter to him. He sank deeper into your kiss, as your souls tangled and caught fire.
And then you felt it.
You were positioned behind him, with his back to your chest when a burst of lightning crawled up his spine. A desperate shudder racked his body. He pulled away from you breathlessly, his eyes closed, as you both panted and glowed with the heat of the moment.
âIf I didnât know any better,â your lips curled into a sultry smile, âIâd say I was making you nervous.â
He opened his dark bronze eyes at that, drinking you in. He couldnât help but mirror your mischievous smirk. In an instant, he snatched you up and pulled you onto his lap. You kissed him hungrily, straddling him, as his hands glided over your body.
Your mind went foggy, as any composure you had in the situation was evaporating. His lustful kisses scorched your skin as they traveled down your neck. He lifted you higher so that he could drink more of you in. You gasped and sighed at how your body reacted to him, your fingers digging into his scalp. He groaned with pleasure as he found your open mouth again, your tongue a welcoming partner.
He pulled you in tighter, your hips grinding further into him. You felt his want, hard against your body, and you felt the last of your innocence pooling between your legs. The friction made you let out an un-sanctified moan, breaking away from his kiss. The sound of your voice intoxicated him.
You were in a controlled descent backwards as he lowered you to your back.
When did you start trembling? Has it really been that long since your last time?
Your hands danced across his chest, triggering goosebumps. Even his skin wanted you. You writhed beneath him as he positioned himself between your legs. You were bursting like a firecracker with anxious need. Your hands groped him, nails gently grazing - traveling down his torso and beneath the waistband of his boxers.
He gasped as your fingers wrapped around his organ, fluttering his eyes shut at your touch. You were on autopilot, your physical need in command of your body, as you attempted to pull his stiff erection from his boxers.
Mobius snatched your hands and you froze. He pulled your arms up, grasping your hands tightly, and pinned your wrists to the floor on either side of your head. You were hit with a wave of confusion, followed by shame.
Maybe youâd read this wrong. You looked up at him, half-expecting to read an expression of disgust.
What you found was the opposite.
His eyesâ gentle, dark, and focused intently on youâ telegraphed a message for you to read carefully:
You were not the one in control here.
You felt the wind of butterflies deep in your core as you realized he had clear goals for you in mind. He was asking you - imploring you - for command of your body. For the record, he already had it - whether or not either of you were conscious of it.
You lay still, save for your chestâs gentle movements, as his eyes unravelled the layers of your being. Trapped in his gaze, you were stripped bare in more than just flesh.
You were time travelling again - years into the past. The pages of your chapters fell away, until you felt like a pupil again, watching your master navigating the geography of your body.
His grip softened, giving your palms an affectionate squeeze before he released your hands. His leering gaze was already gliding down your valleys, and his hands followed, letting his fingertips brush the delicate flesh of your forearms as they travelled.
All your mind could do to focus was count your every breath as his touch and kisses grazed your skin. You wondered how long it had been for him. You quivered at the thought of him planning this moment.
He took time tasting you with each kiss - down your chest, your belly, the crest of your hips. You lifted your core with his encouragement, allowing him to pull away your last remaining piece of clothing. You were finally unveiled before him. He sighed softly, mind buzzing, as he delicately spread your legs apart.
He moved so slowly with intention, relishing each moment. You were on the verge of losing it and he had yet to touch your most sensitive areas. He could feel your hips squirm with anticipation.
âI want you,â he pacified you, âmore than anything.â He tenderly kissed the inside of your thigh. âBut I need to know that you want this too. Without a doubt in your mind.â
You were desperate by this point, way past âwilling.â Regardless, he met your eyes, waiting patiently for your consent.
You were consumed with lust. âPlease,â you stuttered in passionate exhilaration. You could barely recognize your own voice, âYou can do anything you want to me.â
His face twitched into a sinful smirk. âI know.â There was that confidence again. âBut thatâs not what I asked.â He steadied his composure and fixed himself in your sights once again. You gazed at him with a more sobered expression, giving this moment the respect he wanted.
He watched your lips now that he had your attention. âTell me you want me to make you feel good,â he seductively implored. âTell me you want me to take you, here and now. I need to hear you say yes.â
The way he asked for your consent couldâve put you over the edge by itself.
âYes,â you practically moaned under your breath. It was a sinful, thirsty plea. âGod, yes, please. I want you to touch me.â
That ignited his fuse.
He lowered to his elbows, positioning his arms beneath your legs. His mouth was on you, leaving you aghast at the force. It was like he wanted more than just to please you - he relished in devouring you, like a frozen dessert on a hot summer day. You jolted and gasped, more from surprise than pain. He took note anyway, and steadied his animalistic pace.
It wasnât long until your eyes were rolled in the back of your head. You were thunderstruck, arching your body and moaning with ecstasy.
The way his name sounded each time it sprang from your lips made him drunk. Every time you uttered it, you felt him tense and groan. It was a perpetual cycle. Your hips would reflexively buck from the intense pleasure and he would just hold on tighter. He forced your thighs apart as you encouraged him to unleash more rapture on your body.
This was not a particularly new position for you, but it was good. You werenât sure where he got the experience, but he was really, really good.
And if âSacred-youââ âNC-17-rated,â âparental-advisory-warning-labelledâ badass-youâcould just see yourself now: writhing on the floor while being laid out by an older man, one whom youâd rarely seen out of a brown suit and tie. You didnât think this man knew how to fire a gun before, but you were practically mewling for him like a kitten.
And god, he really seemed to enjoy it.
You warned him that you couldnât last much longer. You felt the tension building inside. You wanted desperately to satisfy him, to feel him inside of you, to have him enraptured with you. But unless he slowed down, you were going to lose it right here with his mouth on you. You knew he had needs, and you began to plead with him to let you fulfill them.
You pushed down on his shoulders, begging him to let you have a turn. He pulled away, pausing only briefly.
âUh uh,â he chastised you with a wicked grin. âIâm not finished with you yet.â
He was back on you before you could reply, this time reaching two of his fingers into your core.
Your head dropped backwards at the sensation, and now you were obscenely begging him for more. Youâd happily given up any attempt at controlling what happened next, focusing solely on the nuclear fission in your body.
You blossomed for him as his fingertips pulsed on the most sensitive flesh inside inside you. Muscles you didnât even remember you had repeatedly contracted. He impurely hummed and he lapped greedily at the fruit of his labor.
You were gasping for air, beaded with sweat, as you came down from your high. He leaned over you to witness the sunset of your orgasm. Eyes full of lust, he pulled himself free of his boxers and discarded them as he watched you.
When you glanced down to see the stunning sight of his stimulation, it re-electrified you. You pulled yourself into a sitting position on his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck. Your legs straddled him eagerly as he lifted your hips over his member.
The erotic sound you both made as you slid down his shaft was sinful enough to cast you both into hell. You kissed him, open-mouthed, and tasted yourself on his tongue. Now that you were on top of him, wrapped around him, he seemed more frantic and less calculated with his movement.
He was gazing up at you like a lustful teenage boy, letting himself be taken by passion. âGod...â he whispered, suddenly less skilled with words. âYou feel so... ah!... s-so beautiful...â
âYouâre so hardâŠstretching me so tight,â you groaned into his mouth, and he growled in agreement, nodding his head.
He broke away from the kiss, âGod - yes, ah, youâre s-so tight, baby...â You grinned excitedly as you climbed and descended his length. You moaned like a porn star as you rode him.
âI can call you that, canât I?â he said through his own breathless moans. You glanced at him in confusion. He looked concerned. His hands braced your hips as you continued your movement. âIs that okay?â
âWha-what?â
âThe pet name,â he explained through sighs, âB-Baby? I-I donât want it to sound de-demeaning, or... patronizingââ
Okay. Now he was overthinking it.
âItâs fine,â you urged him to move on, growing more frustrated, but now he was babbling nervously.
âI could call you something elseââ
ââdonât careââ
âââsâimportant to me that you know I respect you, and Iâd neverââ
âI donât care, IâYou can call me whatever you want. Please, daddy⊠Justâ fuck meâŠâ
You crashed your lips on his, but felt his breath hitch as he tensed you immediately. You either said something very right, or very wrong. The sex had all but come to a screeching halt, as you reluctantly met his eyes.
He gazed at you thoughtfully, gears turning.
Timidly, you searched his face for judgment, for any sign of disapproval, but instead, there was a look of almostâ awe.
You watched the change in him as the devil overtook him. His eyes turned three shades darker, pooling with lust. His expression of wonder melted into a devious smile. Your dirty talk awakened something in him, like he was remembering a long-forgotten visceral part of himself.
He scooped you up and laid you on your back again, pulling himself out of your body. You only had a brief time to revolt, until he sat up on his knees and he lifted one of your thighs up, pulling your leg over his shoulder. You watched curiously trying to figure out what he was doing, until he gripped your hips and pulled you downwardâ over his shaft.
You let out a painfully delicious cry as he bottomed out inside of you. He hungrily watched your expressions and relished in the sound of your moans.
His hand braced the inside of your other thigh, holding your legs open so that you were spread at the right angle for him. As soon as he began to thrust, you were done for.
You groaned with ecstasy. âThatâs... it..,â he praised you, eliciting more cries from you.
There were no more performances. There was no more pageantry. No more room for pretending to be anyone other than who you are.
You were coming undone for him, and he watched every moment. Every dirty thought and fantasy you ever had might as well have been written on your body. He studied each line.
âOh god, Mobiusâyes,â you babbled as you squirmed.
âYeah?â he breathed, teasingly. âDoes that feel good?â You nodded frantically.
Sweat beaded down his chest as his hands roamed to find your sweet spot, and another desperate wave of âyesâs flooded out from your lips.
âWhat did you call me?â he enticed, his mouth watering for your response. âWhat name did you call me before?â You were struggling with words, but he wouldnât stop until he coaxed the right one from you.
âSay it.â
You tangled your fingers in your scalp, turning your head away. He thrust into your hips a little deeper, and you cried out obscenely.
âSay it,â he repeated, more firmly this time. âI wanna hear you say it again. I wanna watch you say it to me.â
More lewd noises dropped out of your mouth, as you propped yourself up on your elbows. âYes, please, I love whatâre⊠doing tâ me⊠I need it, daddyâŠâ
He groaned with a lecherous smile, biting his lip. âYou are so good for me.â
Lust was dripping from each word as he drew them out. His honeyed, Southern accent had returned. His eyes were blown black as he cooed with praise, âYou make me wanna be so bad.â
You were gone after that. Your head tilted back, crying out through another climax. He could hear his own voiceâthatâs it thatâs itâmoaning in the distance somewhere, but he was enthralled with your little pleas. The tones of your voice washed over him; he used them to quell the blaze inside.
He knew everything he wanted to do to you, and everything you wanted him to do. And he couldnât get past the feeling, as he buried himself deeper inside of you, that this was all... familiar.
This picture of you, spread out gloriously beneath him, was impossibly familiar. He imagined a bed that wasnât his own, and light blue cotton sheets that couldnât have been his, and the sunlight peeking from a sheer curtain, and falling across the ecstasy-filled face of his lover that he couldnât have ever married...
That was....you.
Your voice was echoing in Mobiusâ head. You whined and whimpered, glowing with passion, signaling that you were moments away from your climax. And then he was here - on Olympus-V with you, and he felt you tighten and flutter around him.
The sight of you, writhing beneath him as you reached orgasm, pulled a deep moan from his chest. White hot light flooded his vision. His body jerked and reacted in unison, filling you with his seed.
For someone for whom time had little meaning, he was now obsessed - trying to catch and hold back each fleeting moment. He leaned forward, his body spent, and you pulled his chin down into a longing kiss.
His mind was spinning. His lungs were still taking deep breaths. He pulled away slowly and rested his forehead on yours, his eyes closed as he struggled to make sense of what was real and what was a dream.
âI could never let you go,â he declared, deep in contemplation. You didnât quite understand the connection in the present moment. You didnât remember.
âThen stay with me,â was your gentle reply.
He gazed once again into your eyes with a knowing smile. âAlways.â
A/N: And I'm leaving it there. For now. Please reblog with feedback, or send me a message on your thoughts. This is my first attempt at writing in a long, long time. Also it's my first attempt at smut so be nice with your feedback :-)
THANK YOU to all of you for your wonderful comments. Please reblog for support!
@generalhugzzz @isaxbella749 @yodaboo @aloyssia @simsiddy @coloursforyourportrait
#mobius#agent mobius#my heart canât handle it#mobius m. mobius#agent mobius x reader#mobius x you#agent mobius x you#mobius fanfiction#mobius m mobius x reader#Owen Wilson#owen wilson x reader#loki#loki fanfic#loki fanfiction#Lizzy writes.#lizzy writes!shudder.#mcu fanfiction#loki tv show#loki tv series#fuck ravonna#genre: pwp
309 notes
·
View notes
Text
promise me | bakugou katsuki
( gif isnât mine !! credits go to @birds-have-teeth )
pairing: bakugou x fem!reader
genre: angsty fluff
summary: youâre used to dealing with your problems all on your own, but sometimes the weight becomes too heavy. and just when you feel like youâre about to fall, bakugou is always there to steady you back on your feet.
warnings: suicidal thoughts, descriptions of a panic attack, dark thoughts in general
word count: 3.2k
a/n: at first i wasnât gonna post this because it was more of a comfort fic for me since iâve been struggling a lot recently and bakugou is my comfort character, but i thought this could make other people feel better too so yeah :)
small disclaimer: this is completely based on my OWN, PERSONAL experience !!!!! if you ever experience suicidal thoughts, please seek help; youâre not alone. and youâre loved. youâre worth it.
IT was too much. you couldnât handle it. you thought you could and thatâs why you decided to not tell anyone, especially not bakugou. he knew about your struggles and burdens; at some point in your relationship you decided you felt comfortable enough to share that part of yourself with him and even tho he couldnât really understand all of your emotions, he was still very supportive. but of course that didnât mean you told him everything. sure, you trusted him with your life and you knew he would never judge you, but that wasnât enough to make the voices in your head go away.
for a while everything seemed to be fine, you had managed to keep yourself distracted enough to not have to be alone with your thoughts. whether it was hanging out with friends, going on dates with bakugou, or watching tv shows, you were always busy with something. but thereâs only so much one can do to stop themselves from thinking, or in your case, overthinking.
the nights were the worst. normally youâd watch random videos until your eyes started hurting from the brightness of you phone and then go to bed, but there were times when even that wasnât enough. when not even heavy metal songs could be as loud as your dark thoughts, and they only seemed to intensify the more you tried to push them away. you tossed and turned on bed in hopes of eventually tiring yourself out, yet you ended up sitting on the mattress with hot tears streaming down your cheeks as you tried your best to catch your breathing.
all the emotions you suppressed for months now suddenly came crashing down on you, forcing you to face your inner demons and making you realize just how not okay you were. you couldnât quite pinpoint what was bothering you so much; it was everything, yet nothing at the same time. it was about you, but also everyone else in your life. it was about not knowing who you were, about losing yourself and not really knowing what you were doing with your life. it was about thinking you were a failure, yet better than most people. it was confusing. and it was eating you alive.
your hands tugged at your hair so tight a part of you was afraid you were gonna rip it off and your chin rested on your knees as you brought them up to your chest in a feeble attempt to hug yourself.
this always happens. stop making such a big deal about it. why are you even crying? youâre so ungrateful. such an attention seeker. completely pathetic. why is bakugou even dating you? he might as well leave you for someone better. prettier. smarter.
loud sobs left your mouth as your thoughts mentally destroyed you, your insecurities getting the best of you. but it was more than that. this wasnât just about not feeling good enough or thinking you didnât deserve your boyfriend. it was about thinking you would be better off. after all you were just a bother, right? you would be doing everyone a favor if you just fucking did it, but you couldnât. you wouldnât. because you were scared. because you were a coward.
at some point it became too much, you could barely even breathe and your chest was hurting, or maybe it was your heart, along with your head, whichâs pounding had become almost unbearable. your eyes burned from all the crying and you could feel the puffiness beginning to form around them. with trembling hands and blurry vision, you took your phone in your hands and dialed the only person you knew was capable of helping you in a situation like this.
the blonde haired boy groaned when he heard his phone ringing from the nightstand next to his bed. he rubbed his eyes before mentally insulting whoever was calling him so fucking late at night, but just as he was about to start screaming onto the phoneâs speaker, he saw your name flash across the screen and his whole expression changed in less that a second. because you were his exception to everything.Â
ây/n? do you know what fucking time it is? this better be-â he didnât get to finish his sentence when a sob coming from your end interrupted him. suddenly he was up and about, his eyes widening as he sat on his bed, all the sleepiness he felt moments ago disappearing at the heartbreaking sound. âare you- are you crying?â
âk-katsuki,â he cringed, hating the way your voice sounded so broken and not like your usual self. and while he didnât know what was going on exactly, he had a pretty good idea.
âiâm here,â he tried to assure you, but he hated how your sobs only got louder after that. âwhat happened? are you okay?â
âno. itâs bad,â you couldnât bring yourself to lie to him, not when you needed him the most. âiâm s-sorry for calling you so late, i-â
âyou donât have to apologize. i wasnât that tired anyways,â he bit his lower lip, debating on what he should do next. âdo you want me to come over?â
âyes,â you didnât even hesitate; it almost sounded like you were begging and bakugou could feel his breath hitching in his throat for a moment. âplease, i need you.â that was all he needed to hear before he hung up, throwing the phone on his desk as he hurriedly put on whatever shirt he had laying around, not bothering to put shoes on. he didnât have time to think about some stupid footwear. he stumbled while running towards your dorm room, not giving a fuck about how loud his steps were or if he could wake up his classmates.
much to his luck, your room wasnât that far away from his so he got there in less than two minutes. he could feel his heart hammering against his chest as his hand gripped the doorâs knob, but he didnât waste any time before turning it around and letting himself inside. the sight before his eyes made something inside bakugou break. you were sitting down on the floor with your knees up to your chest, hands clutching your head tightly as choked sobs kept leaving your mouth. and he hated it. he hated it because he knew exactly how you felt; the same way he felt every night when he was alone in the confines of his room and his thoughts were the only thing keeping him company.
you hadnât noticed him, too focused on trying not to pass out, so he made his way over to you slowly in order to not startle you. he kneeled down in front of you, quickly recalling the website he had read a few days ago that talked about what to do when a person was having a panic attack. his hand gently touched your shoulder, careful not to scare you, and while you still flinched at the sudden touch, your expression somewhat softened after seeing it was none other than your boyfriend.
âhey beautiful,â he smiled softly at you, or at least tried his best since all he wanted to do was scream and fight someone. because you didnât deserve this. someone as kind as you didnât deserve to go through all this shit. âcan you hear me?â you nodded, tears still running down your cheeks and your whole body trembling. âgood, now letâs take a few deep breaths,â he inhaled deeply before exhaling, wanting you to repeat his actions and you tried. your hands stopped gripping your scalp, instead opting for bakugouâs arms, which were at each side of you as they held onto your shoulders. âyouâre doing great, just focus on me okay? only me.â you nodded once again, still trying to ease your breathing pattern as you stared into his beautiful vermilion eyes, the ones that always managed to intimidate you (in a good way of course).
after a few more minutes of breathing exercises, you managed to stop the pants that came out of your mouth, but tears still ran down your cheeks as the thoughts never ceased, perhaps getting louder and louder with every passing second. you wanted nothing more than to close your eyes and curl yourself into a ball, but you knew that wasnât gonna solve anything. so you kept holding on to your boyfriendâs arms, as if he was the only thing holding you down to earth.
this better fucking work, bakugou thought to himself before he spoke up again, ây/n, can you tell me five things you can see?â
âyou,â talking was still hard, yet you forced yourself to look around the room and answer his question correctly. âmy p-phone, the desk, d-dirty laundry, and,â all this thinking made the pounding in your head worse, but at least you werenât focusing on the voices. âmy stuffed t-teddy bear.â
âhm, four things you can touch?â one of his hands tenderly gripped your shoulder, his eyes never leaving yours.
ây-you, your shirt, the c-carpet, and m-my pjâs.â the dizziness in your head started to come to a halt and you sniffled, thankful that bakugou was able to make things better. like always.
âthatâs it, youâre doing so well. now three things you can hear?â his head turned around to leave an innocent kiss on the skin of your forearm, his gaze still focused on your face.
âyour voice, t-the rain, and the air conditioner.â the feeling of bakugouâs lips made you come back to your senses slowly but surely. now your hands were the only thing trembling, not your whole body.
âyouâre almost there baby, two things you can smell?â
âmy diffuser and your perfume,â a small smile made its way to your lips as you breathed in his scent, letting out a pleasant sigh as the smell filled your nostrils. âcaramel.â
bakugou scoffed, a soft blush splashed across his cheeks as he looked away from you for a moment.
âone thing you can taste?â
you took in a deep breath, not really knowing what to answer until you licked your lips and tasted the familiar sweetness of your chapstick, âcherry.â your grip on bakugouâs arm loosened, but still lingered there. he let out a breath he didnât know heâd been holding in, feeling a big weight off his shoulders knowing you could breathe properly again, but he was still bothered by the situation.
âdumbass, donât ever scare me like that again.â his words were rather rough yet you knew he meant no harm, you knew he was genuinely scared for your well being and that was just his way of voicing out his concern.
âiâm sorry.â
âwhat did i tell you about apologizing all the damn time?â he groaned, letting his arms fall to his sides as your hands came up to wipe your remaining tears away. you sent him an apologetic smile before sighing, squeezing your eyes shut as you tried to wrap your head around everything that happened.
meanwhile, bakugou stared intently at you, wondering whether or nor he should ask what caused the sudden outburst. he didnât want to make you feel worse, but if he knew you like he thought he did (which he does), youâd probably end up bottling everything inside until you had another breakdown. and heâll be damned if he ever letâs that happen again.
silently, he crawled towards you. and once he was close enough, he positioned himself behind you so you could sit on his lap and you happily complied. you cuddled your face against his warm chest, enjoying the comfort it provided, and bakugou placed his chin on top of your head, keeping you close to him. you stayed like that for a few minutes, just basking in each otherâs presence, but in reality bakugou was just giving you some more time to calm down before pestering you with questions that could possibly overwhelm you.
âyou want to talk about it?â he was still keeping his tone low and gentle; anyone who heard him wouldâve been extremely confused by his sudden change in demeanor. because he could be a lot of things, but gentle was not one of them. then again, you were his exception. you were different.
âi...donât know,â your hands played with the hem of his black tank top, eyebrows furrowed together as you tried to find the right words to describe your internal turmoil. âitâs just...everything piling up and never knowing what to do,â bakugou leaned down to place a kiss on your temple, quietly letting you know that he wasnât going anywhere, and somehow, that made you want to cry all over again. âyou know when you get really tired of yourself and your life?â he hesitantly nodded, not knowing where you were going with this. âwell i feel like that everyday. a-and sometimes i think it would all be better if i disappeared.â
it took him approximately 5 seconds to get what you exactly meant by disappearing, but when he did boy was he mad. his eyebrows furrowed and his grip on you tightened, an annoyed, yet concerned expression evident on his face. how could you say that? you were his everything, the only one who could calm him down, the one who made him smile by just breathing; his light. he wouldnât know what to do without you, hell he didnât even want to imagine it.
âyouâre such an idiot,â a smile tugged your lips at his harsh choice of words, the complete opposite of the hold he had on you. âyou listen to me because you know how much i hate repeating myself,â one of his hands grabbed your chin softly, yet firmly as he tilted your head to make you look at him directly. âfeeling like this is not your fault. i know that itâs easier to blame yourself for everything that goes wrong in your life, trust me, i know. but there are things in life that we just canât control and most definitely arenât responsible for.â
you scoffed, âwell youâre one to talk.â
âtch, such a smartass, arenât you?â bakugou rolled his eyes at your remark. âthatâs exactly why iâm telling you all this, dumbass. because i donât want you to go through what i did, especially when you have me by your side to help you.â your eyes widened at his sweet confession, gaze softening at the boy in front of you. he avoided it, looking to the side with rosy cheeks.
âkatsukiâŠâ you lowered your voice, lifting your hand to place it on bakugouâs cheek and your heart jumped when he looked at you. his eyes reflected nothing but pure love and adoration, and you were sure yours were the exact same. without saying another word, you kissed him softly, fingers caressing his soft skin. the kiss was short and innocent, but it made bakugou smile ever so slightly.
âlet me finish,â he said once you pulled away and the determination in his voice made you nod, knowing he needed to say whatever was on his mind. âi know thereâs nothing i can do to make your pain disappear or for you to change your mindset because thatâs not how it works. but i am and will always be here for you. i donât give a shit if you think youâre gonna bother me or if itâs late or if you think itâs something stupid, you just tell me. and if the thoughts continue then maybe we can even get a professional to help you, but please donât give up on me.â the crack in his voice at the end of his sentence made your heart stutter.
both of your hands cradled bakugouâs face, your eyes desperately looking for his once again. when he finally looked at you, you saw the tears threatening to fall from his eyes and how hard he was trying to hold himself back from breaking down. he needed to be strong. he couldnât be weak in front of you. you were the one who needed to be comforted, not him. so with those thoughts in mind, bakugou sniffled and roughly wiped the unshed tears away. but you didnât move from your place.
âso promise me,â he pulled you impossibly close, your faces barely inches apart. âpromise me you wonât give up, that youâll fight and be stronger than your demons because you fucking are. youâre so much stronger than you think, shit youâre probably stronger than me!â your eyes widened, surprised he even said something like that, but knowing he 100% meant it. because bakugou didnât lie. âpromise me.â
you nodded multiple times, taking out your pinky to show him you were serious about this. and while bakugou thought you couldnât be any more childish, he still grinned and interlaced his own pinky with yours, âi promise.â
âgood, now letâs sleep because iâm tired as fuck.â you rolled your eyes at the sudden change in attitude.
âknew it was too good to be true.â he raised an eyebrow at your comment, standing up to lay down on your bed, the soft sheets welcoming him with your scent.Â
âthe fuck is that supposed to mean?âÂ
ânothing, letâs just sleep.â you sent him a smile before laying down next to him, his arms quickly wrapping themselves around your waist to pull you even closer.
you turned around in his hold to properly look at him. his head rested comfortably against the pillow, his hair messy and sticking up in all different directions, while his eyes lazily looked over at you. he looked angelic, ethereal even. without thinking it twice, you ran one of your hands through his hair, giggling when he let out a happy hum and gripped your hips, as if telling you to keep going. he looked so pretty, lips slightly pouty as he forced himself to stay awake for a little longer. at least until you fell asleep.Â
âwanna know something really cheesy?â he sounded tired and you felt bad for keeping him awake so late when he probably had a long day. nevertheless, you hummed and continued to comb your fingers through his hair. âyouâre fucking amazing. absolutely mesmerizing,â bakugou opened his eyes to look at you better, a small smile tugging his lips upwards as he saw your flushed expression, trying to look away from him, but he didnât let you. âi love you, y/n.â
heâs said it before, and you should be used to it by now, but it never fails to make you heat up and feel all fuzzy inside. bakugou looks so serious, because he wants you to know he truly means it, yet so soft at the same time and you know this isnât easy for him. he doesnât like showing his vulnerable side to people, thinking it makes him weak, so to have him open up to you and declare his love for you so openly makes you feel special. because youâre the only one who knows this side of him.Â
âi love you more, katsuki.â another genuine smile grazes bakugouâs lips after hearing you call him by his first name, your voice sweet like honey.
he presses a kiss on your forehead as he lets you snuggle up against him, âgo to sleep, iâll be here when you wake up.âÂ
that night, you slept peacefully, knowing youâre safe in bakugouâs arms. you donât know what tomorrow or any other day holds for you, but if you have him by your side, you know you can overcome anything.Â
#bnha imagines#bakugou x reader#bnha fluff#bnha oneshots#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#mha x reader#mha imagines#bakugou imagine#bakugou oneshot#bakugou fic#bakugou fluff#bakugou angst#bnha x reader#bakugou katsuki#bnha scenarios#mha oneshots#mha#bnha#bnha headcanons#mha angst
834 notes
·
View notes
Text
Healing Heart ⧠Draco x Reader Mini-Series PART 2
PART 1
Summary: PART 2Â ! of Draco falling in love with reader during his sixth year (HBP) and dealing with the consequences of opening his heart to someone.Â
Warnings: angst !!! but just a little fluff as always, BLOOD, violence, more crying, very detailed sectumsempra scene, mentions of death
Words: 4.9K
A/N: omg i canât believe so many people liked the first one and to everyone who left me a comment, I appreciate you so much you have no idea plsss you guys are so beautiful. but here is part 2 and I hope you guys like it as much as the first oneee !!!!!!!! this one got dramatic. Iâm thinking of doing a part 3, but Iâm not sure and i also want to make it be mostly fluff so PLS let me knowww <3 i do not own gif.Â
It was an awful feeling; the feeling of needing a specific someone to bring him a peace he so very much lacked in his life. It was a feeling of not being able to feel joy unless he had you by his side. He felt stupid and pathetic knowing he had made an even bigger mess of himself and regrettably of you. He felt more weak too, wondering to himself why he couldnât stop crying and do what he needs to do without several potions or you with him to get him through the day.Â
He didnât want to need anyone. He didnât want to need help. He didnât want to need advice.
âWhy canât I just do this?â he cried to himself one night in the room of requirement, kicking something by his foot across the floor in frustration. He stared at the dead bird in hopelessness, not wanting to move it from its spot in the vanishing cabinet. He had managed to send inanimate objects, but not living things and that was only a discovery he was able to make when you were still in his life.
It had been weeks, since he left you under the tree, broken and in tears. He regressed back into to his old ways of lacking proper self care, of sleeping and eating, his studies being the last thing on his mind, him distancing himself from his Slytherin friends again. It was right back to square one, maybe even below that this time.
In Potions, he didnât dare look at you, ever. He moved to a seat in the very back of the class where he would be hidden from you and could sulk to himself in peace.
âMr. Malfoy, forgive me as it is none of my business, but why are you no longer working with Miss Y/L/N?â Slughorn asked him one day as he came by to grade his potion.
âIt is nothing of concern, Professor,â Draco answered bitterly, holding back the scowl that wanted to show but deciding against being any more rude to authority. âI just rather work by myself.â
âItâs a shame, Mr. Malfoy, you both were my star pupils,â Slughorn mixes the potion around, eyeing it with a frown. âNow the both of you are falling behind. This potion is not passing, you forgot to mix in the dried periwinkle leaves.â
Draco never noticed how you would glance at him throughout Potions class. Of course, he was ignoring you and you felt that nasty realization every time your eyes landed on the platinum blond.
You felt numb, to say the least. You cried for days and days on end. If you werenât in class, you were in your dorm, wrapped underneath the covers wondering why someone you shared so much love and time with had dropped you with no explanation. You tried endlessly to get him to talk to you, cornering him in the corridors, going up to him in class, but he would ignore you until you went away. He never once met your eyes, and your heart broke more every time you saw the coldness in his icy grayâs that made you feel like you didnât even exist to him.
Your roommates and friends had gotten involved, forcing you to take better care of yourself. Staying up and hugging you while you cried. Bringing you meals from the Great Hall into the dorm. Brushing your hair when it started to become matted. Encouraging you to divulge yourself in studies rather than your sadness.
âY/N, you are so much more than what youâre feeling,â your closest friend whispered to you one night as you cried in her embrace. âYou canât keep going like this. Itâs okay to cry and be sad, but this is eating you up. Remember how strong you are. Remember the healer you are trying to be. Youâve helped so many people, inside and out, let your friends help you now.â
You nodded sadly, and finally accepted the help your friends had been trying so desperately to give you. You allowed them to take you out into the Great Hall again for meals. To Hogsmead for a fun day out. To the courtyard where you guys would sit and just talk. It was nice, feeling your old and normal life coming to light again even if it was just for a couple hours. But when you couldnât sleep at night and your mind wandered off to Draco, you felt that same empty feeling of a gaping hole in your heart sting at you.Â
There was nothing you could do or say anymore. The cornering him was getting desperate and made you feel weak. The ignoring was never going to stop. You didnât cry anymore, forcing yourself to bottle up your feelings for him deep down into your mind, body and spirit to the point where you just tried your best to recognize him as a dream.Â
Your brain didnât know any better, right?
â§ïœ„ïŸ: *â§ïœ„ïŸ:*
Draco sat on the floor of his dorm, head resting against the side of his bed as he twiddled with the letter from his mother between his fingertips. His owl, Aquila, sat beside him and enjoyed the loving pets he was giving her with his other hand. It was rare she let him do this, but he figured it was because she felt that he might have possibly needed this. She nibbled on a crumb of a biscuit he gave her that she had brought with her on her journey from home. Draco sighed and opened the letter again, his eyes scanning over the perfect cursive of his motherâs handwriting once more.
My Dearest Draco,
     How are you, my love? I feel as though we have gone too long without writing to each other. I must say, the Manor feels lonely without you and your father here, but the house elves have been keeping me company. They are quite entertaining, some of them. I do hope you enjoy the small pastries I sent with Aquila that the elves also send on their behalf.Â
I know the pain you are feeling, my son. I know it wears at you and I am deeply sorry that I cannot change it or help you. Please do entrust in Professor Snape, as he is the only one who can help you and understands your circumstances. You cannot get through this alone.
Please also remember that you are just a boy. In these times of turmoil, it is easy to lose yourself in your own despair. You are young, Draco, only 16 years of life and it has already failed you. Please find it in your heart to locate the little several joys in life that keep you going. Despite your situation, It is okay to be that 16 year old boy and revel in those joys for as long as you can before it is too late and they are no longer there. Do not succumb, it is what he wants.Â
I will always love you, and I hope to see you soon.Â
All my love,
Mother
He felt tears sting at his eyes, clutching the letter to his chest as if his mother had charmed it with the feeling of a hug. It wasnât, but he swore he could feel it. He felt sad, knowing she was all alone in that house, but suddenly remembered that his aunt was seeking refuge with her at the Malfoy Manor and his mother left it out for the sake of keeping Bellatrixâs location secret. Seeing as she was a maddened Ex/Present Death Eater and escaped prisoner on the run. The thought of Bellatrix left a bitter and foul taste in his mouth, making him feel even worse that his mother was stuck at home with that beast who was nearly as bad as the Dark Lord himself. He didnât care that that was her sister, his aunt, she had no empathy for anything, especially not for him. He recalls her telling him right before he went to school, that he should be grateful and honored for being entrusted with a task so important.
As much as Draco wanted nothing to do with his tasks, he didnât ignore them. He begrudgingly let Bellatrix teach him Occlumency, something he desperately needed to learn and was now a little good at. He had even tried convincing himself that he needed to do this. It was all up to him. He was chosen for this. He hated it, but he was chosen nonetheless. And he would try with everything to save his family and to make them proud, even if it killed him.
He ignored the thoughts of his aunt and his dreadful life options, refocusing on the words his mother wrote to him. They echoed in his mind, imagining her saying them to him.Â
âIt is okay to be that 16 year old boy and revel in those joys for as long as you can before it is too late and they are no longer there.â
His mind wandered to you, knowing full and well you were are the one and only joy in his life he so deeply desires. His motherâs words hit him hard, to the point where he almost ran out of his room to go look for you. Almost.
But he was stubborn and still couldnât pull himself out of the mindset he had boxed himself in where he thought being with you would be worse in the end for you than not being with you.Â
So he went over to his desk, Aquila following him before flying up to the wooden surface where she perched herself in front of him as he sat down and pulled out a parchment and quill to begin his responding letter for his mother. He thanked her for the pastries, told her he would try his best in confiding in Snape, loosely promised he would fulfill her wishes of him finding some happiness, and gave her his love. He gave the letter to Aquila, smoothing the feathers on the top of her head one last time before she chirped and flew to the window and then out of his room and into the open dark starry sky.Â
ïżœïżœïżœïœ„ïŸ: *â§ïœ„ïŸ:*
More weeks had gone by. And then a month. You were seeing less and less of Draco and for a healing heart, it was the best thing for you, but also the worst. He had even began skipping class as much as he could, not that anyone ever noticed, except you and Slughorn of course.
âMiss Y/L/N, may I have a word?â Slughorn came up to you while you were working on a potion with your friend. The same friend who had given up her seat to Draco who she now despised and regretted ever doing in the first place. She gave you and the professor a look before getting up and heading to the front of the class where she began to pick up vials and jars to store the potion.
âOf course, Professor,â you answer with a polite smile.
âI spoke to Mr. Malfoy about a month ago, he seemed rather distraught,â he began, placing a finger over his chin in thought. âIâm beginning to grow worried of the boy! Is there a reason heâs no longer showing up to class?â
You swallowed thickly before responding, âyour guess is as good as mine, Professor.â
âAh, well, one mustnât pry too much,â he says. âAlso, Iâm pleased to see your marks improving in the last couple weeks. Keep up the good work, Miss Y/L/N.â
And with that the professor turned around and left to go check on other students, your friend returning.
âWhatâd he want?â She asked, setting the supplies down on the table.
âWanted to know about, Mr. Malfoy,â you mocked quietly, your voice turning bitter when the name left your lips.Â
You knew Dracoâs disappearance was your fault and you felt that twang of hurt beat against your chest thinking about it. That whole conversation with the Professor killed your entire mood. It wasnât great to begin with, but the feeling of nothing had turned into hurt.Â
You were roughly stirring the cauldron, preparing to put the nearly finished potion into the two large jars so it could sit overnight. They were right beside your arm and you felt your elbow collide with the glasses, cringing internally when you heard them crash onto the ground and shatter. Luckily there was nothing in them, but you had still made a mess of glass. In your heat of embarrassment and with the people are you now staring at you, you forgot you could easily clean up your mess with magic so like a klutz, you instead bent down to pick up the shards of glass that scattered the floor with your bare hands.
A loud gasp left your mouth as you began to pick them up, feeling the largest piece of glass in your palm deeply slash the skin of your hand. You dropped it, feeling the blood begin to drip down your arms and onto the floor.
âOh no, Y/N,â your friend sighed from above you, gripping onto your other arm and lifting you up. âAre you okay?â
The question was meant for your hand, but you felt it hit your soul just as it did whenever someone asked you that question when you were so overwhelmingly not okay. You shook your head no, the pain from your hand and your heart taking over you completely as tears began to trickle down your face.Â
Slughorn came up to the table, waving his wand over the mess of the floor and fixed the damage done to the vases and making the small puddle of blood disappear.
âClass is dismissed, students, you are free to go to the Great Hall for lunch,â Slughorn announced and everyone quickly packed up their things and hurried out except for you and your friend. The full-bellied Professor watched you with concern and you turned to your friend where she took your hand in hers and placed it palm up for you.
You shuddered, bringing up your wand to the cut and simply thought your healing spell before watching it completely fade into a faint light pink scar.
âIâm going to explain to Slughorn what happened and put away our stuff,â she says to you, a sad glint in her eyes. âGo clean yourself up and Iâll meet you at our table for lunch with everyone when youâre done.â
You could only pathetically nod before you slung your bag over your shoulder and trudged off into the direction of a bathroom. You decided to go up to Moaning Myrtleâs bathroom, wanting to be alone from everyone so you could clean yourself up in peace and also have a meltdown. You didnât know why you wanted to torture yourself with the ghosted memories you shared with Draco in that bathroom, but you still went.Â
You took your time getting there and you were only down the hall when you saw the entrance. It was then when you heard a familiar ghastly screaming and wailing. It was horribly loud.
âMURDER! MURDER IN THE BATHROOM! MURDER!â
Moaning Myrtle floated from the large wooden double doors, screaming so loud it ricocheted off all the walls of the now deathly silent castle. You felt all the blood drain from your face as an awful and sickening feeling had bubbled in your stomach.
âIt better not be Draco,â you said to yourself, your legs taking longer strides towards the bathroom. âPlease, donât let it be Draco.â
By now, you were sprinting towards the end of the corridor, throwing your bag to the floor as soon as you reached the doors and flung yourself through and into the destroyed bathroom, stepping into a pool of water that had streaks of crimson red. Your eyes followed the trail of blood, stopping suddenly when you found the source.
A blood-curdling scream twice as loud and stronger than Myrtleâs, left your throat as you tripped over your own feet to reach him. You saw Harry Potter, standing a little ways by the door, a panicked and pained look in his eyes as he tried to understand what he had just done.Â
Once you reached Dracoâs nearly lifeless body covered in angry red gashes, you fell next to him, his eyes finally meeting yours for the first time in ages. He was breathing raggedly in choked grunts, clutching at his mauled chest as he struggled to breath. The stormy eyes you loved so much were clouded in fear. Nothing but fear.
You shoved your hand into your pocket, searching for your wand and pulled it out hastily. You shakily waved it over his cuts, thinking and saying any spell you knew that came to your mind in the matter of 5 seconds. This was what you did. This was all you did. Why couldnât you heal him? None of your spells worked.
âI, I canât heal you,â you sobbed, resorting to putting your hands over his chest at a failing attempt to stop the bleeding. âIâm sorry, Iâm so sorry.â
ân...o,â Draco said weakly and quietly. He mustered up all his remaining strength and placed a bloodied hand over yours, you grabbed it tightly and leaned over him when you realized he was trying to speak. âS-sorry. lo...ve. y...ou.â
It felt like there was a knife in your chest being repeatedly stabbed into your heart and twisted. His eyes closed and you cried harder, knowing you were going to lose him. Everything was happening so fast. You had only been in the bathroom a solid 10 seconds, everything around you moving in a slow blur but so quickly.
It was as if Merlin had answered your pleas, the sound of the door slammed open and a maddened looking Snape rushed inside, pushing Harry roughly to the side and looking down at Draco and then you only momentarily before dropping to his knees beside him and opposite of you.
âVulnera sanentur,â he began running his wand over the cuts on Dracoâs chest and you watched with wide teary eyes as the blood pooling around you began to retreat back into the wounds. He said it again, and once the blood was back in, the cuts began to close. He chanted it one last time, and the cuts had healed into thick and reddened scars. âMiss Y/L/N, please help Draco over to the hospital wing for some dittany, and quickly please. We might be able to help with the scarring, perhaps avoid it completely. I need to deal with, Potter.â
Draco was half conscious, a dazed and confused look in the gray of his eyes as they fluttered open and closed. You noticed the scar beginning to form on his paled face and you bit back a sob. You knew if that scar stayed there, it would only drive him into a deeper hatred for himself.
You quickly got up, Snape picking up Draco and throwing his arm over your shoulders so that you would be able to help him over to the hospital wing which luckily happened to be a hall away from the bathroom. The adrenaline and sheer love for the boy was pumping through your body which had made you feel stronger in basically carrying Draco through the halls. He was dragging his feet, mumbling incoherently and you couldnât stop crying.
You saw the doors to the hospital wing open, Madam Pomfrey staring at the scene heading towards her in horror.Â
âDITTANY!â you called to her. She threw open the doors wider, nodding before she ran back inside in a hurry. A passing seventh year Hufflepuff had dropped all of his books and his bag and linked arms with Dracoâs free side, helping you take him inside with much more ease. Madam Pomfrey yelled to rest Draco on the nearest bed and she quickly returned with the dittany, shooing the both of you away from him.
âIâm afraid the two of you are going to have to leave, immediately,â she demands, her hand reaching up to grab the privacy curtain before shielding her and the love of your life from you and the prying eyes of shocked students gathered at the doorway to see what had happened. The Hufflepuff that had helped was already out the door, but you couldnât bring your legs to move.
âAway from the door!â McGonagall suddenly appeared from behind the crowd of students, a disgruntled look etched into her aged skin. âReturn to your houseâs common rooms! That goes for you too, Miss Y/L/N.â
She gently placed both her hands on either of your shoulders, guiding you outside the door and out of the hospital wing. She gave you an empathetic glance before grabbing the handles of the doors and shutting them with a loud clang.
The lingering students stared at you in discomfort and grimaces. You looked around, still in a daze and then looked down at your body. You were drenched in blood and water, looking straight out of a horror movie and closely resembling the clothing of the Bloody Baron, Slytherinâs house ghost.
Everything still felt quiet and slow. You didnât even notice your friends rushing towards you in hysterics, throwing you in hugs as you only stood there, unable to react. You let them pull you away, leading you to your houseâs common room, tripping every now and then. You caught a glimpse of Moaning Myrtle in the distance, her cries still very loud and apparent. She had gone around the entirety of Hogwarts wailing the same news that had broken you, only this time you heard the new choice words she had added along the way.
âMURDER! MURDER IN THE BATHROOM! MURDER! HARRY POTTER HAS MURDERED DRACO MALFOY!â
â§ïœ„ïŸ: *â§ïœ„ïŸ:*
You sat immobile on the edge of your seat besides Dracoâs hospital bed. Much to your surprise, Madam Pomfrey had allowed you to stay overnight with the fallen Slytherin Prince. You recognized it might be her way of paying you back from all your countless volunteering and because of that, she trusted you in knowing exactly what to do when it came to the medical field of the wizarding world.
It was around three in the morning, the incident having happened well past twelve hours ago. You were showered now and in a fresh pair of robes, your pajamas holding in your warmth as a cold draft flowed throughout the dark dimly lit room. The hospital wing was tall and large, it felt like a castle in itself, and it only made you feel more feeble. You scooted your chair closer to the bed, placing a hand onto the mattress right next to Dracoâs paled slender hand.
Fingertips ghosted over his knuckles, your body shivering at the closeness of the near contact. You didnât know how he was going to react when he woke up. It was all a waiting game, and your heart squeezed with anxiety as you awaited his regained consciousness. You didnât forget the words he said to you right before he slipped away. They rang and rattled in your head like a pinball game on loop.
He had told you he loved you.
The thought of him dying and you never being able to tell him you felt the same haunted you. You thanked Merlin that Snape got there when he did. You also made a mental note to hex Harry into the oblivion the next time you got a chance.Â
You sighed deeply, your voice quavering as your ran a hand through your tangled hair. His face glistened under the orange lamp on the bedside table, his skin tinged with a grayish undertone and his eye bags deep and dark. The scar you had seen on his face earlier was gone, the skin now just holding a skinny reddened line going across his features as if he was just hit with something. You smiled slightly, knowing it would be gone in the morning and feeling grateful for him that he wouldnât be scarred with it.
His body was covered in a hospital gown and bandages infused with dittany, but seeing how bad his cuts were before they healed, you knew those would leave something behind no matter what. In your studying towards becoming a Healer, you read about the effects of dark magic and the marks it left behind on its victims. You didnât know what spell had done what it did to Draco, but it was violent and radiated with darkness.Â
The softness of his his skin was met under yours, your hand finally allowing itself to fall over his and you let out a sharp exhale at the touch. It wasnât like earlier when you were holding onto him for dear life, rough and filled with fear and pain, this time it felt familiar. It felt warm despite the coldness of your skin and his. You shook quietly, another set of tears rippling through your body as you tried your best to not wake him. You sat up and slowly leaned over him, looking down at him to observe his peaceful features. He slept soundly and peacefully, his breathing even and quiet. Even though he almost died earlier today, he looked as though he was having the best sleep of his life. The sleep he gravely needed but seemed to never be able to get.Â
Your free hand softly rested on his cheek now and you carefully moved your lips towards his forehead where you placed a long kiss. A stray tear had fallen onto his skin as you pulled away and you frowned, wiping it away with your sleeve before moving your hand up towards his hair. You smoothed it back, the soft blond strands feeling like silk between your fingers. He was a dream, an angel to you. You stood by what you had told him that unfortunate day under the tree, he was good, and you would tell him again and again until he believed it himself.
Just as you pulled back from him, a sharp gasp erupted and he shot up in bed, grabbing and tearing at his gown as breathless quick pants fell from his lips.Â
âHey, Draco, Iâm here, youâre okay, relax,â you coo gently, grabbing his hands and holding them tightly in yours so he wouldnât tear his bandages. Your heart battered against your chest, the waterworks in your eyes beginning all over again. He stared at you, searching your eyes and he began to cry too. The same broken and deep sobbing from months ago you had grown accustomed to hearing.Â
He threw himself onto you, crying even harder as his arms wrapped around you, his hand on the back of your head pressing you into his chest. You climbed into the bed in deep shaky breaths so that you were now sitting on your knees between his legs. It was overwhelming, to put it lightly, both of you crying into each other as you remembered the fall out, the lonely days and nights, the wasted opportunities, the endless missing of one anotherâs presence in their lives.
âIâm sorry,â Draco chokes out. âI never meant to hurt you. I thought that by pushing you away, you would be safer, but I canât do it anymore. I need you, I love you, Y/N.â
You cradled him in your arms, rocking the two of you back and forth, and you shook your head reverently.
âI forgave you the second I thought I was going to lose you,â you respond quickly. âMerlin, Draco, you scared me to death. I thought you were gone.â
The same words from his mother echoed in his head again and he finally understood what they meant.Â
âIt is okay to be that 16 year old boy and revel in those joys for as long as you can before it is too late and they are no longer there.â
Darkness was going to arrive one way or another, it was going to steal the rest of whatever life he had left in him one day. It was out of his hands, out of his control. The time to live his life was now. Because he didnât know when he would ever have this opportunity of love again, of safety, of light. Everything was undefined and unknown and he felt the anguishing regret of all his decisions when he had seen you in the bathroom hovering over him with a hopeless look in your eyes. He promised himself, to Merlin and to the sun, the moon and all the stars that in the 1% chance that he survived that close call with death, he would never abandon you again. His heart pained at the memory of him trying to sputter out his final âI love you,â not knowing whether or not you heard it or if you understood how genuinely he had meant it.
The room was only filled with sniffles and shaky breathing, both of you still in the same rocking position, afraid that if you let each other go, the other is going to disappear.
âDraco,â you say, lifting his head up from the crook of your neck so that he could look you in the eyes. âI love you, too. More than youâll ever know. Please donât ever, ever leave again.â
âNot in a million years, darling.â
PART 3
#draco malfoy#draco x reader#draco malfoy x reader#draco malfoy imagine#draco malfoy x you#draco malfoy x hufflepuff!reader#draco malfoy x ravenclaw!reader#draco malfoy x gryffindor#draco malfoy x slytherin#draco x you#draco imagine#draco fanfiction#draco malfoy x female reader#draco malfoy fanfiction#draco malfoy angst#draco malfoy x y/n#draco malfoy fluff#draco malfoy series#harry potter writing#harry potter imagine#harry potter#draco x y/n
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
đđ„đŁđđšđđđŁđŁđđđ€, đđđđŁđŁđđđ€ đđđ đđ đđđđđ'đ€ đđđ€đ€ đđ đ€đĄđŁđđđ. đ„
yandere! Ana (I, the author) x gn! reader.
â„ïž DISCLAIMER: This was written for pure and simple fun! I do not behave like this in real life, nor do I act like this. I gathered some descriptions that my friends gave me of myself and I simply twisted them to fit the yandere trope. This is for entertainment purposes ONLY! If someone you know behaves like this, get away from them as fast as you possibly can! With that said, I hope you enjoy the show.
The bright rays of sunlight illuminated the park, soft yellow hues going straight through the newly born green leaves, cascading down upon the pair that lay on the grass. Children ran all over, with their laughter that rang in the air, the new sounds of life came forward the more time they spent there. Even with the endless chatter of the people that surrounded them the pair could only ever focus on each other, stuck in their own little world. Ana couldn't stop smiling as she looked down at her (y/n), a happy smile on her face. She toyed with (y/n)'s hair as they made themselves comfortable on her lap, enjoying the softness of her thighs. Sighing, Ana looked up at the clear blue sky. There was not a single cloud that could taint the pure blue sky, and Ana felt exactly the same - nothing could ruin this moment for her. This picnic date had been in the making for weeks now but the wait had made everything so much sweeter in the end. The food itself was beyond delicious, but being in the company of her sweetheart just made her heart soar with joy. How lucky was she to have this incredible person in her life, she wondered? What did she do to have the most perfect sweetheart in the whole wide world? The intensity of the sudden emotions were getting to her, she would not allow herself to cry, not here. She can't let this sweet moment be ruined by her pathetic self pity, she would not allow it. Biting the inside of her cheek she did her best to cover up her sudden sobs as coughs, but even then she could not stop smiling. Sensing the sudden movement (y/n) lightly pinched her knee, teasing her. Closing their eyes they smiled, happy to be where they were.
Life was so hard, but Ana was always so optimistic. No matter what kind of situation they faced, she always did her best to support (y/n). They became friends quite quickly and Ana had suddenly sneaked into (y/n)'s heart, stealing the key and refusing to give it back. Ana had a bit of a reputation of being a little thief, and it was well deserved. Ever the tease she'd kiss her sweetheart to sleep if she could, tickling them in order to tire them out further.
Inching closer downwards, she pressed her lips at the top of (y/n)'s head, leaving a gentle kiss in her wake. A bit of her red lipstick left a stain but she didn't mind, she quite liked it in fact. Let the whole world that (y/n) was with her and that they were happy together, she was shameless when it came to that. She became worried all of a sudden, paranoid thoughts swimming through her mind as she worried that these moments would be over far too soon. How could she ever be sure that things could stay like this? Is she good enough to keep her little angel? There were so many incredible people in the world, people who were far more beautiful than her, and their intelligence was unmatched. Ana sometimes wondered why (y/n) was with her to begin with, but she wasn't going to look a gift horse in the mouth. She was going to enjoy her blessings for as long as she could.
She felt a little ashamed of herself though, for feeling so jealous as often as she did. Her insecurities would skyrocket whenever (y/n) would talk to someone that wasn't her. She did her best to get as much information as she could, always questioning (y/n). Where they were, with who they were, what they were doing, the whole nine yards. (y/n) never really thought much about it though, as Ana never really did anything harmful in the end. She was just a little nosy, nothing too off. In her eyes, Ana was a happy, bubbly person that couldn't hurt another soul. (y/n) could never know about Ana's darker side, Ana did her best to cover that up. If (y/n) knew just how many people Ana had scared away from them, how many people kept their bruises hidden from view, the fear of Ana coming back would linger deep in their subconsciousness. She was a beast when she wanted to be, but (y/n) would receive nothing but the softest of kisses and hugs. It was what they deserved, at the very least.
â„ïž TAGS: @sammo-writes-whatever
#yandere#yancore#yanderecore#yandere aesthetic#yandere x reader#yandere imagines#yandere x you#yandere scenarios
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
Catch Me if You Can-Laws of Attraction (Part 2) đ
Summary: After weeks of flirting, teasing, and close calls, Tessa is ready to take the plunge, but can Gabe overcome his own worse fears and join her?
Pairing: Gabe Ricci x Main Character (Tessa Michaels)
Link to my Master-List and Other works will be added once they have been re-edited and re-uploaded.
Catch up with Part 1 Here: Part 1
WARNING: The following story has a đ rating, meaning there will be topics ofÂ
NSFW
Smut
Strong Language
By viewing of this work, you are acknowledging and consenting to the fact that you are 18+ years of age and can view such works.
Tagging: @choices-addict @choiceskatie @lady-calypso @chemist-ana @kat-tia801 @chrissythomas05-blog @nishas-paradise  @blainehellyes  @suitfer @pixelnutrookie  @queen-arabella-of-cordonia @adiehardfan @panda9511 @curiousconch @weaving-in-words @mm2305 @thegreentwin
I love you all so much, and I will see you again soon!
_________________________
If you hesitate, opportunities will pass by you So open your heart and come out    -Girls Generation, The Boys (Korean Ver.)
The hotel cafĂ© the following morning was full of delicious, mouth-watering smells and buzzing conversations of the guests milling around, families excitedly planning for the day ahead or business associates discussing their upcoming ventures and other current events. In the back corner of the room next to the sheer curtains covering the early morning Boston sun, Gabe Ricci halfheartedly pokes his fork around the scrambled mess of eggs barely eaten in front of him, his head resting on a propped fist as his eyes struggle to stay open as a dull headache thumps in his head. He lifts his fork to take another bite of eggs, but his stomach lurches at the sight, and he drops the fork with a clatter. He reaches out to pour himself another cup of coffee, but he curses under his breath when he realizes the pot he ordered was empty. He tries to catch the attention of a passing waiter, but his eyes instead slide to a couple sitting a few tables away from him, their fingers laced together on the table as they share an intimate conversation punctuated by giggles and kisses across the otherâs knuckles. The sight makes his stomach ache in guilt as the events of last night play like a never-ending repeat of a bad movie in his mind.
He knows there is no one else to blame; he is the one solely responsible for the shitty mess between him and Tessa. If he just gave her the obvious answer last night, he wouldnât be sitting in the back corner on the verge of a hangover and close to passing out in his eggs. Instead, the two of them would be upstairs in his suite, her hair splayed out over one of the pillows as their limbs tangle together underneath the soft sheets draping over their naked bodies. Or, they would be eating breakfast in bed and watching the sun rise behind the towering skyscrapers as they share intimate little details about each other. Yet here he was, sitting down here and looking pathetically ridiculous as he stares a hole into his eggs like they held the answer to the question of why he was down here and not upstairs.
But Gabe already knows why he is sitting down here.
He is afraid that Tessa would reject him once things got serious.
Gabe Ricci, the man who stares down opposing attorneys and judges in a packed courtroom is afraid of something like rejection from a woman. The man who is confidently sure of himself and goes toe to toe with some of the greatest legal minds of the current day is afraid of being told âno.â The whole situation seems entirely laughable, and Gabe would completely understand if people saw it that way. But those people didnât know about the one specific incident all those years ago that completely changed the course of his life and made him the way he is today.
Gabe considers himself to be an âall or nothingâ person, devoting one hundred percent of himself to everything in his life, whether it was his job, himself, his relationships, and even his love life. It was his âall or nothingâ, caring attitude that brought him to the door of the New York Public Defenderâs office. Being a public defender was never going to be a smooth sailing job, but even with the obstacles in front of him, Gabe still defended his clients with everything he had. But at the end of the day, his âall or nothingâ attitude was still not enough. He had little to no victories to back up his expertise and knowledge, and the passion he had for the legal field dwindled with every âguiltyâ verdict that felt like a swift punch to the gut. The workload was becoming overbearing with each passing year, and eventually, Gabe started questioning his own abilities and confidence. He found himself trapped in a never-ending nightmare with no chance of escape.
Even though his job was becoming a literal hell, he could always count on the one bright spot in his life at the time.
Katrina.
Katrina was everything Gabe hoped to find in a partner. She was kind, intelligent, caring. The two of them had an incredible whirlwind romance, and Gabe felt like he was walking on Cloud Nine when she was around. She was the one person who made everything feel better after a hard day. She was the one person who motivated him to push forward, encouraging him and giving him belief that one day, things would become better than what they were. She was the first person Gabe had met who he truly believed shared his same attitude of âall or nothingâ, and their relationship grew more serious with each passing day. The future of their relationship came to a head one night in Central Park, where Gabe found himself on one knee in front of her with a glittering diamond ring in his hand, ready to fully go âall inâ and spend the rest of his life with her. However, two little words made the intense romance they once shared fizzle out and leave his spirits firmly crushed. She rejected him in Central Park, and a week later, she moved out of his apartment and out of his life, the two of them unable to rekindle the romance they once shared despite their best efforts.
The pain of her rejection made him a closed-off shell of his former self. He never socialized after work or on the weekends unless he absolutely had to, and if he did, he hardly spoke to anyone unless the situation called for it. His work continued to suffer as he couldnât find the heart and motivation to defend his clients as well as he knew he could. But one day after a trial, Sadie McGraw cornered him and offered him a second chance, a chance to start over and become the lawyer she knew he could become. With her help and guidance, Gabe slowly started rediscovering himself as a lawyer. The power she had given him combined with his knowledge and expertise pulled in big wins for the firm and moved him up towards the top ranks of McGraw Byrne. He was rediscovering his passion for the legal field and helping others. People began to congratulate him on his wins and praise his incredible devotion to the firm.
While he wouldnât argue his devotion to the job, it wasnât the sole reason he stayed long nights or came to work early in the morning. Every time he went back to his apartment after work, the sliver of happiness he felt and the boisterous conversations of the office became replaced by dreaded loneliness and cold quietness. The solitary confines of his apartment were a constant, mocking reminder of what he didnât have anymore, a reminder of her rejection all those years ago. The office became a safe space of sorts for him, and he dreaded leaving its comfort. With the companyâs generosity, Gabe secured a new, better apartment where he could make new memories and not be constantly reminded of bitter ones. The one thing the company couldnât help him with was finding the one person who made him feel even a tenth of what Katrina made him feel. He never shied away from going out on dates as he attempted to move on with his life, but no one understood his passion, commitment, and devotion the way Katrina did. Plenty of people managed to catch his attention, but no one came close enough to keep it.
Until Tessa walked through the doors.
Gabe had discovered her the same way Sadie did, and he knew she would be a perfect addition to McGraw Byrne when Sadie opened up spots on the team. He had firsthand knowledge of her legal expertise, and he knew she fully devoted herself to her clients and used the knowledge she continued to learn in order to help them. However, while she managed to capture his attention, she was the only one who managed to keep it. She is incredibly beautiful; there was no denying that fact. But seeing her in action shined a completely different light on her. She goes above and beyond for her clients, and she willingly and gladly steps up and takes initiative when needed. She isnât afraid to go toe-to-toe with some of the best attorneys in the state. Passion flows out of her like a waterfall, and it shows in her work. She is quick-witted and sharp, her eyes and mind never missing a single detail, and Gabe was not only impressed, but insanely captivated by her.
He initially didnât think much of their constant flirting in the office or their dinner outings together, especially since Tessa flirted with the fireman for her eviction case. He was a little jealous she flirted with someone else, but since her flirting charmed the fireman into giving her more information than needed, she pulled in a massive win for the firm, and Gabe simply brushed it off and chalked up the flirting as part of her charm. It wasnât until the cancelled business dinner that Gabe realized what was between them was more than just their typical flirting. He was catching real feelings for her, no matter how much he tried to deny it. While he did acknowledge his feelings for her, his heart was still too guarded and afraid to act on them. Tessa was the first girl he had serious feelings for since Katrina left him. He didnât know if Tessa even felt the same way he did, nor did he know if he would be able to repair it again if his relationship with Tessa ended the same way like Katrina.
But deep down in his gut, he knew that Tessa was different from Katrina. It was a feeling he couldnât put a logical reason on, but a gut feeling, one that you just know is true even if you couldnât explain it. She was the first person Gabe felt genuinely happy with in a long time. Gabe not only believed in a future with her, he could also picture it. Everything he pictured and every interaction they have together doesnât feel awkward or forced. It feels natural andâŠright. Aside from that, Tessa showed time and time again that she wants to be with him. If she didnât, she wouldâve turned down every invitation he gave her, and she wouldnât have gone out of her way to make sure they spend a few moments alone together whenever they can. Tessa already made her feelings about him clear last night, and she was ready to risk the opportunity at becoming partner at one of the countryâs premier law firms. She was more than willing to risk it if it meant having him.
Could he really do the same and risk his comfort for her?
_________________________
The morning sun spills into the living room of the hotel suite as the remains of Tessaâs in-room breakfast lay scattered across the coffee table. A re-run of celebrity chef Everett Flyntâs new TV show plays in the background as she busies herself in the bathroom, putting on the last touches of preparations for the day ahead. Once satisfied with her appearance, she pads back out into the bedroom and opens the closet to find an outfit for the day. When her fingers graze the powder blue dress she wore to the cocktail party last night, her task becomes forgotten as her mind flashes back to the night before, her stomach aching at the bitter taste of the memory.
The weekend conference had started off so well with everyone laughing and joking like the best of friends. The cocktail party went off without a hitch, and she managed to score some huge connections with distinguished judges and other lawyers. Everything about the weekend was absolutely perfect, until she decided to stick around and have a late-night snack and drink with Gabe and confessed her harbored feelings toward him. Looking back, the idea to share them was not one of her finer moments; she was certain Gabe and her would take the next steps of their relationship after confessing their feelings for each other, but instead, Gabe did the same thing he always does when they get close to crossing a line. He quickly doused the growing flame and pushed her away once again.
She grabs an outfit from the closet and starts getting dressed, her eyes glancing over at her bed and seeing a few jet-black streaks on the pillowcase, a reminder of what happened last night after she walked away from him. But it also reminds her she canât keep running back to him and giving him chance after chance. As much as it hurts to walk away from him and what they potentially could have, she knows deep down she will be better off in the long run for doing so. She couldnât open her heart and let someone inside only to have him lock her out of his. It was Gabeâs turn to return the favor, and this time, his words were no longer going to be enough. It was time for his actions to match his words and feelings, and until they did, Tessa has to move forward with her life.
She finishes getting dressed and fixes the loose strands of hair that got out of place. She glances at the alarm clock on her nightstand, seeing it is still too early for the company cars to come take them back to New York. Just as she was about to lounge on the couch and distract herself with Everett Flyntâs TV show, a loud knock reverberates through the space.
It couldnât beâŠcould it?
Mind curious, she makes her way over to the door and peeks out of the peephole, her stomach flipping circles as her pulse quickens at the sight of Gabe standing right behind the door. She takes a deep breath and opens the door to see him standing there with his hands shoved in his pockets and his feet shuffling nervously. His actions make her more nervous than excited; Gabe normally acts so confident and sure of himself, and to see him act completely not himself makes tension creep into her thoughts.
âHiâŠâ Gabe says with a rare, bashful smile as he flicks his eyes down to his shoes. âCan weâŠâ he rubs the back of his neck, âcan we talk?â
Seeing him in front of her makes her feel the sting of his rejection all over again, and she has half a mind to slam the door in his face and finally give him a taste of how it feels to be rejected. But when he lifts his eyes towards her, her heart twinges in sympathy. The trademark, mischievous twinkle in his eye is no longer there, and his shoulders look like theyâre carrying the weight of the world on them.
âPleaseâŠâ he quietly pleads.
Heâs making the effort you wanted him to make she reminds herself. With a sigh, she gives him a small, almost inscrutable nod, and Gabe flashes her a soft, grateful smile as he shuffles past her, their arms brushing against each other. Tessa tries to force down the warm prick she felt as she shuts the door behind him and follows him to the living room, making sure to keep plenty of space between them, knowing that if she didnât, she would never get the answers to her questions. Gabe takes a look around the room, taking in the half-eaten breakfast and the way she stands with her arms crossed protectively over her chest, the space between them feeling like a chasm as guilt blooms in his chest again. The air was filling with cold tension, and Gabe awkwardly clears his throat, eyes darting around to find something to break the quiet spell.
His eyes land on the TV, and he jumps at the opportunity it presents. âTaste of the World? Isnât this the episode where Everett runs away from the show and the culinary producer he obviously has feelings for?â
âSeems fitting, doesnât it?â Tessa blurts out with a humorless guffaw. Gabe flinches at the sting of her words, and she squeezes her eyes shut in regret, cursing at herself under her breath. As upset as she is, Gabe made the first move. The least she could do is hear him out. âIâm sorry, Gabe. I didnâtâŠâ
âDonât be sorry,â Gabe cuts in. âI deserve that and much more.â He takes a step closer to her, and when she doesnât back up, he continues. âIn any case, you have nothing to be sorry for. None of this is your fault.â
âMaybe it is my fault,â Tessa concedes. âI was being too pushy and trying to force an answer out of you that you clearly werenât ready to tell me.â She uncrosses her arms and drops them back to her sides, a sign that Gabe takes as a good one.
âYou werenât being pushy, Tessa. You were only being honest with me, and no one should ever be blamed for being honest. And youâre right. The show is fitting considering Iâm the one who keeps running away when itâs the last thing I want to do.â
The harsh expression on her face softens into mild surprise. Was he fixing to tell her the real reason he keeps running away? âGabe, all I want to know is why do you keep running when itâs clear that you and I both want this?â
Gabe swallows the lump in his throat, the memory of her rejection rearing its ugly head again. âBecause thatâs exactly what she did.â
Tessa furrows her brows. âWhoâs she?â
âKatrina.â
âWhoâs Katrina?â After a long pause, the lightbulb goes off in her head, and her eyes widen in recognition. âOhâŠâ Her mind goes back to the night of the business dinner and the far-off look Gabe had in his eyes at her question of commitment.
âEven in this city?â she asks him in pure surprise. âYouâve really never found someone whoâs as all-in as you are?â
Gabe looks across the glittering skyline of New York. âI thought I had, onceâŠâ he turns his attention back to her, and Tessa can see the unspoken memory fade from his eyes, âbut that was a long time ago. And as it turns out, I was wrong about her.â
âHowâŠâ she swallows hard, her heart aching in sympathy for him. âHow bad was it, if you donât mind my asking?â
Gabe scratches his stubbled chin and lets out a humorless, bitter chuckle. âLetâs just say I canât get a refund on the ring anymore.â
Her eyes widen into the size of saucers, and her jaw drops open in complete shock. His actions and words suddenly became much more understandable. It explained why Gabe kept running away and avoided crossing the line between playful flirting and serious romance. He thought if he didnât cross those lines and reject her first, she was going to be the one to do it eventually. He refused to act on his feelings because the last time he did, Katrina rejected his proposal and left him. Gabe didnât build the walls around his heart to keep her out. He built them because he was afraid history was going to repeat itself, and he chose to live in his own little bubble of comfort instead of taking another risk, and Tessa couldnât blame him one bit for it.
âIâm really sorry she did that to you, Gabe.â Her feet move closer to him, the space becoming smaller. âI had no idea.â
âDonât worry about it,â he brushes off. âIâve moved on from it. In any case, her rejection changed my life for the better. If she didnât, I probably wouldnât be at McGraw Byrne in the first place, and I never wouldâve met you.â
Tessa fidgets with her ring. âGabeâŠâ she begins, but quickly trails off.
âWhat?â he asks her. âYou know you can say or tell me anything right?â
âI know, butâŠâ she takes another deep breath, forcing herself to say what she was thinking. âDo you really have feelings for me?â
âAbsolutely,â Gabe says, no hesitation in his voice. It makes her heart flutter a bit.
âHave I given you any reason to doubt my feelings for you?â
âNo.â
âSo even knowing all that, you still choose to run away,â she says matter-of-factly.
Gabe flinches at her words, tucking his gaze away from her. âYes.â
âThen you havenât moved on. Not entirely at least.â
Gabeâs eyes snap over to hers as he furrows his brows. âWhat?â
Tessa sighs. âLook Gabe. Youâre absolutely right. If Katrina hadnât rejected your proposal, we never wouldâve crossed paths in a hundred years. ButâŠâ
âBut what?â
âYou still let what she did control you,â Tessa points out. âYou say that youâve moved on, but have you really? I mean, just take a look at what happened last night. The minute we started talking about getting serious, you quickly pushed me away and ran. You did the same thing in Vegas, and you did the same thing at the business dinner too.â
Gabe runs his hand through his hair. âI know I did, and I will always regret my actions. But Iâm willing to give us a chance if you still want that. I like you so much, Tessa, and I know the two of us have something special that is worth so much more than a partnership or my insecurities.â
She eyes him curiously. âAnd what happens if I do give you a chance, Gabe? Are you going to run again?â
âAbsolutely not,â Gabe says firmly, his deep tone making her skin jump in shock. âIâm done running away, Tessa. For good.â
Butterflies flood her stomach as her heart swells at his words, but the sensations only make her feel more guilty for what she was about to say. âGabe, youâre saying all the right words, and I want to believe them so badly. I really do. ButâŠâ
The hopeful expression on his face slowly fades as icy dread floods his veins. âBut you canât?â
Tessa nods dejectedly. âIâm sorry, Gabe. But until you actually show me instead of telling me that you really are done running, and that you really want there to be an âusâ, we canâtâŠâ
Before she could finish her sentence, Gabe takes two quick strides over to her, the space between them shrinking as he gently cups her cheeks in his hands. His thumbs run over her cheekbones, and she instinctively submits to his touch, her mind already forgetting its previous thoughts and focusing solely on the soft, tender caress of his thumbs. She can smell the sharp and heady scent of his cologne, the one that makes her want to bury her face in his chest and breathe him in. She can see each individual eyelash and the sparkling mixture of nerves and pure determination in his eyes. The little puffs of breath from his lips tickle her skin, and her blood rushes and pounds in her ears as she finds herself slipping into his warm, chocolate orbs.
âWhatâŠwhat are you doing?â she asks over the sound of her heart thundering in her chest.
He brings their faces closer together, only centimeters between them. âWhat I shouldâve done a long time ago.â
_________________________
The walls Gabe spent years hiding his heart behind start to crumble as he closes the last inch of space between them. He tentatively presses his lips against hers, a spark of electricity racing through her that makes her scalp prickle. The initial shock of his kiss makes her tense up, a small little whimper coming from her lips, but soon, she finds herself melting into the kiss when Gabe presses his lips firmer to hers. His lips feel like velvet, moving slowly and sensually against hers as her eyes flutter close and her body surrenders to his dizzying kiss. Her arms slide up around his shoulders and tease the little hairs on the back of his neck while he grips her waist and pulls her closer to him, his hand snaking up underneath her shirt and lightly pressing into the bare skin of her lower back. A rush of warmth spreads throughout her body from his touch, and Tessa lets out a small little moan when Gabe gently nibbles on her bottom lip and breaks the kiss. Their foreheads touch together, their breaths mixing as all their unspoken feelings and desires pass between them in this silent, intimate moment.
She shyly bites her lip and looks up at him through her lashes only to see him smiling back down at her, his eyes a swirling cocktail of happy relief and fiery desire. Since growing closer to him, she often caught herself wondering when their first kiss was going to happen and what it would be like, and she would gladly admit the real thing was so much better than her imagination and thoughts. It was full of sensual desire, yet sweet tenderness. It was warm and comforting, yet intoxicating and thrilling. It was gentle, yet confident and sure. It was a kiss full of everything she associated with the man holding her in his arms.
âNow do you believe me?â he asks her as he nuzzles his nose with hers. His voice is laced with his signature cockiness, but Tessa detects a slight hint of worry underneath it.
âI think I need a little more convincing than that.â She was more than convinced Gabe meant what he said earlier, but she found some fun in teasing him a little longer. She considers it playful revenge for making her wait all this time for him to finally acknowledge his feelings.
A low groan vibrates in his throat at the floodgate Tessaâs words opens up inside him, and both of them know there is no going back after this. The tip of his tongue darts out and silkily caresses his lower lip as his eyes darken more, the passion and desire he kept locked away and hidden now flowing through his veins and taking control of his thoughts and actions. Tessa shudders at the sound of his groan and the carnal look in his eye, her nerves switching to high alert as the air buzzes with excitement. His hands snake around her waist and down to her ass, pulling her hard against him and relishing in the feel of her body against his. His firm, hard bulge presses into the apex of her thighs, and she feels it grow harder with each passing second. She subtly grinds her hips into the hardness, a pleasant rush of heat pooling between her legs as soft groans fill the surrounding air.
All of his previous fears and doubts dash out of his mind as he firmly crushes his lips to hers in a searing, heated kiss, molding and shaping her lips to his every whim and wish. Her knees wobble at the sudden assault, but his strong arms wrapped around her waist hold her up securely as the air sparks like a colorful firework and showers them in a bright rainbow of light. Her body molds perfectly into his, like two puzzle pieces fitting together perfectly in the picture. Her mind goes dizzy with delight as her hands run over his clothed chest and come to rest on his sculpted shoulders. He shifts his hips ever so slightly, and the friction makes Tessa groan in pleasant surprise. Gabe takes advantage and lightly teases his tongue with hers as the two of them deepen the kiss. When their lungs scream for much-needed air, he sinks his teeth into her bottom lip and tugs it back, breaking the kiss and leaving them gasping for air.
âConvincingâŠenough forâŠyou?â he asks her. âOr doâŠyou need aâŠanother sign?â
Her fingers draw lazy heart-shapes over his own heart, feeling it thunder beneath her touch. âI thinkâŠI need a littleâŠmore.â
She coquettishly flutters her eyelashes and delicately pulls her lower lip between her teeth. The sight makes his cock twitch and punch against the tight confines of his pants, needy and begging for some type of relief, preferably from her. He wraps his fingers around her wrist, halting her movements. Their eyes lock on each other, and slowly, Gabe moves her hand down his torso. She feels the muscles of his stomach subtly flexing and tightening in anticipation, even through the layers of fabric between them. He reaches his belt buckle and stops the movement, his eyes and action asking her the question she already knows the answer to. She gives him a nod, excitement filling up her stomach and making the butterflies flutter. She holds her breath as Gabe guides her hand past his belt buckle, the air becoming thick with anticipation. When her hand finally brushes over his bulge and feels it twitch, the air rushes out of her. Her finger teasingly traces the outline of his bulge, and Gabe sucks in a sharp breath. When she cups him through his pants, the muscles in his jaw tick, head lolling back with a hiss as he surrenders to the sensation of her gentle squeezes.
She runs her palm up and down over his bulge, feeling his cock grow harder and punch painfully against his zipper. With another firmer squeeze of his bulge, the chain holding him back breaks, and with a groan that sounds almost like a growl, their lips find each other again, the built-up passion and desire flowing unrestrained between them as their hands wander and roam over each otherâs bodies. Their kisses break momentarily as Gabeâs sweater is pulled off his body and Tessaâs top goes flying across the room. Her fingers try to unbutton his shirt, but when his lips trail down across her jaw and down to the sensitive skin of her neck, she momentarily says âfuck itâ and rips open his shirt, the buttons flying across the room and ricocheting off the walls and freeing his naked chest to her greedy fingers. He slides the shirt off his body and tosses it with a groan, feeling more turned on than angry at her action. His lips trail back up across her jaw and find her lips again, their tongues dancing together as the kiss deepens and becomes even more erotic and sensual. Her hands caress over his naked torso, the memory of every dip, ridge, and flex of his muscles becoming firmly ingrained in her mind.
Fantasies from long ago are now becoming real. Any semblance of time and reality escapes them. All that mattered is this moment between them. A moment neither of them wants to end. Ever.
âGabeâŠâ she mumbles between kisses. âYou. Bedroom. Now.â Her fingers slide down his abs until they reach the sensitive sliver of skin hidden just behind the waistband of his pants. When shuddering goosebumps flare up over his skin, he grabs her wrist and halts her movement.
âWaitâŠâ Gabe groans after giving her another kiss. âAre you sureâŠyou want to do this? Because once we startâŠI donât ever want it to end.â
The desire and longing in his voice is unmistakable. âWhâŠwhat?â
âI justâŠâ Gabe shakes his head, trying to get his words right. âI donât want you to do anything or commit to anything you might regret later on,â he tells her. âI want this to happen so much. You know how bad I want you right now, but I understand completely if you donât wantâ"
She tugs him forward by his belt and places a hard, chaste kiss to his lips, effectively cutting off his rambling spell. âGabe, I wouldnât have given you my keycard if I didnât want this to happen.â She kisses the tip of his chin, the stubble scratching her lips. âI want this, Gabe.â She presses a kiss on his chest, right over his heart, and the action takes his breath away. âI want you. Only you.â
His grin grows bigger at her admission. âYouâre the only one I want too,â he replies, trailing his finger lightly across her jaw that has her shivering in joy.
Her hands slide back up his torso and wind around his neck, deviousness flashing in her eyes. She hops up and wraps her legs around his waist, his strong arms flexing and catching her without missing a single beat. âThen take me into the bedroom and prove it, Ricci.â
He gives her a smoldering look, and with another moan, his lips kiss the hollow of her throat and trail over to her collarbone, his hands squeezing her ass teasingly and eliciting a gasp from her. She rolls her head back and submits to his scorching kisses and kitten bites on her neck as he makes the short journey into the bedroom. He pulls his lips away from her, and with a wolfish grin and a devilish wink, he tosses her onto the giant bed. Tessa senses the shift in dynamic between them at the sudden, but very much wanted, powerful surge of dominance from him. Seeing him confidently take charge was such a turn-on for her and makes warm tendrils coil and tighten in her core. Gabe quickly toes off his shoes while she sheds her shorts and playfully tosses them in his direction with a giggle. He chuckles at her playfulness and snatches them out of the air. When he turns his attention back to her, her shorts slip out of his grasp as his eyes widen in surprise, his cock twitching in extreme pleasure and appreciation at the sight in front of him.
âFucking. Hell.â He groans, voice gravelly and filled with lust.
His hand reaches down and palms his cock as he drinks in Tessa kneeling in the middle of the bed, wearing nothing except her lacy plunge bra and matching panties as her hair falls over one of her eyes. The sight was so much hotter than the one in his fantasies, and he couldnât wait to rip away the thin fabric and fully see what she was hiding beneath it. She beckons him with a manicured finger, and with the invitation, Gabe hurriedly climbs onto the bed and drapes his hard body overs hers as he kisses her relentlessly. Her peaked nipples brush up against his chest through the tight confines of her bra, pulsing and begging for his attention. He shifts his weight over to one side, propping himself on his forearm as Tessa wraps her arms around his neck. His other hand slides up her side and finds her breast; Gabe softly squeezes and massages it, his thumb and index finger teasing her nipple through the fabric and making it tight with pressure. A jolt of pleasure surges through her when Gabe pinches her nipple, a rush of electricity traveling through her and making her toes curl.
Her hand slides down and pushes on his shoulder, the weight and control shifting as Gabe falls to his back and Tessa drapes her legs over him to straddle his hips, feeling his hard bulge press against her center. She braces herself on the solid planes of his chest, feeling his heartbeat race wildly and his eyes burning holes into her skin as she grinds her hips against him, a smirk fighting its way onto her face as his soft moans and groans fill the room like a symphony and wrap around her like a blanket. Gabe flutters his eyes closed, succumbing to the incredible sensation of her hips moving over his cock. While he normally is the one to take control and dominate in the bedroom, seeing her on top of him, her hips giving him just the right amount of agonizing friction, and being completely at her mercy is the sexiest thing he has ever seen.
When he opens his eyes again, Tessa sees them glazed over with pure lust and unbridled attraction for her, the magnetic energy washing over both of them. âGoddamnâŠâ he hoarsely whispers, the lust in his voice making tingles spiral down her spine.Â
âSee something you like?â she coyly asks him.
âOh, trust me, I donât like this.â His fingers toy with the lacy waistband of her panties, occasionally dipping underneath and teasing the sensitive skin before caressing down her thighs. âI fucking love it. I think you lookâŠoh shitâŠâ his train of thought trails off as she shifts her hips again, sending another wave of bliss washing over him. âI think you look so goddamn sexy.â
The compliment makes liquid heat pool in her core as the air floods with heated desire and erotic passion. She lightly digs her fingernails into his solid chest, seeing the muscles flex before scratching down his torso, sending another shudder through him. âMmmâŠhaving thoughts about me, are you?â
Gabe cocks an eyebrow. âOh, I have plenty of thoughts about you. All of them dirty.â His hands stop their teasing caresses and travel up her thighs. âYou in my bed begging for me.â His fingers graze over her panties, pulling back the waistband and letting it go with a light snap that makes her gasp. âYou wet and pressed up against the wall in my shower.â His hands ghost up her sides until they reach her breasts. âYou bent over my desk in my office.â He cups her breasts and flicks the peaked nipples straining underneath the fabric. âYou on top just like this, riding me. Hard.â
The images flash through her mind, and the muscles in her core tighten in excitement at the possibility of making all of his fantasies come true. âWho knew Gabe Ricci had such dirty thoughts, or that he likes being controlled,â she tells him as her back arches and her chest pushes further into his massaging hands.
One of his hands snakes up behind her back and expertly undoes the clasp on her bra before carelessly tossing it across the room. âJust because youâre on top doesnât mean youâre in control.â
She arches an eyebrow at the challenge in his tone. Her hands wrap around his wrists, and with a flash of devious intent, she pins his wrists into the mattress above his head, her breasts hovering teasingly over him, just far enough out of his reach. âArenât I though?â she grinds against him again, the friction making their skin hot.
The tip of his tongue darts out and silkily swipes over his lips, her eyes transfixing on the movement. The slight distraction is just enough for Gabe to flip her over and pin her underneath him again. The loose tendrils of his hair cover his eyes, a few strands plastered to his slick forehead, giving him a wild and untamed look, and the look makes her squirm as the muscles in her core tighten. âTold you I was in control,â he shoots back. He dips his head down and teasingly kisses her lips, pulling away before she could deepen it. He guides her arms up and pins them above her head. âKeep them there,â he commands.
âWhat if I donât?â she asks him. âWhat are you going to do about it?â
Gabe groans. âLetâs just say that I reward good behavior and punish bad behavior.â He smirks at her. âBut something tells me you enjoy punishments far too much, so I guess Iâll have to come up with something a little different.â
His lips attach to the warm pulse point of her neck, and Tessa sinks into the mattress like it is a warm pool of blissful pleasure. He kisses down the muscle of her neck before licking a wet stripe back up the length of it and giving it little nips and bites as he trails back down. He leaves wet, open-mouthed kisses across her collarbone until he reaches the hollow of her throat. The tip of his tongue traces the outline before placing a kiss directly in the middle of it, and Tessa sucks in a sharp breath. He shifts his body downward as his kisses travel across her chest and down to her breast. He kisses and slowly licks wet circles around her breast, leaving no inch of skin untouched as he comes closer and closer to her nipple with each circle, and Tessa groans at his methodical torture as her nipples throb in pleasure. When he places a kiss directly on her peaked nipple, the air rushes out of her in a moan that sends vibrations flooding through his veins and directly to his cock.
He draws her nipple between his lips and sucks on it while his other hand kneads and molds her other breast, giving her the relief she has been craving from him. He alternates his movements, from sucking on her nipple to giving it gentle little nips and swirls of his tongue while his fingers tug and roll her other nipple. He sharply bites down on her nipple and soothes the sting with his tongue, and Tessa arches hard off the bed at the sweet torture. He shifts his body again as he releases the nipple from his mouth and kisses his way over to her other breast. He gives it the same agonizing torture as the other until both are even more swollen and throbbing. Her hands clench into fists as her eyes squeeze shut, fighting the urge to touch him as every little nip and suck makes her squirm in pleasure.
The tip of his tongue trails down through the valley between her breasts, the action sending blood rushing through her body and making heat pool in her core. As much as she tries to fight it, Tessa gives into the urge to move her hand, and she reaches out and threads her fingers in his dark, soft hair. Immediately, his hand wraps around her wrist and pins it back above her head, and she giggles in spite of herself. He glances up at her through his lashes, and Tessa can see the raw power in them. He kisses his way back up, tongue darting out briefly to flick over her nipples again, and over the hollow of her throat. He softly nips at the center of her neck and traces her jaw with teasing breaths until she feels his hot breath on the shell of her ear, goosebumps flaring up over her skin.
âAnd you were doing so well,â Gabe murmurs in her ear as he traces the shell of her ear with his tongue.
âYou know I donât do well following the rules.â
He nips at her earlobe. âThen Iâm going to make you follow the rules.â He swings his leg over her and climbs out of the bed, her body already missing his warmth. âDonât move,â he commands. âIâll be right back.â
He pads out of the room, leaving Tessa lying there a building mess of excitement and nervousness. She hears Gabe mutter a curse before the sound of the TV is cut off, and she giggles at the absurdity of it. She strains her ears to hear anything else, but the only sounds she can make out are soft rustling of fabric and little clinks like glass. After a few more moments that felt like an eternity, Gabe knocks on the frame of the door, and she shifts up onto her elbows to see him standing there, his lips kinked to the side in a smirk and devilish intentions dancing in his eyes. He holds up his hands, and Tessa sees a glass filled with ice cubes in one hand and the belt to the complimentary bathrobe in the other. The thought of what Gabe was planning to do to her with those two items has her quivering in delight.
âI hope youâre ready, Tessa,â Gabe says. âBecause weâre going to have some fun.â
_________________________
A/N
So hello everyone! I know this took a lot longer than anticipated, but unfortunately, life decided to throw a curveball at me recently, so I am very sorry for the delay.
For those who might guess, when I finished the 2nd part, it again turned into another 15k mess, so you all will be getting a Part 3 shortly, where weâll go into even more of some smutty goodness and some fluffy pillow talk.
I hope you all really enjoy it as much as you did for part 1, and I will see you all soon for the finale!
Second chance tagging in case Tumblr becomes Tumbroke again: @choices-addict @choiceskatie @lady-calypso @chemist-ana @kat-tia801 @chrissythadon @nishas-paradise  @blainehellyes  @suitfer  @pixelnutrookie @queen-arabella-of-cordonia @adiehardfan @panda9584 @curiousconch @weaving-in-words @mm2305 @thegreentwin
105 notes
·
View notes
Text
The writing for Loki got so sloppy after TDW. In that film he was given a complete arc and bringing him back to life with no concrete plan makes the narrative line awkward. It wasnât rendered impossible to work with, but that possibility was wasted by Marvel bringing him back with no forethought and then hiring writers that didnât care about or understand Lokiâs past or motivations, which caused his story and characterization to become disjointed and unsatisfying to anyone who was paying attention.
Lokiâs motivation in his first three films was to feel worthy and to gain a sense of control over his life. His flaws came from seeking that worthiness and control in the wrong ways, first by trying to destroy Jotunheim and then by trying to rule Earth (level of culpability for the second act debatable because Marvel refuses to confirm exactly how much power Thanos had over him). This narrative circle was closed in TDW when he acts selflessly to avenge his mother, help protect Jane, and assist Thor in defeating Malekith: he proves himself a trustworthy ally in carrying out Thorâs plan and demonstrates he can do the right thing for the people he loves and that he cares about and can protect others. Through these actions he proves he is worthy. Furthermore, when he is dying and repeating âIâm sorryâ, it is possible to infer he is not only apologizing to Thor for his mistakes in that moment but for every wrong he has committed. So he not only narratively repents for his misdeeds through his actions, he verbally repents for them as well. Thatâs a complete arc.
Deciding at the 11th hour to not only keep Loki alive but to show him having returned to Asgard and ascending the throne flushes all of that characterization and growth right down the toilet. Itâs so clear that Marvel threw that scene in at the last minute without fully thinking it through.
The thing is, Loki could have walked away from this mistake relatively intact if Marvel had gone back and addressed issues in his past that did still need resolving, such as finally gaining control over his own narrative and realizing his own value. Instead, they permanently hamstrung him by hiring first Waititi and then Waldron, two people who have expressed not only ignorance and indifference to Loki as a character but at times open contempt. Rather than touch on Lokiâs Jotun heritage or his fatherâs lies and neglect, Waititi and Waldron chose to retcon him into a one-dimensional power-hungry narcissist, whose tribulations are selfish, pathetic, and self-inflicted. Waldron purposefully ignores the good he did in TDW, Ragnarok, and IW and reframes the narrative to make it look like he was uncaring and ungrateful for his innocent family because he was too self-centered to see how much they loved him. Thatâs all canonically bullshit and provably false. By making up character flaws he never had, Waititi and Waldron prevented Loki from getting closure on his real struggles and messily severed his narrative arc into something un-mendable.
Insult to injury, Waldron and crew frame Lokiâs healing in the show as coming through abuse and yet more indifference. He is manipulated, gaslit, belittled, and beaten and this is presented as the much-needed impetus that snaps him out of his sniveling myopia and forces him to actually care about others by stepping back and accepting his rightful place as inherently lesser. The series actually presses turbo-rewind on any growth Loki achieved during the film timelines and forces him right back to square one, where he is pushed aside and silenced and undervalued. It even goes a step further and adds a dash of physical abuse because nothing cures self-hatred like a good old-fashioned beating, amirite? Sickening.
To me the lack of thoughtfulness and care that Marvel demonstrably put into continuing Lokiâs story after TDW is unacceptable for the largest and wealthiest media company in the world: Disney has the money and the influence to hire any writer they should so desire with just a single ring of the phone. There is simply no excuse for the nosedive in the quality of writing and I have no respect for Feige for letting it get in this state. I personally feel everything from Ragnarok on was thoroughly and excessively disrespectful to all of the hard work that Tom, Kenneth, and the writers who gave a damn about Loki put in to create the character that everyone fell in love with in the first place. It was the heart and the vulnerability and the human struggle that we connected with and Marvel just wiped that all away like it was nothing. I donât think Iâll ever understand why.
Anyway, I donât know how to end this, so have an emoji of my mental state: đ€Ș
#loki series negativity#Iâm sorry this is long af I donât know how to do read mores on mobile :|#also I said I was going to shut up but I didnât
141 notes
·
View notes
Text
Tropetember Day 5 - Accidental Confession / In Vino Veritas (Drunk Confession/Drunk Dial)
Unrequited love? Bite me
Pairing: Elijah Mikaelson x GN!Reader
Fandom: The Vampire Diaries
Rating: Teen and up
TW: Drinking/alcohol, language, vampirism/blood mentions, FWB mention
AN: Day 5 of @tropetember. Not my best work but hope you enjoy. Might rework this slightly at a later point.
A visit to the Salvatores in Mystic Falls should be pretty fun, until Damon decides to drag you to a party the Originals are throwing.
Find this story on Ao3 here.
Word Count: 1.5k
âDamon, you cannot be serious.â
Your best friend just gives you puppy dog eyes. Bright blue and sad as can be. Itâs kinda pathetic.
âPretty please.â
You huff, knowing you wonât win this argument. Youâve known him since you were both children, through him being turned by Katherine and later Stefan turning you (long story), and then on and off in the intervening century and a half. You even had a casual friends with benefits arrangement when you were both lonely/bored. Knowing him so well, you decide to save everyone the time and give in.
âYouâre paying for my outfit Damon! I can not believe youâre making me goâŠâ
He scoops you up and spins you, making you squeal as he thanks you. Stefan, who has been observing from the couch being absolutely no help, just laughs.
âYou wonât regret it. Itâll be fun and we can learn some things at the same time. Weâll be the most attractive spy duo in history.â
You just roll your eyes and go to grab your keys before stealing Damonâs wallet. If youâre going to have to face the Mikaelsons again, you werenât doing it in something youâd worn before. And you were going to buy something expensive out of spite.
------------------
The entrance to the Mikaelsonâs house was the same as any other house in Mystic Falls: opulent, excessive and with far too much marble. Youâd take a cosy cabin over this nonsense any day.
Clinging to Damon's arm, you enter the space and, thankfully, Klaus is the only one of the family greeting guests.
âDarling, itâs been a while.â You canât help the reactionary smile as you embrace him. He could be bat shit crazy at times, but heâd always been kind to you.
âKlaus! Iâve missed you.â Out of your eye corner, you can see Damon giving you both evil eyes. Had you accidentally on purpose forgotten to mention you knew the original family? Oops, your bad.
Klaus doesnât let you go far, holding you at arms length to admire your new outfit. You do look stunning in it, if you do say yourself.
âBeautiful.â He leans in to whisper in your ear âMy brother really doesnât realise what heâs missing.â
You laugh him off, ignoring the implication. You knew better.
âNow boys,â you say, glancing between them, âIâll have no part in whatever this little competition or measuring contest is, and I expect you all to leave me out of it.â They both look a little guilty as they nod. âMarvellous. If you need me, Iâll be somewhere out of the way with a glass of champagne.â
And with that you head further into the party, leaving them to bicker.
-----
"Urgh, I've missed you so much! I can't believe you left us."
You and Rebekah are both waaaay too many glasses of champagne deep at this point. Youâd been there a couple of hours by now and it had only taken Rebekah 30mins to realise you were there and take you hostage. You're currently sequestered on a sofa in a corner and are both a bit sloppy.
"What do you want me to say Bekah? It's your arsehole brother's fault."
"Wait, what? What did Klaus do?"
You laugh, just a tad hysterically and fortify yourself with another sip out of your glass.
"Wrong one. Go older"
A look of understanding comes across her face and she wraps an arm around you. You, sadly, don't have enough of your wits about you to realise that this isn't the best place for a drunken heart to heart.
Everything starts to spill out of you. How you and Elijah had spent so much time together. How you thought he liked you back, only for him to turn up with what's her name wrapped around him. How he'd laughed when you'd expressed your surprise that he was dating, and how it made you feel like nothing. It was too much for your heart to handle. So youâd left, had a fun rebound weekend with Damon and tried to move on.
Rebekah pulls back slightly, wiping a tear that had escaped without your permission.
"You're too good for him anyway," she says and you laugh.
"I wish that were true.â You pull yourself together a little and put on your best fake smile. âFor now, I'm just going to don an air of indifference and pretend I'm not in love with your oldest brother."
Your mirth leaves you instantly as you hear a refined voice behind you ask, "now why on Earth would you do that?"
Itâs amazing how panic can sober you up.
You turn slowly and meet the eyes of the oldest Original. Heâs in a suit, as always, and has a confident smirk plastered across his face. That pisses you off.
âCos heâs an assholeâ you coolly reply before turning to Rebekah, pressing a kiss to her cheek and walking swiftly out of the room to find Damon to take you home. Youâd embarrassed yourself quite enough for one night.
Youâd never admit that you were disappointed that Elijah didnât try to stop you.
------------
One of the advantages to being a vampire was that you very rarely got a hangover. Instead, you just slept in a little, made a cup of coffee and did some yoga before heading out to treat yourself to lunch. You didnât need to eat but you enjoyed the taste, there was much more variety in food than blood.
You'd only arrived in Mystic Falls a couple of days ago for your visit to see the Salvatore brothers and as such hadn't had a chance to try out the Mystic Grill. This seemed like a perfect fit opportunity. Something greasy would be perfect right about now.
The grill was a bit dingy but it worked for the place and you were happy to learn that they have a pretty good menu selection. Your excitement was soured though when Elijah decided to join you for lunch.
Dressed in yet another suit, no tie and the top buttons of his shirt undone, he oozes charm and money. Add in the handsome features and knockout smile and you were lost. You're sure back in the day the ladies with delicate constitutions had to keep their smelling salts close. You could easily have fainted over him.
But he wasn't interested in you, as he had made very clear, so you were just annoyed that he was existing in your space.
Elijah watched you eat for a few moments, clearly taking note of your reluctance to acknowledge him.
"For someone who's in love with me, you don't seem particularly happy to see me darling."
You groan quietly and lower your utensils. Wishing him away wasn't working.
"What do you want Elijah?" You sound bitter, even to your own ears. So much for attempting to sound neutral.
"One of my favourite people, who I haven't seen for a long time, has reappeared and I want to spend time with them. Is that too much to ask?"
You start eating again, using it to buy time. You had honestly missed his company. You just werenât sure if you could bear him breaking your heart again, even accidentally and unintentionally. Luckily, he had more to say.
âKlaus told me off after you left, you know?â
You look at him in surprise.
âTold me that Iâd wasted my best opportunity at happiness. Which is especially concerning considering who it was coming from.â
You nod your agreement. Klaus wasnât exactly known for his sentimentality.
He continues, âwould you believe that I really thought you were too good for me? That I really thought you werenât interested?â
âElijah, you can not be serious.â You pull a face at him. âI literally spent all of my time with you, hanging on your every word. I would have followed you to the ends of the Earth. How could you not have known?â
âI just thought you were being your usual effervescent self. I started dating again to try and let you go.â
Miscommunication. You shake your head. 30 years of heartbreak all because of miscommunication. God, you could bang the pair of your heads together. Itâs basically a crappy romance novel. Ok, this is ok. You can fix this. You have pretty much forever left, after all.
Taking the initiative, you lean forward and grasp Elijahâs hand. His eyes fall to where you wrap your fingers around his. A hopeful look takes over his face as he returns to your eyes.
âElijah?â You smile. âWould you like to go on a date with me?â
He laughs. Itâs a beautiful sound. Youâre going to make it your personal mission to make him do it more often.
Lifting your knuckles to his lips, he places a gentle kiss on them.
âI can think of nothing else Iâd rather do.â
#tropetember#fanfiction#the vampire diaries#the originals#elijah mikaelson x reader#elijah mikaelson x y/n#elijah mikaelson x you#miscommunication#tw: alcohol#unbeta'd#slightly rushed#in vino veritas
62 notes
·
View notes
Note
Sooo... how about that reveal that c!Sam wasnât feeding c!Dream? I mean, we all knew it was coming, but still. The auto food dispenser probably broke or smtg bc when c!Sam came down, c!Dream asked if he was there to give them potatoes. (Also with him being shaken up by learning c!Tommy is alive, c!Sam might not remember or care to feed c!Dream, who has none of his stores of potatoes left.) So, assuming the dispenser is broken and he doesnât know, why would he come down in the first place? đ©â?
hello anon !! yeah that reveal ,, dang, we already knew that c!sam had presumably been starving c!dream, but to see not only c!dream but c!sam confirm it as well as it having lasted AT LEAST a week ,, d a n g . they are Not pulling any punches in this arc (which, i mean, judging on the q stream, isnt exactly surprising anymore,, but still)
in the prison guard stream, we see how the dispenser works - itâs not automatic as much as itâs remote, as c!sam or the prison guards still need to press a button in order to dispense food. he also says âi havent even been around to feed the prisonerâ or something along those lines in tommyâs stream, so we can conclude that the decision to deprive c!dream of food after c!tommyâs death is INTENTIONAL,, which i mean. again. yikes.Â
anyway, hereâs a snippet of c!dream finding out that the âautomaticâ feeder isnt as automatic as he mightâve thought - here, the dispenser + crying obsidian are installed at around the same time, so itâs between bad and sapnapâs visit
tw: starvation, disordered eating, abuse, mental illness, self-hatred, toxic relationship, gaslighting, disturbing imagery, dark content, c!sam/warden!sam critical (again, be careful with the content warnings)
Dream stares up at the hole in the obsidian, barely able to make out a glint of metal in the dark chute. The dispenser, just as expected, doesnât respond to his glare, refuses to whir and click in the way that indicates food, and Dream bites his tongue, mumbles curses under his breath.
âPrick,â he blows a breath through his gritted teeth, only more irrationally angry when the dispenser, as expected, ignores him. âSome automatic dispenser, Warden.â
The walls donât respond. Nothing responds, here, besides the dark dark thoughts swirling in his brain, and he thinks heâd prefer it if those didnât - or maybe he doesnât, because company is company, even if said company is the same litany of blood anger revenge pain you deserve this you deserve all of this you have destroyed the world now lie in the bed you have made pounding at the base of his skull. He drags his hand down his face; every minute is an hour, and every hour is a minute. Time has no meaning when your only frame of reference is eternity.
Even so, even he can tell that itâs been a long time since heâs had food, even by his usual standards - several days, at least, because the ever-present ache of hunger in his gut had swelled into something angrier, demanding, no longer as easy to ignore. Another stabbing round of pain nearly sends him to his knees, and just as he always he does, he clings to the feeling, gathers it into his hands, grabs it by the edges and directs the sharp edges into the words he spits at the indifferent walls. Let the Warden hear him - what can he possibly do?
Just as it always does, the fury in him peters out, drains, leaves him alone in the middle of his cell. He sinks the ground, arms wrapped around his stomach; a part of him wants to laugh at the irony. Some people think of silence as emptiness, void; he knows now that itâs anything but. Silence is suffocating, thick, so present that anything he says seems to get lost within it seconds after leaving his mouth. It grows and pushes into his limbs, becomes a weight tied around his throat, expands into the air in his lungs like a slowly inflating balloon until itâs pressed into every corner and space of the cell, every corner and space of him, taking up so much room that he can hardly breathe around it.
The hunger hollows him out, and the silence fills the space thatâs left; Dream wonders how much more there is for him to lose before heâs completely empty, just a husk filled with the same liquid misery that drips down the walls. He wonders if anyone would care- laughs. As if.
âDream.â The intercom crackles; Dream perks up at the voice, spine straightening against his will, and his hands tighten into fists as he realizes - prime, how pathetic is he, now? The voice deepens, becomes more insistent. âPrisoner.â
âYeah, yeah, Iâm here. Or maybe Iâm not; you better come and check, yeah?â A humorless smile tugs at his lips, and a static-filled sigh comes through the speaker.
âThis isnât the time for games, Dream.â
Dream rolls his eyes. Itâs not exactly the time to be a dick, either, but you donât see me complaining. A flutter of something warm, joyful, rises in his chest at the sound of something- someone, other than his own voice, and he strangles it with a hand wrapped around his own throat - he wonât let them break him, wonât let himself become desperate enough to crave the attention of a man that hates him - he wonât- he canât-
âDo you need something? Or were you yelling at the wall for no reason again?â Samâs voice is steely, indifferent, on a knifeâs edge between apathy and anger. âDonât waste my time, prisoner.â
Dream bites down the snarky reply sitting on his tongue, breathes in, out through his nose until the fury is no longer blinding.
âYour fancy automatic jig is broken. The potato one. Itâs not- working.â The hunger fogs his mind, makes it hard to think. He feels caged and weak and pathetic and he hates it.
âThatâs because itâs not automatic.â Footsteps echo on the speakers, Dream tapping along to the rhythm before he realizes and stops himself, and a moment later the familiar whirring and clicking of the metal box comes from behind him and a small pile of potatoes fall down and splash into the water. âThere. Is that all?â
Dream feels the fury rise, again, but doesnât quite to keep the words back, this time.
âSo what was the point of the whole automatic feeder, asshole? Youâve changed nothing! Whatâs the difference between that thing and you coming over to my cell besides that youâve wasted a couple stacks of redstone? Congratu-fucking-lations, youâre a goddamn genius-â
âItâs remote now, so I donât have to come into your cell.â
âOh, so itâs just the good olâ Warden looking for more ways to make the prisoner suffer, huh? Shouldâve figured, you fucking self-righteous prick-â
âDream.â
His mouth shuts with a click, a flash of fear searing through his muscles, white-hot, and by the time heâs blinked back the ringing in his ears the silence has stolen all the words from him, once again. Pathetic, he screams in his head, but his jaw remains firmly locked in place - the Wardenâs won, per usual, and they both know it.
âIs that all?â He sounds impatient. Part of Dream wants nothing more than to never hear his voice again, and the other half of him rails at the idea of being alone with his thoughts once more. All of him hates himself, and all of him hates the silence; theyâre the only two constants in this place. âYouâll have to speak up if you want anything.â
âHow- long was it, since you last gave food?â
Static for a moment, then another. âItâs only been about a day.â
âBullshit.â
âYouâd know if you took care of your clock instead of destroying it, prisoner.â
âIâd know if you were less of a fucking prick.â
âBehave, and you might get it replaced.â The Wardenâs breathing is harsh, almost labored - he must be angrier than Dream thought, then. âSpeaking of which, you wonât be getting any for a day after this stunt.â
âOoh, Iâm so scared. Itâs not like you donât do this - what, every other day?â
âDo you want food or not?â
Dreamâs teeth grind against each other; he breathes in, out. He hates this, hates the potatoes, hates the Warden, hates himself. Hates the way that a part of him recoils at the thought of making the Warden angry at him, reaches desperately for a chance to earn his clock- his approval. Attachments are weakness, he tells his traitorous heart, knowing that it, as always, will fail to stay away.
âYes. Thank you.â The pleasantry burns on his tongue, tastes worse than the bitterness of raw potatoes that seems to be the only thing it knows, anymore.
âGood-bye, prisoner. Donât make me come into the cell.â
The intercom cuts off with a click, the space that the static made immediately filled by silence. Dream watches it blankly, jaw sore from how tight it had been clenched, and begins to work his way through the first potato, nibbling at the pale flesh just enough to tide over the worst of the pain.
This is fine, he tells himself, and the walls stare at him impassively. Heâs not sure they believe him.
Heâs not sure how much longer he can believe himself.
#tw starvation#tw disordered eating#tw abuse#tw mental illness#tw self-hate#tw toxic relationship#tw gaslighting#tw disturbing imagery#tw dark content#c!sam critical#warden!sam critical#sorry sam#but starving people is still very not pogchamp#queue <3#long post#my writing :D#my asks !!
211 notes
·
View notes
Text
Strawberry Madeleine
Tsurugi used to use Mikuniâs old uniform as pajamas.Â
Heâs aware of how pathetic it is. How it sounds. How it probably would have been more subtle to shout that he missed him through a megaphone, for all of Tokyo to hear.
Of course, it doesnât smell like his old roommate anymore. It hasnât for a long time, especially not after having been washed and given to Mahiru to run around in for a whole week, over a year ago now. Especially not after it needed to be bleached, and deep cleaned, because of all the blood and dirt and dust that had been practically ground into the white fibers.Â
Frankly, itâs a miracle that old thing is still around.
He never expected to get it back, but he did, and heâs only a little ashamed to admit that he held it the same way someone would hold a cherished stuffed toy, inhaling the smell of fabric softener chosen with Kuroâs delicate skin in mind. He had called himself creepy, and Yumikage⊠Had flicked his forehead. Called him an idiot.
The way he had explained it, it made such perfect sense.Â
Mikuni... Was a familiar pain, like a bruise that never quite faded and you press your fingers to it just to remind yourself youâve been hurt.
Yumikage, Junichiro, Freya, Mahiru, and Kuro are a comfort he never thought he deserved, and that old uniform, one of the only few possessions of his that had survived, the new softness of it and the new smell, are proof that whether he deserves them or not⊠They are his.
Anyone would cherish that, wouldnât they?
***
One day his phone lights up in the evening twilight.
âI made too much. That offer to join us for dinner is still valid âïžâ
Attached is a picture of a simmering pot of curry that makes his mouth water so much he nearly drools all down his front. Thereâs something familiar about it he canât quite place, but itâs easily ignored and Tsurugi wipes his mouth on the back of his hand, thumbs flying eagerly over the screen.
âIâll be there in ten minutes ââ he replies, then, after adjusting his course accordingly, practically skips off down the sidewalk.
Two minutes from his destination, his phone buzzes again.
âI left the door unlocked for you. Come right in!â
Tsurugi... Tries really hard not to cry in the middle of the street as words half remembered while his soul was tangled with Mahiruâs filter back to him.
If the window is shut, we'll just go through the door.
***
Sometimes Tsurugi goes to Mahiruâs house to play.
Itâs a childish way to put it, like theyâre both in elementary school and heâs showing up at the front door to ask his friendâs uncle if Mahiru is home, but itâs also the only proper way to describe it, because he is playing.
Heâs free now, or about as free as he can be with those debts looming over his head, and he wants to play. Kuro, meanwhile, wants to show him lots of different games, so if he has a day off, and the both of them are available⊠To the Shirota apartment he goes.
Itâs always a mess.
Not the apartment, no, never the apartment. He doesnât think even C3, with its white walls and white floors and white sheets and everything, everything, white, was even half so clean as that little apartment where three people lived.
Whatâs always a mess is himself.
This time, though⊠Itâs Mahiru.
***
Tsurugi knows heâs a messy person. Tsurugi knows heâs not very good at cleaning up, though he often tries. Itâs overwhelming though, sometimes, looking at it all, all the trash and garbage that had accumulated, all the things he didnât need anymore, didnât want, and maybe part of the problem was that his mind hardly ever stayed âadultâ long enough to make any real headway.
Itâs not like anyone went into his room to begin with, anyway, so why bother?
Mahiru, though, is different from him. Mahiru likes to clean up as he goes, so he supposes it shouldnât be a shock that he gets frustrated with him and with Kuro, who have their little area in front of the TV set up with snacks, and drinks, and piles and piles of games to try out, and a third controller for Mahiru because sometimes instead of watching, Mahiru will join them, tempted by their cajoling and whining and Tsurugiâs bright, high pitched yelps.
This is not one of those times.
This is a time when Mahiru got frustrated and stormed off, and⊠Well, Tsurugi isnât quite sure what to do.
A single look at Kuro shows he doesnât either, wide eyes watching the hall his Eve disappeared down and slowly the umaibo he had been munching on disappears into his mouth.
âShould we⊠Clean up?â Tsurugi asks, hesitant. Their characters on screen continue to idle, the timer ticking down. Kuro hits pause. Stands, stretches, cracks his back and Tsurugi canât help but wince because that canât be healthyâŠ
â...Yeah,â the Servamp finally says, and bends down with a muffled groan to start gathering chip bags and drink containers. âItâll give him time to cool down.â
âDoes this happen often?â Tsurugi stands, too, and casts his eyes about for something to pick up, but there really wasnât much. Kuroâs already got it handled.Â
It makes him feel just a little useless.
He was a grown up, wasnât he? ⊠Wasnât he?
***
Giving Mahiru space to calm down seems to have been the right choice, because when they find him, curled up on his bed and looking just the slightest bit ashamed of his outburst, he looks ready to apologize at any moment.
But Tsurugi doesnât want an apology.
He wants Mahiru to come play with them.
So he speaks first, apologizes, sincerely, and promises that he and Kuro will clean up after themselves properly, but when they are done.
âYou donât need to keep everything nice and neat all the time, yâknow. Part of being a grown up is knowing when itâs time to play and when itâs time to put your toys up.â
Mahiru makes a face at him, buries his chin deeper into his knees. âTsurugi-san, no offense, but I donât wanna hear that from you of all people.â
âOuch, haha.â He sits, plopping down gracelessly next to the still pouting teen, making him bounce and emit a startled noise, and Kuro shuffles forward, slides down on Mahiruâs other side. â...Youâre right, though. I never really learned how to clean up and put my things away all nice and neat like you do. No one ever taught me.â
Mahiru shifts, glances at him curiously. Having seen Tsurugiâs room at C3, he definitely believes it.Â
â...I guess,â he starts, slow and picking his words carefully. Kuro makes an encouraging noise beside him. âBecause I never really felt like the apartment was âmine,â I always ended up cleaning after every little activity. Because having it be messy... Made it feel more lived in than it was.â
â... Mm. Thatâs exactly it. The illusion of company...â A self deprecating little chuckle. âGuess we both learned to handle that feeling in different ways. If Kuro-chan and I make a mess, we... Might need your help to clean it up properly. But... Can you trust us to clean up when weâre done?â
â... I can try.â
âGood!â
Kuro finally speaks up, because this was a conversation for them, not him. But the moment has passed, and it feels safe to say something a little stupid, a little funny. âWeâre serious about the needing your help on how itâs done, thing.âÂ
âUgh, I believe you. Tsurugi-san, one time I put this guy in charge of loading up the washing machine and you know what happened?â
âWait, Mahi, noââ
âOhh, do tell~!â
âBubbles. Bubbles, everywhere. My downstairs neighbor had no idea where all the suds dripping onto her balcony were coming from!â
âPfffhahaha! Kuro-chan, seriously?! There are directions on the box!â
âAnd I followed them. Our washer is small, though, so it was too much...â
Kamiya Tsurugi was an adult.
Shirota Mahiru was a kid.
But, if they could teach each other the things they had missed out onâŠ
Perhaps it was all for that reason, huh...
Tsurugi wonders if Mahiru will be able to make good on that promise for a cake this year.
***
The end of August comes again, and, just like he had hoped, Mahiru bakes him a cake. Covered in glistening, sweet strawberries, with loads of white, sweet cream, itâs almost too much, especially when paired with how Freya and Iduna had come by, are each sitting in Yumikageâs living room while Freyaâs subclass play some noisy game with Takuto.
Some part of him didnât think Mahiru would really do it. But not only did he keep his promise, heâs pressing a wrapped gift into his hand, a small one that rattles when it moves, this grin on his face as Tsurugi turns it over in his hands, this perfectly wrapped gift with yellow paper and citrus themed washi tape keeping it together. Mahiruâs Servamp lingers back, a noisemaker hanging unenthusiastically from between his lips. And yet, despite his carefully practiced indifference, thereâs no denying that Kuro is also eager, just as eager as his Eve.
âGo on. Open it.â
So he does. Itâs... A cellphone charm. â...Cinnamoroll...?â
Mahiru beams at him and shows off his own phone. Tsurugi snorts, a smile cracking at the sight of the Pompompurin character charm that dangles merrily from it.
âHowâd you know my favorite~?â
âI asked around~â
âThank you, Mahiru-kun,â Tsurugi answers him, feeling his throat close up, just the slightest bit. His eyes sting, and he holds that little charm close to his chest. âI love it.â
It's such a small gift. A tiny one, one perfectly suited to a high schoolerâs budget, but it means so much.Â
Because it didn't have to be given.
Mahiru takes his wrist and leads him back to the core of the party, where they are all immediately mobbed by Tsurugiâs own homegrown family.
Vampires, magicians, humans. Adults, children, immortals.
People his own age. People who arenât.
Tsurugi is loved.
Heâs happy he was born.
#kat's katerwauling#servamp#pawprints#tsurugi kamiya#mahiru shirota#happy birthday tsurugi!!!#ao3 version will be up tomorrow
56 notes
·
View notes
Text
Silence Speaks
Summary: Virgil can't get out of bed. Days like this are nothing new, he just doesn't know how his new family will react to him being so pathetic.
TWs: Depression, depressive episode, brief death mention, self-hatred, temporary nonverbal episode
Notes: Found this fic in my drafts from a few months ago, so I cleaned it up to post since LB and Permafrost are taking a bit. Enjoy <3
Virgil knew it was going to be one of those days when the third hour passed with no change.
Everything was too much. His chest hurt, every breath was just too much work, all he wanted was to sink into the blankets and sleep the rest of his life away. Heâd been staring blankly at the wall since heâd woken up, curled up on his side with tears pooling in his eyes. He couldn't get up, couldnât get back to sleep, couldnât even call out to ask for help.
It had been a while since heâd had a day like this, when just the thought of getting out of bed made him sick,
Theyâd used to be more frequent, back when Virgil was alone and shut out, hated and scorned by the people he just wanted to protect. The resentment took its toll, and sometimes he couldnât find a reason to get out of bed.
It wasnât supposed to happen anymore. He was supposed to be over this. He was supposed to be better.
He had everything heâd ever wanted. He had his family, Thomas listened to him, and he wasnât just needed- he was wanted.
He was wanted. He knew he was. Sometimes it was just...hard to convince himself of that, despite the overwhelming amount of kindness heâd been given for months now, the reassurances and patient understanding that felt too good to be true.
But now here he was again, unmoving in the dark of his own room, closed off like the brooding villain he was trying so hard not to be anymore.
God, he didnât want to be here. He didnât want to be anywhere. He didnât want to be awake, he didnât want to go back to sleep, and he didnât want to get up and go downstairs.
He just...didnât want to do this anymore.
Why couldnât he just disappear?
Virgil thought he could hear voices downstairs, but nothing was really registering through the fog settling around his head. His room was pitch dark, the curtains pulled tightly shut, leaving it impossible to tell how much time had passed.
He thought it might have been a few hours by now, and he hoped everyone would just continue on with their day and leave him here forever, trapped in his own body with a brain stuck trying to sabotage his happiness. Heâd fade away on his own, and theyâd forget about him, never bothering to even question his absence.
Virgil knew better than to really believe that. A year ago he could have gotten away with it, he could lock himself up in the dark for days and nobody would care. Theyâd probably celebrate.
Now...now they would notice he wasnât coming down for breakfast. He had a job to do, he had people who actually cared. Virgil couldnât just lay here, pathetic and useless. He was letting himself waste away and fail everyone who had taken a chance on him. Theyâd given him so much. He couldnât undo all that progress because he was feeling a little sad.
But he couldnât get up. He couldnât. It would be so much easier if he could just die.
Virgil still wasnât sure how much time had passed, laying there wide awake without the energy to move a single inch, but suddenly a knock on the door sliced through the haze around his brain.
More tears gathered in his eyes, frustration and dread making his chest unbearably heavy. He didnât want to be ridiculed and yelled at right now. He wasnât ready to be forced out of bed, selfish as it was to want to stay here.
A few seconds passed before the door creaked open, light spilling in from the hall, the faint smell of coffee wafting into the room.
âVirgil?â
That was Logan, even though Virgil couldnât bring himself to turn his head to look. The logical sideâs voice was comforting and familiar, but he wasnât sure he could handle his blunt judgment right now.
Heâd think Virgil was ridiculous, his refusal to leave his room illogical and stupidly selfish. Heâd made everyone worry for nothing. Anxiety was just being lazy again.
âVirgil, itâs almost eleven,â Logan said, and Virgil kind of wished he could just die right here and now. Death would get him out of being lectured. âYou need to wake up and eat something. You missed breakfast.â
Virgil still couldnât move, but his breath caught in his throat at the reminder. He knew he was being stupid, and he knew he was behind schedule, but the thought of food just made him feel nauseous.
He heard footsteps, carefully tracking Loganâs movements as he came closer and listened as he carefully set down what was probably a mug of coffee on the dresser.
âVirgil?â he called, and it was getting harder and harder to see as more tears built up. âAre you awake?â
Virgil still couldnât bring himself to answer, even as Logan moved around to the side of the bed. Virgil didnât glance up to his face, but there was no way Logan couldnât tell that the anxious sideâs eyes were open and aware.
He tensed, waiting for anger and judgment, or even just an annoyed huff. He waited to be told that it was easy to get out of bed and Virgil was just being difficult, that he needed to stop being so pathetic or they had no reason to keep showing him so much kindness.
He needed to be useful, or they wouldnât want him around anymore.
But Logan was suddenly kneeling down to his level, eyes kind and worried behind his glasses.
âAre you alright?â he asked, frowning when Virgil just clenched his jaw in response. âCan you tell me whatâs wrong?â
Virgil couldnât force words to form no matter how badly he wanted to, and to his dismay a few tears slipped free, trailing down his jaw and seeping into the pillow.
Loganâs expression softened, but the concern in his eyes only grew. He reached forward, slow and careful, and somehow Virgil managed to move just enough to latch desperately onto his hand.
He didnât have the energy to choke out any apologies, although he was almost certain Logan was about to demand one.
âThat is alright,â the logical side said instead. âYou do not have to talk. Do you think you can manage a nod or headshake?â
Virgil forced himself to respond with the tiniest of movements, even though just reaching up to take Loganâs hand had felt like running a marathon.
âAlright,â he said gently. âAre you feeling ill?â
Virgil wished he was just sick. That would be so much easier to explain. Being sick was fixable, and it wouldnât look like he was just making excuses to be lazy.
But he didnât see the point in lying, and he certainly didnât have the energy to deal with even more anger if he was found out. He managed a small shake of his head, even as Logan reached up with his free hand to carefully feel his forehead. He had to force himself not to lean into the touch.
âAre you in pain?â
Yes. Everything hurt so bad and he wanted it to stop. His chest felt like someone was sitting on it, his head felt like something was pounding at the back of his skull, and every bone in his body felt heavy and useless.
But he couldnât say that, because he knew it was all in his head. It wasnât real.
He shook his head again, choking on a small sob, and something like realization dawned in the other sideâs eyes.
âI see,â Logan said. âIs this...just a bad day, then?â
Logan had finally figured it out, because of course he had. Virgil being stupid and useless probably wasnât a difficult conclusion to come to, anyway.
He nodded, tense and staring at nothing as he waited for Logan to rip his hand away and demand Virgil grow up and stop wasting everyoneâs time. Or maybe heâd just roll his eyes and leave, closing the door and locking Anxiety back in the dark where he belonged.
âIâm sorry to hear that,â Logan said, and to Virgilâs surprise his hold only tightened. âAre you able to get out of bed?â
More tears welled up at the question, dread rising in his chest. Because he couldnât imagine even standing up right now, but of course he couldnât expect to be able to get away with that. Logan was being polite about it, but they had a schedule to stick to.
âItâs alright if the answer is no,â Logan continued. âI have no intention of forcing you. I only thought it might be easier to take care of you today if youâre set up on the couch.â
Wait...what? Take care of him?
Logan seemed to sense his confusion, and the hand that wasnât currently being held hostage moved to run gently through his hair, smiling sadly at Virgilâs barely audible whimper.
âIf youâre more comfortable here you can stay. But I know being left alone with your thoughts is not always...ideal. We can keep you company in the living room if you like. If youâre overstimulated, the lights will be kept dim, and the noise to a minimum.â
Virgil hesitated, trying to figure out if Logan was joking- or if this was some kind of cruel trick to teach him a lesson. They didnât need to do anything. He didnât deserve it. And he wasnât sick, he was just being a baby.
Logan was suddenly cupping Virgilâs cheek, wiping tears away with his thumb. âThere is nothing to be ashamed of, Virgil. Would you like help sitting up?â
And Virgil felt ridiculous, because he had no real reason to feel so weighed down, but he gave another timid nod.
Logan didnât even hesitate before moving to help, a steadying hand against Virgilâs back as he guided him up to lean against the headboard. He didnât complain, didnât lecture Virgil about how inconsiderate he was being, just silently assisted and pulled away when he was done.
Again Virgil wanted to apologize, but the words got stuck in his throat, buried deep beneath the fatigue.
âThere is no need for an apology,â Logan said, and Virgil wondered when heâd become so predictable. âIf you arenât able to walk, Iâm sure Roman would be more than happy to carry you to the couch. I only need your permission to inform him and Patton of what is happening.â
Virgil wasnât sick or injured, he was competent enough to get himself out of bed and down the stairs. People were busy, and he was already being awful by forcing Logan to stay.
But just the thought of getting out of bed and walking out of his room was enough to make him want to bury himself under the covers and dissolve into sobs. He curled in on himself and eyed Logan warily, hoping that was enough of an answer.
âAlright,â Logan said, squeezing Virgilâs hand. âIâll go get him, just wait here a moment.â
Logan squeezed Virgilâs hand, and heâd known the logical side long enough to know the smile he sent was nothing but genuine.
Virgil felt cold when Logan pulled his hand away and moved off the bed, but being unable to talk meant he couldnât call him back as he disappeared through the door.
He let out a shaky breath and pulled his legs up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them. He squeezed teary eyes shut as he rested his chin on his knees.
It couldnât have been more than five minutes before Virgil heard footsteps in the hallway, his bedroom door creaking open as the creative side cautiously stepped inside the doorway with a small frown.
Virgil tensed, because if anyone was going to make fun of him for this it would be Roman- well meaning but so brash and over the top at times- and he could already picture Romanâs mocking laughter, his exasperation as he tried to just drag Virgil out of bed, hisâ
âHey there,â Roman called, softer than Virgil could ever remember him sounding. âFeeling under the weather today, Stormcloud?â
Virgil shrugged, hunching his shoulders and staring at his own hands. From the look in the Princeâs eyes, it was clear he understood.
âThatâs ok,â he said, ducking his head to meet Virgilâs eyes as he smiled and made his way to the bed. âBad days happen, Doom and Gloom. You just have to ask for help.â
Virgil let out a pitiful whine, the closest he could get to telling Roman that he couldnât. Even if he could, he didnât know how. Heâd never been able to ask for help before. The Princeâs smile turned sad, and he slowly lowered himself on the bed beside Virgil.
âI know,â Roman said, and Virgil watched as he opened his arms in a quiet invitation, looking so ridiculously hopeful. âBut weâre here now.â
Virgil broke. What little walls heâd still been holding up crumbling at the Princeâs simple words, and he choked on a sob, vision blurring with the tears he finally allowed to fall. He collapsed forward into Romanâs chest, shuddering when strong arms wrapped around and pulled him close.
Roman didnât speak, and he didn't force Virgil to even try, just held him tight and rocked them both on the edge of the bed, the Princeâs chin hooked over Virgilâs head, almost cocooning him in safety.
Roman held him, strong but gentle all the same, letting Virgil cry into the Princeâs shirt as long as he needed, hushing him through violent sobs. He didnât rush him, didnât tease or berate him, just kept him close and safe.
âIâm here,â he said when Virgil had quieted down a bit. âIs it ok if I take you downstairs now? Logan and Pat are worried about you.â
Virgil nodded with his face still buried in Romanâs chest, breath catching in his throat when the Prince carefully maneuvered them both towards the end of the bed. He kept one arm wrapped firmly around Virgilâs back, the other hooking under his knees.
âIâve got you,â he whispered when Virgil clutched desperately at the back of his shirt, squeezing his eyes shut as Roman stood from the bed, Virgil secure in his hold. âWeâve all got you, Virge.â
Virgil kept his eyes closed, breaths coming out as nothing more than pitiful, hiccuping sobs. He didnât want to be here, he didnât want to talk to anyone, look at anyone, or be seen by anyone. He didnât want to do this. He didnât want to exist today.
But Romanâs embrace made him forget that for just a moment. The memory of Loganâs comfort and the promise of Pattonâs care made it just a little more bearable.
It was all a blur, Virgil barely able to focus on the world around him, overwhelmed and so so exhausted. The curtains in the living room were drawn, keeping the room comfortably dim, and Patton and Logan moved quietly, keeping everything blissfully peaceful.
Roman set him down on the couch, letting Virgil curl up on his side and pull the nearest blanket over him, taking a moment to run his fingers through the anxious sideâs hair.
Patton kneeled beside him, searching his watery eyes for silent permission before leaning in to kiss Virgilâs forehead with a soft smile.
âHey kiddo,â he said, just as loving as Logan and Roman had been. âYou want your old dad to make you some hot chocolate?â
Virgil blinked, not sure how to respond to that. It sounded nice, but...but he was already convincing them enough. They were all busy, and probably annoyed andâ
âItâs not an issue, honey,â Patton assured, like he could sense Virgilâs internal panic. âWe didnât have much planned for today. You can relax.â
He had his suspicions that Logan had actually just changed their schedule in favor of keeping an eye on Virgil while he rested, but he wasnât exactly in the place to ask questions, as panicked as the thought made him. Heâd make it up to them tomorrow.
Virgil couldnât quite look Patton in the eyes, but the parental side seemed so eager to help, and...hot chocolate didnât sound terrible. He gave a hesitant nod, chest loosening a bit at the way Patton positively beamed.
Patton hurried into the kitchen, only to come back less than five minutes later with the biggest mug Virgil had ever seen, overflowing with marshmallows and whipped cream. Roman perched on the arm of the couch, close enough to keep running his fingers through Virgilâs hair.
âJust rest, Virgil,â Logan said, smiling when Virgil took his hot chocolate with unsteady hands. âWe can put on a movie if you like. Or we can leave you alone if youâre overwhelmed.â
Virgil bit his lip, a few stray tears still running down his cheeks and dripping onto the couch. It was a bad day, not his first and definitely not his last but it wasnât the worst heâd ever had. It was already getting a little better.
He took a steady breath, raising his head to meet Loganâs eyes, mustering what little energy he had to force his voice to work again, the words small, breathy and ragged, but clear all the same.
âStay? Please?â
Logan smiled, Roman scooted closer, and Patton gave Virgilâs forehead another kiss. They gathered around him on the couch, similar to how they usually ended up after a bad panic attack.
Roman and Logan ended up on either side of him, while Patton let Virgil put down his mug for a second to wrap his arms around the moral sideâs waist, relishing in the warmth of one of Pattonâs hugs.
There had been more days like this than Virgil could count, everything weighing down on him until he just wanted to disappear. Heâd never...had this before. Heâd always been alone, locking himself away until he could face his own existence again.
This time his family was on all sides, Patton holding him tightly, Logan taking his hand, Roman still playing with his hair, reminding him that it would be ok soon. He had a reason to fight through it.
Virgil couldnât bring himself to thank them, not out loud again, but he knew they understood.
#sanders sides#virgil sanders#roman sanders#logan sanders#patton sanders#depression tw#nonverbal tw#crying tw#fanficiton#writing
147 notes
·
View notes
Text
Unfaithful | Part Four
Series Summary: After dreaming of your perfect wedding since you were a little girl the big day is almost here. But after meeting the priest you start to question your relationship.
Pairing: Hot Priest x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 2900Â
Warnings: angst, toxic relationship, emotional blackmailÂ
A/N: Please be warned there will be some themes of toxic/abusive relationship in this series. Also, spelling and grammar is not my strongest skill so please be kind :)
Part Three | Masterlist
- - - -
âFather?âÂ
A voice calling out in the church stops us mid kiss.
âOh shit, itâs Pam!â The Priest whispers, eyes wide.
âFather, are you in here?â She calls out again.
Remembering his confession about hiding from her I canât help but find it amusing weâre now both hiding in this tiny box. A tiny giggle escapes my lips and the Priest shushes me, placing his hand gently over my mouth.Â
After a minute Pam finally retreats back to her room, leaving us alone. The priest waits another few seconds before removing his hand and letting out a sigh.Â
âThat was too closeâÂ
âWas kinda hot thoughâ I reply, planting a kiss on his lips.
âYeah it wasâ he laughs, kissing me back âbut we should probably move this back to my office incase she comes backâ He kisses me again and takes my hand. He pokes his head out from the curtain to check no ones there before leading me out the confession box and to his office. He shuts the door and to my surprise spins me around till my back falls against it. He immediately resumes kissing me, letting out small breathless moans as our tongues explore each others mouths. His hands find their way from my hips, up my sides and to the buttons of my shirt. I place my hands over his, stopping him.
âDo you mind if we donât, just yet.. I'm not- I'm not ready for thatâ I stutter âI'm sorryâ
He plants a kiss on my forehead before leaning his forehead against mine.
âWe donât have to do anything until you're readyâ he whispers and smiles a genuine, loving smile which I return.Â
âCan we just cuddle for a bit?â I ask shyly
âOf courseâÂ
He leads me over to the two seater sofa and sits down, gently pulling me down with him and wrapping himself around me.Â
Laying on the Priestâs small sofa, my head on his chest and his arms around me, I feel like Iâve died and gone to heaven. We stay like that for at least ten minutes, silently enjoying the blissful feeling of each others company.Â
I tilt my head to look up at him and find him watching me.Â
âWhat?â I giggle, feeling slightly self conscious under his gaze.Â
âNothing, just- thinkingâ
âAbout what?â
âIt doesnât matterâ
He smiles at me and places a kiss on my forehead. He brings his hand up to stroke the side of my face, his thumb gently glides over my burns and his face changes. Thereâs a hint of sadness in his eyes.Â
âHe did this to you, didnât he?â
I nod, biting my lip slightly.Â
âBecause you were with me?âÂ
âNoâ I reply quickly, not wanting him to think this was his fault âlt was my fault, I called him patheticâ
âThatâs no excuse to hurt you!âÂ
âItâs always been a trigger word for Daniel.â I explain and he looks at me confused. I remove myself from under his arms and sit up to face him âHis father always used to call him that. He wasnât a very nice man, he was an alcoholic with anger issues. He used to beat Danielâs mother in front of him and tell him it was his fault. And if he cried, like any child would, he told him he was pathetic.â
âThatâs awfulâ
âWhen Danielâs mother died, his dad changed. Started going to church and completely turned his life around. He was like a new man. But Daniel never forgave him. Even after he died, he just couldnât. And I don't blame him, I canât imagine the things he must have seen. At the funeral all these people from the church kept telling Daniel that his father was up in heaven watching over him, and he hated it. The idea that this man who did such horrendous things was allowed be in heaven, it made him so angry. Thatâs why heâs got such an issue with you. Itâs not really about you personally, itâs what you stand for. Just religion in general.â
âThen why get married in a church?â
âMy fault again. I had to beg and beg him to let me have the wedding here. My parents arenât around anymore either but I have such fond memories of being here with them that I thought if we had the wedding here it would feel like they were with me. I know must sound silly-â
âNot at all, itâs a lovely thought. I bet theyâd be so proud of you.â
âI hope soâÂ
The sound of the phone ringing pulls us out of our conversation. The Priest goes to his desk and picks up the phone.Â
âHello?â He answers with a cheery voice.Â
Suddenly the smiles disappears from his face and he looks at me with wide eyes.
âOh hi Danielâ
My heart stops. I feel like I could throw up. What the hell is Daniel doing calling the Priest? Does he know Iâm here? Does he know what weâve done?
âSlow down, say that againâ
I watch intently as the Priest listens to Daniel on the other end, trying to figure out from his facial expressions what theyâre talking about.Â
âNo I havenât seen herâ he lies âWhy? Whatâs happened?âÂ
He must be asking about me. I take my phone from my pocket and power it on. I had turned it off in the hospital and completely forgot to turn it back on again. Multiple messages and endless missed calls from Daniel.Â
âDon't worry, Iâm sure sheâs fine. If I see her Iâll let her know you're looking for her okay? Okay bye Danielâ he puts the phone down and looks up at me again âhe sounds like heâs really panicking about youâ
âGood!â
âYou need to go homeâ the Priest says, walking over to me
âI don't want toâÂ
âI know. But you're gonna have to face him sooner or laterâ he puts his hands on my shoulders and I look up into his eyes before letting out a sigh.
âYou're right. I should go. Thank you, for everythingâ I smile at him giving him a quick kiss before heading to the door.Â
âY/N?â He calls after me and I turn back to look at him ânone of it is your faultâ Â
â â â â
The moment I step through the front door Daniel comes running, full of apologies.Â
âOh my God, Y/N. Iâm sorry. Are you okay? Please forgive me. I love you so much. What did the hospital say?âÂ
âIt will heal eventually. They gave me some cream for the pain.â
âI am so sorry! Iâm gonna change-â
âIâve heard it all beforeâ I snap
âI know, I know- but I mean it. Here, let me take your shoes off for youâ
âI don't need your helpâ I say, kicking my shoes off
âLet me take care of you! Go to bed and Iâll come up in a minute. Please, I want to make it up to youâ
I stare him out for a moment before giving in and doing as he says. I get into some fresh pyjamas and climb into bed. A few minutes later I hear him coming upstairs.
âI made you a fresh coffee, since you didnât get to drink yours this morningâÂ
He puts the coffee on the bedside table and sits on the edge of the bed next to me. He takes the cream from the table and squeezes some onto his fingers. He reaches towards me and I instinctively flinch away from his touch.
âPlease, let me do thisâ he says quietly and I give him a small nod.Â
I canât help but let out a small whimper of pain as he touches my skin.
âSorry!âÂ
I can't even look at him. I can hear from his voice heâs trying not to cry and the last thing I want to feel right now is pity for him.Â
Once heâs finished applying the cream he wipes his hands on a tissue and climbs into bed next to me. He cautiously reaches over to put his arm around me, and because I don't have to the energy to argue I allow him to pull me in to cuddle up to him.Â
He takes the remote from his bedside table drawer and turns the tv on.Â
âWhat do you want to watch?âÂ
âWe need to talkâ I say and he turns the tv off again, releasing me from his arm and sitting up to look at me. He looks terrified.
âOkay?â
âLook Iâve been thinking-â
âPleaseâ he interrupts, grabbing my hands and begging âdon't break up with me!â
âDanielâ I sighÂ
âIâve been panicking all day thinking that youâd left me. If you hadnât come home, I don't know what I would have done⊠I canât live without you by my side.â
âStop! Iâm not breaking up with you⊠I just think we need time to work things outâ
âWhat do you mean?â He looks concerned.Â
âWe should postpone the weddingâ
âNo! No we don't need to do that. What happened today will never happen again. I promise.â He says and I smirk slightly at hearing yet another empty promise. He notices. âI mean it. Y/N, I have waited over half my life to marry you. I don't wait any longer. I want to call you my wife and show everyone how much I love you!â
I watch as he squeezes my hand tightly in his own, almost as if heâs scared Iâll suddenly slip away and heâll lose me. His eyes search mine and I can see the desperate panic he feels. I let out a sigh.Â
âOkay, weâll keep the set date.â I finally say and I see the relief flood through Daniel âbut I don't think we should get married in the churchâ
âI thought thatâs what you wantedâ
âI do- I did. But you clearly don't want to and thatâs okay. Weâll find somewhere that makes us both happy.â
âNo, I don't want my issues to be the reason you don't get your dream wedding. Weâre getting married in the church, and Iâm going to make things right with the priest. I promise. Whenâs the next meeting?â
âOh, you really don't have to-â
âI want to! Itâs the final one before the big day right?â He asks and I nod âthen I should definitely go! When is it?â
âTomorrow afternoon.â
âIâll be there.â
â â â âÂ
After another night of dreaming of the Priest, I was awakened by Daniel bringing me breakfast in bed.Â
âThis looks lovely, thank youâ I say as he places the tray over my lap and gives me a kiss on the forehead. A memory flashes in my head of the priest pressing his lips to that same spot yesterday.Â
âYou're most welcome mâladyâ he says in his poshest voice and bows like a butler, making an involuntary giggle escape my mouth âlisten Iâve got to pop out but Iâll meet you at the church this afternoonâ
âOkayâ I nod, highly doubting heâs actually going to turn up.Â
âI love you!â He kisses me again before leaving.Â
Hearing him say he loves me sends a sudden pang of guilt through me. He loves me. And despite everything I do still love him. So why canât I stop thinking about the priest? When Iâm around him I feel more content than Iâve felt in years. I know I haven't known him for very long but I feel so strongly for him, its insane.Â
How can I love two guys at once?
I let out a sigh and shake the thoughts out of my head.Â
Once I finish my breakfast I get out of bed, have a shower and get ready for the day. I find myself counting down the hours till I get to see the priest again and as I finally make my way to the church the excited butterflies in my stomach are fluttering so hard I swear theyâre going to burst out of me and fly right to him. I turn the corner and smile as I see him standing outside the front door chatting to someone. Our eyes meet and he smiles back at me, sending my heart soaring. That is until the man heâs chatting to turns around and I realise its Daniel. Then my heart feels like it stops all together. I know he said he was going to be here today I just didnât believe he would actually show up. Iâm almost disappointed heâs crashed my alone time with the priest.Â
I snap out of it and remind myself Iâm supposed to be happy, plastering an over the fake smile on my face as I greet my fiancĂ©.Â
âYou're here!â I say, unable to hide the surprise in my voice.Â
âI said I would be didnât I? I have something for you, wait hereâ Daniel says before rushing off toward the carpark. I take my chance to talk to the priest.Â
âI canât believe he actually cameâ
âHe also apologised to meâ
âHe did what?â
âI know, itâs a miracle!â The priest says sarcastically.Â
âDoubt it. Iâm sure heâll be back to his usual self as soon as something gets him angry. I dread to think what heâd do if he ever found out that we...â
âYeah about that. We both had too much to drink and I think we both said and did things we shouldnât have. Maybe itâs best if we just... pretend that didnât happen?â
My heart sinks as I realise what heâs saying. He regrets kissing me. But he told me he loved me! What if that just the alcohol talking? I realise heâs waiting for a response.Â
âOf course, yeah youâre right! We were both drunk and Iâd had a really bad day. Neither of us were in our right minds. It never happenedâÂ
The priest doesnât respond, just looks past me to something behind me. I turn around to follow his gaze and see the biggest flower bouquet Iâve ever seen walking towards me with Danielâs legs.Â
âOh my Godâ I gasp
âI wanted to get you something as beautiful as you are, but nothing came close. This was the best I could doâÂ
âThank youâ I say quietly, blushing slightly âthis must have cost a fortune!â
âYou're worth every pennyâ he replies and I canât help but smile as he leans in and kisses me. This is the Daniel I fell for all those years ago, not the man heâs become lately. Could he really have changed back?
âOh isnât that lovelyâ the Priest says, thereâs a hint of sarcasm in his voice but itâs so subtle that thankfully Daniel doesnât catch it âshall we head insideâ
â â â âÂ
The meeting is nothing like I expected it to be. Daniel, being true to his word, was over the top friendly with the Priest. Every question asked, he would answer straight away. He was cracking jokes, telling stories about things weâve done together and the places weâve been. I couldnât get a word in even if I wanted to. Although the Priest was smiling along, I could tell he couldnât wait for this meeting to be over. He almost looks relieved when Pam knocks on the office door.Â
âSo sorry to interrupt Father, the Parish council are on the phone. Something about tomorrowâs fundraiser.. shall I tell them to call back later?â
âNo noâ he says quickly, jumping up from his chair âitâs okay, weâre pretty much done here anyway.â He turns back to look at us âsorry for the abrupt ending butâŠâ
âOf course, we understandâ Daniel responds getting up from his chair, and I do the same.Â
âPam will show you outâ the Priest holds the door open for us and Daniel walks out behind Pam. I follow but stop at the door, face to face with the priest.Â
âAre you okay?â I ask quietly and he nods, not able to look me in the eye.Â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â He responds. I study him for a moment before he speaks again âbetter not keep those parish councillors waitingâ I catch his hint and leave the room, taking one last look back at the Priest as he shuts the door before I run to catch up with Daniel and Pam.Â
âWill we be seeing you at the fundraiser garden party tomorrow?â Pam asks as I join them at the door.
âIâm workingâ Daniel answers âbut Y/N couldâ
âIâd love to but Iâve got my hen party tomorrow-â I excuse
âYeah but thatâs in the evening. Youâre free all day right?â Dan argues
âuh⊠yeah I guess I amâ I agree, reluctantlyÂ
âGreat! The more the merrierâ Pam smiles âmake sure you bring plenty of cashâÂ
âWill do. See you tomorrowâ I say, giving her a small wave as Daniel and I head to the car.Â
Daniel chats constantly on the drive home but I don't listen to a word. Instead my thoughts are consumed by the priest and his dismissive attitude towards me. How in the space of 24 hours can he have gone from telling me he loves me, to now not being able to look at me?Â
Was it because Daniel was there? Did I do or say something wrong?
I guess Iâll have to wait till the fundraiser tomorrow to find out.Â
Part Five
#hot priest#hot priest x reader#Andrew Scott x reader#fleabag#Andrew scott#fleabag fanfic#fleabag imagine#Andrew Scott imagine#Andrew Scott fanfic#fleabag fic#fleabag hot priest#hot priest imagine#hot priest fanfic#Andrew Scott priest#fleabag x reader
191 notes
·
View notes